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â§pairing satoru gojo x f!reader
â§summary your husband satoru gojo is finally back home from a three week mission, only to find his loving wife ill and barely conscious! time for a far more important mission to begin
â§wc 2.8k
â§content pure fluff, comfort, care, suguru cameo, just really wholesome vibes all around, reader is ill with an unspecified flu type of illness, mentions of symptoms like coughing, sneezing and sweat, pet names
â§a/n listen i've been fighting the worst flu ever for about six days now this is my little self indulgent fantasy ENJOY
âHoney Iâm homeeeâ your husbandâs voice reverberating through the house like that was always sure to bring a smile to your face. Especially now, considering you hadnât even seen eachother in weeks since Satoru had gone away on his mission.
You wanted nothing more than to get up and run towards the door and throw yourself at him, jump straight onto his lap because you knew heâd catch you and plant the most desperate of kisses to his lips. But you didnât.
And thatâs when he knew something was wrong.
âBaby?â Satoruâs voice came again but full of concern this time. He had expected to see you rushing towards him, and he himself had been aching for the moment of your reunion since the door closed behind him almost three weeks ago. But no sound came from inside.
He was already moving, taking off his blindfold to use his six eyes better as you heard his footsteps hurry towards the bedroom, never wasting any time when it came to your safety.
You tried to call for him, not wanting him to worry, but your voice just came out as a pathetic little rasp that barely projected out of your mouth.
Satoru slammed the bedroom door open with a bang, the sound too loud making you recoil just slightly into the bedsheets. He found you lying there under the covers, even though it was three in the afternoon and warm outside, looking fragile and weak in a way that made his chest cave in. You were flushed and sweaty with fever, and your bedside table was stocked with supplies - tissues, medicine, cough syrup, everything, like you were the worldâs saddest little pharmacist attempting to heal yourself all alone.
âWhat the-â he exclaimed in surprise, bolting towards you as fast as he could. âBaby, you ok?? Are you alive?â he called out, hands hovering over your limp form as if unsure where he could touch you.
You groaned out a noise, managing to extend a helpless hand in his direction. Satoru took it in his immediately, bringing it to his lips. Your hand was too cold despite how hot your face looked, but he let out a relieved laugh at the flushed little smile that appeared on your lips at the gesture. âI missed youâ you managed to murmur, inching just a tiny bit closer to him.
âI missed you tooâ he smiled, placing another kiss to your palm before moving one of his hands to your forehead. As he expected, you were burning up. âWhy didnât you call me, idiot?â he asked, affectionately, struggling to calm down his rushing heart beat.
âDidnât wanna worry youâ you grumbled, leaning into his touch.
âWell I am worriedâ he replied, brushing a strand of hair away from your sweaty forehead. âHow long have you been like this?â
âA couple daysâ you replied, but it quickly turned into a cough that had your face scrunching at the sheer pain of it.
âShhhâ Satoru tried to comfort you through it, but everything in him hated seeing you in pain like this. He held your body upwards to ease the tension on your chest, rubbing calming circles all over your back. âFear not, the doctor is hereâ he announced once the coughing subsided, catching your stray tears with the pad of his thumb. You wanted to roll your eyes or tease him back but you couldnât even deny how much better his presence alone made everything.
âI feel so shitâ you whimpered, falling forwards into his chest. He caught you immediately, pulling you in close like it was exactly where you belonged.
âI know sweetheart, I knowâ he whispered into your hair, rocking you slightly. âGave me a fright when you didnât come to the door. Donât scare me like that again, yeah?â
âMâsorry Toruâ you cried out. âCanât moveâ
It hurt to hear you sound this small, to see you this weak and know he hadnât been here while you needed him. He thought of you having to deal with this fever alone, the evidence of how much you were trying right there next to him on the bedside table. It absolutely gutted him.
âGood news is you donât have toâ he replied then, pulling away just enough to watch your fever flushed face resting on his chest. âLet me take care of you, ok?â
You nodded, managing a smile that had the tension in him loosening up finally. Satoru leaned down to place a firm kiss to your warm forehead, and started readjusting the pillows behind you so that you could sit down with more support. âFirst things first, water!â he announced.
Gojo came back not even a minute later with as many glasses full of water as he could carry, placing them all neatly within armsreach. One hand helped tilt your chin while the other brought a glass to your lips. âJust a bit pretty, do it for meâ he said reassuringly when he noticed the way you scrunched your nose at how painful swallowing was. âThere you go. Good girlâ
You smiled, coughing a little but the water did do wonders. âSee, doing better already!â he said excitedly. âI think I deserve a kiss--â but his happy expression crumbled when you moved your face out of the way.
âToruâ you said, disapprovingly. âI donât want to get you sick tooâ
âDonât worry about me, princessâ he said, scrunching your face with his palms and leaning forwards again.
âIâm seriousâ you complained through squeeshed cheeks. He stopped, looking at you with wide eyes like a lost puppy. âThis is miserable, I donât want to pass it to you tooâ
Gojo tried his hardest to contain the absolute shock in his expression. âAre you saying after three weeks away I canât even kiss my beautiful wife?!â he complained again.
âYesâ you replied, firm.
âBetrayal...â he mumbled, throwing himself next to you and snaking his arms around your middle, pulling you in. âCan we at least cuddle?â
The next morning, Suguru Geto was standing outside, ringing the doorbell, eager to say hi to his best friend after he finally got back from what he heard was a difficult mission. He had not expected, however, Satoru to answer the door wearing an apron and a white medical mask under his sunglasses.
â...Satoru?â Geto murmured, tilting his head and squinting his eyes at him.
âNice to see you, Suguruâ Gojo replied, taking off the face mask to smile at his best friend who just stared at him with one eyebrow raised.
The white haired man just kept staring at him, like nothing was out of the ordinary. âWhy does it smell like garlic in here?â Geto asked eventually, suspiciously eyeing the inside of the house.
âIâm making soupâ Satoru replied like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
âGarlic soup?â he asked.
âItâs anti-inflammatoryâ
âUm, sureâ
They kept standing there at the threshold, when Gojo motioned to the inside and held the doorframe tight as if about to close it. âSorry, I am in the middle of something right now so-â
âIs everything ok?â Geto cut in. âWhereâs y/n?â
Satoru exhaled, letting go of the door and allowing his raven haired friend the space to step inside. âSheâs sickâ he replied, shaking his head. âVery bad flu. You can say hi but you gotta lower your voiceâ
Suguru stared at him in disbelief at the request because it was obvious who the loud one was out of the two, but he just exhaled and agreed, worried about you too.
He followed his friend further into the large house and into the main bedroom. âSweetheart, Suguru is hereâ Gojo called softly as he opened the door slowly. âHe wonât be long, but- uh? Baby?â
Satoru was running to your side in a flash, crouching down by your head which was angled in a slightly uncomfortable position against the mountain of pillows Gojo had propped up under you, snoring faintly into them.
âAre you ok? Did you faint?!â Satoru was trying his best not to sound alarmed but failing miserably, as he tried to move your head slowly.
âI think sheâs just asleep, Satoruâ his friend said, assessing the situation.
âShe was wide awake a minute ago!â Gojo replied, worried, like it was a medical mystery.
âAhâ Suguru stepped into the room, picking up something from the bedside table. âI think I might have found the culpritâ he extended his arm to Satoru, holding the still open bottle of cough syrup. âHow much did you give her?â he asked with a raised brow.
Gojo eyed the bottle guiltily. âI donât know!â his voice rose higher as he was clearly starting to panic. âShe was coughing a lot! So I just held it to her lips, it sounded so painful, I hate hearing her in pain and...oh my god, did I drug her?!â
Suguru struggled to hide his smirk while his friend shook your limp body close. âI think you might haveâ
âIs she gonna be ok?! Is she-â he turned his attention to your flushed face, still red with fever but looking a lot more peaceful now, curling instinctively into his chest as he held you. âBaby, wake up, pleaseâ but you only nuzzled into him and grunted like it was the last thing you wanted to do.
âSheâll be fineâ Suguru reassured him. âLooks like maybe she needed itâ
Satoru looked down at you, completely out of it but looking very content and safe in his arms. His mind went straight to the night before where you could barely hold still, your body convulsing with every cough, jolting up with every sneeze. The way tears had streaked down your face and he wasnât sure if it was a reaction to your symptoms or your emotions getting the best of you. He had felt so helpless then.
Gojo brushed your hair away from your face now, moving your body slowly as to not wake you, adjusting you gently so you were more comfortable on the mattress. âThey should put warnings on that thingâ he complained as he pulled a blanket under your chin with careful precision.
Geto chuckled. âThey doâ
Gojo exhaled, looking at you breathe deeper than you had in hours. âCome help me with the soup thenâ he said.
You woke up a couple hours later, a little confused but definitely well rested since your forced slumber sponsored by the cough syrup. The first thing you saw when you opened your eyes was a mess of white hair over a pair or bright blue eyes looking back at you with so much fondness it made your chest ache.
âHeyyâ Gojo called, leaning in from the chair by your bedside and helping you sit up. âDonât move too fast, youâve been out for some time nowâ
â...what happened?â you tried to say, the last thing you remember being the doorbell ringing and Satoru announcing he was gonna go get it, before your body started getting too comfortable all of a sudden.
âI,uh, may or may not have given you too much cough syrupâ he replied, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly. âIâm sorryâ he completed, sheepishly.
You just laughed, which made everything in him relax. âOf course you didâ
âIn my defence, you were very peacefulâ he added, putting his hands up in defence but whole face softening at the sight of your smile. âHow are you feeling now?â he asked, interlacing his fingers with yours.
âA bit better, I thinkâ you replied, grounding yourself in the gentle weight of his hand on yours. You looked over to your bedside table then, intrigued by the smell coming from a steaming mug that sat right in the middle.
He seemed happy you had noticed it. âHereâ Gojo picked it up, passing it to you. It smelled of ginger and honey, the smell alone enough to open your airways. âItâs ginger, for your throatâ he said.
âThank you, Toruâ you smiled, blushing not from the fever this time.
âOf course, princessâ he replied, watching you sip the tea with a satisfied expression. âThereâs some soup tooâ
You swallowed the warm ginger water, soothing your throat immediately. âIs that what this garlic smell is?â you asked.
âItâs anti-inflammatoryâ he replied proudly.
You laughed at how hard he was trying. âHave you been doing research?â
âOf courseâ Satoru replied with a grin. âIâm commited to nursing my beautiful wife back to healthâ
You smiled at him, holding the mug down before he picked it up and placed it on the side for you. His hands lingered on yours, tracing small patterns across your knuckles. âIâm sorry I wasnât hereâ he said finally, staring at you with those blue eyes of his.
You clutched his hands tighter. âItâs not your faultâ
He carried on like he knew youâd say that. âYou know if I could choose, Iâd-â
âI know babyâ you interrupted, and the nickname seemed to ease his guilt spiral a bit. âIâm just happy youâre backâ you said, pulling him in closer.
Gojo obviously obliged, getting up from the chair and sitting next to you on the bed, opening his arms so you could rest your head right on your favourite spot. He assessed everything from here, the way you were breathing easier, how your body felt less warm, how your voice seemed to come out which much less strain now. You were getting better, and it meant everything to him.
âYou think I can get that kiss now?â he murmured with a devilish smirk while smoothing your hair in gentle, repetitive motions.
âToru...â you pushed yourself up, squinting at him like a disappointed parent.
âWhy am I being punished for your weak immune system?!â he exclaimed, pulling you back to where you were before.
âIâm not punishing youâ you laughed, settling into his chest again. âI donât want to make you sick tooâ
âMaybe if I got sick I could spend more time at home...â he suggested in a stage whisper.
âBaby...â you shook your head at him.
âPlease princess, Iâve missed you so muchâ Satoru said, holding your shoulders so you could look at his genuine expression, hoping he could convince you with his puppy dog eyes.
You pouted at him, but didnât push him away this time, feeling some of his infectious energy start to seep into you too. âHow much did you miss me?â you asked, looking to the side to hide your little teasing smirk.
Gojo grinned wide, moving to the top of you in one swift motion as he caged you in, earning a giggle out of you. âSo much baby, every day. Couldnât stop thinking about youâ
You looked at him, towering above you but resisting coming any closer before he had your permission. âAnd what were you thinking about?â you asked in a little devilish voice too.
âMy wifeâs beautiful face, her laughâ he spoke so enthusiastically it was hard to resist, coming down lower and lower while paying attention to your reactions. âThe way you say my name, how warm you feel at night, how badly I want to see you round with my babyâ he said the last part low, right against your ear.
âSatoru!â you laughed, playfully nudging his shoulder although he didnât move. He was right on top of you then, noses almost touching, sharing that special warmth you had with one another that you had missed so dearly in these past three weeks.
âIâm sorryâ he said, rubbing his nose with yours affectionately. âOne kiss? Pretty please?â
âFineâ you smiled.
With a tilt of his chin, Gojoâs lips met yours in a kiss that wasnât rushed, wasnât even as steamy as you both ideally would have wanted for a âwelcome backâ kiss, but it said everything you hadnât been able to say in those weeks away from each other.
I love you. I missed you. Welcome home.
Your fever broke a bit that night, Gojo would never tell you but every few minutes heâd check your temperature just to make sure you werenât getting worse again. He had to reassure himself you were ok, happy in his arms, not quite healthy yet but soon to be. Every time you whimpered he pulled you closer, every time you coughed he rubbed your back, every sudden movement had him awake in an instant because Satoru Gojo could not bear not being there when you needed him. Never again, he promised.
And when the morning came, you stretched upwards like a new person. Your voice was back, and although the aches and fatigue werenât completely gone just yet, everything seemed to have eased overnight.
A miracle, you thought, until you heard a little cough come from the tall man behind you, still clutching your arm like his life depended on it.
âBabyâ Satoru mumbled, voice raspy and sad. âI donât feel too goodâ
ê° summary ê± when a misunderstanding leaves your family convinced youâre bringing a plus one to your cousinâs wedding in Japan, the last person you expect to volunteer for the role is your infuriatingly observant intern, Satoru. itâs supposed to be temporary. professional. strictly off the record. but with your mother already sold on the idea of your mystery boyfriend, and Satoru proving far too good at the role, pretending starts to feel a little too dangerous. also, why is your âinternâ secretly the heir to gojo corporation?!
ê° tags/warnings ê± fake dating âčïž undercover ceo! satoru âčïž accountant! reader âčïž satoru is 29, reader is 26 âčïž lots of family pressure. reader has a complicated relationship with her mom âčïž forced proximity âčïž one bed trope âčïž slow burn âčïž mutual pining âčïž wedding chaos âčïž angst and fluff âčïž some suggestive content but no explicit smut âčïž
ê° authors note ê± surpriseeee â this is 3 parts now hehe. satoru is still our lovingly annoying sweetheart here, but this part does have a bit more angst than the last. nothing too wild though⊠just a whole lot of yearning and our poor reader being very committed to denial. i hope you enjoy! part 3 will be the last one. (art by @/hanamin_0123 on x)
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part 2
âMaâam, may I interest you in our menu?â the flight attendant asks, leaning in with a practiced smile.
"Ohâum. Yes... thank you."
The thick, cream-colored menu lands in your hands a second later, and you settle into your seat just as she disappears down the aisle. A seat that is far too comfortable for the current state of your life. But thatâs the thing about first class â it makes it very hard to be appropriately miserable, and you are trying to be miserable right now. You are committed to it.
âIf you need recommendations⊠I recommend the wagyu.â Satoru leans in, close enough that his breath feathers warm against the side of your neck. âItâs to die for.â
He grins, blue eyes glinting behind snowy lashes. And unfortunately, the wagyu isnât the thing currently putting your life at risk. Because a shiver moves through you before you can stop it.
âO-OhâŠâ your head jerks away, quickly. âUh-huh⊠sure.â
Refusing to turn, you keep your eyes stubbornly on the cabin â denying him the satisfaction of seeing what his closeness does to the treacherous, backstabbing organ inside your chest. But you catch him in your periphery â leaning back, entirely unbothered, reaching for his own menu with that pleased little hum that means, of course, he notices.
Ugh.
This is going to be a long-ass ten-hour flight. And first class, as it turns out, is only roomy when you arenât seated beside the exact person currently making your pulse act deeply unprofessional.
âŠ
Wait. When did your pulse start doing that?!
Miserable, you remind yourself. Yeah. Miserable.
With a sigh, you click your seatbelt into place and flip open the menu, genuinely trying to build a case for why this is the worst decision youâve ever made. Unfortunately, it is hard to maintain righteous regret when the menu has no prices on it. Not one. Just elegant font, artful descriptions, and ingredients arranged like poetry.
âŠyouâd booked economy.
Economy.
But then heâd upgraded your tickets last minute like that was a normal thing a person did â insisting you fly with him. Like swapping someoneâs middle seat for a first-class cocoon with a duvet and a champagne flute was just⊠hospitality.
âUm⊠Satoru?â Your brow arches as you take in the absurdly extravagant menu. âHow much does this cost, exactlyâŠ?â He doesnât even glance up. âMm? Oh.â Flipping a page, his hand waves lazily. âDonât worry about it.â
âŠ
Donât worry about it?
You are very much worrying about it. Because how the hell does an intern afford this?! You know how much interns make at your company; youâve worked with HR, signed off on the numbers â and it is categorically not this.
But fine. Whatever. That is, somehow, the least of your problems right now. And your mind was already veering back toward the more immediate catastrophe currently taxiing toward the runway.
Your family.
âRight⊠well. Anyways, Satoru,â you say, setting the menu down. âWe should probably establish the basics before we get to Japan andââ
ââwhat do you like to eat?â
You blink, lips parting.
âIâsorryâŠwhat?â
âI like sweets,â he says, turning toward you. A toothy grin spreads across his face, dimples peeking. âLetâs see⊠cake, cream buns, mochiâŠâ he muses. âOh! Especially kikifuku mochi, itâs the best.â He nods solemnly. âHonestly, I think itâs the whipped cream inside that really makes the difference.â
Your brow furrows as you stare at him.
âŠwhen did this become a TED talk about sugar? You were trying to discuss a plan, and he is out here curating a dessert menu like the most pressing crisis of the next ten hours is pastry selection.
âOkayâŠ? Thatâs nice. But we should talk aboutââ
âFood,â he states, picking up the menu you just set down. He flips it open and angles it back toward you like that is the only sensible conversation available. âCâmon. What do you like? Not what youâll settle for⊠what youâll actually like. Ten hours is a long time, sweetheart.â
Brow knitting, you frown.
He cannot be serious. That is not the priority right now.
âThatâthat can wait. We need toââ
ââestablish the basics, yeah.â He rolls his eyes and tips his head back against the seat, like your resistance is personally exhausting him. But then his gaze flicks back, amused. âAnd Iâm just saying food is a basic necessity. Because you skip lunch when youâre busy, forget breakfast when youâre anxious, and then act shocked when you feel like shit three hours later. So, eat.â He places the menu back in your hands. âPreferably something that isnât stale pretzels, yeah?â
Something hot and startled climbs your neck so fast itâs almost impressive. Your mouth opens, but whatever rebuttal is forming never makes it. Because before you can recoverâ
âHonestly, I gotta say⊠the soba is pretty good too, actually.â His face is suddenly just over your shoulder, murmuring close enough that you feel the heat of him against your ear. âIf you donât want the wagyu, that is. Waitâscratch that. Maybe ramenâŠ?â His finger traces a line on the menu, pale lashes lowering, tongue clinking gently. âMm⊠never mind. Too much broth and there could be turbulence.â
Your whole body stiffens. Because his closeness does not feel unwelcome. Which is exactly the problem.
âŠwhen did he get so comfortable?!
ââŠstop doing that,â you mutter, pulling back. He looks over, the picture of innocence. âDoing what?â
Your lips purse.
âI dunno. BeingâŠâ  But the word dissolves, and you're reaching for your water, needing something to do with your hands. âSo⊠comfortable. Soââ You cut yourself off with a small huff. âLike this.â
His grin is unbearable, lazy and crooked.
âOh?â he reclines. âLike what, baby?â
You sputter into your water.
âBaby?â
Youâre choking on your drink, and Satoru looks entirely too pleased with himself. He's chuckling, leaning over without a second thought, one hand settling warm between your shoulder blades.
âAwwh⊠whatâs this? Donât be shy now,â he hums, the picture of helpfulness, rubbing slow circles with a sigh. âWeâre gonna have to get way cozier than this if Iâm playing boyfriend. Just establishing the basics, yeah?â
As you straighten with a glare, you can tell without a doubt he is openly enjoying himself. That grin hasnât moved a goddamn inch.
âŠasshole.
Huffing, you settle back into your seat. And it isnât long before the plane shudders gently away from the gate, inching out onto the runway with that slow, terrible sense of inevitability that only air travel is capable of producing.
âLadies and gentlemen, at this time please ensure your seatbelt is securely fastened⊠flight attendants, prepare for departure.â
The overhead announcement crackles through the cabin, too polished to be comforting. While beneath you, the whole plane seems to draw tight, a low hum building through the floor, climbing up through your seat.
You exhale, letting your eyes fall shut. Just long enough to pretend you werenât here. Just long enough to avoid the window, the runway, and the deeply unhelpful fact that your brain liked to save all its worst thoughts for takeoff.
âŠlike how first class wasnât exactly known for improving your odds. Like how takeoff and landing were statistically the worst parts. Like how the engine sounded different now, probably⊠maybe, andâ
âHey.â
Satoruâs voice came quieter this time; enough to pull your eyes back open. When you look over, that vibrant blue is already watching you â steady, unhurried, like he has been waiting for you to surface.
âAre you⊠nervous?â
âWhat? N-NoâŠâ you lie, huffing. His brow arches, sensing your bullshit. âOkay⊠then why are you doing that with your hands?â
Following his gaze, your fingers had folded into fists without even noticing, in that particular way they always do when youâre trying to physically hold yourself together.
Fuck.
Itâs ridiculous, really. You knew flying was statistically safe! Knew it the way you knew balance sheets and quarterly projections and the exact percentage margins that kept departments alive. And yet, takeoff had always felt like the part where logic starts losing altitude.
âOhâŠâ A small, awkward laugh slips out, just as the engine begins to roar. You smooth your palms over your trembling thighs, shouting over it. âItâs fine! Really! I just⊠umâI guess I donât particularly like takeoff, is all!â
His expression softens in a way you werenât braced for. But before he can answer, the plane surges forward and your eyes squeeze shut. A massive force presses you back into the seat while vibrations climb through the floor and up your spine.
Itâs terrible. Completely terrible. But somewhere in the middle of it, a warm hand slides against yours. It takes you a second to register his fingers lacing between your own, and the moment his thumb brushes the back of your hand, you instinctively grip him tighter.
Your eyes stay shut, but you feel the plane lift hard and fast into the sky. And somewhere between the roar of the engines and that awful pull in your stomach, the slow circles his thumb traces against your skin become the only thing your body seems willing to trust.
By the time the pressure eases and the plane finally levels out, your lungs have only just remembered how to work. For a second, neither of you moves untilâ
ââŠbetter?â
His voice brushes the quiet between you. You blink your eyes open.
âYeahâŠâ you whisper. âUm⊠thanks.â
He smiles. âSure.â
That thumb brushes one last time against the back of your hand before finally pulling away, dropping back into his lap with a simple nod like it had been nothing. And the loss of that warmth was immediate enough to sting.
OhâŠ
Heâs⊠annoyingly good at taking care of you. And worse, your body had recognized it before your brain could file the proper objection â clinging first, thinking later, like comfort was something you could afford to trust.
Maybe the altitude was messing with your headâŠ
Ten hours was a long time.
Long enough to work out the safest parts of the lie. How long youâve been together. Where you met. Which version of the truth felt neat enough to survive one wedding weekend without collapsing under the weight of follow-up questions.
It was just⊠not long enough, apparently, for the parts that actually mattered.
âSoooo⊠questionâŠâ Satoru had stretched lazily, turning his glass between two fingers as he glanced over. âWhat exactly should I expect when we land?â
You kept your attention on the blanket across your lap, flattening a wrinkle. âProbably⊠jet lag?â you mutter sarcastically, avoiding his gaze, fussing with the fabric. âAnd a long enough drive to regret everything in peace.â
He snorts. âWell, yeah. Obviously.â Ice clicked softly as he tipped his glass, shifting toward you. âNot what I meant, though. I meant with your family.â
And when the warmth of his attention settled against the side of your face â you hesitated. Because it was patient in a way that only made it harder to meet. Patient in the way of someone whoâs learned that pushing doesnât work on you. Which youâre unsure is better, or worse. Because waiting means heâs paying attention, and paying attention means heâll notice when you crack.
âWeâll just⊠talk about that later,â you huffed, tugging the blanket a little higher before turning toward the window. âIâm tired. Gonna try to sleep.â
Later⊠yeah. Later.
But by baggage claim, you were running out of runway. You had to do it soon. Get it over with. Preferably somewhere between the airport and your hotel, where you could spit it out quickly and not have to watch his face too closely while you did.
So now, Satoru yawns beside the conveyor belt, tired blue eyes skimming the slow parade of suitcases rounding the carousel. Hands in his pockets, shoulders loose, posture easy in a way that only makes you more tense. You stand there staring at the back of him, fingers hooked tight in the seam of your shirt.
Now.
âHey⊠Satoru?â you mumble. âHm?â His gaze lands on your luggage and heâs already stepping forward to grab it. âUm, wellâŠâ You hesitate. âAbout my family⊠Iâ"
ââoh! Lookâlook! There they are!â
The moment her voice rings through the terminal, everything inside you locks. You turn, and for one wild second, you genuinely wonder if itâs too late to get back on that godforsaken plane.
Satoru hauls your suitcase off the belt.
âWhat about them?â he asks, turning when you stop short. Then he sees your face. ââŠsweetheart?â His brows furrow, following your line of sight â and there is your mother, cutting through the crowd with Trish beside her, moving with the kind of delighted urgency you arenât prepared to see for at least another twelve hours.
No.
No, no, no.
ââoh my god, there he is!â Your mother walks straight past you â past you â and both hands are wrapping around Satoruâs like heâs who she came for. "Oh, he's handsome. Trish, lookâ"
Itâs no surprise, really, that youâre a second thought. Youâve been a second thought since before you could name it. But that isnât the wound that matters at this particular moment. The bigger problem is that sheâs here.
âŠwhy the hell is she here?!
You were supposed to have more timeâ
ââoh my god,â Trish breathes to you. âDamn. girl. Heâs, like⊠stupid handsome.â And Satoruâs grin went smug, drawling. âOh, please, ladies. Keep the compliments coming. Iâm feeling very welcomed~â
Your mother giggles. âHandsome and funny. Oh, heâs a charmer,â she says, smacking his shoulder playfully. Though the laugh lands bitter. âGod. Why on earth would she keep you from me?! I mean⊠wow. I was beginning to think sheâd die alone.â
The words hit like a slap dressed as a joke.
Satoru blinks, the smile faltering for half a second, head tilting imperceptibly.
âŠgreat.
Of fucking course sheâd say something like that within the first thirty seconds.
âMother⊠whatââ your voice wavers, eyes falling shut with a swallow. âSorry. I justâwhat are you both doing here?â
She did a tiny double take, like sheâd only just remembered you were standing there. âOh, honeyâŠâ A hand waves, scoffing. âDonât be sillyâof course weâre here to pick you up! God. I wouldnât leave you stranded at the airport,â she snorts.
Oh, right.
So she wouldnât abandon you at an airport. Just in another country.
âŠgood to know there's a line somewhere.
âBesides, why donât you both just stay with us instead?â sheâs already reaching for Satoruâs hand again, bright with the idea. âWeâve got a guest room ready, and Iâd love for the chance to talk to you.â
Your body goes rigid.
Oh no. Fuck no.
Anything but that.
Satoru must have seen it written across your face â that particular shade of panic âbecause his eyes cut to you for only half a second before he slips his hand free, turning back to your mother with a smile already in place.
âThatâs incredibly kind, maâam,â he says, tugging you into his side with an ease that shouldnât have felt as steadying as it did. âBut weâre staying pretty close to my familyâs place, and I should probably swing by tomorrow morning.â He rubs the back of his neck with a theatrical groan. âItâs been a few months since Iâve seen my father, and trust me, Iâll regret it if he finds out I came to Tokyo and didnât stop by, yâknow?â
Apparently, ten hours isnât long enough for the parts that actually matter, becauseâŠ
âOh? Your familyâs place?â your mother repeats, brows lifting. âSo, are they here in Tokyo too, then?â He nods. âMm, yeah. Pretty much all the Gojos areâat least on my dadâs side. My momâs in Kyoto.â
âŠ
Wait.
Did he just say Gojo?
As inâ
Your bossâs family?!
No. Absolutely not. Between the jet lag, the shock, and your mother still glowing beside you, your brain simply does not have the bandwidth for this. Your lips part, blinking like that might somehow rearrange what he just said into something less insane.
Nothing comes out.
âGojoâŠâ your mother repeats, brows knitting. âWhy does that sound familiar?â Trish blinks. "Waitâlike⊠Gojo Corporation Gojo?!"
Satoruâs grin widens. âYep. Thatâd be us.â
âAh!â Your mother snaps her fingers. âGojo Corporation. Yesâof course! Silly me. I thought that name seemed familiarâŠâ
And now, the hurt arrives before the shock finishes landing â ugly and precise and aimed at the exact spot that never heals right. Five years of your work, your career, your life inside that building. But she only knows it because a handsome man says it in a terminal.
You stare. âMom⊠you can't be serious?â and the hurt in your own voice catches you off guard. âIâve⊠I've literally been working at Gojo Corporation for the last five years.â
Fuck...
Get it together.
Out of the corner of your eye, Satoru watches you. But your mother moves on like youâre invisible.
âOh Satoru Gojo, you just keep getting better and better.â You feel him hesitating as she tugs eagerly. âComeâcome! At least let us drive you both to the hotel, hm? Thereâs so much I need to hear andââ
ââsorry maâam, no.â
Satoruâs pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. And you blink while his fingers smooth gently through your hair, tipping your chin up with a long finger.
âHonestly, Iâm beatâŠâ His thumb brushes your cheek, gaze searching your face. ââŠarenât you, love?â
Thereâs a hitch in your breath
Oh.
So⊠youâre not invisible?
As it leaves you in a quiet shudder, for one suspended second, there is nothing but that soft blue of his eyes and the way theyâve gone gentle for you. All you can do is nod â and a single tear slips free before you can stop it.
He tucks you against his chest, hiding your face, and flashes a grin back at your mother.
âUgh⊠I appreciate you coming to get us, but weâve been up for way too long andââ Glancing down at his phone, he lets out a small laugh. âAh. Perfect timing! Would ya look at thatâmy driverâs here.â A tug of your hand. âBut weâll catch up tomorrow, yeah? Bye, ladies~â
Your legs are moving on their own, and you donât even catch the expression on your motherâs face. Canât. Not when your pulse is still tripping over itself. Not when his hand wraps around yours like letting go isnât even a question.
The suitcase rolled behind you, with the airport crowd bustling. While those bright eyes flicked back, making sure you were still there every few steps.
âCâmon, pretty girl⊠weâre almost there,â he murmurs. âJust stay with me, okay? Eyes on me, yeah?â
And⊠you werenât sure why he lowered his voice. Not when they were already well out of earshot. You only know that⊠it nearly undoes you all over again.
By the time the limo pulls away from the curb, Satoru had already figured out two things: your mother was awful, and somehow, heâd gotten you out of there only to realize he hadnât fully brought you back with him.
Itâs the furrow in your brow that gets him first⊠then the wobble in your lip â the one you think youâre hiding, the one you always think youâre hiding. You havenât said a word since climbing into the backseat. Havenât looked at him either. Instead, you stay toward the window, watching Tokyo slip by in blurred ribbons of light, glowing against the glass in streaks of neon. A city that has no business being that beautiful when you look that broken.
âŠshit. Should he crack a joke? No. Maybe not.
But asking if youâre okay feels useless. You obviously arenât. And worse, saying it out loud feels like the fastest way to make you disappear even further behind that window â to watch you pull the shutters down the way you always do.
âWell, thenâŠâ A hand drags through his hair as he lets his head fall back against the seat. âUm⊠gotta sayâyour family really believes in making an entrance, huh? Talk aboutââ
ââI thought your name was Satoru Geto.â
He blinks.
âHuh?â
Your gaze finally pulls from the window, landing on him, and the hurt in it is so carefully contained it almost looks like composure. Almost. Except heâs spent four months learning to read you, and composure doesnât tremble at the edges like that.
ââŠSatoru Geto,â you mutter carefully. âThatâs the name on your employee record, no?â
Oh...
Right. That.
ââŠis it?â His gaze slips away, fingers scratching at the back of his neck. âYeah⊠um. About that. Getoâs actually my best friend. I just used his last name because the initials matched.â Heâs flopping back against the seat with a small shrug, one arm slinging across the top. âMade it easier to sign off on stuff that way. Gotta work smarter, not harder, right?â
And tilting his head, a crooked grin tugs at the corner of his lips.
Yours doesnât move.
âRight,â you deadpan, turning back toward the window. âSo your plan was to just let me keep calling you that.â
You donât say it like a question.
âŠis it a question?
Satoruâs brow furrows at the hurt threaded beneath the words. âNo⊠Iââ he huffs, hands dropping into his lap. âObviously I had to hide it while I was working with you, but my legal name was on the boarding pass I gave you, so itâs not like I was actively hiding it, sweetheart.â
You scoff under your breath. âOh. Cool. So I was just supposed to⊠whatâfigure that out on my own?â And suddenly, your voice is doing this awful thing now â losing its clean, controlled shape, slipping into something thinner. Hotter.
He hears it immediately, sighing. âSorry⊠but why is this the problem?â he asks, more confused than anything now. âHelp me out here. I mean⊠I thought your mom was what had you upset back there.â
Your eyes roll. âYour name is literally on my paycheck, Gojo. How is that not a problem?â
He stares. Genuinely stares. Because for a second, he doesnât know what to do with that. To him, his name was just a name. The company was just a company. Status had always felt like something other people got weird about first. Not him.
So, like an idiot, he goes for the joke.
âWell⊠technically, I think my name is on a lot of paychecks, soâ"
ââJesus Christ, am I a fucking joke to you?â
And the humor drops out of him so fast it almost startles you. Shit. That backfired tremendously. âWhoaâwhat? No!â He straightens, brow furrowing. âNo, no, no. God, noâsweetheart, of course not. Why would you think that?â
Youâre looking away before he can see what that does to your face, because you hate how quickly his voice goes from careless to cracked. Hate yourself for making it do that.
Damnit.
You know that wasnât fair. He had just gotten you out of there. Seen you unraveling in that airport and stepped in without making it worse. Without making you ask. And still â somehow, in the span of twenty minutes, the whole world had shifted under your feet. Him, your mother, that last name. This damn⊠wedding.
âŠwhy does everything feel so hard to sort through right now?
âJustâŠâ You swallow, shifting towards the window, blinking back tears. âSorry. Donât talk to me right now.â
His expression softens. âCâmon⊠no,â he murmurs. âPlease⊠please donât be like that. Iâm sorry you found out this way. I shouldâve told you sooner.â
The crack in his voice makes everything unbearable, and outside, Tokyo keeps sliding past in fractured light. So, you look at the window because itâs easier than looking at him. Easier than trying to untangle the mess that is your life. Easier than naming what specifically hurts so much.
And easier than asking yourself what, exactly, had been real and what had only ever been off the record.
Clearly, the universe looked at the absolute clusterfuck of this trip and decided it wasn't finished with you yet.
Because apparently, your fake boyfriend had a limo. Your fake boyfriend, who can upgrade your tickets to first class like itâs nothing. Your fake boyfriend who is also, apparently, your boss â and decided to book you at a luxurious five-star hotel in Tokyo while somehow neglecting to mention that part too.
Whatever. Either way, you're too tired to care. Or maybe just too tired to forgive him â despite the way the marble floors and soft gold light whisper luxury around you like an apology you didnât ask for.
All you know, is that by the time the two of you make it upstairs, your silence was beyond awkward and hardened into something heavier. More deliberate. So, the moment the suite door clicks open, youâre beelining to the bedroom.
âGoodnight.â
You mutter it under your breath, shutting yourself into the bathroom before he can answer you. And when you change into your pajamas, you try not to linger in the mirror â because your whole face feels tight from holding yourself together, from trying not to cry for what feels like the hundredth time tonight. And as if that weren't enough, the wedding is tomorrow.
âŠhow the fuck are you supposed to get through that too?!
With an exhausted sigh, you push open the bedroom door, reach back to kill the light, andâ
ââŠwhat are you doing?â you deadpan, stopping cold in the entryway. Because at the foot of the bed, you find Satoru in sweats, crouched on the floor, carefully spreading a blanket across it. He smooths the corner flat and those blue eyes flick up, then drop back down.
âMaking myself comfortable?â
âŠ
That explains absolutely nothing.
Your brows pull together. âOkaaayâŠ? Clearly. Butâwhy?â Rolling your eyes, your arms cross. âDonât tell me you fucked up the reservation. I mean, youâre the one who booked this place. Donât you have your own suite?â
âYup. I do.â
He says it so easily it almost irritates you more. You watch him fluff the pillow and set it on the floor like this is perfectly normal behavior for a man who can apparently summon private drivers and spend obscene amounts of money at the drop of a hat.
Your teeth grit. âGreat. So go lay in your bed.â
Exhaling through his nose, he lowers himself onto the marble like itâs no different than a mattress. One arm tucks behind his head, the other rests over his stomach, all lazy limbs and impossible calm.
âNah,â he says. âThink Iâll sleep here. Promised you wouldnât be alone this trip.â
And the universe, apparently, hadn't taken quite enough from your dignity yet. Because you find yourself genuinely speechless.
For a moment, you just stand there looking at him â at the ridiculous length of him stretched out across the floor, at the fact that he has a whole bed somewhere else and was still choosing this â and at how he somehow managed to make the gesture feel casual enough not to embarrass you and sincere enough that it did anyway.
ââŠsuit yourself,â you grumble, stomping over to your bed.
You yank the covers back and climb in with an irritated sweep, reaching over to find the light. Darkness folds over the room in one soft rush, and for a while, thereâs only the low hum of air conditioning and the distant glow of Tokyo bleeding dimly through the curtains. Somewhere beneath it all, you can hear the faint rustle of fabric from the floor, the small settling sound of him getting comfortable.
âŠ
Or trying to.
You lie stiffly on your side, facing away from the edge of the bed that he lays, staring into the dark like you can force your mind to shut up if you just do it hard enough.
UghâŠ
Despite how tired you are, sleep feels impossible.
Rolling your eyes, you pick up your pillow and shift to the other side of the bed with an annoyed little huff. And thereâs the broad line of his back in the dark. One arm folded under his head, the other sprawled carelessly over the blanket, like this is all perfectly normal. Like sleeping on the marble floor in a five-star hotel is not objectively unhinged behavior.
ââŠyouâre actually gonna sleep down there?â you mutter into the dark.
âMm.â His voice comes easy, amused. âYou should be sleeping, missy.â
âSo should you,â you huff. âIn a bed.â
Chuckling, he shifts onto his back, sprawling out like a starfish. He hums. âNahhh,â and an exaggerated exhale breathes out of him, tired. âThe floorâs fine. Iâm reconnecting with the earth. Re-centering. Some might say itâs very⊠grounding.â
You can hear that pleased little smirk of his, even in the dark, and it pulls a snort out of you before you can stop it. ââŠwow, seriously?â Biting back a grin. âYouâre so stupid.â
He laughs under his breath. âYeah⊠maybe. Wouldnât be the first time Iâve been called that. Probably wonât be the last, either. ButâŠâ With a tired sigh, he drapes his arm over his face, half-hiding in the dark. ââŠguess Iâd rather be stupid than leave you alone, though.â
The words slip out, and the room goes strangely quiet. Something tender and awful pulling tight in your throat as you stare down at him for a second too long.
âŠwhat are you even supposed to do with that? With him?
Heâs down there on the floor, keeping a promise you never asked him to make.
Swallowing, your fingers tighten on the blanket. ââŠhey, Satoru?â That low hum answers, and you hesitate, staring at the dark shape of him on the floor, your heart doing something stupid and uncomfortable against your ribs.
âCome up here,â you blurt.
âŠ
Silence.
âWait⊠huh?â
Your eyes squeeze shut.
As if saying it once wasnât bad enough.
âI-I meanâŠâ youâre shifting onto your back, staring hard at the ceiling because looking at him suddenly feels impossible. âI just⊠thereâs plenty of room, so justâcome up.â
âŠ
Heâs quiet just long enough to make your face burn hotter. And when heâs pushing himself onto one elbow, even in the dark, you can feel the disbelief radiating off of him like heat.
âUh⊠right,â he laughs awkwardly. âI think the jet lagâs getting to me, because thereâs no way I heard that right unless youâre fucking with me.â
You cover your face with a groan.
Oh, for fuckâs sake. âChrist, stop making this harderââ you snap, voice rising. âIâm serious you idiot! Because youâre not making me feel worse tonight by sleeping on the goddamn floorâso hurry and get your ass up here beforeââ
ââyes maâam.â
Heâs moving before you can rethink the entire thing, despite how your pulse is suddenly loud in your own ears. You scoot over, clutching the blanket to your chest, and the mattress dips beneath his weight â the sheets rustle. His body shifts. And then everything goes still.
âŠtoo still.
All you can do is lie there. Stiff. Acutely, helplessly aware of him. But itâs dark â mercifully dark â and thank god for that, because you donât think you could survive seeing his face right now. Not this close. Not after that. Not with your own invitation still echoing back at you like something youâd like to physically retrieve out of thin air.
âSooooâŠâ he mumbles, fingers tapping the mattress. âUm⊠for the record, this is like⊠significantly nicer than my original arrangement. Way less marble.â
Despite the nerves, his words loosen a laugh from your chest. ââŠyeah? Well, good,â you mutter, tugging the blanket a little higher. âBecause honestly, the level of commitment you were showing that floor was a little concerning.â
He chuckles. âTrue, true.â And suddenly, you can hear the lazy stretch of a grin in his voice. âBuuuut I mean⊠I wasnât about to lose our first fightânot as your boyfriend.â
Your breath catches. âW-WowâŠâ You huff like thatâll cover it. âYouâum⊠got real comfortable with that word fast,â you mutter, trying for dry and missing by a mile.
A low hum. âI'm a committed man. What can I say?â and his voice is all smug velvet and sleep-rough warmth. âMmm⊠I kinda like the sound of it, actually.â
The words land lower than they should. Because that should not sound as good as it does.
âD-Donât⊠donât say it like that,â you stammer.
The mattress dips.
âMm?â he whispers. ââŠwell, how else should I say it, princess?â
âŠ
Fake.
Fake boyfriend.
The word lands somewhere quiet and ugly under your ribs, and all at once the warmth of the bed feels strange against your skin. Because that's what this is. What it has to be. A role. A weekend. A lie with soft edges and an expiration date. AndâŠ
âJustânevermindâŠâ you mutter, shoving it down, repositioning your pillow. âLaying in a bed with my boss was not really on my bingo card for this trip. Or finding out halfway through it, apparently.â
He scoffs. âIâm not your boss. My dadâs your boss.â A humorless breath leaves you. âYeah? Well, that is not as comforting a distinction as you think it is, Gojo, when your name is still on myââ
ââSatoru,â he corrects softly.
You blink into the dark.
âWait. Sorry⊠what?â
A small huff leaves him, almost annoyed, almost something softer. âItâs justâŠâ he grumbles, shifting against the sheets, âI like it a lot better when you call me SatoruâŠâ And even without seeing him, you can hear it.
Is he⊠pouting?
The fabric rustles again as he shifts. âLookâŠâ he says after a beat, and the teasing has gone out of his voice now. âIâm sorry I didnât tell you sooner. I justâŠâ He exhales through his nose. âI didnât think hearing my last name would make you start acting like I was suddenly somebody else...?â
Your lashes flutter as he scoots closer, and this time, your breath catches. Because a thin line of moonlight slips through the curtains, cutting across the bed just enough to catch him there. The loose fall of white hair over his forehead, the softened line of his mouth, the pale blue of his eyes gone dim and almost silver in the dark.
âAndâŠâ His voice lowers, softer now. âI guess I didnât realize how much I liked just being Satoru to you..." Those blue eyes dip to your lips, just for a second, before lifting back to yours. His breath hitches.
âYâknow Iâm still me⊠right?â He whispers.
As his breath fans across your face, you feel fingers slipping over yours, careful enough to feel like a question, and your pulse does something wild. Because for one suspended second, he doesnât look real. He looks like something half-dreamed.
Beautiful.
âRightâŠâ you breathe, the word thin. âI know that, and⊠I-Iâm sorry for lashing out at you earlier. I just⊠I wasnât expecting any of this, and then everything at the airport andâand godâand then my mom andâ"
The words are tumbling out now, too fast, too loose, and even in the dark you feel laid open by them. Bare in a way that makes you want to snatch every one back. Because there he is, looking at you with that same unbearable patience, thumb brushing over the back of your hand in slow, absent strokes, his mouth tipped in a smile so soft it almost feels private.
âŠyours.
And thatâs whatâs terrifying. He feels like something you could lean into. Like warmth can be simple. Unconditional. Real.
ButâŠ
Nothing in your life has ever taught you how to lean into warmth without waiting for the condition beneath it. Without turning it over, looking for the fine print. So, perhaps thatâs why, when his thumb brushes over your hand again, you pull away.
And his frown is instant.
âI-IâŠâ Your eyes squeeze shut as you clear your throat. âSorry.â The word comes out frayed. âI want you to know I appreciate you doing this. Genuinely. ButâŠâ You swallow hard around the ache pressing at the base of your throat. âTomorrow is it.â
The room goes so quiet you can hear the air conditioning hum.
His brow furrows, pushing himself up on his elbow. âUm⊠what are you saying?â He scoffs, lips pulling into a disbelieving grin. âI donât understand. Why are you acting like everythingââ
ââafter this is over,â you blurt, chest rising. âYou can justâforget all this happened, okay?â And your voice thins. Blinking back tears, your eyes flick away. âThatâs it. Youâll forget about me. You go back to your life. I go back to mine. Just like we agreed andââ
ââI donât remember agreeing to that.â
Your eyes glance back from the hurt in his voice, and somehow that only makes it worse. Because...
Why?
Why does he have to look at you like that?
You exhale shakily. âI think we both need sleep more than we need this conversation, soâŠâ The blanket is already up at your chin by the time the words leave you. âLetâs⊠leave it at that. Okay? Iâm exhausted," you whisper. "Goodnight, Satoru.â
Shifting away, you roll onto your side before he can say anything else, before he can make this harder than it already is. The bed gives with a quiet creak behind you.
âGoodnight, sweetheart.â
And you lie there, holding yourself rigid, as if that could undo the part of you that almost turned back.
Still. Despite how tired you are⊠sleep feels impossible.
a/n. oof. sorry for leaving you on the angst đ but this felt like the right place to split it so part 3 can be fully wedding-focused. tysm for reading! i'm blown away by all your support. he's literally so patient and attentive, whaaa. i wanna eat him up đ
ê° summary ê± when a misunderstanding leaves your family convinced youâre bringing a plus one to your cousinâs wedding in Japan, the last person you expect to volunteer for the role is your infuriatingly observant intern, Satoru. itâs supposed to be temporary. professional. strictly off the record. but with your mother already sold on the idea of your mystery boyfriend, and Satoru proving far too good at the role, pretending starts to feel a little too dangerous. also, why is your âinternâ secretly the heir to gojo corporation?!
ê° tags/warnings ê± fake dating âčïž undercover ceo! satoru âčïž accountant! reader âčïž satoru is 29, reader is 26 âčïž lots of family pressure. reader has a complicated relationship with her mom âčïž forced proximity âčïž one bed trope âčïž slow burn âčïž mutual pining âčïž wedding chaos âčïž angst and fluff âčïž some suggestive content but no explicit smut âčïž
ê° authors note ê± surpriseeee â this is 3 parts now hehe. satoru is still our lovingly annoying sweetheart here, but this part does have a bit more angst than the last. nothing too wild though⊠just a whole lot of yearning and our poor reader being very committed to denial. i hope you enjoy! part 3 will be the last one. (art by @/hanamin_0123 on x)
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part 2
âMaâam, may I interest you in our menu?â the flight attendant asks, leaning in with a practiced smile.
"Ohâum. Yes... thank you."
The thick, cream-colored menu lands in your hands a second later, and you settle into your seat just as she disappears down the aisle. A seat that is far too comfortable for the current state of your life. But thatâs the thing about first class â it makes it very hard to be appropriately miserable, and you are trying to be miserable right now. You are committed to it.
âIf you need recommendations⊠I recommend the wagyu.â Satoru leans in, close enough that his breath feathers warm against the side of your neck. âItâs to die for.â
He grins, blue eyes glinting behind snowy lashes. And unfortunately, the wagyu isnât the thing currently putting your life at risk. Because a shiver moves through you before you can stop it.
âO-OhâŠâ your head jerks away, quickly. âUh-huh⊠sure.â
Refusing to turn, you keep your eyes stubbornly on the cabin â denying him the satisfaction of seeing what his closeness does to the treacherous, backstabbing organ inside your chest. But you catch him in your periphery â leaning back, entirely unbothered, reaching for his own menu with that pleased little hum that means, of course, he notices.
Ugh.
This is going to be a long-ass ten-hour flight. And first class, as it turns out, is only roomy when you arenât seated beside the exact person currently making your pulse act deeply unprofessional.
âŠ
Wait. When did you pulse start doing that?!
Miserable, you remind yourself. Yeah. Miserable.
With a sigh, you click your seatbelt into place and flip open the menu, genuinely trying to build a case for why this is the worst decision youâve ever made. Unfortunately, it is hard to maintain righteous regret when the menu has no prices on it. Not one. Just elegant font, artful descriptions, and ingredients arranged like poetry.
âŠyouâd booked economy.
Economy.
But then heâd upgraded your tickets last minute like that was a normal thing a person did â insisting you fly with him. Like swapping someoneâs middle seat for a first-class cocoon with a duvet and a champagne flute was just⊠hospitality.
âUm⊠Satoru?â Your brow arches as you take in the absurdly extravagant menu. âHow much does this cost, exactlyâŠ?â He doesnât even glance up. âMm? Oh.â Flipping a page, his hand waves lazily. âDonât worry about it.â
âŠ
Donât worry about it?
You are very much worrying about it. Because how the hell does an intern afford this?! You know how much interns make at your company; youâve worked with HR, signed off on the numbers â and it is categorically not this.
But fine. Whatever. That is, somehow, the least of your problems right now. And your mind was already veering back toward the more immediate catastrophe currently taxiing toward the runway.
Your family.
âRight⊠well. Anyways, Satoru,â you say, setting the menu down. âWe should probably establish the basics before we get to Japan andââ
ââwhat do you like to eat?â
You blink, lips parting.
âIâsorryâŠwhat?â
âI like sweets,â he says, turning toward you. A toothy grin spreads across his face, dimples peeking. âLetâs see⊠cake, cream buns, mochiâŠâ he muses. âOh! Especially kikifuku mochi, itâs the best.â He nods solemnly. âHonestly, I think itâs the whipped cream inside that really makes the difference.â
Your brow furrows as you stare at him.
âŠwhen did this become a TED talk about sugar? You were trying to discuss a plan, and he is out here curating a dessert menu like the most pressing crisis of the next ten hours is pastry selection.
âOkayâŠ? Thatâs nice. But we should talk aboutââ
âFood,â he states, picking up the menu you just set down. He flips it open and angles it back toward you like that is the only sensible conversation available. âCâmon. What do you like? Not what youâll settle for⊠what youâll actually like. Ten hours is a long time, sweetheart.â
Brow knitting, you frown.
He cannot be serious. That is not the priority right now.
âThatâthat can wait. We need toââ
ââestablish the basics, yeah.â He rolls his eyes and tips his head back against the seat, like your resistance is personally exhausting him. But then his gaze flicks back, amused. âAnd Iâm just saying food is a basic necessity. Because you skip lunch when youâre busy, forget breakfast when youâre anxious, and then act shocked when you feel like shit three hours later. So, eat.â He places the menu back in your hands. âPreferably something that isnât stale pretzels, yeah?â
Something hot and startled climbs your neck so fast itâs almost impressive. Your mouth opens, but whatever rebuttal is forming never makes it. Because before you can recoverâ
âHonestly, I gotta say⊠the soba is pretty good too, actually.â His face is suddenly just over your shoulder, murmuring close enough that you feel the heat of him against your ear. âIf you donât want the wagyu, that is. Waitâscratch that. Maybe ramenâŠ?â His finger traces a line on the menu, pale lashes lowering, tongue clinking gently. âMm⊠never mind. Too much broth and there could be turbulence.â
Your whole body stiffens. Because his closeness does not feel unwelcome. Which is exactly the problem.
âŠwhen did he get so comfortable?!
ââŠstop doing that,â you mutter, pulling back. He looks over, the picture of innocence. âDoing what?â
Your lips purse.
âI dunno. BeingâŠâ  But the word dissolves, and you're reaching for your water, needing something to do with your hands. âSo⊠comfortable. Soââ You cut yourself off with a small huff. âLike this.â
His grin is unbearable, lazy and crooked.
âOh?â he reclines. âLike what, baby?â
You sputter into your water.
âBaby?â
Youâre choking on your drink, and Satoru looks entirely too pleased with himself. He's chuckling, leaning over without a second thought, one hand settling warm between your shoulder blades.
âAwwh⊠whatâs this? Donât be shy now,â he hums, the picture of helpfulness, rubbing slow circles with a sigh. âWeâre gonna have to get way cozier than this if Iâm playing boyfriend. Just establishing the basics, yeah?â
As you straighten with a glare, you can tell without a doubt he is openly enjoying himself. That grin hasnât moved a goddamn inch.
âŠasshole.
Huffing, you settle back into your seat. And it isnât long before the plane shudders gently away from the gate, inching out onto the runway with that slow, terrible sense of inevitability that only air travel is capable of producing.
âLadies and gentlemen, at this time please ensure your seatbelt is securely fastened⊠flight attendants, prepare for departure.â
The overhead announcement crackles through the cabin, too polished to be comforting. While beneath you, the whole plane seems to draw tight, a low hum building through the floor, climbing up through your seat.
You exhale, letting your eyes fall shut. Just long enough to pretend you werenât here. Just long enough to avoid the window, the runway, and the deeply unhelpful fact that your brain liked to save all its worst thoughts for takeoff.
âŠlike how first class wasnât exactly known for improving your odds. Like how takeoff and landing were statistically the worst parts. Like how the engine sounded different now, probably⊠maybe, andâ
âHey.â
Satoruâs voice came quieter this time; enough to pull your eyes back open. When you look over, that vibrant blue is already watching you â steady, unhurried, like he has been waiting for you to surface.
âAre you⊠nervous?â
âWhat? N-NoâŠâ you lie, huffing. His brow arches, sensing your bullshit. âOkay⊠then why are you doing that with your hands?â
Following his gaze, your fingers had folded into fists without even noticing, in that particular way they always do when youâre trying to physically hold yourself together.
Fuck.
Itâs ridiculous, really. You knew flying was statistically safe! Knew it the way you knew balance sheets and quarterly projections and the exact percentage margins that kept departments alive. And yet, takeoff had always felt like the part where logic starts losing altitude.
âOhâŠâ A small, awkward laugh slips out, just as the engine begins to roar. You smooth your palms over your trembling thighs, shouting over it. âItâs fine! Really! I just⊠umâI guess I donât particularly like takeoff, is all!â
His expression softens in a way you werenât braced for. But before he can answer, the plane surges forward and your eyes squeeze shut. A massive force presses you back into the seat while vibrations climb through the floor and up your spine.
Itâs terrible. Completely terrible. But somewhere in the middle of it, a warm hand slides against yours. It takes you a second to register his fingers lacing between your own, and the moment his thumb brushes the back of your hand, you instinctively grip him tighter.
Your eyes stay shut, but you feel the plane lift hard and fast into the sky. And somewhere between the roar of the engines and that awful pull in your stomach, the slow circles his thumb traces against your skin become the only thing your body seems willing to trust.
By the time the pressure eases and the plane finally levels out, your lungs have only just remembered how to work. For a second, neither of you moves untilâ
ââŠbetter?â
His voice brushes the quiet between you. You blink your eyes open.
âYeahâŠâ you whisper. âUm⊠thanks.â
He smiles. âSure.â
That thumb brushes one last time against the back of your hand before finally pulling away, dropping back into his lap with a simple nod like it had been nothing. And the loss of that warmth was immediate enough to sting.
OhâŠ
Heâs⊠annoyingly good at taking care of you. And worse, your body had recognized it before your brain could file the proper objection â clinging first, thinking later, like comfort was something you could afford to trust.
Maybe the altitude was messing with your headâŠ
Ten hours was a long time.
Long enough to work out the safest parts of the lie. How long youâve been together. Where you met. Which version of the truth felt neat enough to survive one wedding weekend without collapsing under the weight of follow-up questions.
It was just⊠not long enough, apparently, for the parts that actually mattered.
âSoooo⊠questionâŠâ Satoru had stretched lazily, turning his glass between two fingers as he glanced over. âWhat exactly should I expect when we land?â
You kept your attention on the blanket across your lap, flattening a wrinkle. âProbably⊠jet lag?â you mutter sarcastically, avoiding his gaze, fussing with the fabric. âAnd a long enough drive to regret everything in peace.â
He snorts. âWell, yeah. Obviously.â Ice clicked softly as he tipped his glass, shifting toward you. âNot what I meant, though. I meant with your family.â
And when the warmth of his attention settled against the side of your face â you hesitated. Because it was patient in a way that only made it harder to meet. Patient in the way of someone whoâs learned that pushing doesnât work on you. Which youâre unsure is better, or worse. Because waiting means heâs paying attention, and paying attention means heâll notice when you crack.
âWeâll just⊠talk about that later,â you huffed, tugging the blanket a little higher before turning toward the window. âIâm tired. Gonna try to sleep.â
Later⊠yeah. Later.
But by baggage claim, you were running out of runway. You had to do it soon. Get it over with. Preferably somewhere between the airport and your hotel, where you could spit it out quickly and not have to watch his face too closely while you did.
So now, Satoru yawns beside the conveyor belt, tired blue eyes skimming the slow parade of suitcases rounding the carousel. Hands in his pockets, shoulders loose, posture easy in a way that only makes you more tense. You stand there staring at the back of him, fingers hooked tight in the seam of your shirt.
Now.
âHey⊠Satoru?â you mumble. âHm?â His gaze lands on your luggage and heâs already stepping forward to grab it. âUm, wellâŠâ You hesitate. âAbout my family⊠Iâ"
ââoh! Lookâlook! There they are!â
The moment her voice rings through the terminal, everything inside you locks. You turn, and for one wild second, you genuinely wonder if itâs too late to get back on that godforsaken plane.
Satoru hauls your suitcase off the belt.
âWhat about them?â he asks, turning when you stop short. Then he sees your face. ââŠsweetheart?â His brows furrow, following your line of sight â and there is your mother, cutting through the crowd with Trish beside her, moving with the kind of delighted urgency you arenât prepared to see for at least another twelve hours.
No.
No, no, no.
ââoh my god, there he is!â Your mother walks straight past you â past you â and both hands are wrapping around Satoruâs like heâs who she came for. "Oh, he's handsome. Trish, lookâ"
Itâs no surprise, really, that youâre a second thought. Youâve been a second thought since before you could name it. But that isnât the wound that matters at this particular moment. The bigger problem is that sheâs here.
