Changes Chapter 26: Stability
“Imma find her I’ll rip up every city to bring her home” I said and she nodded. I wiped her eyes before holding her the way she liked. Her breathing was still uneven “Liyah you gotta breathe” I said.
“Trey I-” she started trying to get it together.
“Babe just breathe, it’s okay we’ll fix this” I said before kissing her hair. “Just go to sleep baby girl I’ll take care of everything” I added.
“Trey I can’t sleep…” she said not looking me in the eye.
“I just need you to relax” I rubbed her back. I know there’s nothing I could say to her to ease the situation. Me telling her to calm down over and over again wasn’t gonna help. “Come on let’s get some air aight” I said to her. We both got out of bed and headed to the patio. I let her go out in front of me before following her closing the door behind me. She went over to the balcony and leaned up on it as I looked at her. I tried to figure out whats going through her head.
I really fucked up this time.
Does she want anything to do with me?
Am I worth all the trouble I put her through?
Maybe it’s best if we split….
“Liyah?” I said breaking the silence. She looked back at me as I came to stand next to her.
“I’m not the right man for you… Everybody was right I’m bad news” I mumbled.
“Trey, what are you talking about ?” She looked at me with a confused expression.
“I’m not right for you the shit I’ve put you through ain’t fair to you. I don’t fucking deserve you Liyah, maybe we just need….we need to get a divorce…” I said.
“Trey… where is all this coming from?” She asked moving closer to me. I put my head down not believing any of the shit that was coming out my fucking mouth.
“Baby look at me” she pleaded. I ignored her. I wasn’t sure how to deal with all this. “Look at me baby please” she repeated as her voice cracked. I put my head my back up and looked in the opposite direction taking a deep breathe before finally looking at her.
“Ive told you this a million times. What do I have to do to show you that you deserve me? We’ve gone through hell but that has never changed how much I love you. I don’t want a divorce Trey… Is that what you want?” she asked on the urge of crying again.
“Then why are you talking about getting a divorce?” She asked slightly raising her voice. I didn’t respond right away because I don’t know what to say.
“Cause I don’t know what to do Liyah, I’m scared aight?” I admitted. She pulled me closer to her holding my body. I’m living my biggest fear right now and i don’t know to handle it. She lied her head on my chest before speaking. “It’s okay to be scared, I’m scarred too. I’m terrified” she said to me. I wrapped my arms around her as she sniffed. “But I can’t imagine my life without you. I don’t wanna live without you” She said to me.
“I don’t wanna live without you either” I said against her hair.
“I know understand what you felt two years ago… Losing a piece of yourself and scrambling every where just to find it. I just want my baby home” she said before sniffing.
“We’re gonna find her but you right us crumbling isn’t gonna help” I said to her.
“I know” she mumbled. I took the pack of weed out my pocket that I got from DC and rolled the blunt before lightening it. I let the smoke fill my lungs before releasing the rest into the night air. She took the blunt out my hand which shocked me. Liyah took a hit herself and took like a champ which also surprised me. She handed it back to me and I took another hit. “Let me find out you did this before?” I said before we both started laughing.
“No I just needed to relax” She said.
“I feel you but there’s something I always wanted to do though come her right quick” she stepped closer and I took another hit before lifting up her chin. I gently blew the smoke into her mouth taking the hit before blowing it to the sky.
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Her eyes were red as we lied in the hotel bed the room. I played with the loose pieces of hair that lied on the pillow beside her. We haven’t spoken a word to each other. It’s not that we’re mad with each other, I couldn’t find the words to say. I’m assuming she couldn’t either, The room had slowed down as Liyah put her leg across my waist. I rubbed her bare skin with my free hand. I crave her and I could tell she wanted the same thing… She looked over at me before chuckling making me laugh breaking the silence. She’s as giddy as a school kid since this her first time getting high.
“What’s so funny?” I asked.
“Nothing” She said laughing.
“Tell me” I said looking at her. She turned to face me before speaking again.
