Nicole Allison

16|5'5 SW:180|CW:idk Fat, probably |GW1:150| GW2:120|UGW:100

[alli-nicole]

Hi, I saw you mention in a previous post hydroxycut and was wondering if/how it worked. Would I have to eat with it ? And would you recommend it.

I took the gummy version because I can’t swallow pills. I also tried the drink mix. It works as a appetite suppressant and I would say it does its job. I took 2 a day because of my age and it definitely helped me keep my appetite in control. There is nothing stating you have to eat with it. If you have the funds to afford it then it’s something worth looking into. Just be careful with your dosage, especially if you take the pill form. Stay safe and stay healthy💕

[alli-nicole]

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I’m debating on whether or not I want to go and tell a teacher or my guidance counselor that my suicidal thoughts are getting worse. I just moved to a new school and I don’t really trust anyone there yet. I’m stuck and I just want to get happy. It’s not like if I tell them I can get help, I don’t have insurance cause I moved states and my mom won’t switch it over because it’ll fuck up our food stamps. I’m a fucking piece of shit and don’t deserve to live.

[with-thinspo]

Please Reblog If

You are an Ana/Mia/Thinspo blog and are at least 2 of these…

👌🏽POC (where my POC with eating disorders at?)

🙆🏽‍♂️Male (where my boys with eating disorders at?)

👔Above the age of 14 (will not follow anyone younger)

🔪Have experience with self harm/suicidal thoughts (need to feel like I’m not alone)

🏳️‍🌈 Are part of the LGBTQIA+ community (where y’all at?)

👯‍♂️In need of an ana buddy (message me! I could always use a buddy :))

👨🏽‍🎓 A student (where my students at?)

I need more people to follow!

[alli-nicole]

How do you do it? Like how do you make yourself sick?

Purging is actually really bad and causes many long time health problems. Please don’t do it. It’s okay if you eat and it’s okay if you eat over your limit for the day. Please take care of yourself and stay safe💕

[alli-nicole]

I just moved and right now we are staying with a family friend while my mom and I can get settled and something amazing happened. My mom, family friend- S, and I were at the store and we were shopping. I got some water, tea, rice cakes for snacks to get my mom off my back, and some halo top ice cream. I was pushing the cart and my mom asked if I wanted anything else and I said no cause I have stuff at the house and S spoke up and was like, “ yeah, you don’t really eat a lot.” I almost started crying, for her to say that I was so happy. I haven’t been able to restrict like I want because my mom is always here and I’m not in school yet and that was literally the best thing ever. I start a new system next week and I now know that I can stick with it and pull through. I will get skinny. I will become beautiful.

[alli-nicole]

I can feel the tons of fat sitting on my body

[alli-nicole]

have you tried making a diet plan? you can make "bigger" meals for breakfast so you can burn it throughout the day and then something light or nothing for dinner or after practice. but make sure you aren't super against food around your mom that's when they start getting suspicious

Sorry for being so late I was taking a mental health break. That's actually a really good idea. My sports season is almost over and I'm going back to hard restricting but I'll keep this in mind. Plus I'm moving at the end of the month and my mom is starting a new job and I'll have my own room so she shouldn't really be in my business too much anymore. Stay safe💕

[alli-nicole]

hi :D

Hey

[alli-nicole]

Hi I'm glad I found someone with similar stats to mine and I hope your day is wonderful

Awww I'm sorry I'm so late replying to this. I took a break from Tumblr. Thanks so much and I hope you have a good day too. Stay safe💕

[alli-nicole]

I honestly just wish I could die. I'm not meant for life. I can't commit to Ana because of sports but I can't give her up cause I'm so fucking fat. There is no middle ground. I either want to eat nothing or I want to eat everything then hate myself for doing so. My relationship with food is so fucked up. I just hate being me and I'm tired of trying.

[alli-nicole]

July 19th, 2017

Calories total: 500cal My mom was being pushy with my eating today so I had a small meal(vegetarian mini tacos). It was at around 5/6pm so pretty late but I took my hydroxycut with the meal so hopefully I get a boost. I was gonna burn it off with swimming but just couldn't get the energy to do it which is no excuse cause I should have pushed myself. Just trying to do a little bit more each and everyday and pushing towards my goals. On a good note I went to the Wawa with my mom and housemates for a quick run and managed to avoid all craving and temptations for any kind of snack or junk food, all I got were 2 zero calorie Vitamin Waters!! Win for the day!

[nudesornaw]

if you’re having a bad day, here’s a cute little marching band

[angelic-upstarts]

this actually made me cry with joy also one of them is eating noodles

[readsquirrel]

It just keeps going and getting better. *^^*

[morebaffledlessbrooklyn]

I keep this post in my drafts for when it’s needed.  I think this week is what I’ve waited for.

[lost-in-faded-forests]

This has made me 400% happier

[alli-nicole]

July 18th,2017

I was supposed to have field hockey practice today so when I got home I made myself a small meal(Mini Tacos-600cal) but then practice got canceled and I literally almost cried cause I had eaten for nothing. So I packed my bag anyways with all my gear and walked the 1.5miles to the fields and spent a good 30 minutes there doing little workouts and drills. All in all I burned around 300cal so net total is 300 cal. Under 800 was the goal and I made that! Just taking it one day at a time

[alli-nicole]

July 17th,2017

Today's goal was 800 or less and I did it!!! I made vegetarian tacos and the meal totaled at 600cal. However I got scared and tried to purge. My mom is home so I couldn't spend to much time in the bathroom but I got a good amount back up. Not a bad day and had little to no cravings but could have done better. I will do better. I will get thin.

[alli-nicole]

July 16th,2017

I fucking hate myself so fucking much. I tried doing a liquid fast and I fucking failed. I ended up eating some watermelon blocks and I’m just a huge fucking failure…I mean I ended up purging but still. Binge and purge and binge and purge is all I do. I’m just a piece of trash with absolutely no self control.

[capitulouno]

[alli-nicole]

Green tea, all the way

[alli-nicole]

Why deal with your problems when you can drink them away?

The 15 year old alcoholic