âŠwhy the hell is she here?!
You were supposed to have more timeâ
ââoh my god,â Trish breathes to you. âDamn. girl. Heâs, like⊠stupid handsome.â And Satoruâs grin went smug, drawling. âOh, please, ladies. Keep the compliments coming. Iâm feeling very welcomed~â
Your mother giggles. âHandsome and funny. Oh, heâs a charmer,â she says, smacking his shoulder playfully. Though the laugh lands bitter. âGod. Why on earth would she keep you from me?! I mean⊠wow. I was beginning to think sheâd die alone.â
The words hit like a slap dressed as a joke.
Satoru blinks, the smile faltering for half a second, head tilting imperceptibly.
âŠgreat.
Of fucking course sheâd say something like that within the first thirty seconds.
âMother⊠whatââ your voice wavers, eyes falling shut with a swallow. âSorry. I justâwhat are you both doing here?â
She did a tiny double take, like sheâd only just remembered you were standing there. âOh, honeyâŠâ A hand waves, scoffing. âDonât be sillyâof course weâre here to pick you up! God. I wouldnât leave you stranded at the airport,â she snorts.
Oh, right.
So she wouldnât abandon you at an airport. Just in another country.
âŠgood to know there's a line somewhere.
âBesides, why donât you both just stay with us instead?â sheâs already reaching for Satoruâs hand again, bright with the idea. âWeâve got a guest room ready, and Iâd love for the chance to talk to you.â
Your body goes rigid.
Oh no. Fuck no.
Anything but that.
Satoru must have seen it written across your face â that particular shade of panic âbecause his eyes cut to you for only half a second before he slips his hand free, turning back to your mother with a smile already in place.
âThatâs incredibly kind, maâam,â he says, tugging you into his side with an ease that shouldnât have felt as steadying as it did. âBut weâre staying pretty close to my familyâs place, and I should probably swing by tomorrow morning.â He rubs the back of his neck with a theatrical groan. âItâs been a few months since Iâve seen my father, and trust me, Iâll regret it if he finds out I came to Tokyo and didnât stop by, yâknow?â
Apparently, ten hours isnât long enough for the parts that actually matter, becauseâŠ
âOh? Your familyâs place?â your mother repeats, brows lifting. âSo, are they here in Tokyo too, then?â He nods. âMm, yeah. Pretty much all the Gojos areâat least on my dadâs side. My momâs in Kyoto.â
âŠ
Wait.
Did he just say Gojo?
As inâ
Your bossâs family?!
No. Absolutely not. Between the jet lag, the shock, and your mother still glowing beside you, your brain simply does not have the bandwidth for this. Your lips part, blinking like that might somehow rearrange what he just said into something less insane.
Nothing comes out.
âGojoâŠâ your mother repeats, brows knitting. âWhy does that sound familiar?â Trish blinks. "Waitâlike⊠Gojo Corporation Gojo?!"
Satoruâs grin widens. âYep. Thatâd be us.â
âAh!â Your mother snaps her fingers. âGojo Corporation. Yesâof course! Silly me. I thought that name seemed familiarâŠâ
And now, the hurt arrives before the shock finishes landing â ugly and precise and aimed at the exact spot that never heals right. Five years of your work, your career, your life inside that building. But she only knows it because a handsome man says it in a terminal.
You stare. âMom⊠you can't be serious?â and the hurt in your own voice catches you off guard. âIâve⊠I've literally been working at Gojo Corporation for the last five years.â
Fuck...
Get it together.
Out of the corner of your eye, Satoru watches you. But your mother moves on like youâre invisible.
âOh Satoru Gojo, you just keep getting better and better.â You feel him hesitating as she tugs eagerly. âComeâcome! At least let us drive you both to the hotel, hm? Thereâs so much I need to hear andââ
ââsorry maâam, no.â
Satoruâs pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. And you blink while his fingers smooth gently through your hair, tipping your chin up with a long finger.
âHonestly, Iâm beatâŠâ His thumb brushes your cheek, gaze searching your face. ââŠarenât you, love?â
Thereâs a hitch in your breath
Oh.
So⊠youâre not invisible?
As it leaves you in a quiet shudder, for one suspended second, there is nothing but that soft blue of his eyes and the way theyâve gone gentle for you. All you can do is nod â and a single tear slips free before you can stop it.
He tucks you against his chest, hiding your face, and flashes a grin back at your mother.
âUgh⊠I appreciate you coming to get us, but weâve been up for way too long andââ Glancing down at his phone, he lets out a small laugh. âAh. Perfect timing! Would ya look at thatâmy driverâs here.â A tug of your hand. âBut weâll catch up tomorrow, yeah? Bye, ladies~â
Your legs are moving on their own, and you donât even catch the expression on your motherâs face. Canât. Not when your pulse is still tripping over itself. Not when his hand wraps around yours like letting go isnât even a question.
The suitcase rolled behind you, with the airport crowd bustling. While those bright eyes flicked back, making sure you were still there every few steps.
âCâmon, pretty girl⊠weâre almost there,â he murmurs. âJust stay with me, okay? Eyes on me, yeah?â
And⊠you werenât sure why he lowered his voice. Not when they were already well out of earshot. You only know that⊠it nearly undoes you all over again.
By the time the limo pulls away from the curb, Satoru had already figured out two things: your mother was awful, and somehow, heâd gotten you out of there only to realize he hadnât fully brought you back with him.
Itâs the furrow in your brow that gets him first⊠then the wobble in your lip â the one you think youâre hiding, the one you always think youâre hiding. You havenât said a word since climbing into the backseat. Havenât looked at him either. Instead, you stay toward the window, watching Tokyo slip by in blurred ribbons of light, glowing against the glass in streaks of neon. A city that has no business being that beautiful when you look that broken.
âŠshit. Should he crack a joke? No. Maybe not.
But asking if youâre okay feels useless. You obviously arenât. And worse, saying it out loud feels like the fastest way to make you disappear even further behind that window â to watch you pull the shutters down the way you always do.
âWell, thenâŠâ A hand drags through his hair as he lets his head fall back against the seat. âUm⊠gotta sayâyour family really believes in making an entrance, huh? Talk aboutââ
ââI thought your name was Satoru Geto.â
He blinks.
âHuh?â
Your gaze finally pulls from the window, landing on him, and the hurt in it is so carefully contained it almost looks like composure. Almost. Except heâs spent four months learning to read you, and composure doesnât tremble at the edges like that.
ââŠSatoru Geto,â you mutter carefully. âThatâs the name on your employee record, no?â
Oh...
Right. That.
ââŠis it?â His gaze slips away, fingers scratching at the back of his neck. âYeah⊠um. About that. Getoâs actually my best friend. I just used his last name because the initials matched.â Heâs flopping back against the seat with a small shrug, one arm slinging across the top. âMade it easier to sign off on stuff that way. Gotta work smarter, not harder, right?â
And tilting his head, a crooked grin tugs at the corner of his lips.
Yours doesnât move.
âRight,â you deadpan, turning back toward the window. âSo your plan was to just let me keep calling you that.â
You donât say it like a question.
âŠis it a question?
Satoruâs brow furrows at the hurt threaded beneath the words. âNo⊠Iââ he huffs, hands dropping into his lap. âObviously I had to hide it while I was working with you, but my legal name was on the boarding pass I gave you, so itâs not like I was actively hiding it, sweetheart.â
You scoff under your breath. âOh. Cool. So I was just supposed to⊠whatâfigure that out on my own?â And suddenly, your voice is doing this awful thing now â losing its clean, controlled shape, slipping into something thinner. Hotter.
He hears it immediately, sighing. âSorry⊠but why is this the problem?â he asks, more confused than anything now. âHelp me out here. I mean⊠I thought your mom was what had you upset back there.â
Your eyes roll. âYour name is literally on my paycheck, Gojo. How is that not a problem?â
He stares. Genuinely stares. Because for a second, he doesnât know what to do with that. To him, his name was just a name. The company was just a company. Status had always felt like something other people got weird about first. Not him.
So, like an idiot, he goes for the joke.
âWell⊠technically, I think my name is on a lot of paychecks, soâ"
ââJesus Christ, am I a fucking joke to you?â
And the humor drops out of him so fast it almost startles you. Shit. That backfired tremendously. âWhoaâwhat? No!â He straightens, brow furrowing. âNo, no, no. God, noâsweetheart, of course not. Why would you think that?â
Youâre looking away before he can see what that does to your face, because you hate how quickly his voice goes from careless to cracked. Hate yourself for making it do that.
Damnit.
You know that wasnât fair. He had just gotten you out of there. Seen you unraveling in that airport and stepped in without making it worse. Without making you ask. And still â somehow, in the span of twenty minutes, the whole world had shifted under your feet. Him, your mother, that last name. This damn⊠wedding.
âŠwhy does everything feel so hard to sort through right now?
âJustâŠâ You swallow, shifting towards the window, blinking back tears. âSorry. Donât talk to me right now.â
His expression softens. âCâmon⊠no,â he murmurs. âPlease⊠please donât be like that. Iâm sorry you found out this way. I shouldâve told you sooner.â
The crack in his voice makes everything unbearable, and outside, Tokyo keeps sliding past in fractured light. So, you look at the window because itâs easier than looking at him. Easier than trying to untangle the mess that is your life. Easier than naming what specifically hurts so much.
And easier than asking yourself what, exactly, had been real and what had only ever been off the record.
Clearly, the universe looked at the absolute clusterfuck of this trip and decided it wasn't finished with you yet.
Because apparently, your fake boyfriend had a limo. Your fake boyfriend, who can upgrade your tickets to first class like itâs nothing. Your fake boyfriend who is also, apparently, your boss â and decided to book you at a luxurious five-star hotel in Tokyo while somehow neglecting to mention that part too.
Whatever. Either way, you're too tired to care. Or maybe just too tired to forgive him â despite the way the marble floors and soft gold light whisper luxury around you like an apology you didnât ask for.
All you know, is that by the time the two of you make it upstairs, your silence was beyond awkward and hardened into something heavier. More deliberate. So, the moment the suite door clicks open, youâre beelining to the bedroom.
âGoodnight.â
You mutter it under your breath, shutting yourself into the bathroom before he can answer you. And when you change into your pajamas, you try not to linger in the mirror â because your whole face feels tight from holding yourself together, from trying not to cry for what feels like the hundredth time tonight. And as if that weren't enough, the wedding is tomorrow.
âŠhow the fuck are you supposed to get through that too?!
With an exhausted sigh, you push open the bedroom door, reach back to kill the light, andâ
ââŠwhat are you doing?â you deadpan, stopping cold in the entryway. Because at the foot of the bed, you find Satoru in sweats, crouched on the floor, carefully spreading a blanket across it. He smooths the corner flat and those blue eyes flick up, then drop back down.
âMaking myself comfortable?â
âŠ
That explains absolutely nothing.
Your brows pull together. âOkaaayâŠ? Clearly. Butâwhy?â Rolling your eyes, your arms cross. âDonât tell me you fucked up the reservation. I mean, youâre the one who booked this place. Donât you have your own suite?â
âYup. I do.â
He says it so easily it almost irritates you more. You watch him fluff the pillow and set it on the floor like this is perfectly normal behavior for a man who can apparently summon private drivers and spend obscene amounts of money at the drop of a hat.
Your teeth grit. âGreat. So go lay in your bed.â
Exhaling through his nose, he lowers himself onto the marble like itâs no different than a mattress. One arm tucks behind his head, the other rests over his stomach, all lazy limbs and impossible calm.
âNah,â he says. âThink Iâll sleep here. Promised you wouldnât be alone this trip.â
And the universe, apparently, hadn't taken quite enough from your dignity yet. Because you find yourself genuinely speechless.
For a moment, you just stand there looking at him â at the ridiculous length of him stretched out across the floor, at the fact that he has a whole bed somewhere else and was still choosing this â and at how he somehow managed to make the gesture feel casual enough not to embarrass you and sincere enough that it did anyway.
ââŠsuit yourself,â you grumble, stomping over to your bed.
You yank the covers back and climb in with an irritated sweep, reaching over to find the light. Darkness folds over the room in one soft rush, and for a while, thereâs only the low hum of air conditioning and the distant glow of Tokyo bleeding dimly through the curtains. Somewhere beneath it all, you can hear the faint rustle of fabric from the floor, the small settling sound of him getting comfortable.
âŠ
Or trying to.
You lie stiffly on your side, facing away from the edge of the bed that he lays, staring into the dark like you can force your mind to shut up if you just do it hard enough.
UghâŠ
Despite how tired you are, sleep feels impossible.
Rolling your eyes, you pick up your pillow and shift to the other side of the bed with an annoyed little huff. And thereâs the broad line of his back in the dark. One arm folded under his head, the other sprawled carelessly over the blanket, like this is all perfectly normal. Like sleeping on the marble floor in a five-star hotel is not objectively unhinged behavior.
ââŠyouâre actually gonna sleep down there?â you mutter into the dark.
âMm.â His voice comes easy, amused. âYou should be sleeping, missy.â
âSo should you,â you huff. âIn a bed.â
Chuckling, he shifts onto his back, sprawling out like a starfish. He hums. âNahhh,â and an exaggerated exhale breathes out of him, tired. âThe floorâs fine. Iâm reconnecting with the earth. Re-centering. Some might say itâs very⊠grounding.â
You can hear that pleased little smirk of his, even in the dark, and it pulls a snort out of you before you can stop it. ââŠwow, seriously?â Biting back a grin. âYouâre so stupid.â
He laughs under his breath. âYeah⊠maybe. Wouldnât be the first time Iâve been called that. Probably wonât be the last, either. ButâŠâ With a tired sigh, he drapes his arm over his face, half-hiding in the dark. ââŠguess Iâd rather be stupid than leave you alone, though.â
The words slip out, and the room goes strangely quiet. Something tender and awful pulling tight in your throat as you stare down at him for a second too long.
âŠwhat are you even supposed to do with that? With him?
Heâs down there on the floor, keeping a promise you never asked him to make.
Swallowing, your fingers tighten on the blanket. ââŠhey, Satoru?â That low hum answers, and you hesitate, staring at the dark shape of him on the floor, your heart doing something stupid and uncomfortable against your ribs.
âCome up here,â you blurt.
âŠ
Silence.
âWait⊠huh?â
Your eyes squeeze shut.
As if saying it once wasnât bad enough.
âI-I meanâŠâ youâre shifting onto your back, staring hard at the ceiling because looking at him suddenly feels impossible. âI just⊠thereâs plenty of room, so justâcome up.â
âŠ
Heâs quiet just long enough to make your face burn hotter. And when heâs pushing himself onto one elbow, even in the dark, you can feel the disbelief radiating off of him like heat.
âUh⊠right,â he laughs awkwardly. âI think the jet lagâs getting to me, because thereâs no way I heard that right unless youâre fucking with me.â
You cover your face with a groan.
Oh, for fuckâs sake. âChrist, stop making this harderââ you snap, voice rising. âIâm serious you idiot! Because youâre not making me feel worse tonight by sleeping on the goddamn floorâso hurry and get your ass up here beforeââ
ââyes maâam.â
Heâs moving before you can rethink the entire thing, despite how your pulse is suddenly loud in your own ears. You scoot over, clutching the blanket to your chest, and the mattress dips beneath his weight â the sheets rustle. His body shifts. And then everything goes still.
âŠtoo still.
All you can do is lie there. Stiff. Acutely, helplessly aware of him. But itâs dark â mercifully dark â and thank god for that, because you donât think you could survive seeing his face right now. Not this close. Not after that. Not with your own invitation still echoing back at you like something youâd like to physically retrieve out of thin air.
âSooooâŠâ he mumbles, fingers tapping the mattress. âUm⊠for the record, this is like⊠significantly nicer than my original arrangement. Way less marble.â
Despite the nerves, his words loosen a laugh from your chest. ââŠyeah? Well, good,â you mutter, tugging the blanket a little higher. âBecause honestly, the level of commitment you were showing that floor was a little concerning.â
He chuckles. âTrue, true.â And suddenly, you can hear the lazy stretch of a grin in his voice. âBuuuut I mean⊠I wasnât about to lose our first fightânot as your boyfriend.â
Your breath catches. âW-WowâŠâ You huff like thatâll cover it. âYouâum⊠got real comfortable with that word fast,â you mutter, trying for dry and missing by a mile.
A low hum. âI'm a committed man. What can I say?â and his voice is all smug velvet and sleep-rough warmth. âMmm⊠I kinda like the sound of it, actually.â
The words land lower than they should. Because that should not sound as good as it does.
âD-Donât⊠donât say it like that,â you stammer.
The mattress dips.
âMm?â he whispers. ââŠwell, how else should I say it, princess?â
âŠ
Fake.
Fake boyfriend.
The word lands somewhere quiet and ugly under your ribs, and all at once the warmth of the bed feels strange against your skin. Because that's what this is. What it has to be. A role. A weekend. A lie with soft edges and an expiration date. AndâŠ
âJustânevermindâŠâ you mutter, shoving it down, repositioning your pillow. âLaying in a bed with my boss was not really on my bingo card for this trip. Or finding out halfway through it, apparently.â
He scoffs. âIâm not your boss. My dadâs your boss.â A humorless breath leaves you. âYeah? Well, that is not as comforting a distinction as you think it is, Gojo, when your name is still on myââ
ââSatoru,â he corrects softly.
You blink into the dark.
âWait. Sorry⊠what?â
A small huff leaves him, almost annoyed, almost something softer. âItâs justâŠâ he grumbles, shifting against the sheets, âI like it a lot better when you call me SatoruâŠâ And even without seeing him, you can hear it.
Is he⊠pouting?
The fabric rustles again as he shifts. âLookâŠâ he says after a beat, and the teasing has gone out of his voice now. âIâm sorry I didnât tell you sooner. I justâŠâ He exhales through his nose. âI didnât think hearing my last name would make you start acting like I was suddenly somebody else...?â
Your lashes flutter as he scoots closer, and this time, your breath catches. Because a thin line of moonlight slips through the curtains, cutting across the bed just enough to catch him there. The loose fall of white hair over his forehead, the softened line of his mouth, the pale blue of his eyes gone dim and almost silver in the dark.
âAndâŠâ His voice lowers, softer now. âI guess I didnât realize how much I liked just being Satoru to you..." Those blue eyes dip to your lips, just for a second, before lifting back to yours. His breath hitches.
âYâknow Iâm still me⊠right?â He whispers.
As his breath fans across your face, you feel fingers slipping over yours, careful enough to feel like a question, and your pulse does something wild. Because for one suspended second, he doesnât look real. He looks like something half-dreamed.
Beautiful.
âRightâŠâ you breathe, the word thin. âI know that, and⊠I-Iâm sorry for lashing out at you earlier. I just⊠I wasnât expecting any of this, and then everything at the airport andâand godâand then my mom andâ"
The words are tumbling out now, too fast, too loose, and even in the dark you feel laid open by them. Bare in a way that makes you want to snatch every one back. Because there he is, looking at you with that same unbearable patience, thumb brushing over the back of your hand in slow, absent strokes, his mouth tipped in a smile so soft it almost feels private.
âŠyours.
And thatâs whatâs terrifying. He feels like something you could lean into. Like warmth can be simple. Unconditional. Real.
ButâŠ
Nothing in your life has ever taught you how to lean into warmth without waiting for the condition beneath it. Without turning it over, looking for the fine print. So, perhaps thatâs why, when his thumb brushes over your hand again, you pull away.
And his frown is instant.
âI-IâŠâ Your eyes squeeze shut as you clear your throat. âSorry.â The word comes out frayed. âI want you to know I appreciate you doing this. Genuinely. ButâŠâ You swallow hard around the ache pressing at the base of your throat. âTomorrow is it.â
The room goes so quiet you can hear the air conditioning hum.
His brow furrows, pushing himself up on his elbow. âUm⊠what are you saying?â He scoffs, lips pulling into a disbelieving grin. âI donât understand. Why are you acting like everythingââ
ââafter this is over,â you blurt, chest rising. âYou can justâforget all this happened, okay?â And your voice thins. Blinking back tears, your eyes flick away. âThatâs it. Youâll forget about me. You go back to your life. I go back to mine. Just like we agreed andââ
ââI donât remember agreeing to that.â
Your eyes glance back from the hurt in his voice, and somehow that only makes it worse. Because...
Why?
Why does he have to look at you like that?
You exhale shakily. âI think we both need sleep more than we need this conversation, soâŠâ The blanket is already up at your chin by the time the words leave you. âLetâs⊠leave it at that. Okay? Iâm exhausted," you whisper. "Goodnight, Satoru.â
Shifting away, you roll onto your side before he can say anything else, before he can make this harder than it already is. The bed gives with a quiet creak behind you.
âGoodnight, sweetheart.â
And you lie there, holding yourself rigid, as if that could undo the part of you that almost turned back.
Still. Despite how tired you are⊠sleep feels impossible.
a/n. oof. sorry for leaving you on the angst đ but this felt like the right place to split it so part 3 can be fully wedding-focused. tysm for reading! i'm blown away by all your support. he's literally so patient and attentive, whaaa. i wanna eat him up đ
ê° summary ê± when a misunderstanding leaves your family convinced youâre bringing a plus one to your cousinâs wedding in Japan, the last person you expect to volunteer for the role is your infuriatingly observant intern, Satoru. itâs supposed to be temporary. professional. strictly off the record. but with your mother already sold on the idea of your mystery boyfriend, and Satoru proving far too good at the role, pretending starts to feel a little too dangerous. also, why is your âinternâ secretly the heir to gojo corporation?!
ê° tags/warnings ê± fake dating âčïž undercover ceo! satoru âčïž accountant! reader âčïž satoru is 29, reader is 26 âčïž lots of family pressure. reader has a complicated relationship with her mom âčïž forced proximity âčïž one bed trope âčïž slow burn âčïž mutual pining âčïž wedding chaos âčïž angst and fluff âčïž some suggestive content but no explicit smut âčïž
ê° authors note ê± surpriseeee â this is 3 parts now hehe. satoru is still our lovingly annoying sweetheart here, but this part does have a bit more angst than the last. nothing too wild though⊠just a whole lot of yearning and our poor reader being very committed to denial. i hope you enjoy! part 3 will be the last one. (art by @/hanamin_0123 on x)
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part 2
âMaâam, may I interest you in our menu?â the flight attendant asks, leaning in with a practiced smile.
"Ohâum. Yes... thank you."
The thick, cream-colored menu lands in your hands a second later, and you settle into your seat just as she disappears down the aisle. A seat that is far too comfortable for the current state of your life. But thatâs the thing about first class â it makes it very hard to be appropriately miserable, and you are trying to be miserable right now. You are committed to it.
âIf you need recommendations⊠I recommend the wagyu.â Satoru leans in, close enough that his breath feathers warm against the side of your neck. âItâs to die for.â
He grins, blue eyes glinting behind snowy lashes. And unfortunately, the wagyu isnât the thing currently putting your life at risk. Because a shiver moves through you before you can stop it.
âO-OhâŠâ your head jerks away, quickly. âUh-huh⊠sure.â
Refusing to turn, you keep your eyes stubbornly on the cabin â denying him the satisfaction of seeing what his closeness does to the treacherous, backstabbing organ inside your chest. But you catch him in your periphery â leaning back, entirely unbothered, reaching for his own menu with that pleased little hum that means, of course, he notices.
Ugh.
This is going to be a long-ass ten-hour flight. And first class, as it turns out, is only roomy when you arenât seated beside the exact person currently making your pulse act deeply unprofessional.
âŠ
Wait. When did you pulse start doing that?!
Miserable, you remind yourself. Yeah. Miserable.
With a sigh, you click your seatbelt into place and flip open the menu, genuinely trying to build a case for why this is the worst decision youâve ever made. Unfortunately, it is hard to maintain righteous regret when the menu has no prices on it. Not one. Just elegant font, artful descriptions, and ingredients arranged like poetry.
âŠyouâd booked economy.
Economy.
But then heâd upgraded your tickets last minute like that was a normal thing a person did â insisting you fly with him. Like swapping someoneâs middle seat for a first-class cocoon with a duvet and a champagne flute was just⊠hospitality.
âUm⊠Satoru?â Your brow arches as you take in the absurdly extravagant menu. âHow much does this cost, exactlyâŠ?â He doesnât even glance up. âMm? Oh.â Flipping a page, his hand waves lazily. âDonât worry about it.â
âŠ
Donât worry about it?
You are very much worrying about it. Because how the hell does an intern afford this?! You know how much interns make at your company; youâve worked with HR, signed off on the numbers â and it is categorically not this.
But fine. Whatever. That is, somehow, the least of your problems right now. And your mind was already veering back toward the more immediate catastrophe currently taxiing toward the runway.
Your family.
âRight⊠well. Anyways, Satoru,â you say, setting the menu down. âWe should probably establish the basics before we get to Japan andââ
ââwhat do you like to eat?â
You blink, lips parting.
âIâsorryâŠwhat?â
âI like sweets,â he says, turning toward you. A toothy grin spreads across his face, dimples peeking. âLetâs see⊠cake, cream buns, mochiâŠâ he muses. âOh! Especially kikifuku mochi, itâs the best.â He nods solemnly. âHonestly, I think itâs the whipped cream inside that really makes the difference.â
Your brow furrows as you stare at him.
âŠwhen did this become a TED talk about sugar? You were trying to discuss a plan, and he is out here curating a dessert menu like the most pressing crisis of the next ten hours is pastry selection.
âOkayâŠ? Thatâs nice. But we should talk aboutââ
âFood,â he states, picking up the menu you just set down. He flips it open and angles it back toward you like that is the only sensible conversation available. âCâmon. What do you like? Not what youâll settle for⊠what youâll actually like. Ten hours is a long time, sweetheart.â
Brow knitting, you frown.
He cannot be serious. That is not the priority right now.
âThatâthat can wait. We need toââ
ââestablish the basics, yeah.â He rolls his eyes and tips his head back against the seat, like your resistance is personally exhausting him. But then his gaze flicks back, amused. âAnd Iâm just saying food is a basic necessity. Because you skip lunch when youâre busy, forget breakfast when youâre anxious, and then act shocked when you feel like shit three hours later. So, eat.â He places the menu back in your hands. âPreferably something that isnât stale pretzels, yeah?â
Something hot and startled climbs your neck so fast itâs almost impressive. Your mouth opens, but whatever rebuttal is forming never makes it. Because before you can recoverâ
âHonestly, I gotta say⊠the soba is pretty good too, actually.â His face is suddenly just over your shoulder, murmuring close enough that you feel the heat of him against your ear. âIf you donât want the wagyu, that is. Waitâscratch that. Maybe ramenâŠ?â His finger traces a line on the menu, pale lashes lowering, tongue clinking gently. âMm⊠never mind. Too much broth and there could be turbulence.â
Your whole body stiffens. Because his closeness does not feel unwelcome. Which is exactly the problem.
âŠwhen did he get so comfortable?!
ââŠstop doing that,â you mutter, pulling back. He looks over, the picture of innocence. âDoing what?â
Your lips purse.
âI dunno. BeingâŠâ  But the word dissolves, and you're reaching for your water, needing something to do with your hands. âSo⊠comfortable. Soââ You cut yourself off with a small huff. âLike this.â
His grin is unbearable, lazy and crooked.
âOh?â he reclines. âLike what, baby?â
You sputter into your water.
âBaby?â
Youâre choking on your drink, and Satoru looks entirely too pleased with himself. He's chuckling, leaning over without a second thought, one hand settling warm between your shoulder blades.
âAwwh⊠whatâs this? Donât be shy now,â he hums, the picture of helpfulness, rubbing slow circles with a sigh. âWeâre gonna have to get way cozier than this if Iâm playing boyfriend. Just establishing the basics, yeah?â
As you straighten with a glare, you can tell without a doubt he is openly enjoying himself. That grin hasnât moved a goddamn inch.
âŠasshole.
Huffing, you settle back into your seat. And it isnât long before the plane shudders gently away from the gate, inching out onto the runway with that slow, terrible sense of inevitability that only air travel is capable of producing.
âLadies and gentlemen, at this time please ensure your seatbelt is securely fastened⊠flight attendants, prepare for departure.â
The overhead announcement crackles through the cabin, too polished to be comforting. While beneath you, the whole plane seems to draw tight, a low hum building through the floor, climbing up through your seat.
You exhale, letting your eyes fall shut. Just long enough to pretend you werenât here. Just long enough to avoid the window, the runway, and the deeply unhelpful fact that your brain liked to save all its worst thoughts for takeoff.
âŠlike how first class wasnât exactly known for improving your odds. Like how takeoff and landing were statistically the worst parts. Like how the engine sounded different now, probably⊠maybe, andâ
âHey.â
Satoruâs voice came quieter this time; enough to pull your eyes back open. When you look over, that vibrant blue is already watching you â steady, unhurried, like he has been waiting for you to surface.
âAre you⊠nervous?â
âWhat? N-NoâŠâ you lie, huffing. His brow arches, sensing your bullshit. âOkay⊠then why are you doing that with your hands?â
Following his gaze, your fingers had folded into fists without even noticing, in that particular way they always do when youâre trying to physically hold yourself together.
Fuck.
Itâs ridiculous, really. You knew flying was statistically safe! Knew it the way you knew balance sheets and quarterly projections and the exact percentage margins that kept departments alive. And yet, takeoff had always felt like the part where logic starts losing altitude.
âOhâŠâ A small, awkward laugh slips out, just as the engine begins to roar. You smooth your palms over your trembling thighs, shouting over it. âItâs fine! Really! I just⊠umâI guess I donât particularly like takeoff, is all!â
His expression softens in a way you werenât braced for. But before he can answer, the plane surges forward and your eyes squeeze shut. A massive force presses you back into the seat while vibrations climb through the floor and up your spine.
Itâs terrible. Completely terrible. But somewhere in the middle of it, a warm hand slides against yours. It takes you a second to register his fingers lacing between your own, and the moment his thumb brushes the back of your hand, you instinctively grip him tighter.
Your eyes stay shut, but you feel the plane lift hard and fast into the sky. And somewhere between the roar of the engines and that awful pull in your stomach, the slow circles his thumb traces against your skin become the only thing your body seems willing to trust.
By the time the pressure eases and the plane finally levels out, your lungs have only just remembered how to work. For a second, neither of you moves untilâ
ââŠbetter?â
His voice brushes the quiet between you. You blink your eyes open.
âYeahâŠâ you whisper. âUm⊠thanks.â
He smiles. âSure.â
That thumb brushes one last time against the back of your hand before finally pulling away, dropping back into his lap with a simple nod like it had been nothing. And the loss of that warmth was immediate enough to sting.
OhâŠ
Heâs⊠annoyingly good at taking care of you. And worse, your body had recognized it before your brain could file the proper objection â clinging first, thinking later, like comfort was something you could afford to trust.
Maybe the altitude was messing with your headâŠ
Ten hours was a long time.
Long enough to work out the safest parts of the lie. How long youâve been together. Where you met. Which version of the truth felt neat enough to survive one wedding weekend without collapsing under the weight of follow-up questions.
It was just⊠not long enough, apparently, for the parts that actually mattered.
âSoooo⊠questionâŠâ Satoru had stretched lazily, turning his glass between two fingers as he glanced over. âWhat exactly should I expect when we land?â
You kept your attention on the blanket across your lap, flattening a wrinkle. âProbably⊠jet lag?â you mutter sarcastically, avoiding his gaze, fussing with the fabric. âAnd a long enough drive to regret everything in peace.â
He snorts. âWell, yeah. Obviously.â Ice clicked softly as he tipped his glass, shifting toward you. âNot what I meant, though. I meant with your family.â
And when the warmth of his attention settled against the side of your face â you hesitated. Because it was patient in a way that only made it harder to meet. Patient in the way of someone whoâs learned that pushing doesnât work on you. Which youâre unsure is better, or worse. Because waiting means heâs paying attention, and paying attention means heâll notice when you crack.
âWeâll just⊠talk about that later,â you huffed, tugging the blanket a little higher before turning toward the window. âIâm tired. Gonna try to sleep.â
Later⊠yeah. Later.
But by baggage claim, you were running out of runway. You had to do it soon. Get it over with. Preferably somewhere between the airport and your hotel, where you could spit it out quickly and not have to watch his face too closely while you did.
So now, Satoru yawns beside the conveyor belt, tired blue eyes skimming the slow parade of suitcases rounding the carousel. Hands in his pockets, shoulders loose, posture easy in a way that only makes you more tense. You stand there staring at the back of him, fingers hooked tight in the seam of your shirt.
Now.
âHey⊠Satoru?â you mumble. âHm?â His gaze lands on your luggage and heâs already stepping forward to grab it. âUm, wellâŠâ You hesitate. âAbout my family⊠Iâ"
ââoh! Lookâlook! There they are!â
The moment her voice rings through the terminal, everything inside you locks. You turn, and for one wild second, you genuinely wonder if itâs too late to get back on that godforsaken plane.
Satoru hauls your suitcase off the belt.
âWhat about them?â he asks, turning when you stop short. Then he sees your face. ââŠsweetheart?â His brows furrow, following your line of sight â and there is your mother, cutting through the crowd with Trish beside her, moving with the kind of delighted urgency you arenât prepared to see for at least another twelve hours.
No.
No, no, no.
ââoh my god, there he is!â Your mother walks straight past you â past you â and both hands are wrapping around Satoruâs like heâs who she came for. "Oh, he's handsome. Trish, lookâ"
Itâs no surprise, really, that youâre a second thought. Youâve been a second thought since before you could name it. But that isnât the wound that matters at this particular moment. The bigger problem is that sheâs here.
âŠwhy the hell is she here?!
You were supposed to have more timeâ
ââoh my god,â Trish breathes to you. âDamn. girl. Heâs, like⊠stupid handsome.â And Satoruâs grin went smug, drawling. âOh, please, ladies. Keep the compliments coming. Iâm feeling very welcomed~â
Your mother giggles. âHandsome and funny. Oh, heâs a charmer,â she says, smacking his shoulder playfully. Though the laugh lands bitter. âGod. Why on earth would she keep you from me?! I mean⊠wow. I was beginning to think sheâd die alone.â
The words hit like a slap dressed as a joke.
Satoru blinks, the smile faltering for half a second, head tilting imperceptibly.
âŠgreat.
Of fucking course sheâd say something like that within the first thirty seconds.
âMother⊠whatââ your voice wavers, eyes falling shut with a swallow. âSorry. I justâwhat are you both doing here?â
She did a tiny double take, like sheâd only just remembered you were standing there. âOh, honeyâŠâ A hand waves, scoffing. âDonât be sillyâof course weâre here to pick you up! God. I wouldnât leave you stranded at the airport,â she snorts.
Oh, right.
So she wouldnât abandon you at an airport. Just in another country.
âŠgood to know there's a line somewhere.
âBesides, why donât you both just stay with us instead?â sheâs already reaching for Satoruâs hand again, bright with the idea. âWeâve got a guest room ready, and Iâd love for the chance to talk to you.â
Your body goes rigid.
Oh no. Fuck no.
Anything but that.
Satoru must have seen it written across your face â that particular shade of panic âbecause his eyes cut to you for only half a second before he slips his hand free, turning back to your mother with a smile already in place.
âThatâs incredibly kind, maâam,â he says, tugging you into his side with an ease that shouldnât have felt as steadying as it did. âBut weâre staying pretty close to my familyâs place, and I should probably swing by tomorrow morning.â He rubs the back of his neck with a theatrical groan. âItâs been a few months since Iâve seen my father, and trust me, Iâll regret it if he finds out I came to Tokyo and didnât stop by, yâknow?â
Apparently, ten hours isnât long enough for the parts that actually matter, becauseâŠ
âOh? Your familyâs place?â your mother repeats, brows lifting. âSo, are they here in Tokyo too, then?â He nods. âMm, yeah. Pretty much all the Gojos areâat least on my dadâs side. My momâs in Kyoto.â
âŠ
Wait.
Did he just say Gojo?
As inâ
Your bossâs family?!
No. Absolutely not. Between the jet lag, the shock, and your mother still glowing beside you, your brain simply does not have the bandwidth for this. Your lips part, blinking like that might somehow rearrange what he just said into something less insane.
Nothing comes out.
âGojoâŠâ your mother repeats, brows knitting. âWhy does that sound familiar?â Trish blinks. "Waitâlike⊠Gojo Corporation Gojo?!"
Satoruâs grin widens. âYep. Thatâd be us.â
âAh!â Your mother snaps her fingers. âGojo Corporation. Yesâof course! Silly me. I thought that name seemed familiarâŠâ
And now, the hurt arrives before the shock finishes landing â ugly and precise and aimed at the exact spot that never heals right. Five years of your work, your career, your life inside that building. But she only knows it because a handsome man says it in a terminal.
You stare. âMom⊠you can't be serious?â and the hurt in your own voice catches you off guard. âIâve⊠I've literally been working at Gojo Corporation for the last five years.â
Fuck...
Get it together.
Out of the corner of your eye, Satoru watches you. But your mother moves on like youâre invisible.
âOh Satoru Gojo, you just keep getting better and better.â You feel him hesitating as she tugs eagerly. âComeâcome! At least let us drive you both to the hotel, hm? Thereâs so much I need to hear andââ
ââsorry maâam, no.â
Satoruâs pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. And you blink while his fingers smooth gently through your hair, tipping your chin up with a long finger.
You blink, because Satoru is pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. When his fingers smooth gently through your hair, your breath hitches as he tips your chin up.
âHonestly, Iâm beatâŠâ His thumb brushes your cheek, gaze searching your face. ââŠarenât you, love?â
Thereâs a hitch in your breath
Oh.
So⊠youâre not invisible?
As it leaves you in a quiet shudder, for one suspended second, there is nothing but that soft blue of his eyes and the way theyâve gone gentle for you. All you can do is nod â and a single tear slips free before you can stop it.
He tucks you against his chest, hiding your face, and flashes a grin back at your mother.
âUgh⊠I appreciate you coming to get us, but weâve been up for way too long andââ Glancing down at his phone, he lets out a small laugh. âAh. Perfect timing! Would ya look at thatâmy driverâs here.â A tug of your hand. âBut weâll catch up tomorrow, yeah? Bye, ladies~â
Your legs are moving on their own, and you donât even catch the expression on your motherâs face. Canât. Not when your pulse is still tripping over itself. Not when his hand wraps around yours like letting go isnât even a question.
The suitcase rolled behind you, with the airport crowd bustling. While those bright eyes flicked back, making sure you were still there every few steps.
âCâmon, pretty girl⊠weâre almost there,â he murmurs. âJust stay with me, okay? Eyes on me, yeah?â
And⊠you werenât sure why he lowered his voice. Not when they were already well out of earshot. You only know that⊠it nearly undoes you all over again.
By the time the limo pulls away from the curb, Satoru had already figured out two things: your mother was awful, and somehow, heâd gotten you out of there only to realize he hadnât fully brought you back with him.
Itâs the furrow in your brow that gets him first⊠then the wobble in your lip â the one you think youâre hiding, the one you always think youâre hiding. You havenât said a word since climbing into the backseat. Havenât looked at him either. Instead, you stay toward the window, watching Tokyo slip by in blurred ribbons of light, glowing against the glass in streaks of neon. A city that has no business being that beautiful when you look that broken.
âŠshit. Should he crack a joke? No. Maybe not.
But asking if youâre okay feels useless. You obviously arenât. And worse, saying it out loud feels like the fastest way to make you disappear even further behind that window â to watch you pull the shutters down the way you always do.
âWell, thenâŠâ A hand drags through his hair as he lets his head fall back against the seat. âUm⊠gotta sayâyour family really believes in making an entrance, huh? Talk aboutââ
ââI thought your name was Satoru Geto.â
He blinks.
âHuh?â
Your gaze finally pulls from the window, landing on him, and the hurt in it is so carefully contained it almost looks like composure. Almost. Except heâs spent four months learning to read you, and composure doesnât tremble at the edges like that.
ââŠSatoru Geto,â you mutter carefully. âThatâs the name on your employee record, no?â
Oh...
Right. That.
ââŠis it?â His gaze slips away, fingers scratching at the back of his neck. âYeah⊠um. About that. Getoâs actually my best friend. I just used his last name because the initials matched.â Heâs flopping back against the seat with a small shrug, one arm slinging across the top. âMade it easier to sign off on stuff that way. Gotta work smarter, not harder, right?â
And tilting his head, a crooked grin tugs at the corner of his lips.
Yours doesnât move.
âRight,â you deadpan, turning back toward the window. âSo your plan was to just let me keep calling you that.â
You donât say it like a question.
âŠis it a question?
Satoruâs brow furrows at the hurt threaded beneath the words. âNo⊠Iââ he huffs, hands dropping into his lap. âObviously I had to hide it while I was working with you, but my legal name was on the boarding pass I gave you, so itâs not like I was actively hiding it, sweetheart.â
You scoff under your breath. âOh. Cool. So I was just supposed to⊠whatâfigure that out on my own?â And suddenly, your voice is doing this awful thing now â losing its clean, controlled shape, slipping into something thinner. Hotter.
He hears it immediately, sighing. âSorry⊠but why is this the problem?â he asks, more confused than anything now. âHelp me out here. I mean⊠I thought your mom was what had you upset back there.â
Your eyes roll. âYour name is literally on my paycheck, Gojo. How is that not a problem?â
He stares. Genuinely stares. Because for a second, he doesnât know what to do with that. To him, his name was just a name. The company was just a company. Status had always felt like something other people got weird about first. Not him.
So, like an idiot, he goes for the joke.
âWell⊠technically, I think my name is on a lot of paychecks, soâ"
ââJesus Christ, am I a fucking joke to you?â
And the humor drops out of him so fast it almost startles you. Shit. That backfired tremendously. âWhoaâwhat? No!â He straightens, brow furrowing. âNo, no, no. God, noâsweetheart, of course not. Why would you think that?â
Youâre looking away before he can see what that does to your face, because you hate how quickly his voice goes from careless to cracked. Hate yourself for making it do that.
Damnit.
You know that wasnât fair. He had just gotten you out of there. Seen you unraveling in that airport and stepped in without making it worse. Without making you ask. And still â somehow, in the span of twenty minutes, the whole world had shifted under your feet. Him, your mother, that last name. This damn⊠wedding.
âŠwhy does everything feel so hard to sort through right now?
âJustâŠâ You swallow, shifting towards the window, blinking back tears. âSorry. Donât talk to me right now.â
His expression softens. âCâmon⊠no,â he murmurs. âPlease⊠please donât be like that. Iâm sorry you found out this way. I shouldâve told you sooner.â
The crack in his voice makes everything unbearable, and outside, Tokyo keeps sliding past in fractured light. So, you look at the window because itâs easier than looking at him. Easier than trying to untangle the mess that is your life. Easier than naming what specifically hurts so much.
And easier than asking yourself what, exactly, had been real and what had only ever been off the record.
Clearly, the universe looked at the absolute clusterfuck of this trip and decided it wasn't finished with you yet.
Because apparently, your fake boyfriend had a limo. Your fake boyfriend, who can upgrade your tickets to first class like itâs nothing. Your fake boyfriend who is also, apparently, your boss â and decided to book you at a luxurious five-star hotel in Tokyo while somehow neglecting to mention that part too.
Whatever. Either way, you're too tired to care. Or maybe just too tired to forgive him â despite the way the marble floors and soft gold light whisper luxury around you like an apology you didnât ask for.
All you know, is that by the time the two of you make it upstairs, your silence was beyond awkward and hardened into something heavier. More deliberate. So, the moment the suite door clicks open, youâre beelining to the bedroom.
âGoodnight.â
You mutter it under your breath, shutting yourself into the bathroom before he can answer you. And when you change into your pajamas, you try not to linger in the mirror â because your whole face feels tight from holding yourself together, from trying not to cry for what feels like the hundredth time tonight. And as if that weren't enough, the wedding is tomorrow.
âŠhow the fuck are you supposed to get through that too?!
With an exhausted sigh, you push open the bedroom door, reach back to kill the light, andâ
ââŠwhat are you doing?â you deadpan, stopping cold in the entryway. Because at the foot of the bed, you find Satoru in sweats, crouched on the floor, carefully spreading a blanket across it. He smooths the corner flat and those blue eyes flick up, then drop back down.
âMaking myself comfortable?â
âŠ
That explains absolutely nothing.
Your brows pull together. âOkaaayâŠ? Clearly. Butâwhy?â Rolling your eyes, your arms cross. âDonât tell me you fucked up the reservation. I mean, youâre the one who booked this place. Donât you have your own suite?â
âYup. I do.â
He says it so easily it almost irritates you more. You watch him fluff the pillow and set it on the floor like this is perfectly normal behavior for a man who can apparently summon private drivers and spend obscene amounts of money at the drop of a hat.
Your teeth grit. âGreat. So go lay in your bed.â
Exhaling through his nose, he lowers himself onto the marble like itâs no different than a mattress. One arm tucks behind his head, the other rests over his stomach, all lazy limbs and impossible calm.
âNah,â he says. âThink Iâll sleep here. Promised you wouldnât be alone this trip.â
And the universe, apparently, hadn't taken quite enough from your dignity yet. Because you find yourself genuinely speechless.
For a moment, you just stand there looking at him â at the ridiculous length of him stretched out across the floor, at the fact that he has a whole bed somewhere else and was still choosing this â and at how he somehow managed to make the gesture feel casual enough not to embarrass you and sincere enough that it did anyway.
ââŠsuit yourself,â you grumble, stomping over to your bed.
You yank the covers back and climb in with an irritated sweep, reaching over to find the light. Darkness folds over the room in one soft rush, and for a while, thereâs only the low hum of air conditioning and the distant glow of Tokyo bleeding dimly through the curtains. Somewhere beneath it all, you can hear the faint rustle of fabric from the floor, the small settling sound of him getting comfortable.
âŠ
Or trying to.
You lie stiffly on your side, facing away from the edge of the bed that he lays, staring into the dark like you can force your mind to shut up if you just do it hard enough.
UghâŠ
Despite how tired you are, sleep feels impossible.
Rolling your eyes, you pick up your pillow and shift to the other side of the bed with an annoyed little huff. And thereâs the broad line of his back in the dark. One arm folded under his head, the other sprawled carelessly over the blanket, like this is all perfectly normal. Like sleeping on the marble floor in a five-star hotel is not objectively unhinged behavior.
ââŠyouâre actually gonna sleep down there?â you mutter into the dark.
âMm.â His voice comes easy, amused. âYou should be sleeping, missy.â
âSo should you,â you huff. âIn a bed.â
Chuckling, he shifts onto his back, sprawling out like a starfish. He hums. âNahhh,â and an exaggerated exhale breathes out of him, tired. âThe floorâs fine. Iâm reconnecting with the earth. Re-centering. Some might say itâs very⊠grounding.â
You can hear that pleased little smirk of his, even in the dark, and it pulls a snort out of you before you can stop it. ââŠwow, seriously?â Biting back a grin. âYouâre so stupid.â
He laughs under his breath. âYeah⊠maybe. Wouldnât be the first time Iâve been called that. Probably wonât be the last, either. ButâŠâ With a tired sigh, he drapes his arm over his face, half-hiding in the dark. ââŠguess Iâd rather be stupid than leave you alone, though.â
The words slip out, and the room goes strangely quiet. Something tender and awful pulling tight in your throat as you stare down at him for a second too long.
âŠwhat are you even supposed to do with that? With him?
Heâs down there on the floor, keeping a promise you never asked him to make.
Swallowing, your fingers tighten on the blanket. ââŠhey, Satoru?â That low hum answers, and you hesitate, staring at the dark shape of him on the floor, your heart doing something stupid and uncomfortable against your ribs.
âCome up here,â you blurt.
âŠ
Silence.
âWait⊠huh?â
Your eyes squeeze shut.
As if saying it once wasnât bad enough.
âI-I meanâŠâ youâre shifting onto your back, staring hard at the ceiling because looking at him suddenly feels impossible. âI just⊠thereâs plenty of room, so justâcome up.â
âŠ
Heâs quiet just long enough to make your face burn hotter. And when heâs pushing himself onto one elbow, even in the dark, you can feel the disbelief radiating off of him like heat.
âUh⊠right,â he laughs awkwardly. âI think the jet lagâs getting to me, because thereâs no way I heard that right unless youâre fucking with me.â
You cover your face with a groan.
Oh, for fuckâs sake. âChrist, stop making this harderââ you snap, voice rising. âIâm serious you idiot! Because youâre not making me feel worse tonight by sleeping on the goddamn floorâso hurry and get your ass up here beforeââ
ââyes maâam.â
Heâs moving before you can rethink the entire thing, despite how your pulse is suddenly loud in your own ears. You scoot over, clutching the blanket to your chest, and the mattress dips beneath his weight â the sheets rustle. His body shifts. And then everything goes still.
âŠtoo still.
All you can do is lie there. Stiff. Acutely, helplessly aware of him. But itâs dark â mercifully dark â and thank god for that, because you donât think you could survive seeing his face right now. Not this close. Not after that. Not with your own invitation still echoing back at you like something youâd like to physically retrieve out of thin air.
âSooooâŠâ he mumbles, fingers tapping the mattress. âUm⊠for the record, this is like⊠significantly nicer than my original arrangement. Way less marble.â
Despite the nerves, his words loosen a laugh from your chest. ââŠyeah? Well, good,â you mutter, tugging the blanket a little higher. âBecause honestly, the level of commitment you were showing that floor was a little concerning.â
He chuckles. âTrue, true.â And suddenly, you can hear the lazy stretch of a grin in his voice. âBuuuut I mean⊠I wasnât about to lose our first fightânot as your boyfriend.â
Your breath catches. âW-WowâŠâ You huff like thatâll cover it. âYouâum⊠got real comfortable with that word fast,â you mutter, trying for dry and missing by a mile.
A low hum. âI'm a committed man. What can I say?â and his voice is all smug velvet and sleep-rough warmth. âMmm⊠I kinda like the sound of it, actually.â
The words land lower than they should. Because that should not sound as good as it does.
âD-Donât⊠donât say it like that,â you stammer.
The mattress dips.
âMm?â he whispers. ââŠwell, how else should I say it, princess?â
âŠ
Fake.
Fake boyfriend.
The word lands somewhere quiet and ugly under your ribs, and all at once the warmth of the bed feels strange against your skin. Because that's what this is. What it has to be. A role. A weekend. A lie with soft edges and an expiration date. AndâŠ
âJustânevermindâŠâ you mutter, shoving it down, repositioning your pillow. âLaying in a bed with my boss was not really on my bingo card for this trip. Or finding out halfway through it, apparently.â
He scoffs. âIâm not your boss. My dadâs your boss.â A humorless breath leaves you. âYeah? Well, that is not as comforting a distinction as you think it is, Gojo, when your name is still on myââ
ââSatoru,â he corrects softly.
You blink into the dark.
âWait. Sorry⊠what?â
A small huff leaves him, almost annoyed, almost something softer. âItâs justâŠâ he grumbles, shifting against the sheets, âI like it a lot better when you call me SatoruâŠâ And even without seeing him, you can hear it.
Is he⊠pouting?
The fabric rustles again as he shifts. âLookâŠâ he says after a beat, and the teasing has gone out of his voice now. âIâm sorry I didnât tell you sooner. I justâŠâ He exhales through his nose. âI didnât think hearing my last name would make you start acting like I was suddenly somebody else...?â
Your lashes flutter as he scoots closer, and this time, your breath catches. Because a thin line of moonlight slips through the curtains, cutting across the bed just enough to catch him there. The loose fall of white hair over his forehead, the softened line of his mouth, the pale blue of his eyes gone dim and almost silver in the dark.
âAndâŠâ His voice lowers, softer now. âI guess I didnât realize how much I liked just being Satoru to you..." Those blue eyes dip to your lips, just for a second, before lifting back to yours. His breath hitches.
âYâknow Iâm still me⊠right?â He whispers.
As his breath fans across your face, you feel fingers slipping over yours, careful enough to feel like a question, and your pulse does something wild. Because for one suspended second, he doesnât look real. He looks like something half-dreamed.
Beautiful.
âRightâŠâ you breathe, the word thin. âI know that, and⊠I-Iâm sorry for lashing out at you earlier. I just⊠I wasnât expecting any of this, and then everything at the airport andâand godâand then my mom andâ"
The words are tumbling out now, too fast, too loose, and even in the dark you feel laid open by them. Bare in a way that makes you want to snatch every one back. Because there he is, looking at you with that same unbearable patience, thumb brushing over the back of your hand in slow, absent strokes, his mouth tipped in a smile so soft it almost feels private.
âŠyours.
And thatâs whatâs terrifying. He feels like something you could lean into. Like warmth can be simple. Unconditional. Real.
ButâŠ
Nothing in your life has ever taught you how to lean into warmth without waiting for the condition beneath it. Without turning it over, looking for the fine print. So, perhaps thatâs why, when his thumb brushes over your hand again, you pull away.
And his frown is instant.
âI-IâŠâ Your eyes squeeze shut as you clear your throat. âSorry.â The word comes out frayed. âI want you to know I appreciate you doing this. Genuinely. ButâŠâ You swallow hard around the ache pressing at the base of your throat. âTomorrow is it.â
The room goes so quiet you can hear the air conditioning hum.
His brow furrows, pushing himself up on his elbow. âUm⊠what are you saying?â He scoffs, lips pulling into a disbelieving grin. âI donât understand. Why are you acting like everythingââ
ââafter this is over,â you blurt, chest rising. âYou can justâforget all this happened, okay?â And your voice thins. Blinking back tears, your eyes flick away. âThatâs it. Youâll forget about me. You go back to your life. I go back to mine. Just like we agreed andââ
ââI donât remember agreeing to that.â
Your eyes glance back from the hurt in his voice, and somehow that only makes it worse. Because...
Why?
Why does he have to look at you like that?
You exhale shakily. âI think we both need sleep more than we need this conversation, soâŠâ The blanket is already up at your chin by the time the words leave you. âLetâs⊠leave it at that. Okay? Iâm exhausted," you whisper. "Goodnight, Satoru.â
Shifting away, you roll onto your side before he can say anything else, before he can make this harder than it already is. The bed gives with a quiet creak behind you.
âGoodnight, sweetheart.â
And you lie there, holding yourself rigid, as if that could undo the part of you that almost turned back.
Still. Despite how tired you are⊠sleep feels impossible.
a/n. oof. sorry for leaving you on the angst đ but this felt like the right place to split it so part 3 can be fully wedding-focused. tysm for reading! i'm blown away by all your support. he's literally so patient and attentive, whaaa. i wanna eat him up đ
ê° summary ê± when a misunderstanding leaves your family convinced youâre bringing a plus one to your cousinâs wedding in Japan, the last person you expect to volunteer for the role is your infuriatingly observant intern, Satoru. itâs supposed to be temporary. professional. strictly off the record. but with your mother already sold on the idea of your mystery boyfriend, and Satoru proving far too good at the role, pretending starts to feel a little too dangerous. also, why is your âinternâ secretly the heir to gojo corporation?!
ê° tags/warnings ê± fake dating âčïž undercover ceo! satoru âčïž accountant! reader âčïž satoru is 29, reader is 26 âčïž lots of family pressure. reader has a complicated relationship with her mom âčïž forced proximity âčïž one bed trope âčïž slow burn âčïž mutual pining âčïž wedding chaos âčïž angst and fluff âčïž some suggestive content but no explicit smut âčïž
ê° authors note ê± surpriseeee â this is 3 parts now hehe. satoru is still our lovingly annoying sweetheart here, but this part does have a bit more angst than the last. nothing too wild though⊠just a whole lot of yearning and our poor reader being very committed to denial. i hope you enjoy! part 3 will be the last one. (art by @/hanamin_0123 on x)
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part 2
âMaâam, may I interest you in our menu?â the flight attendant asks, leaning in with a practiced smile.
"Ohâum. Yes... thank you."
The thick, cream-colored menu lands in your hands a second later, and you settle into your seat just as she disappears down the aisle. A seat that is far too comfortable for the current state of your life. But thatâs the thing about first class â it makes it very hard to be appropriately miserable, and you are trying to be miserable right now. You are committed to it.
âIf you need recommendations⊠I recommend the wagyu.â Satoru leans in, close enough that his breath feathers warm against the side of your neck. âItâs to die for.â
He grins, blue eyes glinting behind snowy lashes. And unfortunately, the wagyu isnât the thing currently putting your life at risk. Because a shiver moves through you before you can stop it.
âO-OhâŠâ your head jerks away, quickly. âUh-huh⊠sure.â
Refusing to turn, you keep your eyes stubbornly on the cabin â denying him the satisfaction of seeing what his closeness does to the treacherous, backstabbing organ inside your chest. But you catch him in your periphery â leaning back, entirely unbothered, reaching for his own menu with that pleased little hum that means, of course, he notices.
Ugh.
This is going to be a long-ass ten-hour flight. And first class, as it turns out, is only roomy when you arenât seated beside the exact person currently making your pulse act deeply unprofessional.
âŠ
Wait. When did you pulse start doing that?!
Miserable, you remind yourself. Yeah. Miserable.
With a sigh, you click your seatbelt into place and flip open the menu, genuinely trying to build a case for why this is the worst decision youâve ever made. Unfortunately, it is hard to maintain righteous regret when the menu has no prices on it. Not one. Just elegant font, artful descriptions, and ingredients arranged like poetry.
âŠyouâd booked economy.
Economy.
But then heâd upgraded your tickets last minute like that was a normal thing a person did â insisting you fly with him. Like swapping someoneâs middle seat for a first-class cocoon with a duvet and a champagne flute was just⊠hospitality.
âUm⊠Satoru?â Your brow arches as you take in the absurdly extravagant menu. âHow much does this cost, exactlyâŠ?â He doesnât even glance up. âMm? Oh.â Flipping a page, his hand waves lazily. âDonât worry about it.â
âŠ
Donât worry about it?
You are very much worrying about it. Because how the hell does an intern afford this?! You know how much interns make at your company; youâve worked with HR, signed off on the numbers â and it is categorically not this.
But fine. Whatever. That is, somehow, the least of your problems right now. And your mind was already veering back toward the more immediate catastrophe currently taxiing toward the runway.
Your family.
âRight⊠well. Anyways, Satoru,â you say, setting the menu down. âWe should probably establish the basics before we get to Japan andââ
ââwhat do you like to eat?â
You blink, lips parting.
âIâsorryâŠwhat?â
âI like sweets,â he says, turning toward you. A toothy grin spreads across his face, dimples peeking. âLetâs see⊠cake, cream buns, mochiâŠâ he muses. âOh! Especially kikifuku mochi, itâs the best.â He nods solemnly. âHonestly, I think itâs the whipped cream inside that really makes the difference.â
Your brow furrows as you stare at him.
âŠwhen did this become a TED talk about sugar? You were trying to discuss a plan, and he is out here curating a dessert menu like the most pressing crisis of the next ten hours is pastry selection.
âOkayâŠ? Thatâs nice. But we should talk aboutââ
âFood,â he states, picking up the menu you just set down. He flips it open and angles it back toward you like that is the only sensible conversation available. âCâmon. What do you like? Not what youâll settle for⊠what youâll actually like. Ten hours is a long time, sweetheart.â
Brow knitting, you frown.
He cannot be serious. That is not the priority right now.