“I can show you better than I can tell you” she said her voice coming out a little raspy. I gently pulled her on top of me. I kissed her lips gently. I embraced the smell of weed with of her faint perfume. Aaliyah, always smells like vanilla which is one of the many things I love about her. She broke the kiss to give me a peck. She then kissed my cheek down to my neck. Her soft skin is turning me on, I ran my hands down her back unstrapping her bra strap from under shirt. She pulled it over her head throwing the shirt one way and the bra the other. Aaliyah, then sat up lifting up the bottom of my shirt taking it off. She ran her hands down my chest these tiny touches were driving me crazy. It’s like she knew how to touch me her touch is so gentle but there was so much meaning behind it. I know this isn’t the best time to be doing this, but we both needed this stress release.
She kissed me again staring from my lips to my neck down to my chest. I put my head back in the pillow as she took my dick out my pants. I helped her take them off throwing them on the floor. I ripped her thong off making her laugh. “You keep doing that I’m running out” she said.
“I’ll buy you some more” I said with a smirk.
She didn’t say anything else as she put my hard member in her mouth. Licking my shaft up and down slowly with the tip of her tongue. She twists her tongue on my tip making groan putting my head back.
“Ah shit” I said gripping her hair. She moaned as she put all of home in her mouth. She deep throated me making me moan unexpectedly. She just full of surprises tonight. “Fuck”
She then took my member out her mouth leaving a trail of kissing up and down on my shaft. I bit my lip watching her put the work on me. I tapped her to make her stop and she looked at me confused. I ain’t busting this quick. I motioned her to come to me she did as I commanded kissing my lips again. She straddled my lap as I moved my member to graze her hole as she released a small moan. I broke the kiss to then kiss her neck down to her sensitive nipple. High sex was the best sex since everything is sensitive. The slightest touch of her body made her go crazy. I gently bit on her hard nipple making her head go back in pleasure “Ooo” she moaned out before nibbling at her lip. I gripped her ass as she lifted herself for me to enter her wet center. We both moaned at our connection. It’s been a minute since the last time we touched intimately.
She worked her hips on me slowly and I kept my grip on her ass. Her hands now on my shoulder her thrusting herself onto me making us both moan. I bit my lip as I watched her breast move. I shifted one hand from her ass to massage her breast as she picked up her speed on my dick. “Fuck” I cursed as she bounced up and down on it. I could feel she was already getting close to her climax. “God I missed you” she moaned out in pleasure as she rode out her orgasm. Her juices covered my member.
“Damn” I said looking down at the mess she made. “I missed you more” I said smirking before I flipped us over putting one leg around me and the other on my shoulder re-entering her.
“Fuck Liyah you tight as shit” I groaned keeping my strokes a steady pace. I rotated my hips to reach her back-walls making her moan loudly as her back arched. Smiling at the sight I picked up the pace as I used my free hand to circle her clit. “Oh shit….Baby right there!” I kept going picking up the pace in her as she tried push my hand off as her moans turned into screams of pleasure.
I put her other leg around me waist as I went down to kiss her lips as I pounded in and out of her. I didn’t want to go hard with her. I want her feel every inch of me. I left kisses up and down her jaw line before gently biting her ear. I felt her hands rubbing my back as I stroked her core. I left love marks all on her neck letting niggas know shes mine. I came face to face with her before kissing her lips again. “Open your eyes baby” I said. She tried her hardest to look at me in the eyes but the pleasure for took over her body. I love watching her sex faces. I picked up the pace making her moans grew louder as her nails dug in my back. I felt that she was close as her walls tightened around me . “Cum for me baby girl” I said huskily in her ear as her orgasm ripped through her. “Tremaaainnne” she moaned as her grip on me got tight as she released her juices. Feeling my self right behind her I gave her a few more good strokes before cumming deep inside of her. I groaned in her as I emptied my whole load in her before kissing her lips. I looked her in the eyes as we both tried to catch our breath. She giggled before speaking.
“Why didn’t you tell me sex felt like that high?” She asked.
“You never asked, I love you so much” I said before kissing her again.
“I love you more” she said playing with my facial hair.
