──LYING IS THE MOST FUN.

I wanted to explain myself to myself in an understandable way. Something’s not right about what I’m doing but I’m still doing it—living in the worst parts, ruining myself. My inner life is a sheet of black glass. If I fell through the floor I would keep falling. The enormity of my desire disgusts me.A L L A N A C L A R K E

[culpoedits]

[culpoedits]

[culpoedits]

[allclarke]

─── @kimicastillo​

“God damn.” The angel huffed as she stepped into the back room of Paradise and put her jacket down on the back chair. The night was over and she had just finished a smoke break behind the venue. But coming back in proved to be such a challenge when she walked in and one of her overly drunk regulars ended up getting a little too handsy with her. This wasn’t foreign for the dancer. People did it all the time. Luckily security was usually there to help out, but Allana was able to hold her own this time ( and most ). She ended up pushing them off her and even made a little scene for a few to see as she demanded he stops. She understood that she was there for entertainment but that didn’t mean people could just have their way with her. So now here she was, slightly aggravated, standing in the back in the club. “I swear, I always get some of the most annoying regulars. Watch, one of these days I’m gonna stuff pepper spray under my outfit and spray someone in the eyes the next time they try and touch me on off-hours.” Or ever. 

[allclarke]

─── kaison kalua. 

He nodded at her question, “Yeah, I mean, it’s way better seein’ you than someone from The Jesters.” Before Allana, Kai hadn’t been in love before. He wasn’t sure what love was even about until he met her. With her, he let his guard down. It was different but nice. “I don’t care, I can get a new one. Besides, you look hot with my lighter,” At her question, he ran his hand through his hair, “You know what satisfies me,” He said slyly, “You could make it up to me later, with a quickie.” How romantic. 

“Well, I would hope it’s better seeing me than... anyone, really.” The brunette cooed, giving off a playful and flirty smirk. “But don’t worry, the Jesters know better than to come up to you. You’re capable of taking all of them down. One of the reasons I love you so much.” Which she did love him. Maybe if he knew the truth he wouldn’t believe that, but Allana knew her feelings and she knew what was there. She loved him despite everything. “Do I? Well, maybe we should take it and go set something on fire since you’re such a fan of doing that?” She teased. “A quickie? Aren’t you the king of romance.”

[allclarke]

─── @owknox​

“Well aren’t you a sight for sore eyes.” The female purred as she stepped into the room and saw Owen working out across from her. No shirt on and sweat dripping down him? Now that was something she liked. Granted, she liked Owen in any situation she saw him in, that was the bad part. Especially considering she was tied to another man from a rivaling gang. “You think you can cool down a bit and spare a little time for me?” Truthfully, Allana just wanted to see him. Kai was off doing whatever and she had a little free time to give. “Granted, I don’t mind just watching either.” 

[allclarke]

─── kaison kalua. 

If it wasn’t obvious from his face, he was more than surprised to see Allana behind that hood. She looked a lot different with a hood on. Maybe it’s just because he couldn’t see her face, the height difference definitely contributed to that. “Shit, I really thought I was talkin’ to like,” He paused for a moment as he tried to think of the right word, “Not you.” He then gave her a genuine smile, something that was really only reserved for her, “That’s where that went.” Kai would give her whatever she wanted, she had that kind of effect on him. “Whatever you want, babe. If you want me to set somethin’ or someone on fire, I can do that.” If this was a cartoon he’d probably have literal heart eyes over his pupils right now. “But I’m thinkin’ something that’ll make us both happy.”

She had to fall into a whole other persona around Kai. Not to say that everything was fake because if she was being honest with herself, there were some real emotions tied in with him. But that didn’t change the fact that she was lying to a man who loved her and probably loved her more than any other than came before him. “Well then it’s just a pleasant surprise, right?” She cooed as she stepped up toward him and happily placed a small kiss on his lips. “Yeah, mine ran out. But good thing you see me all the time. I’ll get you a new one for using this though. Least I could do.” Of course, she knew it didn’t matter to him. Kai wasn’t like that—at least not with her. Not that she had seen. “Oh yeah? And what will that be? Hmm? I’m curious.”

[culpoedits]

[mickeyandmumbles]

[allclarke]

─── kai kalua. 

Kai smothered his cigarette with his boot. Was it almost eighty five degrees out? Yep. And was he still insisting on wearing boots? Hell yeah. He then took another cigarette out from his pocket and began to feel around in his pockets. It was as if he was doing the Macarena. He only chain smoked when he was concerned, which was almost all the time. “You got a lighter on you?” He asked the nearest person, “Mine must’ve jumped outta my pocket. I’m not gonna set anything on fire today. Just looking for a smoke break.” 

He hadn’t noticed it was her which honestly, she wasn’t surprised by. Her hood was up and she was looking down. The usual look after she had been leaving an encounter with Owen. She had to admit though, she wasn’t expecting to see Kai so soon after—but she played it off well the second she heard his voice. “Oh, but what if I want you to set something on fire?” The female cooed as she removed the hood from around her face and smirked up at the other. As she did so, she pulled out the lighter he was talking about from her own pocket, having taken it earlier that day. “What do I get in return, hmm?” She teased as she dangled the object in front of him. 

[kellymonaco-a]

[tylersashleys-blog]

that to me is strong writing for women (insp)

[culpoedits]

[xstrikeapose]

[sakura-haruka]

It’s good to see you

[allclarke]

                                 to the edge of the earth,              it's a brave new world from the last to the first

[lindsaylohans]

Georgia Rule (2007)