âThatâthat can wait. We need toââ
ââestablish the basics, yeah.â He rolls his eyes and tips his head back against the seat, like your resistance is personally exhausting him. But then his gaze flicks back, amused. âAnd Iâm just saying food is a basic necessity. Because you skip lunch when youâre busy, forget breakfast when youâre anxious, and then act shocked when you feel like shit three hours later. So, eat.â He places the menu back in your hands. âPreferably something that isnât stale pretzels, yeah?â
Something hot and startled climbs your neck so fast itâs almost impressive. Your mouth opens, but whatever rebuttal is forming never makes it. Because before you can recoverâ
âHonestly, I gotta say⊠the soba is pretty good too, actually.â His face is suddenly just over your shoulder, murmuring close enough that you feel the heat of him against your ear. âIf you donât want the wagyu, that is. Waitâscratch that. Maybe ramenâŠ?â His finger traces a line on the menu, pale lashes lowering, tongue clinking gently. âMm⊠never mind. Too much broth and there could be turbulence.â
Your whole body stiffens. Because his closeness does not feel unwelcome. Which is exactly the problem.
âŠwhen did he get so comfortable?!
ââŠstop doing that,â you mutter, pulling back. He looks over, the picture of innocence. âDoing what?â
Your lips purse.
âI dunno. BeingâŠâ  But the word dissolves, and you're reaching for your water, needing something to do with your hands. âSo⊠comfortable. Soââ You cut yourself off with a small huff. âLike this.â
His grin is unbearable, lazy and crooked.
âOh?â he reclines. âLike what, baby?â
You sputter into your water.
âBaby?â
Youâre choking on your drink, and Satoru looks entirely too pleased with himself. He's chuckling, leaning over without a second thought, one hand settling warm between your shoulder blades.
âAwwh⊠whatâs this? Donât be shy now,â he hums, the picture of helpfulness, rubbing slow circles with a sigh. âWeâre gonna have to get way cozier than this if Iâm playing boyfriend. Just establishing the basics, yeah?â
As you straighten with a glare, you can tell without a doubt he is openly enjoying himself. That grin hasnât moved a goddamn inch.
âŠasshole.
Huffing, you settle back into your seat. And it isnât long before the plane shudders gently away from the gate, inching out onto the runway with that slow, terrible sense of inevitability that only air travel is capable of producing.
âLadies and gentlemen, at this time please ensure your seatbelt is securely fastened⊠flight attendants, prepare for departure.â
The overhead announcement crackles through the cabin, too polished to be comforting. While beneath you, the whole plane seems to draw tight, a low hum building through the floor, climbing up through your seat.
You exhale, letting your eyes fall shut. Just long enough to pretend you werenât here. Just long enough to avoid the window, the runway, and the deeply unhelpful fact that your brain liked to save all its worst thoughts for takeoff.
âŠlike how first class wasnât exactly known for improving your odds. Like how takeoff and landing were statistically the worst parts. Like how the engine sounded different now, probably⊠maybe, andâ
âHey.â
Satoruâs voice came quieter this time; enough to pull your eyes back open. When you look over, that vibrant blue is already watching you â steady, unhurried, like he has been waiting for you to surface.
âAre you⊠nervous?â
âWhat? N-NoâŠâ you lie, huffing. His brow arches, sensing your bullshit. âOkay⊠then why are you doing that with your hands?â
Following his gaze, your fingers had folded into fists without even noticing, in that particular way they always do when youâre trying to physically hold yourself together.
Fuck.
Itâs ridiculous, really. You knew flying was statistically safe! Knew it the way you knew balance sheets and quarterly projections and the exact percentage margins that kept departments alive. And yet, takeoff had always felt like the part where logic starts losing altitude.
âOhâŠâ A small, awkward laugh slips out, just as the engine begins to roar. You smooth your palms over your trembling thighs, shouting over it. âItâs fine! Really! I just⊠umâI guess I donât particularly like takeoff, is all!â
His expression softens in a way you werenât braced for. But before he can answer, the plane surges forward and your eyes squeeze shut. A massive force presses you back into the seat while vibrations climb through the floor and up your spine.
Itâs terrible. Completely terrible. But somewhere in the middle of it, a warm hand slides against yours. It takes you a second to register his fingers lacing between your own, and the moment his thumb brushes the back of your hand, you instinctively grip him tighter.
Your eyes stay shut, but you feel the plane lift hard and fast into the sky. And somewhere between the roar of the engines and that awful pull in your stomach, the slow circles his thumb traces against your skin become the only thing your body seems willing to trust.
By the time the pressure eases and the plane finally levels out, your lungs have only just remembered how to work. For a second, neither of you moves untilâ
ââŠbetter?â
His voice brushes the quiet between you. You blink your eyes open.
âYeahâŠâ you whisper. âUm⊠thanks.â
He smiles. âSure.â
That thumb brushes one last time against the back of your hand before finally pulling away, dropping back into his lap with a simple nod like it had been nothing. And the loss of that warmth was immediate enough to sting.
OhâŠ
Heâs⊠annoyingly good at taking care of you. And worse, your body had recognized it before your brain could file the proper objection â clinging first, thinking later, like comfort was something you could afford to trust.
Maybe the altitude was messing with your headâŠ
Ten hours was a long time.
Long enough to work out the safest parts of the lie. How long youâve been together. Where you met. Which version of the truth felt neat enough to survive one wedding weekend without collapsing under the weight of follow-up questions.
It was just⊠not long enough, apparently, for the parts that actually mattered.
âSoooo⊠questionâŠâ Satoru had stretched lazily, turning his glass between two fingers as he glanced over. âWhat exactly should I expect when we land?â
You kept your attention on the blanket across your lap, flattening a wrinkle. âProbably⊠jet lag?â you mutter sarcastically, avoiding his gaze, fussing with the fabric. âAnd a long enough drive to regret everything in peace.â
He snorts. âWell, yeah. Obviously.â Ice clicked softly as he tipped his glass, shifting toward you. âNot what I meant, though. I meant with your family.â
And when the warmth of his attention settled against the side of your face â you hesitated. Because it was patient in a way that only made it harder to meet. Patient in the way of someone whoâs learned that pushing doesnât work on you. Which youâre unsure is better, or worse. Because waiting means heâs paying attention, and paying attention means heâll notice when you crack.
âWeâll just⊠talk about that later,â you huffed, tugging the blanket a little higher before turning toward the window. âIâm tired. Gonna try to sleep.â
Later⊠yeah. Later.
But by baggage claim, you were running out of runway. You had to do it soon. Get it over with. Preferably somewhere between the airport and your hotel, where you could spit it out quickly and not have to watch his face too closely while you did.
So now, Satoru yawns beside the conveyor belt, tired blue eyes skimming the slow parade of suitcases rounding the carousel. Hands in his pockets, shoulders loose, posture easy in a way that only makes you more tense. You stand there staring at the back of him, fingers hooked tight in the seam of your shirt.
Now.
âHey⊠Satoru?â you mumble. âHm?â His gaze lands on your luggage and heâs already stepping forward to grab it. âUm, wellâŠâ You hesitate. âAbout my family⊠Iâ"
ââoh! Lookâlook! There they are!â
The moment her voice rings through the terminal, everything inside you locks. You turn, and for one wild second, you genuinely wonder if itâs too late to get back on that godforsaken plane.
Satoru hauls your suitcase off the belt.
âWhat about them?â he asks, turning when you stop short. Then he sees your face. ââŠsweetheart?â His brows furrow, following your line of sight â and there is your mother, cutting through the crowd with Trish beside her, moving with the kind of delighted urgency you arenât prepared to see for at least another twelve hours.
No.
No, no, no.
ââoh my god, there he is!â Your mother walks straight past you â past you â and both hands are wrapping around Satoruâs like heâs who she came for. "Oh, he's handsome. Trish, lookâ"
Itâs no surprise, really, that youâre a second thought. Youâve been a second thought since before you could name it. But that isnât the wound that matters at this particular moment. The bigger problem is that sheâs here.
âŠwhy the hell is she here?!
You were supposed to have more timeâ
ââoh my god,â Trish breathes to you. âDamn. girl. Heâs, like⊠stupid handsome.â And Satoruâs grin went smug, drawling. âOh, please, ladies. Keep the compliments coming. Iâm feeling very welcomed~â
Your mother giggles. âHandsome and funny. Oh, heâs a charmer,â she says, smacking his shoulder playfully. Though the laugh lands bitter. âGod. Why on earth would she keep you from me?! I mean⊠wow. I was beginning to think sheâd die alone.â
The words hit like a slap dressed as a joke.
Satoru blinks, the smile faltering for half a second, head tilting imperceptibly.
âŠgreat.
Of fucking course sheâd say something like that within the first thirty seconds.
âMother⊠whatââ your voice wavers, eyes falling shut with a swallow. âSorry. I justâwhat are you both doing here?â
She did a tiny double take, like sheâd only just remembered you were standing there. âOh, honeyâŠâ A hand waves, scoffing. âDonât be sillyâof course weâre here to pick you up! God. I wouldnât leave you stranded at the airport,â she snorts.
Oh, right.
So she wouldnât abandon you at an airport. Just in another country.
âŠgood to know there's a line somewhere.
âBesides, why donât you both just stay with us instead?â sheâs already reaching for Satoruâs hand again, bright with the idea. âWeâve got a guest room ready, and Iâd love for the chance to talk to you.â
Your body goes rigid.
Oh no. Fuck no.
Anything but that.
Satoru must have seen it written across your face â that particular shade of panic âbecause his eyes cut to you for only half a second before he slips his hand free, turning back to your mother with a smile already in place.
âThatâs incredibly kind, maâam,â he says, tugging you into his side with an ease that shouldnât have felt as steadying as it did. âBut weâre staying pretty close to my familyâs place, and I should probably swing by tomorrow morning.â He rubs the back of his neck with a theatrical groan. âItâs been a few months since Iâve seen my father, and trust me, Iâll regret it if he finds out I came to Tokyo and didnât stop by, yâknow?â
Apparently, ten hours isnât long enough for the parts that actually matter, becauseâŠ
âOh? Your familyâs place?â your mother repeats, brows lifting. âSo, are they here in Tokyo too, then?â He nods. âMm, yeah. Pretty much all the Gojos areâat least on my dadâs side. My momâs in Kyoto.â
âŠ
Wait.
Did he just say Gojo?
As inâ
Your bossâs family?!
No. Absolutely not. Between the jet lag, the shock, and your mother still glowing beside you, your brain simply does not have the bandwidth for this. Your lips part, blinking like that might somehow rearrange what he just said into something less insane.
Nothing comes out.
âGojoâŠâ your mother repeats, brows knitting. âWhy does that sound familiar?â Trish blinks. "Waitâlike⊠Gojo Corporation Gojo?!"
Satoruâs grin widens. âYep. Thatâd be us.â
âAh!â Your mother snaps her fingers. âGojo Corporation. Yesâof course! Silly me. I thought that name seemed familiarâŠâ
And now, the hurt arrives before the shock finishes landing â ugly and precise and aimed at the exact spot that never heals right. Five years of your work, your career, your life inside that building. But she only knows it because a handsome man says it in a terminal.
You stare. âMom⊠you can't be serious?â and the hurt in your own voice catches you off guard. âIâve⊠I've literally been working at Gojo Corporation for the last five years.â
Fuck...
Get it together.
Out of the corner of your eye, Satoru watches you. But your mother moves on like youâre invisible.
âOh Satoru Gojo, you just keep getting better and better.â You feel him hesitating as she tugs eagerly. âComeâcome! At least let us drive you both to the hotel, hm? Thereâs so much I need to hear andââ
ââsorry maâam, no.â
Satoruâs pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. And you blink while his fingers smooth gently through your hair, tipping your chin up with a long finger.
You blink, because Satoru is pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. When his fingers smooth gently through your hair, your breath hitches as he tips your chin up.
âHonestly, Iâm beatâŠâ His thumb brushes your cheek, gaze searching your face. ââŠarenât you, love?â
Thereâs a hitch in your breath
Oh.
So⊠youâre not invisible?
As it leaves you in a quiet shudder, for one suspended second, there is nothing but that soft blue of his eyes and the way theyâve gone gentle for you. All you can do is nod â and a single tear slips free before you can stop it.
He tucks you against his chest, hiding your face, and flashes a grin back at your mother.
âUgh⊠I appreciate you coming to get us, but weâve been up for way too long andââ Glancing down at his phone, he lets out a small laugh. âAh. Perfect timing! Would ya look at thatâmy driverâs here.â A tug of your hand. âBut weâll catch up tomorrow, yeah? Bye, ladies~â
Your legs are moving on their own, and you donât even catch the expression on your motherâs face. Canât. Not when your pulse is still tripping over itself. Not when his hand wraps around yours like letting go isnât even a question.
The suitcase rolled behind you, with the airport crowd bustling. While those bright eyes flicked back, making sure you were still there every few steps.
âCâmon, pretty girl⊠weâre almost there,â he murmurs. âJust stay with me, okay? Eyes on me, yeah?â
And⊠you werenât sure why he lowered his voice. Not when they were already well out of earshot. You only know that⊠it nearly undoes you all over again.
By the time the limo pulls away from the curb, Satoru had already figured out two things: your mother was awful, and somehow, heâd gotten you out of there only to realize he hadnât fully brought you back with him.
Itâs the furrow in your brow that gets him first⊠then the wobble in your lip â the one you think youâre hiding, the one you always think youâre hiding. You havenât said a word since climbing into the backseat. Havenât looked at him either. Instead, you stay toward the window, watching Tokyo slip by in blurred ribbons of light, glowing against the glass in streaks of neon. A city that has no business being that beautiful when you look that broken.
âŠshit. Should he crack a joke? No. Maybe not.
But asking if youâre okay feels useless. You obviously arenât. And worse, saying it out loud feels like the fastest way to make you disappear even further behind that window â to watch you pull the shutters down the way you always do.
âWell, thenâŠâ A hand drags through his hair as he lets his head fall back against the seat. âUm⊠gotta sayâyour family really believes in making an entrance, huh? Talk aboutââ
ââI thought your name was Satoru Geto.â
He blinks.
âHuh?â
Your gaze finally pulls from the window, landing on him, and the hurt in it is so carefully contained it almost looks like composure. Almost. Except heâs spent four months learning to read you, and composure doesnât tremble at the edges like that.
ââŠSatoru Geto,â you mutter carefully. âThatâs the name on your employee record, no?â
Oh...
Right. That.
ââŠis it?â His gaze slips away, fingers scratching at the back of his neck. âYeah⊠um. About that. Getoâs actually my best friend. I just used his last name because the initials matched.â Heâs flopping back against the seat with a small shrug, one arm slinging across the top. âMade it easier to sign off on stuff that way. Gotta work smarter, not harder, right?â
And tilting his head, a crooked grin tugs at the corner of his lips.
Yours doesnât move.
âRight,â you deadpan, turning back toward the window. âSo your plan was to just let me keep calling you that.â
You donât say it like a question.
âŠis it a question?
Satoruâs brow furrows at the hurt threaded beneath the words. âNo⊠Iââ he huffs, hands dropping into his lap. âObviously I had to hide it while I was working with you, but my legal name was on the boarding pass I gave you, so itâs not like I was actively hiding it, sweetheart.â
You scoff under your breath. âOh. Cool. So I was just supposed to⊠whatâfigure that out on my own?â And suddenly, your voice is doing this awful thing now â losing its clean, controlled shape, slipping into something thinner. Hotter.
He hears it immediately, sighing. âSorry⊠but why is this the problem?â he asks, more confused than anything now. âHelp me out here. I mean⊠I thought your mom was what had you upset back there.â
Your eyes roll. âYour name is literally on my paycheck, Gojo. How is that not a problem?â
He stares. Genuinely stares. Because for a second, he doesnât know what to do with that. To him, his name was just a name. The company was just a company. Status had always felt like something other people got weird about first. Not him.
So, like an idiot, he goes for the joke.
âWell⊠technically, I think my name is on a lot of paychecks, soâ"
ââJesus Christ, am I a fucking joke to you?â
And the humor drops out of him so fast it almost startles you. Shit. That backfired tremendously. âWhoaâwhat? No!â He straightens, brow furrowing. âNo, no, no. God, noâsweetheart, of course not. Why would you think that?â
Youâre looking away before he can see what that does to your face, because you hate how quickly his voice goes from careless to cracked. Hate yourself for making it do that.
Damnit.
You know that wasnât fair. He had just gotten you out of there. Seen you unraveling in that airport and stepped in without making it worse. Without making you ask. And still â somehow, in the span of twenty minutes, the whole world had shifted under your feet. Him, your mother, that last name. This damn⊠wedding.
âŠwhy does everything feel so hard to sort through right now?
âJustâŠâ You swallow, shifting towards the window, blinking back tears. âSorry. Donât talk to me right now.â
His expression softens. âCâmon⊠no,â he murmurs. âPlease⊠please donât be like that. Iâm sorry you found out this way. I shouldâve told you sooner.â
The crack in his voice makes everything unbearable, and outside, Tokyo keeps sliding past in fractured light. So, you look at the window because itâs easier than looking at him. Easier than trying to untangle the mess that is your life. Easier than naming what specifically hurts so much.
And easier than asking yourself what, exactly, had been real and what had only ever been off the record.
Clearly, the universe looked at the absolute clusterfuck of this trip and decided it wasn't finished with you yet.
Because apparently, your fake boyfriend had a limo. Your fake boyfriend, who can upgrade your tickets to first class like itâs nothing. Your fake boyfriend who is also, apparently, your boss â and decided to book you at a luxurious five-star hotel in Tokyo while somehow neglecting to mention that part too.
Whatever. Either way, you're too tired to care. Or maybe just too tired to forgive him â despite the way the marble floors and soft gold light whisper luxury around you like an apology you didnât ask for.
All you know, is that by the time the two of you make it upstairs, your silence was beyond awkward and hardened into something heavier. More deliberate. So, the moment the suite door clicks open, youâre beelining to the bedroom.
âGoodnight.â
You mutter it under your breath, shutting yourself into the bathroom before he can answer you. And when you change into your pajamas, you try not to linger in the mirror â because your whole face feels tight from holding yourself together, from trying not to cry for what feels like the hundredth time tonight. And as if that weren't enough, the wedding is tomorrow.
âŠhow the fuck are you supposed to get through that too?!
With an exhausted sigh, you push open the bedroom door, reach back to kill the light, andâ
ââŠwhat are you doing?â you deadpan, stopping cold in the entryway. Because at the foot of the bed, you find Satoru in sweats, crouched on the floor, carefully spreading a blanket across it. He smooths the corner flat and those blue eyes flick up, then drop back down.
âMaking myself comfortable?â
âŠ
That explains absolutely nothing.
Your brows pull together. âOkaaayâŠ? Clearly. Butâwhy?â Rolling your eyes, your arms cross. âDonât tell me you fucked up the reservation. I mean, youâre the one who booked this place. Donât you have your own suite?â
âYup. I do.â
He says it so easily it almost irritates you more. You watch him fluff the pillow and set it on the floor like this is perfectly normal behavior for a man who can apparently summon private drivers and spend obscene amounts of money at the drop of a hat.
Your teeth grit. âGreat. So go lay in your bed.â
Exhaling through his nose, he lowers himself onto the marble like itâs no different than a mattress. One arm tucks behind his head, the other rests over his stomach, all lazy limbs and impossible calm.
âNah,â he says. âThink Iâll sleep here. Promised you wouldnât be alone this trip.â
And the universe, apparently, hadn't taken quite enough from your dignity yet. Because you find yourself genuinely speechless.
For a moment, you just stand there looking at him â at the ridiculous length of him stretched out across the floor, at the fact that he has a whole bed somewhere else and was still choosing this â and at how he somehow managed to make the gesture feel casual enough not to embarrass you and sincere enough that it did anyway.
ââŠsuit yourself,â you grumble, stomping over to your bed.
You yank the covers back and climb in with an irritated sweep, reaching over to find the light. Darkness folds over the room in one soft rush, and for a while, thereâs only the low hum of air conditioning and the distant glow of Tokyo bleeding dimly through the curtains. Somewhere beneath it all, you can hear the faint rustle of fabric from the floor, the small settling sound of him getting comfortable.
âŠ
Or trying to.
You lie stiffly on your side, facing away from the edge of the bed that he lays, staring into the dark like you can force your mind to shut up if you just do it hard enough.
UghâŠ
Despite how tired you are, sleep feels impossible.
Rolling your eyes, you pick up your pillow and shift to the other side of the bed with an annoyed little huff. And thereâs the broad line of his back in the dark. One arm folded under his head, the other sprawled carelessly over the blanket, like this is all perfectly normal. Like sleeping on the marble floor in a five-star hotel is not objectively unhinged behavior.
ââŠyouâre actually gonna sleep down there?â you mutter into the dark.
âMm.â His voice comes easy, amused. âYou should be sleeping, missy.â
âSo should you,â you huff. âIn a bed.â
Chuckling, he shifts onto his back, sprawling out like a starfish. He hums. âNahhh,â and an exaggerated exhale breathes out of him, tired. âThe floorâs fine. Iâm reconnecting with the earth. Re-centering. Some might say itâs very⊠grounding.â
You can hear that pleased little smirk of his, even in the dark, and it pulls a snort out of you before you can stop it. ââŠwow, seriously?â Biting back a grin. âYouâre so stupid.â
He laughs under his breath. âYeah⊠maybe. Wouldnât be the first time Iâve been called that. Probably wonât be the last, either. ButâŠâ With a tired sigh, he drapes his arm over his face, half-hiding in the dark. ââŠguess Iâd rather be stupid than leave you alone, though.â
The words slip out, and the room goes strangely quiet. Something tender and awful pulling tight in your throat as you stare down at him for a second too long.
âŠwhat are you even supposed to do with that? With him?
Heâs down there on the floor, keeping a promise you never asked him to make.
Swallowing, your fingers tighten on the blanket. ââŠhey, Satoru?â That low hum answers, and you hesitate, staring at the dark shape of him on the floor, your heart doing something stupid and uncomfortable against your ribs.
âCome up here,â you blurt.
âŠ
Silence.
âWait⊠huh?â
Your eyes squeeze shut.
As if saying it once wasnât bad enough.
âI-I meanâŠâ youâre shifting onto your back, staring hard at the ceiling because looking at him suddenly feels impossible. âI just⊠thereâs plenty of room, so justâcome up.â
âŠ
Heâs quiet just long enough to make your face burn hotter. And when heâs pushing himself onto one elbow, even in the dark, you can feel the disbelief radiating off of him like heat.
âUh⊠right,â he laughs awkwardly. âI think the jet lagâs getting to me, because thereâs no way I heard that right unless youâre fucking with me.â
You cover your face with a groan.
Oh, for fuckâs sake. âChrist, stop making this harderââ you snap, voice rising. âIâm serious you idiot! Because youâre not making me feel worse tonight by sleeping on the goddamn floorâso hurry and get your ass up here beforeââ
ââyes maâam.â
Heâs moving before you can rethink the entire thing, despite how your pulse is suddenly loud in your own ears. You scoot over, clutching the blanket to your chest, and the mattress dips beneath his weight â the sheets rustle. His body shifts. And then everything goes still.
âŠtoo still.
All you can do is lie there. Stiff. Acutely, helplessly aware of him. But itâs dark â mercifully dark â and thank god for that, because you donât think you could survive seeing his face right now. Not this close. Not after that. Not with your own invitation still echoing back at you like something youâd like to physically retrieve out of thin air.
âSooooâŠâ he mumbles, fingers tapping the mattress. âUm⊠for the record, this is like⊠significantly nicer than my original arrangement. Way less marble.â
Despite the nerves, his words loosen a laugh from your chest. ââŠyeah? Well, good,â you mutter, tugging the blanket a little higher. âBecause honestly, the level of commitment you were showing that floor was a little concerning.â
He chuckles. âTrue, true.â And suddenly, you can hear the lazy stretch of a grin in his voice. âBuuuut I mean⊠I wasnât about to lose our first fightânot as your boyfriend.â
Your breath catches. âW-WowâŠâ You huff like thatâll cover it. âYouâum⊠got real comfortable with that word fast,â you mutter, trying for dry and missing by a mile.
A low hum. âI'm a committed man. What can I say?â and his voice is all smug velvet and sleep-rough warmth. âMmm⊠I kinda like the sound of it, actually.â
The words land lower than they should. Because that should not sound as good as it does.
âD-Donât⊠donât say it like that,â you stammer.
The mattress dips.
âMm?â he whispers. ââŠwell, how else should I say it, princess?â
âŠ
Fake.
Fake boyfriend.
The word lands somewhere quiet and ugly under your ribs, and all at once the warmth of the bed feels strange against your skin. Because that's what this is. What it has to be. A role. A weekend. A lie with soft edges and an expiration date. AndâŠ
âJustânevermindâŠâ you mutter, shoving it down, repositioning your pillow. âLaying in a bed with my boss was not really on my bingo card for this trip. Or finding out halfway through it, apparently.â
He scoffs. âIâm not your boss. My dadâs your boss.â A humorless breath leaves you. âYeah? Well, that is not as comforting a distinction as you think it is, Gojo, when your name is still on myââ
ââSatoru,â he corrects softly.
You blink into the dark.
âWait. Sorry⊠what?â
A small huff leaves him, almost annoyed, almost something softer. âItâs justâŠâ he grumbles, shifting against the sheets, âI like it a lot better when you call me SatoruâŠâ And even without seeing him, you can hear it.
Is he⊠pouting?
The fabric rustles again as he shifts. âLookâŠâ he says after a beat, and the teasing has gone out of his voice now. âIâm sorry I didnât tell you sooner. I justâŠâ He exhales through his nose. âI didnât think hearing my last name would make you start acting like I was suddenly somebody else...?â
Your lashes flutter as he scoots closer, and this time, your breath catches. Because a thin line of moonlight slips through the curtains, cutting across the bed just enough to catch him there. The loose fall of white hair over his forehead, the softened line of his mouth, the pale blue of his eyes gone dim and almost silver in the dark.
âAndâŠâ His voice lowers, softer now. âI guess I didnât realize how much I liked just being Satoru to you..." Those blue eyes dip to your lips, just for a second, before lifting back to yours. His breath hitches.
âYâknow Iâm still me⊠right?â He whispers.
As his breath fans across your face, you feel fingers slipping over yours, careful enough to feel like a question, and your pulse does something wild. Because for one suspended second, he doesnât look real. He looks like something half-dreamed.
Beautiful.
âRightâŠâ you breathe, the word thin. âI know that, and⊠I-Iâm sorry for lashing out at you earlier. I just⊠I wasnât expecting any of this, and then everything at the airport andâand godâand then my mom andâ"
The words are tumbling out now, too fast, too loose, and even in the dark you feel laid open by them. Bare in a way that makes you want to snatch every one back. Because there he is, looking at you with that same unbearable patience, thumb brushing over the back of your hand in slow, absent strokes, his mouth tipped in a smile so soft it almost feels private.
âŠyours.
And thatâs whatâs terrifying. He feels like something you could lean into. Like warmth can be simple. Unconditional. Real.
ButâŠ
Nothing in your life has ever taught you how to lean into warmth without waiting for the condition beneath it. Without turning it over, looking for the fine print. So, perhaps thatâs why, when his thumb brushes over your hand again, you pull away.
And his frown is instant.
âI-IâŠâ Your eyes squeeze shut as you clear your throat. âSorry.â The word comes out frayed. âI want you to know I appreciate you doing this. Genuinely. ButâŠâ You swallow hard around the ache pressing at the base of your throat. âTomorrow is it.â
The room goes so quiet you can hear the air conditioning hum.
His brow furrows, pushing himself up on his elbow. âUm⊠what are you saying?â He scoffs, lips pulling into a disbelieving grin. âI donât understand. Why are you acting like everythingââ
ââafter this is over,â you blurt, chest rising. âYou can justâforget all this happened, okay?â And your voice thins. Blinking back tears, your eyes flick away. âThatâs it. Youâll forget about me. You go back to your life. I go back to mine. Just like we agreed andââ
ââI donât remember agreeing to that.â
Your eyes glance back from the hurt in his voice, and somehow that only makes it worse. Because...
Why?
Why does he have to look at you like that?
You exhale shakily. âI think we both need sleep more than we need this conversation, soâŠâ The blanket is already up at your chin by the time the words leave you. âLetâs⊠leave it at that. Okay? Iâm exhausted," you whisper. "Goodnight, Satoru.â
Shifting away, you roll onto your side before he can say anything else, before he can make this harder than it already is. The bed gives with a quiet creak behind you.
âGoodnight, sweetheart.â
And you lie there, holding yourself rigid, as if that could undo the part of you that almost turned back.
Still. Despite how tired you are⊠sleep feels impossible.
a/n. oof. sorry for leaving you on the angst đ but this felt like the right place to split it so part 3 can be fully wedding-focused. tysm for reading! i'm blown away by all your support. he's literally so patient and attentive, whaaa. i wanna eat him up đ
ê° summary ê± when a misunderstanding leaves your family convinced youâre bringing a plus one to your cousinâs wedding in Japan, the last person you expect to volunteer for the role is your infuriatingly observant intern, Satoru. itâs supposed to be temporary. professional. strictly off the record. but with your mother already sold on the idea of your mystery boyfriend, and Satoru proving far too good at the role, pretending starts to feel a little too dangerous. also, why is your âinternâ secretly the heir to gojo corporation?!
ê° tags/warnings ê± fake dating âčïž undercover ceo! satoru âčïž accountant! reader âčïž satoru is 29, reader is 26 âčïž lots of family pressure. reader has a complicated relationship with her mom âčïž forced proximity âčïž one bed trope âčïž slow burn âčïž mutual pining âčïž wedding chaos âčïž angst and fluff âčïž some suggestive content but no explicit smut âčïž
ê° authors note ê± surpriseeee â this is 3 parts now hehe. satoru is still our lovingly annoying sweetheart here, but this part does have a bit more angst than the last. nothing too wild though⊠just a whole lot of yearning and our poor reader being very committed to denial. i hope you enjoy! part 3 will be the last one. (art by @/hanamin_0123 on x)
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part 2
âMaâam, may I interest you in our menu?â the flight attendant asks, leaning in with a practiced smile.
"Ohâum. Yes... thank you."
The thick, cream-colored menu lands in your hands a second later, and you settle into your seat just as she disappears down the aisle. A seat that is far too comfortable for the current state of your life. But thatâs the thing about first class â it makes it very hard to be appropriately miserable, and you are trying to be miserable right now. You are committed to it.
âIf you need recommendations⊠I recommend the wagyu.â Satoru leans in, close enough that his breath feathers warm against the side of your neck. âItâs to die for.â
He grins, blue eyes glinting behind snowy lashes. And unfortunately, the wagyu isnât the thing currently putting your life at risk. Because a shiver moves through you before you can stop it.
âO-OhâŠâ your head jerks away, quickly. âUh-huh⊠sure.â
Refusing to turn, you keep your eyes stubbornly on the cabin â denying him the satisfaction of seeing what his closeness does to the treacherous, backstabbing organ inside your chest. But you catch him in your periphery â leaning back, entirely unbothered, reaching for his own menu with that pleased little hum that means, of course, he notices.
Ugh.
This is going to be a long-ass ten-hour flight. And first class, as it turns out, is only roomy when you arenât seated beside the exact person currently making your pulse act deeply unprofessional.
âŠ
Wait. When did you pulse start doing that?!
Miserable, you remind yourself. Yeah. Miserable.
With a sigh, you click your seatbelt into place and flip open the menu, genuinely trying to build a case for why this is the worst decision youâve ever made. Unfortunately, it is hard to maintain righteous regret when the menu has no prices on it. Not one. Just elegant font, artful descriptions, and ingredients arranged like poetry.
âŠyouâd booked economy.
Economy.
But then heâd upgraded your tickets last minute like that was a normal thing a person did â insisting you fly with him. Like swapping someoneâs middle seat for a first-class cocoon with a duvet and a champagne flute was just⊠hospitality.
âUm⊠Satoru?â Your brow arches as you take in the absurdly extravagant menu. âHow much does this cost, exactlyâŠ?â He doesnât even glance up. âMm? Oh.â Flipping a page, his hand waves lazily. âDonât worry about it.â
âŠ
Donât worry about it?
You are very much worrying about it. Because how the hell does an intern afford this?! You know how much interns make at your company; youâve worked with HR, signed off on the numbers â and it is categorically not this.
But fine. Whatever. That is, somehow, the least of your problems right now. And your mind was already veering back toward the more immediate catastrophe currently taxiing toward the runway.
Your family.
âRight⊠well. Anyways, Satoru,â you say, setting the menu down. âWe should probably establish the basics before we get to Japan andââ
ââwhat do you like to eat?â
You blink, lips parting.
âIâsorryâŠwhat?â
âI like sweets,â he says, turning toward you. A toothy grin spreads across his face, dimples peeking. âLetâs see⊠cake, cream buns, mochiâŠâ he muses. âOh! Especially kikifuku mochi, itâs the best.â He nods solemnly. âHonestly, I think itâs the whipped cream inside that really makes the difference.â
Your brow furrows as you stare at him.
âŠwhen did this become a TED talk about sugar? You were trying to discuss a plan, and he is out here curating a dessert menu like the most pressing crisis of the next ten hours is pastry selection.
âOkayâŠ? Thatâs nice. But we should talk aboutââ
âFood,â he states, picking up the menu you just set down. He flips it open and angles it back toward you like that is the only sensible conversation available. âCâmon. What do you like? Not what youâll settle for⊠what youâll actually like. Ten hours is a long time, sweetheart.â
Brow knitting, you frown.
He cannot be serious. That is not the priority right now.
âThatâthat can wait. We need toââ
ââestablish the basics, yeah.â He rolls his eyes and tips his head back against the seat, like your resistance is personally exhausting him. But then his gaze flicks back, amused. âAnd Iâm just saying food is a basic necessity. Because you skip lunch when youâre busy, forget breakfast when youâre anxious, and then act shocked when you feel like shit three hours later. So, eat.â He places the menu back in your hands. âPreferably something that isnât stale pretzels, yeah?â
Something hot and startled climbs your neck so fast itâs almost impressive. Your mouth opens, but whatever rebuttal is forming never makes it. Because before you can recoverâ
âHonestly, I gotta say⊠the soba is pretty good too, actually.â His face is suddenly just over your shoulder, murmuring close enough that you feel the heat of him against your ear. âIf you donât want the wagyu, that is. Waitâscratch that. Maybe ramenâŠ?â His finger traces a line on the menu, pale lashes lowering, tongue clinking gently. âMm⊠never mind. Too much broth and there could be turbulence.â
Your whole body stiffens. Because his closeness does not feel unwelcome. Which is exactly the problem.
âŠwhen did he get so comfortable?!
ââŠstop doing that,â you mutter, pulling back. He looks over, the picture of innocence. âDoing what?â
Your lips purse.
âI dunno. BeingâŠâ  But the word dissolves, and you're reaching for your water, needing something to do with your hands. âSo⊠comfortable. Soââ You cut yourself off with a small huff. âLike this.â
His grin is unbearable, lazy and crooked.
âOh?â he reclines. âLike what, baby?â
You sputter into your water.
âBaby?â
Youâre choking on your drink, and Satoru looks entirely too pleased with himself. He's chuckling, leaning over without a second thought, one hand settling warm between your shoulder blades.
âAwwh⊠whatâs this? Donât be shy now,â he hums, the picture of helpfulness, rubbing slow circles with a sigh. âWeâre gonna have to get way cozier than this if Iâm playing boyfriend. Just establishing the basics, yeah?â
As you straighten with a glare, you can tell without a doubt he is openly enjoying himself. That grin hasnât moved a goddamn inch.
âŠasshole.
Huffing, you settle back into your seat. And it isnât long before the plane shudders gently away from the gate, inching out onto the runway with that slow, terrible sense of inevitability that only air travel is capable of producing.
âLadies and gentlemen, at this time please ensure your seatbelt is securely fastened⊠flight attendants, prepare for departure.â
The overhead announcement crackles through the cabin, too polished to be comforting. While beneath you, the whole plane seems to draw tight, a low hum building through the floor, climbing up through your seat.
You exhale, letting your eyes fall shut. Just long enough to pretend you werenât here. Just long enough to avoid the window, the runway, and the deeply unhelpful fact that your brain liked to save all its worst thoughts for takeoff.
âŠlike how first class wasnât exactly known for improving your odds. Like how takeoff and landing were statistically the worst parts. Like how the engine sounded different now, probably⊠maybe, andâ
âHey.â
Satoruâs voice came quieter this time; enough to pull your eyes back open. When you look over, that vibrant blue is already watching you â steady, unhurried, like he has been waiting for you to surface.
âAre you⊠nervous?â
âWhat? N-NoâŠâ you lie, huffing. His brow arches, sensing your bullshit. âOkay⊠then why are you doing that with your hands?â
Following his gaze, your fingers had folded into fists without even noticing, in that particular way they always do when youâre trying to physically hold yourself together.
Fuck.
Itâs ridiculous, really. You knew flying was statistically safe! Knew it the way you knew balance sheets and quarterly projections and the exact percentage margins that kept departments alive. And yet, takeoff had always felt like the part where logic starts losing altitude.
âOhâŠâ A small, awkward laugh slips out, just as the engine begins to roar. You smooth your palms over your trembling thighs, shouting over it. âItâs fine! Really! I just⊠umâI guess I donât particularly like takeoff, is all!â
His expression softens in a way you werenât braced for. But before he can answer, the plane surges forward and your eyes squeeze shut. A massive force presses you back into the seat while vibrations climb through the floor and up your spine.
Itâs terrible. Completely terrible. But somewhere in the middle of it, a warm hand slides against yours. It takes you a second to register his fingers lacing between your own, and the moment his thumb brushes the back of your hand, you instinctively grip him tighter.
Your eyes stay shut, but you feel the plane lift hard and fast into the sky. And somewhere between the roar of the engines and that awful pull in your stomach, the slow circles his thumb traces against your skin become the only thing your body seems willing to trust.
By the time the pressure eases and the plane finally levels out, your lungs have only just remembered how to work. For a second, neither of you moves untilâ
ââŠbetter?â
His voice brushes the quiet between you. You blink your eyes open.
âYeahâŠâ you whisper. âUm⊠thanks.â
He smiles. âSure.â
That thumb brushes one last time against the back of your hand before finally pulling away, dropping back into his lap with a simple nod like it had been nothing. And the loss of that warmth was immediate enough to sting.
OhâŠ
Heâs⊠annoyingly good at taking care of you. And worse, your body had recognized it before your brain could file the proper objection â clinging first, thinking later, like comfort was something you could afford to trust.
Maybe the altitude was messing with your headâŠ
Ten hours was a long time.
Long enough to work out the safest parts of the lie. How long youâve been together. Where you met. Which version of the truth felt neat enough to survive one wedding weekend without collapsing under the weight of follow-up questions.
It was just⊠not long enough, apparently, for the parts that actually mattered.
âSoooo⊠questionâŠâ Satoru had stretched lazily, turning his glass between two fingers as he glanced over. âWhat exactly should I expect when we land?â
You kept your attention on the blanket across your lap, flattening a wrinkle. âProbably⊠jet lag?â you mutter sarcastically, avoiding his gaze, fussing with the fabric. âAnd a long enough drive to regret everything in peace.â
He snorts. âWell, yeah. Obviously.â Ice clicked softly as he tipped his glass, shifting toward you. âNot what I meant, though. I meant with your family.â
And when the warmth of his attention settled against the side of your face â you hesitated. Because it was patient in a way that only made it harder to meet. Patient in the way of someone whoâs learned that pushing doesnât work on you. Which youâre unsure is better, or worse. Because waiting means heâs paying attention, and paying attention means heâll notice when you crack.
âWeâll just⊠talk about that later,â you huffed, tugging the blanket a little higher before turning toward the window. âIâm tired. Gonna try to sleep.â
Later⊠yeah. Later.
But by baggage claim, you were running out of runway. You had to do it soon. Get it over with. Preferably somewhere between the airport and your hotel, where you could spit it out quickly and not have to watch his face too closely while you did.
So now, Satoru yawns beside the conveyor belt, tired blue eyes skimming the slow parade of suitcases rounding the carousel. Hands in his pockets, shoulders loose, posture easy in a way that only makes you more tense. You stand there staring at the back of him, fingers hooked tight in the seam of your shirt.
Now.
âHey⊠Satoru?â you mumble. âHm?â His gaze lands on your luggage and heâs already stepping forward to grab it. âUm, wellâŠâ You hesitate. âAbout my family⊠Iâ"
ââoh! Lookâlook! There they are!â
The moment her voice rings through the terminal, everything inside you locks. You turn, and for one wild second, you genuinely wonder if itâs too late to get back on that godforsaken plane.
Satoru hauls your suitcase off the belt.
âWhat about them?â he asks, turning when you stop short. Then he sees your face. ââŠsweetheart?â His brows furrow, following your line of sight â and there is your mother, cutting through the crowd with Trish beside her, moving with the kind of delighted urgency you arenât prepared to see for at least another twelve hours.
No.
No, no, no.
ââoh my god, there he is!â Your mother walks straight past you â past you â and both hands are wrapping around Satoruâs like heâs who she came for. "Oh, he's handsome. Trish, lookâ"
Itâs no surprise, really, that youâre a second thought. Youâve been a second thought since before you could name it. But that isnât the wound that matters at this particular moment. The bigger problem is that sheâs here.
âŠwhy the hell is she here?!
You were supposed to have more timeâ
ââoh my god,â Trish breathes to you. âDamn. girl. Heâs, like⊠stupid handsome.â And Satoruâs grin went smug, drawling. âOh, please, ladies. Keep the compliments coming. Iâm feeling very welcomed~â
Your mother giggles. âHandsome and funny. Oh, heâs a charmer,â she says, smacking his shoulder playfully. Though the laugh lands bitter. âGod. Why on earth would she keep you from me?! I mean⊠wow. I was beginning to think sheâd die alone.â
The words hit like a slap dressed as a joke.
Satoru blinks, the smile faltering for half a second, head tilting imperceptibly.
âŠgreat.
Of fucking course sheâd say something like that within the first thirty seconds.
âMother⊠whatââ your voice wavers, eyes falling shut with a swallow. âSorry. I justâwhat are you both doing here?â
She did a tiny double take, like sheâd only just remembered you were standing there. âOh, honeyâŠâ A hand waves, scoffing. âDonât be sillyâof course weâre here to pick you up! God. I wouldnât leave you stranded at the airport,â she snorts.
Oh, right.
So she wouldnât abandon you at an airport. Just in another country.
âŠgood to know there's a line somewhere.
âBesides, why donât you both just stay with us instead?â sheâs already reaching for Satoruâs hand again, bright with the idea. âWeâve got a guest room ready, and Iâd love for the chance to talk to you.â
Your body goes rigid.
Oh no. Fuck no.
Anything but that.
Satoru must have seen it written across your face â that particular shade of panic âbecause his eyes cut to you for only half a second before he slips his hand free, turning back to your mother with a smile already in place.
âThatâs incredibly kind, maâam,â he says, tugging you into his side with an ease that shouldnât have felt as steadying as it did. âBut weâre staying pretty close to my familyâs place, and I should probably swing by tomorrow morning.â He rubs the back of his neck with a theatrical groan. âItâs been a few months since Iâve seen my father, and trust me, Iâll regret it if he finds out I came to Tokyo and didnât stop by, yâknow?â
Apparently, ten hours isnât long enough for the parts that actually matter, becauseâŠ
âOh? Your familyâs place?â your mother repeats, brows lifting. âSo, are they here in Tokyo too, then?â He nods. âMm, yeah. Pretty much all the Gojos areâat least on my dadâs side. My momâs in Kyoto.â
âŠ
Wait.
Did he just say Gojo?
As inâ
Your bossâs family?!
No. Absolutely not. Between the jet lag, the shock, and your mother still glowing beside you, your brain simply does not have the bandwidth for this. Your lips part, blinking like that might somehow rearrange what he just said into something less insane.
Nothing comes out.
âGojoâŠâ your mother repeats, brows knitting. âWhy does that sound familiar?â Trish blinks. "Waitâlike⊠Gojo Corporation Gojo?!"
Satoruâs grin widens. âYep. Thatâd be us.â
âAh!â Your mother snaps her fingers. âGojo Corporation. Yesâof course! Silly me. I thought that name seemed familiarâŠâ
And now, the hurt arrives before the shock finishes landing â ugly and precise and aimed at the exact spot that never heals right. Five years of your work, your career, your life inside that building. But she only knows it because a handsome man says it in a terminal.
You stare. âMom⊠you can't be serious?â and the hurt in your own voice catches you off guard. âIâve⊠I've literally been working at Gojo Corporation for the last five years.â
Fuck...
Get it together.
Out of the corner of your eye, Satoru watches you. But your mother moves on like youâre invisible.
âOh Satoru Gojo, you just keep getting better and better.â You feel him hesitating as she tugs eagerly. âComeâcome! At least let us drive you both to the hotel, hm? Thereâs so much I need to hear andââ
ââsorry maâam, no.â
Satoruâs pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. And you blink while his fingers smooth gently through your hair, tipping your chin up with a long finger.
You blink, because Satoru is pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. When his fingers smooth gently through your hair, your breath hitches as he tips your chin up.
âHonestly, Iâm beatâŠâ His thumb brushes your cheek, gaze searching your face. ââŠarenât you, love?â
Thereâs a hitch in your breath
Oh.
So⊠youâre not invisible?
As it leaves you in a quiet shudder, for one suspended second, there is nothing but that soft blue of his eyes and the way theyâve gone gentle for you. All you can do is nod â and a single tear slips free before you can stop it.
He tucks you against his chest, hiding your face, and flashes a grin back at your mother.
âUgh⊠I appreciate you coming to get us, but weâve been up for way too long andââ Glancing down at his phone, he lets out a small laugh. âAh. Perfect timing! Would ya look at thatâmy driverâs here.â A tug of your hand. âBut weâll catch up tomorrow, yeah? Bye, ladies~â
Your legs are moving on their own, and you donât even catch the expression on your motherâs face. Canât. Not when your pulse is still tripping over itself. Not when his hand wraps around yours like letting go isnât even a question.
The suitcase rolled behind you, with the airport crowd bustling. While those bright eyes flicked back, making sure you were still there every few steps.
âCâmon, pretty girl⊠weâre almost there,â he murmurs. âJust stay with me, okay? Eyes on me, yeah?â
And⊠you werenât sure why he lowered his voice. Not when they were already well out of earshot. You only know that⊠it nearly undoes you all over again.
By the time the limo pulls away from the curb, Satoru had already figured out two things: your mother was awful, and somehow, heâd gotten you out of there only to realize he hadnât fully brought you back with him.
Itâs the furrow in your brow that gets him first⊠then the wobble in your lip â the one you think youâre hiding, the one you always think youâre hiding. You havenât said a word since climbing into the backseat. Havenât looked at him either. Instead, you stay toward the window, watching Tokyo slip by in blurred ribbons of light, glowing against the glass in streaks of neon. A city that has no business being that beautiful when you look that broken.
âŠshit. Should he crack a joke? No. Maybe not.
But asking if youâre okay feels useless. You obviously arenât. And worse, saying it out loud feels like the fastest way to make you disappear even further behind that window â to watch you pull the shutters down the way you always do.
âWell, thenâŠâ A hand drags through his hair as he lets his head fall back against the seat. âUm⊠gotta sayâyour family really believes in making an entrance, huh? Talk aboutââ
ââI thought your name was Satoru Geto.â
He blinks.
âHuh?â
Your gaze finally pulls from the window, landing on him, and the hurt in it is so carefully contained it almost looks like composure. Almost. Except heâs spent four months learning to read you, and composure doesnât tremble at the edges like that.
ââŠSatoru Geto,â you mutter carefully. âThatâs the name on your employee record, no?â
Oh...
Right. That.
ââŠis it?â His gaze slips away, fingers scratching at the back of his neck. âYeah⊠um. About that. Getoâs actually my best friend. I just used his last name because the initials matched.â Heâs flopping back against the seat with a small shrug, one arm slinging across the top. âMade it easier to sign off on stuff that way. Gotta work smarter, not harder, right?â
And tilting his head, a crooked grin tugs at the corner of his lips.
Yours doesnât move.
âRight,â you deadpan, turning back toward the window. âSo your plan was to just let me keep calling you that.â
You donât say it like a question.
âŠis it a question?
Satoruâs brow furrows at the hurt threaded beneath the words. âNo⊠Iââ he huffs, hands dropping into his lap. âObviously I had to hide it while I was working with you, but my legal name was on the boarding pass I gave you, so itâs not like I was actively hiding it, sweetheart.â
You scoff under your breath. âOh. Cool. So I was just supposed to⊠whatâfigure that out on my own?â And suddenly, your voice is doing this awful thing now â losing its clean, controlled shape, slipping into something thinner. Hotter.
He hears it immediately, sighing. âSorry⊠but why is this the problem?â he asks, more confused than anything now. âHelp me out here. I mean⊠I thought your mom was what had you upset back there.â
Your eyes roll. âYour name is literally on my paycheck, Gojo. How is that not a problem?â
He stares. Genuinely stares. Because for a second, he doesnât know what to do with that. To him, his name was just a name. The company was just a company. Status had always felt like something other people got weird about first. Not him.
So, like an idiot, he goes for the joke.
âWell⊠technically, I think my name is on a lot of paychecks, soâ"
ââJesus Christ, am I a fucking joke to you?â
And the humor drops out of him so fast it almost startles you. Shit. That backfired tremendously. âWhoaâwhat? No!â He straightens, brow furrowing. âNo, no, no. God, noâsweetheart, of course not. Why would you think that?â
Youâre looking away before he can see what that does to your face, because you hate how quickly his voice goes from careless to cracked. Hate yourself for making it do that.
Damnit.
You know that wasnât fair. He had just gotten you out of there. Seen you unraveling in that airport and stepped in without making it worse. Without making you ask. And still â somehow, in the span of twenty minutes, the whole world had shifted under your feet. Him, your mother, that last name. This damn⊠wedding.
âŠwhy does everything feel so hard to sort through right now?
âJustâŠâ You swallow, shifting towards the window, blinking back tears. âSorry. Donât talk to me right now.â
His expression softens. âCâmon⊠no,â he murmurs. âPlease⊠please donât be like that. Iâm sorry you found out this way. I shouldâve told you sooner.â
The crack in his voice makes everything unbearable, and outside, Tokyo keeps sliding past in fractured light. So, you look at the window because itâs easier than looking at him. Easier than trying to untangle the mess that is your life. Easier than naming what specifically hurts so much.
And easier than asking yourself what, exactly, had been real and what had only ever been off the record.
Clearly, the universe looked at the absolute clusterfuck of this trip and decided it wasn't finished with you yet.
Because apparently, your fake boyfriend had a limo. Your fake boyfriend, who can upgrade your tickets to first class like itâs nothing. Your fake boyfriend who is also, apparently, your boss â and decided to book you at a luxurious five-star hotel in Tokyo while somehow neglecting to mention that part too.
Whatever. Either way, you're too tired to care. Or maybe just too tired to forgive him â despite the way the marble floors and soft gold light whisper luxury around you like an apology you didnât ask for.
All you know, is that by the time the two of you make it upstairs, your silence was beyond awkward and hardened into something heavier. More deliberate. So, the moment the suite door clicks open, youâre beelining to the bedroom.
âGoodnight.â
You mutter it under your breath, shutting yourself into the bathroom before he can answer you. And when you change into your pajamas, you try not to linger in the mirror â because your whole face feels tight from holding yourself together, from trying not to cry for what feels like the hundredth time tonight. And as if that weren't enough, the wedding is tomorrow.
âŠhow the fuck are you supposed to get through that too?!
With an exhausted sigh, you push open the bedroom door, reach back to kill the light, andâ
ââŠwhat are you doing?â you deadpan, stopping cold in the entryway. Because at the foot of the bed, you find Satoru in sweats, crouched on the floor, carefully spreading a blanket across it. He smooths the corner flat and those blue eyes flick up, then drop back down.
âMaking myself comfortable?â
âŠ
That explains absolutely nothing.
Your brows pull together. âOkaaayâŠ? Clearly. Butâwhy?â Rolling your eyes, your arms cross. âDonât tell me you fucked up the reservation. I mean, youâre the one who booked this place. Donât you have your own suite?â
âYup. I do.â
He says it so easily it almost irritates you more. You watch him fluff the pillow and set it on the floor like this is perfectly normal behavior for a man who can apparently summon private drivers and spend obscene amounts of money at the drop of a hat.
Your teeth grit. âGreat. So go lay in your bed.â
Exhaling through his nose, he lowers himself onto the marble like itâs no different than a mattress. One arm tucks behind his head, the other rests over his stomach, all lazy limbs and impossible calm.
âNah,â he says. âThink Iâll sleep here. Promised you wouldnât be alone this trip.â
And the universe, apparently, hadn't taken quite enough from your dignity yet. Because you find yourself genuinely speechless.
For a moment, you just stand there looking at him â at the ridiculous length of him stretched out across the floor, at the fact that he has a whole bed somewhere else and was still choosing this â and at how he somehow managed to make the gesture feel casual enough not to embarrass you and sincere enough that it did anyway.
ââŠsuit yourself,â you grumble, stomping over to your bed.
You yank the covers back and climb in with an irritated sweep, reaching over to find the light. Darkness folds over the room in one soft rush, and for a while, thereâs only the low hum of air conditioning and the distant glow of Tokyo bleeding dimly through the curtains. Somewhere beneath it all, you can hear the faint rustle of fabric from the floor, the small settling sound of him getting comfortable.
âŠ
Or trying to.
You lie stiffly on your side, facing away from the edge of the bed that he lays, staring into the dark like you can force your mind to shut up if you just do it hard enough.
UghâŠ
Despite how tired you are, sleep feels impossible.
Rolling your eyes, you pick up your pillow and shift to the other side of the bed with an annoyed little huff. And thereâs the broad line of his back in the dark. One arm folded under his head, the other sprawled carelessly over the blanket, like this is all perfectly normal. Like sleeping on the marble floor in a five-star hotel is not objectively unhinged behavior.
ââŠyouâre actually gonna sleep down there?â you mutter into the dark.
âMm.â His voice comes easy, amused. âYou should be sleeping, missy.â
âSo should you,â you huff. âIn a bed.â
Chuckling, he shifts onto his back, sprawling out like a starfish. He hums. âNahhh,â and an exaggerated exhale breathes out of him, tired. âThe floorâs fine. Iâm reconnecting with the earth. Re-centering. Some might say itâs very⊠grounding.â
You can hear that pleased little smirk of his, even in the dark, and it pulls a snort out of you before you can stop it. ââŠwow, seriously?â Biting back a grin. âYouâre so stupid.â
He laughs under his breath. âYeah⊠maybe. Wouldnât be the first time Iâve been called that. Probably wonât be the last, either. ButâŠâ With a tired sigh, he drapes his arm over his face, half-hiding in the dark. ââŠguess Iâd rather be stupid than leave you alone, though.â
The words slip out, and the room goes strangely quiet. Something tender and awful pulling tight in your throat as you stare down at him for a second too long.
âŠwhat are you even supposed to do with that? With him?
Heâs down there on the floor, keeping a promise you never asked him to make.
Swallowing, your fingers tighten on the blanket. ââŠhey, Satoru?â That low hum answers, and you hesitate, staring at the dark shape of him on the floor, your heart doing something stupid and uncomfortable against your ribs.
âCome up here,â you blurt.
âŠ
Silence.
âWait⊠huh?â
Your eyes squeeze shut.
As if saying it once wasnât bad enough.
âI-I meanâŠâ youâre shifting onto your back, staring hard at the ceiling because looking at him suddenly feels impossible. âI just⊠thereâs plenty of room, so justâcome up.â
âŠ
Heâs quiet just long enough to make your face burn hotter. And when heâs pushing himself onto one elbow, even in the dark, you can feel the disbelief radiating off of him like heat.
âUh⊠right,â he laughs awkwardly. âI think the jet lagâs getting to me, because thereâs no way I heard that right unless youâre fucking with me.â
You cover your face with a groan.
Oh, for fuckâs sake. âChrist, stop making this harderââ you snap, voice rising. âIâm serious you idiot! Because youâre not making me feel worse tonight by sleeping on the goddamn floorâso hurry and get your ass up here beforeââ
ââyes maâam.â
Heâs moving before you can rethink the entire thing, despite how your pulse is suddenly loud in your own ears. You scoot over, clutching the blanket to your chest, and the mattress dips beneath his weight â the sheets rustle. His body shifts. And then everything goes still.
âŠtoo still.
All you can do is lie there. Stiff. Acutely, helplessly aware of him. But itâs dark â mercifully dark â and thank god for that, because you donât think you could survive seeing his face right now. Not this close. Not after that. Not with your own invitation still echoing back at you like something youâd like to physically retrieve out of thin air.
âSooooâŠâ he mumbles, fingers tapping the mattress. âUm⊠for the record, this is like⊠significantly nicer than my original arrangement. Way less marble.â
Despite the nerves, his words loosen a laugh from your chest. ââŠyeah? Well, good,â you mutter, tugging the blanket a little higher. âBecause honestly, the level of commitment you were showing that floor was a little concerning.â
He chuckles. âTrue, true.â And suddenly, you can hear the lazy stretch of a grin in his voice. âBuuuut I mean⊠I wasnât about to lose our first fightânot as your boyfriend.â
Your breath catches. âW-WowâŠâ You huff like thatâll cover it. âYouâum⊠got real comfortable with that word fast,â you mutter, trying for dry and missing by a mile.
A low hum. âI'm a committed man. What can I say?â and his voice is all smug velvet and sleep-rough warmth. âMmm⊠I kinda like the sound of it, actually.â
The words land lower than they should. Because that should not sound as good as it does.
âD-Donât⊠donât say it like that,â you stammer.
The mattress dips.
âMm?â he whispers. ââŠwell, how else should I say it, princess?â
âŠ
Fake.
Fake boyfriend.
The word lands somewhere quiet and ugly under your ribs, and all at once the warmth of the bed feels strange against your skin. Because that's what this is. What it has to be. A role. A weekend. A lie with soft edges and an expiration date. AndâŠ
âJustânevermindâŠâ you mutter, shoving it down, repositioning your pillow. âLaying in a bed with my boss was not really on my bingo card for this trip. Or finding out halfway through it, apparently.â
He scoffs. âIâm not your boss. My dadâs your boss.â A humorless breath leaves you. âYeah? Well, that is not as comforting a distinction as you think it is, Gojo, when your name is still on myââ
ââSatoru,â he corrects softly.
You blink into the dark.
âWait. Sorry⊠what?â
A small huff leaves him, almost annoyed, almost something softer. âItâs justâŠâ he grumbles, shifting against the sheets, âI like it a lot better when you call me SatoruâŠâ And even without seeing him, you can hear it.
Is he⊠pouting?
The fabric rustles again as he shifts. âLookâŠâ he says after a beat, and the teasing has gone out of his voice now. âIâm sorry I didnât tell you sooner. I justâŠâ He exhales through his nose. âI didnât think hearing my last name would make you start acting like I was suddenly somebody else...?â
Your lashes flutter as he scoots closer, and this time, your breath catches. Because a thin line of moonlight slips through the curtains, cutting across the bed just enough to catch him there. The loose fall of white hair over his forehead, the softened line of his mouth, the pale blue of his eyes gone dim and almost silver in the dark.
âAndâŠâ His voice lowers, softer now. âI guess I didnât realize how much I liked just being Satoru to you..." Those blue eyes dip to your lips, just for a second, before lifting back to yours. His breath hitches.
âYâknow Iâm still me⊠right?â He whispers.
As his breath fans across your face, you feel fingers slipping over yours, careful enough to feel like a question, and your pulse does something wild. Because for one suspended second, he doesnât look real. He looks like something half-dreamed.
Beautiful.
