Always Here To Listen

This blog is for me to try share a little positivity with the world. I struggle with some negative thoughts and emotions and I want to help other people who also deal with that on a daily basis by trying to share a little positivity. ~any pronouns are fine~

[maa-iingan]

Update:

They think I have late stage Addison’s disease.

I have more testing I have to do.

I’m without words. This is terrifying.

I can’t even let myself grieve or relax because I don’t even have enough money to be diagnosed properly OR treated.

So please, please. If you have anything to spare.. I need it now more than ever ..

I appreciate any and ALL HELP!!!

If you’d like to immediately help me my PayPal is

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

I don’t want to die because I can’t afford to get treatment. I’ve come this far.. I’m desperate. I need my community now more than ever. Please don’t let me be forgotten

BOOST THIS

[maa-iingan]

https://www.gofundme.com/f/1s9mcl6neo?utm_medium=copy_link&utm_source=customer&utm_campaign=p_na+share-sheet&rcid=40da252734534337a34905a6ced9b9f5

Click here to support Medical emergency, in desperate need of treatment! organized by Kailey Babcock

Kailey Babcock Medical emergency, in desperate need of treatment! Hello, my name is Yves, I’m a young, trans individual who recently moved t

Here’s my GoFundMe to help with everything, I can’t reach the funds fully til I reach my goal or I end it. I’m only at 10% of what I need. SO PLEASE SHARE IT EVERYWHERE!! COPY THE LINK AND SHARE IT TO YOUR FB, TWITTER, IG, everywhere!! It’ll help me tremendously, and it’s the perfect way to help me if you cannot donate anything. It’d be helping survive, thank you

[maa-iingan]

IM RUNNING OUT OF TIME!! , please help in any way that you can. If you’re unable/ not in a place to be able to donate then PLEASE boost, or repost my story!! That helps me just as much !!! and I don’t have much time left to wait and hope for help.

if you’d like to immediately help me with medical funds/survival funds you can donate here:

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

[starstruck-dandelion]

I’m dying too but hey help this person. Good luck whoever you are. Sorry I have a small blog so I’m not helping much.

[maa-iingan]

I love you, I’m sending you all the positive energy, thank you for your time. I appreciate you ♥️

[maa-iingan]

This is what it’s doing to my body as we speak..

This is what i get all over my body when I get flare ups from stress. It’s extremely painful and leaves open sores, which is dangerous because I have a compromised immune system

My body is shutting down, and I’m fighting my hardest to get a diagnosis to TREAT whatever this is AS SOON AS POSSIBLE because the symptoms are getting more severe by every flare up I have..

I’ve had to have 3 emergency catheters so far because my bladder keeps completely shutting down..

I’ve been rapidly losing weight and having muscle loss. I’m not able to break down protein properly for some reason.

I went from 117 to 97

These are only SOME OF THE SYMPTOMS DEALING WITH, But here it is! As humiliating as it is..here’s what it’s doing to me in full view..

I need help while it’s still possible.

[maa-iingan]

My procedure is in a couple of days!!! This is important!! Please help me! I NEED TREATMENT

[the-autumn-apple-artworks-deact]

JESUS CHRIST THIS IS IMPORTANT!!!!!!

DUDE I HOPE YOU ALL THE LUCK OF THE WORLD IDK WHO YOU ARE BUT ILU AND YOU DESERVE TO RESTORE YOURSELF

[youtube-animeace-deactivated202]

Get this person all the help you can everyone

[maa-iingan]

I’m exhausted. I just want this to end. I want to live a normal life…

I can’t mentally, emotionally, and financially afford this shit. I need help. I’m working so hard on my own to get everything I can done and it’s like it never ends.. I just want a break to breathe

[currentswim]

GET HIM THE HELP HE NEEDS

I put this on my Facebook of the post to share it around. I really hope you get the treatment you need. Prayers for you @maa-iingan​. Don’t give up!

[maa-iingan]

I STILL NEED HELP!

[canine---cadaver-deactivated202]

EVERYONE WHO SEES THIS PLEASE DONATE OR AT LEAST REBLOG IT IS INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT

[dontmakemerattlemybones-deactiv]

PLEASE DONATE AND SPREAD THE WORD FOR HIM ITS DANGEROUSLY IMPORTANT THAT WE DO WHAT WE CAN TO HELP PLEASE REBLOG OR DONATE FOR HIM

[maa-iingan]

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

Pay Kailey Babcock using PayPal.Me

Go to paypal.me/YvesOrage and type in the amount. Since it’s PayPal, it's easy and secure. Don’t have a PayPal account? No worries.

