I’ve noticed this blog has now evolved to be exclusive for my likes in entertainment/art. I will no longer post my current feelings here, that will be done in a separate way where only I am able to know they are there.
My writings in here will all be archived eventually and only those close to me will have access to how I feel and think as I am growing in an internal way and I take care of my inner world better.
This does not mean I am closing myself up, it means that I rarely feel anything worth writing regarding my own feelings and what I write is about any mental breakdown/dreams/conscious states I experience, what I understand life to be, or if I don’t understand something about it.
I am slowly separating the physical world from me, detaching from ego but still allowing myself to be human at the same time, that’s why I still refer to myself as an “I” even though I understand the sense of self is an illusion.
When I die I will most likely not transition into the dream-like dimension I recently had the pleasure of briefly exploring (though I still don’t fully understand it) in my meditation/dream, but beyond it, though I will most likely reincarnate due to mistakes done in this life.
This is about my own internal growth as a person and I don’t compare myself to anyone else. People who truly understand this post will understand me though that is no longer a necessity in my life, as it used to be a sort of trauma I carried since childhood.
This does not mean I will abstain myself from writing things here, they will just not be about my feelings in present time like I used to write them before. It will probably be a form of art I’ll choose to make others feel understood in their journey. Whoever relates to my posts and/or feels some sort of soothing feeling from it, that was the sole purpose.
Keep in mind I will post/repost about Thai GL (LingOrm) and Kpop (dreamcatcher) as well, any form of art and representation I think it’s beautiful will be in this blog.
This feels like a change of owner but it’s not, I’ve just been a therapist for myself and I’ve changed a bit, not as dramatic as the last time I’ve changed (I was a completely different person back then).
I might write fiction at some point to entertain myself and whoever reads me (I’ve never written fiction before but I like reading) perhaps a slow-burn that never ends because when I get to the kiss part I lose interest completely, or something with zero romance in it and a little bit of violence. Perhaps a mix of both, who knows? I don’t know what my future self wrote and which version of my future self I’ll be.
If you got to this paragraph I appreciate your attention. I promise I’m not a robot nor wrote this with AI (you’ll probably find grammatical mistakes because English isn’t my mother tongue).
-Lex🤘🏻