âRightâŠâ you breathe, the word thin. âI know that, and⊠I-Iâm sorry for lashing out at you earlier. I just⊠I wasnât expecting any of this, and then everything at the airport andâand godâand then my mom andâ"
The words are tumbling out now, too fast, too loose, and even in the dark you feel laid open by them. Bare in a way that makes you want to snatch every one back. Because there he is, looking at you with that same unbearable patience, thumb brushing over the back of your hand in slow, absent strokes, his mouth tipped in a smile so soft it almost feels private.
âŠyours.
And thatâs whatâs terrifying. He feels like something you could lean into. Like warmth can be simple. Unconditional. Real.
ButâŠ
Nothing in your life has ever taught you how to lean into warmth without waiting for the condition beneath it. Without turning it over, looking for the fine print. So, perhaps thatâs why, when his thumb brushes over your hand again, you pull away.
And his frown is instant.
âI-IâŠâ Your eyes squeeze shut as you clear your throat. âSorry.â The word comes out frayed. âI want you to know I appreciate you doing this. Genuinely. ButâŠâ You swallow hard around the ache pressing at the base of your throat. âTomorrow is it.â
The room goes so quiet you can hear the air conditioning hum.
His brow furrows, pushing himself up on his elbow. âUm⊠what are you saying?â He scoffs, lips pulling into a disbelieving grin. âI donât understand. Why are you acting like everythingââ
ââafter this is over,â you blurt, chest rising. âYou can justâforget all this happened, okay?â And your voice thins. Blinking back tears, your eyes flick away. âThatâs it. Youâll forget about me. You go back to your life. I go back to mine. Just like we agreed andââ
ââI donât remember agreeing to that.â
Your eyes glance back from the hurt in his voice, and somehow that only makes it worse. Because...
Why?
Why does he have to look at you like that?
You exhale shakily. âI think we both need sleep more than we need this conversation, soâŠâ The blanket is already up at your chin by the time the words leave you. âLetâs⊠leave it at that. Okay? Iâm exhausted," you whisper. "Goodnight, Satoru.â
Shifting away, you roll onto your side before he can say anything else, before he can make this harder than it already is. The bed gives with a quiet creak behind you.
âGoodnight, sweetheart.â
And you lie there, holding yourself rigid, as if that could undo the part of you that almost turned back.
Still. Despite how tired you are⊠sleep feels impossible.
a/n. oof. sorry for leaving you on the angst đ but this felt like the right place to split it so part 3 can be fully wedding-focused. tysm for reading! i'm blown away by all your support. he's literally so patient and attentive, whaaa. i wanna eat him up đ
ê° summary ê± when a misunderstanding leaves your family convinced youâre bringing a plus one to your cousinâs wedding in Japan, the last person you expect to volunteer for the role is your infuriatingly observant intern, Satoru. itâs supposed to be temporary. professional. strictly off the record. but with your mother already sold on the idea of your mystery boyfriend, and Satoru proving far too good at the role, pretending starts to feel a little too dangerous. also, why is your âinternâ secretly the heir to gojo corporation?!
ê° tags/warnings ê± fake dating âčïž undercover ceo! satoru âčïž accountant! reader âčïž satoru is 29, reader is 26 âčïž lots of family pressure. reader has a complicated relationship with her mom âčïž forced proximity âčïž one bed trope âčïž slow burn âčïž mutual pining âčïž wedding chaos âčïž angst and fluff âčïž some suggestive content but no explicit smut âčïž
ê° authors note ê± surpriseeee â this is 3 parts now hehe. satoru is still our lovingly annoying sweetheart here, but this part does have a bit more angst than the last. nothing too wild though⊠just a whole lot of yearning and our poor reader being very committed to denial. i hope you enjoy! part 3 will be the last one. (art by @/hanamin_0123 on x)
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part 2
âMaâam, may I interest you in our menu?â the flight attendant asks, leaning in with a practiced smile.
"Ohâum. Yes... thank you."
The thick, cream-colored menu lands in your hands a second later, and you settle into your seat just as she disappears down the aisle. A seat that is far too comfortable for the current state of your life. But thatâs the thing about first class â it makes it very hard to be appropriately miserable, and you are trying to be miserable right now. You are committed to it.
âIf you need recommendations⊠I recommend the wagyu.â Satoru leans in, close enough that his breath feathers warm against the side of your neck. âItâs to die for.â
He grins, blue eyes glinting behind snowy lashes. And unfortunately, the wagyu isnât the thing currently putting your life at risk. Because a shiver moves through you before you can stop it.
âO-OhâŠâ your head jerks away, quickly. âUh-huh⊠sure.â
Refusing to turn, you keep your eyes stubbornly on the cabin â denying him the satisfaction of seeing what his closeness does to the treacherous, backstabbing organ inside your chest. But you catch him in your periphery â leaning back, entirely unbothered, reaching for his own menu with that pleased little hum that means, of course, he notices.
Ugh.
This is going to be a long-ass ten-hour flight. And first class, as it turns out, is only roomy when you arenât seated beside the exact person currently making your pulse act deeply unprofessional.
âŠ
Wait. When did you pulse start doing that?!
Miserable, you remind yourself. Yeah. Miserable.
With a sigh, you click your seatbelt into place and flip open the menu, genuinely trying to build a case for why this is the worst decision youâve ever made. Unfortunately, it is hard to maintain righteous regret when the menu has no prices on it. Not one. Just elegant font, artful descriptions, and ingredients arranged like poetry.
âŠyouâd booked economy.
Economy.
But then heâd upgraded your tickets last minute like that was a normal thing a person did â insisting you fly with him. Like swapping someoneâs middle seat for a first-class cocoon with a duvet and a champagne flute was just⊠hospitality.
âUm⊠Satoru?â Your brow arches as you take in the absurdly extravagant menu. âHow much does this cost, exactlyâŠ?â He doesnât even glance up. âMm? Oh.â Flipping a page, his hand waves lazily. âDonât worry about it.â
âŠ
Donât worry about it?
You are very much worrying about it. Because how the hell does an intern afford this?! You know how much interns make at your company; youâve worked with HR, signed off on the numbers â and it is categorically not this.
But fine. Whatever. That is, somehow, the least of your problems right now. And your mind was already veering back toward the more immediate catastrophe currently taxiing toward the runway.
Your family.
âRight⊠well. Anyways, Satoru,â you say, setting the menu down. âWe should probably establish the basics before we get to Japan andââ
ââwhat do you like to eat?â
You blink, lips parting.
âIâsorryâŠwhat?â
âI like sweets,â he says, turning toward you. A toothy grin spreads across his face, dimples peeking. âLetâs see⊠cake, cream buns, mochiâŠâ he muses. âOh! Especially kikifuku mochi, itâs the best.â He nods solemnly. âHonestly, I think itâs the whipped cream inside that really makes the difference.â
Your brow furrows as you stare at him.
âŠwhen did this become a TED talk about sugar? You were trying to discuss a plan, and he is out here curating a dessert menu like the most pressing crisis of the next ten hours is pastry selection.
âOkayâŠ? Thatâs nice. But we should talk aboutââ
âFood,â he states, picking up the menu you just set down. He flips it open and angles it back toward you like that is the only sensible conversation available. âCâmon. What do you like? Not what youâll settle for⊠what youâll actually like. Ten hours is a long time, sweetheart.â
Brow knitting, you frown.
He cannot be serious. That is not the priority right now.
âThatâthat can wait. We need toââ
ââestablish the basics, yeah.â He rolls his eyes and tips his head back against the seat, like your resistance is personally exhausting him. But then his gaze flicks back, amused. âAnd Iâm just saying food is a basic necessity. Because you skip lunch when youâre busy, forget breakfast when youâre anxious, and then act shocked when you feel like shit three hours later. So, eat.â He places the menu back in your hands. âPreferably something that isnât stale pretzels, yeah?â
Something hot and startled climbs your neck so fast itâs almost impressive. Your mouth opens, but whatever rebuttal is forming never makes it. Because before you can recoverâ
âHonestly, I gotta say⊠the soba is pretty good too, actually.â His face is suddenly just over your shoulder, murmuring close enough that you feel the heat of him against your ear. âIf you donât want the wagyu, that is. Waitâscratch that. Maybe ramenâŠ?â His finger traces a line on the menu, pale lashes lowering, tongue clinking gently. âMm⊠never mind. Too much broth and there could be turbulence.â
Your whole body stiffens. Because his closeness does not feel unwelcome. Which is exactly the problem.
âŠwhen did he get so comfortable?!
ââŠstop doing that,â you mutter, pulling back. He looks over, the picture of innocence. âDoing what?â
Your lips purse.
âI dunno. BeingâŠâ  But the word dissolves, and you're reaching for your water, needing something to do with your hands. âSo⊠comfortable. Soââ You cut yourself off with a small huff. âLike this.â
His grin is unbearable, lazy and crooked.
âOh?â he reclines. âLike what, baby?â
You sputter into your water.
âBaby?â
Youâre choking on your drink, and Satoru looks entirely too pleased with himself. He's chuckling, leaning over without a second thought, one hand settling warm between your shoulder blades.
âAwwh⊠whatâs this? Donât be shy now,â he hums, the picture of helpfulness, rubbing slow circles with a sigh. âWeâre gonna have to get way cozier than this if Iâm playing boyfriend. Just establishing the basics, yeah?â
As you straighten with a glare, you can tell without a doubt he is openly enjoying himself. That grin hasnât moved a goddamn inch.
âŠasshole.
Huffing, you settle back into your seat. And it isnât long before the plane shudders gently away from the gate, inching out onto the runway with that slow, terrible sense of inevitability that only air travel is capable of producing.
âLadies and gentlemen, at this time please ensure your seatbelt is securely fastened⊠flight attendants, prepare for departure.â
The overhead announcement crackles through the cabin, too polished to be comforting. While beneath you, the whole plane seems to draw tight, a low hum building through the floor, climbing up through your seat.
You exhale, letting your eyes fall shut. Just long enough to pretend you werenât here. Just long enough to avoid the window, the runway, and the deeply unhelpful fact that your brain liked to save all its worst thoughts for takeoff.
âŠlike how first class wasnât exactly known for improving your odds. Like how takeoff and landing were statistically the worst parts. Like how the engine sounded different now, probably⊠maybe, andâ
âHey.â
Satoruâs voice came quieter this time; enough to pull your eyes back open. When you look over, that vibrant blue is already watching you â steady, unhurried, like he has been waiting for you to surface.
âAre you⊠nervous?â
âWhat? N-NoâŠâ you lie, huffing. His brow arches, sensing your bullshit. âOkay⊠then why are you doing that with your hands?â
Following his gaze, your fingers had folded into fists without even noticing, in that particular way they always do when youâre trying to physically hold yourself together.
Fuck.
Itâs ridiculous, really. You knew flying was statistically safe! Knew it the way you knew balance sheets and quarterly projections and the exact percentage margins that kept departments alive. And yet, takeoff had always felt like the part where logic starts losing altitude.
âOhâŠâ A small, awkward laugh slips out, just as the engine begins to roar. You smooth your palms over your trembling thighs, shouting over it. âItâs fine! Really! I just⊠umâI guess I donât particularly like takeoff, is all!â
His expression softens in a way you werenât braced for. But before he can answer, the plane surges forward and your eyes squeeze shut. A massive force presses you back into the seat while vibrations climb through the floor and up your spine.
Itâs terrible. Completely terrible. But somewhere in the middle of it, a warm hand slides against yours. It takes you a second to register his fingers lacing between your own, and the moment his thumb brushes the back of your hand, you instinctively grip him tighter.
Your eyes stay shut, but you feel the plane lift hard and fast into the sky. And somewhere between the roar of the engines and that awful pull in your stomach, the slow circles his thumb traces against your skin become the only thing your body seems willing to trust.
By the time the pressure eases and the plane finally levels out, your lungs have only just remembered how to work. For a second, neither of you moves untilâ
ââŠbetter?â
His voice brushes the quiet between you. You blink your eyes open.
âYeahâŠâ you whisper. âUm⊠thanks.â
He smiles. âSure.â
That thumb brushes one last time against the back of your hand before finally pulling away, dropping back into his lap with a simple nod like it had been nothing. And the loss of that warmth was immediate enough to sting.
OhâŠ
Heâs⊠annoyingly good at taking care of you. And worse, your body had recognized it before your brain could file the proper objection â clinging first, thinking later, like comfort was something you could afford to trust.
Maybe the altitude was messing with your headâŠ
Ten hours was a long time.
Long enough to work out the safest parts of the lie. How long youâve been together. Where you met. Which version of the truth felt neat enough to survive one wedding weekend without collapsing under the weight of follow-up questions.
It was just⊠not long enough, apparently, for the parts that actually mattered.
âSoooo⊠questionâŠâ Satoru had stretched lazily, turning his glass between two fingers as he glanced over. âWhat exactly should I expect when we land?â
You kept your attention on the blanket across your lap, flattening a wrinkle. âProbably⊠jet lag?â you mutter sarcastically, avoiding his gaze, fussing with the fabric. âAnd a long enough drive to regret everything in peace.â
He snorts. âWell, yeah. Obviously.â Ice clicked softly as he tipped his glass, shifting toward you. âNot what I meant, though. I meant with your family.â
And when the warmth of his attention settled against the side of your face â you hesitated. Because it was patient in a way that only made it harder to meet. Patient in the way of someone whoâs learned that pushing doesnât work on you. Which youâre unsure is better, or worse. Because waiting means heâs paying attention, and paying attention means heâll notice when you crack.
âWeâll just⊠talk about that later,â you huffed, tugging the blanket a little higher before turning toward the window. âIâm tired. Gonna try to sleep.â
Later⊠yeah. Later.
But by baggage claim, you were running out of runway. You had to do it soon. Get it over with. Preferably somewhere between the airport and your hotel, where you could spit it out quickly and not have to watch his face too closely while you did.
So now, Satoru yawns beside the conveyor belt, tired blue eyes skimming the slow parade of suitcases rounding the carousel. Hands in his pockets, shoulders loose, posture easy in a way that only makes you more tense. You stand there staring at the back of him, fingers hooked tight in the seam of your shirt.
Now.
âHey⊠Satoru?â you mumble. âHm?â His gaze lands on your luggage and heâs already stepping forward to grab it. âUm, wellâŠâ You hesitate. âAbout my family⊠Iâ"
ââoh! Lookâlook! There they are!â
The moment her voice rings through the terminal, everything inside you locks. You turn, and for one wild second, you genuinely wonder if itâs too late to get back on that godforsaken plane.
Satoru hauls your suitcase off the belt.
âWhat about them?â he asks, turning when you stop short. Then he sees your face. ââŠsweetheart?â His brows furrow, following your line of sight â and there is your mother, cutting through the crowd with Trish beside her, moving with the kind of delighted urgency you arenât prepared to see for at least another twelve hours.
No.
No, no, no.
ââoh my god, there he is!â Your mother walks straight past you â past you â and both hands are wrapping around Satoruâs like heâs who she came for. "Oh, he's handsome. Trish, lookâ"
Itâs no surprise, really, that youâre a second thought. Youâve been a second thought since before you could name it. But that isnât the wound that matters at this particular moment. The bigger problem is that sheâs here.
âŠwhy the hell is she here?!
You were supposed to have more timeâ
ââoh my god,â Trish breathes to you. âDamn. girl. Heâs, like⊠stupid handsome.â And Satoruâs grin went smug, drawling. âOh, please, ladies. Keep the compliments coming. Iâm feeling very welcomed~â
Your mother giggles. âHandsome and funny. Oh, heâs a charmer,â she says, smacking his shoulder playfully. Though the laugh lands bitter. âGod. Why on earth would she keep you from me?! I mean⊠wow. I was beginning to think sheâd die alone.â
The words hit like a slap dressed as a joke.
Satoru blinks, the smile faltering for half a second, head tilting imperceptibly.
âŠgreat.
Of fucking course sheâd say something like that within the first thirty seconds.
âMother⊠whatââ your voice wavers, eyes falling shut with a swallow. âSorry. I justâwhat are you both doing here?â
She did a tiny double take, like sheâd only just remembered you were standing there. âOh, honeyâŠâ A hand waves, scoffing. âDonât be sillyâof course weâre here to pick you up! God. I wouldnât leave you stranded at the airport,â she snorts.
Oh, right.
So she wouldnât abandon you at an airport. Just in another country.
âŠgood to know there's a line somewhere.
âBesides, why donât you both just stay with us instead?â sheâs already reaching for Satoruâs hand again, bright with the idea. âWeâve got a guest room ready, and Iâd love for the chance to talk to you.â
Your body goes rigid.
Oh no. Fuck no.
Anything but that.
Satoru must have seen it written across your face â that particular shade of panic âbecause his eyes cut to you for only half a second before he slips his hand free, turning back to your mother with a smile already in place.
âThatâs incredibly kind, maâam,â he says, tugging you into his side with an ease that shouldnât have felt as steadying as it did. âBut weâre staying pretty close to my familyâs place, and I should probably swing by tomorrow morning.â He rubs the back of his neck with a theatrical groan. âItâs been a few months since Iâve seen my father, and trust me, Iâll regret it if he finds out I came to Tokyo and didnât stop by, yâknow?â
Apparently, ten hours isnât long enough for the parts that actually matter, becauseâŠ
âOh? Your familyâs place?â your mother repeats, brows lifting. âSo, are they here in Tokyo too, then?â He nods. âMm, yeah. Pretty much all the Gojos areâat least on my dadâs side. My momâs in Kyoto.â
âŠ
Wait.
Did he just say Gojo?
As inâ
Your bossâs family?!
No. Absolutely not. Between the jet lag, the shock, and your mother still glowing beside you, your brain simply does not have the bandwidth for this. Your lips part, blinking like that might somehow rearrange what he just said into something less insane.
Nothing comes out.
âGojoâŠâ your mother repeats, brows knitting. âWhy does that sound familiar?â Trish blinks. "Waitâlike⊠Gojo Corporation Gojo?!"
Satoruâs grin widens. âYep. Thatâd be us.â
âAh!â Your mother snaps her fingers. âGojo Corporation. Yesâof course! Silly me. I thought that name seemed familiarâŠâ
And now, the hurt arrives before the shock finishes landing â ugly and precise and aimed at the exact spot that never heals right. Five years of your work, your career, your life inside that building. But she only knows it because a handsome man says it in a terminal.
You stare. âMom⊠you can't be serious?â and the hurt in your own voice catches you off guard. âIâve⊠I've literally been working at Gojo Corporation for the last five years.â
Fuck...
Get it together.
Out of the corner of your eye, Satoru watches you. But your mother moves on like youâre invisible.
âOh Satoru Gojo, you just keep getting better and better.â You feel him hesitating as she tugs eagerly. âComeâcome! At least let us drive you both to the hotel, hm? Thereâs so much I need to hear andââ
ââsorry maâam, no.â
Satoruâs pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. And you blink while his fingers smooth gently through your hair, tipping your chin up with a long finger.
You blink, because Satoru is pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. When his fingers smooth gently through your hair, your breath hitches as he tips your chin up.
âHonestly, Iâm beatâŠâ His thumb brushes your cheek, gaze searching your face. ââŠarenât you, love?â
Thereâs a hitch in your breath
Oh.
So⊠youâre not invisible?
As it leaves you in a quiet shudder, for one suspended second, there is nothing but that soft blue of his eyes and the way theyâve gone gentle for you. All you can do is nod â and a single tear slips free before you can stop it.
He tucks you against his chest, hiding your face, and flashes a grin back at your mother.
âUgh⊠I appreciate you coming to get us, but weâve been up for way too long andââ Glancing down at his phone, he lets out a small laugh. âAh. Perfect timing! Would ya look at thatâmy driverâs here.â A tug of your hand. âBut weâll catch up tomorrow, yeah? Bye, ladies~â
Your legs are moving on their own, and you donât even catch the expression on your motherâs face. Canât. Not when your pulse is still tripping over itself. Not when his hand wraps around yours like letting go isnât even a question.
The suitcase rolled behind you, with the airport crowd bustling. While those bright eyes flicked back, making sure you were still there every few steps.
âCâmon, pretty girl⊠weâre almost there,â he murmurs. âJust stay with me, okay? Eyes on me, yeah?â
And⊠you werenât sure why he lowered his voice. Not when they were already well out of earshot. You only know that⊠it nearly undoes you all over again.
By the time the limo pulls away from the curb, Satoru had already figured out two things: your mother was awful, and somehow, heâd gotten you out of there only to realize he hadnât fully brought you back with him.
Itâs the furrow in your brow that gets him first⊠then the wobble in your lip â the one you think youâre hiding, the one you always think youâre hiding. You havenât said a word since climbing into the backseat. Havenât looked at him either. Instead, you stay toward the window, watching Tokyo slip by in blurred ribbons of light, glowing against the glass in streaks of neon. A city that has no business being that beautiful when you look that broken.
âŠshit. Should he crack a joke? No. Maybe not.
But asking if youâre okay feels useless. You obviously arenât. And worse, saying it out loud feels like the fastest way to make you disappear even further behind that window â to watch you pull the shutters down the way you always do.
âWell, thenâŠâ A hand drags through his hair as he lets his head fall back against the seat. âUm⊠gotta sayâyour family really believes in making an entrance, huh? Talk aboutââ
ââI thought your name was Satoru Geto.â
He blinks.
âHuh?â
Your gaze finally pulls from the window, landing on him, and the hurt in it is so carefully contained it almost looks like composure. Almost. Except heâs spent four months learning to read you, and composure doesnât tremble at the edges like that.
ââŠSatoru Geto,â you mutter carefully. âThatâs the name on your employee record, no?â
Oh...
Right. That.
ââŠis it?â His gaze slips away, fingers scratching at the back of his neck. âYeah⊠um. About that. Getoâs actually my best friend. I just used his last name because the initials matched.â Heâs flopping back against the seat with a small shrug, one arm slinging across the top. âMade it easier to sign off on stuff that way. Gotta work smarter, not harder, right?â
And tilting his head, a crooked grin tugs at the corner of his lips.
Yours doesnât move.
âRight,â you deadpan, turning back toward the window. âSo your plan was to just let me keep calling you that.â
You donât say it like a question.
âŠis it a question?
Satoruâs brow furrows at the hurt threaded beneath the words. âNo⊠Iââ he huffs, hands dropping into his lap. âObviously I had to hide it while I was working with you, but my legal name was on the boarding pass I gave you, so itâs not like I was actively hiding it, sweetheart.â
You scoff under your breath. âOh. Cool. So I was just supposed to⊠whatâfigure that out on my own?â And suddenly, your voice is doing this awful thing now â losing its clean, controlled shape, slipping into something thinner. Hotter.
He hears it immediately, sighing. âSorry⊠but why is this the problem?â he asks, more confused than anything now. âHelp me out here. I mean⊠I thought your mom was what had you upset back there.â
Your eyes roll. âYour name is literally on my paycheck, Gojo. How is that not a problem?â
He stares. Genuinely stares. Because for a second, he doesnât know what to do with that. To him, his name was just a name. The company was just a company. Status had always felt like something other people got weird about first. Not him.
So, like an idiot, he goes for the joke.
âWell⊠technically, I think my name is on a lot of paychecks, soâ"
ââJesus Christ, am I a fucking joke to you?â
And the humor drops out of him so fast it almost startles you. Shit. That backfired tremendously. âWhoaâwhat? No!â He straightens, brow furrowing. âNo, no, no. God, noâsweetheart, of course not. Why would you think that?â
Youâre looking away before he can see what that does to your face, because you hate how quickly his voice goes from careless to cracked. Hate yourself for making it do that.
Damnit.
You know that wasnât fair. He had just gotten you out of there. Seen you unraveling in that airport and stepped in without making it worse. Without making you ask. And still â somehow, in the span of twenty minutes, the whole world had shifted under your feet. Him, your mother, that last name. This damn⊠wedding.
âŠwhy does everything feel so hard to sort through right now?
âJustâŠâ You swallow, shifting towards the window, blinking back tears. âSorry. Donât talk to me right now.â
His expression softens. âCâmon⊠no,â he murmurs. âPlease⊠please donât be like that. Iâm sorry you found out this way. I shouldâve told you sooner.â
The crack in his voice makes everything unbearable, and outside, Tokyo keeps sliding past in fractured light. So, you look at the window because itâs easier than looking at him. Easier than trying to untangle the mess that is your life. Easier than naming what specifically hurts so much.
And easier than asking yourself what, exactly, had been real and what had only ever been off the record.
Clearly, the universe looked at the absolute clusterfuck of this trip and decided it wasn't finished with you yet.
Because apparently, your fake boyfriend had a limo. Your fake boyfriend, who can upgrade your tickets to first class like itâs nothing. Your fake boyfriend who is also, apparently, your boss â and decided to book you at a luxurious five-star hotel in Tokyo while somehow neglecting to mention that part too.
Whatever. Either way, you're too tired to care. Or maybe just too tired to forgive him â despite the way the marble floors and soft gold light whisper luxury around you like an apology you didnât ask for.
All you know, is that by the time the two of you make it upstairs, your silence was beyond awkward and hardened into something heavier. More deliberate. So, the moment the suite door clicks open, youâre beelining to the bedroom.
âGoodnight.â
You mutter it under your breath, shutting yourself into the bathroom before he can answer you. And when you change into your pajamas, you try not to linger in the mirror â because your whole face feels tight from holding yourself together, from trying not to cry for what feels like the hundredth time tonight. And as if that weren't enough, the wedding is tomorrow.
âŠhow the fuck are you supposed to get through that too?!
With an exhausted sigh, you push open the bedroom door, reach back to kill the light, andâ
ââŠwhat are you doing?â you deadpan, stopping cold in the entryway. Because at the foot of the bed, you find Satoru in sweats, crouched on the floor, carefully spreading a blanket across it. He smooths the corner flat and those blue eyes flick up, then drop back down.
âMaking myself comfortable?â
âŠ
That explains absolutely nothing.
Your brows pull together. âOkaaayâŠ? Clearly. Butâwhy?â Rolling your eyes, your arms cross. âDonât tell me you fucked up the reservation. I mean, youâre the one who booked this place. Donât you have your own suite?â
âYup. I do.â
He says it so easily it almost irritates you more. You watch him fluff the pillow and set it on the floor like this is perfectly normal behavior for a man who can apparently summon private drivers and spend obscene amounts of money at the drop of a hat.
Your teeth grit. âGreat. So go lay in your bed.â
Exhaling through his nose, he lowers himself onto the marble like itâs no different than a mattress. One arm tucks behind his head, the other rests over his stomach, all lazy limbs and impossible calm.
âNah,â he says. âThink Iâll sleep here. Promised you wouldnât be alone this trip.â
And the universe, apparently, hadn't taken quite enough from your dignity yet. Because you find yourself genuinely speechless.
For a moment, you just stand there looking at him â at the ridiculous length of him stretched out across the floor, at the fact that he has a whole bed somewhere else and was still choosing this â and at how he somehow managed to make the gesture feel casual enough not to embarrass you and sincere enough that it did anyway.
ââŠsuit yourself,â you grumble, stomping over to your bed.
You yank the covers back and climb in with an irritated sweep, reaching over to find the light. Darkness folds over the room in one soft rush, and for a while, thereâs only the low hum of air conditioning and the distant glow of Tokyo bleeding dimly through the curtains. Somewhere beneath it all, you can hear the faint rustle of fabric from the floor, the small settling sound of him getting comfortable.
âŠ
Or trying to.
You lie stiffly on your side, facing away from the edge of the bed that he lays, staring into the dark like you can force your mind to shut up if you just do it hard enough.
UghâŠ
Despite how tired you are, sleep feels impossible.
Rolling your eyes, you pick up your pillow and shift to the other side of the bed with an annoyed little huff. And thereâs the broad line of his back in the dark. One arm folded under his head, the other sprawled carelessly over the blanket, like this is all perfectly normal. Like sleeping on the marble floor in a five-star hotel is not objectively unhinged behavior.
ââŠyouâre actually gonna sleep down there?â you mutter into the dark.
âMm.â His voice comes easy, amused. âYou should be sleeping, missy.â
âSo should you,â you huff. âIn a bed.â
Chuckling, he shifts onto his back, sprawling out like a starfish. He hums. âNahhh,â and an exaggerated exhale breathes out of him, tired. âThe floorâs fine. Iâm reconnecting with the earth. Re-centering. Some might say itâs very⊠grounding.â
You can hear that pleased little smirk of his, even in the dark, and it pulls a snort out of you before you can stop it. ââŠwow, seriously?â Biting back a grin. âYouâre so stupid.â
He laughs under his breath. âYeah⊠maybe. Wouldnât be the first time Iâve been called that. Probably wonât be the last, either. ButâŠâ With a tired sigh, he drapes his arm over his face, half-hiding in the dark. ââŠguess Iâd rather be stupid than leave you alone, though.â
The words slip out, and the room goes strangely quiet. Something tender and awful pulling tight in your throat as you stare down at him for a second too long.
âŠwhat are you even supposed to do with that? With him?
Heâs down there on the floor, keeping a promise you never asked him to make.
Swallowing, your fingers tighten on the blanket. ââŠhey, Satoru?â That low hum answers, and you hesitate, staring at the dark shape of him on the floor, your heart doing something stupid and uncomfortable against your ribs.
âCome up here,â you blurt.
âŠ
Silence.
âWait⊠huh?â
Your eyes squeeze shut.
As if saying it once wasnât bad enough.
âI-I meanâŠâ youâre shifting onto your back, staring hard at the ceiling because looking at him suddenly feels impossible. âI just⊠thereâs plenty of room, so justâcome up.â
âŠ
Heâs quiet just long enough to make your face burn hotter. And when heâs pushing himself onto one elbow, even in the dark, you can feel the disbelief radiating off of him like heat.
âUh⊠right,â he laughs awkwardly. âI think the jet lagâs getting to me, because thereâs no way I heard that right unless youâre fucking with me.â
You cover your face with a groan.
Oh, for fuckâs sake. âChrist, stop making this harderââ you snap, voice rising. âIâm serious you idiot! Because youâre not making me feel worse tonight by sleeping on the goddamn floorâso hurry and get your ass up here beforeââ
ââyes maâam.â
Heâs moving before you can rethink the entire thing, despite how your pulse is suddenly loud in your own ears. You scoot over, clutching the blanket to your chest, and the mattress dips beneath his weight â the sheets rustle. His body shifts. And then everything goes still.
âŠtoo still.
All you can do is lie there. Stiff. Acutely, helplessly aware of him. But itâs dark â mercifully dark â and thank god for that, because you donât think you could survive seeing his face right now. Not this close. Not after that. Not with your own invitation still echoing back at you like something youâd like to physically retrieve out of thin air.
âSooooâŠâ he mumbles, fingers tapping the mattress. âUm⊠for the record, this is like⊠significantly nicer than my original arrangement. Way less marble.â
Despite the nerves, his words loosen a laugh from your chest. ââŠyeah? Well, good,â you mutter, tugging the blanket a little higher. âBecause honestly, the level of commitment you were showing that floor was a little concerning.â
He chuckles. âTrue, true.â And suddenly, you can hear the lazy stretch of a grin in his voice. âBuuuut I mean⊠I wasnât about to lose our first fightânot as your boyfriend.â
Your breath catches. âW-WowâŠâ You huff like thatâll cover it. âYouâum⊠got real comfortable with that word fast,â you mutter, trying for dry and missing by a mile.
A low hum. âI'm a committed man. What can I say?â and his voice is all smug velvet and sleep-rough warmth. âMmm⊠I kinda like the sound of it, actually.â
The words land lower than they should. Because that should not sound as good as it does.
âD-Donât⊠donât say it like that,â you stammer.
The mattress dips.
âMm?â he whispers. ââŠwell, how else should I say it, princess?â
âŠ
Fake.
Fake boyfriend.
The word lands somewhere quiet and ugly under your ribs, and all at once the warmth of the bed feels strange against your skin. Because that's what this is. What it has to be. A role. A weekend. A lie with soft edges and an expiration date. AndâŠ
âJustânevermindâŠâ you mutter, shoving it down, repositioning your pillow. âLaying in a bed with my boss was not really on my bingo card for this trip. Or finding out halfway through it, apparently.â
He scoffs. âIâm not your boss. My dadâs your boss.â A humorless breath leaves you. âYeah? Well, that is not as comforting a distinction as you think it is, Gojo, when your name is still on myââ
ââSatoru,â he corrects softly.
You blink into the dark.
âWait. Sorry⊠what?â
A small huff leaves him, almost annoyed, almost something softer. âItâs justâŠâ he grumbles, shifting against the sheets, âI like it a lot better when you call me SatoruâŠâ And even without seeing him, you can hear it.
Is he⊠pouting?
The fabric rustles again as he shifts. âLookâŠâ he says after a beat, and the teasing has gone out of his voice now. âIâm sorry I didnât tell you sooner. I justâŠâ He exhales through his nose. âI didnât think hearing my last name would make you start acting like I was suddenly somebody else...?â
Your lashes flutter as he scoots closer, and this time, your breath catches. Because a thin line of moonlight slips through the curtains, cutting across the bed just enough to catch him there. The loose fall of white hair over his forehead, the softened line of his mouth, the pale blue of his eyes gone dim and almost silver in the dark.
âAndâŠâ His voice lowers, softer now. âI guess I didnât realize how much I liked just being Satoru to you..." Those blue eyes dip to your lips, just for a second, before lifting back to yours. His breath hitches.
âYâknow Iâm still me⊠right?â He whispers.
As his breath fans across your face, you feel fingers slipping over yours, careful enough to feel like a question, and your pulse does something wild. Because for one suspended second, he doesnât look real. He looks like something half-dreamed.
Beautiful.
âRightâŠâ you breathe, the word thin. âI know that, and⊠I-Iâm sorry for lashing out at you earlier. I just⊠I wasnât expecting any of this, and then everything at the airport andâand godâand then my mom andâ"
The words are tumbling out now, too fast, too loose, and even in the dark you feel laid open by them. Bare in a way that makes you want to snatch every one back. Because there he is, looking at you with that same unbearable patience, thumb brushing over the back of your hand in slow, absent strokes, his mouth tipped in a smile so soft it almost feels private.
âŠyours.
And thatâs whatâs terrifying. He feels like something you could lean into. Like warmth can be simple. Unconditional. Real.
ButâŠ
Nothing in your life has ever taught you how to lean into warmth without waiting for the condition beneath it. Without turning it over, looking for the fine print. So, perhaps thatâs why, when his thumb brushes over your hand again, you pull away.
And his frown is instant.
âI-IâŠâ Your eyes squeeze shut as you clear your throat. âSorry.â The word comes out frayed. âI want you to know I appreciate you doing this. Genuinely. ButâŠâ You swallow hard around the ache pressing at the base of your throat. âTomorrow is it.â
The room goes so quiet you can hear the air conditioning hum.
His brow furrows, pushing himself up on his elbow. âUm⊠what are you saying?â He scoffs, lips pulling into a disbelieving grin. âI donât understand. Why are you acting like everythingââ
ââafter this is over,â you blurt, chest rising. âYou can justâforget all this happened, okay?â And your voice thins. Blinking back tears, your eyes flick away. âThatâs it. Youâll forget about me. You go back to your life. I go back to mine. Just like we agreed andââ
ââI donât remember agreeing to that.â
Your eyes glance back from the hurt in his voice, and somehow that only makes it worse. Because...
Why?
Why does he have to look at you like that?
You exhale shakily. âI think we both need sleep more than we need this conversation, soâŠâ The blanket is already up at your chin by the time the words leave you. âLetâs⊠leave it at that. Okay? Iâm exhausted," you whisper. "Goodnight, Satoru.â
Shifting away, you roll onto your side before he can say anything else, before he can make this harder than it already is. The bed gives with a quiet creak behind you.
âGoodnight, sweetheart.â
And you lie there, holding yourself rigid, as if that could undo the part of you that almost turned back.
Still. Despite how tired you are⊠sleep feels impossible.
a/n. oof. sorry for leaving you on the angst đ but this felt like the right place to split it so part 3 can be fully wedding-focused. tysm for reading! i'm blown away by all your support. he's literally so patient and attentive, whaaa. i wanna eat him up đ
ê° summary ê± when a misunderstanding leaves your family convinced youâre bringing a plus one to your cousinâs wedding in Japan, the last person you expect to volunteer for the role is your infuriatingly observant intern, Satoru. itâs supposed to be temporary. professional. strictly off the record. but with your mother already sold on the idea of your mystery boyfriend, and Satoru proving far too good at the role, pretending starts to feel a little too dangerous. also, why is your âinternâ secretly the heir to gojo corporation?!
ê° tags/warnings ê± fake dating âčïž undercover ceo! satoru âčïž accountant! reader âčïž satoru is 29, reader is 26 âčïž lots of family pressure. reader has a complicated relationship with her mom âčïž forced proximity âčïž one bed trope âčïž slow burn âčïž mutual pining âčïž wedding chaos âčïž angst and fluff âčïž some suggestive content but no explicit smut âčïž
ê° authors note ê± surpriseeee â this is 3 parts now hehe. satoru is still our lovingly annoying sweetheart here, but this part does have a bit more angst than the last. nothing too wild though⊠just a whole lot of yearning and our poor reader being very committed to denial. i hope you enjoy! part 3 will be the last one. (art by @/hanamin_0123 on x)
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part 2
âMaâam, may I interest you in our menu?â the flight attendant asks, leaning in with a practiced smile.
"Ohâum. Yes... thank you."
The thick, cream-colored menu lands in your hands a second later, and you settle into your seat just as she disappears down the aisle. A seat that is far too comfortable for the current state of your life. But thatâs the thing about first class â it makes it very hard to be appropriately miserable, and you are trying to be miserable right now. You are committed to it.
âIf you need recommendations⊠I recommend the wagyu.â Satoru leans in, close enough that his breath feathers warm against the side of your neck. âItâs to die for.â
He grins, blue eyes glinting behind snowy lashes. And unfortunately, the wagyu isnât the thing currently putting your life at risk. Because a shiver moves through you before you can stop it.
âO-OhâŠâ your head jerks away, quickly. âUh-huh⊠sure.â
Refusing to turn, you keep your eyes stubbornly on the cabin â denying him the satisfaction of seeing what his closeness does to the treacherous, backstabbing organ inside your chest. But you catch him in your periphery â leaning back, entirely unbothered, reaching for his own menu with that pleased little hum that means, of course, he notices.
Ugh.
This is going to be a long-ass ten-hour flight. And first class, as it turns out, is only roomy when you arenât seated beside the exact person currently making your pulse act deeply unprofessional.
âŠ
Wait. When did you pulse start doing that?!
Miserable, you remind yourself. Yeah. Miserable.
With a sigh, you click your seatbelt into place and flip open the menu, genuinely trying to build a case for why this is the worst decision youâve ever made. Unfortunately, it is hard to maintain righteous regret when the menu has no prices on it. Not one. Just elegant font, artful descriptions, and ingredients arranged like poetry.
âŠyouâd booked economy.
Economy.
But then heâd upgraded your tickets last minute like that was a normal thing a person did â insisting you fly with him. Like swapping someoneâs middle seat for a first-class cocoon with a duvet and a champagne flute was just⊠hospitality.
âUm⊠Satoru?â Your brow arches as you take in the absurdly extravagant menu. âHow much does this cost, exactlyâŠ?â He doesnât even glance up. âMm? Oh.â Flipping a page, his hand waves lazily. âDonât worry about it.â
âŠ
Donât worry about it?
You are very much worrying about it. Because how the hell does an intern afford this?! You know how much interns make at your company; youâve worked with HR, signed off on the numbers â and it is categorically not this.
But fine. Whatever. That is, somehow, the least of your problems right now. And your mind was already veering back toward the more immediate catastrophe currently taxiing toward the runway.
Your family.
âRight⊠well. Anyways, Satoru,â you say, setting the menu down. âWe should probably establish the basics before we get to Japan andââ
ââwhat do you like to eat?â
You blink, lips parting.
âIâsorryâŠwhat?â
âI like sweets,â he says, turning toward you. A toothy grin spreads across his face, dimples peeking. âLetâs see⊠cake, cream buns, mochiâŠâ he muses. âOh! Especially kikifuku mochi, itâs the best.â He nods solemnly. âHonestly, I think itâs the whipped cream inside that really makes the difference.â
Your brow furrows as you stare at him.
âŠwhen did this become a TED talk about sugar? You were trying to discuss a plan, and he is out here curating a dessert menu like the most pressing crisis of the next ten hours is pastry selection.
âOkayâŠ? Thatâs nice. But we should talk aboutââ
âFood,â he states, picking up the menu you just set down. He flips it open and angles it back toward you like that is the only sensible conversation available. âCâmon. What do you like? Not what youâll settle for⊠what youâll actually like. Ten hours is a long time, sweetheart.â
Brow knitting, you frown.
He cannot be serious. That is not the priority right now.
âThatâthat can wait. We need toââ
ââestablish the basics, yeah.â He rolls his eyes and tips his head back against the seat, like your resistance is personally exhausting him. But then his gaze flicks back, amused. âAnd Iâm just saying food is a basic necessity. Because you skip lunch when youâre busy, forget breakfast when youâre anxious, and then act shocked when you feel like shit three hours later. So, eat.â He places the menu back in your hands. âPreferably something that isnât stale pretzels, yeah?â
Something hot and startled climbs your neck so fast itâs almost impressive. Your mouth opens, but whatever rebuttal is forming never makes it. Because before you can recoverâ
âHonestly, I gotta say⊠the soba is pretty good too, actually.â His face is suddenly just over your shoulder, murmuring close enough that you feel the heat of him against your ear. âIf you donât want the wagyu, that is. Waitâscratch that. Maybe ramenâŠ?â His finger traces a line on the menu, pale lashes lowering, tongue clinking gently. âMm⊠never mind. Too much broth and there could be turbulence.â
Your whole body stiffens. Because his closeness does not feel unwelcome. Which is exactly the problem.
âŠwhen did he get so comfortable?!
ââŠstop doing that,â you mutter, pulling back. He looks over, the picture of innocence. âDoing what?â
Your lips purse.
âI dunno. BeingâŠâ  But the word dissolves, and you're reaching for your water, needing something to do with your hands. âSo⊠comfortable. Soââ You cut yourself off with a small huff. âLike this.â
His grin is unbearable, lazy and crooked.
âOh?â he reclines. âLike what, baby?â
You sputter into your water.
âBaby?â
Youâre choking on your drink, and Satoru looks entirely too pleased with himself. He's chuckling, leaning over without a second thought, one hand settling warm between your shoulder blades.
âAwwh⊠whatâs this? Donât be shy now,â he hums, the picture of helpfulness, rubbing slow circles with a sigh. âWeâre gonna have to get way cozier than this if Iâm playing boyfriend. Just establishing the basics, yeah?â
As you straighten with a glare, you can tell without a doubt he is openly enjoying himself. That grin hasnât moved a goddamn inch.
âŠasshole.
Huffing, you settle back into your seat. And it isnât long before the plane shudders gently away from the gate, inching out onto the runway with that slow, terrible sense of inevitability that only air travel is capable of producing.
âLadies and gentlemen, at this time please ensure your seatbelt is securely fastened⊠flight attendants, prepare for departure.â
The overhead announcement crackles through the cabin, too polished to be comforting. While beneath you, the whole plane seems to draw tight, a low hum building through the floor, climbing up through your seat.
You exhale, letting your eyes fall shut. Just long enough to pretend you werenât here. Just long enough to avoid the window, the runway, and the deeply unhelpful fact that your brain liked to save all its worst thoughts for takeoff.
âŠlike how first class wasnât exactly known for improving your odds. Like how takeoff and landing were statistically the worst parts. Like how the engine sounded different now, probably⊠maybe, andâ
âHey.â
Satoruâs voice came quieter this time; enough to pull your eyes back open. When you look over, that vibrant blue is already watching you â steady, unhurried, like he has been waiting for you to surface.
âAre you⊠nervous?â
âWhat? N-NoâŠâ you lie, huffing. His brow arches, sensing your bullshit. âOkay⊠then why are you doing that with your hands?â
Following his gaze, your fingers had folded into fists without even noticing, in that particular way they always do when youâre trying to physically hold yourself together.
Fuck.
Itâs ridiculous, really. You knew flying was statistically safe! Knew it the way you knew balance sheets and quarterly projections and the exact percentage margins that kept departments alive. And yet, takeoff had always felt like the part where logic starts losing altitude.
âOhâŠâ A small, awkward laugh slips out, just as the engine begins to roar. You smooth your palms over your trembling thighs, shouting over it. âItâs fine! Really! I just⊠umâI guess I donât particularly like takeoff, is all!â
His expression softens in a way you werenât braced for. But before he can answer, the plane surges forward and your eyes squeeze shut. A massive force presses you back into the seat while vibrations climb through the floor and up your spine.
Itâs terrible. Completely terrible. But somewhere in the middle of it, a warm hand slides against yours. It takes you a second to register his fingers lacing between your own, and the moment his thumb brushes the back of your hand, you instinctively grip him tighter.
Your eyes stay shut, but you feel the plane lift hard and fast into the sky. And somewhere between the roar of the engines and that awful pull in your stomach, the slow circles his thumb traces against your skin become the only thing your body seems willing to trust.
By the time the pressure eases and the plane finally levels out, your lungs have only just remembered how to work. For a second, neither of you moves untilâ
ââŠbetter?â
His voice brushes the quiet between you. You blink your eyes open.
âYeahâŠâ you whisper. âUm⊠thanks.â
He smiles. âSure.â
That thumb brushes one last time against the back of your hand before finally pulling away, dropping back into his lap with a simple nod like it had been nothing. And the loss of that warmth was immediate enough to sting.
OhâŠ
Heâs⊠annoyingly good at taking care of you. And worse, your body had recognized it before your brain could file the proper objection â clinging first, thinking later, like comfort was something you could afford to trust.
Maybe the altitude was messing with your headâŠ
Ten hours was a long time.
Long enough to work out the safest parts of the lie. How long youâve been together. Where you met. Which version of the truth felt neat enough to survive one wedding weekend without collapsing under the weight of follow-up questions.
It was just⊠not long enough, apparently, for the parts that actually mattered.
âSoooo⊠questionâŠâ Satoru had stretched lazily, turning his glass between two fingers as he glanced over. âWhat exactly should I expect when we land?â
You kept your attention on the blanket across your lap, flattening a wrinkle. âProbably⊠jet lag?â you mutter sarcastically, avoiding his gaze, fussing with the fabric. âAnd a long enough drive to regret everything in peace.â
He snorts. âWell, yeah. Obviously.â Ice clicked softly as he tipped his glass, shifting toward you. âNot what I meant, though. I meant with your family.â
And when the warmth of his attention settled against the side of your face â you hesitated. Because it was patient in a way that only made it harder to meet. Patient in the way of someone whoâs learned that pushing doesnât work on you. Which youâre unsure is better, or worse. Because waiting means heâs paying attention, and paying attention means heâll notice when you crack.
âWeâll just⊠talk about that later,â you huffed, tugging the blanket a little higher before turning toward the window. âIâm tired. Gonna try to sleep.â
Later⊠yeah. Later.
But by baggage claim, you were running out of runway. You had to do it soon. Get it over with. Preferably somewhere between the airport and your hotel, where you could spit it out quickly and not have to watch his face too closely while you did.
So now, Satoru yawns beside the conveyor belt, tired blue eyes skimming the slow parade of suitcases rounding the carousel. Hands in his pockets, shoulders loose, posture easy in a way that only makes you more tense. You stand there staring at the back of him, fingers hooked tight in the seam of your shirt.
Now.
âHey⊠Satoru?â you mumble. âHm?â His gaze lands on your luggage and heâs already stepping forward to grab it. âUm, wellâŠâ You hesitate. âAbout my family⊠Iâ"
ââoh! Lookâlook! There they are!â
The moment her voice rings through the terminal, everything inside you locks. You turn, and for one wild second, you genuinely wonder if itâs too late to get back on that godforsaken plane.
Satoru hauls your suitcase off the belt.
âWhat about them?â he asks, turning when you stop short. Then he sees your face. ââŠsweetheart?â His brows furrow, following your line of sight â and there is your mother, cutting through the crowd with Trish beside her, moving with the kind of delighted urgency you arenât prepared to see for at least another twelve hours.
No.
No, no, no.
ââoh my god, there he is!â Your mother walks straight past you â past you â and both hands are wrapping around Satoruâs like heâs who she came for. "Oh, he's handsome. Trish, lookâ"
Itâs no surprise, really, that youâre a second thought. Youâve been a second thought since before you could name it. But that isnât the wound that matters at this particular moment. The bigger problem is that sheâs here.
âŠwhy the hell is she here?!
You were supposed to have more timeâ
ââoh my god,â Trish breathes to you. âDamn. girl. Heâs, like⊠stupid handsome.â And Satoruâs grin went smug, drawling. âOh, please, ladies. Keep the compliments coming. Iâm feeling very welcomed~â
Your mother giggles. âHandsome and funny. Oh, heâs a charmer,â she says, smacking his shoulder playfully. Though the laugh lands bitter. âGod. Why on earth would she keep you from me?! I mean⊠wow. I was beginning to think sheâd die alone.â
The words hit like a slap dressed as a joke.
Satoru blinks, the smile faltering for half a second, head tilting imperceptibly.
âŠgreat.
Of fucking course sheâd say something like that within the first thirty seconds.
âMother⊠whatââ your voice wavers, eyes falling shut with a swallow. âSorry. I justâwhat are you both doing here?â
She did a tiny double take, like sheâd only just remembered you were standing there. âOh, honeyâŠâ A hand waves, scoffing. âDonât be sillyâof course weâre here to pick you up! God. I wouldnât leave you stranded at the airport,â she snorts.
Oh, right.
So she wouldnât abandon you at an airport. Just in another country.
âŠgood to know there's a line somewhere.
âBesides, why donât you both just stay with us instead?â sheâs already reaching for Satoruâs hand again, bright with the idea. âWeâve got a guest room ready, and Iâd love for the chance to talk to you.â
Your body goes rigid.
Oh no. Fuck no.
Anything but that.
Satoru must have seen it written across your face â that particular shade of panic âbecause his eyes cut to you for only half a second before he slips his hand free, turning back to your mother with a smile already in place.
âThatâs incredibly kind, maâam,â he says, tugging you into his side with an ease that shouldnât have felt as steadying as it did. âBut weâre staying pretty close to my familyâs place, and I should probably swing by tomorrow morning.â He rubs the back of his neck with a theatrical groan. âItâs been a few months since Iâve seen my father, and trust me, Iâll regret it if he finds out I came to Tokyo and didnât stop by, yâknow?â
Apparently, ten hours isnât long enough for the parts that actually matter, becauseâŠ
âOh? Your familyâs place?â your mother repeats, brows lifting. âSo, are they here in Tokyo too, then?â He nods. âMm, yeah. Pretty much all the Gojos areâat least on my dadâs side. My momâs in Kyoto.â
âŠ
Wait.
Did he just say Gojo?
As inâ
Your bossâs family?!
No. Absolutely not. Between the jet lag, the shock, and your mother still glowing beside you, your brain simply does not have the bandwidth for this. Your lips part, blinking like that might somehow rearrange what he just said into something less insane.
Nothing comes out.
âGojoâŠâ your mother repeats, brows knitting. âWhy does that sound familiar?â Trish blinks. "Waitâlike⊠Gojo Corporation Gojo?!"
Satoruâs grin widens. âYep. Thatâd be us.â
âAh!â Your mother snaps her fingers. âGojo Corporation. Yesâof course! Silly me. I thought that name seemed familiarâŠâ
And now, the hurt arrives before the shock finishes landing â ugly and precise and aimed at the exact spot that never heals right. Five years of your work, your career, your life inside that building. But she only knows it because a handsome man says it in a terminal.
You stare. âMom⊠you can't be serious?â and the hurt in your own voice catches you off guard. âIâve⊠I've literally been working at Gojo Corporation for the last five years.â
Fuck...
Get it together.
Out of the corner of your eye, Satoru watches you. But your mother moves on like youâre invisible.
âOh Satoru Gojo, you just keep getting better and better.â You feel him hesitating as she tugs eagerly. âComeâcome! At least let us drive you both to the hotel, hm? Thereâs so much I need to hear andââ
ââsorry maâam, no.â
Satoruâs pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. And you blink while his fingers smooth gently through your hair, tipping your chin up with a long finger.
You blink, because Satoru is pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. When his fingers smooth gently through your hair, your breath hitches as he tips your chin up.
âHonestly, Iâm beatâŠâ His thumb brushes your cheek, gaze searching your face. ââŠarenât you, love?â
Thereâs a hitch in your breath
Oh.
So⊠youâre not invisible?
As it leaves you in a quiet shudder, for one suspended second, there is nothing but that soft blue of his eyes and the way theyâve gone gentle for you. All you can do is nod â and a single tear slips free before you can stop it.
He tucks you against his chest, hiding your face, and flashes a grin back at your mother.
âUgh⊠I appreciate you coming to get us, but weâve been up for way too long andââ Glancing down at his phone, he lets out a small laugh. âAh. Perfect timing! Would ya look at thatâmy driverâs here.â A tug of your hand. âBut weâll catch up tomorrow, yeah? Bye, ladies~â
Your legs are moving on their own, and you donât even catch the expression on your motherâs face. Canât. Not when your pulse is still tripping over itself. Not when his hand wraps around yours like letting go isnât even a question.
The suitcase rolled behind you, with the airport crowd bustling. While those bright eyes flicked back, making sure you were still there every few steps.
âCâmon, pretty girl⊠weâre almost there,â he murmurs. âJust stay with me, okay? Eyes on me, yeah?â
And⊠you werenât sure why he lowered his voice. Not when they were already well out of earshot. You only know that⊠it nearly undoes you all over again.
By the time the limo pulls away from the curb, Satoru had already figured out two things: your mother was awful, and somehow, heâd gotten you out of there only to realize he hadnât fully brought you back with him.
Itâs the furrow in your brow that gets him first⊠then the wobble in your lip â the one you think youâre hiding, the one you always think youâre hiding. You havenât said a word since climbing into the backseat. Havenât looked at him either. Instead, you stay toward the window, watching Tokyo slip by in blurred ribbons of light, glowing against the glass in streaks of neon. A city that has no business being that beautiful when you look that broken.
âŠshit. Should he crack a joke? No. Maybe not.
But asking if youâre okay feels useless. You obviously arenât. And worse, saying it out loud feels like the fastest way to make you disappear even further behind that window â to watch you pull the shutters down the way you always do.
âWell, thenâŠâ A hand drags through his hair as he lets his head fall back against the seat. âUm⊠gotta sayâyour family really believes in making an entrance, huh? Talk aboutââ
ââI thought your name was Satoru Geto.â
He blinks.
âHuh?â
Your gaze finally pulls from the window, landing on him, and the hurt in it is so carefully contained it almost looks like composure. Almost. Except heâs spent four months learning to read you, and composure doesnât tremble at the edges like that.
ââŠSatoru Geto,â you mutter carefully. âThatâs the name on your employee record, no?â
Oh...
Right. That.
ââŠis it?â His gaze slips away, fingers scratching at the back of his neck. âYeah⊠um. About that. Getoâs actually my best friend. I just used his last name because the initials matched.â Heâs flopping back against the seat with a small shrug, one arm slinging across the top. âMade it easier to sign off on stuff that way. Gotta work smarter, not harder, right?â
And tilting his head, a crooked grin tugs at the corner of his lips.
Yours doesnât move.
âRight,â you deadpan, turning back toward the window. âSo your plan was to just let me keep calling you that.â
You donât say it like a question.
âŠis it a question?
Satoruâs brow furrows at the hurt threaded beneath the words. âNo⊠Iââ he huffs, hands dropping into his lap. âObviously I had to hide it while I was working with you, but my legal name was on the boarding pass I gave you, so itâs not like I was actively hiding it, sweetheart.â
You scoff under your breath. âOh. Cool. So I was just supposed to⊠whatâfigure that out on my own?â And suddenly, your voice is doing this awful thing now â losing its clean, controlled shape, slipping into something thinner. Hotter.
He hears it immediately, sighing. âSorry⊠but why is this the problem?â he asks, more confused than anything now. âHelp me out here. I mean⊠I thought your mom was what had you upset back there.â
Your eyes roll. âYour name is literally on my paycheck, Gojo. How is that not a problem?â
He stares. Genuinely stares. Because for a second, he doesnât know what to do with that. To him, his name was just a name. The company was just a company. Status had always felt like something other people got weird about first. Not him.
So, like an idiot, he goes for the joke.
âWell⊠technically, I think my name is on a lot of paychecks, soâ"
ââJesus Christ, am I a fucking joke to you?â
And the humor drops out of him so fast it almost startles you. Shit. That backfired tremendously. âWhoaâwhat? No!â He straightens, brow furrowing. âNo, no, no. God, noâsweetheart, of course not. Why would you think that?â
Youâre looking away before he can see what that does to your face, because you hate how quickly his voice goes from careless to cracked. Hate yourself for making it do that.
Damnit.
You know that wasnât fair. He had just gotten you out of there. Seen you unraveling in that airport and stepped in without making it worse. Without making you ask. And still â somehow, in the span of twenty minutes, the whole world had shifted under your feet. Him, your mother, that last name. This damn⊠wedding.
âŠwhy does everything feel so hard to sort through right now?
âJustâŠâ You swallow, shifting towards the window, blinking back tears. âSorry. Donât talk to me right now.â
His expression softens. âCâmon⊠no,â he murmurs. âPlease⊠please donât be like that. Iâm sorry you found out this way. I shouldâve told you sooner.â
The crack in his voice makes everything unbearable, and outside, Tokyo keeps sliding past in fractured light. So, you look at the window because itâs easier than looking at him. Easier than trying to untangle the mess that is your life. Easier than naming what specifically hurts so much.
And easier than asking yourself what, exactly, had been real and what had only ever been off the record.
Clearly, the universe looked at the absolute clusterfuck of this trip and decided it wasn't finished with you yet.
Because apparently, your fake boyfriend had a limo. Your fake boyfriend, who can upgrade your tickets to first class like itâs nothing. Your fake boyfriend who is also, apparently, your boss â and decided to book you at a luxurious five-star hotel in Tokyo while somehow neglecting to mention that part too.
Whatever. Either way, you're too tired to care. Or maybe just too tired to forgive him â despite the way the marble floors and soft gold light whisper luxury around you like an apology you didnât ask for.
All you know, is that by the time the two of you make it upstairs, your silence was beyond awkward and hardened into something heavier. More deliberate. So, the moment the suite door clicks open, youâre beelining to the bedroom.
âGoodnight.â
You mutter it under your breath, shutting yourself into the bathroom before he can answer you. And when you change into your pajamas, you try not to linger in the mirror â because your whole face feels tight from holding yourself together, from trying not to cry for what feels like the hundredth time tonight. And as if that weren't enough, the wedding is tomorrow.
âŠhow the fuck are you supposed to get through that too?!
With an exhausted sigh, you push open the bedroom door, reach back to kill the light, andâ
ââŠwhat are you doing?â you deadpan, stopping cold in the entryway. Because at the foot of the bed, you find Satoru in sweats, crouched on the floor, carefully spreading a blanket across it. He smooths the corner flat and those blue eyes flick up, then drop back down.
âMaking myself comfortable?â
âŠ
That explains absolutely nothing.
Your brows pull together. âOkaaayâŠ? Clearly. Butâwhy?â Rolling your eyes, your arms cross. âDonât tell me you fucked up the reservation. I mean, youâre the one who booked this place. Donât you have your own suite?â
âYup. I do.â
He says it so easily it almost irritates you more. You watch him fluff the pillow and set it on the floor like this is perfectly normal behavior for a man who can apparently summon private drivers and spend obscene amounts of money at the drop of a hat.