[maa-iingan]

I HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL TODAY FOR A MAJOR FLARE UP &. FOR EMERGENCY HELP

THE BEST WAY TO HELP ME IS TO DIRECTLY DONATE!!

I have two procedures I have to do this month, an appointment today and needed transportation, rent, bills, ect.

I HAVE PAYPAL, CASHAPP, & AMAZON $ CARDS HELP AS WELL

I appreciate anything

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

[spacemiddenzz]

signal boost! please, pitch in and get this guy the help he needs!

[maa-iingan]

PLEASE HELP ME‼️I now have severe inflammation and MORE tests, going to ANOTHER specialist this month and having another appointment in a week, besides my two procedures & now maybe three..

I’m just trying to stay alive day to day. My body is literally shutting down idk wtf to even do anymore. It’s extremely painful, and terrifying. I’m 23!!!and NO ONE could afford a MONTH of this, even with “help”. I appreciate ANYTHING‼️

[worm-with-a-top-hat]

Signal boost!! Please help, every little bit counts, and if you’re unable to help, please share this!!

[sweetberry-roebuck]

SIGNAL BOOOOSSTTTT

[maa-iingan]

I’ve been bedridden all day, I’m in extreme pain. They think I have psoriatic arthritis as well.. my whole body is swollen but especially my joints. To the point of my skin splitting. I feel like I have severe whip lash and am probably going to have to go to the E.R because I can barely walk. I have an appointment this week but I don’t even know if I can wait. I NEED HELP. I CAN’T afford my medical treatments alone, I need YOUR help. Boost, reblog, or donate, it all matters to me. Please help me get through this and survive..

[undrinkablesmoothie]

I really hope you get the help you need and pull through this.

[maa-iingan]

Thank you,

I HAVE to. Or I’ll die.

I have so many appointments, and rent is due and I’m late, due to an emergency visit….So PLEASE keep posting, reblogging, donate whatever you comfortablly can, all helps!! Please PLEASE help me survive.. and if not, share my story/ GoFundMe to all platforms. donating directly to me through PayPal is the best way to help me right now !!

[1-walked-witha-zombie]

Y'all please help this person, this is really fucking important.

[maa-iingan]

‼️Had an appointment today, did some tests, and needed x rays of my hands. I’ll be on more meds, and have to see ANOTHER specialist. I can’t use my hands much because of my joints and inflammation. I also have to be careful because I’m at high risk of infection, due to the open wounds on my hands from them splitting open from swelling so much.. it’s extremely painful. & I can’t hustle without hands… SO PLEASE, help me if you can. Anything and everything counts! Directly donating helps the most w bills‼️‼️‼️

[strugglingqueer]

Guys, please! Help this person! I am so sorry, I can’t donate, and all I can do is reblog, but I truly, truly hope that it will help you!

[maa-iingan]

I now have an unexpected MRI on top of getting a catheter today, and two upcoming intense procedures where I will need after care… I literally don’t even know at this point. I’m so scared and lost. I feel so alone. No one NO ONE could afford this shit, live this shit, and have to do all of it at once. My mental health is taking a huge hit because of the stress of literally TRYING TO STAY ALIVE because of bills!!!!!!

[maa-iingan]

I had to have an emergency catheter put in last night and I am in so much fucking pain. I can’t keep up with any of this.. any of it. I don’t have the money, time or ENERGY! One thing after another :( please keep this going for me so I can at least be a little less stressed.. I need help rn.

I have 300$ in my account rn I and I have to use it for meds tomorrow, as well as transportation :( I can show proof. I have an MRI coming up and two other appointments this week. PLEASE , PLEASE if you’re able and ok donate what you can, share, boost, reblog, repost, share my story!! I need to SURVIVE! I just want to be able to heal like I said

[becausewedefinetheworld]

IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT 

[tortoiseshell-dessert]

FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING SPREAD!!!

[heeheeparfait-deactivated202206]

OMG JUST HELP THEM STRAIGHT UPPPP. UUUGH

[gummyhype]

I’m literally at ROCK FUCKING BOTTOM of poverty and have nothing, but friends PLEASE SHARE THIS and help him!!!!

[vergol]

jesus christ please help him.

[maa-iingan]

@jesuschrist pls help me please sir, I am poor and not well at all……. for real.

Pls help me, I’m at a mental breakdown point.

[emotionalsupportmanteau]

My friend has Addisons. Signal boost please.

!!!SPREAD THIS!!!

