my journey

just a 18 year old who is trying to get her shit together

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04-09-18

Every now and then life gets a little more tough. This past week i’ve been traveling a lot because it was my spring break but mainly because i needed to get away from my family. I am nineteen years old and still live with mom. She is great but sometimes an over baring mom and while being being away from all the orders and overprotectedness i made up my mind about switching majors. Now i just have to find a way to tell her. I know she's going to be uneasy and not want me too but it something that i feel like i will really benifit from. From the beginning of the semester I have loved chemistry so much ore than biology now yes i still love biology but my love for chemistry can't be compared. I was doing a little soul searching and spending times with my friends. Im planning on getting a job this summer one that isn't too busy but something so i can earn some cash because IM BROKE AND IT IS NOT A JOKE. And now about the whole weight loss thing. I suck at doing that. I had a boyfriend that was a trainer so i got good for that bit but then he broke up with me and he's still working out with me but still i need to get my butt (and rest of my body) back in shape. Summer is approbating and obviously i won't look good this summer but i have a goal that i need to achieve by june then for the whole summer. mY goal i hope to real by august is -50 pounds it would just be a start though. IM thinking after that i kinda have a “break”. and by break i mean still working out 5-6 days a week and still eating healthy but not going hardcore with protein shakes but i want to find my perfect not on a diet eating plan. One of my biggest dreams have always been to start a youtube channel and this year i think im going to try to accomplish it. I don't wanna make money from it id just like to make friends from it. But I have just been putting it off because of my weight. Back to the weight loss.... I was planning on taking about 2 months off to let my body chill after the two months ill start drinking the protein shakes again. My goal weight is 150. Ive been there before and know i can get there again.

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The Start if the Semester (side note)

Side note I’ve gone to a doctor because their were thoughts that I may have thyroid problems and they’re common in my family so I wanted to make sure that I was healthy. They told me that they do see some things that may be harmful but they’re not harmful yet. They are going to wait and I’m going back in a few months to have a check-up. While I was there my doctor talked to me for approximately an hour and half or longer and we resolved some things and I became enlightened in aspects of my life that seriously needed to be changed. While I was there we talked about my weight and how it was a problem and how I’ve tried many diets and how all of them didn't work besides one. She asked me about the diet and wanted too know what I ate and things like that. I told her that it was protein based and I drank meal replacement drinks and ate vegetables and meat only basically. She told me something I didn’t want to hear. That I would have to change my eating habit forever to that which is so different, I’m from he south so we eat some really good but very unhealthy food,   I would have to make a lifestyle change not just get on a diet. So thing is going to be interesting she told me that it would be almost impossible if i didn't eat any thing bad. So what she told me to do was to watch my carbohydrates and of course sugars. She told me the maximum about of carbohydrates I needed to intake in a day was 60, which now that I’ve been looking at labels is very hard to do, and keep the sugars down extremely low. She told me that I could have a few, about 10, chocolate morsels a week and have one bad snack a week as well. Since this is a lifestyle change it would be impossible to never eat anything bad ever again. They also told me to try to fast from around 7pm to like 7am I’m pretty sure they said how it should be 12 hours but maybe they didn't. They told me that in studies it has helped people lose weight.

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The Start of the Semester (ramble)

When you start a new chapter you change some things. You take into consideration what worked for you last year and what didn't work for you as well. I’m changing ways I study (in the way i actually study and do my work in a timely matter) and when things come up from the past its like well I want that again because its something I know and don't have to think about and thats what I like about it. Like an ex for example he started talking to me again and my first thought is there is a reason it never works for us I don't need to go back to him. But what do I do? Go back to him. I’m stupid i know but its hard. I am really going to try to shut him out but he is sort of the reason I want to get a better bod because i can be like see this is what you’re missing and yes i know you're only supposed to do it for yourself but sometimes its better to think of it this way. He has messed me up how I think. I think that he is too good for me but when I really think about it he doesn't embody many of the things I want in a guy. I want to feel secure, stable, and loved are just a few. He is honestly just using me for one thing and thats not something I like but how he keeps me is he pretends and says he really cares about me, which yes might be true but like really???? So basically what i’m trying to say is that I’ve started the weight loss journey.

GETTING TO THE POINT:

So getting to the point is that i’m started on the journey of weight loss. I started this two days ago. I really like the rigorousness of the elliptical. For me, someone who hasn't actually worked out in over a year, its very difficult. But its nice. This year I wanna get my revenge body. I’m going to get it no matter what. I have many goals and I have indeed started trying to do them. Some of them are very simple things. But with the whole weight loss thing I’ve split it up because when you see that you have so much to do you just don't even try, or at last thats how it is for me. So my first goal is to lose 50 pounds.

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Changes Need to Start Happening

As tomorrow is my last day of class for my freshmen year of college the freshmen 15 I would say is true. But I find that I was already on a down slope before college. So it’s not the fact that you went to college it’s the fact that no you don’t dance 6 days a week anymore. Or you don’t have to actually look presentable every day of the week.

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The Dreaded Gym

Some people (like me) get afraid of going to the gym. With all the people, machines, and the actual exercising it can be intemidating. I would also put off going because i didn't really know what i should do or if i was going to be doing enough reps of what. So I decided to switch memberships from Planet Fitness to one of my cities local gym. The reason I wanted to switch is that my local gym had actual classes kinda like Anytime Fitness except with more classes. Below are the ones they offer that I found appealing. If you find it in yourself that you are interested in one of the following below check and see if they have something similar in your town most likely they will!! Below are pretty basic types of classes you can take to tone, increase flexibility, and just have a good workout; also there is a slight definition of what your should expect.