Your teeth grit. âGreat. So go lay in your bed.â
Exhaling through his nose, he lowers himself onto the marble like itâs no different than a mattress. One arm tucks behind his head, the other rests over his stomach, all lazy limbs and impossible calm.
âNah,â he says. âThink Iâll sleep here. Promised you wouldnât be alone this trip.â
And the universe, apparently, hadn't taken quite enough from your dignity yet. Because you find yourself genuinely speechless.
For a moment, you just stand there looking at him â at the ridiculous length of him stretched out across the floor, at the fact that he has a whole bed somewhere else and was still choosing this â and at how he somehow managed to make the gesture feel casual enough not to embarrass you and sincere enough that it did anyway.
ââŠsuit yourself,â you grumble, stomping over to your bed.
You yank the covers back and climb in with an irritated sweep, reaching over to find the light. Darkness folds over the room in one soft rush, and for a while, thereâs only the low hum of air conditioning and the distant glow of Tokyo bleeding dimly through the curtains. Somewhere beneath it all, you can hear the faint rustle of fabric from the floor, the small settling sound of him getting comfortable.
âŠ
Or trying to.
You lie stiffly on your side, facing away from the edge of the bed that he lays, staring into the dark like you can force your mind to shut up if you just do it hard enough.
UghâŠ
Despite how tired you are, sleep feels impossible.
Rolling your eyes, you pick up your pillow and shift to the other side of the bed with an annoyed little huff. And thereâs the broad line of his back in the dark. One arm folded under his head, the other sprawled carelessly over the blanket, like this is all perfectly normal. Like sleeping on the marble floor in a five-star hotel is not objectively unhinged behavior.
ââŠyouâre actually gonna sleep down there?â you mutter into the dark.
âMm.â His voice comes easy, amused. âYou should be sleeping, missy.â
âSo should you,â you huff. âIn a bed.â
Chuckling, he shifts onto his back, sprawling out like a starfish. He hums. âNahhh,â and an exaggerated exhale breathes out of him, tired. âThe floorâs fine. Iâm reconnecting with the earth. Re-centering. Some might say itâs very⊠grounding.â
You can hear that pleased little smirk of his, even in the dark, and it pulls a snort out of you before you can stop it. ââŠwow, seriously?â Biting back a grin. âYouâre so stupid.â
He laughs under his breath. âYeah⊠maybe. Wouldnât be the first time Iâve been called that. Probably wonât be the last, either. ButâŠâ With a tired sigh, he drapes his arm over his face, half-hiding in the dark. ââŠguess Iâd rather be stupid than leave you alone, though.â
The words slip out, and the room goes strangely quiet. Something tender and awful pulling tight in your throat as you stare down at him for a second too long.
âŠwhat are you even supposed to do with that? With him?
Heâs down there on the floor, keeping a promise you never asked him to make.
Swallowing, your fingers tighten on the blanket. ââŠhey, Satoru?â That low hum answers, and you hesitate, staring at the dark shape of him on the floor, your heart doing something stupid and uncomfortable against your ribs.
âCome up here,â you blurt.
âŠ
Silence.
âWait⊠huh?â
Your eyes squeeze shut.
As if saying it once wasnât bad enough.
âI-I meanâŠâ youâre shifting onto your back, staring hard at the ceiling because looking at him suddenly feels impossible. âI just⊠thereâs plenty of room, so justâcome up.â
âŠ
Heâs quiet just long enough to make your face burn hotter. And when heâs pushing himself onto one elbow, even in the dark, you can feel the disbelief radiating off of him like heat.
âUh⊠right,â he laughs awkwardly. âI think the jet lagâs getting to me, because thereâs no way I heard that right unless youâre fucking with me.â
You cover your face with a groan.
Oh, for fuckâs sake. âChrist, stop making this harderââ you snap, voice rising. âIâm serious you idiot! Because youâre not making me feel worse tonight by sleeping on the goddamn floorâso hurry and get your ass up here beforeââ
ââyes maâam.â
Heâs moving before you can rethink the entire thing, despite how your pulse is suddenly loud in your own ears. You scoot over, clutching the blanket to your chest, and the mattress dips beneath his weight â the sheets rustle. His body shifts. And then everything goes still.
âŠtoo still.
All you can do is lie there. Stiff. Acutely, helplessly aware of him. But itâs dark â mercifully dark â and thank god for that, because you donât think you could survive seeing his face right now. Not this close. Not after that. Not with your own invitation still echoing back at you like something youâd like to physically retrieve out of thin air.
âSooooâŠâ he mumbles, fingers tapping the mattress. âUm⊠for the record, this is like⊠significantly nicer than my original arrangement. Way less marble.â
Despite the nerves, his words loosen a laugh from your chest. ââŠyeah? Well, good,â you mutter, tugging the blanket a little higher. âBecause honestly, the level of commitment you were showing that floor was a little concerning.â
He chuckles. âTrue, true.â And suddenly, you can hear the lazy stretch of a grin in his voice. âBuuuut I mean⊠I wasnât about to lose our first fightânot as your boyfriend.â
Your breath catches. âW-WowâŠâ You huff like thatâll cover it. âYouâum⊠got real comfortable with that word fast,â you mutter, trying for dry and missing by a mile.
A low hum. âI'm a committed man. What can I say?â and his voice is all smug velvet and sleep-rough warmth. âMmm⊠I kinda like the sound of it, actually.â
The words land lower than they should. Because that should not sound as good as it does.
âD-Donât⊠donât say it like that,â you stammer.
The mattress dips.
âMm?â he whispers. ââŠwell, how else should I say it, princess?â
âŠ
Fake.
Fake boyfriend.
The word lands somewhere quiet and ugly under your ribs, and all at once the warmth of the bed feels strange against your skin. Because that's what this is. What it has to be. A role. A weekend. A lie with soft edges and an expiration date. AndâŠ
âJustânevermindâŠâ you mutter, shoving it down, repositioning your pillow. âLaying in a bed with my boss was not really on my bingo card for this trip. Or finding out halfway through it, apparently.â
He scoffs. âIâm not your boss. My dadâs your boss.â A humorless breath leaves you. âYeah? Well, that is not as comforting a distinction as you think it is, Gojo, when your name is still on myââ
ââSatoru,â he corrects softly.
You blink into the dark.
âWait. Sorry⊠what?â
A small huff leaves him, almost annoyed, almost something softer. âItâs justâŠâ he grumbles, shifting against the sheets, âI like it a lot better when you call me SatoruâŠâ And even without seeing him, you can hear it.
Is he⊠pouting?
The fabric rustles again as he shifts. âLookâŠâ he says after a beat, and the teasing has gone out of his voice now. âIâm sorry I didnât tell you sooner. I justâŠâ He exhales through his nose. âI didnât think hearing my last name would make you start acting like I was suddenly somebody else...?â
Your lashes flutter as he scoots closer, and this time, your breath catches. Because a thin line of moonlight slips through the curtains, cutting across the bed just enough to catch him there. The loose fall of white hair over his forehead, the softened line of his mouth, the pale blue of his eyes gone dim and almost silver in the dark.
âAndâŠâ His voice lowers, softer now. âI guess I didnât realize how much I liked just being Satoru to you..." Those blue eyes dip to your lips, just for a second, before lifting back to yours. His breath hitches.
âYâknow Iâm still me⊠right?â He whispers.
As his breath fans across your face, you feel fingers slipping over yours, careful enough to feel like a question, and your pulse does something wild. Because for one suspended second, he doesnât look real. He looks like something half-dreamed.
Beautiful.
âRightâŠâ you breathe, the word thin. âI know that, and⊠I-Iâm sorry for lashing out at you earlier. I just⊠I wasnât expecting any of this, and then everything at the airport andâand godâand then my mom andâ"
The words are tumbling out now, too fast, too loose, and even in the dark you feel laid open by them. Bare in a way that makes you want to snatch every one back. Because there he is, looking at you with that same unbearable patience, thumb brushing over the back of your hand in slow, absent strokes, his mouth tipped in a smile so soft it almost feels private.
âŠyours.
And thatâs whatâs terrifying. He feels like something you could lean into. Like warmth can be simple. Unconditional. Real.
ButâŠ
Nothing in your life has ever taught you how to lean into warmth without waiting for the condition beneath it. Without turning it over, looking for the fine print. So, perhaps thatâs why, when his thumb brushes over your hand again, you pull away.
And his frown is instant.
âI-IâŠâ Your eyes squeeze shut as you clear your throat. âSorry.â The word comes out frayed. âI want you to know I appreciate you doing this. Genuinely. ButâŠâ You swallow hard around the ache pressing at the base of your throat. âTomorrow is it.â
The room goes so quiet you can hear the air conditioning hum.
His brow furrows, pushing himself up on his elbow. âUm⊠what are you saying?â He scoffs, lips pulling into a disbelieving grin. âI donât understand. Why are you acting like everythingââ
ââafter this is over,â you blurt, chest rising. âYou can justâforget all this happened, okay?â And your voice thins. Blinking back tears, your eyes flick away. âThatâs it. Youâll forget about me. You go back to your life. I go back to mine. Just like we agreed andââ
ââI donât remember agreeing to that.â
Your eyes glance back from the hurt in his voice, and somehow that only makes it worse. Because...
Why?
Why does he have to look at you like that?
You exhale shakily. âI think we both need sleep more than we need this conversation, soâŠâ The blanket is already up at your chin by the time the words leave you. âLetâs⊠leave it at that. Okay? Iâm exhausted," you whisper. "Goodnight, Satoru.â
Shifting away, you roll onto your side before he can say anything else, before he can make this harder than it already is. The bed gives with a quiet creak behind you.
âGoodnight, sweetheart.â
And you lie there, holding yourself rigid, as if that could undo the part of you that almost turned back.
Still. Despite how tired you are⊠sleep feels impossible.
a/n. oof. sorry for leaving you on the angst đ but this felt like the right place to split it so part 3 can be fully wedding-focused. tysm for reading! i'm blown away by all your support. he's literally so patient and attentive, whaaa. i wanna eat him up đ
ê° summary ê± when a misunderstanding leaves your family convinced youâre bringing a plus one to your cousinâs wedding in Japan, the last person you expect to volunteer for the role is your infuriatingly observant intern, Satoru. itâs supposed to be temporary. professional. strictly off the record. but with your mother already sold on the idea of your mystery boyfriend, and Satoru proving far too good at the role, pretending starts to feel a little too dangerous. also, why is your âinternâ secretly the heir to gojo corporation?!
ê° tags/warnings ê± fake dating âčïž undercover ceo! satoru âčïž accountant! reader âčïž satoru is 29, reader is 26 âčïž lots of family pressure. reader has a complicated relationship with her mom âčïž forced proximity âčïž one bed trope âčïž slow burn âčïž mutual pining âčïž wedding chaos âčïž angst and fluff âčïž some suggestive content but no explicit smut âčïž
ê° authors note ê± surpriseeee â this is 3 parts now hehe. satoru is still our lovingly annoying sweetheart here, but this part does have a bit more angst than the last. nothing too wild though⊠just a whole lot of yearning and our poor reader being very committed to denial. i hope you enjoy! part 3 will be the last one. (art by @/hanamin_0123 on x)
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part 2
âMaâam, may I interest you in our menu?â the flight attendant asks, leaning in with a practiced smile.
"Ohâum. Yes... thank you."
The thick, cream-colored menu lands in your hands a second later, and you settle into your seat just as she disappears down the aisle. A seat that is far too comfortable for the current state of your life. But thatâs the thing about first class â it makes it very hard to be appropriately miserable, and you are trying to be miserable right now. You are committed to it.
âIf you need recommendations⊠I recommend the wagyu.â Satoru leans in, close enough that his breath feathers warm against the side of your neck. âItâs to die for.â
He grins, blue eyes glinting behind snowy lashes. And unfortunately, the wagyu isnât the thing currently putting your life at risk. Because a shiver moves through you before you can stop it.
âO-OhâŠâ your head jerks away, quickly. âUh-huh⊠sure.â
Refusing to turn, you keep your eyes stubbornly on the cabin â denying him the satisfaction of seeing what his closeness does to the treacherous, backstabbing organ inside your chest. But you catch him in your periphery â leaning back, entirely unbothered, reaching for his own menu with that pleased little hum that means, of course, he notices.
Ugh.
This is going to be a long-ass ten-hour flight. And first class, as it turns out, is only roomy when you arenât seated beside the exact person currently making your pulse act deeply unprofessional.
âŠ
Wait. When did your pulse start doing that?!
Miserable, you remind yourself. Yeah. Miserable.
With a sigh, you click your seatbelt into place and flip open the menu, genuinely trying to build a case for why this is the worst decision youâve ever made. Unfortunately, it is hard to maintain righteous regret when the menu has no prices on it. Not one. Just elegant font, artful descriptions, and ingredients arranged like poetry.
âŠyouâd booked economy.
Economy.
But then heâd upgraded your tickets last minute like that was a normal thing a person did â insisting you fly with him. Like swapping someoneâs middle seat for a first-class cocoon with a duvet and a champagne flute was just⊠hospitality.
âUm⊠Satoru?â Your brow arches as you take in the absurdly extravagant menu. âHow much does this cost, exactlyâŠ?â He doesnât even glance up. âMm? Oh.â Flipping a page, his hand waves lazily. âDonât worry about it.â
âŠ
Donât worry about it?
You are very much worrying about it. Because how the hell does an intern afford this?! You know how much interns make at your company; youâve worked with HR, signed off on the numbers â and it is categorically not this.
But fine. Whatever. That is, somehow, the least of your problems right now. And your mind was already veering back toward the more immediate catastrophe currently taxiing toward the runway.
Your family.
âRight⊠well. Anyways, Satoru,â you say, setting the menu down. âWe should probably establish the basics before we get to Japan andââ
ââwhat do you like to eat?â
You blink, lips parting.
âIâsorryâŠwhat?â
âI like sweets,â he says, turning toward you. A toothy grin spreads across his face, dimples peeking. âLetâs see⊠cake, cream buns, mochiâŠâ he muses. âOh! Especially kikifuku mochi, itâs the best.â He nods solemnly. âHonestly, I think itâs the whipped cream inside that really makes the difference.â
Your brow furrows as you stare at him.
âŠwhen did this become a TED talk about sugar? You were trying to discuss a plan, and he is out here curating a dessert menu like the most pressing crisis of the next ten hours is pastry selection.
âOkayâŠ? Thatâs nice. But we should talk aboutââ
âFood,â he states, picking up the menu you just set down. He flips it open and angles it back toward you like that is the only sensible conversation available. âCâmon. What do you like? Not what youâll settle for⊠what youâll actually like. Ten hours is a long time, sweetheart.â
Brow knitting, you frown.
He cannot be serious. That is not the priority right now.
âThatâthat can wait. We need toââ
ââestablish the basics, yeah.â He rolls his eyes and tips his head back against the seat, like your resistance is personally exhausting him. But then his gaze flicks back, amused. âAnd Iâm just saying food is a basic necessity. Because you skip lunch when youâre busy, forget breakfast when youâre anxious, and then act shocked when you feel like shit three hours later. So, eat.â He places the menu back in your hands. âPreferably something that isnât stale pretzels, yeah?â
Something hot and startled climbs your neck so fast itâs almost impressive. Your mouth opens, but whatever rebuttal is forming never makes it. Because before you can recoverâ
âHonestly, I gotta say⊠the soba is pretty good too, actually.â His face is suddenly just over your shoulder, murmuring close enough that you feel the heat of him against your ear. âIf you donât want the wagyu, that is. Waitâscratch that. Maybe ramenâŠ?â His finger traces a line on the menu, pale lashes lowering, tongue clinking gently. âMm⊠never mind. Too much broth and there could be turbulence.â
Your whole body stiffens. Because his closeness does not feel unwelcome. Which is exactly the problem.
âŠwhen did he get so comfortable?!
ââŠstop doing that,â you mutter, pulling back. He looks over, the picture of innocence. âDoing what?â
Your lips purse.
âI dunno. BeingâŠâ  But the word dissolves, and you're reaching for your water, needing something to do with your hands. âSo⊠comfortable. Soââ You cut yourself off with a small huff. âLike this.â
His grin is unbearable, lazy and crooked.
âOh?â he reclines. âLike what, baby?â
You sputter into your water.
âBaby?â
Youâre choking on your drink, and Satoru looks entirely too pleased with himself. He's chuckling, leaning over without a second thought, one hand settling warm between your shoulder blades.
âAwwh⊠whatâs this? Donât be shy now,â he hums, the picture of helpfulness, rubbing slow circles with a sigh. âWeâre gonna have to get way cozier than this if Iâm playing boyfriend. Just establishing the basics, yeah?â
As you straighten with a glare, you can tell without a doubt he is openly enjoying himself. That grin hasnât moved a goddamn inch.
âŠasshole.
Huffing, you settle back into your seat. And it isnât long before the plane shudders gently away from the gate, inching out onto the runway with that slow, terrible sense of inevitability that only air travel is capable of producing.
âLadies and gentlemen, at this time please ensure your seatbelt is securely fastened⊠flight attendants, prepare for departure.â
The overhead announcement crackles through the cabin, too polished to be comforting. While beneath you, the whole plane seems to draw tight, a low hum building through the floor, climbing up through your seat.
You exhale, letting your eyes fall shut. Just long enough to pretend you werenât here. Just long enough to avoid the window, the runway, and the deeply unhelpful fact that your brain liked to save all its worst thoughts for takeoff.
âŠlike how first class wasnât exactly known for improving your odds. Like how takeoff and landing were statistically the worst parts. Like how the engine sounded different now, probably⊠maybe, andâ
âHey.â
Satoruâs voice came quieter this time; enough to pull your eyes back open. When you look over, that vibrant blue is already watching you â steady, unhurried, like he has been waiting for you to surface.
âAre you⊠nervous?â
âWhat? N-NoâŠâ you lie, huffing. His brow arches, sensing your bullshit. âOkay⊠then why are you doing that with your hands?â
Following his gaze, your fingers had folded into fists without even noticing, in that particular way they always do when youâre trying to physically hold yourself together.
Fuck.
Itâs ridiculous, really. You knew flying was statistically safe! Knew it the way you knew balance sheets and quarterly projections and the exact percentage margins that kept departments alive. And yet, takeoff had always felt like the part where logic starts losing altitude.
âOhâŠâ A small, awkward laugh slips out, just as the engine begins to roar. You smooth your palms over your trembling thighs, shouting over it. âItâs fine! Really! I just⊠umâI guess I donât particularly like takeoff, is all!â
His expression softens in a way you werenât braced for. But before he can answer, the plane surges forward and your eyes squeeze shut. A massive force presses you back into the seat while vibrations climb through the floor and up your spine.
Itâs terrible. Completely terrible. But somewhere in the middle of it, a warm hand slides against yours. It takes you a second to register his fingers lacing between your own, and the moment his thumb brushes the back of your hand, you instinctively grip him tighter.
Your eyes stay shut, but you feel the plane lift hard and fast into the sky. And somewhere between the roar of the engines and that awful pull in your stomach, the slow circles his thumb traces against your skin become the only thing your body seems willing to trust.
By the time the pressure eases and the plane finally levels out, your lungs have only just remembered how to work. For a second, neither of you moves untilâ
ââŠbetter?â
His voice brushes the quiet between you. You blink your eyes open.
âYeahâŠâ you whisper. âUm⊠thanks.â
He smiles. âSure.â
That thumb brushes one last time against the back of your hand before finally pulling away, dropping back into his lap with a simple nod like it had been nothing. And the loss of that warmth was immediate enough to sting.
OhâŠ
Heâs⊠annoyingly good at taking care of you. And worse, your body had recognized it before your brain could file the proper objection â clinging first, thinking later, like comfort was something you could afford to trust.
Maybe the altitude was messing with your headâŠ
Ten hours was a long time.
Long enough to work out the safest parts of the lie. How long youâve been together. Where you met. Which version of the truth felt neat enough to survive one wedding weekend without collapsing under the weight of follow-up questions.
It was just⊠not long enough, apparently, for the parts that actually mattered.
âSoooo⊠questionâŠâ Satoru had stretched lazily, turning his glass between two fingers as he glanced over. âWhat exactly should I expect when we land?â
You kept your attention on the blanket across your lap, flattening a wrinkle. âProbably⊠jet lag?â you mutter sarcastically, avoiding his gaze, fussing with the fabric. âAnd a long enough drive to regret everything in peace.â
He snorts. âWell, yeah. Obviously.â Ice clicked softly as he tipped his glass, shifting toward you. âNot what I meant, though. I meant with your family.â
And when the warmth of his attention settled against the side of your face â you hesitated. Because it was patient in a way that only made it harder to meet. Patient in the way of someone whoâs learned that pushing doesnât work on you. Which youâre unsure is better, or worse. Because waiting means heâs paying attention, and paying attention means heâll notice when you crack.
âWeâll just⊠talk about that later,â you huffed, tugging the blanket a little higher before turning toward the window. âIâm tired. Gonna try to sleep.â
Later⊠yeah. Later.
But by baggage claim, you were running out of runway. You had to do it soon. Get it over with. Preferably somewhere between the airport and your hotel, where you could spit it out quickly and not have to watch his face too closely while you did.
So now, Satoru yawns beside the conveyor belt, tired blue eyes skimming the slow parade of suitcases rounding the carousel. Hands in his pockets, shoulders loose, posture easy in a way that only makes you more tense. You stand there staring at the back of him, fingers hooked tight in the seam of your shirt.
Now.
âHey⊠Satoru?â you mumble. âHm?â His gaze lands on your luggage and heâs already stepping forward to grab it. âUm, wellâŠâ You hesitate. âAbout my family⊠Iâ"
ââoh! Lookâlook! There they are!â
The moment her voice rings through the terminal, everything inside you locks. You turn, and for one wild second, you genuinely wonder if itâs too late to get back on that godforsaken plane.
Satoru hauls your suitcase off the belt.
âWhat about them?â he asks, turning when you stop short. Then he sees your face. ââŠsweetheart?â His brows furrow, following your line of sight â and there is your mother, cutting through the crowd with Trish beside her, moving with the kind of delighted urgency you arenât prepared to see for at least another twelve hours.
No.
No, no, no.
ââoh my god, there he is!â Your mother walks straight past you â past you â and both hands are wrapping around Satoruâs like heâs who she came for. "Oh, he's handsome. Trish, lookâ"
Itâs no surprise, really, that youâre a second thought. Youâve been a second thought since before you could name it. But that isnât the wound that matters at this particular moment. The bigger problem is that sheâs here.
âŠwhy the hell is she here?!
You were supposed to have more timeâ
ââoh my god,â Trish breathes to you. âDamn. girl. Heâs, like⊠stupid handsome.â And Satoruâs grin went smug, drawling. âOh, please, ladies. Keep the compliments coming. Iâm feeling very welcomed~â
Your mother giggles. âHandsome and funny. Oh, heâs a charmer,â she says, smacking his shoulder playfully. Though the laugh lands bitter. âGod. Why on earth would she keep you from me?! I mean⊠wow. I was beginning to think sheâd die alone.â
The words hit like a slap dressed as a joke.
Satoru blinks, the smile faltering for half a second, head tilting imperceptibly.
âŠgreat.
Of fucking course sheâd say something like that within the first thirty seconds.
âMother⊠whatââ your voice wavers, eyes falling shut with a swallow. âSorry. I justâwhat are you both doing here?â
She did a tiny double take, like sheâd only just remembered you were standing there. âOh, honeyâŠâ A hand waves, scoffing. âDonât be sillyâof course weâre here to pick you up! God. I wouldnât leave you stranded at the airport,â she snorts.
Oh, right.
So she wouldnât abandon you at an airport. Just in another country.
âŠgood to know there's a line somewhere.
âBesides, why donât you both just stay with us instead?â sheâs already reaching for Satoruâs hand again, bright with the idea. âWeâve got a guest room ready, and Iâd love for the chance to talk to you.â
Your body goes rigid.
Oh no. Fuck no.
Anything but that.
Satoru must have seen it written across your face â that particular shade of panic âbecause his eyes cut to you for only half a second before he slips his hand free, turning back to your mother with a smile already in place.
âThatâs incredibly kind, maâam,â he says, tugging you into his side with an ease that shouldnât have felt as steadying as it did. âBut weâre staying pretty close to my familyâs place, and I should probably swing by tomorrow morning.â He rubs the back of his neck with a theatrical groan. âItâs been a few months since Iâve seen my father, and trust me, Iâll regret it if he finds out I came to Tokyo and didnât stop by, yâknow?â
Apparently, ten hours isnât long enough for the parts that actually matter, becauseâŠ
âOh? Your familyâs place?â your mother repeats, brows lifting. âSo, are they here in Tokyo too, then?â He nods. âMm, yeah. Pretty much all the Gojos areâat least on my dadâs side. My momâs in Kyoto.â
âŠ
Wait.
Did he just say Gojo?
As inâ
Your bossâs family?!
No. Absolutely not. Between the jet lag, the shock, and your mother still glowing beside you, your brain simply does not have the bandwidth for this. Your lips part, blinking like that might somehow rearrange what he just said into something less insane.
Nothing comes out.
âGojoâŠâ your mother repeats, brows knitting. âWhy does that sound familiar?â Trish blinks. "Waitâlike⊠Gojo Corporation Gojo?!"
Satoruâs grin widens. âYep. Thatâd be us.â
âAh!â Your mother snaps her fingers. âGojo Corporation. Yesâof course! Silly me. I thought that name seemed familiarâŠâ
And now, the hurt arrives before the shock finishes landing â ugly and precise and aimed at the exact spot that never heals right. Five years of your work, your career, your life inside that building. But she only knows it because a handsome man says it in a terminal.
You stare. âMom⊠you can't be serious?â and the hurt in your own voice catches you off guard. âIâve⊠I've literally been working at Gojo Corporation for the last five years.â
Fuck...
Get it together.
Out of the corner of your eye, Satoru watches you. But your mother moves on like youâre invisible.
âOh Satoru Gojo, you just keep getting better and better.â You feel him hesitating as she tugs eagerly. âComeâcome! At least let us drive you both to the hotel, hm? Thereâs so much I need to hear andââ
ââsorry maâam, no.â
Satoruâs pulling you into him like the decision has already been made. And you blink while his fingers smooth gently through your hair, tipping your chin up with a long finger.
âHonestly, Iâm beatâŠâ His thumb brushes your cheek, gaze searching your face. ââŠarenât you, love?â
Thereâs a hitch in your breath
Oh.
So⊠youâre not invisible?
As it leaves you in a quiet shudder, for one suspended second, there is nothing but that soft blue of his eyes and the way theyâve gone gentle for you. All you can do is nod â and a single tear slips free before you can stop it.
He tucks you against his chest, hiding your face, and flashes a grin back at your mother.
âUgh⊠I appreciate you coming to get us, but weâve been up for way too long andââ Glancing down at his phone, he lets out a small laugh. âAh. Perfect timing! Would ya look at thatâmy driverâs here.â A tug of your hand. âBut weâll catch up tomorrow, yeah? Bye, ladies~â
Your legs are moving on their own, and you donât even catch the expression on your motherâs face. Canât. Not when your pulse is still tripping over itself. Not when his hand wraps around yours like letting go isnât even a question.
The suitcase rolled behind you, with the airport crowd bustling. While those bright eyes flicked back, making sure you were still there every few steps.
âCâmon, pretty girl⊠weâre almost there,â he murmurs. âJust stay with me, okay? Eyes on me, yeah?â
And⊠you werenât sure why he lowered his voice. Not when they were already well out of earshot. You only know that⊠it nearly undoes you all over again.
By the time the limo pulls away from the curb, Satoru had already figured out two things: your mother was awful, and somehow, heâd gotten you out of there only to realize he hadnât fully brought you back with him.
Itâs the furrow in your brow that gets him first⊠then the wobble in your lip â the one you think youâre hiding, the one you always think youâre hiding. You havenât said a word since climbing into the backseat. Havenât looked at him either. Instead, you stay toward the window, watching Tokyo slip by in blurred ribbons of light, glowing against the glass in streaks of neon. A city that has no business being that beautiful when you look that broken.
âŠshit. Should he crack a joke? No. Maybe not.
But asking if youâre okay feels useless. You obviously arenât. And worse, saying it out loud feels like the fastest way to make you disappear even further behind that window â to watch you pull the shutters down the way you always do.
âWell, thenâŠâ A hand drags through his hair as he lets his head fall back against the seat. âUm⊠gotta sayâyour family really believes in making an entrance, huh? Talk aboutââ
ââI thought your name was Satoru Geto.â
He blinks.
âHuh?â
Your gaze finally pulls from the window, landing on him, and the hurt in it is so carefully contained it almost looks like composure. Almost. Except heâs spent four months learning to read you, and composure doesnât tremble at the edges like that.
ââŠSatoru Geto,â you mutter carefully. âThatâs the name on your employee record, no?â
Oh...
Right. That.
ââŠis it?â His gaze slips away, fingers scratching at the back of his neck. âYeah⊠um. About that. Getoâs actually my best friend. I just used his last name because the initials matched.â Heâs flopping back against the seat with a small shrug, one arm slinging across the top. âMade it easier to sign off on stuff that way. Gotta work smarter, not harder, right?â
And tilting his head, a crooked grin tugs at the corner of his lips.
Yours doesnât move.
âRight,â you deadpan, turning back toward the window. âSo your plan was to just let me keep calling you that.â
You donât say it like a question.
âŠis it a question?
Satoruâs brow furrows at the hurt threaded beneath the words. âNo⊠Iââ he huffs, hands dropping into his lap. âObviously I had to hide it while I was working with you, but my legal name was on the boarding pass I gave you, so itâs not like I was actively hiding it, sweetheart.â
You scoff under your breath. âOh. Cool. So I was just supposed to⊠whatâfigure that out on my own?â And suddenly, your voice is doing this awful thing now â losing its clean, controlled shape, slipping into something thinner. Hotter.
He hears it immediately, sighing. âSorry⊠but why is this the problem?â he asks, more confused than anything now. âHelp me out here. I mean⊠I thought your mom was what had you upset back there.â
Your eyes roll. âYour name is literally on my paycheck, Gojo. How is that not a problem?â
He stares. Genuinely stares. Because for a second, he doesnât know what to do with that. To him, his name was just a name. The company was just a company. Status had always felt like something other people got weird about first. Not him.
So, like an idiot, he goes for the joke.
âWell⊠technically, I think my name is on a lot of paychecks, soâ"
ââJesus Christ, am I a fucking joke to you?â
And the humor drops out of him so fast it almost startles you. Shit. That backfired tremendously. âWhoaâwhat? No!â He straightens, brow furrowing. âNo, no, no. God, noâsweetheart, of course not. Why would you think that?â
Youâre looking away before he can see what that does to your face, because you hate how quickly his voice goes from careless to cracked. Hate yourself for making it do that.
Damnit.
You know that wasnât fair. He had just gotten you out of there. Seen you unraveling in that airport and stepped in without making it worse. Without making you ask. And still â somehow, in the span of twenty minutes, the whole world had shifted under your feet. Him, your mother, that last name. This damn⊠wedding.
âŠwhy does everything feel so hard to sort through right now?
âJustâŠâ You swallow, shifting towards the window, blinking back tears. âSorry. Donât talk to me right now.â
His expression softens. âCâmon⊠no,â he murmurs. âPlease⊠please donât be like that. Iâm sorry you found out this way. I shouldâve told you sooner.â
The crack in his voice makes everything unbearable, and outside, Tokyo keeps sliding past in fractured light. So, you look at the window because itâs easier than looking at him. Easier than trying to untangle the mess that is your life. Easier than naming what specifically hurts so much.
And easier than asking yourself what, exactly, had been real and what had only ever been off the record.
Clearly, the universe looked at the absolute clusterfuck of this trip and decided it wasn't finished with you yet.
Because apparently, your fake boyfriend had a limo. Your fake boyfriend, who can upgrade your tickets to first class like itâs nothing. Your fake boyfriend who is also, apparently, your boss â and decided to book you at a luxurious five-star hotel in Tokyo while somehow neglecting to mention that part too.
Whatever. Either way, you're too tired to care. Or maybe just too tired to forgive him â despite the way the marble floors and soft gold light whisper luxury around you like an apology you didnât ask for.
All you know, is that by the time the two of you make it upstairs, your silence was beyond awkward and hardened into something heavier. More deliberate. So, the moment the suite door clicks open, youâre beelining to the bedroom.
âGoodnight.â
You mutter it under your breath, shutting yourself into the bathroom before he can answer you. And when you change into your pajamas, you try not to linger in the mirror â because your whole face feels tight from holding yourself together, from trying not to cry for what feels like the hundredth time tonight. And as if that weren't enough, the wedding is tomorrow.
âŠhow the fuck are you supposed to get through that too?!
With an exhausted sigh, you push open the bedroom door, reach back to kill the light, andâ
ââŠwhat are you doing?â you deadpan, stopping cold in the entryway. Because at the foot of the bed, you find Satoru in sweats, crouched on the floor, carefully spreading a blanket across it. He smooths the corner flat and those blue eyes flick up, then drop back down.
âMaking myself comfortable?â
âŠ
That explains absolutely nothing.
Your brows pull together. âOkaaayâŠ? Clearly. Butâwhy?â Rolling your eyes, your arms cross. âDonât tell me you fucked up the reservation. I mean, youâre the one who booked this place. Donât you have your own suite?â
âYup. I do.â
He says it so easily it almost irritates you more. You watch him fluff the pillow and set it on the floor like this is perfectly normal behavior for a man who can apparently summon private drivers and spend obscene amounts of money at the drop of a hat.
Your teeth grit. âGreat. So go lay in your bed.â
Exhaling through his nose, he lowers himself onto the marble like itâs no different than a mattress. One arm tucks behind his head, the other rests over his stomach, all lazy limbs and impossible calm.
âNah,â he says. âThink Iâll sleep here. Promised you wouldnât be alone this trip.â
And the universe, apparently, hadn't taken quite enough from your dignity yet. Because you find yourself genuinely speechless.
For a moment, you just stand there looking at him â at the ridiculous length of him stretched out across the floor, at the fact that he has a whole bed somewhere else and was still choosing this â and at how he somehow managed to make the gesture feel casual enough not to embarrass you and sincere enough that it did anyway.
ââŠsuit yourself,â you grumble, stomping over to your bed.
You yank the covers back and climb in with an irritated sweep, reaching over to find the light. Darkness folds over the room in one soft rush, and for a while, thereâs only the low hum of air conditioning and the distant glow of Tokyo bleeding dimly through the curtains. Somewhere beneath it all, you can hear the faint rustle of fabric from the floor, the small settling sound of him getting comfortable.
âŠ
Or trying to.
You lie stiffly on your side, facing away from the edge of the bed that he lays, staring into the dark like you can force your mind to shut up if you just do it hard enough.
UghâŠ
Despite how tired you are, sleep feels impossible.
Rolling your eyes, you pick up your pillow and shift to the other side of the bed with an annoyed little huff. And thereâs the broad line of his back in the dark. One arm folded under his head, the other sprawled carelessly over the blanket, like this is all perfectly normal. Like sleeping on the marble floor in a five-star hotel is not objectively unhinged behavior.
ââŠyouâre actually gonna sleep down there?â you mutter into the dark.
âMm.â His voice comes easy, amused. âYou should be sleeping, missy.â
âSo should you,â you huff. âIn a bed.â
Chuckling, he shifts onto his back, sprawling out like a starfish. He hums. âNahhh,â and an exaggerated exhale breathes out of him, tired. âThe floorâs fine. Iâm reconnecting with the earth. Re-centering. Some might say itâs very⊠grounding.â
You can hear that pleased little smirk of his, even in the dark, and it pulls a snort out of you before you can stop it. ââŠwow, seriously?â Biting back a grin. âYouâre so stupid.â
He laughs under his breath. âYeah⊠maybe. Wouldnât be the first time Iâve been called that. Probably wonât be the last, either. ButâŠâ With a tired sigh, he drapes his arm over his face, half-hiding in the dark. ââŠguess Iâd rather be stupid than leave you alone, though.â
The words slip out, and the room goes strangely quiet. Something tender and awful pulling tight in your throat as you stare down at him for a second too long.
âŠwhat are you even supposed to do with that? With him?
Heâs down there on the floor, keeping a promise you never asked him to make.
Swallowing, your fingers tighten on the blanket. ââŠhey, Satoru?â That low hum answers, and you hesitate, staring at the dark shape of him on the floor, your heart doing something stupid and uncomfortable against your ribs.
âCome up here,â you blurt.
âŠ
Silence.
âWait⊠huh?â
Your eyes squeeze shut.
As if saying it once wasnât bad enough.
âI-I meanâŠâ youâre shifting onto your back, staring hard at the ceiling because looking at him suddenly feels impossible. âI just⊠thereâs plenty of room, so justâcome up.â
âŠ
Heâs quiet just long enough to make your face burn hotter. And when heâs pushing himself onto one elbow, even in the dark, you can feel the disbelief radiating off of him like heat.
âUh⊠right,â he laughs awkwardly. âI think the jet lagâs getting to me, because thereâs no way I heard that right unless youâre fucking with me.â
You cover your face with a groan.
Oh, for fuckâs sake. âChrist, stop making this harderââ you snap, voice rising. âIâm serious you idiot! Because youâre not making me feel worse tonight by sleeping on the goddamn floorâso hurry and get your ass up here beforeââ
ââyes maâam.â
Heâs moving before you can rethink the entire thing, despite how your pulse is suddenly loud in your own ears. You scoot over, clutching the blanket to your chest, and the mattress dips beneath his weight â the sheets rustle. His body shifts. And then everything goes still.
âŠtoo still.
All you can do is lie there. Stiff. Acutely, helplessly aware of him. But itâs dark â mercifully dark â and thank god for that, because you donât think you could survive seeing his face right now. Not this close. Not after that. Not with your own invitation still echoing back at you like something youâd like to physically retrieve out of thin air.
âSooooâŠâ he mumbles, fingers tapping the mattress. âUm⊠for the record, this is like⊠significantly nicer than my original arrangement. Way less marble.â
Despite the nerves, his words loosen a laugh from your chest. ââŠyeah? Well, good,â you mutter, tugging the blanket a little higher. âBecause honestly, the level of commitment you were showing that floor was a little concerning.â
He chuckles. âTrue, true.â And suddenly, you can hear the lazy stretch of a grin in his voice. âBuuuut I mean⊠I wasnât about to lose our first fightânot as your boyfriend.â
Your breath catches. âW-WowâŠâ You huff like thatâll cover it. âYouâum⊠got real comfortable with that word fast,â you mutter, trying for dry and missing by a mile.
A low hum. âI'm a committed man. What can I say?â and his voice is all smug velvet and sleep-rough warmth. âMmm⊠I kinda like the sound of it, actually.â
The words land lower than they should. Because that should not sound as good as it does.
âD-Donât⊠donât say it like that,â you stammer.
The mattress dips.
âMm?â he whispers. ââŠwell, how else should I say it, princess?â
âŠ
Fake.
Fake boyfriend.
The word lands somewhere quiet and ugly under your ribs, and all at once the warmth of the bed feels strange against your skin. Because that's what this is. What it has to be. A role. A weekend. A lie with soft edges and an expiration date. AndâŠ
âJustânevermindâŠâ you mutter, shoving it down, repositioning your pillow. âLaying in a bed with my boss was not really on my bingo card for this trip. Or finding out halfway through it, apparently.â
He scoffs. âIâm not your boss. My dadâs your boss.â A humorless breath leaves you. âYeah? Well, that is not as comforting a distinction as you think it is, Gojo, when your name is still on myââ
ââSatoru,â he corrects softly.
You blink into the dark.
âWait. Sorry⊠what?â
A small huff leaves him, almost annoyed, almost something softer. âItâs justâŠâ he grumbles, shifting against the sheets, âI like it a lot better when you call me SatoruâŠâ And even without seeing him, you can hear it.
Is he⊠pouting?
The fabric rustles again as he shifts. âLookâŠâ he says after a beat, and the teasing has gone out of his voice now. âIâm sorry I didnât tell you sooner. I justâŠâ He exhales through his nose. âI didnât think hearing my last name would make you start acting like I was suddenly somebody else...?â
Your lashes flutter as he scoots closer, and this time, your breath catches. Because a thin line of moonlight slips through the curtains, cutting across the bed just enough to catch him there. The loose fall of white hair over his forehead, the softened line of his mouth, the pale blue of his eyes gone dim and almost silver in the dark.
âAndâŠâ His voice lowers, softer now. âI guess I didnât realize how much I liked just being Satoru to you..." Those blue eyes dip to your lips, just for a second, before lifting back to yours. His breath hitches.
âYâknow Iâm still me⊠right?â He whispers.
As his breath fans across your face, you feel fingers slipping over yours, careful enough to feel like a question, and your pulse does something wild. Because for one suspended second, he doesnât look real. He looks like something half-dreamed.
Beautiful.
âRightâŠâ you breathe, the word thin. âI know that, and⊠I-Iâm sorry for lashing out at you earlier. I just⊠I wasnât expecting any of this, and then everything at the airport andâand godâand then my mom andâ"
The words are tumbling out now, too fast, too loose, and even in the dark you feel laid open by them. Bare in a way that makes you want to snatch every one back. Because there he is, looking at you with that same unbearable patience, thumb brushing over the back of your hand in slow, absent strokes, his mouth tipped in a smile so soft it almost feels private.
âŠyours.
And thatâs whatâs terrifying. He feels like something you could lean into. Like warmth can be simple. Unconditional. Real.
ButâŠ
Nothing in your life has ever taught you how to lean into warmth without waiting for the condition beneath it. Without turning it over, looking for the fine print. So, perhaps thatâs why, when his thumb brushes over your hand again, you pull away.
And his frown is instant.
âI-IâŠâ Your eyes squeeze shut as you clear your throat. âSorry.â The word comes out frayed. âI want you to know I appreciate you doing this. Genuinely. ButâŠâ You swallow hard around the ache pressing at the base of your throat. âTomorrow is it.â
The room goes so quiet you can hear the air conditioning hum.
His brow furrows, pushing himself up on his elbow. âUm⊠what are you saying?â He scoffs, lips pulling into a disbelieving grin. âI donât understand. Why are you acting like everythingââ
ââafter this is over,â you blurt, chest rising. âYou can justâforget all this happened, okay?â And your voice thins. Blinking back tears, your eyes flick away. âThatâs it. Youâll forget about me. You go back to your life. I go back to mine. Just like we agreed andââ
ââI donât remember agreeing to that.â
Your eyes glance back from the hurt in his voice, and somehow that only makes it worse. Because...
Why?
Why does he have to look at you like that?
You exhale shakily. âI think we both need sleep more than we need this conversation, soâŠâ The blanket is already up at your chin by the time the words leave you. âLetâs⊠leave it at that. Okay? Iâm exhausted," you whisper. "Goodnight, Satoru.â
Shifting away, you roll onto your side before he can say anything else, before he can make this harder than it already is. The bed gives with a quiet creak behind you.
âGoodnight, sweetheart.â
And you lie there, holding yourself rigid, as if that could undo the part of you that almost turned back.
Still. Despite how tired you are⊠sleep feels impossible.
a/n. oof. sorry for leaving you on the angst đ but this felt like the right place to split it so part 3 can be fully wedding-focused. tysm for reading! i'm blown away by all your support. he's literally so patient and attentive, whaaa. i wanna eat him up đ
soooo⊠in a shocking turn of events that will surprise literally âšno oneâš, off the record has become three parts lmaoooo. low and behold, i canât stop yappin (maybe one day when i say something is two parts, that will actually be true. today is NOT that day!)
anyways! part two is around 6k and will be posted sometime todayâi just gotta do a final edit. and the final part will hopefully be up within the next week-ish?
tysm for your love with this fic!? iâm literally blown away đ«¶đ» and as always, ty for being patient with me and for enabling my inability to write anything short đââïž
The mission in space was every physics teacher's wet dream. And yet, when you found yourself alone on a spaceship, dread filled your mind. Fortunately, it turned out you werenât quite alone. As a weird creature youâve met by accident seemed to be quite happy in helping you finish a mission and keep a warm company.
đ„ Ę Ëpairing: ê° Alien!Gojo Satoru x Physics teacher!Reader ê±
đ„ Ę Ëcontent/warnings: ê° MDNI 18+ : fluff, fluff, fluff : also a bit of angst : mutual masturbation : use of sex toys : happy ending : women in stem, doomed to never being able to touch each other : prepare some tissues : space : aliens : Satoru is a brat in every universe : alien's D : mates and mentions of mating ê±
đ„ Ę ËWC: ê° 15k ê±
đ„ Ę Ë notes: This story is based on the movie Project Hail Mary. Shoutout to @indiewritesxoxo whose story The One That Got Away inspired me to write a space-based fanfic!
dividers by @diviniyae
art by daichichirou on tt
"Miss, what's the space like?" a little girl with round frames asked you once during the class.
What's the space like? You wondered for a moment, with similar glasses resting on your nose.
Little models of planets swirled under the ceiling, clashing against each other with warm beams of sunshine curling around their painted bodies. The classroom stilled with silence, heavy and curious, marked by a dozen little eyes glancing up your furrowed forehead.
"Unfathomed," slipped almost in a whisper. But the kids were too young to understand this word, so you tried again. "It's endless, deep, mesmerising, silent, likeâ"
"Like a night?" a boy from the first row asked, playing with the wooden spaceship, all the children in the class had just finished painting.
You chuckled, playing with your own little toy, brushing the little silver window with a thumb.
"Much, much quieter," the spaceship landed on your desk, right next to the little, soft ball painted like Earth. Your eyes shimmered as you looked around the class of a dozen munchkins. "What do you hear while sleeping?"
Something began to coil in their little Einstein heads, with soft foreheads furrowed in thought. A flicker of an idea â a spark, their young minds were yet to discover and nourish throughout their lives.
You watched them with a smile, something warm spreading beneath your chest. Not everyone was born to be a teacher, with the day-to-day tiring work of preparing materials for classes, conducting lessons and checking all the foolish assignments that neither you nor the children liked. The education system truly was a shit hole from the very first steps those young minds took.
"Miss, that's a silly question," a little girl without one front tooth giggled. "We can't hear anything while we're sleeping!"
You hummed softly as you picked up the small earth ball. It yielded gently beneath your fingers, and the woollen toy, crocheted by your mother herself, felt pleasantly soft against your skin.
The bell would ring soon, and the afternoon sun was high in the sky, creeping through the tall, clean windows into the small classroom. Summer break was almost here, and the sweltering heat lingered in the stuffy air, filled with children's coughs and soft breathing.
"Exactly," you said, sitting on the desk and tossing the ball into the air. "That's what space is like. You can't hear anything."
"But what if I close my ears?" another boy said, pressing his hands to them. "I can't hear anything now, miss!" he screamed, setting off a wave of sweet giggles from his classmates.
The small green ball flew his way, and the boy caught it in one hand, scowling. "Hey, miss, that's not fair!"
"That was not, I do admit," you slipped off the desk, walking around the classroom. All small pairs of eyes followed you like puppies. "But you see, in space, there would be no need to cover your ears, because there is no air or matter for sound to travel through. Even when you're sleeping, there's always something out there, right?" Your eyes met a few nodding Einsteins before drifting towards the window. "You can hear the crickets singing under your window and the wind swirling between the leaves. But in space, there's nothing. Simply an empty, endless realm stretching beyond our comprehension."
A few droplets of sweat coiled on your temple, and you quickly brushed them with a thumb. Glasses sat crookedly on your nose, hair slipped away from a pin-up, and so you pushed them behind your ear.
"Miss, the space sounds so scary," the girl with round frames sighed. "I don't want to be an astronaut anymore."
You chuckled, coming to the previous boy and stealing a soft lump of earth from his sticky fingers. "The space may feel lonesome if you're there alone. But now, astronauts usually go in groups." The ball landed back on your desk, brushing gently against the wooden spaceship. "But even if you were alone, I think the view would be worth the night spent in loneliness."
And as it would soon turn out, nothing was worth the years spent alone. On the huge spaceship, with endless darkness spreading across the little window and years spent somewhere doing God knows what.
"The sun is dying," the government envoy had said. "Can you help us save the world?"
She caught you right after one of the classes, with a half-empty cup of instant noodles and cheeks peppered with crimson chilli-oil kisses. She arrived with a tall, muscular man and a printout of the PhD dissertation, placing a copy on your messy desk.
Your forehead crinkled, eyes landed on a neat, Times New Roman formatted title, An Analysis of Water-Based Assumptions and Recalibration of Expectations.
"That's not mine," you mumbled, going back to the cup of noodles. You hadn't eaten anything for a whole day, and your stomach was already pressed against your spine, with hunger twisting your weary mind.
"That's your name, isn't it?" she said, pressing a neatly trimmed nail against the smaller letters beneath the title.
You didn't even spare her a glance and simply shook your head. "No, I think you've mistaken me for someone else."
Both she and the man sighed, rolling two small chairs from the children's desk to sit in front of yours. With eyes fixed on your face, grimacing in ignorance, and a few locks of hair slipping into the cup.
"I'm Yuki," she said, crossing her legs before looking at the man with the dullest, most bleary eyes you have ever seen. "And that's Choso. We're from a⊠well. Now you only need to know that we work for NASA."
And that meant one thing â trouble.
Seeing your utmost disinterest, she continued in a warm tone. "Listen, we know your dissertation was a fantastic breakthrough that the supervising committee didn't appreciate. Butâ"
"A small correction," you interrupted, with eyes still glued to an almost empty cup. "They did not not appreciate me, but completely failed me. My research was proven wrong, and I spent almost five years chasing something that was never there. So no, it wasn't a breakthrough or anything."
"Her long fingers clenched into a fist, and a tongue nervously filled a creamy cheek. "Listen, in our current world situation, we believe that your research wasn't pointless. The hypothesis that life can exist without waterâ"
"Which was ultimately proven that it cannot," slipped in a whisper, gaze still following anything but those two.
"Right," she sighed, staying shockingly patient. "But the thing is, it actually may."
And for the first time in the past five minutes, you finally looked at her. With eyes hidden behind librarian-like glasses, a white shirt neatly pressed against your body, and chilli oil still coating lower lip. You brushed it quickly with a tissue before clearing throat.
"You have five minutes."
But Yuki needed just a second.
"There are some⊠microbes, the nature of which we aren't yet sure, that are slowly eating the sun. If we don't do something, in thirty years the global temperature will drop enough to kill every life on Earth."
A long, heavy silence stretched between the three of you, though she was the one doing the talking. The man in a suit sat in silence. He was rather handsome, with dark hair falling long down his neck and purplish under-eye bags framing his deep, doe-like eyes.
Feeling your eyes fixed on his face, Choso wriggled in place. "We believe that you are one of the few scientists who can help in research on those microbes."
A deep sigh slipped past your lips as you took off your glasses and closed eyes. A pulsing headache was filling your mind, weighing down an already overstimulated brain. A few short strands of noodles clung to the bottom of the plastic cup, looking up at your weary eyes, pleading to go home.
You finally murmured, throwing the cup into the bin, "I don't see how that's my problem. I'm just a physics teacher, the academic environment pushed me away, and I believe there are many more qualified scientists for this role."
Yuki's forehead furrowed, lips pressed in a line. "Not your problem? The world is dying, and you think it's not your problem?"
You could almost see a grey smoke drifting above her head, eyes shining like two coffee beans. Golden hair brushed against her suit-covered breasts, with a few straight strands sticking to soft cheeks. She appeared magnificently commanding, exuding a dominant aura of someone beyond the law. Even sitting on a small children's chair, you felt goosebumps cover your bare shoulders.
You leaned back in a chair, the hard backrest digging into your spine. "I just don't understand why it should be me. This," you pointed at a three-hundred-page dissertation, "was just a foolish fantasy of my younger self. And trust me, I felt how stupid it was," your eyes fell to your fingers, playing with a soft, earthy ball. "No one treats me like a scientist anymore."
And then, Yuki stood up.
Suddenly, reaching over the desk right to your shirt, before pulling you closer with a single move. Eyes fixed on yours like a deadly viper, and a sweet note of heavy perfumes hit your nostrils.
"Try it," she gritted through her teeth. "Accept my offer till I'm still begging. I don't want things to get messy, but I really need your help on this one."
And so, feeling rather threatened, you nodded swiftly and followed the kind smile that lifted up her lips.
Now, three years later, reflecting on that time, you never felt as happy and alive as you did then. Surrounded by the world's most exceptional scientists, working on alien, new microbes â the freshest discoveries in current scientific research â spending days and nights fuelled by bitter coffee, sitting in the labs.
The time didn't matter, as long as you could work on your research. To once again feel like a valuable input to the academic environment and a student from your PhD days, when the world was most beautiful under the microscope and while collecting the newest data.
Your heart raced during the meetings as your fingers carefully noted each idea, each plan that other scientists put forward. The greatest minds in the world, flooding your own with plans and speculations you could've never thought of. Your brain fired multiple times a day, always running, always getting fed with new questions and solutions.
Why is the sun dying?
How can we stop it?
How to produce enough fuel to go all the way right to the sun?
Is that even possible?
But then it was revealed that an alien microbe was composed entirely of water, and your world collapsed. Because it finally confirmed the very point you've been secretly trying to reject for years, proving to you that cells cannot survive without water.
Your heart broke, and a wave of shame washed over your spine. The shame connected to your younger self, foolishly believing in a greatness of discovery no one has ever made. Something worth the international conferences, massive grants, Nobel Prize, and yet, you needed a single, alien cell, something not belonging to the human world, to finally prove those old geezers from your committee right.
The white, big lamp of the lab flickered; darkness spilt over the endless night. Nothing but a faint buzz of mosquitoes filled the lab, hitting the window again, and again, and again. Hungry and relentless, looking at your body hunched over the failed experiment and slightly trembling lip.
You haven't noticed someone else's presence until something cold and wet touched your cheek. Turning the head around, you noticed a can of soda and Choso's pale fingers wrapped around it.
"Thanks," escaped in a whisper, as you took the drink.
He nodded, sitting on the stool right next to you. Your lab partner, who's been through your highs and lows for the past few weeks. The biggest encouragement and life support, always reminding you to eat well and drink something other than a third coffee in a row. He was another government body, Yuki's closest friend, yet â you liked him.
He felt the most normal here, and thus, your head rested on his shoulder, while hair covered the slightly wet cheeks.
"Are you crying?" he asked quietly.
Your head shook, and a second later, a loud sniff rolled. Choso chuckled, offering a tissue.
"Thank you, Cho," you mumbled, trying to hide the streaming tears behind the wide glasses.
He nodded, waiting for you to calm down a bit. The white lamp buzzed quietly, and the screen of the computer shone bright with your PhD dissertation. The thick letters of the title, with your name written right below.
Three hundred pages of bullshit born from your silly dreams. The Nobel Prize? Dear heavens, you barely deserved to be part of the current team.
"That's not the end of the world, you know?" he said, then pressed his cheek with tongue. "Hm, no. It actually is."
You laughed disgustingly, with a snort slipping out of your nose and another wave of tears streaming down your face. "I'm sorry," slipped almost silently. "I'm sorry, I proved you all wrong."
Choso sighed, looking at your sorry state. He pushed a strand of your hair behind your ear and brushed away a single tear with a soft thumb. "No, you didn't. Now that we know what it's made of, you can think about another solution."
But there isn't another solution, you wanted to say, and instead bit down on your lower lip. The words bubbled in your throat, but a thin thread of hope still pulled at your heart. A faint wish that maybe this discovery wasn't a disaster. That the alien cell, made almost entirely of water, could somehow help with the mission.
That you could still prove yourself as a true scientist.
"Hey," Choso whispered, turning your face towards him. Deep, warm eyes shimmered with kindness as he offered a soft smile and gently pinched your cheek. "You are one of the smartest people I have ever met. I'm sure you can figure this out. Yuki believes in you. I believe in you." Staring into his eyes, you nodded with a pout. He chuckled and opened your soda with a quiet hiss. "Alright, let's call it a day and get back to it tomorrow. We still have time."
But the fact was that â you didn't.
And it was painfully obvious in how Yuki glanced into your lab every few days, asking about progress and results in halting the spread of alien microbes on the sun. Her neatly plucked eyebrows furrowed whenever you shook your head, and a short, stressed sigh escaped her rosy lips.
Try to hurry up, she would usually say, pulling a not-so-comforting smile.
Weeks went by, and everyone's stress increased. Yuki decided to set up a deadly mission, sending a team of astronauts to collect data personally.
The catch? They wouldn't return.
While there was enough fuel to reach the star teeming with alien microbes, there wasn't enough to return. Their goal was to collect the microbes, find a way to stop them from consuming the sun, and send all the data back to Earth.
The first time you heard about it, your knees almost buckled. It sounded outrageous, absolutely crazy, and the chance of finding someone mad and healthy enough to meet the requirements perfectly was already impossible.
And as it turned out, you were wrong.
The four astronauts were more than willing to sacrifice their lives for the greater good â to venture into the vast, endless space and perish there, in the company of strangers and eerie silence. To become saviours on a mission that could save the entire world.
Except, there was a risk the mission would fail.
Except, no one knew if they wouldn't lose their lives for nothing.
Because if that happened, if it turned out that all the money and sacrifices the government has invested in it would go to waste, the world would truly descend into shambles.
You stood against it from the very beginning, but You stood against it from the very beginning, but Yuki had already decided. And so there was nothing left to do but help the spaceship travel the twelve light-years towards the only star that was also dying, devoured by an alien microbe.
One hundred and thirteen trillion kilometres.
An unimaginably vast distance a simple mind could not grasp, yet you had to find a way to make it work. To figure out how to gather enough fuel to propel the massive, metal spaceship through every single kilometre.
And after a few weeks of getting yourself filled with coffee and nights spent outside the NASA base, gazing up into the endless darkness, you finally got it.
"The alien microbes possess unimaginable power," you said in one breath, looking like a madwoman. With hair twisted into a messy braid, hands shaking from too much caffeine, eyes glimmering as if possessed by Einstein himself. Your fingers gripped the black marker before drawing another black dot on the whiteboard. "You see, what we can do is allow the engines to feed the alien microbes into a reaction chamber and boil them to the point of natural breeding. This way, the cells will multiply and multiply, allowing us to use them in a much more efficient way," the black marker swooshed all over the board, drawing a crooked picture of the spaceship.
At least thirty pairs of eyes, seated in a conference room at NASA headquarters, stared into it with furrowed yet hopeful gazes. Yuki and Choso, among them, tried to understand the point you were making. The crazy discovery you had made mere hours earlier, before quickly asking for a meeting.
"Our ship doesn't need turbines, generators or heat exchangers, because there's no conventional fuel. It works as a sort of ship driven by light energyâ"
"That's impossible," someone among the other scientists interrupted. "You cannot fuel a ship of such dimensions with light alone."
You nodded, whispering like a psycho under your breath, head buzzing with numbers. "Yes, you cannot do it with the sources we have here, on Earth. But," you turned back towards the whiteboard. "Our ship is not like the others, and the microbes allow us to actually use the light force as a fuel. Look, for every action there's an equal and opposite reaction. Newton's third law, we all know it, right?" A few heads nodded in unison. "Well, our ship will emit light in one direction, while Newton's law will push it in the other. I know it used to work only in theory, but with the amount of power packed into a single microbe, we can use it for our good. In short, the alien power goes into the ship, the light comes out, and we can move forward."
A long, heavy silence filled the room as you finished your little drawing. Black lines coated the board, crossing the black dots and twisting around the childishly drawn ship. You pushed your glasses up your nose and tucked a strand of hair back behind your ear.
That was it. Nothing else could've been done on your side. If none of the scientists and governmental bodies believed your crazy plan could work, there was no other way to put the ship on a direct course towards that star.