Reblog

Boost

Share

Or dontate

Please do something

[cutecherriepie-deactivated20241]

Please help or at least share :s

[magpigment]

please help them, me reblogging wont do much but please.. i hope this helps a lil dude

[maa-iingan]

Thank you for your reblog, I want you to know I see these comments and am forever grateful to y’all. This does matter and it does help me. More than a little, so thank you.

[mabs-key]

Look, NO ONE should have to go through this, I can’t imagine not having a proper health system to help in a situation like this. He has to live it and it’s unfair. If you can, please donate. If not, then reblog. Because I don’t know how to explain that you should care about the wellbeing of others.

[itgetsstranger]

BOOST THIS!!

[cannibalcomputer]

going on subreddits for donations helps a lot ive heard, i wish you the best and i believe you can survive, god i hope you get the money

[jays-shit-parade]

PLEASE spread this!!!!!!!!!! Help this person out!!!!!!!

IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT

PLEASE BOOST OR DONATE! 

[starstruck-platforms]

long but important!!

SPREAD SPREAD SPREAD, SPREAD IT LIKE BUTTER ON BREAD, THIS IS INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT

[maa-iingan]

I am now internally bleeding and have to have a procedure- maybe a surgery over it-

PLS help me just secure a safe place to recover and live! Please. I am scared, anxious, in pain - and exhausted.

Most hospitals are at capacity, & I am terrified of dying over this super virus - or my body giving up before I can get help. These last 2 months have been the worst of my life

[pandoras-tupperware]

I HAVE A TINY BLOG BUT STILL BOOST HOLY FUCK

[occultpansalesman]

i’ve reblogged this before, but this person need all the help they can get

[weaselweaselweasel]

guys guys guys please donate as much as you can to save this persons life

[stinkle-mcfuckwit]

@one-time-i-dreamt signal boost?

[bishops-severed-torso]

This is fucking important, stop scrolling

[maa-iingan]

I STILL NEED HELP! I have to have surgery !!

[maa-iingan]

https://cash.app/$CillianOrage

Pay me on Cash App

Instantly exchange money for free on Cash App

https://www.paypal.me/YvesOrage

PAYPAL ^^^^^

PLEASE SHARE WHATEVER YOU CAN IT ALL COUNTS!! I have to have surgery‼️ miigwech

[maa-iingan]

[maa-iingan]

I have to have surgery!! Please help !!

[alwaysheretotry]

SIGNAL BOOSTT

[arsenicolada]

Never has there been a character that depicts my emotions better than Raggedy Andy

Brilliant.

[dabwax-deactivated20250410]

It’s like, no matter how unbothered I am on the surface and how well I seem to handle people constantly telling me I’m a man, I’m not a real woman, I’ll never be a real woman, I’m a creature less than human, it’s always going to eat away at my subconscious I guess

I made a video last night asking why the #intersex tag is banned on tiktok and it blew up with 100k views a Lot of intersexist assholes found it :) I deleted about 100 really nasty comments before I gave up and just let them come.

And like, it didn’t feel as insulting as it felt deeply irritating, but I woke up today shaky and heavily anxious, despite feeling excellent for a couple of weeks. Because no matter what I do, I’ll never be seen as a Real Woman OR as a fucking HUMAN for that matter. There will always be people who hate me for existing and want me dead for it. :)

And if it’s not them, it’s the 500 super confident people answering all the WHAT IS INTERSEX???? comments with “it means they have a penis and a vagina :) hope that helps :)” like how the fuck am I supposed to keep up when there are so many ignorant fuckers willing to talk for me and over me lmfao

And whenever I talk about any sort of abuse like this I get at LEAST one perisex trans person like, well sweaty, ur not trans, so this isn’t ur battle and u shouldn’t be upset, u must only be upset cuz ppl think ur trans, which is transphobic :// And if I try to find the language, as an intersex person who is living in a world that actively and effectively erases us, to explain why this sort of denial of our experiences is incredibly hurtful and harmful, I get a callout post about me warning people that I’m showing signs of Becoming A T*RF, that I obviously want to be one and I will be one in six months time. You know, just days after a bunch of t*rfs dogpiled me and one talked about beheading me :)))

Weirdly enough, perisex trans people denying my abuse and the trauma it comes with doesn’t make me want to be transphobic, nor do I believe people are doing this because the trans community itself is Mean and Bad. I think y’all are traumatized and somewhat reasonably distrusting but completely unaware of the violent intersexism you’re participating in by denying our abuse.

