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I wish I could contemplate suicide. I wish I hadn't spent years beating it into my head that I couldn't kill myself, that I had to stay alive.

I wish I could kill myself. But the thought becomes unbearable when it's more than a passing thought. My brain shuts down, screams "We can't do that" on repeat.

I wish ending things was an option. I wish my phone lighting up wasn't annoying, I wish therapy was working already, I wish I had someone to talk to that I wasn't annoying, that I wasn't being too needy towards.

I wish this was over. To just not have to worry. I wish this was easier. I wish this year wasn't so hard. I wish I was stronger. I wish I was strong enough to die.

I'm sorry

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I know it's been a while, but for once you'll see. That my head and my heart finally agree

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euo

How has nobody settled for me yet I’m a solid 3

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i’m going to be okay. i’m going to make it. i’m going to live in a clean little home with someone i love and a big fern plant. i’m gonna have a cat and make cookies at midnight. i’m going to thrive and have wonderful experiences that make me smile until i ache. i’m going to be okay, it’s all going to be okay.