My first heartbreak..
“WHAT DO YOU NEED?!?!”, I scream, “please don’t leave without first giving me the opportunity to fix it”, I plead. “it’s too late, LET ME GO!” you reply. “You’re just too much and I can’t do it anymore, its too hard.” You lower your head as you pick up your bags, ready to walk away from everything...from me. My stomach turns in knots as i watch you, my chest feels as though my heart has given up. It’s taken too much of a beating, i did not protect it as well as I should have. With this thought i lunge towards you grabbing at your bags, but you sidestep me and I crash to the floor. In that moment i felt my entire world, my entire being shatter into a million little pieces. “I-I’m sorry”, you stutter as you place your key on the table and walk out the door and out of my life. Never once glancing back at me. I laid there on the floor for what felt like forever, trying to keep the pieces together as my body jerked from the sounds coming from my chest. I didn’t recognize the noises I was making. I laid there trying to soothe myself. When I finally got up off that floor all the pieces i was trying to hold together fell apart. I couldn't hold them anymore. I dragged my aching body to my room and curled up under my duvet, hoping it would ease the pain. ”It’s time to sleep now”, I whispered to myself...