about me amber. she/her. australian italian. twenty-three. first aider. music and film lover. can probs never shut up about f1, stranger things, michael jackson, westlife, harry potter and djo.
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summary : with the lyrics of christina perri's "you are my sunshine" we learn about jaafar and ophelia jackson's miscarriage that they never publically posted when it originally happened until it's announced their pregnant with their fourth child.
warnings : mention of miscarriage, rainbow baby announcement, crying, sadness that turns into happiness, song lyrics (does christina perri also need a warning?)
a/n : even though the last fic i posted wasn't a rewritten fic, i'm not surprised that this is a rewritten fic as these days for some reason its hard for me to get inspiration for fics as often as i used to. hopefully i get that inspiration back as recycling fics is lowkey bothering me lol. also, if it isn't already obvious, maddie does not exist in this fic but her photos will be used as the face claim for ophelia.
you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey!
ophelia jackson, wife of jaafar jackson, son of jermaine jackson and nephew of michael jackson, had just been given the best news that she could have ever found out. she was pregnant with their first child. she couldn't believe that finally she was going to become a mom and her husband, jaafar, was going to become a dad.
as soon as the positive result came back, ophelia found herself frantically putting together a box of baby related things to surprise jaafar with to let him know of the amazing news that she had found out only moments ago. just as she was finishing her set up for the surprise, she quickly set up her phone so she could film her husband's reaction when the front door opened and her husband's soothing voice reverberated throughout the house. staring at the camera with a wide-eyed look of excitement and slight fear, she waited for her husband to come into the kitchen. the perfectly crafted box placed aesthetically for him to open.
"hey mama, i'm home!" jaafar called out as ophelia smiles at the camera after her surprise of his voice made her jump as she waits for him to come into the kitchen
"hey honey, i'm in the kitchen!" ophelia calls out as jaafar giggles as he puts his stuff down in the entryway of the house, minus his phone and walks into the kitchen to see his wife
"hey mama!" jaafar mumbles as he swoops in, not even noticing the fact that his wife was filming the both of them as he pulls her in for a hug as she chuckles
they talk for a few minutes more in whispers without jaafar even realising the present on the counter right in front of him nor his wife's iphone that was filming them until ophelia nudges him and forces him to notice the present.
"oh, honey, i also got you a little present," ophelia forces her husband to notice the present as he chuckles, placing his phone in his back jean pocket as he then looked down at the counter - finally noticing the white box in front of him
"mama, why did you do that? it's not christmas or my birthday or anything, why did you get a present for me? shoot, please don't tell me i missed an anniversary!" jaafar panics as he tries to remember if he had missed any anniversaries or anything as he loosened the pretty bow and opened the lid of the box
but, in saying that though, jaafar was very sceptical in opening the box lid which made ophelia laugh but also riddled her with anxiety that maybe, he wasn't exactly ready for a baby and to become a father. or that he even wanted to become a dad. i mean, they were still pretty young, the both of them in their mid-late twenties. and, right now, jaafar was still filming for the biopic about his famous uncle, michael jackson. so, was this the right time to be surprising him with a pregnancy test and the news that they're about to become parents? however, all that fear and anxiety went away the moment jaafar just collapsed into ophelia's arms, immediately starting to cry. she knew it was happy tears due to the way she watched her husband's face contort before he hid it in her shoulder.
"mama, are you serious?" jaafar whispered, his voice failing him as it cracked as the couple hugged, jaafar was not able to speak any louder as ophelia giggled and nodded her head
"i'm totally serious babe, i'm pregnant!" ophelia spoke softly and lovingly with excitement as jaafar just stayed silent as he hugged his wife tighter as she giggled
"how far along? does it say on the...on the thing?" jaafar mumbled to himself, still not trusting his voice being any louder as he grabbed the clearblue pregnancy test to see how long his wife was in her pregnancy when he smiled - she was around five weeks along
"you happy, baby?" ophelia mumbled as she giggled, jaafar nodding his head as he wiped his tears away as he chuckled softly
"you're five weeks along, i'm more than happy mama! we're gonna be parents! we're going to have a little family of three!" jaafar spoke softly as he smiled the brightest he had ever smiled since their wedding day
"i know jaffy, it's crazy!" ophelia giggled as jaafar then grabbed his phone to take a photo before ophelia stopped him
"what are ou doing, baby?" ophelia giggled as she sat herself up on the kitchen counter next to the box that was used for the announcement
"i want to post it to instagram... and tell the rest of the family..." he trailed off like a kid as ophelia giggled as she had now stopped filming on her phone
"...how about we just keep it between us, i'm already five weeks which means i'm not that far away from being twelve weeks which is when it's recommended to tell people since that's when concerns for pregnancy loss drop around this time. we only have to wait six more weeks until we can tell people, do you think you can wait for that long?" ophelia explained, as jaafar placed his phone down and nodded his head, wrapping his arms around his wife and now their little baby
"that's absolutely fine with me babe! i can definitely wait six more weeks before telling people! but, holy crap mama! you're actually pregnant with an actual human being just chilling in you right now! we made that!" jaafar started to rail off as ophelia laughed at her husband as she nodded her head
" i know babe! we've actually made a full-on human that's literally growing inside of me right as we speak! just a little crazy but, i'm so excited!" ophelia spoke in between bouts of laughter as jaafar shook his head, a big smile on his face as he hugged his wife again
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six weeks had passed when the jackson's had been given the all-clear with telling people about their pregnancy. and right now, thankfully, the producers of the michael biopic had graciously given the cast and crew some time off from filming. this meant that they were all spread out around the states which made it difficult to tell those guys in person. until ophelia remembered the group chat they had with each other and decided to tell them that way. especially since jaafar's cousins, prince & bigi as well as some of his uncles and aunty who were part of the movie were also in that group chat so it made sense to use that group chat for those guys. the rest of the jackson family getting told a different time.
michael biopic cast & crew
jaafar, prince, bigi, juliano, coleman, nia, miles, la toya, marlon, jermaine, jackie, katherine, graham, antoine and ophelia
jaafar
prince, bigi, jackie, graham and 11 others have reacted to this photo
prince
wait hold up!
bigi
oh my gosh!! congratulations you two!!
jackie
you can't just do that and leave the chat!!! jaafar, ophelia's actually pregnant?!
juliano
duuuuuuuuuuuudddddeeee ain't no way! congratulations! that's amazing news!
miles
wait, phee, you've been pregnant how long?! when the fuck did this happen?!
la toya
jaafar! phee! you guys i'm crying! congratulations i'm so happy for you!
ophelia
awe, thank you, guys! and miles, to answer your question, i've been pregnant for twelve weeks! when i did the test, i was five weeks pregnant and basically, jaafar wanted to tell everyone, and post it on social media but, i wanted to wait until now basically!
miles
omg, this is insane! so, wait, you were pregnant when we all last saw each other on set, basically? is that what you're saying?!
jackie
holy crap ophelia! you're really pregnant!
miles
jesus christ girl! you and jaafar are actually gonna be parents!
ophelia
yeah, that is exactly what i'm saying miles, and i didn't even know! because as mentioned before, when i took the test, it said i was over two weeks pregnant and then when i went to my doctor and told her, she basically confirmed that i was five weeks after she had connected the dots to everything i had told her previously
prince
this has got to be an april fool's joke right?! like, this ain't no way at all that jaafar has knocked his wife up!
miles
prince! that's your cousin and cousin-in-law, that is inappropriate! i am so sorry ophelia!
ophelia
sorry little prince, it isn't an april fool's joke because one, it's not april and two, jaafar has knocked his wife up and he did a pretty damn good job of it too!
ophelia
haha, miles, it's all good, but i have to admit, reading you tell off the son of michael jackson over text is quite funny
jermaine
and this is why ophelia is my favourite daughter-in-law! i'm sorry! and, congratulations darling!
marlon
hear hear jermaine! i think we all agree!
jackie
oh, absolutely jermaine! i agree also!
miles
as do i!
bigi
oh yeah, favourite cousin-in-law ever!
jaafar
and, to end this off, i too agree in saying that ophelia is my favourite jackson daughter-in-law!
prince
okay yep, i'm sorry! i was wrong, you guys are right!
katherine
huge congratulations ophelia and jaafar but, now that you are twelve weeks pregnant, and you're telling us, will you be announcing it to social media or do you think you'll wait a little longer?
ophelia
umm, funny thing, jaafar and i just had this conversation and, since we honestly had no itch to tell our followers but had the itch to tell you guys and the rest of our families first, i think he and i will wait a little bit longer before telling everyone on social media!
graham
big congratulations to you two and yeah, that's absolutely fair! well, if you and jaafar can wait then, so can everyone else i mean, what they don't know won't hurt them!
everyone sent heart.
nia
smart choice phee! but, omg, i'm still trying to believe that you're actually preggers! you're growing an actual human inside of you, right now!
ophelia
i know nia! jaafar was constantly saying the same thing which would constantly make me laugh because he was right! i'm literally growing a whole ass human inside of me!
however, not even a full two weeks after this group chat conversation, as everyone was brought together in excitement for the jackson's and their exciting pregnancy news regarding the next generation of the jackson family, ophelia's biggest and worst nightmare came true - miscarrying their baby.
you'll never know dear, how much i love you, please don't take my sunshine away.
only days before ophelia miscarried their baby, was she singing a sweet, famous lullaby to her belly that only sported a little rounded bump. as she sang the words of christina perri's cover version of "you are my sunshine". she was sitting on the couch, her feet resting underneath her bum as she sang whilst her hands rested on her bare pregnant tummy. with her husband home from work, jaafar smiled as he sat down next to his wife, his head resting on her shoulder as he was the third and fourth hands to join in the rubbing/resting on the pregnant belly.