The beheading comment, followed by trans perisex people denying my experiences TO ME and telling me I’m transphobic for even having these experiences, was the combo that led to my suicidal meltdown last month. I’m NOT saying this to be manipulative, because my only fucking goal here is to get y’all to understand how serious intersexism is. I shouldn’t fucking have to lay out my trauma for the entire world to understand me. I shouldn’t fucking have to talk about my genitals and personal medical shit with every single person in the world, but I HAVE to to get anyone to take me seriously.

I didn’t ask to be intersex. I didn’t ask for my body to look the way it does. I didn’t ask for it to start developing this way when I was 11, for me to understand at 11 that my body was too “male” to ever be a real woman’s body. I didn’t ask to spend the majority of my entire life obsessively altering my appearance, shaving my face up to twice a day to avoid being “clocked”, avoiding any physical touch from other humans so they wouldn’t feel my stubble, not having ANY semblance of what y’all think someone who identifies as their agab should have as a “normal” girlhood or womanhood. I OBSESSIVELY hated my entire body for being too “male” for most of my LIFE. For y’all to see me as a privileged cis woman taking a quirky little tour in gender nonconformity and NOT as an intersex woman who has managed to accept her body after a decade and a half of despising it is fucking intersexist. And to tell me that I’m fucking upset that ppl think I’m trans, NOT because I’ve had to fight very hard for my identity as a woman from THE SAME PEOPLE YALL HAVE TO FIGHT, is so fucking intersexist. I’m tired of trying to make perisex people happy. I’m fucking tired.

[dabwax-deactivated20250410]

I know it’s heavy shit but y’all can reblog this. Nobody cares about what intersex people are going through and I’m going fucking crazy being one small voice in this sea of intersexism. Don’t contribute to our erasure.

[deactivated-blog]

List of things to do besides hurting urself..?

activities (and these are just suggestions. if you’re not comfortable with anything you are very much not obligated to do it):

squeeze something really tight

wrap your hands and arms in something soft, snug enough that you feel constant pressure

put glue on your hands and wait for it to dry, then peel it off

take a long shower or a bath

hold an ice cube tightly in both hands

find a fidget toy to play with

safe stimming

do something creative (draw, paint, knit, play an instrument, etc. anything that uses your hands)

paint your nails

hold someone’s hand

jump around or do something that requires physical exertion

pet an animal

find all the softest things you have and make a pillow fort or a nest out of them

listen to music that makes you feel good

watch a show that makes you happy, or a comfort movie

pick up and read a book that you’re interested in

talk with someone you care about; it can be about anything, preferably something to take your mind off of what you’re feeling

take a nap

make something to eat

bake cookies or something else fun

learn a new skill

look up bizarre wikihow articles and try them out (as long as they’re safe)

do something you’ve been procrastinating on

put on the weirdest outfit you can cobble together

[apocalyptic-cake-deactivated202]

Listen up!

You see a post like this? Where OP might hurt/kill themselves? You hit that button that I circled

Hit that.

Click Suicide or Self-harm Concern

Yes.

Fill in the rest of it, and hit submit. The "content you reported" will fill itself in

Tumblr will follow up and help them.

Warning: this is only for mobile. If anyone knows how to do this for desktop, please add it!

This could SAVE SOMEONE'S LIFE.

YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE NOT TO REBLOG THIS.

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF IT DOESN'T GO WITH YOUR BLOG'S THEME.

And yes, REBLOG. Liking does no shit at all. This isn't ig.

You reblog, people see it. You don't, people don't see it. This shit's that simple.

This could save someone's life. It's not a joke.

[bloodcrownedking]

@aesthetically-upset​

[ravendemon016]

Please help...nobody deserves to be so far into that dark void. Please reblog to spread awareness

[sexceptionul]

I’ve seen a lot of posts on my dash tonight about users who are threatening suicide, with other Tumblr members posting in effort to try to get ahold of them. I think you all should see this:

IF THERE IS EVER A TUMBLR USER WHO HAS POSTED A GOOD-BYE MESSAGE, SUICIDE NOTE, VIDEO, OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT, PLEASE FOLLOW THIS POST.

1. Scroll to the top of your dashboard.

2. See the circular question mark icon at the top? It’s the third one over from your home symbol. Click on that, and a screen similar to the one in the picture will come up.

3. Where you can type in questions, the box with the magnifying glass at the top, type in the word “suicide.”

4. Click on the first link that shows up. It should say, “Pass the URL of the blog on to us.”

5. Type in the user’s URL and tell Tumblr admin that the user is contemplating suicide and has posted a message indicating that they are going through with it or will be attempting. Hit send! Tumblr administration will perform a number of actions to contact the user and take the necessary steps to prevent the suicide.