Yuki sighed and looked around nervously. While people whispered, shook their heads, or took notes, no one offered you a warm nod or made direct eye contact. But it also seemed that no one else had a better idea.
"Are you sure it can work?" "Are you sure it can work?" Yuki asked, a heavy gaze lingering as warmth crept up your cheeks. "It's over a hundred and thirteen trillion kilometres. Are you sure the ship can be fuelled only by this alien microbe?"
Something weighed on your heart. Fear, panic, years spent believing you weren't good enough to become a real scientist. Those snickers from the PhD commission stating your research was useless. The rejections from one scientific conference after another, as no one wanted to accept your proposals.
Days spent on crying and staring at your dissertation, as if looking at it long enough would suddenly make it all worth it.
And then, under the cold light of the conference room, with thirty heads staring at you in blank mimicry, you needed to make a decision.
The one that would soon turn into a weight on your life.
"Yes," finally slipped. Strong and confident, as you corrected glasses slipping off your nose. "I can make it work."
But thenâŠ
But then the catastrophe came.
The betrayal.
Yuki apologising with utmost sincerity. Choso sitting quietly in the corner of her office. Three men keeping your body down.
From the moment you saw the space crew, one thought kept lingering in your mind. You dismissed it with a casual "they'll figure it out" wave, ignoring the instinct that indicated something was off â something that should have been clear from the start.
Why didn't the space crew have the scientist?
And a day before the departure, you finally discovered why.
"I'm sorry, I'm really so so sorry," Yuki said, trying to calm your wriggling body. The man's hands dug deep into your spine, keeping the hands and knees in place, with a cheek pressed to a dirty carpet. "We don't have any choice, and you wouldn't agree if I askedâ"
"Of course I wouldn't!" you screamed, trying to bite the soft hand that reached towards you. "It's a fucking suicide! I'm a simple teacher; I can't go to a fucking spaceâah, can you be a bit more gentle?!" But the men's fingers were already wrapping your hands with a thick rope. "Yuki, you can't do it to me!"
The woman didn't say anything. She merely opened her office door and beckoned someone inside. Wearing a white robe and holding a syringe between their fingers.
Your mind raced, breathing became almost impossible, and your throat clenched as you fought the sudden urge to vomit on the carpet. You tried to meet Choso's gaze, but he sat in the corner with his head in his hands, avoiding your gaze since you entered the office.
"Choso," you cried, as the doctor came closer. Long, thin needle shimmered under the office's cold lamp, sending a shiver down your spine. "Choso, l-look at me. You fucking coward, you bastard!" Fat tears rolled down your cheeks as the man sat like a stone figure. "You knew about it from the beginning, right? How could you do this to me?!"
Deep, warm eyes that you spent days gazing into finally looked up. Slightly wet, a bit hazy, while taking in the miserable state you found yourself in. Your glasses slightly crooked, lying a bit away from teary face. A few strands of hair sticking to your cheeks, arms twisted painfully behind back.
His fingers dug into the leather chair, as if trying to force himself to stay back.
"I'm sorry," he whispered. "I didn't⊠I couldn't bring myself to tell youâŠ"
"That I'm going for a fucking suicidal mission?!" you interrupted, still trying to kick the men off your body. "I thought we were friends! I trusted you! And you simply sold me away?"
Yuki shivered, her gaze shifting between coldness and heartbreaking warmth whenever she looked at your writhing body. She slipped her trembling hand into the pocket of her jeans before giving the doctor a small nod.
"N-No," you cried, when the man in white bent down. A sudden, sharp pain washed over your body, tickling the ends of your fingertips. "Please, I d-don't want to, I can'tâŠ"
And then, a weariness slowly filled your mind, lulling it into a deep sleep. Your body relaxed, eyes half-closed, as if weighted by the countless sleepless nights you had spent in labs.
The men lifted you up, keeping your head steady, but you didn't feel a thing. Your feet felt funny, light, as if blending into feathers. Some hushed voices started to argue, someone's warm hand brushed your cheek, and a heavy, musky smell filled your nostrils.
And before you lost consciousness, a silent save the earth sneaked into your ear.
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"Amazing," a low sigh slipped past your lips as you watched a massive ship slowly follow yours.
Monstrous, at least twenty times larger than the spaceship you called home for the past three years, which couldn't be contained within the small window you looked through. It appeared incredibly bright, almost as if it were made of glass, yet you couldn't see anything beyond the thick walls.
It's been shadowing you since yesterday, and it has been following you since yesterday, regardless of how long you travelled or how fast you went; it remained right there. Always in your line of sight from your window, constantly mirroring every move you make.Â
It was⊠fascinating. To say at least.
A little frightening? Sure, as you were alone on a ship, with the crew long gone and drifting silently through the vast emptiness of space.
Bit still â fascinating. It marked the first time a human saw an object outside Earth. Majestic and otherworldly, it looked somewhat familiar yet vastly different. A faint cosmic glow shimmered on its diamond-like walls, casting short beams through your solitary window, as if attempting to communicate. As if the creature within tried to contact.
Still drifting slowly, you bit down on your lower lip. "Maybe I should stop?" you thought out loud, as another flicker of light hit your window. "What if they'll attack me?"
But at this point, already being alone on an impossible, suicidal mission, it seemed that an alien attack would be the least of your problems. In fact, maybe it would even sweeten your life a bit, and before meeting death, you would still have a chance to make the first human contact with life outside Earth.
"Okay," You took a deep sigh, pulling down the engine handle. "Let's see what you want from me."
Your ship stopped, and the monstrous glassed vehicle followed right away. With your forehead pressed to the window, you waited.
And waited, waited, till ten minutes passed and the ship stood still. Your tongue pressed against the soft cheek as you walked back and forth, awaiting any sign of activity. Yet, the vast galaxy outside remained tranquil, a gentle glow reflecting off the smooth, wall-like surface of the enormous ship. It lacked doors and windows, being just a glassy, shimmering exterior thatâ
"Oh no," your throat tightened as it drew closer. And closer, closer, swooshing towards you, something long slowly sliding out of the ship's tall wall. "Oh, that's bad, fuck."
A panic squeezed your heart, thoughts rushed through a tired mind, and there weren't enough cuticles on your nails to bite them all. The window was too small to see the thing clearly, but it seemed to be heading straight towards your ship's door. A long, shining tube swooshed closer and closer until your ship suddenly vibrated, as if gently brushing against a foreign object.
Your fingers fidgeted with the plush fabric of the shirt, while droplets of sweat made your glasses slide down your temple. With unsteady legs, you cautiously moved toward the astronaut's suit and started pulling it over your body. The zipper felt heavy under your touch, and the bubble-shaped helmet was more suffocating than usual. The oxygen backpack almost doubled your load as you headed toward the door, with heavy pounding in your chest.
Your heart was always perfectly healthy, and yet for the first time in your life, you tried to remember all the possible symptoms of a woman's heart attack.
Chest pain, severe shortness of breath, nausea, radiating pain in the neck and jaw, you counted in your mind, marking each and every sign in your current state.
"Fuck, okay," trembling, glove-coated hands squeezed the handle of the massive, metal door, before you pushed it. It opened with a low, soft creek, inviting you into the endless tunnel filled with darkness.
To your surprise, gravity worked here, and thus you dropped heavily onto the hard floor. A soft oh filled the helmet as you lifted the flashlight a bit higher. Something shimmered at the end of the darkness, yet you weren't sure what.
Your steps didn't echo from the thick walls as you slowly approached the entrance to the alien ship. Thoughts clashed painfully in your mind, questions rose one by one as you breathed with a squeezed chest under the weighty kilograms of a spacesuit.
How many of them were there?
What did they look like?
Were they friendly?
How quick and painful would your death be?
Your mind tried to ignore the last one, as the chance of a cardiac arrest before meeting an alien seemed much more likely. Fingers clutched the flashlight tighter, feet moved carefully, one step after another, sticking to the tunnel's crooked surface.
"Hello?" Your voice bounced off the walls, lined with terror. "Whoever you are, I come in peace!"
Oh, what a cheesy line, you thought, biting down on your lower lip.
After a few steps, the glimmering thing came fully into view, and only then did you notice it was a thick glass wall. Or at least something similar to glass, with a hard surface that stopped you from going any further.
Glove-clothed hand touched it, helmet bumped against it, as you tried to light the darkness spilling behind it.
"Hello?" slipped a bit louder, with your fist knocking on the glass. "Anyone there?"
A silence, dull and endless, filled an eerie tunnel. Looking back, you took a note that your spaceship was still there â safe and sound â and you let out a deep sigh. It's not as if it would suddenly float away, butâ
A heavy thump suddenly shook the tunnel's floor.
Your head snapped back, breath hitched, fingers squeezed with a tremble around the flashlight.
"H-Hello?"
The light reflected off something towering and shimmering, slowly moving toward you in a relaxed, unhurried manner, nearly as tall as the tunnel itself. A bluish halo beamed off the creature's body, filling the dark space with a soft aura.
You stepped back, trying to direct a flickering beam straight at the thing coming your way, but your hand trembled too much. The heart was on the verge of stopping, and dread haunted the mind as it drew closer, revealing its height. At least two and a half metres, brushing the ceiling of the tunnel's crooked walls, filling the narrow space with its wide body.
And when the light caught on their face⊠oh.
The pale blue skin shimmered softly under a luminous glow. It appeared unnaturally smooth, soft, and a sudden, foolish wish to brush it with your thumb swirled inside your mind. White, snowy hair touched the handsome forehead, while nearly inhumanly pale-blue eyes gazed down at your spacesuit-covered body. You looked tiny and short in comparison, with a gloved hand once more resting on the glass wall.
The creature was dressed in a white suit, clinging tightly to its body and digging deep into the hard muscles bulging under its skin. Alien's head tilted, knees bent down, and within a second, it found itself on eye-level with you.
White lashes decorating endless, luminous blue fluttered, as if trying to take in the terror twisting your face.
"âââ°â°â," a low, manly voice crept past the glass.
Your eyes bulged like two porcelain plates, fingers pressed closer to the wall.
So he was a man.
Well, you could already figure that much based on his looks, but the warm tone slipping under your bubble helmet was evidence enough.
Your mind didn't register the language at first, but when his soft brow travelled up, and lips curled in a smile, you thought that maybe he was awaiting an answer.
"Oh, um," you took a step back, waving your hand clumsily. "Hello."
The creature's head tilted again, and he mimicked your gesture.
You blinked twice, still struggling to believe the situation you're in. "Uh, okay, what now?" you whispered. "I am..." You pointed at your head and said your name clearly and loudly. "What about you?"
"âŹââ âââ ââââââ ââââ," the creature said, and a wave of different sounds and tones once again hit your ears.
You sighed, pressing tongue against your cheek. "Right, it's not going to work."
He looked at you, and you looked at him. You, with a slightly furrowed forehead and your mind rushing through all the possible ways to communicate with the alien. He, with lips curled cheekily and pale eyes fixed on your face.
"I wouldn't mind your cooperation, you know?" you mumbled, but he tipped his head left and right, like a curious puppy.
"âŹââ âââ âââââââ ââââ," the same sounds once again slipped past the glass wall.
His head was tipping and tilting, and a second had passed before you finally understood that he wanted to say something.
"What? I don't understand," you said, mimicking his movements.
And thus both of you were shaking and tilting your heads, going over and over the same âŹââ âââ âââââââ ââââ,and I don't understand.
His brows furrowed as if irritated, and large hand touched his chest. He took a deep breath â first and second â then pointed at his head and finally at yours.
Oh.
"You want me to..." you gestured as if removing the helmet. A quiet chuckle escaped him, and eyes glinted. "But I can't breathe here."
He didn't understand and thus pointed at your head once again. "ââââ ââ âââ."
Your head shook. "Whatever you say, I cannot take it off. Because I willâŠ" Your hands slipped up to your throat before a wave of trembling convulsions bent your body. It wriggled, shook, before, with a theatrical cough, you fell down the crooked floor.
The creature was staring at you with a furrowed forehead and a gentle flicker of amusement coiling in his spectral eyes.
"Not the best first impression, I know," you muttered, swiftly standing up. "My point is, I can't breathe without it."
But it seemed he either didn't understand or was simply relentless in his pleadings. As the long fingers hit the glass wall, pointing right at your head. Another deep breath slipped past his lips, and he nodded, as if trying to say it was fine. Whatever he filled the tunnel with, you could breathe here.
And thus, the thought of what if slipped quietly into your mind.
What if he was right?
What if he really did fill your half of the tunnel with oxygen?
But what if he was wrong, and the moment the helmet would go off, you would die in inhumane suffering?
Light blue eyes shone with anticipation, lips curled into an encouraging smile, and a finger pressed harder into the glass wall.
You took a deep breath, feeling the droplets of sweat coiling at the nape of your neck. He seemed to be a highly intelligent creature, with the ability to communicate as well as you and a rather comprehensive understanding of the differences between your species. For some reason, trusting him felt almost natural, and the assuring look of his spectral gaze made you drop your head with a sigh.
When fingers hooked on the helmet's edges, your heart was nearing its death. Chest squeezed painfully, eyes closed till the eyelids dug deep into your balls. The sweat was now dripping down your spine, wetting the nape of your neck and shirt that clung to your body under the heavy spacesuit.
"Okay," you whispered, both to yourself and him, and it seemed that he was rather amused by the agony twisting your mind. When he chuckled, your brows furrowed. "Don't laugh. There's a rather big chance this air will burn me from the inside."
And so it happened â your fingers slowly unclasped the neck ring, allowing the pressurised seal to loosen with a soft puf. The bubble helmet was lifted unhurriedly, as if your lungs were still trying to grasp the rest of the oxygen swirling inside it.
With still closed eyes, you took the first breath. And the second, and the third, and then, looking back at the alien, a sweet, loud scoff slipped past your lips, and flushed cheeks.
"âââ, â âââ°â âŹââ," he chuckled, pressing his forehead to the glass wall.
Still in shock, you stepped closer, also touching the warm, crystal surface with your brows. "Sure, whatever you say."
You looked at each other for a while, with beaming smiles and foreheads almost brushing as you leaned in, a rather intimate gesture. It seemed that the first meeting with another species broke down some specific walls for both of you. The curiosity and fascination with one another blurred the lines of proper manners, breaching all the careful first steps you surely should think of.
His eyes flickered, suggesting a new idea had just come to him. He raised a finger and gestured for you to stay put. After your gentle nod, he vanished into the darkness of the tunnel, leaving you alone with your thoughts swirling in your mind.
Five minutes passed, then ten, and as you sat on the crooked floor and took off the heavy spacesuit, he finally came back, with something gripped by his hand.
You looked closer, noticing the collar-like device and a small earplug. He placed it inside his ear while wrapping the collar around the pale neck. A faint, crispy sound filled his side of the tunnel, and milky brows furrowed as he pressed onto the device in his ear.
And then, with a gesture, he asked you to say something.
"Um," your head tilted, and he sat right in front of you, waiting with a soft smile. "You are rather pretty for an alien."
His fingers still pressed the small device, and after a second, cheekiness flickered in his eyes. "Am I, question? You are the most beautiful creature I have ever seen."
To say you froze in shock would be an understatement.
Your lips parted, eyebrows nearly touching hairline, as body leaned forward before your hand pressed against the glass wall. You didn't know whether you were more surprised by either his ability to speak your language or the casual compliment that caused your cheeks to heat up.
"You canâŠ" You shook your head, barely breathing. "But how is itâŠ"
He pointed at his ear. "This device recognises your language," then gestured to his neck. "And connects with this. Whenever I speak in my language, this collar converts it into yours."
A soft ah slipped past your lips, eyes fixed on the thin, crystal band made of a sort of rubber material. Your finger brushed the glass wall, as if trying to feel the device beneath it.
Your brows furrowed when another issue started to bite into your curiosity. "But how do you know my language? How did you build this translator? Our species never made contact."
He sat closer, pressing his forehead to the glass again. At this point, you started to wonder whether it was a sort of typical signal from his species, carrying a special, unknown meaning. And when he beamed with joy, you noticed little white droplets shining faintly, sprinkled around his cheeks. Was this an equivalent of a blush?
"You didn't with us," he pressed a finger to yours, and only then did you see the true, monstrous size of his hand. "But the Reds had been studying you for years."
The redsâŠ
"Oh gosh!" A gasp ripped out of your throat as you covered your mouth with a hand. His head tilted. "The Reds, you mean, Martians?"
"Why are you shocked, question?" he asked, carefully eyeing as you quickly stood up and started walking back and forth between the walls.
Your mind pulsed, trying to comprehend everything that had happened over the past hour. The strange spaceship, the first-ever human contact with life beyond Earth, the final confirmation that aliens did, in fact, kidnap people and conduct experiments on them.
"I'm shocked, because humans never made any contact with life outside our planet," you said, biting down on a fingernail. "How long have you known the Reds?"
A low hum slipped past his lips, and smooth, blue forehead creased. "Five hundred years, I say."
"What?!" Your knees buckled as you once again sat in front of him, with hands and forehead and breasts pressed tightly to a glass wall. "Five hundred years? How is that possible? Are your planets close to each other?"
His head shook, but forehead remained wrinkled. "Humans are very underdeveloped."
You chuckled softly, noticing small, adorable language mistakes the translator made here and there. It's still, robotic voice muffled the creature's deep tone, and something squeezed your heart, as you surprisingly discovered that the honeyed warmth of his tone wrapped your mind in a rather pleasing manner.
"Yes, it seems so." Your head turned, with flushed cheeks pressed to the wall. "But till now I had no idea how far behind we are."
He stayed quiet for a moment before tapping gently on the wall. Your eyes slipped back to his, noticing the droplets sprinkled across his face, radiating adorably like flickering stars.
"My name is Satoru," rolled quietly, as the shimmering dust coated his cheeks ever wider. "Your name, question?"
When you said it slowly, he nodded, still tapping on the surface. Right against your pressed hand. "That's a very beautiful name."
"Yours is not bad either."
He hummed, as if in agreement.
Your head grew heavier and heavier, and the warmth was gently trying to coax you into sleep. As you yawned, Satoru's ghostly eyes carefully followed the exhaustion clouding your forehead.
"Are you tired, question?"
His throat bobbed when you giggled. "You don't have to add a question at the end of each ask, you know?"
You assumed that, because of his grammar rules, he needed to emphasise the difference between normal sentences and inquiries. You've noticed that his language sounded much more melodic than yours, yet it lacked the upward pitch humans use.
"But I am tired, thank you for asking." Looking over your shoulder, you've noticed that your ship was, fortunately, still there. "How about I go to sleep, and we'll get back to our talk in a few hours?"
You slowly stood up and grabbed your heavy spacesuit. Glasses slipped off your nose, and hair stuck to still-warm cheeks, as you lifted up the flashlight and⊠oh.
It seemed that you missed the sudden sorrow deepening between Satoru's brows. Eyes widened in panic, big palms plastered to the wall with lips just slightly opened, as he looked with a fearful expression at your attempt to move away from the wall. From him.
"Satoruâ"
"Can you please sleep here?" His voice trembled, although the translator's robotic tone remained unwavering.
You looked around the tunnel, feeling the crooked ground bending beneath your feet and the dark walls emitting a deep, earthy smell. "I don't think that's a good idea, Satoru." A warm smile lifted your lips as you turned towards your spaceship. "But don't worry, I'll be back. Sleep for a bit, and before you'll notice, I'llâ"
"Please," the anxiety filling his shaken voice stabbed right through your heart. "Please let me watch you sleep."
You glanced over your shoulder, seeing him in the same position. With hands pressed against the wall and eyebrows furrowed deeply.
"Watch me sleep?"
He nodded. "I⊠I didn't watch my crew sleep. The crew died. Satoru has been alone for the past forty years." Your lips fell open, but he quickly added, as if afraid you'd refuse again. "I watch you sleep, you won't die."
Seeing his face â filled with anxiety, pure fear, and misery â you could only smile softly and nod. As the mere thought of this man spending over forty years in space all alone tore your heart apart in the most inhumanely painful way.
"Yes, okay," barely pushed past your lips, before you cleared your throat. "Just let me bring my stuff."
You quickly changed into pyjamas, gathered a few blankets, a pillow and enough water for the night, before going back to the warm tunnel.
And then, as you drew closer to the glassy wall, you noticed a slight change in its shape. As during the five minutes you were gone, Satoru had prepared a special shelf for your body to lie right next to him. With his own feather-like blanket, he lay on his side, waiting for you to slip into the long space and hug him.
You giggled, filling the space with your own things. "That's quite intimate, Satoru."
His body was much taller than the width of the tunnel, and thus, he curled his legs a bit before trying to get even closer to you. "What does intimate mean, question?"
With head hitting the soft pillow and blanket covering your body, you turned his way. Nothing but a thick crystal wall kept you away from brushing noses with each other.
"It means that you're trying to be romantic with someone," but then you thought he might also not understand what romantic means. "Hm, it's when you do nice things for a certain person that you wouldn't do for anyone else. For example, make a special bed to be closer to someone."
A soft crease wrinkled his forehead, and the peacefulness of his eyes told you that he was deeply thinking. "I wouldn't do it for anyone other than you."
The sincerity beaming from his eyes was enough to assure you of the innocent truthfulness of his words. So you sighed, nuzzling deep into the pillow, hoping he didn't notice the warmth on your cheeks.
"That's very romantic, you know? Something you would say to your special someone."
"To your mate, question?"
You hummed, softly closing eyes. His presence somehow made your body tingle with a pleasant warmth, allowing the sleep to haunt your mind in a much softer, calmer way. In a way, you didn't feel for a long, long time, spending days in loneliness and a maddening need to feel someone else's warmth again.
You couldn't feel Satoru's heat, yet your heart fluttered fondly as his gaze truly watched you sleep.
"Yes, although humans don't mate."
"Why, question?"
When you giggled â sweetly, kindly â droplets coating Satoru's cheeks lighted up. Solely for a second, but it was enough to make him slip closer, and closer, and closer, till the glass wall was digging painfully into his body, and his heart still rushed your way.
You bubbled something under your nose. An answer he could not hear. With your lips falling open and a crystal string of saliva dripping down the soft pillow.
His finger pressed against the glass, as if wishing to brush it away.
And when another five minutes passed, a soft snoring filled your side of the tunnel. Breath calmed down, and body drew closer to his. Trying to curl into his â big, burning hot, utterly dangerous for yours.
"I watch you sleep," he whispered, brushing the glass with your pressed cheek. "You never die."
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Satoru was much more intelligent than you expected.
It's not that you treated him as beneath you, but the true power of his mind exceeded your expectations.
And as it turned out, he was in the same situation as you â researching the alien microbes that were also eating his sun. Except that his species discovered the problem forty years before yours, and thus a wave of panic washed over your mind. Because if a creature like Satoru couldn't find the solution to the problem that apparently touched not just Earth but the whole universe, you wouldn't do it either.
One difference between you and Satoru was that, as an engineer, he could actually do things himself. Simply produce them, with all the glassed walls and tiny models of planets made from a strange, gluey substance that rolled off his fingers. He wasn't a scientist like you, so when he heard that you were the "brain" of the crew, his eyes flickered.Â
"We can work together," he proposed, already considering the path to the only planet not consumed by alien microbes. Since it wasn't infected, it suggested there was something in its atmosphere that enabled it to withstand the lethal bacteria. "You will be the mastermind of the entire operation, I will develop the sources. Also, I have spent forty years here, so I know how to navigate."
His eyes were fixed on creating another little planet, rolling the gluey strings between his pads, moulding them into a ball and waiting until the substance dried into a crystal orb. After a few days, your glassy wall had advanced enough to have a small opening for a shelf where you could exchange little presents.
Although you forgot that Satoru's atmosphere was close to boiling lava in temperature, when your hands accidentally brushed, a nasty, red bump was left on the skin of your thumb.
He put the ball on the shelf and moved his hand away so you could grab it.
"Which planet is it?" you wondered, brushing the crystal surface.
He tsked â something he learnt from you mere hour ago â and mumbled. "The earth, of course."
A scoff escaped your lips, and warmth spilt over the heart. "We're not that small."
"I believe you are."
"And we have more greenery."
He wondered, this time building a small spaceship. Your spaceship. "I would like to see it."
Some things have become clearer after spending the past few days in Satoru's presence. His planet was one of the closest to the sun, wrapped in a dense atmosphere that protected its inhabitants from being burned alive. As Satoru said, the days merged with the nights, and it was always rather dark â hence the pale, almost spectral eyes he and other inhabitants had. There was little to no greenery, and the water system had long been sustained by technologies developed by engineers like him.
"A lot of sand", he once said, and you wondered whether it would look like anything close to the climate of Arab countries.
His head tilted then, and eyes flickered with curiosity. "How do Arab countries look, question?"
You tried to describe the endless desert plains, the crimson sun, the curling droplets of sweat on your neck, and the nights filled with beaming joy as best you could. The feel of warm sand under your feet, sea brushing the skin sweetly and fresh dates melting on your tongue in sugary pleasure.
He listened, with eyes following the curve of your lips and fingers fidgeting with the hem of your shirt.
"I would love to see it," he muttered, poking the glass wall with his finger. "It sounds beautiful."
You giggled, following the pale blue of his skin. Soft and shiny, it reminded you more of a region bitten by cold than of the merciless atmospheric temperature of over two hundred degrees Celsius.
"You're rather pale for someone living right next to the sun."
He scoffed, with fingers still creating the small spaceship. In the meantime, you leaned against the crooked tunnel's wall, with a laptop on your thighs, trying to plan the route towards the only "safe" planet.
"I'm not pale. I'm blue."
"That was a joke," you shoot him a glance, seeing the irritated squint of his eyes. "It means that the thing I say is supposed to be funny. You should laugh."
A low, awkward chuckle rolled off his lips, and you couldn't help but burst out laughing. Satoru knew how to express his joy, but it seemed he didn't quite possess the humour you did.
The moment has passed, and a comfortable silence stretched between the two of you. He was mapping the galaxy, while you tried to work out whether your ship still had enough fuel to travel that far. It would take you months to reach that planet, but there seemed to be no other choice. After that mission, the fuel will run out, and you, just as planned, will die here â somewhere in the embrace of endless space.
A low sigh slipped past your lips, catching Satoru's attention. "Are you tired, question?"
Your head shook, and a few strands of hair fell loosely from a pinup. "I would love to invite you to my ship. There's a room where we can watch movies and stuff. I'm sure I can find something about Egypt."
And soâŠ
You've also learned over the past few days that Satoru took everything seriously.
In the most genuine and firm understanding of this word.
Two weeks have passed since your meeting. One morning, as you stood in front of the bathroom mirror, dressed in nothing but panties and a loose shirt while brushing your teeth, a deep, gravelly rumble shook the entire spaceship.
Your heart leapt into your throat, eyes bulged, and you dashed out of the room with wet hair and bare feet. With all the prayers you've learnt as a child repeating in your mind over and over again, as you run towards the entrance of the ship.
Did you somehow get unsealed from the tunnel?
Did something hit the ship and cause the irreparable damage that would cost you your life?
Fuck, didâ
But when you finally got into the room connected with an entrance, with toothpaste smeared all over your cheek and glasses falling crookedly off your nose, a low gasp slipped past your lips.
"Satoru?!"
Because the pale-bluish creature himself stood in the middle of your spaceship, locked in aâŠ
"And you're in a ball?" Like a hamster, wanted to join, but he probably wouldn't know what a hamster is.
Standing right in front of you, fully upright, with long legs wrapped in a white suit and a muscular back bulging under the stretched material â he appeared even more monstrous than usual. A creature over two metres tall, looking all over your place with amusement shining in his eyes, his gaze following all your dirty panties spread across the floor.
"Yep, so I won't die in your atmosphere," long fingers knocked the crystal ball, before lips curved in a cheeky smile. "Can I smell it, question? I want to know how your body smells. Put it to the shelâ"
A sudden warmth had hit your cheeks, and throat tightened around the remnants of the toothpaste. "Absolutely not! It's very not polite of you to ask such things."
He started walking around in a large ball that barely fit the corridors of your spaceship, its hard walls brushing against each and every machine, piece of furniture, and console on its way. He strolled freely, dropping different comments here and there, while you followed him and picked up all your clothes.
"So dirty," he snapped, pushing a loud scoff from your throat.
"I didn't expect the guests!"
But he ignored you, as your bedroom appeared somewhere within the line of his sight. Blue cheeks shone with crystal droplets, and white, fluffy hair almost stood on end with excitement. Before you could stop him, long legs swiftly moved towards your bedroom, taking in every little, dirty, detail â more panties, a small mattress, a few books lying scattered all over the floor.
"Is that our nest, question?" He looked around before parking his ball next to your mattress. He sat down, leaning against the floor, and finally shot you a look. "I like it."
With a deep, weariness-filled sigh, you returned to the bathroom, cleaned yourself, and re-entered the bedroom. Soft light reflected off the glistening droplets on his cheeks as he probed the fabric of your panties with his finger. Only then did you realise that the ball, despite being firm, was quite flexible, enabling him to slide his fingers through its surface, which was covered in a sticky, shimmering coating that shielded his skin from the oxygen.
You took the material away from his curious gaze and pushed it back into your bag.
"Satoru, what are you doing here?" slipped rather harshly as you sat down on your bed.
He seemed to be confused by your tone, tilting the fluffy head with a furrow. "Are you mad, question?"
You knew that getting angry with him, while he was still learning to recognise human emotions, was silly. Stupid, even, and you felt as if you were shouting at the poor puppy. Except that this puppy was much taller than you and probably weighed twice your weight.
With a sigh, you fell back on the mattress and covered your face with an arm. "Sorry, I'm not mad. Just⊠surprised. I didn't expect you would come up my ship."
He tried to roll closer, but the space was too small to allow him any other movements than going back and forth from the entrance to your mattress. So he stayed in place, trying to observe the expression on your face.
"I can't see you like that," he noted.
Another thing you've learnt about his species was how important contact and intimacy are. Not even sexual ones, but rather a simple need to always be with someone. To communicate while looking right into their eyes, to feel their skin on theirs, and to follow the movements of their lips. To feel the presence of another creature next to them, even if the only thing you did was sleep next to each other.
So another sorry slipped past your lips, and you sat again, showing Satoru your face. He slightly lightened up before pressing a hand to the crystal ball.
"You said, and I quote, I would love to invite you to my ship," he noted with utmost seriousness, and you rolled your eyes. "So I came."
Well, he was right. You did say that, and you did wish there were a way to bring him into your ship. Travelling together would be much easier if both of you were on one ship, so amidst the pure chaos and shock he caused, you quite enjoyed the fact that he could live here.
With you.
"Okay," your hand pressed to the ball, filling half of his palm. "But we need to set up some rules first. First, we don't sleep in the same bedroomâ"
"But I must watchâ"
"Satoru," you interrupted him, seeing the pale eyes slip into the sorrowfulness. "You have excellent hearing and even more excellent sight. I'm sure you can watch me sleep while staying next door." A grim twisted his face, and a low mumble filled his little bubble. Too quiet for the translator to catch, so you chuckled sweetly, seeing his brattiness surface. "Okay. The second rule â you can't sniff my panties. It's something⊠reserved only for mates."
And, well, if that didn't fire him up â with eyes suddenly beaming in excitement and droplets twinkling one by one, like a tiny mingling stars. You felt as if you had challenged him, and thus quickly added. "And because we are not mates, you cannot do it. It's too intimate."
"I want to be intimate."
A sudden flush hit your cheeks, and warmth spread beneath your chest. "No, Satoru, you don't understand. It's about sexual intimacy. Something you share whileâŠ" saying it out loud felt like giving a biology lesson to elementary school kids. "Mating⊠with your special someone. When you, well, have sex and stuff. Do you knowâ"
He chuckled low, a sly smile lifting his lips. "I know what mating is."
Something in your lower belly bubbled, seeing him like that. Tall and strong, spreading a slightly possessive and dominating aura. With eyes full of bratty cheekiness and something, something, slightly sensual dripping from his voice.
"Well, so you know that we can't do it," You moved back, taking your palm away from the crystal ball. "Let's work on our plan and try to find a way to save the world."
And with a slight dissatisfaction, Satoru finally agreed.
But the next months spent in his presence were⊠interesting. To say at least.
Every day brought new surprises, which sometimes ended with your body blushing from head to toes, sometimes him getting shy and flustered, while still trying to keep up the cocky demeanour.
He was nothing less than excellent when it came to engineering and helping with the travel itself, also being an amazing companion for the long, daring journey.
Soon he resigned from constant stay in a ball and filled the interior of your spaceship with long corridors of crystal, making himself at home. Whenever you were â he was right next. Be it a bedroom, control room, kitchen orâŠ
"Satoru!" You quickly covered your breasts with your hands, seeing him walking into the bathroom with the most casual demeanour.
A plate of some weird substance, he was always eating for supper, and a white suit half unzipped, showing off his muscular, blue chest. He leaned against the door, spectral eyes slowly following your naked body. From legs up to hips, staying longer on the gentle swell of your ass and the mould of your pussy, before going up, and up, to the breasts covered by your trembling fingers. "Sweetheart is the most beautiful creature I have ever seen."
"Sweetheart" because he really wished to call you something human pairs use for each other. Even though at least three times a week, you needed to remind him that you, in fact, were not a pair.
A muffled, surprised scoff escaped your lips. You pointed to the exit with one hand, forgetting it was clutching one of your breasts. When the silky swell smoothly slipped from your grasp, bouncing gently before his eyes, he moved closer, already pushing a finger through the stretching wall.
"Can Iâ"
You smacked it, once again showing the exit. "Satoru! You can't walk on me while I'm naked."
"Why, question?" he asked, relentlessly trying to get closer to your body. With a finger poking the wall, that unfortunately couldn't stretch enough to even brush your skin. "Come a bit closer."
Something in your belly bubbled, warmth spread across your chest, and a single, dirty thought of letting him touch you bloomed in your mind. After all, sexual needs and anatomy were among the things all researchers wished to know about foreign species. And because Satoru was of the same, curious kind as youâŠ
"It's too early, out!"
His head tilted, and lips curved into a foxy smile. "It's eight in the evening."
"No, I mean, we're not close enough to do such stuff."
He knocked on the crystal wall. "Sweetheart, but I can't get closer."
Oh god.
You sighed, finally letting the other tit bounce softly too. Leaning against the small shelf, you glanced at him with a frown. He, however, looked anywhere but into your eyes. Rude.
"Our relationship is not on that levelâŠ" yet. "What you want to do is too intimate. Sexual." And then, a sudden curiosity spiked your mind. "Satoru, how does the⊠mate thing look like among your species?"
His eyes finally slipped up to yours. "We choose one mate for a whole life."
Well, that was rather clear.
"What about the, you knowâŠ" You gestured awkwardly, partially at your still naked body.
"The mating," he finished. But as if feeling the spike in your curiosity, with round eyes ogling his naked chest and slipping shyly towards his hips, he bubbled a low chuckle. "Come closer, and I will show you."
What a brat!
With the last tsk and a dirty look shot his way, you turned back towards the mirror and finished your quick, morning "shower". Even while using rinseless soap and water pouches to clean your body, you still felt Satoru's presence behind you.
Deep blue eyes following the curve of your body, back muscles working beneath the soft skin, and when you bent over to rinse your face, a sudden, sharp breath escaped his throat.
You didn't have to look back to know that he was looking straight at your pussy.
"It's wet," he mumbled, coming closer. And closer, until his finger once again tried to evade the stretching wall, too short to even brush the swell of your ass.
You hummed, trying to hide an embarrassed warmth kissing your neck. "It's a natural lubrication. It usually happens when a woman isâŠ" oh fuck it. "Excited."
He seemed charmed, completely bewitched, and some part of you wished the temperature between your bodies wasn't over two hundred degrees Celsius. As the moment Satoru's hands touched your skin, you weren't sure whether calling it the third burn would be enough.
"Why is sweetheart excited, question?"
With your body leaning forward and hands resting on the shelf, you looked back, eyes slightly hazy, wetness dripping down your thigh. A silken droplet swirled down your leg, and Satoru's always oh-so-attentive eyes, of course didn't miss it.
"I want the taste," he mumbled, and only then did you notice a bulge, trying to rip free from beneath the white spacesuit covering his hips.
You took a deep breath, bending yourself lower and lower, till he could clearly see your cunt shining with silky wetness.
"I'm excited," you started, voice dripping with sensuality. "Because of you."
As if awaiting this exact answer, his eyes, for just a second, ripped themselves away from your soft pussy and looked up. To cross with yours â slightly teary, a bit too warm.
"I want toâ"
You turned around, once again leaning against the shelf. A low groan escaped his throat, as he no longer could see your pussy in its fullness. The little pout twisting his lips made you giggle, but a tricky, dirty thought has slipped into your mind.
"How about this?" You took a step, then another, until you stood right in front of him. Much closer than before, but not close enough to let him brush your skin. "I will let you touch me. Watch meâŠ" You coughed, feeling this wind of bravery leave your body as quickly as it had come. "Masturbate. And you'll let me do it too."
Satoru's lips fell open, eyes sparkled in excitement. "I thought the intimacy was only for mates. Are we mates then, question?"
"Let's call it friend with benefits."
His eyes narrowed. "We don't do such things with friends."
You scoffed, pushing your hip to the side and biting the inside of your cheek. "Well, we do, so you can either accept it or not."
And seeing that this time his bratty stubbornness wouldn't work, Satoru nodded.
A few minutes later, you found yourself in the most embarrassed, going-straight-to-the-grave position you could imagine. With elbows supporting your body on the bedroom's mattress, legs spread open, and pussy pressed against the crystal wall. The slippery juices coated the surface, making Satoru breathe much, much harder than before. With fingers wrapped around the biggest, most monstrous cock you've ever seen.
You needed a moment to take in the sight that sprang up in front of your eyes after he took off the rest of the suit. Massive, veiny shaft, with a swelled protrusion at his base, probably used while mating. The blue skin was peppered with similar droplets sprinkled on his cheeks, and shimmered faintly whenever he looked down at your cunt.
Small and fluttering, with your hole squeezing around nothing and clit swelled from excitement.
The penetrative gaze of his made you warm up even more. "Satoru, touch me," slipped like an order.
His long finger brushed the crystal wall and pushed â gently, carefully, till he felt a soft button under his pad and heard a low moan escape your lips.
He dreamed of feeling the gummy structure of your pussy. To roll the clit between his fingers, without any surface protecting his body. To lower himself down and smell, lick, taste the dripping cum that in his mind was sweeter than anything he had ever tried.
And it should be noted that he had quite refined taste buds.
His other hand pumped his massive cock in slow strokes, enjoying the sight spreading in front of him much more than the feeling of his fingers wrapped around the dripping shaft.
"Does it feel good, question?" He asked, hearing another moan fill the small bedroom.
"Y-yeah, ahh, try to make gentle circles," slipped faintly, as you started to roll nipples between your fingers.
His thumb pressed against your clit harder, making your feet curl and legs spread even wider. As if trying to invite his massive cock, that would surely rip you in half.
Maybe the fact that you couldn't touch each other wasn't that bad. Because if he somehow found a way to fuck you with this size, you sure would feel it up in your throat.
And thus you enjoyed the sight spreading in front of your eyes â his beefy thighs bulging whenever you jolted under his thumb, pearly cum dripping down the blue skin, long fingers squeezing the veiny meat as he still oh-so-carefully rubbed your clit.
"It's getting wetter," he noticed, biting the inside of his cheek. "I want to taste you."
His low voice made your body melt under his fingers, forcing your thighs to spread wider and wider, while chasing the pleasure bubbling in your belly. Your hole fluttered around nothing, and a sheer sight of his cock spun your mind in crazy wish to get yourself stretched around it. To feel every vein scratch your tight walls, till the drenched head would kiss your swelling womb.
"Fuck, wait, I have an idea," you backed out, crawling towards your bag.
Crazy, stupid, nasty plan slipped into your head, as you took out a mid-size, creamy dildo. With a sucking pad at the end, and a slightly curved head. It wasn't yours, as you somehow found it among the things⊠oh well, does it really matter? It was clean and had been bathed in antiseptic spray multiple times; thus, using it was not disgusting at all.
But when Satoru saw it, his breath hitched. Eyes slipped down to his cock, and forehead furrowed. "Why is it so small, question?"
You chuckled, sticking it to the crystal wall. "I'm sorry to disappoint you, but that's the average size of a human's dick."
He followed your body as you once again spread your legs open and brushed the silicone cock through your folds a few times. Drenching it all in your juices, and Satoru, since learning the meaning of jealousy, felt something unpleasant bubble in his heart. Because he wished to be the one making your pussy flutter around his head and push it inside, till your sugary walls would clamp around his fat cock.
Your forehead furrowed, eyes glistened from prickling tears as his thumb once again landed on your clit. But this time, the pleasure was twice as intense. With a silicone dick stretching your tight pussy and his finger rubbing you in slow, maddening circles.
"I could make you feel better," he groaned, hearing another pitched moan slip past your lips. "This pathetic thing is now worthy to be inside my sweetheart."
With rising irritation, he pressed your clit harsher. Till a tremble washed over your body and back hit the mattress, as you rolled your cunt to feel the dildo go deeper. But Satoru was right â his cock would indeed make you feel better.
Your hands slipped up to your breasts, pinching the hard buds and chasing the maddening pleasure bubbling in your lower belly.
A deep frown creased Satoru's forehead, and he gently squeezed your clit. "I can't see your face."
"R-right, sorryâahhh," A cry rolled off your tongue as you once again leaned on your elbows. "Satoru, it feels so good, mhmm."
His cock was more flushed than before, with a cherry tip spilling the heavy, thick droplets all over his hand. He pumped it madly, never once taking his eyes off your lovely face. With pleasure twisting your brows and teary eyes fixed upon his.
"S-Satoru, I, fuck, I'm going to cum," the silicone cock kissed your cervix, smooching it wetly with hefty, gluey cum sipping from your hole.
You tried to imagine getting split open on his cock. Being filled by his cum, with creamy saps stuffing your swelling womb and pumping your belly full. Getting manhandled by his muscular arms and wide back, as he would fold you into a mating press and push into the mattress. Till each and every spring would painfully dig into your spine.
So with a final cry, you came.
With a loud cry, spine arching into the sweetest curve, and a sprinkling of sweetness gushing all over his thumb, although it was a true pity that he couldn't feel it. Your body trembled and lips fell open, seeing a furrow cloud his forehead and fingers tightening around his cock.
And then, an idea slipped quietly into your mind.
"Wait a minute, don't cum yet," you muttered, taking a pair of panties lying on your bed. With a single, dirty move, you rubbed them against your drenched folds, gathering all the creamy cum and honeyed sweetness.
Satoru⊠dear heavens.
When a flimsy material landed inside the shelf, quite similar to the one he installed in a tunnel, Satoru's fingers snapped forward and snatched it. He brought it closer to his nose, lips, feeling your precious wetness and the rich flavour burst right onto his tongue, as a low, primal groan escaped his throat.
"Mhmm, s-so, ahh, tastes so sweet," a muffled cry was almost incomprehensible with your panties filling his mouth.
The head of his cock pulsed, massive balls constricted whenever his tongue took another lick of your fresh cum and eyes⊠oh, eyes stayed on you.
On your breasts coated in sheer sweat, thighs still spread open and a little, minx smile twisting your lips. Satoru was sure he could cum only at the sheer sight of your angelic face, and thus, after a few more harsh pumps and muffled cries, he came. Loud and heavy, with creamy ropes shooting all over his glimmering skin and fully emptying everything he has been keeping far too long.
What a waste, you both thought, wishing it landed somewhere far, far sweeter and warmer. Deep inside your womb, preferably.
A moment has passed, with a small bedroom filled with your heavy breaths and shy glances, looking everywhere but at your cum-coated bodies. With a faint cough, you finally closed your thighs and covered yourself with a blanket.
Blooming loveliness crept up your cheeks, and suddenly looking at Satoru required far more courage and calm than it had merely thirty minutes ago.
Before you could ask whether he needed a towel, his low voice spoke first. "Are we mates now, question?"
He said sheepishly, lifting your panties with a finger.
You groaned and fell on a mattress with his chuckle tickling your burning ears.
You didn't want to destroy this moment, even though you knew your mission would end with you dying in space. That he would go back to his planet safely, while you would float and float and float, while eventually dying of hunger.
And so, sharing this sweet moment of intimacy, with warmth spreading beneath your chest, you nodded. "Yes, Satoru. Let's become mates."
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The next few months were filled with nothing but joy.
With movies playing on repeat in the small, cinematic room, Satoru watches each of them with his lips agape. Enjoying the landscapes of Earth, you could project them into a closed space, with a blue sky spreading across the ceiling and tall Scottish plains stretching beneath your feet.
With the golden sand of Thai beaches shimmering in the sun and coconuts falling from the palms, the chirping of birds perched high in the lush trees of the Amazon Forest, and the endless plains of the Sahara Desert.
When you joked that the three pyramids in Giza you were just looking at were believed to have been built by aliens, he only hummed and nodded as if in agreement. A scoff rolled off your tongue, and his head snapped towards you.
"Why are you nodding? Of course they weren't!"
Plush, bluish lips curved in a sly smile. "Is sweetheart sure, question? It looks like something we have on our planet."
An unbelievable shock crossed your face as you stared at him, speechless. "No, you don't!"
"Yes, we do."
"You're fucking with me."
His head tilted. "I thought we can't fuck."
You rolled your eyes, resting your head against his shoulder. Or at least against the crystal surface he was pressed against. "Forget it."
"I can't, my memory is excellent."
And that was indeed true, as Satoru seemed to remember every single thing you said or did over the past few months. The plan you devised to obtain a sample of the planet's atmospheric gas to discover why it was immune to deadly microbes was etched into his mind with meticulous precision.
Truly mesmerising creature he was, especially as he also remembered which buttons to push, to make you cum faster.
What you had also discovered was that Satoru loved to talk about your future.
Particularly during the late nights, when you were curled up under the warm blanket, lying on a mattress in a dimly lit room, with him cuddled up against your side.
He couldn't brush your soft cheek pressed against the wall, but it was fine.
For the look of your lovely face, he watched with warmth blooming in his chest, was enough.
On such nights, when both of you longed for each other's warmth, he enjoyed dreaming. Of you returning with him to his planet, building you a small, private island with oxygen, and fulfilling all your wishes. You teaching the children of his species physics â as you did on Earth â and him continuing to serve as the most valued engineer on his planet.
Of you and him living together in a small seaside cottage, spending days loving each other and lying on the soft beach till darkness would spill over the ocean's horizon â the only his planet had, the one he was ready to fully give into your hands. Having sex all day and night, to which you responded with a sweet, faint giggle, as sleep slowly slipped into your eyes.
"And how would we do it, hm?" you mumbled, pressing against the crystal wall.
A soft furrow haunted your forehead, and he imagined calming it with a gentle roll of his thumb. "The atmosphere of my planet allows us to use a special technique," through the glass wall, he traced the curve of your lips. "It wraps my body in a thin barrier, but I would be able to touch you," soft lips touched to the point where your nose pressed. "And kiss you. And hug you, make love with you, although we wouldn't have children."
You understood why and giggled softly, slowly opening your sleepy eyes to meet the endless, pale blue. "You really want to get even closer, huh?"
It was a joke, and yet a warmth bloomed behind his spectral eyes, forcing your heart to skip a beat. His hand pressed to the part where your chest met the wall, before he leaned his forehead against "yours". "If I could, I would make you live inside me. So nothing in this universe would ever rip us apart."
A faint oh rolled past your lips as you bit on the soft inside of your cheek. "Satoru, I don't know how long your species live, but⊠I don't have as much time as you think."
A sudden panic swelled behind his eyes, and thumb slipped out of the crystal wall to brush your lower lip. "My best friends have been mates for the past hundred and sixty years. How many can you give me, question?"
Something ripped through your heart. Cut it with painful slashes, till a crease on your forehead deepened. "Not a lot, Satoru. Maybe seventy years?"
His thumb paused, an ache spreading across the vast, pale blue plains. "I've lived three hundred years without you," he said, warm lips pressing into the wrinkle between your "brows". "I won't survive another seventy."
But the endless honeymoon couldn't last long.
For there was a reason why both of you found yourselves in space. Why the mission was tagged as suicidal, and why there wasn't enough fuel to get you back to Earth. And while Satoru's dreams indeed sounded tempting, you knew that it simply wouldn't work out.
For you breathed oxygen, and he needed ammonia gas.
Your body stayed cool at thirty-six degrees Celsius, while his was burning up to over two hundred.
He was three hundred years old â you twenty-seven.
But he didn't have to know all of that. Over the past twenty-seven years, no one had made you laugh, enjoy, and love life as much as he did. Even if those brief moments of happiness were only meant to last a few months, they were enough.
After the mission, he could go back safely to his home, and you⊠well.
And you would need to watch him die.
It was truly unpredictable, and none of you could foresee how the situation would turn out. You finally arrived on the planet, prepared to collect the necessary samples of the antidote. You didn't know, however, how dense its atmosphere would be.
How the wind would violently hit your ship, tossing it sharply left and right as you stepped outside in your spacesuit and carried Satoru's sampling device back onto the ship.
He told you to leave it. When you almost fell off the ship, he begged you to come inside. Hit the wall with hands, screamed right into the speaker inside your helmet, pleaded to leave the sample and just come back.
But you simply couldn't do it. Because leaving it here, after Satoru spent decades in space trying to seek the solution, would be simply foolish. Egoistic, and thus, after a few harsh currents, you grabbed the box filled with antidote cells and went back to the ship.
But then, it started spinning. And spinning and spinning, wish wind smacking it in violent currents, and you found it almost impossible to get back onto the normal route. Every single light inside the control room shimmered red. Satoru tried to calm you down, but there was nothing he could truly do from behind the glass wall.
You pushed and flickered every button, every controller, but after one sudden, brutal tug of the ship, your face hit the console.
Eyes filled with red, a nasty crack came from the nose, and the gaze became a bit hazy. You tried to push one last button that would help the ship get away from the planet's strong current, but you were simply too weak. With blood slowly covering your whole face and belts still pinning you to the chair.
Satoru shouted something, but you couldn't hear him clearly. Was it because of the red lamps and an alarm filling the control room? Or maybe because of the sudden sleepiness that blanketed your eyelids?
His fists hit the glass wall, spreading the dull echo around the control room. A soft sweetheart sweetheart sweetheart rolled past his lips, but you simply had no energy to look up. As if you did, the sigh of his trembling, panicked face would rip your heart apart.
His large fists wanted to break through the wall, eyes looked at the blood dripping down your face, body filled with helplessness and desperation, trying everything in his power to get close to you.
With a single finger, you still strained to push that last red button. To get the ship back on track, at least allow Satoru to be safe, and finish the mission that would help save his planet. But your body couldn't handle the gravitational force caused by the spin, which pressed you into the console. The slow crushing of your lungs, mind filling with fogginess, throat crushed beneath the flickering buttons.
So with a soft, almost inaudible I'm sorry, your eyes closed.
A second has passed, a minute, with mind registering the crying alarm and⊠and a shatter of glass.
A sudden pain washed over your body â burning and stinging every nerve. Someone lifted you up, carefully, slowly, trying to wrap you in blankets and clothes, anything to keep you from the lethal touch.
Quiet, you'll live, sweetheart will live, sweetheart, sweetheart, keep your eyes open, amid violent waves of coughing and painful moans, filled the corridors of your spaceship. When your eyes opened a little, you saw nothing but thick steam evaporating from something.Â
Someone.
"Satoru?" slipped out in a whisper as, from beneath the curling steam, a blue, familiar face looked down at you, wet-cheeked. "Satoru, no, y-you'll dieâ"
"Shhh, sweetheart, it's okay, it's okay, sweetheart will live," he repeated like a mantra, hugging your wrapped body closer to his.
Fiery skin burned through the thick layers of blankets, leaving burns all over your bloodstained skin. Your body hit something, and before you noticed, an automated medical care robot soon filled your vision. The mechanical arms pressed the oxygen mask to your face before an IV needle slipped beneath the skin of your arm.
"Satoru," you mumbled weakly, trying to find those familiar, pale eyes.
And he was right there, offering you the most painful, heart-tearing sight. Tears ran down his cheeks, white steam curled tortuously from his body, and gaze slowly grew weaker. He could barely breathe, yet still stood right there.
Over your barely warm body, making sure that you would live.
"I watch youâ"
"No, S-Satoru," barely pushed through your squeezed throat. With crystal tears swirling in your eyes and fingers trying to push him away from the table. "Go back, p-please, orâ"
"No, I watch you sleep." his fingers grabbed the hem of your shirt. "You won't die".
You were too weak to fight him. In too much pain, with your head pounding, skin burning from his touch and anaesthesia slowly kicking in.
And so, with a last look into the eyes your heart laughed for, you fell asleep.
There was no way to tell how much time had passed. How long you stayed under the mechanical clutches of the medical robot.
How long Satoru needed to suffer, to make sure you would be alive.
But when you finally woke up and ripped yourself away from the needles, he wasn't there.
He wasn't in your sight, but something else, something burned, marked the floor. Dark traces of blue dust led further inside the spaceship. Still weak, with the last traces of blood dried on your cheek, you followed them, your heart pounding. And a little grain of foolish hope bloomed inside your heart, fresh tears already swirling in the corners of eyes.
The ship was back on a normal route, carrying you through the galaxy at a slow, peaceful pace. Thanks to Satoru.
The blue dust led you through the control room, down into the basement, kitchen, bathroom, and finally to the bedroom, as if he tried to, for the last time, see every part of the ship. Just to make sure everything was working. That after waking up, you wouldn't have to bother yourself with anything.
And so another wave of crushing sob bubbled in your throat. A pain ripping you open as you entered your shared bedroom and saw him there â curled on the mattress, the upper part of his body already slipped inside his crystal corridor. As if he didn't have the strength to crawl in fully. Too busy watching you sleep.
"Oh, Satoru," a cry finally escaped your throat, as your knees bent beside his body. "You fool, so stupid, you'reâoh!" A hysterical lament filled the small bedroom as you touched his cold body. "Satoru, how c-could you leave me alone?"
Face, always beaming with so much warmth and joy, lay in dead silence. With your loving, blue eyes closed behind the curtain of white lashes and lips more pale than usual.
Gathering every last ounce of strength still boiling in your body, you brought his ball back. In such a tight, ammonia-filled space, the chance of his recovery was much higher.
Opening it was almost impossible, so you cut a hole big enough to, with pain ripping through your muscles and sweat dripping down your spine, somehow push him inside. And then you glued the walls tight, with a prayer dripping off your lips, and your body cuddled into his crystal ball.
"I'll watch you sleep," you whispered, brushing the surface with his pressed cheek. "You won't die."
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The sun spilling through the curtain tickled your cheeks. The chirping of birds made you sigh deeply, and the gentle sea breeze coated your skin with soft kisses. The shoulder, the soft line of the spine, the slightly sweating neck, with a salty fragrance slipping sweetly into your nostrils.
You tried to stretch, waking up your stiff body from a deep slumber, but something locked you in place.
Something heavy and long, curling around your waist and pulling you closer to another stony wall.
Or, maybe you should say, stony chest.
Looking over your shoulder, you've met with a cheeky smile curling your husband's lips and still-sleepy, pale eyes. He pulled you closer, until your head found itself under his chin and your legs entangled with his.
"Good morning," you giggled, turning in his arms. "Did you sleep well?"
Satoru hummed, pressing a soft kiss to your forehead. The thin barrier wrapping his body glimmered under the spilling sunlight. After years on his planet, you no longer needed a translator to understand his language. And so you kissed his blue neck, tracing the kisses up, and up, along his jaw and chin, until finally locking your lips with his.
"Apologies, I didn't watch you sleep."
You chuckled, biting gently on his lower lip. "Were you that tired after last night?"
"Mmm," a soft, satisfied hum escaped his throat when you felt something hard poking your belly. "Forgive your husband, he didn't realise he had a tigress and no wife at home."
You chuckled sweetly, forcing his lips to curl in a sly smile.
"Does my wife need anything? Do you want Suguru to lower the temperature?"
Tracing the sharpness of his jaw, up to the curve of his lips, your head shook. "No, it's warm enough. Maybe you can ask him to lower the birds' chirping a bit. I think they're a bit louder than yesterday."
He nodded, pulling you even closer. Till your bodies tangled in one, and a slow, peaceful pounding of his heart beat against your breasts. "Mhm, sure. But let's sleep a bit longer, and then you can jump on me as much as you want, hm?"
So with the last, soft kiss between your brows and heart swelling from feeling the heaviness of your body on his, Satoru allowed you to cuddle into his muscular chest and watch him slowly slip into a deep slumber.
ê° summary ê± when a misunderstanding leaves your family convinced youâre bringing a plus one to your cousinâs wedding in Japan, the last person you expect to volunteer for the role is your infuriatingly observant intern, Satoru. itâs supposed to be temporary. professional. strictly off the record. but with your mother already sold on the idea of your mystery boyfriend, and Satoru proving far too good at the role, pretending starts to feel a little too dangerous. also, why is your âinternâ secretly the heir to gojo corporation?!
ê° tags/warnings ê± fake dating âčïž undercover ceo! satoru âčïž accountant! reader âčïž satoru is 29, reader is 26 âčïž lots of family pressure. reader has a complicated relationship with her mom âčïž forced proximity âčïž one bed trope âčïž slow burn âčïž mutual pining âčïž wedding chaos âčïž angst and fluff âčïž some suggestive content but no explicit smut âčïž
ê° authors note ê± hi cuties! this is a commission piece, and it is about 12k total. this first part is just shy of 6k and the second part will be out next week. i hope you enjoy đ«¶đ» (art by @/hanamin_0123 on x)
"Oi. Boss lady."
âNo.â
One problem at a time, and the spreadsheet in front of you wins by default. Because Column F is wrong. Itâs been wrong for forty fucking minutes, and if it stays wrong for forty seconds longer, you may actually die here at your desk â hunched over, half-blind, and found by Shoko on a Monday morning with your face pressed into a pivot table like a cautionary tale.
"But⊠you don't even know what I was gonnaâ"
"âthe answer is no, Satoru."
Unlike the human embodiment of a headache currently lingering on the other side of your desk, the spreadsheet in front of you is at least pretending to be important.
The chair beneath him creaks, and then comes the silence you know too well. Itâs the one that comes right before he decides to be a problem on purpose. Attention is gasoline and Satoru is, structurally, a fire hazard. Still, your eyes flick up, andâ
"No fairâŠâ he huffs, that ridiculous pout tugging at his lips. âYou didn't even let me finish the question."
Your eyes roll back down.
âMhm.â
"And it was such a good question.â
You turn a page. "Really?â
âYup.â Heâs draped over the corner of your desk now, like gravity has wronged him, whining. âIt was such a thoughtful⊠personal⊠deeply relevant⊠extremely genius level getting-to-know-you tier question thatââ
You scowl. "âSatoru, enough. Just do your job."
It lands harder than expected. The sigh he lets out is deeply, theatrically offended. And when you glance up again, heâs sprawled over that same corner of your desk you made the mistake of clearing for him on day one because youâd thought, foolishly, that giving him a designated surface might contain him.
It had not.
Nothing about Satoru had ever suggested he could be contained.
Snowy white hair falls against his brow, sleeves rolled to his elbows; looking far too expensive and far too comfortable for someone whose official title is intern. His coffee is sweating beside your open planner â the one with a date next week circled in red: WEDDING, scrawled across the margin in your own handwriting. The condensation trails towards a stack of vendor invoices andâ
âŠ
Wait.
Are those the same vendor invoices you asked him to file yesterday?
Fucking great.