"you'll never know how dear, how much i love you, please don't take my sunshine away," ophelia sang softly to the little baby that was peacefully resting in her belly as jaafar smiled lovingly
"i wonder if baby jackson will be a boy or a girl," jaafar spoke softly, as not to disturb the gorgeous serenity that was his wife's singing voice and what it brought to the baby as she smiled
"as long as baby jackson is healthy and i'm healthy, that's all that matters baby," ophelia whispered back as jaafar nodded his head, more than satisfied with his wife's answer
the happy couple and their baby just rested against the couch for the rest of the night as they watched movies on netflix before the night drifted away from them and it was suddenly coming close to 11 pm - time for the jackson's to go to sleep.
however, for some off reason, ophelia couldn't seem to get herself to fall asleep comfortably because she was suddenly starting to feel some pain which, wasn't just worrying her but also jaafar. thinking she could get through the pain, ophelia just tried to slowly move through it like she usually would when she'd cramp up. however, this time, a searing pain went through her whole body which led to the loudest scream to fall from her mouth. this was when ophelia and jaafar knew that this wasn't normal and that they needed to get to the hospital quickly.
jaafar jackson always thought of himself as someone who was quite levelheaded and calm in stressful situations but, after hearing his wife scream louder than ever before, it forced him to rethink that opinion about him staying levelheaded and calm. he did not feel levelheaded or calm at all, he felt absolutely blindsided and the opposite of calm. but, he knew he had to be calm because his wife couldn't be, calming himself down as best as he could, he picked ophelia up, mindful of the stabbing pain she was in and her pregnant belly that had now reduced his normally composed wife to tears.
quickly, via voice control, sending a text to both the michael biopic group chat and the jackson family group chat, letting them know. jaafar then messaged his dad separately because he knew that ophelia's family were too far away, she'd still want her second fatherly figure with her if her actual father couldn't be and it was also because jaafar knew he'd need his dad. not just for his wife's need but also for his own and so his dad could remind him that he was also allowed to get emotional. knowing himself well, jaafar knew he wouldn't allow himself to become upset whilst his wife is the one physically suffering so he texted his dad so he could also provide support for his son as well as his daughter-in-law.
thankful for their michael biopic family and their actual family, ophelia and jaafar got into their car, on their way to the hospital at 11:30 pm. then, fifteen minutes later, the jackson's had been given the heartbreaking news that, in fact, they had miscarried baby jackson at just over twelve weeks.
the other night dear, as i lay sleeping, i dreamed i held you in my arms.
ophelia couldn't dare to fall asleep knowing now that she had lost her baby. she couldn't even think about sleep anymore now that all she'd dream about is holding her newborn baby with jaafar next to her as they both cried tears of joy, relief and content for their new child. but, that was no longer the dream that they were going to be getting in real life in nine months. in nine months, the husband and wife would probably still be crying over this loss when it came to the guessed due date. jaafar was broken by the fact that ophelia wasn't sleeping. it broke his heart every night that whilst she laid in bed beside him, not able to fall asleep, he could fall asleep.
it honestly made him feel like he wasn't grieving properly or that he had stopped grieving entirely or that he wasn't upset at all. it made him feel like he was being an awful husband for not staying awake with her whilst her brain ran wild whilst he slept like it didn't bother him. but, it did bother him. it bothered jaafar so much more than he allowed people to know, including ophelia.
every time jaafar closed his eyes, all he saw was the innocent little baby that was going to be his and ophelia's first child, their first love. but, by the time he woke up, the image would be gone in the blink of an eye so when he closed his eyes again, the image would have changed to the moment in the hospital where the doctor confirmed the dreadful news they had miscarried their first baby. news that was going to forever haunt the husband wife for the rest of their lives.
unfortunately, a week after ophelia had miscarried, the cast of michael was due back to set for the filming of the movie. whilst graham and antoine and the rest of the cast & crew were more than welcome to hold off for another few weeks due to the bereavement of jaafar and ophelia's child, jaafar wasn't having any of it. the way he grieved was by bottling it all up because in his mind, if he ignored it and just pretended it didn't happen, it would just go away and life would return back to normal again.
as much as ophelia was also originally agreeing with graham and antoine's decision to also push back filming for jaafar to have bereavement leave, it became obvious with the conversations she and jaafar were having that accepting that leave wasn't an option. ophelia realised that her husband was shutting down emotionally and mentally and was trying to convince everyone he wasn't. so, instead of fighting and forcing her husband to confront his feelings straight away, she'd play along with the way he was coping with his grief and agreed with him that it would be best for him to go back to work and to not accept their offer of bereavement leave.
whilst jaafar went back to work, although she made it seem like to her husband that she did agree with his decision, she really didn't agree and she took her own work's offer of bereavement leave. she had never been so worried about her husband until this loss of their baby. whilst she had seen jaafar come home with bloodied feet and aching body from how hard he had been rehearsing to perfect the eccentricities of his late uncle, she had never experienced him grieving. at least, not the grieving of his unborn baby as they were childhood best friends and she remembered the way her husband grieved his uncle but because he was so young, it was so much more different then it was now. at the age he was and with the proper mental capacity to understand what a loss like this meant especially because whilst the loss of his uncle is devastating, this loss was different in the fact it was his own child, it frightened ophelia to think about how her husband was coping on set.
and ophelia's deep worry about her husband going back to work this early was warranted when she received a worrying text from her cousin-in-law prince as well as a frantic call from juliano, the actor who played young michael. prince's text explained how one minute jaafar was fine and then the next he had been found leaning against a prop door crying into his knees holding something. the phone call ophelia received from juliano was of a similar nature however, it seemed as though juliano knew a little more than prince did and was able to tell her what jaafar was holding against his knees as he cried. as soon as juliano told her what her husband was holding, that's what got her sprinting off the couch and racing to her car so she could be there for her husband.
it was clear that this breakdown hadn't just come out of nowhere, it was clear that this had been bubbling inside of jaafar probably since the day of the miscarriage. the very moment he heard his wife scream, jaafar pushed every possible emotion he was going to feel the moment they stepped foot in that hospital and hadn't let that emotion be felt since. even when he contacted his dad to make sure he didn't do that, it still happened and now ophelia was racing all the way down to the movie set to comfort her husband the way he had been comforting her this entire time.
finally, ophelia had made it to the movie set and was relieved to see that prince, juliano and jermaine were already waiting for her at the gates. jumping out of her car, she raced over, prince and jermaine reaching her whilst juliano reached her minutes after.
"...where is he?" was all ophelia said before juliano took charge, grabbing ophelia's hand and leading her to where juliano had found jaafar crying against the prop door
as soon as ophelia saw her husband, still crying against the prop door, she felt her heart break as juliano slowly removed his hand from hers, "i really am sorry, ophelia. you guys didn't deserve that, you would have been the most perfect parents, i know it..." he trails off as he gives ophelia a hug before running back over to prince and jermaine who were watching from a distance
"...aw, juliano, thank you darling boy! we're also sorry it happened, we would have been amazing parents but, there's always next time. thank you for taking me to jaafar, i promise he'll be okay!" ophelia smiles softly after pulling out of the hug as juliano nodded his head as he ran off
now this was going to be the worst part as ophelia walked closer and closer to her husband, sliding down the door next to him as he doesn't react, "...you alright, j?" she whispered softly, her tone of voice genuinely concerned, not in a 'i told you so' tone
to no avail though, her husband didn't give her a response even though they were sat right next to each other, jaafar couldn't bring himself to give his wife an answer. he just continued to cry as ophelia looked down at what it was he was holding, remembering what juliano had told her what it was. when she had farewelled her husband to work in the morning, she couldn't recall seeing him slip into what would have been the nursey which they had closed off where they had all the pregnancy tests, the shoes, the clothes and the singular ultrasound they had gotten of their little baby. that was what juliano had told her that he saw jaafar holding as he slid down the door as he cried.
ophelia wasn't so sure what broke her heart more, the fact he had finally broken down after so long of holding it back or that it had happened at work where she couldn't be there for her husband. both of them broke her heart but, it didn't matter when her husband wept right in front of her after not even showing a singular crack in his composed facade until now.
"how long have you been grieving all on our own?" although it wasn't a easy question, ophelia thought it would be a question he'd respond to as she stayed sitting next to him silently
"only today. i thought i had been hiding it so well and if i just kept on ignoring it, it would just go away and i'd forget it even happened. if i just threw myself back into work, the pain of my uncle's precise dance moves would hurt more and outweigh the overwhelming pain in my chest that was the loss of our baby..." jaafar whispered, his voice clearly destroyed from how much and how loud he had been crying as ophelia sighed sadly
"...jaafar, you never hid it well at all. i knew from the moment i felt that pain that you were already grieving the loss of our baby and it hadn't even happened yet. so when it was later confirmed, i knew you would be destroyed. i didn't want you to go back to work this quick but because i wanted to avoid fighting with you, i just went along with you not wanting to take that leave. i knew you weren't okay but i didn't want to push you away by forcing you to stay home. but, maybe i should have because the loss of a baby isn't just something that can go away or be ignored. our life won't be the same after this nor will our relationship...but, i love you so much, jaafar, and i just wished you felt more comfortable within yourself to show your grief because i could have made that overwhelming pain lighter like you made mine lighter. of course it isn't going to fix the grief of our unborn baby straight away but it's the beginning of our new life without our baby. please don't run away from your grief because it'll consume you, let it run alongside you and it'll feel easier to deal with, okay?" ophelia begged, her hand reaching out towards her husbands in the hope that he'd take it
ophelia's heart raced as she waited for her husband's decision as he looked down, the photo of the ultrasound slipping out of his grip and to the ground as he grabbed her hand as his tears continued falling. a wave of relief went through ophelia's body as she squeezed her husband's hand tighter as it finally felt like they were no longer running away from each other anymore.
"i'm sorry, mama. i just...i didn't know what else to do, i never imagined this would happen, people used to ask me if i thought my family had a curse put on us considering all the bad stuff that happened to us. i always rolled my eyes and thought it was a stupid thing but, i can't help but think they're right...i mean, this family can't be that unlucky, can it?" jaafar trembled as he finally made eye contact with his wife, his eyes puffy and red from his tears as ophelia's other hand crept up to his cheek to brush away the extra tears
"no honey, the jacksons are not cursed! i do think it's some terrible luck that all this misfortune has happened but i doubt any god or spiritual figure has put a curse on us. maybe us losing our first baby was telling us that right now isn't the right time to try for babies, we didn't fail. as much as it sucks that i'm no longer pregnant and we went through an unimaginable loss, it's not a curse," ophelia spoke softly, really accentuating to her husband that they were not a cursed family, sometimes it was just misfortune and shitty luck
"you're sure? i certainly feel like our family's cursed..." jaafar trailed off as ophelia pouted softly as she cuddled her husband closer with an extra tight squeeze as a little scoff left her mouth
"...i'm certain, j. i'll even pinky swear and you know i never break one of those *giggles*. this family is not cursed, not then, not now or the future. as much as i hate to agree with the doctors at the hospital, maybe they're right in saying the baby just wasn't ready and it wasn't our time. not because we're not ready to become parents because that day will come and when it does, it'll be the most amazing moment in our lives. but right now, that isn't happening for us and that's okay, just because it's happening to everyone else right now, doesn't mean it won't for us eventually. just hold on to the fact that just because it isn't right now, that it will be us one day," ophelia smiled softly as she watched her husband understand the words she was telling him as he nodded his head
"thanks, mama," he muttered softly as she smiled, resting her head against his as they sat there for a while before she decided it was probably a good idea to take jaafar home early so that's what she did without any complaints by the cast or crew
when i awoke, dear, i was mistaken so i hung my head and i cried
after a couple of hours of sleep, ophelia and jaafar woke up and, just like she imagined, she dreamt of holding their little baby so, she hung her head and she cried. and just like the way she was there for him that day, jaafar was there as he held his wife tightly as it was now her turn to cry over their shattering loss. although ophelia didn't cry for nearly as long as her husband did, she was still finally also allowing herself to fall asleep even though she knew she'd dream about baby and then wake up to then cry. she still knew she was always going to have jaafar there beside her to make sure that she'd never cry on her own like he had been doing for the longest time.
whispering comforting words and sweet nothings to his wife, jaafar held her as tightly as he could so he could make sure that she knew that, just like she had promised him, she wasn't alone in this sadness and grief of their baby.
for the jackson's, it took them about three to four weeks of heartwrenching cries after waking up in the mornings before it stopped and were able to go to sleep without dreaming of the baby and waking up in tears because of it. they loved that and called it progress in their grieving and loss journey. the michael biopic family had also welcomed the couple back with open arms when jaafar was finally honest with himself and took bereavement leave and then came back. it was obvious though when the cast and crew reunited that they were extremely happy and excited to be reunited with each other again and, the same could have been said with ophelia and jaafar's cousins, aunt and uncles.
