i retraced our first date tonight
it look longer than last time
i guess i was dragging my feet
but eventually, i made it all the way downÂ
to the field where you kissed me for the first time
and i thought i would cry
but all i did was stand there and stareÂ
looking out at the whole thing
they’ve cut the grass since we’ve last been there
maybe that’s a good thing
people won't struggle to navigate through like we did
although, it made me sadÂ
seeing my first memories of you being cut down so easily, i mean
i don’t know how long i was there
i think i stayed because i hoped you’d find me
everytime a car approached, i’d listen for the slow down
everytime i heard a crunch, i’d look to see if it was you behind me
wanting to walk with me again
trust me when i say i knew it wouldn’t happen
but the thought was comforting for a moment
and when i trucked my somehow heavier than before body back up the sidewalk
i whispered up to the sky,
asking for you to come back
and prove to me that you’re as worthy as i thought you were
because i really hate walking alone