âOh, câmonnn,â he grumbles, blinking at you over the rim of those absurdly expensive sunglasses he insists on wearing indoors. âOne question. Just a tiiiiny one. Itâs completely harmless. Humor me, yeah?â
You narrow your eyes.
âSatoru, youâve been trying to ask one question for the last four months.â
âYeah,â he says. âAnd youâve been dodging it for four months. Imagine that.â
Technically⊠four months and four days. But whoâs counting?
With an exhausted groan, your eyes fall shut, pinching the bridge of your nose. Noise drifts in from the hall â the elevator, the printer, a phone trilling somewhere nearby. Â But when you look up again, it all seems to fall away.
Heâs gone strangely still. The smug grin hasnât disappeared, but itâs softened at the edges, hooked at one corner with his head tilted slightly. And those eyesâŠ
Oh.
Thatâs â no. Youâve seen his eyes before. Obviously. Four months of them. But right now, with the morning light doing something cruel and unhelpful behind him, they catch in a way that makes you forget you were mid-thought. The kind of blue that doesnât ask if youâre looking. It already knows.
Which means of course, you look away first. âFine.â Your hand drops as you mutter. âOne question. But if itâs stupid, Iâm sending you back to HR.â
Itâs not much of a threat. Itâs his last day, after all, and for reasons you still donât fully understand, Satoru has always seemed oddly immune to consequences â which, frankly, feels statistically improbable given the amount of shit heâs managed to pull in the few months of being here.
âOne question?â his grin sharpens. You point your pen at him. âDonât make me regret this.â Yet his pleased chuckle is already making you. âAwhh⊠look at you. Finally yielding.â His pen twirls between his fingers, nodding with false solemnity. âOkay. So, hereâs the thing⊠throughout these four months working beside you, Iâve seen a lotâ"
ââthatâs not a question.â You deadpan.
But ignoring you, he reclines back in the chair, hands clasped behind his head.
âLiiiike⊠Iâve seen the exact face you make when Mei-Mei emails you,â he smirks. âEven noticed you work through lunch more than you should. And Iâve noticed that little line right hereââ he gestures vaguely between his own brows ââevery time the budget goes sideways.â
Lips parting, you blink.
âŠwhy is he so observant?!
For someone who acts like he doesnât give a shit, heâs strangely attentive.
You clear your throat, huffing. âOkay⊠whatâs your point?â Your hands straighten a stack of papers that doesnât need straightening. âIs there a question in here somewhere, or are you just reciting my habits back to me for fun?â
His grin is far too pleased. âRelax. Iâm getting there.â And leaning forward, his voice drops, like heâs unraveling a conspiracy. âI just find it interesting how you answer work calls before the second ring. Every damn day. Doesnât matter who it is.â His head tilts with a smug grin. âBut for whatever reason, for the past month, your personal phoneâs been ringing off the hook, and you never pick up. Not once.â
Heat creeps up your neck. Not because heâs wrong â but because heâs right. And he said it like it was nothing. Like noticing the pattern of your avoidance was just something that happened to him between stamps.
Oh.
Way too observant.
Shit. He couldn't have settled on what's your favorite color!? Or, what superpower would you have!? No. Of course he had to go for the fucking jugular.
Okay. Nevermind. Heâs wrong. That is not even remotely whatâs happening. The most committed relationship youâve had is the one with your coffee machine. And yet⊠part of it feels almost cosmically cruel.
Because somehow, this is the second time in a month that someone had looked at the scattered pieces of your life and decided a man must be hiding inside them. Except the first time, you never even got the chance to correct it.
After all⊠how do you tell your mother sheâs wrong?
Last month, you still answered her phone calls.
Not because you expected anything different. But because somewhere between the second ring and the third, thereâs this gap â this stupid, paper-thin gap â where you still believe she might ask how youâre doing and actually wait for the answer.
Some habits taste like smoke. Some burn like liquor. But yours, unfortunately, had always looked a lot like hope.
Hope is a terrible habit youâve never been able to kick.
âOhâuh, hi mom!â
Your phone was wedged between your ear and shoulder while you stepped out of your car, juggling your purse and what was left of your sanity. You were already behind schedule, and your mother was calling â which meant the day had already made its intentions very clear.
âWhatâs up?â the door slammed shut with your hip. âIâm actually about toââ
ââTrish sent the venue photos,â she blurted, launching into a conversation like always.
Blinking, you shook the bitterness away. Striding toward the towering glass of Gojo Corporation. âThatâsâyeah, thatâs great,â you muttered, badge in hand as you pushed through the front doors. âBut Iâm actually heading into work right now? Soââ
ââItâs such a beautiful venue,â she ignored you. âVery traditional, very grand. But you know the Zenin familyâthey never do anything small.â And as she sighed in awe, you resisted the urge to roll your eyes.
The rational part of your brain told you to let this go to voicemail. But the rational part of your brain has never once won this fight. BecauseâŠ
Hope is a terrible habit youâve never been able to kick.
"Mom, I'm sure it's lovely, really⊠but I'm kind ofâum, excuse meâŠ" you pivoted around a man in the bustling lobby with a sigh. âSorry. Iâm literally walking into the building right now? But maybe we can revisit this later andâ"
"âhave you booked your flight yet?"
Your mouth flattened.
Clearly, your half of this conversation is optional.
âNo⊠not yet,â you mumbled, as patiently as you could manage, jabbing the up button harder than necessary. âItâs been a crazy ass week so I havenât had a chance to, butââ
ââevery week is a crazy week for you.â The huff she let out sounded almost offended by the inconvenience of your life. âWhy canât you just book it now while weâre talking? I mean, it literally takes five minutes.â
A miracle, really, that your blood pressure isnât a medical emergency.
Every week is a crazy week?
Yeah. No shit.
Two managers resigned last quarter. Another got escorted out by security. And their work didnât disappear. No. It landed on your desk. Because thatâs how it goes. Thatâs how itâs always gone. Group projects. Internships. End-of-quarter disasters no one else wanted to touch. If something needed fixing, it found its way to you.
Youâre the one people relied on.
Just⊠never the one people chose.
âMother. Iâm at work,â you said, stepping into the elevator as the doors slid open, dropping your voice as you stabbed at floor fifteen. âLookâIâm about to walk into an eight a.m. meeting. But Iâll book it tonight, promise.â
ââŠeight a.m.?â she repeated slowly, before letting out a small, unbothered laugh. âOh! Right. Itâs eight p.m. here. Silly me. I keep forgetting.â
âŠ
Keep forgetting?
She keeps forgetting that sheâs ten thousand miles away? Forgetting that twenty years ago she abandoned you in another country to live abroad in Japanâhanding you to your grandparents like a detail she'd get back to later?
How convenient that she forgot that.
The elevator slid shut, and you watched the numbers tick upward. âUm. YeahâŠâ you managed, trying to keep the hurt out of your voice. âAnyways. Iâll book it tonight. After work. Okay?â
"Okay, okay. Sure. Sounds good. But are you bringing anyone?â
Squeezing the strap of your bag, you swallowed the lump in your throat. This again? The last thing you needed was to walk into your shitty eight a.m. meeting looking emotional.
No thanks.
âI⊠uhâŠâ you cleared your throat. âI umâactuallyâhavenât decided yet. But anyways, I gotta go, soââ
âWaitwatiwait. Havenât decided? Does that mean⊠you actually found someone?!â
Her voice pitched up so fast it almost startled you, and your mouth dropped so low it couldâve hit floor one.
Shit.
âI-IâI didnât sayâ"
ââoh, thank God. This is incredible!!â she squealed. âWeâve been so worried. I meanâTrish is younger than you and she figured it out,â her tongue clicked. âPeople have been asking questions, you know. Your aunt Sara keeps bringing it up every time I see her andââ
ââMom, Iâ"
ââItâs about time,â The laugh she let out was relieved, like a problem in her life had finally begun resolving itself. âYou canât keep putting love on hold forever, because men arenât going to wait around forever. Youâre already twenty-sixânot getting any younger, dear.â
Love?!
Who has time for that?
And why the fuck is twenty-six the age a woman expires?!
âWhatâs his name?â she pressed, practically beaming through the phone. âWhat does he do? Is he from there, orâoh, is he Japanese? Your father would love that, he always saidââ
And she was off.
Spinning an entire man out of thin air. An entire future, really. Building him in real time from a tiny slip up you had because you were too tired and cornered and desperate enough to answer the phone in the first place. And you stood there, letting her. Because interrupting her has never once worked in the history of your life.
ââactually, never mind,â she chirped a moment later, as if she was being considerate now. âYou have work. Iâll call tomorrow and you can tell me everything, yes? Okay, bye-bye honeyââ
Click!
And just like that, the elevator went quiet. You were left staring at your reflection in the metal doors, phone pressed to your ear, listening to the silence where your motherâs voice had been.
âWeâve been so worried.â
âŠ
If they were so worried⊠why had you spent most of your life learning to take care of yourself? And yet, the second there might be a man, suddenly youâre worth getting excited about?
Funny how that works.
Scoffing, you lowered the phone, shoving it into your bag just as the elevator chimed open. Itadori Yujiâs head snapped up behind the reception desk.
âMorning, boss,â he waved, radiating sunshine as you walked towards the conference room. âKentoâs asking if youâre still good for the budget review at eight⊠or if I should just tell him to panic.â
Your smile softened, burying the sting. âYes⊠Iâll be right there.â And as you stepped through the polished glass doors, you played the role youâd always played.
The reliable one. Twenty-six years old, with two masterâs degrees, a career at one of the most competitive corporations in the world, and a team of seven that would quietly fall apart without you.
ButâŠ
None of that glitters quite like a diamond ring, does it?
âOi,â Satoru frowns. âYouâre makinâ that face again.â
âHuh?â
Blinking out of your spiral, your eyes trace back to the man across from you. His chin is resting in his palm, those impossibly blue eyes fixed on you with a quiet stillness that makes something in your chest trip over itself â like a lock turning in a door you didnât know was closed.
âOh.â You clear your throat, forcing the pen back into motion. ââŠwhat face?â
âThe one you make when somethingâs wrong,â he says quietly, gaze unmoving. âWhen youâre upset and trying to act like youâre not.â
For a second â one terrible, unguarded second â you donât have a single thing to hide behind. Itâs just him, looking at you like your well-being is something heâs been keeping track of in a column you didnât even know existed.
But then the sarcasm kicks in, right on time. "Wow," you say, forcing your hands back to the papers in front of you. "So⊠now you read faces?"
âMm... nah. Just yours, sweetheart.â
And that grin â god, that fucking grin â hooks at one corner like he knows exactly what just detonated inside your chest. You donât acknowledge it. Acknowledging things have consequences, and consequences with this man are not something you can afford.
"âŠthatâs highly inappropriate," you mutter, shoving it down. "Letâs maybe redirect some of that insight toward the invoices, yeah?"
âSorry, sorry.â He leans back, hands up like heâs the picture of innocence. âWouldnât wanna start shit with your dear future husband.â His grin goes sharp as he twirls his sunglasses between two fingers. âThough, wow. Tough look for him. Whatever he did, he clearly fucked up bad.â
Why does he sound⊠bitter?
No. You must be imagining it. This is Satoru. Satoru, who treats everything like a joke until proven otherwise. Satoru, who doesnât care enough about anything to sound bitter over a man who may or may not exist.
You scoff. "Youâre making some wildly stupid assumptions right nowâŠ"
He stares at you for a beat, then he flops back in the chair with a dramatic huff, long legs kicking out in front of him, mouth dragging into a sulky pout.
âWell, damn,â he grumbles, pushing his sunglasses up into his hair, rolling his eyes. âNo wonder youâre single if this is how you shut people downâŠâ
The second the words leave his mouth, he blinks. His gaze flicks up to yours like he hears it too late â like he realizes, all at once, how shitty that sounded.And it only feels worse the moment he sees your face.
God.
Of all the places to hit.
âOho⊠wow. Okay. This?â you say with a thin, self-deprecating laugh, chair scraping as you shove back from your seat. âYeah. This is exactly why I shouldnât have let you ask, Satoru.â You reach for your planner, your purse, anything to do with your hands besides let them shake.
He straightens, watching you scramble. âWhoa. Wait. Iâ"
ââbecause you donât know when to stop!â The words come out louder than you mean, blinking at the sting behind your eyes. âYou just keep pushing and pushing and pushing until you get what you want. Well good. I hope youâre happy.â
Before you can turn away, heâs on his feet. âWaitââ And the moment his hand catches yours, you freeze, breath snagging.
His voice is quieter now. His grip is firm yet gentle, and the air between you shifts, while something warm and uneasy twists low in your chest. The kind of feeling that makes you want to lean in and run in the same breath.
Though your eyes stay down. âSatoru⊠let go.â
âI didnâtâŠâ he starts, then stops, gaze flicking to where his fingers still circle your wrist â before climbing back to your face, slower this time. âIâm⊠sorry. I justââ His mouth tightens. âI see how hard you work, okay? I see it. And every time that phone rings, you get this look on your face like itâs already ruined your day before you even touch it. AndâŠâ His brows pinch. âFuck. I dunno why, but it pisses me off!â
Your gaze hesitantly drags to his, and the look in his eyes is softer than they have any right to be â all that blue, stripped of its usual sharpness, turned careful. Like heâs stepping toward something breakable and knows it. Like⊠if he asked once more, something in you might actually give.
âSatoruâŠâ your breath hitches. âI-Iâ"
âOh, finally.â
Shokoâs voice trails in, and your head snaps up so fast your neck almost goes with it. Sheâs leaning against the doorframe, arms crossed, coffee in hand â looking like a woman who arrived exactly on time for something she's been expecting all week.
Her gaze flicks down to where heâs holding you, and the corner of her mouth twitches.
"Sooo⊠not to interrupt whatever this is," she says, taking a sip, "but Kento's one eye-twitch away from a medical event. He needs you to sign off on the variance line before he starts reconciling his own will andâ"
You're already jerking your hand back. "Yupâcoming!" And as you step away, heat floods your face, but you don't look back. Not once. Not even when you feel him still standing there, watching you go.
Because looking back would mean acknowledging that something just shifted. And you are not â not â doing that today.
Unlike those invoices, perhaps some things are better left⊠unfinished.
Youâre gone in a blur of heels, nerves, and professional self-preservation, leaving Shoko trailing behind and Satoru staring at the empty doorway like maybe the conversation might wander back through it.
It doesnât.
And itâs not long before his mouth is pulling into a slow, petulant poutâjust before he flops back in the chair with all the elegance of a man personally betrayed by the universe.
Un-fucking-believable.
Heâd almost had you! After four months and four days of being stonewalled, redirected, and professionally shut down, youâd finally looked like you might give him something. A crack. A sliver. And then Kento had to ruin it with his stupid reconciliation sheet, his stupid earnest face, and his stupidly impeccable timing.
âŠ
He could fire Kento.
Should he fire Kento?
As tempting as that thought is, Satoru settles for glaring at the empty doorway a second longer before dragging a hand down his face and raking it back through his hair. Thereâs no point. This performance will end soon. Because by this time tomorrow, heâll be on a flight back to Tokyo. Where he can resume the slow, agonizing process of preparing to inherit a company he didn't actually give a shit about.
'Grow up, Satoru.'
'Apply yourself, Satoru.'
'You have no idea what it takes to run something like this, Satoru.'
Right. Because apparently, the heir to a multinational corporation needed to learn humility. Alphabetize files. Sit in a cubicle. Fetch coffee like some goddamn spreadsheet slut with a trust fund and nowhere to put it.
Four years of business school, two years shadowing his father; and yet, this is what they had for him?!
He scoffs. And when his gaze drops to the wreckage of your desk, heâs pulling the stack of vendor invoices toward him with a sigh that sounds put-upon even to his own ears. Youâve been nagging him about filing them for the better part of the week and⊠the least he can do is clear one thing before he goes.
The stamp thuds against the first page. Then the next. Then the next. And with muscle memory taking over, his face goes blank in the way it always does when boredom finally wins. Itâs mindless shit. Still, heâs used to it. So naturally, when the phone on your desk buzzes, he doesnât think twice; snatching it up, tucking it between his ear and shoulder as he reaches for the next invoice.
Itâs probably another budget nuisance. Or Mei. Or one of the other thousand little crises that seem magnetically drawn to your extension.
âYo,â another stamp echoes. âSatoru speaking.â
Thereâs a sharp inhale. ââŠwho?â
His brow lifts. âUh⊠Satoru?â Another thud of ink slams against the paper and he huffs, annoyed. âWhat do yâneed?â
The line goes quiet for a beat too long. Before the woman on the other end finally murmurs, âSatoruâŠâ Sighing in awe. âWhat a lovely name. Is that Japanese?â
"Uh⊠yeah?â he snorts, flipping to the next page. âI mean. Last I checked.â
âMm⊠I thought so!â She giggles. And her voice pitches like she's just unwrapped a present she didn't know she was getting. âSo⊠Satoru. Why exactly are you the one answering her phone, hm?â
âŠ
Why the hell does this woman sound so invested? And why is she asking questions that should be obvious?
Frowning down at the invoice, he stamps it harder.
âBecause it rang?â He says it like itâs obvious. âAnd uhâsorry, but. Maybe because Iâve been with her for months, so⊠why the hell wouldnât I?â
"Months?!â A soft gasp crackles, far too delighted. âYou'veâyou've been with her for months?!"
"Mmm⊠four months and four days, technically."
Heâs been her intern for that long.
Thatâs the question, right?
"âtechnically?!" she squeals, like the word personally seduced her. "Ohmygoodnessâoh, this is perfect. Four months and four daysâthat is so specific.â
He blinks. But she doesnât give him time to process.
âLook at you Mr. Devoted. Keeping track. I was starting to worry sheâd never find someone like you. Every time I asked it's like pulling teeth. But I knew there had to be someone. I told her fatherâI said, there is a man, I can feel it.â
Pausing mid-stamp, the words slowly begin to catch up. Satoru straightens.
"âŠsorry. Who is thiâ"
ââeveryone is so excited to meet you at Trishâs wedding. I already reserved your seat andâ"
Her voice keeps going⊠and going⊠and going. He pulls the phone away slowly as her voice echoes on the receiver, staring down at the phone in hand to see:
đ Mom
Oh.
Oh, shit.
This is not your work phone. Your work phone is currently sitting at its dock twelve inches to his left. And it dawns on him that he accidentally just spent the last sixty seconds answering your personal phone like an absolute jackass andâ
"UhâŠâ he backpedals. âWait. Iâ"
"I told Sara, I said, we have to meet him andââ
"Stop. I-I really thinkâ"
ââSatoru, what are you doing?â
His head snaps up at the sound of your voice, mouth dropping as he sees you standing at the doorway, eyes wide in horror.
Oh, fuck.
âWho is on the other end of that phone,â you hiss.
He winces, pulling the phone from his ear like itâs toxic â and youâre snatching it right out of his hand. He lets you have it without a fight, sinking back into the chair like heâs trying to physically dissociate from the situation heâs just created while you press the phone to your ear.
âAnd I meanâŠâ she rambles. âI certainly was never one to wait around at twenty-six, believe me. Butâ"
"Mom."
"Oh! Honey!â She gasps. âOh, my goodness, hiâI was just having the loveliest chat withâ"
"I'm at work. Gotta go."
"âokay! I can't wait to meet Satoru, heâ"
Click!
The phone sits in your hand like evidence.
And Satoru â to his credit â has the decency to look like a man standing in the blast radius of his own stupidity. His mouth opens. Closes. Opens again. Like heâs rehearsing an apology in a language he hasnât learned yet.
You stare at him.
He stares at you.
And somewhere ten thousand miles away, your mother is already calling your aunt Sara.
âSooo⊠funny storyâŠâ
ââwhat did you do?!â
Satoru flinched, and now, the tears were already rolling down your cheeks â hot, fast, completely unauthorized. Not the kind you could disguise as allergies or blame on the air conditioning. No. The ugly kind.
Great. Fucking great.
You were standing in the middle of your own office, in the building where you work, crying in front of your intern. And Satoru felt the weight of it all at once. In the last four months, he had seen you in every flavor of workplace misery there was. Pissed off, stressed out, one spreadsheet away from actual murder.
But cry?
Never.
And this had his fingerprints all over it.
"Shit," he breathed, panic flashing across his face. "Iâfuck. Okay. Please don'tâI can fix this. I canâ"
"Fix this?" A splintered laugh ripped out of you, and you hated how thin it was. "Fix what, Satoru? You just confirmed a boyfriend to my mother, a boyfriend that doesn't existâand she is, at this very moment, probably alreadyâ"
Another break in your voice cracked, and you squeezed your eyes shut, pressing your hand to your forehead hard like you could hold the tears in by sheer force. But it only made it worse, because now you could feel the wetness on your own face, the heat of it under your palm, and the mortification landed like a second wave.
God. How fucking humiliating.
"Hey, heyâit's okay,â his voice softened. âWe'll just⊠call her back. Right? Tell her it was a misunderstanding. Easy."
âEasy?â you scoffed, the word coming out strangled. âY-You donât understand my mother, Satoru,â you managed, voice gone thin as thread. God, you sounded like a child. âIf she thinks something is true, then itâs true. Thatâs it. Thatâsâthereâs no correcting her, thereâs no walking it back, sheâs already told my aunt Sara by now and Saraâs told Trish andâoh, fuckââ
Another sob tumbled out, and your fingers dug harder into your temple.
God. Stop it.
Stop it stop it stop it.
Think.
Think logically. You're good at this. You solve problems for a living.
But every time you tried to grab onto a thought, it slipped â replaced by the echo of your mother's voice, high and delighted. The happiest she'd sounded talking to you in years. Maybe ever.
âŠwhat look will she give you when you show up alone?
"I canât," you whispered, and the word came out waterlogged. "I-I'm supposed to get on a plane to Japan in a week andâdo what? Tell them there's no one? Tell them I'm stillâ"
Single.
The word sat in your mouth like a stone. You didnât realize youâd gone silent until the silence itself started ringing â your sniffling, the hum of fluorescent lights, the muffled life of the office continuing beyond the door like yours wasnât actively coming apart at the seams.
And through all of it, you could feel Satoru looking at you. His stillness; holding you with an expression you'd never seen on him before and couldn't categorize if you tried.
"UmâŠâ he looked down, scratching the back of his neck. âSoooo... the wedding's in Japan?"
You blinked. âWhat?â And as you wiped your face with the back of your hand, his gazed tentatively flicked back up. âThe weddingâŠâ he repeated, voice careful. âItâs in Japan?â
"Yes." Your brow furrowed, not understanding. "Why?"
He didn't answer right away. Just looked down at the floor for a second, jaw shifting, like he was turning something over in his head â something he hadn't fully assembled yet but could already feel the shape of.
"Huh⊠okay."
Okay what?
You watched his expression change in real time â from guilt to calculation to something else. "Right then!" He said, clapping his hands once, bright and sudden. "No biggie. I'll just go with you."
No biggie?
Your mouth dropped.
That wasnât even an option, was it?
âŠis he crazy?
âYouâre kidding,â your laugh was awkward and breathless. His eyes rolled with a smug grin. âSweetheart, câmon,â and he was gesturing between the two of you like the answer was sitting there in plain sight and you were the only person in the room committed to not seeing it. "Your family thinks you're bringing someone? Cool." A hand pressed to his chest with theatrical solemnity. "I'm someone."
You stared at him. Genuinely stared.
Oh. He wasnât kidding.
Yup. Heâs crazy.
"You are not 'someone,' Satoru. You are my intern."
âYeah. For like⊠another six hours?"
He checked his watch with a shrug, and your lips flattened.
"âŠthat is not the point."
âMm⊠feels a little like the point."
He smirked, but it faded faster than usual, dimming at the edges as his blue eyes hesitated on yours. Something shifted in his posture; the performance pulling back, like a tide going out. "Um⊠lookâŠ" He pushed off the desk, stepping closer. "Itâs really no hassle." He said, hands sliding into his pockets. "I already have a flight scheduled. My family's in Tokyo. And I was going back after this internship anyway, so⊠this just moves my timeline back a little."
He was shrugging like it wasnât a big deal. Like he wasnât agreeing to fly across the world with you and walk straight into the disaster that was your family.
âŠ
His familyâs in Japan too?
You barely knew anything about him. He kept his life sealed off with the same practiced deflection you kept yours â jokes in place of answers, charm in place of honesty. You never bothered to ask, because asking meant caring and that was a door you never intended to walk through with anyone.
ButâŠ
"Just⊠let me come with you. Iâll be your boyfriend for the weekend. For the wedding. For⊠whatever you need,â he said. And this time, when he stepped closer, there was no grin to hide behind. "I can be useful. I caused this. So⊠let me fix it."
Heat creeped up your neck, and you scoffed, weakly.
"Okay⊠but you can't fix my mother."
"NoâŠâ he murmured, tilting his head. His hand came up and brushed a tear trailing down your cheek with a careful gentleness. âBut⊠I can make sure you don't have to walk in there alone?"
Your breath hitched, and when your eyes finally lifted, the morning light was being cruel again â catching in that impossible blue and turning it soft. Like stained glass dipped in sunlight. Like something holy made dangerous by the simple fact that it was looking straight at you.
âShut up,â you mutter, looking away too fast to be convincing.âThat was not a look. I was justââ You grimace. ââŠnever mind.â
Heâs chuckling as you brush past him. And his words are what scared you the most. Which was bad. Very, very bad. Because your mother was one problem. Japan was another. But Satoru looking at you like that?
ShitâŠ
That felt like the kind of complication that didnât stay neatly contained. And you knew better than anyone. Nothing about Satoru had ever suggested he could be contained.
a/n: hehe. this has been fun to work on! i am excited to share the next part. clearly i love these fake dating/fake marriage tropes aha đââïž bc this is like... whatâmy third time doing it? soooo i tried to change things up and make it feel less standard/generic :) but anyways, like i said pt 2 will be out in a week, pls lmk if you wanna be tagged đ
summary: You had always heard a weird, mocking voice in the back of your head telling you that the things were going to end just like that between you and Satoru. The Prince and the Pauper. You were destined to eventually drift apart.
Or not?
tags: AU, angst to fluff, breaking and making up, classical disparities, insecurities, gojo is a certified loverboy and a yearner as usual. mdni! eventual smut, p in v sex, soft emotional sex. nobamaki cameo!
MINORS AND AGELESS BLOGS DO NOT INTERACT! PLEASE HAVE YOUR AGE IN YOUR BLOG!
word count: 13.9k
author's note: hi everyone!! this is not the oneshot i wanted to finish in may, but i had some ideas brewing for quite a long time, though the concept is not really original. happy ending won, soooo enjoy and let me know your thoughts! art in the banner by @/yamada_souko. dividers are mine.
Looking back, you realised you had never got it easy for Satoru.
The tale as old as time: the Princess and the Pauper. Or, in your case, the Prince and the Pauper.
And you couldn't put it in a better way.
Satoru Gojo â the Prince of the campus, the heir to the Gojo Enterprises, the man who would get the business world in the palm of his hand, the captain of the university basketball team, whose face was plastered all across the campus, the president of the Alpha Delta Nu, so on and so forth. You got the gist. The crowd parted before him, the Universe shifted itself to accommodate his presence: he walked in every room as if he owned it, which he pretty much did â ruling every place with a charming grin and a quick wit. Guys were wishing to be like him. Girls were dying to be beside him. He barely granted anyone more attention than needed â keeping people at arm's length, except for a couple of his friends. Of course, you didn't belong to them. Not like you desperately wanted to. You were well aware of the hierarchy of the university: people like Satoru Gojo rested at the top, eyeing the crowd down. People like you? Scrambling to get to the middle. If you were lucky enough.
One spring day, you realised that either Satoru Gojo didn't know about those unspoken rules or couldn't care less about them. Because you couldn't come up with a plausible explanation for why he suddenly started pestering you. Or, in his eyes, flirting.
It began rather innocent: him accidentally bumping into you, flashing an apologetic grin; asking for a vacant place at the cafetery at your usual table in the corner, the one where the noise cut down a little and you had a better view on the students â naturally, that place become the center of everyone's attention, because wherever Gojo was, the crowd followed; helping you to get a book from the highest shelves in the library and then crushing your study sessions; waiting for you after the classes just to walk you out to the next campus with an excuse that it was on his way (it didn't. Business majors classes were hold in the corpus 20 minutes away from yours).
At first, you politely declined every single invitation to a frat party or a match. Then you tried to ignore him, but your disinterest would even more pique Gojo's attention. After this, it turned into clipped, gritted-out "no's". You even attempted to talk to his friend, Shoko Ieiri, the girl you shared the Advanced Chemistry class with.
"I don't think there's something I can do," she would murmur, eyes firmly set on some sample through the microscope, when you turned to her as a last resort. The sigh that left your lips was truly desperate. Shoko's gaze softened a tad as she looked up finally, since your presence kept looming over her like a tiny, grumpy cloud. "Satoru can be pretty stubborn, unfortunately. Especially, when he's pretty set on something."
"Yeah," scoffing under your breath, you crossed your arms, trying to ignore the sinking feeling in your chest. "Unfortunately for me. Am I another check mark on his to-do list? I just don't get it." The pencil in your hand almost snapped from the strength of your grip.
"Listen, I am not in a position to advice your something or anything," Shoko's lab chair screeched â the sound annoyingly loud in the tense silence of the lab â as she turned to face you fully. The irritation at her words flared up in you, but you forced yourself to listen to her. If not her, then who?! "But you might try to hear him out. He's not that bad of a guy."
Grimacing at her, you turned to return to your own table. "If he's not that bad, he would've taken a hint long ago."
An indifferent shrug was the only response you got.
After talking to Shoko, Gojo's pitiable attempts at "courting" you had weakened severely until coming to a complete halt. You couldn't believe your luck. But what annoyed you even more than Gojo himself was the way you would jump at seeing the familiar spark of frosty white hair in the crowd; the way your heart would do a little flip at the sound of his distant chuckles. The way the loneliness would engulf your usual table in the corner of the cafeteria without his company: you subconsciously craned your neck to see him, for all his persona and the impossible height were impossible to miss, and slumped in your seat, when he didn't happen to stroll in with a familiar effortless grace in his stride. In the quietness of the library, after the countless hours of studying, you could basically hear the grin in his voice as he handed you a couple of blueberry muffins and the bergamot tea from your favourite bakery â you didn't have the slightest idea how he managed to find out your usual order â and tapped on your nose, remarking that you actually should eat.
Somehow, Satoru Gojo annoyed you enough to...like him. Managed to creep under your skin like an itch you couldn't get rid of.
Or⊠didn't want to?
***
One basketball match changed everything.
"Sorry, sorry, ohâ sorry again," you mumbled awkwardly, navigating through the crowd and somehow managing to balance two beer cups on your way to your seats.
"Geez, finally, where have you been?"
Rolling your eyes at Nobara, your bestie slash roommate slash the only person who made your university life not so miserable, you handed her the cup and tried to shout through the cheerladers' voices, the endless roaring of the crowd and the music coming loud from the speakers.
"There was a line!"
"Huh? What?"
"THERE WAS A FUCKING LINE!"
She took a sip from her cup with a satisfied nod and grimaced at you. "Don't scream at me."
Her audacity stole your voice, and you slumped down in your seat, huffing rather indignantly.
"Hey, don't pout. Sorry for that." Nobara lightly elbowed your side and opened a pack of salted peanuts, offering you a truce.
"Can't believe I agreed to go with you," a light grumpiness coloured your voice as you drank from your own cup.
"Aw, that's because I am awesome and you love me so, so much," she chirped gleefully and planted a kiss on your cheek. With her head on your shoulder, Nobara sighed dreamily at the sight of Maki Zenin â the manager of the university's basketball team. "She's so cute, isn't she?"
Meanwhile, Maki gestured widely, screaming something at her phone (not very pleasant as you might assume from your seat) and threw her bag at a guy in front of her. The guy followed her figure with puppy eyes.
Your lips twitched with a barely concealed smile that you hid behind another swig. "An angel, truly."
"Hey, what's that supposed to mean?"
Her words fell on deaf ears because at that moment, some airy melody rang from the speakers, followed by the joyful voice of the commentators to finally announce the start of the match.
Swallowing nervously, your eyes darted across the court, and the moment your gaze landed on the tall figure with stark white hair, your heart galloped at a racing speed.
"Who are you gawking at, huh?"
Gojo might've really had the eyes on the back of his head â he wasn't called Six Eyes for nothing, some weird sixth sense that you assumed related only to the basketball court â because that very moment he turned around and briefly scanned the audience. His eyes widened in surprise as he spotted you: the bright blue of his gaze and the joyous smile that broke on his face caught you so off guard you nearly dropped the cup. Like he was happy to see you there. Actually happy.
You offered Gojo a shy wave â a subtle move of your fingers â that only made his grin wider. Then, Suguru Geto tapped on his shoulder, and he quickly turned back.
Your hand fell limply to your side.
"Babe, what the hell was that?" Nobara hissed, jerking her chin towards the players gathered around for the last guides from the coach Yaga. "Have you just casually flirted with Satoru Gojo? Don't you hate his lungs?"
The next words came in a breathy voice. "I don't know anymore."
Your knowledge of basketball was rather... limited, but you dutifully roared along with the crowd the moment your university scored yet another point. The people's excitement was contagious, seeping right into you as well and lacing your voice with joy. You booed at the judge when he gave advantages to the rivals, screamed at the top of your lungs and held your breath at the last quarter. Your team went neck-and-neck with the other, and every point was crucial. You could see it in the way the player's uniform was drenched in sweat, their hair stuck to their temples, and laboured breathing. The stakes were too high.
The scorebox showed the fifteen seconds left â mere moments for you and the whole eternity for those at the court. Your eyes drifted to Gojo, as driven to him by some unknown force. His sharp gaze quickly darted from one teammate to another, calculating the last opportunities to score. And then...it found you amidst the sea of spectators. Cheeks flushed, hair a total mess, chest expanding with deep breaths. A small grin tugged at the corner of his lips as he took you in. Adorable.
But for you, the moment Gojo's gaze landed on you felt completely different â resembling more of a bolt of lightning that sent every nerve in your body on fire. You couldn't hear your own thoughts with the blood pounding at your temples.
Gojo barely tilted his head, nodding towards the basket and mouthed.
"This is for you."
He dodged one guy, then the other with perfect dribbling â you barely saw anyone in their element as much as Gojo was at the basketball court â and finally went for a shot.
Time seemed to stop moving in the gym of the Jujutsu University. The hundreds of eyes watched the ball cutting through the air with an impeccable trajectory.
Until it went through the net without hitting the rim and sealed the win.
You barely released a shuddering breath when Nobara crushed you in a hug, her beer mercilessly spilling on you both, but no one gave a damn. The crowd erupted with an ecstatic cheer and rose to their feet right then and there. The commentators were on the verge of crying, judging by their voices, but your world narrowed to one particular person. Gojo's teammates ruffled his hair, patted his back, and hugged him by the shoulders; someone even put him in a playful headlock, to which he responded with a wide grin.
A tight knot in your chest slowly seemed to loosen a bit.
Gojo found you later, at the party.
You stood a little away from the crowd, watching Nobara laughing with Maki Zenin near the bonfire. The light painted her auburn hair in copper tints every time she tilted her head, and judging by the way Maki's gaze lingered on her form, she noticed that too. A little smile curled your lips at the sight of lovey-doveys.
"Your friend has a crush on Maki, huh?"
Putting a can to your lips, you mumbled absent-mindedly, "She's pretty obvious."
"They both are, actually."
A light brush against your shoulder finally caught your attention. You lazily shifted your gaze, only to gulp at the sudden proximity to Satoru Gojo.
He stood beside you, hands tucked in his pockets, watching the rest of the party unfold with a faint smirk on his face. Standing there, existing, like he wasn't the one who flipped your world upside down a couple of hours earlier.
A forced smile made your cheeks hurt as you tumbled out nervously, hastily wiping your mouth, "I amâ I, I mean, congratulations! You did so great! I don't understand much about basketball, but youâ," your worried your bottom lip for a second before breathing out, "you were magnificent."
At your words, Gojo finally turned around. His grin softened into a gentle smile that showcased a pair of dimples on his pale cheeks. The firelight danced on his hair strands that seemed more ivory tinged now.
"You think so?"
"I do!" A sudden feeling of boldness flooded you as you stepped forward and reached for his arm to show how sincere you were. Or maybe it was just a beer.
Gojo immediately cast his gaze down and slowly wrapped his long fingers around your wrist. You gulped, but didn't look away from his face. The gods clearly spared nothing in sculpting it, otherwise you couldn't explain the sharpness of his jaw, the plumpness of his lips and the prominence of his cheekbones.
No one had a right to be that beautiful. Satoru Gojo wasn't aware of it.
His thumb pressed just a tad against your soft skin to feel an erratic pulse beneath it, but you did not attempt to pull your hand away. On the contrary, it felt strangely...natural.
"I am glad you were there." A gentle murmur hit you harder than expected.
Breath bated, you searched Gojo's face for any hint of the usual theatrics and grandeur until you saw none.
"You are?"
"Yeah".
The words about the last shot were on the tip of your tongue already, but they quickly died at the sight of shimmering blue in his eyes as Gojo finally looked up and released your hand from his grip.
You already missed its warmth.
"Listen, I knew I was a jerk towards you. Crowding and flirting and so on. I know, I know," a self-deprecating chuckle left his lips as the ironic roll of his eyes followed. You watched every expression, soaked it like Gojo was about to disappear again from your life. "I am not proud of this, I admit. I want to apologise to you for this."
You parted your lips to answer, but Gojo cut you off with a slight shake of his head.
"But I am not going to apologise for my feelings," his voice grew stronger, rising from the gentle murmur to the steady tone, eyes boring into you with an unsettling intensity that left you speechless. The people's cheerings fade into the background, and that chilly evening, thick with emotions so deep you couldn't name them, enveloped both of you in its bubble.
"I meant everything. I do like you. I like the way you smile when you finally grasp the concept you've been studying. The way your voice goes all that animated when you talk about the book you were reading. That little sparkle in your eyes when you saw the last cherry pie in the cafeteria...I love it all. And that shot was for you. I really meant it."
"I am gonna ask you just this once, and if you reject me, I will step back and never bother you again. You have my word," the weight of Gojo's promise would almost physically pin you to the ground, if not for the desperation lurking behind his gaze, darting between your eyes and your lips. He forcefully tore it away to glance right into your face. "Will you go out with me?"
You didn't believe what you were about to say. But hey, that day was already weird enough. You offered Gojo a crooked smile. "Yeah."
"Just one date, you won't â ", he blinked in surprise, a light frown crossing his handsome face. "Wait, what?"
You stifled a laugh and nodded, stepping closer, until you felt the hard planes of his chest. "I will go out with you."
A slow, almost dopey in its joy, grin curled Gojo's lips, until a small disbelieving chuckle left him. "You will? Just like that?"
Now you couldn't contain a smile either. "Just like that, Gojo."
A whoop full of happiness cut through the air and the noise of the party that slowly came to its eventual end as Gojo swept you off your feet and twirled you in a bone-crushing embrace. Your laugh was the prettiest sound Gojo had ever heard.
"Thank you! Thank you, thank you, thank you! I swear you won't regret it!"
Satoru Gojo kept his promise. And many others he whispered in the dead of the night to you beneath the star-spilt sky. His hand was a steady anchor amidst the stormy life that awaited both of you. His voice offered you peace of mind when the world was a little too harsh for you. His fingers traced reverently the silk of your skin every time he shared a night with you. His gaze was the first you searched for in every crowded room. His arms had become the safest place in the world.
Satoru memorised the way you organised your life, but you were more than happy when he eventually disrupted your usual order. Not because he was doing that on purpose. Rather, since that was Satoru: he was too big for your world, and you didn't want him to shrink himself into someone he wasn't. Dimming Satoru's light was the last thing you wished.
He had learnt by heart the things that even you didn't pay attention to: for example, your toothbrush always had to face the door â Satoru wordlessly turned it the way you preferred; your favourite plant was Zamioculcas that he made sure was always watered visiting you; you usually carried a few packs of wet cat food for the stray babies in your enormous bag â he ordered large boxes, so you wouldn't run out of them; your drink of choice was Margarita that you shared only while hanging with Nobara â Satoru learned on his way to pick you up; you hated the loud harsh sounds, and Satoru was the first one to whisper sweet nothings to you and rub soothing circles against the small of your back until you calm down. In other words, he made your life easier.
You, on the other hand, only added more difficulties to his. Satoru never told you that, not even mentioned in any way that you were somehow different from him. But some things didn't have to be pointed out to catch your eye.
Like his Prada glasses, which cost like your monthly rent or two. Satoru could leave them somewhere without batting an eye. Or the luxurious gifts he would get you out of nowhere just because you barely glanced at something while strolling. That warmed your heart, yes, but the cheque that Satoru couldn't care less about startled you. You stayed in the lab until you almost fainted from fatigue just to finish the project before the deadline to get an extra payment to spend on the gift, since you were adamant that the relationships were about taking and giving in equal measure. Not to mention the one social gathering he invited you to, just off-handedly, before the day it actually happened; you drained your bank account to look presentable by his side, and lived on the instant ramen the entire month after. Maybe if you had accepted Satoru's offer to live together, none of that would have happened, but you learned the hard way to rely only on yourself. Luckily, the iron argument sealed the deal: your tight schedules at the lab and his as a pro basketball player didn't match well.
The Gojo family was another... topic. While no one said anything directly to your face, you noticed the way their brows knitted in confusion for a fleeting second, eyeing you up and down. Sensed the baffled glances and fake, saccharine sweet smiles behind your back, questioning the fact of your presence. No. Your existence. The mere raise of the brow from one of Satoru's distant cousins at the sight of your shoes â the ones you borrowed from Nobara, who got them after the Fashion Week in Paris, albeit last year's Dior collection â had you doubting your entire life.
Complaining had never been on your list, though some thoughts did cross your mind. You made sure not to voice them, stoically listening to all the hushed whispers. Not once did your smile falter in front of them. It was the least you could do for Satoru. You knew he didn't have a lot of joy in standing up for you every single time, so, eventually, the gatherings got shorter, the invitations came rather rarely, and the calls, already small in number, would always leave him in a bad mood. The sound of your name appeared quite frankly between the gritted words and heated yells.
"Don't worry, baby," Satoru's lips always found the crown of your head in the reassuring kiss when you asked him what was going on. The bitterness in his voice poisoned your already tired, insecure mind even more. He was a master at hiding his emotions, but never from you. "I got this."
A strained smile â the corners of your lips lifting just barely â was your usual answer.
"Of course."
Satoru then offered you a quick grin that never reached his eyes. His large hands cradled your face in the gentle, trembling grip, and the faint murmur would twist yet another knife between your ribs. "I love you. I love you so much. You know that, right?"
Leaning into Satoru's palm like a kitten, seeking warmth, you bit inside of your cheek not to cry. Your hand came up to cradle his hand against your cheek just to memorise the way it perfectly engulfed your face.
"I love you."
Not to dwell on the way you voice cracked, akin to ice beneath one's feet, you simply moved forward to capture his lips in a kiss, until all you could taste were tears. Yours, his... Did it matter anymore?
And then, under the pale moonlight coming from the lone crescent peering right into the bedroom of his large penthouse, your gaze drifted unabashedly over Satoru's face, taking in every flutter of the long, snowy eyelashes. Every breath that left his lips. Every faint twitch in his expression, and even every tiny snore. Your finger tenderly traced the bridge of Satoru's nose, making its way to the perfectly sculpted mouth and down to the sharp cut of his collarbones. Committing each pale freckle and beauty mark to memory.
For you knew that night would be your last one.
Satoru loved you, and you loved him. He loved you fiercely, with the force so burning it could rival the Sun itself. It was only fair for you to step back and let him shine. Not to drive another wedge between him and his family. You loved Satoru enough not to burden him with your presence. He should soar up in the sky, not stay chained on the ground by the dead weight of you and waste his time knocking some sense into his parents.
A muffled sob escaped your throat as you pressed a small kiss between his collarbones. The next thing you felt was Satoru's strong arm curling around your waist to pull you against his strong chest. The faint smell of musk still clung to his skin, but you had never revelled in it as you did now.
"Why aren't you asleep, baby? Something's wrong?" Satoru's voice came in a deep, throaty tone that would usually have your toes curling.
The edge of the blade dug deeper into your heart, drawing blood.
"Nothing, love. Just some weird thoughts, that's all."
A boyish grin adorned his face â so handsome even in the middle of the night â as he lightly flicked your forehead.
"Your head will hurt from all the overthinking. Head so tiny, yet so many thoughts. Come here," Satoru let a shuddering yawn and tucked your head under his chin, nuzzling gently against your hair. "Better?"
Biting on your lip, you prayed to all the gods that Satoru wouldn't hear the tremble in your voice. The steady beat of his heart lulled you to sleep, but you knew you wouldn't close an eye that night. "Yes."
"Try to sleep, okay?" Satoru's finger came to play with a lone strand of your hair. The smile in his voice was evident. "And if you don't, just wake me up. We can talk or watch that documentary you mentioned earlier. I mean, did Tyra really not take any accountability?"
You gathered any ounce of your strength not to fall apart right then and there.
"Of course, Toru. Go to sleep now."
He sighed in mock exaggeration. "Always so bossy."
His chest rose steadily under your cheek. His skin felt warm under the weight of your palm. You registered it all subconsciously, clinging to every part of Satoru.
And only when his breath fully evened, you allowed yourself to whisper to the night.
"I love you. And I am so sorry."
***
You sincerely thought you were a nice girlfriend for scheduling your breakup over the weekend. Waited until Satoru finished showering and emerged all smiley and happy from the bathroom. Waited until he recalled all the TikToks he sent to you in the early morning, not even knowing you already had blocked him on all the socials. Waited until he dug in the last breakfast you cooked for him â fluffy pancakes with strawberry jam.
"Babe, this is so delicious," Satoru hummed, pointing a fork at you. "Are you sure you didn't wanna become a chief? I mean, this is the gift from the heavens."
"I think we should break up."
Satoru paused mid-way, mouth still open. He slowly closed it and heaved a hollowed chuckle, chewing on the pancake with more force than necessary. "Very funny, sweets. An excellent joke."
Straightening in the seat, you furrowed your brows in confusion. Weren't you clear enough?
"I said we should break up."
That time, Satoru finally stopped chewing and slowly lifted his gaze at you. The electric blue pierced deep in your soul as he pressed again, "And I said it was an excellent joke."
"Satoru," the movement of your throat was sharp as you fumbled with words. "I am not joking."
The desperate flex of his fingers caught your attention immediately when Satoru curled them into a fist before taking a deep breath. The smile that carved into his lips was as sharp as the knife.
"Care to explain why?"
A thousand thoughts twirled in your mind those days like a restless whirlpool, each of them seemingly worse than the previous: "I don't love you anymore", or "You suffocate me with your love", and the traitorous "I cheated on you."
All of them lie, of course.
So, you settled on offering Satoru the least you could do â the truth.
"We just don't work out, Satoru. It's better to break up before â "your voice was so tiny and fragile, Satoru thought he was hallucinating: his worst nightmare coming to reality, " â things get more serious."
The loud, screeching sound of the chair being pushed away, followed by a self-deprecating, disbelieving laugh, filled the room. You glanced up at Satoru only to find him pacing around like a caged animal. Your words punched him right in the gut.
"We don't 'work out?' Before 'things get too serious', huh? Sweets, that's gotta be a joke. The most shitty, not funny and cruel joke you have ever pulled on me, but okay," he nervously carded his fingers through the white hair, before walking to you. "Tell me this is it. Please."
You cast your gaze down, not able to see the way his eyes frantically searched your face for any hint of a joke and hear the crack in his voice, usually so steady and certain. A rock, a lighthouse in your stormy ocean.
The shake of his hands was violent as they came up to frame your face. You choked on a heavy sob, trembling like a leaf with the tears blurring your eyes so hard you couldn't see anything.
"But we were â, are working just fine. Have I done something wrong? Is it because of me? Just tell me what to do, I swear I'll fix everything!"
"It's not about you, Satoru. Never has been. It's about me."
His white brows furrowed in confusion. "You? What about you? But you are perfect for me," he chuckled almost tenderly â a small sound frayed around the edges â that only ripped your heart out. "You listen to all my stupid jokes, know how many sugar cubes I put in my coffee, and put the curtains down because you know how sensitive my eyes are. You stayed with me at the hospital after the injury and cheered for me the loudest." His voice rose just a tad to coax a smile from you. "You have never told me how to be someone I am not. Always seen me, not the Gojo heir. Not the star player. How can it be about you? No one in the world knows me as well as you do. Like â," his gaze swept across the room like something might've helped him to talk you out, "like your last Christmas gift, huh? That premium card you swore you just stumbled upon in the store, but I knew better how much it â Wait."
Satoru's smile slowly died as the realisation downed at him like a wicked joke of fate. "No, no, no, no. That can't be it. Is that because of money? My status? I told you countless times that it doesn't matter to me! What I have is yours." His voice dipped into the fragile, almost sacred warmth that he reserved only for you. "All I have is yours."
You couldn't do that anymore. Not even in the wildest thoughts did it occur to you that breaking up with Satoru would hurt that badly. It rather resembled a never-ending torture.
He never understood it. Growing up in a family that barely made ends meet. Pouring your blood, sweat and tears into studies to get a tuition fee waiver, because there wasn't any other option for you to get into the university. Scraping by taking double shifts at the cafe. Fighting tooth and nail over the place in the chemistry lab.
And never would.
Pushing Satoru away, you closed your eyes in defeat before forcing yourself to look back at him. He didn't dare to mutter a word, watching your face twist with pain as you shouted.
"It matters to me! It matters to me, Satoru, how fucking inferior I feel next to you!"
Something in his gaze faded away. He didn't recognise his voice when it came in a short, fractured breath, devoid of all strength.
"What?"
A violent sob rattled your frame as you hid your face in your palms. You cried and cried and cried until your chest tightened with pain, and you managed to utter hoarsely. "Every time I get into your home, or every time someone sees me besides you, I want to run and disappear into the cave. Don't you see that, To â Satoru?" No. He wasn't your Toru anymore. "I am like, dunno, a disastrous glob of ink on Monet's painting. A patch of dirt on the Versace gown. A bling-bling amidst Graff's and Harry Winston's. Well, you get it. Something to wipe away or hide in the closet. Someone who doesn't deserve to stand by your side."
"I don't get it," Satoru dragged his hands over his face and shook his head, letting out a humourless laugh. His eyes flashed with a weird gleam. "Did my parents or anyone at that point say something to you? Because if they did, I fucking swear â"
"No one said anything to me, Satoru! It doesn't matter. Because they say it to you â"
"And as I said, I don't care â "
"BUT I DO!" The rise of your voice to a frenzied cry startled both of you. Satoru stared at you with a gaze so desperate that a kiss of the gun would've been more merciful. You fiercely wiped your snotty nose â hell, you must've looked so ugly â and walked over to cup his face. He watched your every move as if you were about to disappear. In a way, you were going to.
"I do not want anyone to say something about me to you. I do not want you to fight with your family over me. I want you to be happy. Do not be torn between me and the world you belonged to."
Satoru wanted to shake you by the shoulders just to knock some sense into your head, scream and shout what a total bullshit your words were, but instead, he got rooted to the spot by your doe eyes. His stomach twisted at your next words.
"You'll meet a beautiful, smart, and kind girl, who wears pearls that cost more than I will ever be able to make, plays Brahms at the family gatherings, and who doesn't turn red in the face, while asked about favourite Japanese modern artists. Well, now I know plenty." You couldn't help but huff a tiny chuckle. Nothing twitched in Satoru's face. "And you will fall in love with her, and your whole family will like her. Everything will be just fine."
Satoru couldn't believe what was happening. Nothing in his life could ever prepare him for the pain that would follow with your leaving him. It didn't feel real. Probably, never would.
He slowly tilted his head down and rested his forehead against yours, whispering, barely audible. Like every word cost him a fortune. "Please, baby, please. I swear on my life, I will do everything. Just don't leave me. I don't â," Satoru's hands slip up your face as well, but you closed your eyes in defeat. Any ounce of strength left in your body evaporated. His arms fell to his sides as he croaked out helplessly. "I don't know who I am without you."
"You are you, Satoru. Always have been and always will be. A brilliant, wonderful, kind boy with a golden heart. And I..I am just me," you pressed your lips in a thin line before forcing a smile. "But I will work on it. As I said, it's all because of me."
"You don't get it." Somehow, Satoru's lifeless whisper hit you harder than any scream would. Because Satoru never raised his voice at you. Even now. There was a hunch to his shoulders that you rarely saw, if ever, as he turned from you and gripped the edge of the table. "I want to marry you. To become your family. But guess that doesn't matter anymore. Before things get too serious, huh?"
The room spun around you as you knitted your brows together, slumping in the nearest chair. Marrying⊠you?
But, on the other hand, it didn't change anything. You were still miles away from each other, standing on opposite sides of the societal hierarchy.
"I am so sorry, Satoru," words clawed up your throat as you shook your head.
Satoru finally turned around, and the dimmed, utterly devastated blue of his gaze tore you apart at the seams. "You are not sorry. If you were, you won't be leaving me now."
You didn't have enough in you to counter this. Words seemed meaningless, slipping like sand through your fingers.
"Please, Satoru. Let us go. It is for the better."
You had never seen an expression that hopeless and defeated on his handsome face.
"Is that what you want?"
"No," you wanted to scream, to shout, to cry out loud. "How can I possibly want to leave you? I have to. For both of us."
The silence stretched thin between you for so long, Satoru sincerely thought you didn't hear him. He stepped forward only to see you giving a short nod, almost cruel in its curtness.
After all, he never denied you everything. Even that. Even if it killed him from the inside.
Standing by the door with your bag, you couldn't help but steal a last glance at him. You parted your lips to say goodbye, but nothing even remotely plausible came to your mind. Satoru sat on the couch, shoulders slumped and gaze fixed on the floor. His name left your lips for the last time.
"Satoru."
His head snapped up as if he had been waiting for it that entire time. Maybe you changed your mind?
"Yes?"
That fragile hope in his tone twisted your insides.
"I love you."
Before he could answer, you slipped out of his apartments. And his life.
***
These months, the four agonising months, marked by Satoru's absence in your life, had sucked. Mildly put.
You sincerely thought you were doing the right thing â well, still were â breaking up, sparing his life from your presence, but it didn't mean it hurt any less. In a way, it was the opposite.
Pushing the love of your life away and then grovelling in the silence of your small apartment after putting on a brave face and assuring everyone that you were okay sucked. Crying yourself to sleep sucked. Feeling your heart breaking to pieces each time your gaze stumbled upon something that instantly reminded you of Satoru â like a photo on the fridge, his note with a smiley, kissy face between the pages of your comfort book and the tome of the manga he was reading â sucked. Walking around the places you used to hang out sucked.
What sucked even more was the fact that Satoru's presence seemed to linger everywhere. His laugh haunted you while you were lounging on the couch. The look of pure happiness on his face was ingrained in your mind while you were walking in a familiar park. And when your eye caught sight of a ball? Didn't even mention it. Perhaps that was your punishment. Now you were subjected to a lifetime of loneliness.
Still, you tried to do the thing you promised Satoru the final time you saw him. Attempted to go out of your shell. Took on some hobbies. Had a lot, a lot of time for self-reflection (given that you were free most of the evenings when you didn't throw yourself into work). And took small steps to discover what made you whole.
What and not who. That realisation sank on you with the force of a tidal wave. Kept you awake in three of the morning. Occupied all your thoughts until you finally, finally, were getting used to it. Still, there was a lot to be done. You only wished for Satoru by your side, though. Were you allowed to think about him, after all?
The revelation, of course, only made your mind drift to Satoru even more. How was he? Was his injury getting better? Did his father officially appoint him as the next CEO?
Gods. You sure had no right to worry about him anymore. Not after breaking both of your hearts. An utterly desperate and lifeless look on his face flashed every time before your eyes when you closed them.
You dragged your feet back from the nearest combini: Friday had finally marked the end of a long, exhausting week (not like you had many left, huh) and you treated yourself with sushi and a bottle of wine. There was nothing you wanted more than to run a bath and put Sex and the City on, rotting under the blanket. It would've been thousands of times better if Satoru were there, but alas...
A few raindrops fell on the asphalt, successfully putting the train of your miserable thoughts to a halt, and you hurried to the entrance of your block. Quickly fishing a pair of keys, you glanced up from your bag as something caught your attention in the periphery, and you got immediately rooted to the spot.
You would recognise the set of those shoulders, now slightly hunched, everywhere. A grey hoodie did nothing to hide his figure. White tufts fell over his forehead under the hood, and something twisted viciously in your chest at the sight. Your fingers twitched with the urge to feel the silk of that hair under your touch.
You took a deep breath, trying to take a rein over your hammering heart, and stepped closer, calling the man out softly. Rather hesitantly.
"Satoru? What are you doing here?"
Satoru went rigid for a moment at your voice. His shoulders tensed even more. Your throat clogged up.
But then he turned around and smiled. A tiny, almost pathetic lift of his lips, and he offered you a small wave. Just like the one you gave him at that basketball match.
"Hi, ba â" Satoru immediately corrected himself, wincing just for a second. His smile wavered, as did your composure. "Hi."
The effort that took you not to drop your things right then and run into his arms was only between you and the gods.
"Hello to you too." Swallowing the lump in your throat, you stepped forward. That totally wasn't the way you imagined that meeting would go.
"What are you doing here?" You prompted again, trying not to sound either harsh or desperate. Desperate to hear his voice. See his eyes. Look at his face.
"Just... was going around. Stumbled at your place. You still live here." Satoru lifted one shoulder in a nervous shrug, and his little smile morphed into a quick, uneasy grimace.
You didn't question those stalker-ish tendencies, but the doubt was clearly evident in an arch of your brow, because Satoru instantly raised his hands in surrender.
"No, really. I guess my legs just carried me there. Some memory, you know," he rubbed the back of his neck sheepishly, but then sighed, seeing your suspicion. "Come on, sweets. If I had been stalking you all that time, I would've done it way more discreetly."
That brought you some relief. "Guess you would've."
His Adam's apple bobbed with an effort. "Can we, uhm, talk?"
Something in your guts was telling you had a pretty good sense of the way this talk would go. You weren't sure it was the right time and way.
Casting your gaze down, you worried on your bottom lip before breathing out, "I'm â I'm not sure this is a good idea, Satoru."
"Please", his voice took on a pleading edge. You closed your eyes for a brief moment. "I just want to know how you are. That's all."
He was lying. And he knew you were well aware of it.
But, in the end, wasn't that what you wanted? To see him, at least? Well, here Satoru was.
Thunder roared somewhere in the distance, and you were pretty sure that soon you both would be drenched to the bone.
"Besides, you don't want to get me standing under the rain, do you?" An amusement curled Satoru's lips before he let a humourless chuckle. "Have some mercy on your ex-boyfriend."
That sounded like a slur coming from Satoru. You glared at him. His smile turned even sharper.
Torn between the current state of your... relationship, and the fact that Satoru was standing right in front of you, you completely didn't know what to do. You didn't part your ways that badly. And you had never wanted to be that person who would resent his ex and scowl at every mention of them.
Because that was never true. You loved Satoru. And, judging by the yearning lacing his gaze and the nervous flex of his hands as he awaited your response, he still loved you, too.
After minutes of debating, with the rain intensifying, you finally gave in and nodded towards the entrance.
"Get in."
Satoru's wide smile now resembled more of a child's on Christmas.
"Yes, ma'am."
The weight of Satoru's gaze, burning a hole in your back, felt rather physical. The tension in your kitchen threatened to suffocate you both, while you busied yourself with making tea and a gigantic cup of hot cocoa for Satoru.