"phee, how are you and jaafar going after the loss? you guys tried at it again, are you just waiting until it feels right, are you just not trying?" la toya questioned as she, ophelia and prince hung around the movie set
"we're going great thanks, toya, umm, we've had a lot of sex as honestly, losing baby wanted me to try even harder for a kid. so, we've decided that we're going to not actively try but not use any protection and just hope that a positive will come at some point," ophelia was confident and all smiles as she explained that to her aunty-in-law and cousin-in-law
which not just shocked them but made them all proud of her as when they spoke over facetime (mainly la toya and ophelia), the jacksons and michael cast and crew couldn't even say certain words like "loss", "sex", and "baby" because it would get too triggering for the grieving girl, reducing her to tears but, not anymore it wasn't
"phee, that's amazing! so, you still getting your period then?" nia then spoke up, accidentally overhearing the conversation as she and la toya moved closer to ophelia but further from prince as she giggled
"no...i've got a few tests that i'm gonna take today so, i'm hoping that what i think is happening is going to happen..." ophelia trailed off as the girls were shocked, they couldn't believe that their best friend/niece-in-law was most likely pregnant again
you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are grey.
the news of ophelia jackson's second pregnancy was the best news that she could have ever gotten after that day on set for michael with nia and la toya. whilst it did give her a huge amount of deja vu of their first pregnancy and ultimately, their heartbreaking loss of the baby, the biggest emotion she felt was excitement and happiness. she was over the moon with the three tests that she held all saying that she was pregnant. and the best part about it was that unlike last time was that, she had gone through her first trimester of being pregnant without even really noticing it. meaning that she was at thirty weeks pregnant and only now just finding out.
ophelia squealed in excitement as she looked at the three pregnancy tests in front of her whilst her midwife could be heard giggling excitedly over the phone. all of the tests said "positive" with her midwife confirming that she was already thirty weeks pregnant and into the start of the second trimester. knowing that she no longer was in the danger zone like last time, she wanted to surprise jaafar again but, this time it had to be better. and better she did! this time, she upped her game and decided to have a special little helper to tell jaafar.
announcing the news to jaafar was probably the most exciting thing ever. just like the first time, he came home, she had set up her iphone to film his reaction as she set out the letterboard announcement for him to be told as she waited.
"mama, i'm home! sorry i'm late, filming went crazy long! where you at babe?" jaafar calls out as ophelia giggles softly
"in the kitchen babe, i have something for you!" ophelia calls back out which makes jaafar rush into the kitchen when he stops when he notices what was resting on the counter waiting for him
it took jaafar a couple of minutes to realise but the second he saw the ultrasound photo, it finally clicked in his head again that it was real and that ophelia was pregnant again. overwhelmed with happiness, his knees buckled and he dropped, his hand gripping the counter so he wouldn't fall and he broke down into tears, the one thing that jaafar felt as though he had spent half of this last part of this year and the last year doing.
ophelia smiled, giggling softly at her husband. joining her husband, she brought him close as they rejoiced together in the fact that they were getting their rainbow baby. crying into his wife's embrace, jaafar couldn't believe that he was going to be a dad. not really caring whether it was a boy or a girl, all he cared about was the fact that his wife was already over the first trimester and that they finally had a fair chance of having a healthy and successful pregnancy together.
immediately, just like the first time, with some reassurance from the midwife that it was okay, they told the rest of the michael biopic family and even better reactions came through over the first time. due to the newest baby being a rainbow baby, there was a lot more happy crying as their first reaction to the news which, seemed to be the best but common reaction when ophelia and jaafar told someone. the best reaction, however, had to of come from prince, jermaine and nia. they were told separately after the rest of the michael cast and the jackson family had been told. jaafar told prince and his dad and ophelia told nia, la toya with them since la toya had been told moments before. all three crying as they rejoiced that finally, their best friends and family were becoming parents after the loss of their first baby.
it was just a week after the start of their second trimester that the jackson's finally decided that not only would they start to post and announce their rainbow baby but they'd also talk about the miscarriage they suffered a couple of months earlier.
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jaafarjackson five months ago, opehlia had gotten pregnant with our first baby and only very few knew. we were overjoyed as were our family and friends that we had told. the second photo is from five months ago in comparison to the first photo that is us announcing our second baby (surprise!). we were so excited to announce the first pregnancy but it never got to happen because we lost the baby and it was a pain i thought i'd never experience. in saying that though, there's nothing wrong with trying for a second time because the universe does work in mysterious ways. ophelia is pregnant again with baby number two and we are all so excited as we move into the second trimester.
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opheliajackson that day i told you about this new pregnancy, i really did think i was going to have to ring 911 because of how much you were crying, i genuinely thought you weren't breathing. but, i am so glad we finally got to share this new pregnancy alongside the pain of the miscarriage
jaafarjackson opheliajackson in all honesty, i thought the same thing at one point! but, i am so ready to watch you and our child grow throughout this pregnancy mama!
princejackson i'm sorry but, i am still in tears over this! and to tell us whilst on set of the movie as well!
jaafarjackson princejackson maybe it wasn't the smartest and most efficient time and place to tell you but we genuinely couldn't hide it from everyone anymore!
officialjermainejackson congratulations again my babies! you'll be the best parents ever!
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson thank you dad! that means a lot
iamnialong i agree with prince, i think i'm still too emotional over this news! congratulations you two, i love you both dearly
jaafarjackson iamnialong honestly, same!
kingofbingo seeing the reactions of the others to the news was honestly the best part about the whole thing!
jaafarjackson kingofbingo i know! it felt so cheeky to tell them whilst you and the others on set all knew!
parisjackson congratulations jaafar and phee! you'll be the best parents ever!
jaafarjackson parisjackson thanks paris!
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opheliavjackson before the joy that is jaafar and i's second baby, five months before, i was pregnant with our first baby. however, it was obviously not the right time as heartbreakingly, at around twelve/thirteen weeks, we lost our baby and i miscarried. this was of course, devastating for jaafar and i, it was gut-wrenching. especially as he's only just begun filming for the biopic about his late uncle. the first three months were the worst, i never thought i'd see that much heartbreak and grief from my family. losing our first baby after we had been trying so hard to concieve only to miscarry afterwards was soul-destroying.
now, jaafar and i are both in a much better place with our grief and now that i'm at the beginning of my second trimester with baby number two, we feel comforted and feel so blessed because we know that this isn't the reality for most families. and it's something we're not taking for granted at all. the first photo, like jaafar mentioned in his post, are the photos we took together after i had told him we were pregnant a second time and the second photo was from when jaafar, myself, jermaine and prince were at the hospital after finding out about the miscarriage. the story behind the photo is that i had to stay in the hospital a little bit longer than the four of us liked but, it was just to keep an eye on me. with the consideration that i was experiencing a lot more pain than what was normal so they had to keep me in for supervision. the photo of jaafar and i was taken by prince. even though it doesn't look like jaafar or i are upset, we were asleep because that at the time was all we could do at the time. we were so exhausted to the point that for the first few couple of days, we just slept. then, the third day i knew i wouldn't be able to sleep any longer because i would then dream about our baby we just lost. i would stay awake throughout the night because if i fell asleep, i would dream about the baby and then i'd wake up only to start crying. which was something i had told myself with determination that i wasn't going to do. i didn't want to be the mother who miscarried and just cried about the loss every day. even though i knew that was totally acceptable and more than okay, it just wasn't the grieving mother i wanted to be.
however, i then noticed the way jaafar grieved. or more so the way he wasn't grieving. he was adamant that he was okay to go back to work, denying the bereavement leave that he had so graciousy been given and went straight to work again. for a while, i pretended to go along with what he was doing hoping that he'd see right through my lies and talk with me about his grief and why he was trying so hard to ignore it. eventually, we came out the other side of the grief and now i'm thirty weeks and two days pregnant and baby jackson is as healthy as their older baby sibling was. jaafar and i are extremely excited to be parents again and it's all we can think about. now that i've passed all the dates of the possible miscarrying dangers, i'll now be posting my bumpdates and updating you all about the pregnancy. we are genuinely so excited and cannot wait to introduce our baby to you all and i'm sure baby jackson can't wait either. thank you all for the love and support you guys have given us over these few months even though we left you guys in the dark. it truly means so much to know that you guys still love and support us.
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jaafarjackson i am so excited about baby two! you are going to be an amazing mom, phee and i can already tell
opheliajackson jaafarjackson awe, honey, you are so sweet! you are going to be an amazing dad!
iamnialong i'm so proud of you two for not giving up just because you guys lost the first baby. i cannot wait to watch baby grow inside you, my love!
opheliajackson iamnialong thank you nia! and i cannot wait for little baby to grow either!
jermajestyjjackson that photo of you in the hospital after you miscarried and sent to the group chat via prince is always going to haunt me but, just knowing that the next time you're there, is when you'll be giving birth just takes away all the fear
opheliajackson jermajestyjjackson oh absolutely maj, that photo is a photo i never thought would ever have to be seen, taken and then seen again. and i agree, the next time i'll be at the hospital will no doubt be the best day of my life
parisjackson congratulations ophelia and jaafar! you guys really deserve a family! cannot wait to watch you on this journey phee, you and jaafar will be perfect parents!
opheliajackson parisjackson awe, thank you paris! that means so much!
officialjermainejackson i'm so happy for my two babies! hopefully baby jackson becomes a singer or actor like their parents
opheliajackson officialjermainejackson jermaine, i love you, but please just wait until our baby is born and grows up a little bit older than the jackson five were
you'll never know dear how much i love you, please don't take my sunshine away
a little over eight months later, ophelia had given birth to a very healthy little boy, atlas michael jackson. atlas was jaafar and ophelia's pride and joy and was loved by everyone. but especially by his michael cast/jackson family uncles and aunties and that was always shown since he was constantly being spoilt, especially by his godfather and favourite uncle prince. but, all the toys, clothes and superficial things he was being given didn't seem to faze the little obsessed boy as all he cared about now was the fact that he was going to be an older brother for a third time.
and yes, you did hear that correctly, ophelia and jaafar were bringing their third and final cherub into the world after a little over a year ago had introduced their second little boy, brooks jaafar jackson into the world before falling pregnant with who they thought was their final baby that turned into plural when it was discovered that this final pregnancy was twins. i mean, the jackson's didn't plan on having more than three kids but, they loved the idea of having two boys and two girls so, they were pretty pleased when they did find out that the gender of the twins were two identical twin girls.
so, completing the jackson family were two little girls. the photo that ophelia posted to announce that she was pregnant with her twins was a photo of when she was heavily pregnant since she had already given birth to their twins. she decided that instead of how she announced atlas and brooks' pregnancies to the world that she'd wait until maternity photos had been taken and then give birth to the girls to announce that she and jaafar had given birth to their twins. even though jaafar and the michael cast had now finished filming the biopic and it was nearing its release date, constantly talking about the baby news and celebrating it, jaafar and ophelia still wanted to post their little girls since it had been a few weeks to a month since giving birth to them.