ZUMBA: A  Latin-inspired, dance-fitness class that incorporates Latin and International  music and dance movements. The cardio-based dance movements are easy to  follow steps that target areas such as the glutes, legs, arms, core, and most  importantly THE HEART! It’s fun! It’s different! It’s effective!

LESMILLS COMBAT: Combines  moves and stances developed from a range of self-defense disciplines such as  karate, boxing, Tai Chi, and kickboxing. It is a fiercely energetic  experience taught in a safe and simplistic manner. Designed to fight fat and  kick calories, it is an extreme cardiovascular workout that’s all out fun.

BODYPUMP: A  rapid fat-burning class that uses barbells to give you the fastest way to  tone and condition muscles! After an exhaustive study, bodypump was verified  by the University of Auckland as providing the fastest body fat loss of any  fitness class.

AERIAL  YOGA: A  combination of traditional Yoga poses and postures practiced using soft silk  fabrics suspended at waist height.

CARDIO/COMBO: Low  impact aerobics for those who want a slower pace with less intensity. A good  1 hour class for beginners or intermediate participants.

POWERPUNCH: This  class is now called "CARDIO CRUNCH" A cardio class with lots of  multi-muscle movement exercises with weights.. Build muscle and strength.  This is a 50 minute class that meets at noon twice a week.

YIN YOGA: A slow-paced style of Yoga with poses that are held for longer periods of time-five minutes or longer per pose is typical. Applying moderate stress to the connective tissues-the tendons, fascia and ligaments-with the aim of increasing circulation in the joints and improving flexibility.

BOOTYBARRE: An  energetic, fun workout using the perfect combination of strength and  flexibility utilizing a ballet barre with intervals of fat burning cardio  techniques from dance, pilates and yoga that will tone, define and chisel the  whole body. Great for ALL fitness levels!

YOGA  SWEAT: This  Yoga Class is done with the temperature being at least 90 degrees. During  this class you will practice Yoga poses and breathing exercises designed to  detoxify the body. Come prepared to SWEAT!!

POWER  PILATES: A  new addition to our group fitness schedule, this class is designed to give  you all the same benefits of Pilates I at a more intense level.

101 YOGA: Lift  up, tone and tighten your glutes with YogaFit’s effective work-out!  Incorporating the use of the Yoga ball to many in-depth poses improves your  posture and revs your energy level and metabolism.

YOGAFIT: A  nationally recognized program that combines elements of hatha yoga with  traditional fitness exercises and stretching. It is specifically designed for  the mainstream fitness industry. It integrates mind and body for total  performance, and optimal health. YogaFit features both strength and  conditioning components, and it is appropriate for all fitness levels.

GENTLE  YOGA: A  yoga class for beginners or for those needing a less intense yoga class. It  combines strength, endurance and flexibility movements while also integrating  mind and body for health.

PILATIES:A  system of exercises using special apparatus, designed to improve physical  strength, flexibility, and posture, and enhance mental awareness. 

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Making yourself feel better

That moment when you just don’t have any confidence at all. All you want is a little bit of something. Recently I went to a baby’s first birthday and seeing my best friend’s sister’s family was inspirational. It showed me what one day I could have. But I got to thinking. I need to improve myself. I need to be my best self, possible. That being said I thought of all the things I need to change or start doing. Eating healthier, strict diet, work out daily, take care of my skin, and take care of the inside of me just as well as the outer parts. Eating healthier to me is just eating clean foods, cutting out ALL processed food, for example you need to know in your head exactly what you’re eating like you can hold in your hand broccoli, you might not be able to hold everything in your hand but you need to know exactly what it looks like don’t put tons of sugar in it. A strict diet to me consist of sticking to what your goals are in getting a better bod or healthier self, if you can only have a cup of fruits don’t have a cup and a half, because once you start telling yourself that its ok it makes you more open and even though its only half a cup more you still are cheating because its more than your diet instructed you to put.

Working out daily is pretty simple in thought, all you need to do is just work out once a day every day (except for one day a week, maybe two just depends) for at 2 hours, consisting of lots of cardio, cardio helps you lose all the fat, but also a good bit of lifting because that’s how your tone yourself. Taking care of my skin is quick and fast but something I skip a lot, all I do in the shower is use my cleanser and cleanse my skin so I get all the gross stuff off, once I get out of the shower I like to put an oil on my skin I wait until right before I got to bed to put moisturizer on my skin, when talking about my skin I mean face, neck, and I bring it down to my shoulders and upper chest, I also need to start putting lotion on my feet, elbows, and hands. Taking care of the inner me is like making sure I don’t get sick, I need to go to the gyno, and just doctor’s visits.

Ways I have tried losing weight before that worked incredibly well is IDEAL PROTEIN it is amazing though I had a tough time keeping the weight off after I got done. What I eat there consist of: {Breakfast: chocolate drink mix/ Lunch: rotisserie chicken and vegetables/ a nut package/ Snack: brownie/ Dinner: more chicken and vegetables}. Usual when I did that I would lose 5 pounds per week. My overall goal weight would be 150. My first goal would be 200. My second goal would be 175. My third goal would be 150. If I were on the diet the amount of time it would take would be let’s just say depending how I would do it: 16 weeks= 80pds, 19 weeks=95pds. If I were to do 16 weeks, I would weigh 165 I would move on to the second portion of my plan. If I were to do 19 weeks, I would weigh 150 which is my goal. Afterwards I would have to move onto my second part of the plan still even though I have lost all my weight because the hardest part isn’t losing all the weight it is keeping it off.