TUMBLR: THIS COULD SAVE A USER’S LIFE. PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE SUICIDE THREATS.

Reblog this to keep other users aware. Suicide isn’t a joke, and neither is someone’s life. If you didn’t know this, someone else may not, either. Pass it on.

[thedanliest]

why on earth doesn’t this have more notes

[outtelligent]

I actually had to do this once. She lived.

[faeirytale]

if you scroll past this on your dash you are absolutely heartless.

[natalie-as-herself]

Reblog this!! This can save somebody’s life!

[aika-chan01]

reblog.

help.

do not scroll down.

[nonextistentttttt-deactivated20]

I SWEAR TO GOD IF ANYONE SCROLLS PAST THIS WITHOUT REBLOGGING I WILL LITTERALLY FIND THEM AND GIVE THEM A LECTURE

[danqueray-deactivated20200703]

may I just update this?

see the little thing that says help?

[josephdreemuur-moved]

Don’t ever scroll past this post. FUCKING NEVER SCROLL PAST!!!

[xcassidy]

🌸🌸🌸

[undiagnosed-autism-things]

Anyone know where it is on mobile ???

[i-am-a-moron-deactivated2020051]

You report the user, choose “something else”, scroll down and choose “suicide or self harm”

[femur-theif]

DO NOT SCROLL DOWN

REBLOG TO LITERALLY SAVE A LIVE

[im-just-trying-to-survive-man]

PLEASE REBLOG

[tastingmellow]

Please don’t scroll past this post, you could save someone’s life.

[mo0oshro0om]

SAVE A LIFE

[housefly77-deactivated20240331]

this. reblogging this on my largest blog for y’all to see this

[tigrene]

SAFE A LIFE ❤️

[worm-ona-string]

Anytime you see posts like this reblog them even if you’ve done it before 🖤

[prismpom-moved]

Can we please start appreciating people who are recovering from an addiction to self-harm? God bless those who are in recovery from eating disorders and drug addictions. But I barely ever see positivity towards those who outwardly express their pain (even though they hide it).

So let me start.

If you used a knife for any reason today (eat, open something, crafts) and didn’t turn it on yourself, great job!

If you shaved today, EVEN when someone was watching you the whole time, great job!

If you self-harmed a little less than you normally do, great job! (You are taking steps! Don’t be ashamed!)

If you thought about doing it and was even close enough to actually acting on it, but you didn’t, great job!

If you stopped following/blacklisted blogs that promote self-injury, great job!

If you used a pencil sharpener for the job it was meant to perform, great job!

If you opened up to someone about your self-injury, great job! I’m so fucking proud of you and your bravery!

If you decided to not wear long sleeves, pants, etc. so you were comfortable at the risk of someone seeing your scars, great job! You are beautiful! Your scars are not your identity!

If you are currently seeking help for your addiction and underlying mental disorders (if any), great job!

If you didn’t turn that lighter/cigarette to your skin, great job!

If you left those scabs alone, great job!

If you picked a little less today, great job!

If you left that perfect beautiful head undamaged today, great job!

If you didn’t bruise your knuckles/break your toes/physically purposefully injure your body, great job!

And most importantly: If you slipped/relapsed today you are going to be okay. This is not the end. You will recover. You will get better. There is no rush and it’s not a race. Please take care of yourself.

If you’d like to add anything please feel free to do so! Please reblog if you can! You never know who could need this right now!

Suicide Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255

Or text ‘Hello’ to 741741

[trashlungs-blog]

i’m glad you’re alive

[alwaysheretotry]

This songs helped me get through quite a bit and I hope it can help you too.

[alwaysheretotry]

If you’re out there struggling with problems like mental health or something, please try open up to someone about it. It could be family, friends or even a doctor. You deserve to feel happy. I’m not a doctor and I can’t really give you great advice, but I’m always around to listen if you need it.

[alwaysheretotry]

Please, when you can, go say hi to your loved ones. You never know when they’ll be gone and if you’re anything like me, then actually seeing you for once will make them happy.

[alwaysheretotry]

I hope a picture of my cat can bring you maybe a fraction of the happiness he’s given me.

[alwaysheretotry]

You are loved. You are cared for. People think about you. Even if it feels like none of that is true trust me, it is. I know it is. If you need to you can shoot me a message. I’ll happily listen. I’ll love you. I’ll care about you. Everyone deserves to be loved, even if by a stranger off the internet.

[alwaysheretotry]

What you have done is in the past what matters now is who you are now not who you was. People change and so do you.