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opheliajackson zaylee paris jackson and noelle ophelia jackson, we have waited so long for you my loves. atlas and brooks are so excited to meet you i think they're being a lot more impatient than mommy and daddy are. these photos are probably the sweetest, funniest and most tear-jerking photos i have in my camera roll. the first two, i was still pregnant with little zaylee and noelle and, the third one, they were brought earthside and we couldn't be more blessed that the two girls are finally here. zaylee is older by two minutes with noelle born two minutes later, both in march, my two little water babies just like their mommy. the third photo is of me with the little loves, photo courtesy of their godmother, paris since their daddy was taking care of their older brothers.
the photos you may see later are of the two boys meeting zaylee and noelle for the first time because it is quite the adorable moment. zaylee paris and noelle ophelia, you both are so loved by so many my little ocean babies. i am so blessed, as is your daddy, older brothers, aunties, uncles and cousins that you have finally joined our family. the meaning behind the names of zaylee and noelle are as simple as possible. zaylee is named zaylee paris because of her beautiful godmother, the ever-beautiful and my cousin-in-law, paris jackson. i knew from the moment jaafar and i found out we were having twins that paris was going to be the godmother to both girls but one of them, whoever was the eldest, was going to be named after paris. noelle was called noelle because that is my mom's name and it's self-explanatory why her middle name is ophelia so no explanation there is needed. like previously said, we had been waiting for zaylee and noelle that when we did find out we were pregnant with the two of you, we jumped for joy. atlas and brooks also jumping for joy when they found out they were getting not just one baby sister but two! brooks especially loves the fact that he finally gets to be a big brother after being the baby but especially to two sisters. we love you forever zaylee paris and noelle ophelia.
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jaafarjackson ok, well shit babe, you made me cry all over again! i knew we made a great choice by naming one of our daughters paris
opheliajackson jaafarjackson we really did make a great choice. i already know just how connected zaylee and paris are going to be
parisjackson i still cannot believe that you finally have your little girls and that one of them is named after me as well as making me their godmother! thank you so much, ophelia, i could never thank you enough for giving me the blessing to be involved in your kids' lives!
opheliajackson parisjackson we can't either and, it was a decision we had made from the very beginning and there was no way we weren't going to stick to it. we love you more than words could ever express paris! you already are the best godmother to little zaylee and noelle
iamnialong i still cannot believe we'll all get to meet little zaylee and noelle soon! they are just gorgeous, phee!
opheliajackson iamnialong i know nia! i cannot wait for you to meet them!
kingofbingo oh my god! i still cannot believe that zaylee and noelle are finally here! the love these two princesses are going to get is going to be neverending
opheliajackson kingofbingo i'm still struggling to believe it too, coleman! and i agree, they'll be protected for life as well
officialjermainejackson congratulations ophelia, jaafar and to atlas and brooks! zaylee and noelle are gorgeous! how generous of you to name your eldest daughter after paris!
opheliajackson officialjermainejackson thank you so much, jermaine! and i was always going to name my eventual daughter after paris, how couldn't i? she's family, more than just my husband's cousin
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jaafarjackson introducing babies three and four, identical twin girls zaylee paris and noelle ophelia verstappen. atlas and brooks are a little too obsessed with their twin sisters at the moment but, honestly, we're just glad we've completed our small family and we're just relieved that the two boys love their twin sisters. the first photo is of ophelia, pregnant with the girls at the beach with atlas on her shoulders, i had brooks with me so that's why he wasn't in the photo and, i just thought it was too good for me to not post. the second photo is of ophelia, looking absolutely stunning. if you can't already tell, we loved taking pregnancy photos anywhere we went so yeah, enough said! the third photo is of mama, brooks and the girls, once again, at the beach but this time as part of a photoshoot as this was relatively early in the pregnancy before we even knew that we were having twins. and the last photo is of atlas and brooks with the two girls and we just love how beautiful it is. we love you so much zaylee paris and noelle ophelia, thank you for completing the jackson family.
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opheliajackson lordy lord, there are so many photos of atlas and brooks with the girls that at this point, i think that's all i have in my camera roll right now. but, that's only because i keep on taking photos of them together.
jaafarjackson opheliavjackson my camera roll is the same and i am not complaining! we make some very cute kids!
rjacksonjr i'm going to cry omg, even just looking at these photos, it's insane how quickly zaylee and noelle have both grown and they're not even a full month old yet!
jaafarjackson rjacksonkr speak for yourself, randy! i thought having two little boys would have made me all the more emotional but no, the moment phee and i found out just the one baby was twins but girls, i was gone and it was as though i was the one that was pregnant!
princejackson this is lovely, jaafar! both zaylee and noelle are just gorgeous and growing so quickly! i cannot wait to see the little angels again, i am so excited!
jaafarjackson princejackson i know, both girls are mom's twins, funny enough! and the boys and twins are getting excited to see their uncle as well!
iamnialong i can't stop looking through the photos that you and phee have sent to us of the twins! they're both just too gorgeous to look away!
jaafarjackson iamnialong that's basically me every single day, i just can't stop looking at them and holding them! i genuinely still cannot believe me and phee have two little girls
jermajestyjjackson oh, aren't zaylee and noelle just beautiful! you and phee really have made the most gorgeous-looking kids! i cannot wait to just squish zaylee's and noelle's little cheeks!
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson aren't they just, maj?! and i know, i said the same thing and, i squish their cheeks all the time and even then i need to do it more
what originally started off for the jackson's as a heartbreaking miscarriage turned into them having a gorgeous little family of six with their four beautiful kids, atlas, brooks, zaylee and noelle alongside their families.
ophelia and jaafar's sunshine was no longer taken away from them.
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this was a lot of fun to rewrite but it did start off really sad so i do apologise for that but i hope the ending made up for the depressing beginning.
summary : jaafar jackson and reader was everyone's favourite couple until they weren't. not because they stopped loving each other or because rumours flew around that one of them was a cheater but because their management worked them away from one another. and that was the most painful thing about it until it wasn't anymore.
warnings : abba, crying, grief of a perfect relationship forced to fail, management overworking their clients, a happy ending, mention of coercive control, mention of intimidation, mention of michael jackson's death and treatment
a/n : reader has a name cecilia and i think that's about it. i haven't done a fic like this in a while with a song that doesn't include multiple people so, let's hope this is good lol. also, i won't be using all of the lyrics, just chunks of lyrics that make sense to the fic if that makes sense lol. also, bear in mind that because cecilia is a singer, i will have another singers songs labelled as hers for the purposes of this fic.
i've played all my cards, and that's what you've done too. nothing more to say, no more ace to play.
cecilia and jaafar really tried to save their relationship, they really did. they loved each other so much but apparently even loving someone more than breathing still wasn't enough to save the relationship from caving into the pressures of their jobs. since staring as his uncle michael, jaafar had been set to be in all these different movies and it seemed as though he couldn't take a break anymore. cecilia was in the same boat but as a singer, after releasing her number 1 album and singles, it was as though her management kept her going between studios to write and produce albums and tour that went on for nearly nine months a year. it felt as though the couple never got to see each other because they were constantly working, never getting a moment to just take a breath and recover with one another. it felt as though their management wanted to keep them apart on purpose for as long as they could just to test how strong their relationship was and if it would falter.
there really was no more gas left in the tank for cecilia and jaafar's relationship, well, could it be considered a relationship since they had been pulled so far apart from one another? it was clear that the couple needed to sit down and actually have a chat with one another but, like mentioned, they rarely were given space to sleep let alone sit down together to have a regular conversation. that was until jaafar's dad jermaine noticed how long it had been since he had seen his son and girlfriend in the same room for more than five minutes. so, that was when jermaine made the calls to both his son and cecilia's management that those two were going to have a week off from working so they could actually have some time together and rest. jermaine found it appalling when his other son, jermajesty, actually spoke up originally and said jaafar and cecilia had been working so much that they hadn't been together for longer than five minutes.
it was during this week of being at home, just jaafar and cecilia, that they knew the conversation was going to happen but they just kept on avoiding it. however, once again, jermaine had to take charge as it seemed like he sensed what was going on. it didn't take a smart person to figure out what these two being overworked and being pulled so far away from one another had done. it broke his heart into two that he was having to witness his son and who he thought would have become his daughter in law breakup because of their jobs taking over and distancing themselves from one another.
finally, after a little while longer, it was clear that the couple just wanted to get it over and done with so after they watched jermaine leave the room, they just had to start the conversation so, jaafar did.
"...i hope you know that this is no one's fault, mama..." jaafar trailed off, his voice sounding exhausted as cecilia nodded her head
"...i know baby, we really tried to keep it going but when there isn't gas left in the tank, you can't push it forward," cecilia smiled softly as she stared at jaafar's hand as it trembled against the couch
"i just wish there was one more ace we could play to keep us going," jaafar whispered, not wanting to speak any louder for the fear he'd just break down into floods of tears
"i do too, babe but, there isn't. as much as i hate to say it, maybe our managements were correct in saying our relationship wouldn't survive our soaring careers..." cecilia sighed as she looked over at jaafar who shook his head
"...i think they were absolute arseholes to do this to us. i don't recall our contracts mentioning in fine print that we couldn't keep our relationships simutaneous to our jobs," jaafar sniffled as he looked at her hand as cecilia sensed he needed it to hold
"no, it didn't say that otherwise neither of us would have signed them. i think they were just worried that we didn't know our relationship as well as they thought we did. even though i also think it's bullshit, i think there was some genuine care for the relationship but it was definitely executed in the incorrect way," cecilia made her voice quiet as she held jaafar's hand tight
"how do we even do this? i...i don't want to break up with you..." jaafar's voice finally cracked as his resolve started to shatter as cecilia shook her head
"...i don't either jaafar but i think we have too otherwise our management is just going to work us to the bone until we're shells of ourselves, more than we already are," cecilia was right and jaafar absolutely hated how right she was as he nodded his head
for an hour after that, jaafar and cecilia finally accepted their fate and that they really were having to break up with one another. even though neither of them wanted to say it, it was cecilia that ended up saying it because jaafar was an absolute wreck and could barely breathe due to how hard he was crying. and then after that, they just sat on the couch together as they cried. it really felt as though they were grieving the loss of a relationship that was truly meant to be forever.
even though he hated being this nosy regarding his children and their partners, because he could hear crying, jermaine couldn't help himself but wander back into the lounge room. the image he saw as he walked in broke his heart as he saw the two of them bundled up on the couch together as they both cried. whilst he had wished for a different outcome, he knew this was happening because he also knew how hard it could be to hold a relationship together when you're being pulled in every direction for your job except to the person you really want to be with.
at some point, cecilia got up and left the jackson house after one final hug and kiss to jaafar and a hug to jermaine. however, it sort of felt like a blur to him since he hadn't stopped crying since they started the conversation of their break up. staying on the couch, it felt like jaafar couldn't move, like he was stuck to the fabric that kept on pulling him further into it like a safety blanket of sorts. until he felt the couch dip beside him, jaafar lifted his head up to notice his dad had replaced cecilia's spot on the couch.
it didn't even take words, just a simple look on his dad's face that made jaafar burst out crying again and less than a second for jermaine to pull his son into his arms for a hug, "...i'm so sorry jaafar. this wasn't at all the right thing for them to have done to you and cece," jermaine whispers to his devastated son as he holds him tight, jaafar's cries loud and desperate
"i...i really love...loved her dad!" jaafar sobbed out, his voice hiccuping slightly as jermaine sighed as he rocked his son back and forth
"i know you did my son, i know you did!" jermaine whispered as he tried to calm his distraught boy as jermajesty and randy peak around the corner
their faces soft and solemn as they realise why their brother was crying. the both of them sharing looks that shared even more heartbreak that the managements of their brother and cecilia had created for the entire family.
somewhere deep inside, you must know i miss you. but what can i say, rules must be obeyed
months had gone by since jaafar and cecilia broke up but that didn't mean they stopped thinking about one another or mentioning each other in interviews. whilst the public had sort of been made aware that the once famous couple were no longer together, it was made known very quickly that it wasn't because of any bad blood between the two. it was very obvious to everyone that the two still very much loved and respected one another. as evident in a recent interview that jaafar had done with vogue magazine which cecilia couldn't help but purchase herself a copy of. in that interview, it was clear that jaafar still loved cecilia to death but was basically forced to say that they weren't together anymore because it was true. but also because their managements had now basically forbade them to be together again. and of course, the rules must be obeyed and not broken however, they forgot the loop holes that surrounded that rule didn't forbade them from talking about one another.
