aelis.01643

N°1 Liliverne/Crowlilia fan ♡ I love my children ♥︎ ☆20☆ ◇He/him◇ The owner of this account died. I'm (lil sis) the one in charge of it now. Check the pinned message for more infos.

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Hello everyone. Excuse my poor english.

The one writing is not my brother, whose account this used to belong to, but his younger sister, whom he had adopted. I'm not sure if he had ever mentioned it here, but we had a difficult home life, and the moment he legally was able too, he got me out of this hell of a house.

My father never accepted our homosexuality, and was crazy about it. A few days ago, he did the unthinkable and ran over my brother after he stood up to me for me. He fell in a short coma, but he later died in the early morning following.

I am beyond devastated. I am 16, and I still don't know what I'm going to do. For now, my brother's boyfriend is letting me live with him, but we're not sure if I'll legally need to go back to my mother since my brother was my legal tutor, but not his boyfriend. My father is in jail, and we're waiting for his trial. I hope this rotten man ends up in prison and then in Hell. He took my brother away from me. We didn't have the same father, but we were like twins. I look like him, think like him, and we shared everything from clothes to interests, absolutely everything. Half of my soul has been torn away from me in the most brutal way possible, and I don't know if I'll ever get it back. I want him back. I need him. I can't understand how such a kind, pure and good person could ever exist and now belongs only to memories.

I know he didn't really interact with anyone here, and didn't have any real moots, but I still wanted to post this. I got all of his accounts, and I don't know what to do with them yet. Maybe I'll keep using them in his memory. We posted the same things after all, so the content won't really differ from what he used to post.

Cherish your loved ones, whoever read this. Life is cruel.

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It lowkey pisses me off when ppl call Atsushi the sun and Akutagawa the moon. Like. What. Even Atsushi's ability is moon centered how do you miss something so bad.

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Okay so bsd chap 121 spoilers but :

How the FUCK does Atsushi, who probably never received a proper education or at least definitely not about things as advanced as this, knows those things ??

Also Hallelujah he's finally realising Dazai really isn't here and it's just his subconscious imagining the smartest person he knows giving him advice when in reality it's all HIM but he can't accept this truth because of his self esteem problems and probably also can't comprehend how he knows all of this.

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atsushi is that one person you know who has absolutely no schooling sense but hella common sense

i mean–

if we really wanna break it down, he's been listening to fyodor's yapping mouth about ame-no-gozen for maybe half an hour at this point? At least 45 minutes. man has the ability to retain knowledge, he heard fyodor state that the being is out of time

if the being is out of time, then the people inside aren't actually the people inside, and then airport inside isn't actually the airport

atsushi has little to no book learning, but he's one of the fastest learners, as seen with his fights with akutagawa in the beginning of the series. within three interactions atsushi had tipped the scoreboard and won a battle

fast learner, good common sense, he just needed someone he could trust to tell him. hence, dazai projection

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You worded it better than I did but yeah exactly ! In the 55 min novel he was shown as having a pretty high 'street smart' type of intelligence since he was able to outsmart Kunikida of all people (which is why I love their interactions since they're literally book smart vs street smart).

Also I think his common sense was probably really pushed to the limits in the orphanage and with Shibuzawa because god knows what they had him do.

[alxastrx]

Okay so bsd chap 121 spoilers but :

How the FUCK does Atsushi, who probably never received a proper education or at least definitely not about things as advanced as this, knows those things ??

Also Hallelujah he's finally realising Dazai really isn't here and it's just his subconscious imagining the smartest person he knows giving him advice when in reality it's all HIM but he can't accept this truth because of his self esteem problems and probably also can't comprehend how he knows all of this.

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Wait my dumbass just realised that Sebek is a crocodile because crocodiles are also 'hybrids' since they live on earth and in the water just like how he's half fae and human

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random tip for accuracy regarding the names anaxagoras & mydeimos (or any amphoreus name that ends in S) for fic writers in case anyone gaf.

in greek, the S ending of a name depends on how it's used in a sentence. when a character is talking about anaxagora & mydeimo or you're writing about them in the third person, you keep the S. HOWEVER, if someone's talking directly to them, addressing them or their names are used as a direct object in a sentence (like i did above), you lose the S. for example:

"anaxagoras likes gyro."

"anaxagoras told me he hates kokoretsi."