After our session we didn’t say a word once the high came down. I wasn’t mad with her or vice versa- we just didn’t know what to say. We were both up for a while before Aaliyah had fallen asleep on my chest. I couldn’t get myself to fall asleep. As she sleeps her grip on me is tight. I don’t blame her for holding onto me. I wasn’t sure if I was gonna see her again. I can’t lie I’m stressed my damn self. I don’t know where my daughter is and whoever the person is that took her is gonna pay. I’ll torture the fuck out of that nigga— pull his teeth out one by one, peel the skin off his measly body. I want him dead and I want him dead NOW….I haven’t heard anything in hours and I’m not sure what I wanna do. I’m halfway across the world. I’ve never felt so fuckin helpless in my life. I slowly got out of Liyah’s grip and headed to the bathroom to relieve myself. I washed my hands before looking myself in the mirror. I clenched my jaw feeling my anger boil. The more I think about this shit the more it pisses me off.
I splashed water on my face to calm myself down. There’s nothing I can fuckin do right now… Nothing.
I gripped the side of the sink as I gritted my teeth.
I let go of the sink feeling my hands at the urge of bleeding. Hearing a knock on the door, I exited the bathroom briefly looking over at Liyah as she shifted in her sleep. I grabbed my boxers from off the floor before slipping them on. I headed over to open the door seeing DC “What you got?” I asked and he cleared his throat.
“There’s there’s this guy that’s been keeping tabs on you guys he’s from Queens, New York he might know who took Mia” DC said scratching the back of his head.
“You better pray this nigga know something you understand” I said to him and he nodded not wanting to look me in the eye. “Where is he?” I asked.
“He’s in Brooklyn we can fly out now or later it’s up to you” he said to me.
“Got you” he said before leaving. I got Liyahs stuff together before waking her up. I got onto the bed hovering over her “Babe, wake up” I said leaving kisses on her neck and cheek. She opened her eyes and I looked at her “We gotta go” I said to her moving out of her way so she can sit up covering her naked body.
“Where are we going?” She asked in a sleepy tone.
“New York, there’s a man that knows who might’ve took Mia” I said to her and she nodded. “Okay” she said still trying to wake up. I looked at her features just to take a moment from this nightmare we’re both in. She looked at me catching my stare smiling faintly— no matter how hard shit is she always manages to smile. “You’re beautiful without even trying” I said to her placing a piece of her hair behind her ear.
“I’m not feelin too beautiful right now"she said looking at me.
"I wish you could see what I see” I said with a smile causing her to smile.
“You always know the right things to say and make me feel okay even when I’m not” she said as her eyes moved down to some on the floor twisting her ring on her finger. I knew she felt guilty about everything.
“Aaliyah” I said catching her attention. “It’s not your fault none of this is your fault understand?” I said to her and she nodded.
“I want Mia home too, if this person even breathes on her I’m cutting their tongue off” I said and Aaliyah looked at me.
“No, Trey you’re not killing anybody” she said.
“They’re gonna pay this ain’t drug money Liyah this is our daughter. I can’t let that slide. I know I said i wasn’t gonna kill anymore but two niggas already took two kids from me. I’ll be damned if i let them take Mia and get away wit it” I said to her. Aaliyah didn’t respond all she did was nod and I stood up heading to the bathroom to freshen up. She picked out what she was gonna wear before heading into the bathroom to do her hygiene routine. She quickly fixed her hair and makeup. Liyah then put her hoodie and shoes on. I grabbed her stuff and we headed out to the car.
I held the door open for her.
We headed to our baby appointment to see how the baby is and everything. Aaliyah has been quiet for most of the ride and it was starting to worry me. “Why you so quiet baby girl?” I asked.
“Nothing I’m just nervous” she said.
“Why, we bout to go check on our lil person?” I said grinning.
“I know but you know me my nerves are just bad” she said sitting back in the chair before looking down at her belly bump.
“Stop worrying so much beautiful” I replied. It wasn’t long before we got to the doctors office. “Trey what if i can’t keep this baby? What if somethings wrong-” she started before I cut her off.
“Stop thinking like that everything is gonna be fine. Our baby is perfect and he or she hasn’t made an entrance yet. I’m walking wit you the whole way okay?” I said before she nodded. I kissed her cheek giving her reassurance that it would be all good. I know she’s scared especially after her first pregnancy, but I know for a fact that this baby is gonna be our entire world.