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JAAFAR JACKSON GETS CANDID ABOUT HIS RELATIONSHIP, BEING THE NEPHEW TO MICHAEL JACKSON AND WHAT'S NEXT FOR HIM AS AN ACTOR
EDITED BY CHLOE MALLE | AUGUST 2026
jaafar jackson, son of jermaine jackson and nephew of michael jackson has had an amazing year after playing his late uncle, michael jackson in the biopic about him. however, there's still so much we don't know about the 30-year-old singer and upcoming actor so, in this interview, he gets candid about his personal life as well as his professional life.
before jaafar and i started this interview, we got to talking and it was clear that this interview would be an emotional one and a very long conversation. for clarity and length this interview has been condensed.
chloe malle: jaafar, you were in a long-term relationship with singer-songwriter cecilia, can i ask what happened because we all thought you guys would be together forever?
jaafar jackson: of course. as much as either of us hate to admit it because we truly and very dearly loved one another and also thought we'd be together forever. it was our managements who decided it was in their most caring opinions came to the conclusion that maybe due to how busy we had become that it was best we break it off amiciably so we did.
malle: oh, jaafar, i am so sorry. that must have been very hard since i know how much you two loved each other and still do love each other since you still talk about one another in high regard.
jackson: thank you chloe. it was very difficult actually. the two of us had really been overworking ourselves to the point we weren't able to just be in the room with one another for more than five minutes before we were being shipped off to our jobs again. it was actually my brother jermajesty and then my dad that noticed what was going on and forced our managements to give me and cecilia a week off work. and it was during that week that we sat down and acknowledged that even though we still deeply loved one another, that wasn't enough to keep the relationship going without any gas to keep it running.
malle: and i bet you two were very hesitant to bring it up?
jackson: we really were. for ages we just kept on pushing it back and just trying to ignore the elephant in the room until we no longer could and we just had to acknowledge it
it was this moment in the interview that jackson became emotional and a brief five minute break was taken before the interview continued.
malle: are you okay to continue the interview, jaafar? i do apologise for that being the first question and it making you so emotional
jackson: don't apologise chloe. everyone wants to know about me and cecilia's relationship since we didn't publically announce it ending. humans are just naturally curious and nosey. i'm okay to continue the interview
once i was able to confirm that jackson was truly okay to continue the interview, the interview was resumed and the next question was asked.
malle: what was your favourite thing about being michael jacksons nephew?
jackson smiles at this question, even though i can still see his eyes watering from emotion from the first question, this time it's slightly different and happier even though his uncle was also an emotional topic for him for different reasons.
jackson: my favourite thing about being michael's nephew was that he was like a normal person. i don't think any of his nieces, nephews or children saw him as anything except dad or uncle michael. he was just a normal person who just happened to also be the king of pop and one of the greatest entertainers of all time. as soon as he was away from the flashing lights of hollywood, he was the most loving, kindest and most gentle person ever. he never acted like he was the king of pop, he was just uncle michael who allowed me to steal the candy machine because i wanted it.
malle: what's something you wanted to achieve playing him in his biopic, michael?
jackson: i wanted wipe his slate clean by showing his humanity and vulnerability, not just his stardom. to everyone he was the king of pop but to me and the rest of his family, especially his kids, he was just michael and a person who, at his core, wanted to help those who couldn't help themselves. he was a real humanitarian at heart and he truly cared about those that were voiceless like the children he helped.
malle: now that you've conquered playing your uncle michael as your first acting role, what do your future acting roles look like or what do you wish you could do next?
jackson giggles as i ask this question as he tries to find a response. he looks up towards the ceiling as he tries to come up with a response.
jackson: ooh, that's a good question. i mean, i feel like i mention this a lot but before this role, i never wanted to be an actor or to portray my uncle but now that i have, i'd love to continue acting. so, maybe, i guess a disney prince?
jackson giggles again before composing himself and expanding on his response which shocks me as i nod my head
jackson: i say disney prince because i've been told by many people, including cece that i'd portray an excellent prince naveen in a live adaptation of the princess and the frog.
malle: okay, yeah, i can totally see you playing a live action prince naveen. but, other than that, what genre of movie would you like to try next since you've done a biopic/musical?
jackson: maybe action or drama? i'm not too sure as i feel like i've been doing so many auditions and still finishing press for michael that i've lost track of what i've done and what i haven't done.
even though jackson does laugh, it's easy to tell that he is exhausted and needing a rest as i can only nod my head and write down his responses for this article.
malle: for those who don't know, you and your family almost had a reality tv show as there were six episodes and trailers filmed and everything but it had been scrapped...
jackson: oh no please don't
jackson laughs again as i beg him slightly to let me ask him about the reality tv show he was on with his family back in the day as he relents and allows me to ask.
malle: if you were able to have another reality show for you and your family that doesn't get cancelled, what would it be called and who in your family would actually be involved?
jackson: oh my god! umm, definitely my parents but especially my dad, probably all my siblings except for maybe the older ones so maybe just me, jermajesty and randy would be apart of it to be honest. maybe our youngest brother as well, abu, but who knows. and what was the second part of the question sorry?
jackson chuckles apologetically as it was obvious he wasn't expecting to be asked about the former reality show he and his family were apart of. i giggle as well before i remind him of the rest of the question.
malle: what would the reality show be called since the first one was called 'living with the jacksons' that got cancelled and then the other one which wasn't cancelled but you appeared in an episode of called 'the jacksons: next generation'?
jackson: ooh, umm, what would it be called? i honestly have no idea but just to poach off the kardashians, i'd want to call it keeping up with the jacksons because there is a lot of us and so much drama that i think is dying to be released.
malle: honestly, i could see that being picked up, lifetime, are we going to produce this?
jackson laughs as he shakes his head, adamant that he was joking and was not in talks for another reality tv show with his family which i honestly respected.
jackson: i hope it doesn't as i don't think it would be interesting but, each to their own i guess.
malle: that's a fair point but, sadly, this question will be the last question so thank you for sitting with me for this interview jaafar, it's been a pleasure to have this conversation with you and have you be so open and vulnerable with me
jackson: no, thank you, chloe. it's been a pleasure to speak with you and have such a respectful conversation
malle: my last question is, what's next for you jaafar now that the biopic is out for the world to see and how can we stay in touch with you and what you do?
jackson: what's next for me? wow, that's a question, i mean, it's hard to tell as we're still in the world of michael so, who knows what's next for me after this but i'm sure it'll be something i'm very passionate about. and you can stay in touch with me via my instagram which is just my first and last name, jaafar jackson. thanks chloe!
malle: you're very welcome jaafar, thanks for speaking with me once again for vogue!
jackson smiles brightly as he sits up from the couch he had been sitting on during the interview. i smile as we share a quick hug and a cheek kiss before formally ending the interview and parting ways after a long day of photoshoots and talking for this interview.
whilst jaafar done his own interview with vogue and cecilia would read it constantly, she had done her own interview with vogue that jaafar was just as obsessed with that also broke his heart when reading it like it broke cecilia's heart to read his vogue interview.
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SINGER-SONGWRITER CECILIA TALKS CANDIDLY ABOUT HER FOREVER LOVE JAAFAR JACKSON, HER NEWEST ALBUM AND WHAT'S NEXT FOR HER
EDITED BY CHLOE MALLE | SEPTEMBER 2026
singer-songwriter cecilia has been the latest breakthrough artist that has stormed our radiowaves for the last three years. however, for the entire time she was being heard on our radiowaves, she was in love with a jackson, jaafar jackson to be specific. but now, they fly solo but their lives still revolve around one another like planets orbiting one another. in this interview, cecilia gets candid about the grief of her and jaafar's amicable breakup as well as her songwriting and her upcoming projects.
before cecilia and i started this interview, we got to talking about her singing and her personal life and it was clear that this interview would be an emotional one and a very long conversation. for clarity and length this interview has been condensed.
chloe malle: as you would know cecilia, i did an interview very similar to ours with your ex-partner, jaafar jackson. can i get your side of the story of why such a beautiful and loving relationship ended?
cecilia: of course you can. as much as jaafar and i loved and still very much love each other, there was no way we could continue our relationship when we weren't given the autonomy to be at home together for more than five minutes. we were so overworked that we could barely see each other because i was constantly in the studio recording or flying across the country touring for nine months at a time whilst he was constantly doing auditions and interviews for michael.
cecilia pauses, her head slightly tilted to the side as i notice the tears in her eyes. afraid i've done the same thing i did with jaafar's interview, my heart stops before cecilia smiles and assures me she can talk about this.
cecilia: when jaafar and i were having the conversation that was us breaking up, he immediately apologised and said he hoped i knew it wasn't any of our faults that this had happened. and i agreed, our break up happening wasn't our fault at all. and i came up with this analogy that even though we keep pushing, if there isn't any gas left in the tank, it can't go anywhere. and that's what had happened to us. it wasn't because we stopped loving one another or because one of us cheated or anything like that. it was truly just because we weren't seeing each other anymore because our jobs had taken over without either of us meaning it to or wanting it to.
i can tell as the singer pauses, her head tilting to the side again, a mannerism i also recall jaafar doing during his interview, that she's remembering the day of their break up the same way jaafar did.
malle: what do you remember most about that day you two had to have that devastating conversation?
cecilia: that jaafar couldn't be the one to say it because he was so distraught that he couldn't breathe because he was crying so much. i was able to stay composed for as long as i could for me to say the words that we had to break up but after that and we knew that it really was over, i also started to cry because we both knew we didn't really want to believe it was over. i also remember leaving his family home, the both of us moved back in with our respective families since we could no longer stomach living in our shared apartment after our managements had come to us with this idea. and as i was leaving, i couldn't bear to leave straight away so i rested against their front door and just listened as i heard jaafar cry to his dad and how much he just wished things were different and that it didn't have to happen and listening to jermaine saying how unfair it was.
it's clear that even though cecilia is okay to talk about it that it was time to move past the topic so that's what i did. sharing eye contact with her during that segment really made me understand why jaafar and cecilia still spoke so positively of each other and that there really was no villian in this story except for the people who told them to break up.
malle: since starting your career as a singer-songwriter, everyone has only known you as cecilia since there is no evidence of a last name anywhere and it's something you've never mentioned. is there a reason why you don't disclose your last name publically?
cecilia giggles as i assume it's because this is a question she gets asked regularly however, she surprises me with her response as she smiles at me.
cecilia: no one has actually asked me my last name or why i don't disclose my last name to the public. everyone just assumed i don't have one or that i just don't like it so because of their assumptions, no one has been bothered to ask.