"anaxagora, do you have any plans for tsiknopempti?"

"mydeimos prefers souvlaki."

"mydeimos was always sleeping soundly through the loudest weddings as a kid."

"mydeimo, we're all going to a tavern tonight. wanna join?"

i would not consider castorice to be a part of this despite her name ending with an S sound. castorice is their take on the female version of the name castor, and names with greek origin that end with "ce" are usually if not always pronounced "ki" in greek. this would make her name "kastoriki", so i recommend not following this rule for her.

remember that this only applies to names that end with S, and while it's more commonly used on male names, it also applies to female names! an example of that would be the name artemis.

of course you can simply get away with not having to care about this by using the short versions of their names, but since anaxa prefers to be called by his full name this is just something i thought to be worth posting about lol.

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JEAN MARIE LE PEN IS DEAD TODAY WE ARE PARTYYYYYYIIIIINNNNNGGGGGGG !!!!!!

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My hair is serving so much omgggggg..... I'm so in love with my new haircut it's CRAZY

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Should I talk about how white hair in bsd is an indicator of the character's close parallels to demons with angelic apparences and that's one of the reasons Fyodor only has in his group white haired people which is interesting because he has black hair so you'd expect him to be the demon but he's the opposite as an angel or savior with a demonic apparence or should I not ?

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Things in the 55 min light novel I wished people talked about more :

- Atsushi being a good thief

- Akutagawa's nicknames : The Cursed Dog of the Port Mafia & the Port Mafia's Black Nightmare (Asagiri ate with those ones ngl)

- The plot mirroring most of the current arc ?? It's happening on the same island, in both case millions of lives were in danger and two side characters became very important to the plot (Welt and Aya) until ultimately Atsushi tries to fight the antagonist and is later joined by Akutagawa (who was, in both case, forced to join Atsushi's side after getting to understand him better) ??

And also "goats being chased by hunting dogs would never make a sound." you CANNOT tell me Asagiri made Akutagawa (who was proposed to become a Hunting Dog) say that to Atsushi (goats are the representation of demons/sinners and if you don't know about my takes on Atsushi being closer to a sin/sinner than a saint or a martyr, I'd suggest taking a look at my other posts) and then never addressing it again ??

- Atsushi being "the man who can see the future". This is so sick. I pray that it gets addressed in the main storyline. (Also, parallelism to Oda ? Might need to dig on that one a little).

- The whole thing about Dazai and Kunikida kidnapping and torturing someone. I could make an entire post on how the fandom sees the Ada as 'white' characters when they're really the most beautiful shade of grey (it was literally said when they were introduced "the day is the government, the night is the port mafia and the twilight is the ada" and YET people refuse to acknowledge their bad sides and it annoys me).

- Yokohama being called a city of demons. Oh boy, you can NOT imagine my reaction to that. I cried and screamed. This can obviously be connected to Fyodor, Atsushi and Shibuzawa (since everything is always connected to them anyway).

- Yosano casually mentioning that she takes some of Atsushi's bones from time to time.

- Atsushi and Akutagawa being both time travelers THEN NEVER ADDRESSING IT AGAIN ?!

- The whole thing of "What are abilities ?" and Gab and Lovecraft being almost the same thing (there is a book irl about these two - I doubt that is a coincidence).

- Atsushi being ready to use violence to get what he wants and being a really good detective/street smart, even outsmarting Kunikida.

Anyway that's all but the 55 min novel was PEAK. My sister made a tik tok similar to this post a little over a year ago, so don't be surprised if you're familiar with some of these.

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Whenever I have a bad day I remember than it can never be worse than whatever Atsushi's living right now.

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Diversity wins ! Your favorite scientists are faggots !

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THERE IS NO FUCKING WAY HIS SHIRT IS SAYING BONNE NUIT I'M LOOSING IT

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Vil has the chance to do something funny as hell

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Cater x any 3rd year (minus Lilia) is peak. He's just SO easy to ship ppl with, and the fact that he's actually kinda liked by everyone makes it so much better wth.

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Capitano is such a woman lover. Like if tomorrow you told me he had a wife I'd be like "obviously 🤨 ??". I have never seen a character screaming "I'm into women" more than him. He's the only character I can't see as gay because that's just wrong.

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This image gives me an insane amount serotonine