I got out the car heading over to her side to help her exit the car. “Trey I’m pregnant not handicapped honey” she said chuckling.
“I know but you can never be too careful” I said as we headed inside. We found the section of the building we were supposed to be in. She signed herself in and we waited in the waiting room for us to be called. I looked at all the baby and health magazines. How much of this shit could you possibly need? I shook my head and Liyah read one of them. She put it down and looking at me “Why you looking like that?” She asked before chuckling.
“Lookin like what ?” I asked confused.
“You over there looking like someone stole something from you” she said.
“These magazines make people paranoid I ont like that I guess” I admitted before she caressed my face.
“It’s helps women that are new moms who don’t know what to expect” she said and I took her hand off my face to kiss it.
“Neverson” the nurse called and we both stood up and we followed her to the back. “How are you guys feeling today?” She asked as she put the equipment on Aaliyah’s arm to check her blood pressure.
“Good just the usual morning sickness but overall counting the days until we meet our little gift” Aaliyah said with a smile.
“I’m glad to hear and how’s daddy adjusting?” She asked.
“I’m cool just excited to meet him” I said winking at Liyah.
“It’s a girl” she argued.
“Nah it’s a boy” I said before we all laughed.
“I love seeing couples trying to guess the gender of their baby. Mrs. Neverson you are at normal level 112/70 which is great. I’m assuming yesterday marked the five month mark so did you guys want to find out the gender today or hold off?” She asked us and I looked over st Liyah.
“It’s up to you wifey” I said shifting in the seat.
“Today is fine we can get started on names” Liyah said with a smile.
“Great I’ll tell the doctor and she’ll be right in with you two alright?” She said before walking out.
“If its a boy what are we going with?” She asked.
“I ont know a junior is cool with me or even him just having my middle name Aldon Tremaine Neverson” I said with a grin making her laugh.
“Okay, I have no oppositions for that IF it’s a boy” she said making me laugh.
“I like Mia” she said looking before looking down at her baby bump.
“It’s simple and no one will butcher her name” she said and I nodded.
“Aight Mia, that’s IF it’s a girl” I said mimicking her.
“Oh you think you funny?” She asked before laughing.
“I’m hilarious” we both laughed before a knock on the door caught our attention as the doctor walked in.
“Hello, how are you guys today?” The doctor.
“We good doc how you feel?” I said to her.
“That’s good good we’re gear to check the heart beat and find out the gender correct?” She asked.
“Yes” Aaliyah said with a smile.
“Alright alright can you lay back for me and lift your shirt for me”
She said. Aaliyah did as did as she asked before the doctor spoke. “Have you been in any pain? Any bleeding?” She asked.
“No” Aaliyah stated as she placed the jelly on her stomach.
“Alright let’s take a look here” she said placing the instrument on her as we looked at the screen. It didn’t take long to find our baby. A big smile went across my face seeing it before hearing the heart beat.
“Alright, from the looks of it the baby is developing correctly” she stated. “No deformities, has all fingers and toes. Now let’s see if you’re a girl or boy” she said as moved the instrument.
“And its a girl congratulations” she said to us .
“I told you it was a girl” Liyah said before sticking her tongue out at me.
I sucked my teeth then looked at the screen. “I can’t wait to meet you baby girl” I said with a smile.
Jason was chasing Justin around the hotel room before catching him making him laugh. I smiled at the sight of my boys. Justin ran up to me with a smile. “Mel I think it’s time we tell him” Jason said to me. I placed Justin on my lap and since everything has been going on. I haven’t been able to tell Justin that he’s gonna be a big brother. “Yup I think it is about that time” I said before kissing his face.
“Tell me what?” Justin asked with his small voice.
“How would you like to be a big brother?” I asked him and he looked at me.
“I get a brother?” He said with a wide smile.
“Maybe or a little sister we don’t know yet” I said.
“He called it it’s a boy” Jason said with a grin.
“Nope we don’t know that yet. I still want at least one girl” I said.