malle: really, no one bothered to ask you about your last name?
it shocks me that this is the reason why cecilia has never mentioned her last name in public. even though it shocks me and as much as i hate to admit it, i was also one of the people before today who also thought that maybe it was just a private thing that she wanted to keep to herself but hearing her answer really opened my eyes as to why some things aren't public knowledge simply because no one bothers to ask.
cecilia: i'm not that ashamed of my last name, which is coleman. i just removed it to be more marketable, not because i wanted it to be invisible or unknown. i never wanted my full identity to be invisible, people just never asked so i never mentioned it.
cecilia also made it known that whilst her last name is coleman, she is not related to zendaya, they just coincidentally have the same family last name with absolutely no family tree connection. she also gave me permission to refer to her by her last name for the rest of the interview like i do with every person i interview.
malle: you have so many songs and a couple of albums now, how do you figure out which ones to include in your tours and summer shows?
coleman: we figure the setlist out by including the hits so all the singles and then i pick a couple, maybe like three or four, album tracks that are not singles and then my favourite covers from other artists so it's a full hour concert.
malle: due to most of your songs that you wrote are about jaafar, do you think you'll stop performing them and with your older songs, do you think you'd stop singing them or do they still represent a part of you that can't be let go of?
coleman smiles as soon as i mention jaafar and it doesn't dissipate even though the rest of the question could come across as too far, it's clear she doesn't take it like that and seems happy to answer the question.
coleman: all my songs in some way or another are about jaafar whether either of us realise it or not because he's been apart of my life since we were kids. growing up, i was constantly at the hayvenhurst estate and it was in that house that my dream of becoming a singer-songwriter started. and no, i don't think i'd stop singing any of those songs, whether they're about jaafar or not. those groups of songs will always be performed on tour because they do represent a part of me that is so special that i can't let it go even though we're not together anymore.
as we take a five minute break, coleman's infectious mood isn't wavered by any of the questions, including the ones about jaafar as she continues to smile and answer with enthusiasm. once the break is over, coleman is in the zone as the interview starts again.
malle: other than certain relationships in your life, how else do you get inspiration for your songs because they really are a work of art?
coleman: thank you, chloe, that's so kind of you to say! i get inspiration for my songs in everything. i get inspiration from conversations i have with my youngest sister, she's five years older than jaafar's youngest brother. even though she's so young, she is already so eloquent and knows who she is. it's as though this isn't her first time on this earth like, it mystifies me with the knowledge and vocabularly she has. on my new album, i recorded a cover and she's featured in it and she's just a star and i really hope she becomes a singer as well because she truly has the talent to be a singer if she chooses to.
malle: what's your youngest sister's name and how old is she?
coleman: her name is solana which literally means a place that gets plenty of sunshine in spanish. and she is literally a ray of sunshine that little girl so, our parents did a fantastic job naming her. and she has just turned eight so, yeah, she's been in school for a few years now which still blows my mind that she's old enough to be in school.
malle: if you could pick one song to sing for the rest of your life, whether it's one of your songs or another artist's song, what would it be?
coleman: oh come on, that's such a hard question! but i'll pick one for myself and another artist so for one of my songs, it'll probably be home because whilst i wrote that about me and jaafar's relationship and him being my home, i still think the lyrics of the song ring true not just for me but also for jaafar. and if i could only pick one song from another artist, male artist, it would be heal the world by michael jackson and one song from a female artist/band, it would be abba's the winner takes it all
it's clear why coleman picked abba's the winner takes it all but i don't press her further although it's clear she knows that i know and we leave it at that. i also know why she picked a michael jackson song as well, not just because of jaafar but also because it's very well known how important michael was to coleman in the way of inspiring her to make music in the first place.
malle: as much as i wish this next question wasn't the last question, we have come to the end of the interview so, thank you so much for sitting with me, cecilia and for being vulnerable with me.
coleman: no, thank you chloe! it's been a pleasure, it's always great to talk to you and you know how much i love your interviews and your style!
malle: my last question for you is, what do you see yourself doing after this upcoming album and tour and how can we stay in touch with you and what you do?
coleman: after this album and tour, i think i'm actually going to take a break and maybe venture into some other projects. i have always loved the idea of going into the broadway realm or even acting in tv shows and movies but, who knows. this tour coming up is actually one of my shortest i've ever done, it's a four month tour which is much less than the normal nine month tours that i've done previously so yeah, after that i may just disppear for a bit to regenerate and you may see me elsewhere but for now, i'll be on tour! and you can follow me on my instagram which is just my first name, cecilia. thanks chloe!
malle: you are very welcome, cecilia. thanks for speaking with me for vogue!
coleman's smile then lights the entire room up as she sees her youngest sister, solana, who she mentioned earlier and it makes sense instantly why her parents named her solana. it's clear that little solana was here to pick up her big sister from her vogue interview. standing up from her chair, as best as she can due to the maxi skirt she had on, she lowered herself down to her floor with her arms wide open as her sister runs into her arms. standing back up, it looks as though it's effortless for coleman as she slides her sister to her hip as she gives me a hug and again thanks me for the interview as it formally ends after a long day of photoshoots and this interview.
in the same way cecilia read jaafar's vogue interview constantly, jaafar was reading cecilia's daily. the tears that streamed down his face whenever she mentioned his name really felt like they were neverending. it still hurt his heart that he was having to live his life without her all because of their management teams took over and gave them no choice because they purposefully overworked them just to try and prove a point.
i don't wanna talk if it makes you feel sad. and i understand, you've come to shake my hand.
months after jaafar and cecilia spoke candidly to vogue's chloe malle, it was the grammy awards. cecilia had just come off her four month tour and had been true to her word when she said she'd disappear for a bit. this was her first public appearance since the tour and she looked gorgeous. her hair had grown and was no longer her natural light brunette but now dark blonde and in its natural curls which she hadn't done since she was a kid. at this awards night, cecilia had been nominated for a few awards but so did jaafar along with the cast of michael for the soundtrack of the biopic. which meant for the first time in months, the ex-couple would be in the same room and seeing each other for the first time since the break up.
not because they purposefully were ignoring each other but again because of their management teams had put space between them on purpose. even though they did talk about one another in interviews, it forced their teams to put more physical space between each other. however, they knew it was stupid to try to enforce that rule at the grammy awards when it was noted which award jaafar was announcing, the main award cecilia was nominated for and which award cecilia was announcing, the award that jaafar and the cast of michael was nominated for.
it was now halfway through the awards ceremony and it was the final award category that cecilia was nominated for. cecilia had just got back to her seat after announcing jaafar and the cast of michael as the winner's of their nominated award. so, she could only imagine her head what it would be like if he announced her as the winner of her final category. she had already won the other three of our four categories so, she only hoped it would be four out of four. however, she couldn't be too sure considering the fates didn't keep her and jaafar together.
the crowd exploded into cheers as they watched jaafar jackson and his michael costar nia long walk on stage for the last category: best female artist. looking out into the crowd, jaafar couldn't help it as he created eye contact between him and cecilia. cecilia couldn't help but hold the eye contact as they smiled at each other, the rest of the room turning into white noise for just a moment before jaafar feels nia shove him softly, giving him the direction he needed for his part of the speech.
"...our nominees in this category of best female artist explores what it's like to be a women in this industry as well as the utter beauty of the women who wrote and performed these pieces. our nominees are..."
as cecilia's latest song she wrote played across the screen as the last nominee, she couldn't help the way her eyes found their way back to jaafar's as he returned the eye contact. he then breaks the eye contact when he notices nia pushing the gold envelope into his hand, giving him the cue to be the one to announce the winner, a sly smile on her face which already gives him the answer as to who he wanted to win this last award.
"...the winner of best female artist is...cecilia!" jaafar's voice shakes as it lowers as he bites his lip as the noise of the crowd cheering overtakes the emotion in his voice, hopefully making people forget how emotional he sounded
cecilia is in a brief shock as she hears and lets her brain register that jaafar announced her name as the winner of best female artist before she lets her father take her hand and help her up. she then giggles as she hears solana cheer in excitement that once again, her older sister had won another award but not just another one, all of the awards she was nominated for.
as the shock finally wears off, cecilia makes her way towards the stage as nia gives her a hand up the stage and is the first one to pull her in for a hug. she's well aware of how much her and jaafar's break up destroyed both of her friends. she was also well aware of how horrible both of their management teams were for breaking them up and for overworking them to that point. however she just hoped that tonight, the two of them were finally able to actually have a proper adult conversation without their management teams ruining it.
nia watches as jaafar and cecilia finally look at one another now that they're right in front of one another and jaafar is still holding her grammy. he smiles and hands her the grammy even though it's clear his eyes were telling a different story that still reflected the heartbreak, love and grief he still harboured for his former partner.
he steps back next to nia as they continue to applaud as it then dies down as they let cecilia say her acceptance speech. considering it was her fourth time on the stage, there was a slight chance it wouldn't be too long as it was clear she wasn't expecting to win all of her nominations.
"...four awards out of four, i'd say that's a pretty successful night at the grammy's but this isn't why i became a singer in the first place. i don't think i ever became a singer because i wanted to be up on these stages collecting all these awards..." cecilia's smile faltered as she looked down at her fourth grammy before looking back up
"...i remember the first time i ever considered to make this my job and it was when i was over at hayvenhurst estate visiting my best friend, jaafar and his family the jacksons..." cecilia trails off, a flash of uncertainty flashes across her face as she sees her manager in the wings
she also notices her sister solana nodding her head, as though she should tell the story even though the little girl had heard it millions of times, she'd never tire of hearing it. she then noticed jaafar out the corner of her eye, it was clear he also needed to hear the story again, not for any real reason other than it reminded people that they still loved each other and their lifes had always orbited one anothers.
"...i was in the lounge room on one of michael's grand pianos and i just started playing it absentmindedly until i started playing the chords of heal the world. i didn't even realise i was doing it until i finished singing the song and michael was just resting against the doorway with a smile on his face. he looked at me and just said i had sang that better than he did when he first recorded it. of course, i didn't believe him because why is he telling a literal child they sang one of his songs better than he, the king of pop, did?" cecilia trails off as giggles titter the arena as she tilts her head to the side as she can't bear to watch the way jaafar is watching her intently with tears in his eyes at the clear memory of his beloved late uncle
"it was what he said after that though that really told me that i had been put on this earth to create music and art in the same way he had done when he was a child. and the words he told me were so profound that i think they should be told and heard to everyone. if you are put on this earth to do one thing, cecilia, it's no doubt to sing and write for those who can't. you are the voice for the voiceless who wish they could do what you can do. and ever since he told me that, i've never forgotten it and that's why i do the job i do and that's why i write songs and perform them. these songs are not just songs for me, they are moments of my life which have been so special that i'll be singing them for as long as my voice allows me to. thank you all much for not just this award but all the awards i've won tonight and for everyone else who won an award and that were nominated! this is such an honour and it's been a pleasure to give you guys my gift," cecilia finishes her speech as the arena is filled with applause again as she moves away from the microphone
nia can't help it as she pulls the girl in for another hug as they giggle whilst jaafar just watches them as they hug and can show the world the love and appreciation they have for one another. it breaks his heart that it feels like he now has to keep the love and appreciation he has for cecilia secret. even though he can still talk about her in interviews, it's as though he isn't allowed to personally talk to her and that kills him more than anything. he just wishes he could just grab her hand and pull her into a private room for just one more conversation but he knows if either of their management teams were to find out, the trouble they'd be in would be unimaginable. so the two just suffer with the fate of being able to talk about one another to everyone else except for one another.
and just when jaafar thought that after tonight he'd never see cecilia again, he was proved wrong. because he was so focused on not being able to have his one last wish of one last conversation with cecilia, he didn't realise the person in front of him was cecilia.