You placed the drink in front of him, and Satoru shot you a small, curious grin.
"Whoa, marshmallows."
"Yeah," you still absent-mindedly bought them at the grocery store. Habit. "You know, three years of always getting your marshmallows weren't in vain."
Satoru looked at you as if he seriously considered offering himself as a sacrifice at your altar.
Damn those puppy eyes.
Rubbing your palms up and down your thighs, you cleared your throat and offered an awkward smile. God, you wanted the ground to swallow you. "So, uhm, how have you been, To â Satoru?"
He pressed his lips together and leaned back in his seat, right hand on the back of it, like he was incapable of sitting straight. Well, some things never changed.
Satoru didn't look at you, instead glancing out of the window at the heavy rain, drumming against the windows.
"Not so good."
You immediately dropped your gaze, hugging the cup with sea ââbuckthorn tea. The scorching liquid might've burnt your hands a little, but it was nothing in comparison with the sharp pain in your chest.
Licking your lips, you forced yourself to look up at Satoru. He was still staring at the rain like it held something only visible to him. The muscle in his jaw jumped.
"I am sorry, but â"
Satoru released a long sigh and turned to you. You almost flinched at the sight of his eyes â usually so bright blue, flashing with mirth and charm, now reduced to the lifeless, dull grey. Under the better light, you also noticed the dark bags under Satoru's eyes, the hollow in his cheeks and even the light stubble. You had never seen him like it. Like he aged ten years or more in those months.
That was all because of you, right?
Tears filled your eyes so fast you couldn't even blink them away, when you felt salt on your lips.
You wanted to apologise once again, but then Satoru leaned forward and rested his elbows on the table, feverishly running his fingers through the white strands. Were you a little crazy, or even his hair seemed moreâŠashy?
"I am not gonna lie, I have never felt more awful and pathetic and miserable â well, you get it, in my entire fucking life," he waved his hand dismissively, and you closed your eyes just for a fleeting second, because you couldn't afford even a moment of not looking at him. That talk went even worse than you imagined. "But after you left, something hasâŠchanged."
You sat upright and drawled hesitantly, "LikeâŠwhat?"
He huffed a humourless chuckle, and his eyes flashed with a weird, almost malicious glint. Your insides went cold.
"Well, I just told my father that he can suck my dick â"
You slowly covered your face with one hand. That was not good. Very, very bad, actually.
" â if he even for a moment thinks I was going to marry one of the girls he and my grandfather suggested. And then he started threatening to cut my trust fund off, blah blah, blah. Like I've ever given a single fuck about it."
Something in his tone was telling you that wasn't everything that had changed.
Satoru's voice sharpened in a way that could cut even the hardest steel.
"That was okay. Nothing I've heard before. But when he started talking about you," his voice dropped to a whisper and dangerously cracked. You couldn't hear it anymore. "That's where I draw the line. He knows that. Now everyone knows that."
A loud groan left you as you dropped your head in your hands.
"What have you done, Satoru?"
He just rolled his eyes. Harsh and sharp. "What I should have done, obviously. A long time ago. Tell all of them to fuck off."
"Oh â"
"Mildly put," Satoru scratched his head with a mild grimace. "And then got kicked out of the house. Trust fund cut off, obviously."
You couldn't believe what you had just heard. Satoru might've thought that his words would somehow soften you, so you could coo at him or whatever. But never did he expect you to slam your fist against the table and grit throught your teeth.
"Have you fucking lost your mind?"
Satoru blinked in shock, watching you suddenly stand up and turn from him, your hands curled into fists by your sides.
"What?"
Taking a deep breath, you tore your gaze from the windows and threw your hands in the air.
"Are you an idiot?"
Well, that kind of hurt. "I don't understand."
"Satoru." Oh no, he knew that tone. That only meant you were seething with rage. There were no means of escape, especially as you loomed over him. "So let me get it straight. You fought with your entire family, they kicked you out of the house and left you with no money."
"Pretty much, yeah."
"All because of me!?"
Satoru didn't like the way you said "me". As if you were something not even worth mentioning. The dirt beneath his feet.
"Satoru, we are not together! I am not your girlfriend anymore, I am not even in your life! We don't even talk! You can't throw your life away because of me! That's stupid!"
"Well, maybe I am stupid, hasn't it occurred to you?"
"Satoru," your voice trembled on the edge of tears. Why didn't he understand you?! "I am serious. This is serious. This is your life! This is all you haveâ had, especially given you can't damn play with your injury now!"
Satoru didn't answer you. You only saw the way he swallowed with effort, and the look of utter longing on his face told you everything.
You helplessly slumped back in your chair and hid your face in your palms for a small eternity. Satoru didn't dare to interrupt. He just watched you, soaking up every feature as if you were about to kick him out of your apartment forever. That was an option. You were pretty pissed.
He attempted to soothe you, "But there's something good."
You slowly glanced up, and Satoru almost snorted at the look of total disbelief in your eyes. "Such as?"
Satoru quickly stood up and kneeled between your chair, taking your hands in his. Cold as usual. Absent-mindedly, he rubbed your palms with his thumbs. As usual.
"I mean, you said it yourself, sweets. That is all I have known for my whole life. Rich kid, golden youth, spoilt guy born with a silver spoon in his mouth, all that stuff. I thought maybe it was it? My chance to find myself, huh? I don't want to be their toy to boss around all because of money."
Something crawled up your skin and twisted sharply in your chest as you breathed out, "What do you mean?"
Was he serious? So you both were doing the same thing all that time?
Satoru squeezed your hand harder and gave you a crooked smile.
"Just been here and there. DoingâŠsome stuff."
You tilted your head in a silent question. He chuckled breathlessly and shook his head.
"Don't laugh, okay? I am teaching some kids basketball at school."
"Oh," your lips curled up in a tender smile as something warm bloomed in your chest. "That's really nice. You like it?"
"Yeah," Satoru's answer was immediate. And for the first time that evening, you saw a familiar spark in his eyes. "Kids can be a pain in the ass sometimes, but they are really cute. Listen to me, call me Gojo-sensei. Kinda gets in your head, you know."
A small snort escaped you, and the wide grin broke on his face. Oh, how he missed that precious sound.
"Where do you live now?"
"Crashing Suguru. He's not particularly happy when I drown my misery in another pint of strawberry ice-cream â "
Your smile slowly disappeared.
" â when he brings in some girl, but I bribe him with dark chocolate. You know he can't live without it."
"That he can," you uttered in a strained voice. Satoru's grin wavered as well, and he hesitantly reached to tuck the lone strand of your hair behind your ear. His hand trembled a little.
"What about you? There are boxes everywhere," he leaned back with a soft murmur, glancing around your apartment with packed staff around. "Moving out?"
Your heart suddenly felt twice its size, thumping violently against your ribs. "Uhm, yeah. Moving out."
"Where?"
Well, that was it. You squirmed in your seat, and Satoru's hand slowly fell to his side. He just waited.
"EhâŠFrance."
He pinched his brows together with a slight frown and repeated incredulously, "You are moving to France?"
Satoru's sharp blue gaze seemed to pierce through you. Unable to meet it, you looked away.
"Yes."
"Why?"
Sighing deeply, you stood up and leaned against a kitchen counter, hugging yourself. Satoru immediately rose to his feet.
"That was a pretty much hard time for me too. Not delving into details, butâŠyeah. I felt like shit. Everyone was dating someone, or building a successful career, or, I don't know, just doing something meaningful," you gestured vaguely and combed your hair with a shaky hand. Satoru just stared at you like a lone, kicked puppy. "While I willingly kept fucking my own life over. Cooped yourself in that place. Left the love of my life."
Something in your face softened at the last words. Satoru forgot how to breathe.
"And that certainly shouldn't beâŠin vain, whatever. I told you I was going to work on myself, and I kind of do. Step by step, but I am going there."
"I still don't understand. I am happy for you, really am, but why are you leaving Japan? What about your mother, your job?"
What about me?
"My department's had its financing cut. My presence is not required anymore, as they said. I am just working the last two weeks, and that's it."
"Oh. I am..I am sorry to hear it."
"As for my mom," you didn't seem to hear Satoru's words at all, staring somewhere past him. "You know, she's never really cared that much about me anyway. She'll survive."
As cruel as your words might've seemed, you were right. Your mother was anâŠinteresting woman indeed.
Satoru desperately cling to anything that could make you stay here like a lifeline.
"What about Nobara?"
Surely, you couldn't leave her. You two had been together from the first time he saw you at the university campus.
"Actually, she was the one who offered me that."
"Huh?!"
"She's recently been promoted at her job to the French edition of their magazine. Fashion weeks, runways, photoshoots⊠You know her, she's been ecstatic about it. So, when she asked me about itâŠI said I would give it a thought. I mean, it will be a nice fresh start, won't it? I don't have anything left here, soâŠwhy not? Gotta take risks, something like that."
Satoru couldn't believe his own ears. That would've been his nightmare coming true, if not for the fact that his worst one already was real. No. He wouldn't let you go that time. That was the stupidest thing he had done in his life, and if he had to begâŠwell.
The worst thing that you seemed pretty confident about it. But looking closely, he saw your hands trembled a little by your side, and your gaze darted nervously around. So, there still was some chance.
He ran his fingers through his hair. The gears seemed to work nonstop in his mind as he glanced around for any clue or sight for support. UntilâŠ
He weakly breathed out, "I am going with you."
Your eyes nearly popped out of their sockets. "You what!?"
Satisfied with your reaction and his genius mind, Satoru smirked lazily, "I am going to France with you."
Did you stare in The Office or something? Was there a hidden camera to look at?
Helplessly blinking, you finally managed to utter, "Excuse me? You going to France? With me?"
"I know, I know what you are thinking. He's crazy, an idiot, proper name, last name, backstory stuff, but hear me out!" Satoru walked to you and squeezed your shoulders, his eyes frantically searching your face for a hint of understanding. You still stared at him as if he had just announced he was going to fly to the Moon, no less. "You broke up with me because, citing "you felt inferior to me," right?
Pressing your lips into a thin line, you gave him a flat look. "Correct."
"But I am not superior in any way to you now! You're discovering yourself, me too, so why don't we do that together? Start everything from scratch? Including," his Adam's apple bobbed with effort as his hands slowly slid down your figure to rest on the dip of your waist. Your skin tingled at the contact. "Including us."
Blood defeaningly roared at your temples, and your heart jumped right into your throat. Wouldn't it be strange and weird? Getting back together after you pushed him away? After breaking both of you?
One of Satoru's hands drifted upwards to cradle your face, while the other pulled your figure closer to him. Your head spun at the sudden proximity. His thumb delicately traced the line of your jaw and settled on the apple of your cheek.
"How is that stupid and weird, if I love you?" Shit, had you been musing aloud? "And you love me."
You parted your lips to answer, but then Satoru tilted his head down just a bit, and it was enough to feel the faintest brush of his lips against yours. With knees slightly trembling, your hand flew up and twisted the fabric of his hoodie for support. Your tongue darted out to lick your lip for a mere second; it was enough for Satoru's gaze to flick there and stare at your mouth as if hypnotised.
"Or you don't?" You almost leaned in for a kiss when he suddenly pulled away, despite being a breath away from devouring you. You gulped and lifted a pleading gaze at him â and not like the look on Satoru's face was any better. A strange kind of bitterness settled in your chest at the shakiness of his voice: he really doubted it. Well, you gave him a good reason to, didn't you?
It baffled you. No. Weirded out in the worst way possible.
So, instead of answering, you simply stood on your tiptoes and pressed your lips against his. A feathery, almost invisible, but it was enough for Satoru to release a groan and kiss your back.
You forgot how to breathe. The room spun around you, and if not for Satoru's hand holding at your waist, you would've collapsed for sure. The familiar sense of heat shot through you as you boldly slid your hand up Satoru's toned shoulder, grazed his undercut â wait, did he actually whimper at that or what â and ran your fingers through the silky white hair. The months of raw longing, poured in that kiss, laced every brush of your tongues, stifled moan and impatient tug with desperate want. Damn, you almost forgot his lips slotting perfectly against yours, his gently nipping at your bottom lip, and his hot, raspy breath fanning over your cheek when you pulled away before delving in again and again.
Blinking away dizziness, you managed to gather your bearings together just to mumble, "Does it count as an answer?"
Satoru's chest rose up and down as if he had just run a marathon, and he slowly shook his hand in response before tilting your chin up. His eyes resembled more of a stormy ocean than a breezy sea, but his hold was as tender as always.
"I love you, Satoru. Still am and always have been. I told you the same when â," you swallowed the lump in your throat, "â when I left you." Voice sinking into a small, almost miserable whisper, you went on, "And I am sorry for that, so damn sorry, you didn't deserve it."
"No, no, no, baby, stop it," now both his hands cradled your face as his gaze gently caressed every twitch in it, every shift, every freckle and mole. "You did what you felt right to. I accepted that, even though it was the hardest thing in my life. Believe me or not, I felt so stupid and shitty and miserable for letting you go, but I had to respect that. I only wish I had noticed you feeling that way sooner," he ended with a small, bitter smile, placing a kiss on the tip of your nose before gently nuzzling it. "Missed you so, so much."
As much as you wanted to lean into Satoru's touch again with no care in the world, you felt the need to apologise for once again, "No, Satoru, but â Maybe if I told you that instead of going away, we wouldn't be apart these months. I am sorry."
"Stop that," his voice cut you off, not firmly but enough to shut you up. "Really, stop. I am not mad at you. I could never be mad at you. And maybe I need that too. Shook me good to realise what things really mattered in life."
A sad sigh left your lips when you remembered what happened between Satoru and his family. Yes, they were jerks, but you never wanted to be the reason for the wedge between them.
"But hey, now we're two psychos together, trying to figure out what to do with their life! Together, right?" Satoru's gaze carefully searched yours, and as you nodded enthusiastically, his face broke into the brightest grin possible. Maybe only rivalling the one he gave you when you agreed to go out with him at that bonfire party.
"Love you, love you, love you," you murmured between kisses, nuzzling against his jaw, eliciting shaky moans. Your hands slid under his hoodie to feel the hot skin under your palms, but the sudden roaring of the thunder made you jump.
"Oh, fuck."
Satoru wanted to tease you at first, but he quickly bit his tongue, remembering that noises like that still scared you. You mindlessly gripped his hoodie tighter, pressing your frame against his for comfort. His hand cradled the back of your head, and he tucked it under his chin, whispering soothing words.
"Maybe you wanna lie down or something?" Whispering into your hair, Satoru pressed his lips against the crown of your head as another tremble shook your body at the particularly frightening sound. His gaze briefly flicked at the sky through the windows. "Yeah, not getting better soon."
Without further ado, you sighed in response and gripped his hand to walk to your bedroom. In every other situation, his hands would've been on you in a second, but not now. Especially given that you had just gotten back together.
Your bedroom hadn't really changed: your favourite stuffed plush bear sat over the sheets, guarding your sleep; a stupid lava lamp that Satoru once gifted you was still on the bedside table, not to mention the horde of houseplants (he sadly noticed the absence of some) at the windowsill. You hadn't packed the bedroom stuff yet, though a couple of boxes obediently waited in the corner.
After all those months, Satoru's presence felt kind of weird in your bedroom, but now, with his hands enveloping you in an embrace, you had never felt happier.
You both stayed up the whole night: gods, you almost forgot how easy it was to talk to Satoru. He told you more about the kids he was teaching, the school, and that he tried to do some modelling photoshoots. It turned out pretty good. "Might be a nice gig," he shrugged nonchalantly, but you noticed his eyes sparkling with mirth.
You filled him in on the work drama, places you visited in your attempts to go out of your shell, hobbies you tried â his eyes widened at the mention of drawing and pottery, and he demanded to see your works the first thing in the morning.
You snorted quietly. "I don't think they are anywhere as good as your photos."
Satoru huffed under his breath and lightly nudged your shoulder. You both lie face to face now, smiling and giggling like a pair of students you once were. You felt as if you were floating in happiness.
"Come on, baby, don't be shy. I am positive they are nice."
"No, Toru, they are not. Believe me, my first flowerpot was disastrous." You turned a bit and waved at the deformed blob of clay, hiding in the corner. Satoru followed your move: his lips pressed into a thin line at the sight of a poor thing.
"UhmâŠwell, it's not that bad." His shoulders shook with a barely suppressed laugh, and you rolled your eyes good-naturedly.
"It's okay, you can laugh."
The laugh he let was truly thunderous, and even you, the mighty creator, couldn't help but laugh alone.
"Babe, I am sorry, it's just looking at me like I have to end its suffering," after some time, Satoru finally wept some tears and breathed out weakly with his hand on his stomach. You both looked at the hopeless blob. "Why do you keep it, anyway?"
Sighing in response, you murmured, "Dunno. I can't bring myself to throw it away."
Satoru just hummed in response and settled back against the pillows. "Will you take it to France?"
Your heart skipped a beat at the mention, and you just shrugged indecisively. The light mood you had slowly evaporated. After some minutes, you rolled back to face Satoru again, only to find him already watching you closely.
"Were you serious?"
He tilted his head in question; his hand came up to brush a hair strand behind your ear. "About what?"
The next words came in a hesitant whisper.
"Moving with me to France."
Satoru's thumb traced your bottom lip before he dropped his arm to the side. Shrugging casually, he lifted a steady gaze on you. "Are you still thinking about moving there?"
You swallowed nervously before nodding. "Yeah."
"Then I was serious too. We're dating again, it's only logical then."
You couldn't fight with that argument.
"Guess it is. I justâŠ," you lifted one shoulder, still doubtful. "Can't believe you do that for me."
And he couldn't believe you questioned it. But instead, Satoru just blinked at you and muttered in the most serious tone possible.
"I told you I was going to marry you. Yes, I still want to. I wasn't joking and trying to hold you back in the heat of the moment â"
You wordlessly glanced at him.
" â okay, I did, but I was serious. And still am. Hell, baby," the mattress dipped under his weight as Satoru scooted closer. "You're the only thing â not a thing, person, I mean, you're the most serious I've ever been about anything and anyone in my life. I swear. Where you go, I follow."
His voice cracked at the last words, and you let a shuddering breath, cupping his face.
"Are you sure? What will your family say? Job? Suguru?"
Satoru lifted a corner of his lips in a small grin, recalling the same arguments he used to talk you out of moving.
"I am pretty sure I can find something there. Isn't this a part of discovering yourself, too? It could be pretty fun. Who knows, maybe I have some secret talent for pastries. Not just eating. Baking! Plus, I know French," he beamed at you like the Sun. You couldn't help but grin back. "It's a little rusty, though."
You both snorted, but then a frown crossed Satoru's face, and his tone turned more serious.
"SuguruâŠhe'll understand. We still will be talking, right? Not as we used to, butâŠhey, now I will have an excuse to send him even more stupid memes."
"I am sure he will be ecstatic about it."
"He won't have any choice, heh. And my familyâŠhonestly? I don't really care. We both said everything we wanted to each other. I do not see any sense in bowing and scraping."
Your face crumpled in a grimace as you recalled that you were one of the reasons that entire thing happened, and hunched your shoulders. "Still sorry about it."
"And I am still saying you shouldn't be."
Minutes passed between you in a relative silence, interrupted only by the car noises and distant humming of the refrigerator as you stared at the ceiling. Finally, you turned to look at Satoru. Moonlight painted his features in an even more breathtaking way, highlighting the sharp jawline and illuminating the blue of his eyes.
"SoâŠwe are really going to France."
Satoru smiled at you â the gentle one he saved only for you â and reached for your hand to interlace your fingers slowly.
"We really are."
***
The morning sun crept through the blinds, bathing a bedroom in a soft, ethereal light, and its beams lazily caressed your face in feathery kisses. As your nose twitched at the sensation, begrudgingly, very begrudgingly, you blinked and reached for your phone. It came to life with a faint buzz; you tried to focus your bleary gaze on the time and sighed in relief as you still had half an hour before the alarm.
A careful attempt to sink back into the sheets didn't go unnoticed by the whole mountain of heat and muscle beside you. Satoru's arm snaked around your waist with an energy too restless for a sleepy man.
"Where are you going to, huh?" His voice, still deep and thick with sleep, felt like a pure sin against your nape. A shudder ran through your body as he gently nuzzled the soft skin there and pressed his lips against the point that shouldn't drive you crazy like it did. "Morning, ma choute."
Amusement curled your tone as you breathed out a chuckle, "Your favourite word, huh?"
Instead of answering, Satoru hummed something unintelligible against the curve of your neck, nosing it, while his lips found your pulse point.
"Can't help it. Not my fault if it fits you perfectly. So sweet," his head went into a dizzy, hazy state at the whiff of your chocolate shower gel and something so uniquely yours. "So soft." The hand that rested leisurely on your belly lazily drifted upwards to cup the tender swell of your breasts. Your breath caught in your throat as you arched into Satoru's touch with a quiet, sleepy moan.
"Ah, SatoruâŠ"
When your voice dipped into that syrupy bedroom voice, laced with so much want, Satoru never could help himself. His hips bucked involuntarily, eliciting a surprised gasp from you, as you felt the throbbing of his length against your backside.
Your hair fanned over a pillow like a halo, catching the bright light, and Satoru's heart skipped a beat. He gently bit down on your pulse point, and as your gasp rose in a tone, he quickly soothed it with a lick of his tongue.
"Fuck, you're so beautiful. So, so beautiful. Can't believe you're mine." The heat crept up your body all the way to your cheeks, not only at the way Satoru rolled your nipple between his fingers, palming at the soft skin there, but at the bewilderment in his voice. As if he were actually shocked.
Another moan left your lips as you closed your eyes in the utter pleasure, coursing through your body and tightening your insides into the sweet knot. Subconsiously, you pushed your trembling thighs back against his front, to which Satoru responded with a low hiss.
"You're in a teasing mood today, huh?"
A sharp pang of disappointment shot through your body when his hand left your chest.
"SatoruâŠ"
"Shh, patience, baby. Good things come to those who wait, don't they?" You almost whined at the loss of the contact, but then his hand â god, that hand â wrapped around your throat with a light grip, just enough to turn your face and capture your lips in a lazy, unhurried kiss. He licked at the seam of your mouth, and you immediately opened it, granting Satoru access. Your tongues lazily tangled, exploring each other; you slid your free hand down his toned pecs, sharp abs and wrapped it around the already hard cock. Giving it a few unhurried pumps, you heard Satoru moaning unbashfully against your mouth.
"Oh, fuck, yeah, keep going, love. Just like â, oh, just like that."
You fondled his balls with a sly smirk, to which he responded with a sharp, almost desperate cry, andâŠstopped.
"Hey, baby," the pout was evident in his voice, "That's not fair. Like totally not fair."
With a smirk widening, you turned just a tad to see his half-lidded gaze darkening with lust. "Haven't you just preached to me about patience, Toru?"
Satoru's head hit your shoulder as he let a groan, followed by a disbelieving laugh. "Vixen. You drive me crazy, you know that?"
"Yeah, yeah, yet you're still not inside me." After rolling your eyes impatiently, you finally heard the sheets rustling. Your insides clenched in anticipation.
Laughing quietly, Satoru kissed your shoulder, pulling you closer against his front. His hand slid under your hip, lifting it for better access, and hoisted it over his own. You almost whimpered as the thick head of his cock nudged your already wet entrance.
You attempted to glare at Satoru, but it ended rather poorly with the way your eyes were glazed with desire. Giving you a smirk, not even trying to hide his arrogance and smugness, he hastily fisted his cock and aligned it with your entrance, slowly yet surely filling you up inch by inch.
"F-fuck, you're so tight," Satoru's hot whisper fanned over your jawline as he pressed heated kisses up to your mouth. "So warm, so good, so p-perfect â babe, don't clench me like that, f-for me."
Your lips parted, forming almost a perfect "O" in its shape at the burn of the stretch, and the first loud moan tore from your chest, when Satoru finally gave you a shallow roll of his hips.
"Sa-Satoru, yeahâŠ"
With no hesitation, you reached behind and tugged at the soft white tufts above Satoru's undercut, pressing his head into your nape to seek even more contact until your bodies fused in a messy, unintelligible tangle of limbs, needy touches and wanton moans. His hips built a slow, languid rhythm, moulding your insides into the shape of his cock; each thick vein and ridge of him against your velvet walls made your mind swim in pleasure, so overwhelming it drowned every coherent thought. One of his hands snaked up to squeeze your breasts, eliciting more shaky whimpers from you.
"Love you, love you so fucking much, you don't even, ngh, under-understand, shit, y-yes," Satoru slurred against your cheek after yet another sloppy kiss, his tongue darting to taste the salty skin as you literally cried in ecstasy when he hit that sweet spot inside. You were completely sure he would never let you forget this. His moves gradually lost their rhythm, giving in to a raw, primal desire. A string of desperate whimpers spilt from your lips, and you turned your head to muffle these cries in the pillow.
Wrong move.
Seeing it, Satoru's lips curled into a sharp smirk. He quickly wetted his fingers and dragged them down to press quick, tight circles on your clit, and with all the stimulation, your body jolted in pleasure. Heat, shameless and urgent, built at the base of your spine, coursed through your veins and lit every part on fire. His cock twitched inside you at the way you breathed out his name with such desperation that put all the prayers to shame.
"Give it to me, baby. Be a good girl, yeah? Cum for me."
Your thighs shook violently, which was a telling sign that you were close; he feverishly rutted against yours, rubbing your clit in quick motions, panting against the curve of your neck. His eyes rolled in pleasure as your cunt fluttered around him, coating his shaft in juices, and with a shameless guttural groan, he cummed too.
The sound of your name, spilling from Satoru's lips like it was the only word he knew, brought tears to your eyes. Of love, of longing, or devotion, you weren't even sure.
Satoru was still in you, behind you, wrapping you in his arms and scent, when you awkwardly tried to turn around. He lazily blinked at you â the blue of his eyes resembled the glimmering waves of the Mediterranean Sea, which lapped the shores of the city that had become your home. Swallowing a lump in your throat, you lean in to press a quick, almost chaste kiss on the corner of his lips. They twitched with a soft grin.
"Someone's awfully sweet. Good morning, I guess. Really good, that time. What if â "
Before Satoru finished, your hands framed his face, and you kissed him again, taking your time. He released a quiet, unexpected sigh and melted into it immediately, giving you all the reins. Sweet and soft, your tongue swept over his plump lips and explored his mouth, until you both pulled away to catch your breath. Resting your forehead against his, you muttered quietly.
"I love you."
Satoru didn't answer you right away; instead, he cupped your cheek, his thumb grazed the soft skin under your eyes, and he murmured back.
"I love you more."
You didn't want to delve into the endless fight of who loved whom more, so you just settled against his chest with a soft sigh. Satoru tucked your head under his chin and gently ran his fingers up and down your spine.
"How are you feeling? Wanna cuddle a little or go showering?"
"I wish we could cuddle more, but Nobara and Maki are coming inâŠvery soon, actually."
Satoru stilled for a moment and released a groan, reluctant to let you go and leave that bed, jutting his bottom lip in the biggest pout known to the Universe.
"Is it today? Do we have to go with them, baby?"
"Yes. Toru, we promised them to show the Fine Arts Museum. Maki didn't visit it last time they were in Marseille because it was shut for some renovation. Apparently."
"Geez, I was hoping for a round two. And maybe three in the shower. Besides, we were there with Suguru last summer." His hand slid down to squeeze your butt in the last attempt to persuade you, but you stood your ground. With great effort.
"Satoru, no. We don't see them often. Get up."
Saoru's hand that reached to pinch your side as you hopped off to get to the shower, limply fell to his side. He groaned as his head hit the pillow, but as the sounds of water running filled the space, he enthusiastically got up and padded to the bathroom. He could be prettyâŠconvincing when he wanted to.
Indeed, an hour later, Nobara suspiciously eyed both of you up and down â your hair told her everything she needed to know. Satoru didn't even try to hide a big dopey grin that screamed "I just got laid by the most gorgeous woman in the world". You elbowed him. Hard. His smile got even wider, so you sent him to help Maki with their suitcases.
"You know, I am so happy for you." You gave Nobara a cup of scorching latte, just the way she preferred. Her lips curled into an amusing yet soft grin. "No, really. You both look radiant."
She laughed heartily, nodding in gratitude; however, her gaze was fixed on your front yard. You followed the direction and chuckled as well, seeing Satoru and Maki trying to coax Nobara's cat â a fluffy, totally spoilt Persian named Lady â out of the carrier. She only hissed in response.
"Yeah. Me too. She'sâŠI don't know how to explain it. But I am so happy she agreed to move here. The same is for you, by the way. Provence does wonders for both of you. Even Gojo."
You rested your elbows on the table with a melancholic sigh. Yes, the start of your journey in France was quite turbulent: a total mess with language, documents, fighting with landlords over the rent, and taking up any gigs for moneyâŠIt only helped that you had some of it saved. Endless hours of work, tears and efforts poured into building your new life finally got its fruits: at one of the fashion shows, Nobara introduced you to the famous photographer, who instantly fell in love with your works. And SatoruâŠ
"Phew, finally," the front door opened, revealing beaming Satoru with Lady in his arms, whoâŠpurred in content. Nobara's eyes widened in shock.
"Lady, what? He's a man! Have some dignity!"
"Can't help it if I am that charming," he scratched the kitty under her chin. "Even cats know that."
"That's, unfortunately, true." You squeaked in delight at Maki's tired voice and jumped into her arms. After a few solid minutes of hugging, you finally released her as she begged you to show her the bathroom.
"So, Gojo," Nobara drawled in a voice too casual. Satoru exchanged brief yet pointed glances with you. Lady cracked one eye open and yawned, staring at her catmom. "Do you have, by any chance, some calissons left?"
In Nobara's language, that meant she had been dying to taste them, but she would never admit it to Satoru. "Don't tell him, or his ego would grow even bigger!"
So you just happened to drop that you wanted to have those candies, and of course, Satoru whipped some up: they just waited to be baked. Judging by his cocky smirk, he already figured both of you out.
"Why do you call me Gojo? She's a Gojo too, you know?" The oven beeped a couple of times when Satoru put the tray with callisons inside. Nobara only rolled her eyes and hugged you with a grin.
And Satoru once decided to try his hand at the things that he loved the most in the world (after you, of course): sweets. In particular, pastries. To put it concisely, baking. It took a lot, a lot of time and years of learning in culinary academies under the guidance of chiefs, before he could finally name himself the one.
Marseille greeted you with arms open, the fresh scent of pastries lingering in the air, mesmerising views and the centuries of history ingrained in its walls. You left Paris after you realised it was high time to move forward, and since you mentioned a couple of times that you wanted to live in Provence for some time, Satoru started to look for a home and a place for his own bakery. His own thing. That he built only by himself, with no family barking and ordering him around. He and you. And Satoru could've never been happier for it.
You indeed had never made it easy for him. But now, seeing you laugh with your friends, among the paintings, with the sun casting a soft, almost amber glow on your figure, Satoru realised he would rather have things difficult with you than easy with anyone else. Because you were worth it.
ê° summary ê± when a misunderstanding leaves your family convinced youâre bringing a plus one to your cousinâs wedding in Japan, the last person you expect to volunteer for the role is your infuriatingly observant intern, Satoru. itâs supposed to be temporary. professional. strictly off the record. but with your mother already sold on the idea of your mystery boyfriend, and Satoru proving far too good at the role, pretending starts to feel a little too dangerous. also, why is your âinternâ secretly the heir to gojo corporation?!
ê° tags/warnings ê± fake dating âčïž undercover ceo! satoru âčïž accountant! reader âčïž satoru is 29, reader is 26 âčïž lots of family pressure. reader has a complicated relationship with her mom âčïž forced proximity âčïž one bed trope âčïž slow burn âčïž mutual pining âčïž wedding chaos âčïž angst and fluff âčïž some suggestive content but no explicit smut âčïž
ê° authors note ê± hi cuties! this is a commission piece, and it is about 12k total. this first part is just shy of 6k and the second part will be out next week. i hope you enjoy đ«¶đ» (art by @/hanamin_0123 on x)
"Oi. Boss lady."
âNo.â
One problem at a time, and the spreadsheet in front of you wins by default. Because Column F is wrong. Itâs been wrong for forty fucking minutes, and if it stays wrong for forty seconds longer, you may actually die here at your desk â hunched over, half-blind, and found by Shoko on a Monday morning with your face pressed into a pivot table like a cautionary tale.
"But⊠you don't even know what I was gonnaâ"
"âthe answer is no, Satoru."
Unlike the human embodiment of a headache currently lingering on the other side of your desk, the spreadsheet in front of you is at least pretending to be important.
The chair beneath him creaks, and then comes the silence you know too well. Itâs the one that comes right before he decides to be a problem on purpose. Attention is gasoline and Satoru is, structurally, a fire hazard. Still, your eyes flick up, andâ
"No fairâŠâ he huffs, that ridiculous pout tugging at his lips. âYou didn't even let me finish the question."
Your eyes roll back down.
âMhm.â
"And it was such a good question.â
You turn a page. "Really?â
âYup.â Heâs draped over the corner of your desk now, like gravity has wronged him, whining. âIt was such a thoughtful⊠personal⊠deeply relevant⊠extremely genius level getting-to-know-you tier question thatââ
You scowl. "âSatoru, enough. Just do your job."
It lands harder than expected. The sigh he lets out is deeply, theatrically offended. And when you glance up again, heâs sprawled over that same corner of your desk you made the mistake of clearing for him on day one because youâd thought, foolishly, that giving him a designated surface might contain him.
It had not.
Nothing about Satoru had ever suggested he could be contained.
Snowy white hair falls against his brow, sleeves rolled to his elbows; looking far too expensive and far too comfortable for someone whose official title is intern. His coffee is sweating beside your open planner â the one with a date next week circled in red: WEDDING, scrawled across the margin in your own handwriting. The condensation trails towards a stack of vendor invoices andâ
âŠ
Wait.
Are those the same vendor invoices you asked him to file yesterday?
Fucking great.
âOh, câmonnn,â he grumbles, blinking at you over the rim of those absurdly expensive sunglasses he insists on wearing indoors. âOne question. Just a tiiiiny one. Itâs completely harmless. Humor me, yeah?â
You narrow your eyes.
âSatoru, youâve been trying to ask one question for the last four months.â
âYeah,â he says. âAnd youâve been dodging it for four months. Imagine that.â
Technically⊠four months and four days. But whoâs counting?
With an exhausted groan, your eyes fall shut, pinching the bridge of your nose. Noise drifts in from the hall â the elevator, the printer, a phone trilling somewhere nearby. Â But when you look up again, it all seems to fall away.
Heâs gone strangely still. The smug grin hasnât disappeared, but itâs softened at the edges, hooked at one corner with his head tilted slightly. And those eyesâŠ
Oh.
Thatâs â no. Youâve seen his eyes before. Obviously. Four months of them. But right now, with the morning light doing something cruel and unhelpful behind him, they catch in a way that makes you forget you were mid-thought. The kind of blue that doesnât ask if youâre looking. It already knows.
Which means of course, you look away first. âFine.â Your hand drops as you mutter. âOne question. But if itâs stupid, Iâm sending you back to HR.â
Itâs not much of a threat. Itâs his last day, after all, and for reasons you still donât fully understand, Satoru has always seemed oddly immune to consequences â which, frankly, feels statistically improbable given the amount of shit heâs managed to pull in the few months of being here.
âOne question?â his grin sharpens. You point your pen at him. âDonât make me regret this.â Yet his pleased chuckle is already making you. âAwhh⊠look at you. Finally yielding.â His pen twirls between his fingers, nodding with false solemnity. âOkay. So, hereâs the thing⊠throughout these four months working beside you, Iâve seen a lotâ"
ââthatâs not a question.â You deadpan.
But ignoring you, he reclines back in the chair, hands clasped behind his head.
âLiiiike⊠Iâve seen the exact face you make when Mei-Mei emails you,â he smirks. âEven noticed you work through lunch more than you should. And Iâve noticed that little line right hereââ he gestures vaguely between his own brows ââevery time the budget goes sideways.â
Lips parting, you blink.
âŠwhy is he so observant?!
For someone who acts like he doesnât give a shit, heâs strangely attentive.
You clear your throat, huffing. âOkay⊠whatâs your point?â Your hands straighten a stack of papers that doesnât need straightening. âIs there a question in here somewhere, or are you just reciting my habits back to me for fun?â
His grin is far too pleased. âRelax. Iâm getting there.â And leaning forward, his voice drops, like heâs unraveling a conspiracy. âI just find it interesting how you answer work calls before the second ring. Every damn day. Doesnât matter who it is.â His head tilts with a smug grin. âBut for whatever reason, for the past month, your personal phoneâs been ringing off the hook, and you never pick up. Not once.â
Heat creeps up your neck. Not because heâs wrong â but because heâs right. And he said it like it was nothing. Like noticing the pattern of your avoidance was just something that happened to him between stamps.
Oh.
Way too observant.
Shit. He couldn't have settled on what's your favorite color!? Or, what superpower would you have!? No. Of course he had to go for the fucking jugular.
Okay. Nevermind. Heâs wrong. That is not even remotely whatâs happening. The most committed relationship youâve had is the one with your coffee machine. And yet⊠part of it feels almost cosmically cruel.
Because somehow, this is the second time in a month that someone had looked at the scattered pieces of your life and decided a man must be hiding inside them. Except the first time, you never even got the chance to correct it.
After all⊠how do you tell your mother sheâs wrong?
Last month, you still answered her phone calls.
Not because you expected anything different. But because somewhere between the second ring and the third, thereâs this gap â this stupid, paper-thin gap â where you still believe she might ask how youâre doing and actually wait for the answer.
Some habits taste like smoke. Some burn like liquor. But yours, unfortunately, had always looked a lot like hope.
Hope is a terrible habit youâve never been able to kick.
âOhâuh, hi mom!â
Your phone was wedged between your ear and shoulder while you stepped out of your car, juggling your purse and what was left of your sanity. You were already behind schedule, and your mother was calling â which meant the day had already made its intentions very clear.
âWhatâs up?â the door slammed shut with your hip. âIâm actually about toââ
ââTrish sent the venue photos,â she blurted, launching into a conversation like always.
Blinking, you shook the bitterness away. Striding toward the towering glass of Gojo Corporation. âThatâsâyeah, thatâs great,â you muttered, badge in hand as you pushed through the front doors. âBut Iâm actually heading into work right now? Soââ
ââItâs such a beautiful venue,â she ignored you. âVery traditional, very grand. But you know the Zenin familyâthey never do anything small.â And as she sighed in awe, you resisted the urge to roll your eyes.
The rational part of your brain told you to let this go to voicemail. But the rational part of your brain has never once won this fight. BecauseâŠ
Hope is a terrible habit youâve never been able to kick.
"Mom, I'm sure it's lovely, really⊠but I'm kind ofâum, excuse meâŠ" you pivoted around a man in the bustling lobby with a sigh. âSorry. Iâm literally walking into the building right now? But maybe we can revisit this later andâ"
"âhave you booked your flight yet?"
Your mouth flattened.
Clearly, your half of this conversation is optional.
âNo⊠not yet,â you mumbled, as patiently as you could manage, jabbing the up button harder than necessary. âItâs been a crazy ass week so I havenât had a chance to, butââ
ââevery week is a crazy week for you.â The huff she let out sounded almost offended by the inconvenience of your life. âWhy canât you just book it now while weâre talking? I mean, it literally takes five minutes.â
A miracle, really, that your blood pressure isnât a medical emergency.
Every week is a crazy week?
Yeah. No shit.
Two managers resigned last quarter. Another got escorted out by security. And their work didnât disappear. No. It landed on your desk. Because thatâs how it goes. Thatâs how itâs always gone. Group projects. Internships. End-of-quarter disasters no one else wanted to touch. If something needed fixing, it found its way to you.
Youâre the one people relied on.
Just⊠never the one people chose.
âMother. Iâm at work,â you said, stepping into the elevator as the doors slid open, dropping your voice as you stabbed at floor fifteen. âLookâIâm about to walk into an eight a.m. meeting. But Iâll book it tonight, promise.â
ââŠeight a.m.?â she repeated slowly, before letting out a small, unbothered laugh. âOh! Right. Itâs eight p.m. here. Silly me. I keep forgetting.â
âŠ
Keep forgetting?
She keeps forgetting that sheâs ten thousand miles away? Forgetting that twenty years ago she abandoned you in another country to live abroad in Japanâhanding you to your grandparents like a detail she'd get back to later?
How convenient that she forgot that.
The elevator slid shut, and you watched the numbers tick upward. âUm. YeahâŠâ you managed, trying to keep the hurt out of your voice. âAnyways. Iâll book it tonight. After work. Okay?â
"Okay, okay. Sure. Sounds good. But are you bringing anyone?â
Squeezing the strap of your bag, you swallowed the lump in your throat. This again? The last thing you needed was to walk into your shitty eight a.m. meeting looking emotional.
No thanks.
âI⊠uhâŠâ you cleared your throat. âI umâactuallyâhavenât decided yet. But anyways, I gotta go, soââ
âWaitwatiwait. Havenât decided? Does that mean⊠you actually found someone?!â
Her voice pitched up so fast it almost startled you, and your mouth dropped so low it couldâve hit floor one.
Shit.
âI-IâI didnât sayâ"
ââoh, thank God. This is incredible!!â she squealed. âWeâve been so worried. I meanâTrish is younger than you and she figured it out,â her tongue clicked. âPeople have been asking questions, you know. Your aunt Sara keeps bringing it up every time I see her andââ
ââMom, Iâ"
ââItâs about time,â The laugh she let out was relieved, like a problem in her life had finally begun resolving itself. âYou canât keep putting love on hold forever, because men arenât going to wait around forever. Youâre already twenty-sixânot getting any younger, dear.â
Love?!
Who has time for that?
And why the fuck is twenty-six the age a woman expires?!
âWhatâs his name?â she pressed, practically beaming through the phone. âWhat does he do? Is he from there, orâoh, is he Japanese? Your father would love that, he always saidââ
And she was off.
Spinning an entire man out of thin air. An entire future, really. Building him in real time from a tiny slip up you had because you were too tired and cornered and desperate enough to answer the phone in the first place. And you stood there, letting her. Because interrupting her has never once worked in the history of your life.
ââactually, never mind,â she chirped a moment later, as if she was being considerate now. âYou have work. Iâll call tomorrow and you can tell me everything, yes? Okay, bye-bye honeyââ
Click!
And just like that, the elevator went quiet. You were left staring at your reflection in the metal doors, phone pressed to your ear, listening to the silence where your motherâs voice had been.
âWeâve been so worried.â
âŠ
If they were so worried⊠why had you spent most of your life learning to take care of yourself? And yet, the second there might be a man, suddenly youâre worth getting excited about?
Funny how that works.
Scoffing, you lowered the phone, shoving it into your bag just as the elevator chimed open. Itadori Yujiâs head snapped up behind the reception desk.
âMorning, boss,â he waved, radiating sunshine as you walked towards the conference room. âKentoâs asking if youâre still good for the budget review at eight⊠or if I should just tell him to panic.â
Your smile softened, burying the sting. âYes⊠Iâll be right there.â And as you stepped through the polished glass doors, you played the role youâd always played.
The reliable one. Twenty-six years old, with two masterâs degrees, a career at one of the most competitive corporations in the world, and a team of seven that would quietly fall apart without you.
ButâŠ
None of that glitters quite like a diamond ring, does it?
âOi,â Satoru frowns. âYouâre makinâ that face again.â
âHuh?â
Blinking out of your spiral, your eyes trace back to the man across from you. His chin is resting in his palm, those impossibly blue eyes fixed on you with a quiet stillness that makes something in your chest trip over itself â like a lock turning in a door you didnât know was closed.
âOh.â You clear your throat, forcing the pen back into motion. ââŠwhat face?â
âThe one you make when somethingâs wrong,â he says quietly, gaze unmoving. âWhen youâre upset and trying to act like youâre not.â
For a second â one terrible, unguarded second â you donât have a single thing to hide behind. Itâs just him, looking at you like your well-being is something heâs been keeping track of in a column you didnât even know existed.
But then the sarcasm kicks in, right on time. "Wow," you say, forcing your hands back to the papers in front of you. "So⊠now you read faces?"
âMm... nah. Just yours, sweetheart.â
And that grin â god, that fucking grin â hooks at one corner like he knows exactly what just detonated inside your chest. You donât acknowledge it. Acknowledging things have consequences, and consequences with this man are not something you can afford.
"âŠthatâs highly inappropriate," you mutter, shoving it down. "Letâs maybe redirect some of that insight toward the invoices, yeah?"
âSorry, sorry.â He leans back, hands up like heâs the picture of innocence. âWouldnât wanna start shit with your dear future husband.â His grin goes sharp as he twirls his sunglasses between two fingers. âThough, wow. Tough look for him. Whatever he did, he clearly fucked up bad.â
Why does he sound⊠bitter?
No. You must be imagining it. This is Satoru. Satoru, who treats everything like a joke until proven otherwise. Satoru, who doesnât care enough about anything to sound bitter over a man who may or may not exist.
You scoff. "Youâre making some wildly stupid assumptions right nowâŠ"
He stares at you for a beat, then he flops back in the chair with a dramatic huff, long legs kicking out in front of him, mouth dragging into a sulky pout.
âWell, damn,â he grumbles, pushing his sunglasses up into his hair, rolling his eyes. âNo wonder youâre single if this is how you shut people downâŠâ
The second the words leave his mouth, he blinks. His gaze flicks up to yours like he hears it too late â like he realizes, all at once, how shitty that sounded.And it only feels worse the moment he sees your face.
God.
Of all the places to hit.
âOho⊠wow. Okay. This?â you say with a thin, self-deprecating laugh, chair scraping as you shove back from your seat. âYeah. This is exactly why I shouldnât have let you ask, Satoru.â You reach for your planner, your purse, anything to do with your hands besides let them shake.
He straightens, watching you scramble. âWhoa. Wait. Iâ"
ââbecause you donât know when to stop!â The words come out louder than you mean, blinking at the sting behind your eyes. âYou just keep pushing and pushing and pushing until you get what you want. Well good. I hope youâre happy.â
Before you can turn away, heâs on his feet. âWaitââ And the moment his hand catches yours, you freeze, breath snagging.
His voice is quieter now. His grip is firm yet gentle, and the air between you shifts, while something warm and uneasy twists low in your chest. The kind of feeling that makes you want to lean in and run in the same breath.
Though your eyes stay down. âSatoru⊠let go.â
âI didnâtâŠâ he starts, then stops, gaze flicking to where his fingers still circle your wrist â before climbing back to your face, slower this time. âIâm⊠sorry. I justââ His mouth tightens. âI see how hard you work, okay? I see it. And every time that phone rings, you get this look on your face like itâs already ruined your day before you even touch it. AndâŠâ His brows pinch. âFuck. I dunno why, but it pisses me off!â
Your gaze hesitantly drags to his, and the look in his eyes is softer than they have any right to be â all that blue, stripped of its usual sharpness, turned careful. Like heâs stepping toward something breakable and knows it. Like⊠if he asked once more, something in you might actually give.
âSatoruâŠâ your breath hitches. âI-Iâ"
âOh, finally.â
Shokoâs voice trails in, and your head snaps up so fast your neck almost goes with it. Sheâs leaning against the doorframe, arms crossed, coffee in hand â looking like a woman who arrived exactly on time for something she's been expecting all week.
Her gaze flicks down to where heâs holding you, and the corner of her mouth twitches.
"Sooo⊠not to interrupt whatever this is," she says, taking a sip, "but Kento's one eye-twitch away from a medical event. He needs you to sign off on the variance line before he starts reconciling his own will andâ"
You're already jerking your hand back. "Yupâcoming!" And as you step away, heat floods your face, but you don't look back. Not once. Not even when you feel him still standing there, watching you go.
Because looking back would mean acknowledging that something just shifted. And you are not â not â doing that today.
Unlike those invoices, perhaps some things are better left⊠unfinished.
Youâre gone in a blur of heels, nerves, and professional self-preservation, leaving Shoko trailing behind and Satoru staring at the empty doorway like maybe the conversation might wander back through it.
It doesnât.
And itâs not long before his mouth is pulling into a slow, petulant poutâjust before he flops back in the chair with all the elegance of a man personally betrayed by the universe.
Un-fucking-believable.
Heâd almost had you! After four months and four days of being stonewalled, redirected, and professionally shut down, youâd finally looked like you might give him something. A crack. A sliver. And then Kento had to ruin it with his stupid reconciliation sheet, his stupid earnest face, and his stupidly impeccable timing.
âŠ
He could fire Kento.
Should he fire Kento?
As tempting as that thought is, Satoru settles for glaring at the empty doorway a second longer before dragging a hand down his face and raking it back through his hair. Thereâs no point. This performance will end soon. Because by this time tomorrow, heâll be on a flight back to Tokyo. Where he can resume the slow, agonizing process of preparing to inherit a company he didn't actually give a shit about.
'Grow up, Satoru.'
'Apply yourself, Satoru.'
'You have no idea what it takes to run something like this, Satoru.'
Right. Because apparently, the heir to a multinational corporation needed to learn humility. Alphabetize files. Sit in a cubicle. Fetch coffee like some goddamn spreadsheet slut with a trust fund and nowhere to put it.
Four years of business school, two years shadowing his father; and yet, this is what they had for him?!
He scoffs. And when his gaze drops to the wreckage of your desk, heâs pulling the stack of vendor invoices toward him with a sigh that sounds put-upon even to his own ears. Youâve been nagging him about filing them for the better part of the week and⊠the least he can do is clear one thing before he goes.
The stamp thuds against the first page. Then the next. Then the next. And with muscle memory taking over, his face goes blank in the way it always does when boredom finally wins. Itâs mindless shit. Still, heâs used to it. So naturally, when the phone on your desk buzzes, he doesnât think twice; snatching it up, tucking it between his ear and shoulder as he reaches for the next invoice.
Itâs probably another budget nuisance. Or Mei. Or one of the other thousand little crises that seem magnetically drawn to your extension.
âYo,â another stamp echoes. âSatoru speaking.â
Thereâs a sharp inhale. ââŠwho?â
His brow lifts. âUh⊠Satoru?â Another thud of ink slams against the paper and he huffs, annoyed. âWhat do yâneed?â
The line goes quiet for a beat too long. Before the woman on the other end finally murmurs, âSatoruâŠâ Sighing in awe. âWhat a lovely name. Is that Japanese?â
"Uh⊠yeah?â he snorts, flipping to the next page. âI mean. Last I checked.â
âMm⊠I thought so!â She giggles. And her voice pitches like she's just unwrapped a present she didn't know she was getting. âSo⊠Satoru. Why exactly are you the one answering her phone, hm?â
âŠ
Why the hell does this woman sound so invested? And why is she asking questions that should be obvious?
Frowning down at the invoice, he stamps it harder.
âBecause it rang?â He says it like itâs obvious. âAnd uhâsorry, but. Maybe because Iâve been with her for months, so⊠why the hell wouldnât I?â
"Months?!â A soft gasp crackles, far too delighted. âYou'veâyou've been with her for months?!"
"Mmm⊠four months and four days, technically."
Heâs been her intern for that long.
Thatâs the question, right?
"âtechnically?!" she squeals, like the word personally seduced her. "Ohmygoodnessâoh, this is perfect. Four months and four daysâthat is so specific.â
He blinks. But she doesnât give him time to process.
âLook at you Mr. Devoted. Keeping track. I was starting to worry sheâd never find someone like you. Every time I asked it's like pulling teeth. But I knew there had to be someone. I told her fatherâI said, there is a man, I can feel it.â
Pausing mid-stamp, the words slowly begin to catch up. Satoru straightens.
"âŠsorry. Who is thiâ"
ââeveryone is so excited to meet you at Trishâs wedding. I already reserved your seat andâ"
Her voice keeps going⊠and going⊠and going. He pulls the phone away slowly as her voice echoes on the receiver, staring down at the phone in hand to see:
đ Mom
Oh.
Oh, shit.
This is not your work phone. Your work phone is currently sitting at its dock twelve inches to his left. And it dawns on him that he accidentally just spent the last sixty seconds answering your personal phone like an absolute jackass andâ
"UhâŠâ he backpedals. âWait. Iâ"
"I told Sara, I said, we have to meet him andââ
"Stop. I-I really thinkâ"
ââSatoru, what are you doing?â
His head snaps up at the sound of your voice, mouth dropping as he sees you standing at the doorway, eyes wide in horror.
Oh, fuck.
âWho is on the other end of that phone,â you hiss.
He winces, pulling the phone from his ear like itâs toxic â and youâre snatching it right out of his hand. He lets you have it without a fight, sinking back into the chair like heâs trying to physically dissociate from the situation heâs just created while you press the phone to your ear.
âAnd I meanâŠâ she rambles. âI certainly was never one to wait around at twenty-six, believe me. Butâ"
"Mom."
"Oh! Honey!â She gasps. âOh, my goodness, hiâI was just having the loveliest chat withâ"
"I'm at work. Gotta go."
"âokay! I can't wait to meet Satoru, heâ"
Click!
The phone sits in your hand like evidence.
And Satoru â to his credit â has the decency to look like a man standing in the blast radius of his own stupidity. His mouth opens. Closes. Opens again. Like heâs rehearsing an apology in a language he hasnât learned yet.
You stare at him.
He stares at you.
And somewhere ten thousand miles away, your mother is already calling your aunt Sara.
âSooo⊠funny storyâŠâ
ââwhat did you do?!â
Satoru flinched, and now, the tears were already rolling down your cheeks â hot, fast, completely unauthorized. Not the kind you could disguise as allergies or blame on the air conditioning. No. The ugly kind.
Great. Fucking great.
You were standing in the middle of your own office, in the building where you work, crying in front of your intern. And Satoru felt the weight of it all at once. In the last four months, he had seen you in every flavor of workplace misery there was. Pissed off, stressed out, one spreadsheet away from actual murder.
But cry?
Never.
And this had his fingerprints all over it.
"Shit," he breathed, panic flashing across his face. "Iâfuck. Okay. Please don'tâI can fix this. I canâ"
"Fix this?" A splintered laugh ripped out of you, and you hated how thin it was. "Fix what, Satoru? You just confirmed a boyfriend to my mother, a boyfriend that doesn't existâand she is, at this very moment, probably alreadyâ"
Another break in your voice cracked, and you squeezed your eyes shut, pressing your hand to your forehead hard like you could hold the tears in by sheer force. But it only made it worse, because now you could feel the wetness on your own face, the heat of it under your palm, and the mortification landed like a second wave.
God. How fucking humiliating.
"Hey, heyâit's okay,â his voice softened. âWe'll just⊠call her back. Right? Tell her it was a misunderstanding. Easy."
âEasy?â you scoffed, the word coming out strangled. âY-You donât understand my mother, Satoru,â you managed, voice gone thin as thread. God, you sounded like a child. âIf she thinks something is true, then itâs true. Thatâs it. Thatâsâthereâs no correcting her, thereâs no walking it back, sheâs already told my aunt Sara by now and Saraâs told Trish andâoh, fuckââ
Another sob tumbled out, and your fingers dug harder into your temple.
God. Stop it.
Stop it stop it stop it.
Think.
Think logically. You're good at this. You solve problems for a living.
But every time you tried to grab onto a thought, it slipped â replaced by the echo of your mother's voice, high and delighted. The happiest she'd sounded talking to you in years. Maybe ever.
âŠwhat look will she give you when you show up alone?
"I canât," you whispered, and the word came out waterlogged. "I-I'm supposed to get on a plane to Japan in a week andâdo what? Tell them there's no one? Tell them I'm stillâ"
Single.
The word sat in your mouth like a stone. You didnât realize youâd gone silent until the silence itself started ringing â your sniffling, the hum of fluorescent lights, the muffled life of the office continuing beyond the door like yours wasnât actively coming apart at the seams.
And through all of it, you could feel Satoru looking at you. His stillness; holding you with an expression you'd never seen on him before and couldn't categorize if you tried.
"UmâŠâ he looked down, scratching the back of his neck. âSoooo... the wedding's in Japan?"
You blinked. âWhat?â And as you wiped your face with the back of your hand, his gazed tentatively flicked back up. âThe weddingâŠâ he repeated, voice careful. âItâs in Japan?â
"Yes." Your brow furrowed, not understanding. "Why?"
He didn't answer right away. Just looked down at the floor for a second, jaw shifting, like he was turning something over in his head â something he hadn't fully assembled yet but could already feel the shape of.
"Huh⊠okay."
Okay what?
You watched his expression change in real time â from guilt to calculation to something else. "Right then!" He said, clapping his hands once, bright and sudden. "No biggie. I'll just go with you."
No biggie?
Your mouth dropped.
That wasnât even an option, was it?
âŠis he crazy?
âYouâre kidding,â your laugh was awkward and breathless. His eyes rolled with a smug grin. âSweetheart, câmon,â and he was gesturing between the two of you like the answer was sitting there in plain sight and you were the only person in the room committed to not seeing it. "Your family thinks you're bringing someone? Cool." A hand pressed to his chest with theatrical solemnity. "I'm someone."
You stared at him. Genuinely stared.
Oh. He wasnât kidding.
Yup. Heâs crazy.
"You are not 'someone,' Satoru. You are my intern."
âYeah. For like⊠another six hours?"
He checked his watch with a shrug, and your lips flattened.
"âŠthat is not the point."
âMm⊠feels a little like the point."
He smirked, but it faded faster than usual, dimming at the edges as his blue eyes hesitated on yours. Something shifted in his posture; the performance pulling back, like a tide going out. "Um⊠lookâŠ" He pushed off the desk, stepping closer. "Itâs really no hassle." He said, hands sliding into his pockets. "I already have a flight scheduled. My family's in Tokyo. And I was going back after this internship anyway, so⊠this just moves my timeline back a little."
He was shrugging like it wasnât a big deal. Like he wasnât agreeing to fly across the world with you and walk straight into the disaster that was your family.
âŠ
His familyâs in Japan too?
You barely knew anything about him. He kept his life sealed off with the same practiced deflection you kept yours â jokes in place of answers, charm in place of honesty. You never bothered to ask, because asking meant caring and that was a door you never intended to walk through with anyone.
ButâŠ
"Just⊠let me come with you. Iâll be your boyfriend for the weekend. For the wedding. For⊠whatever you need,â he said. And this time, when he stepped closer, there was no grin to hide behind. "I can be useful. I caused this. So⊠let me fix it."
Heat creeped up your neck, and you scoffed, weakly.
"Okay⊠but you can't fix my mother."
"NoâŠâ he murmured, tilting his head. His hand came up and brushed a tear trailing down your cheek with a careful gentleness. âBut⊠I can make sure you don't have to walk in there alone?"
Your breath hitched, and when your eyes finally lifted, the morning light was being cruel again â catching in that impossible blue and turning it soft. Like stained glass dipped in sunlight. Like something holy made dangerous by the simple fact that it was looking straight at you.
âShut up,â you mutter, looking away too fast to be convincing.âThat was not a look. I was justââ You grimace. ââŠnever mind.â
Heâs chuckling as you brush past him. And his words are what scared you the most. Which was bad. Very, very bad. Because your mother was one problem. Japan was another. But Satoru looking at you like that?
ShitâŠ
That felt like the kind of complication that didnât stay neatly contained. And you knew better than anyone. Nothing about Satoru had ever suggested he could be contained.
a/n: hehe. this has been fun to work on! i am excited to share the next part. clearly i love these fake dating/fake marriage tropes aha đââïž bc this is like... whatâmy third time doing it? soooo i tried to change things up and make it feel less standard/generic :) but anyways, like i said pt 2 will be out in a week, pls lmk if you wanna be tagged đ