“Hey lil man, I think grandma wants someone to play with. Go hang with her I gotta talk to mommy okay?” He said and I carefully placed Justin off my lap before he ran off in the other room. Jason sat next to me before putting his arm around me.
“I’m sending you guys to Miami my uncle has a little town house for you guys to stay in until everything is straightened out” he said causing me to nod.
“You finally get to meet someone very close to me” he said.
“Your Uncle Clarence right? I haven’t seen him in forever. What about your mom?” I asked.
“My mom I’m sending with you guys so she can start her treatments again”
“Okay baby just be careful alright” I said looking at him.
“Don’t talk like that” I said cutting him off. He pulled me close to him and kissed my cheek. A knock on the door took me out of my thoughts. “You order anything ?” Jason asked.
“No"i said before i went towards the door I then looked through the peephole seeing Claire. I rolled my eyes. Lord please don’t make me have to drag her today. I open the door and lean against the door way. "Hi” I said plainly.
“Hi is Carlos here?” She asked me and I sighed.
“Look I don’t like you and you don’t like me but I haven’t heard from him in a few hours and he’s not answering his phone” she explained.
“You sure he’s not in a meeting at work” I said brushing it off.
“I called he didn’t show up” she said making me frown.
“That’s not like him” I said growing concerned.
“Yeah I know that’s why I came here” she said folding her arms.
“I haven’t heard from him in a couple days. If I hear something I’ll let you know” I said before she nodded and left.
“Um yeah that was Claire” I said.
“What she want?” He asked with a raised eyebrow.
“She’s looking for my father” I said folding my arms as he stepped closer to me.
“What’s wrong you look you got something on your mind?” He said coming closer to me.
“I don’t know I’m not sure how to feel right now. I guess” I admitted.
“I feel you you know I’m here for you so if you wanna talk about it we can” he said to me.
“I know J I just don’t want to right now” I said and he held me rubbing my head.
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Aaliyah
The entire flight was quiet. I looked around and everyone had an uncertain look on their face. I adjusted myself in my seat trying to figure out everything. Mia is surrounded by a bunch of people she doesn’t know. She can’t defend herself, she’s probably scared and I can’t do anything about it.
I know told me we were on our way to someone who knows something, but you want instant gratification the slightest bit of progress doesn’t feel like enough. Who takes a three month old out of their bed? I don’t get it. I felt Trey put his hand on my leg to stop it from shaking.
“I can’t” I replied. “Can i ask you something?” I said looking at him.
“How did you feel…. the first time you killed someone?” I asked before biting my lip nervously.
“I was nervous I didn’t understand how taking a life could have an impact on me you know. The more I did it the more I loss feeling and consciousness about it” he said before looking at me.
“Do you ever wanna stop?”
“All the time, sometimes I don’t even remember doing it. I can’t help it sometimes I just become consumed” he said to me before I held his hand.
“You don’t have to do that anymore” I said
“I know I just can’t control it” he admitted.
“I’m gonna help you but you have to let me” I said and he rubbed his hand on leg.
“You help me in more ways than you realize” he said and I laid my head on his shoulder.
“But you have to be honest with me no matter how angry you think I might be” I said and he embraced me.
“I know Li imma be better I just don’t wanna lose you again” he said.
“You trying is all I ask” I said running my hand down his chest.
“Guys, we’ll be landing soon” DC said to us and Trey just nodded.
We landed and wound up at a hotel and my phone rang and I saw it was my manager Angie. “Hello?” I answered.
“Aaliyah, where have you been I’ve been trying to get in contact with you for the past few days?!” She yelled.
“I just been busy sorry” I said to get not wanting to mention the hell Im going through.
“Well while you were in Lala land did you forget about your interview with CBS?” She said reminding me as I mentally slapped myself.
“Uh no of course not I’m in New York now actually” I said as I looked at Trey. A look of concern grew on his face.
“Whats wrong?” He mouthed to me and I shook my head.
“Good you need to get there in a hour the stylist and everyone is waiting for you okay?” She said.
“Yeah I’ll be there” I said before we hung up. I’m in no mental position to do an interview.
“I have an interview with CBS” I mentioned.
“Yes” I said sitting on the bed.
“Okay, just save face until we get this shit under control” he said.
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