"...jaafar, come with me!" was the trigger for jaafar to lift his head up and notice cecilia in front of him taking ahold of his hand
"what are you doing, cece? you know we can't do this, what if our management teams catch us?" jaafar is terrified and he has every right to but cecilia, as always, settles that fear
"they won't, j, i promise," cecilia never lies so jaafar is quick to nod his head as the two of them run off to a private room that they're relieved has a lock so they close the door and lock it straight away
the ex-couple are quiet for a moment before cecilia speaks up, her voice shaky, not the same as it was when she collected her final award, "if you don't want to talk because this is too sad, just tell me and i can unlock this door and we can forget this ever happened but, i just have to talk to you, j..." her voice is soft and it's clear she was just as aggrieved over this breakup all these months later as jaafar was
it was now jaafar's turn to quell cecilia's nerves as he speaks up, "...it makes me unbelievabally sad but no matter how i feel, i'll always want to talk to you even when we shouldn't be. what did you need to talk about?" jaafar's eyes soften as cecilia smiles softly, her body relaxes as she composes herself
"i don't think i can continue to do this, talk all this sweet stuff about you in interviews and over social media but as soon as we're at an event together, we can't talk with one another? we're being controlled, jaafar and i don't like it anymore. we can't keep on letting our management teams think they're the winners and that they're the ones in control because they're not the ones in control. we're adults, jaafar, we're not those silly little teenagers anymore that needed someone to have some control in how we presented ourselves but now it's too much! it's like we're their puppets and they're pulling the strings, isn't that how you feel?" cecilia begs as jaafar can't help as his head nods involuntarily
"i feel the same way, cece but is there really anything we can do? i don't think it'd be wise to fire our management teams after such successes with my biopic and your latest album and all these awards! everyone'll get suspicious and then hell will break loose!" jaafar was terrified but once again, he couldn't help but know just how right cecilia was, they were being controlled
"of course we can do something, j! we've always been able to take control and this time we really should take control about who should manage us because these people are not good people and they never have been good people. think about the people who went and slaughtered your uncle, j! they hounded him and isolated him from everyone he loved which included his family and that's exactly what our management is doing to the both of us right now! they started off mellow by slowly giving us more things to do at work which started as coming home from work late on the occasion and then it continued to be that way where we never saw each other at the same time and then they told us that maybe due to how busy we had gotten that our relationship wouldn't survive so thinking about ending the relationship started to happen. and then after that they started forcing it down our necks that we needed to break up whilst they knowingly continued to overwork us as a way to try and make our break up a messy and awful one. and when we didn't give them the messy breakup they wanted, that was when they decided to prevent us from seeing each other not realising that that didn't mean we couldn't stop talking about one another. we are their puppets in their puppet show and they are the puppeteers running it! we need to escape from them, jaafar, otherwise we'll be stuck in the same cycle and potentially have the same thing that happened to michael happen to us and quite frankly, the thought they could start shooting me up with so many different medications at any moment terrifies me, jaafar! doesn't that scare you?" cecilia is finally out of air as jaafar nods his head, finally understanding just how staged their breakup actually was by their own management and how they had been molded and controlled
it makes him cry to think about the people that slaughtered and damaged his uncle because they all wanted a piece of him that he was never truly willing to give out to them. people forgot just how smart michael actually was and about who he let into his life because of how untrusting he was of people and why he trusted children a lot more than the adults surrounding him. which was also why he was easily manipulated later in his life when he was surviving off those painkillers in those later years before his death. now it really opened jaafar's eyes and made him terrified to think of that potentially happening to him and cecilia. he didn't want history to repeat itself in such a cruel way and they were letting it repeat itself by staying with their management teams and letting them be the puppeteers in a story that wasn't theirs to puppet.
so, the winner takes it all and the loser has to fall. throw the dice, cold as ice.
it had now been another few months since jaafar and cecilia had their secret grammy's conversation. after their conversation, neither of their management teams figured out they had actually spoken. whilst it did confuse jaafar's management as to why it looked as though he had been crying, they didn't further question it and just boiled it down to exhaustion and consumption of alcohol.
similar to jaafar's management team, cecilia's management team also didn't figure out why she looked so much more emotional after the award ceremony. however, they also didn't question it any further and just boiled it down to exhaustion, the emotion of winning all four of her nominated awards and alcohol consumption.
it was after the award ceremony that jaafar and cecilia continued to secretly see each other without their management teams knowing. it was during these meetings that jaafar and cecilia came up with a plan on how to fire their current management and find the right people to be their new management. since it had been doing with such secrecy, no one in jaafar or cecilia's closest circles knew what had happened until the one and only chloe malle posted a vogue article announcing that both jaafar and cecilia had gotten back together and their management teams had been fired via a court order and they were being managed by the same new group of people.
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ACTOR JAAFAR JACKSON AND SINGER-SONGWRITER CECILIA COLEMAN BACK TOGETHER AND THEIR MANAGEMENT TEAMS FIRED VIA COURT ORDER
EDITED BY CHLOE MALLE | JULY 2027
actor jaafar jackson and singer-songwriter cecilia coleman broke hearts across the world when it was announced they had broken up back in mid-2026. however, it has been announced by photos taken outside of a los angeles court that they are back together and are potentially more than just boyfriend and girlfriend with a gold diamond ring spotted on coleman's left ring finger.
the entire time the couple had been broken up, there had never been rumours for why they had broken up other than how they explained to me when i personally interviewed them back in august '26 and september 26' respectively. the couple consistently talking lovingly about how they still loved one another and wished the best for each other but were never mysteriously seen with one another until jackson handed coleman's fourth and final grammy award back in feburary when we finally saw the at the time ex-couple together again in public. however, there had been whispers which allegedly originally came from jackson's own family, specifically his father, jermaine, that it was due to jackson and coleman's separate management teams that had caused the split.
except, those whispers had stayed as whispers as no one expected that the management teams of such up and coming artists would be so controlling of their own talent. however, it has been confirmed via a los angeles court order that the five-piece management teams of both jackson and coleman were fired from managing them. i can confirm via this court order that jackson and coleman are now being managed by one singular team who had been personally researched and vetted by jackson and coleman that was supposedly done in secret without either of their old management teams knowing about it.
the court order further talks about how the old management teams controlled jackson and coleman. the two young stars mentioned in their testimonies that at first, it wasn't abusive or controlling when their management teams asked them to stay at work later than normal because not everything had been completed. it wasn't until they started to meddle in jackson and coleman's relationship that something began to smell fishy for coleman in particular.
in a quote said by coleman during her testimony, she talks about just how far the management teams went to control them, "...the moment i realised it started to become controlling was when [the management teams] prevented us from being home together at the same time for more than five minutes. they then started to go even further by slowly starting to mention to jaafar and i that potentially our relationship wouldn't be able to handle just how quick our fame had become and that because they wanted to look out for us that potentially, maybe it was time for me and jaafar to break up. when we ignored their original mention of us breaking up, that was when they pushed further and really started to overwork us further so we weren't seeing each other at all to the point we weren't even sleeping together anymore. if jaafar was sleeping at our apartment, i was at work in the studio and if i was sleeping in our apartment, jaafar was either filming for michael or he was rehearsing for something else. it wasn't until jaafar's dad jermaine rang both of our management teams that he was giving the both of us a week off that our management said it was okay as long as it was during that week that we broke up."
worried that she and jackson would be taken advantage of in the same way jackson's uncle, michael jackson, did, this is what else coleman said in her testimony, "it was during the grammy awards, after jaafar had presented me with my fourth award that night that for the first time since we broke up, we had spoke. we ran into a private room that had a door that locked and that was when we planned how we were going to leave our management teams. i mentioned to jaafar that what was happening to us felt awfully similar to how jaafar's uncle was treated in the final years of his life and it frightened me that the same thing could have happened to us if we didn't take our control back. i mentioned to jaafar that it felt as though we were puppets and the management [teams] were the puppeteers controlling us by the strings for their own little show. i also mentioned that we needed to escape from them otherwise there could have been a potential of being stuck in the same cycle as michael [jackson] was and have what happened to him happen to us. once i told jaafar about the fear i had about them shooting me or him up with so many medications at any moment terrified me and asking, begging, if it too scared him. when he did tell me it also scared him, that was when we left that locked room and started planning our escape. for weeks, we would secretly meet with each other without the knowledge of the [team] and we started researching and personally vetting for a new group of five people that would as a collective manage both jaafar and i so we didn't have to worry about either of us getting manipulated again. these new people have been countlessly researched and vetted until there was no more room for concern that they'd abuse us like the other ten people did."
the court ruling further explains that all ten people [five in jackson's management team and five in coleman's management team] were convicted of abuse of power, mistreatment and intimidation by harrassment and each sentenced to ten years in prison with their job titles stripped.
coleman and jackson have both now said they feel like their nightmare has ended and that finally, the winner does indeed take it all and the loser has fallen.
TAGS: JAAFAR JACKSON CECILIA COLEMAN
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oh my golly gosh! this is the first time in ages that i've written a new piece and not just rewritten an already written fic of mine! at first i was so worried about this being bad so i tried to make it end not in a happy ending and tried to keep it mysterious but i think i just got too excited that i had to have it end happy so i changed the summary lol. also, don't @ me but i doubt the charges i included in this fic were real charges that can have people be sent to prison for, but, pretend they are for the purpose of the fic lol. anyway, i hope you all enjoyed reading this as much as i loved writing it!
pairing : marlise jackson x husband!michael jackson
summary : a couple of months after her miscarriage, it was found out that marlise, wife to michael jackson, was pregnant again and was finally able to give her and her husband michael the one thing they've always wanted; their little baby girl
a/n : i already knew i wanted to do part two of "so much blood" so i am so glad i got to. this will be a lot happier than the first part but the miscarriage will be talked about in an italicised flashback by a magazine article posted by vogue. and, yes, because of the name of this fic, michael's real life children prince, paris and bigi do not exist in this timeline or universe but photos of baby paris will be used for baby noelle
vogue
SINGER AND WIFE OF MICHAEL JACKSON MARLISE JACKSON SUFFERS MISCARRIAGE & STILLBIRTH AT HUSBAND'S NEW YORK CITY SHOW
EDITED AUGUST 1995
american singer-songwriter and wife of michael jackson, marlise jackson was rushed to the hospital after her husband's new york city show. it had been rumoured for a few months now if mrs jackson was pregnant and we had been waiting for the husband and wife to announce it. however, it's with great sadness that the couple lost their baby and they experienced a stillbirth.
a statement read from the mother and mother-in-law of mr and mrs jackson, katherine jackson outside of the new york hospital had this to say: "my son and daughter-in-law are devastated to announce that they have lost their baby due to a stillbirth. they had been waiting for months and for the right time to publically announce it and never did they think this would be the news they'd have to announce. for those who know my son and daughter-in-law well, you'd know just how much they yearn to become parents and it breaks my heart and the hearts of our entire family that this was the outcome of my son and daughter-in-law's second pregnancy. please respect their privacy and in their own time once they've processed their grief, will make their own statement in time. thank you,"
it breaks our hearts that michael and marlise have gone through this tremendous loss and we can't even imagine how this must feel. we send all of our thoughts, love and prayers to the family as we respect their privacy during this time
as marlise read the small one page article that vogue had printed in their magazine regarding the loss of her and michael's baby, a small smile of gratitude spread across her face. it had now been almost a year and a half since the stillbirth and since the article had been published. there was no real reason she decided to pick the magazine up and read it but she just decided that she wanted to do it. for the last few months, marlise had been so sick that she could barely leave her and michael's neverland home.
during the entire time marlise had been sick there had been a little voice in the back of her mind asking her if there could be a possibility that she was pregnant again. for the last few months, she hadn't been getting her period and she had been ridden with terrible morning sickness and the worst breast pain. michael had also been begging for marlise to just take a singular test to just check but she just couldn't bring herself to do it. because what if she was pregnant again and the same thing happened and she had her third miscarriage? she vowed herself to never get pregnant again after the first miscarriage and then when she got pregnant the second time, the same thing happened. it would destroy her if she was pregnant again and lost the baby for a third time.
however, her curiosity overpowered her fear and she decided that day whilst her husband was in the studio that she'd drive over to the chemist and buy a pack of pregnancy tests. just in case and if they came back negative, she could live with that and if they came back positive, she'd be terrified of the same thing happening a third time but that was another thing she could work through with the support of michael and their family. so, she caved and took all three tests that had come in the pack.
the wait was the most agonizing part of the process as marlise paced back and forth, all alone in their bathroom in neverland as she waited the results. the timer ticking away as marlise couldn't help the way she paced around the bathroom. she wasn't sure what she wanted these pregnancy tests to say whether she actually wanted it to say positive or negative, she had no idea. however, the timer going off loudly interrupted her thought process as she moved back over to the basin where the pregnancy tests laid with the screen facing down. her hands shaking violently as she picked up the first one, turning the test towards her as her eyes widened and she almost dropped it.
a scream left her mouth as she noticed what it had said. it was a positive pregnancy test letting her know that she was pregnant and she was around 5+ weeks pregnant which made her quickly flip the other two pregnancy tests. her eyes filled with tears as the same exact results had come up on the other two pregnancy test that she was 5+ weeks pregnant. tears streamed down her cheeks as she slid down to the ground with all three pregnancy tests in her hand and her mouth being covered by her other hand. as she started to calm down, the hand that covered her mouth then reached down to her belly as she held it. at this moment, the only two people that knew about this pregnancy was her and the little baby in her tummy. and that was what caused the smile that spread across marlise's face.
now the only thing that marlise could think about was that she now had to figure out how to tell her husband and she was worried that she'd ruin the surprise. ringing the studio, she knew she had to tell someone before her husband and to her luck, the person that answered the phone was bill, michael's security guard.
"...hey marlise, you okay? do you need michael?" bill asks over the phone as marlise shakes her head, forgetting he couldn't see her
"no, no i don't bill! but, i do have some news that i just have to tell someone before michael so thank god it was you that answered!" marlise sounds giddy and it makes bill happy as she hadn't sounded his happy in ages but it made him a little suspicious
"okay, what do you need to tell me?" bill asked with a small chuckle as marlise bites her lip before she just explodes
"i'm pregnant, bill! i'm a little over 5 weeks pregnant!" marlise explodes in joy as bill almost stops breathing
"you're serious, marlise? that's amazing!" bill remembers to breathe as he responds as marlise giggles
"i'm so serious bill! all three pregnancy tests said the same thing!" marlise giggles as she looks back at them now that she was standing back up again
"i'm so happy for you marlise! do you need me to bring michael home?" bill smiles, no longer worried about the studio session as he looks at michael who was inside the studio recording with no idea about what was going on on the phone
"if you could but, he can finish recording the song, i don't need him home straight away. i just didn't have anyone else to tell since jackie & marlon haven't arrived yet," marlise smiled as bill smiled and nodded his head
"no worries, marlise. well, again, congratulations again and me and michael will be arriving home within the hour or two. when jackie and marlon arrive, make sure to tell them too! they'll be ecstatic about this news too!" bill smiles as he notices michael looking at him in confusion and laughs
"i will, thank you bill! i'll let you go now as i'm sure michael's looking at you in confusion as to who you're talking to!" marlise giggles as bill giggles back
"yeah, he is. okay, catch you later, marlise!" bill smiles as he ends the call as marlise can't help the smile on her face now that at least one other person knew the exciting news
as soon as marlise ended the call with bill, the doorbell for neverland rung and it was clear to her who it was. just like they promised, jackie and marlon were the ones standing behind the front door. as marlise opened it, it confused them to see their sister-in-law so excited and cheerful. everyday they had visited since the stillbirth, they'd never seen marlise this happy and energetic. they always had to be picking her up and moving her from her room to the lounge room just so they could take care of her for the day but, today, that wasn't the case. marlise had opened the door for them herself and she was dressed, not in her pyjamas, but actual clothes and she actually looked alive and like a real person. she no longer looked like a shell of herself which made jackie and marlon smile back at her once their shock wore off.
"good morning, marlise! what's gotten you so excited today?" jackie asks with a giggle as he shuts the door behind him and marlon as the brothers are led towards the lounge room
"i had been going back and forth lately about the reason why i've been so sick the last few months. and, i finally found out why..." marlise bites her lip, trying to hold her excitement back
marlon and jackie are confused until they notice what marlise had pulled out from behind her back, "...oh my gosh...marlise, you're pregnant?!" marlon squeeked out this time as marlise nodded her head as she watched the way her brothers-in-law reacted
"yeah, i took three and all of them said the same thing, pregnant 5+ weeks. potentially the entire time i was sick i was actually pregnant!" marlise chuckles in shock as marlon and jackie are also shocked but look so happy
"have you told anyone else? does michael know?" jackie asks as she shakes her head
"only bill and you two know. i just got off the phone with him before you guys rung the doorbell. i'm waiting for michael to come home to tell him. i didn't want to disturb his recording session, i just had to tell someone and bill was the first person i thought of and was hoping would respond!" marlise giggled as jackie and marlon shook their heads and smiled
"michael's going to be so excited, marlise! i really hope this time, this pregnancy is the one that stays!" marlon smiles softly, a little wobble in his voice as marlise's face softens as she hugs him
"i have a feeling this one will, marlon! don't worry, i have a real good feeling about this pregnancy and i know mikey is going to be so excited as well!" marlise comforts her brother-in-law as marlon nods his head as jackie just watches on quietly, also hoping like his brother, that this pregnancy stays for michael and marlise
*
it had now been many months since marlise had found out she was pregnant a third time. michael had been told the very same day when he had returned home from the studio and saw how happy his wife and two of his brothers were. with the same confusion his own brothers had at his wife's joy, it was then spilt that she was pregnant again. and hearing that news made michael so happy he cried in pure happiness that he and his wife had been blessed with one more chance to try for their blessed baby girl.
and now, after once again, many months of rumours flying around, michael and marlise announced via vogue that they were indeed pregnant but only after the baby had been born. it was indeed a miracle that michael and marlise had hidden it for so long but, they didn't want to jinx it, especially last time when the rumours ran wild, they had a stillbirth so they didn't want to chance it.
vogue
MARLISE AND MICHAEL JACKSON FINALLY HAVE THEIR MIRACLE BABY!
EDITED NOVEMBER 1997
the king of pop michael jackson and his wife, singer-songwriter marlise jackson have announced via vogue editors that their beautiful baby girl has been born. until now, it had been a tight-lipped secret that marlise was pregnant again for a third time. back in august of 1995, we reported a devastating story that marlise and michael suffered a stillbirth after michael's new york city show. so it brings us great unbelievable joy that we get to report the happier news that their miracle baby has been born.
a statement read to our vogue editors by katherine jackson outside of the hospital said this, "it brings me so much joy that this time i stand outside a hospital i get to bring the amazing news that my son and daughter-in-law have welcomed a beautiful baby girl into this world. for the last few months, everyone speculated many things as the reason why my daughter-in-law had holed herself up at her home at the neverland ranch. and now, everyone knows it's because marlise was pregnant with their beautiful baby girl. michael and marlise have given me permission to announce the name of their baby and it excites me to say that her name is noelle-michael katherine jackson and both baby noelle and mom are okay. my son michael is overwhelmed with joy that he and his wife finally have the family they have wished for for so many years after going through such devastating miscarriages and stillbirths. as michael, marlise and noelle settle in their home at neverland ranch, privacy and patience is asked for whilst the family get used to their life as a family. thank you all for your sweet words, cards & presents, our family appreciates it and now it's time for them to have some quality private time,"
this news brings our team at vogue so much joy that michael and marlise have finally got the family they dreamed of. we are sending them all the love and well wishes as they get discharged from the hospital and go back to their home at the neverland ranch.
sitting with her three week old baby in her arms, marlise smiles as she reads the vogue article for the third time in the same day. it still shocks her that she's a mother to a beautiful baby girl and it sometimes even still shocks michael that he's a dad to the same beautiful baby girl. however, they had now started to get the hang of being parents and no longer required the entire jackson family stopping past the ranch in shifts to assist them. but, that didn't mean it stopped michael's family from their acts of service as marlise giggles at hearing her husband trying to tell his older brothers jackie and jermaine that whilst he and marlise appreciates them, they didn't need them stopping past every day.
as marlise overheard her husband and brothers-in-law, she couldn't help the way she just stared at her daughter, noelle. she was a beautiful little baby and looked so much like her daddy but still had features that reminded marlise that noelle was also her daughter just as much as michael's. due to marlise being so entranced by her little baby, she didn't notice that michael had somehow convinced his brothers that they could survive the day without them and they could come back the next day if they really felt worried and had taken a seat next to his wife and baby on the couch.
it wasn't until michael caressed his daughter's cheek that marlise realised, "...hey applehead, sorry, i didn't see you there. where did jackie and jermaine go?" marlise smiled, turning her full attention to her husband as he smiled whilst baby noelle intently watched her parents
"don't apologise for that baby. i convinced jackie and jermaine that we could survive one day without them and that they were more than welcome to return tomorrow if they still felt worried," michael smiled as marlise giggled as she nodded her head as she played with noelle's fingers
"wow, i'm surprised you convinced them! i thought that was a thoroughly impossible task!" marlise chuckles as does michael as he shakes his head
"to be honest, it almost was an impossible task to get rid of them. the only reason they left was because i gave them a compromise and allowed them to come over tomorrow with some premade food that just needs to be heated up, otherwise they were not going to leave!" michael chuckled as marlise shook her head this time as noelle just kept on watching the conversation though she couldn't understand it
"well, at least something worked in getting them to leave!" marlise chuckled as did michael as he gently rested his head on his wife's shoulder
"yeah..." michael trailed away as he tried to think of what more he could say to continue the conversation
"...i still can't believe we're actually parents, applehead. noelle is absolutely beautiful and it sometimes still shocks me that she's ours!" marlise had taken the words out of her husband's mouth as michael nodded his head
"i can't either honey! but aren't we so lucky that she's ours?" michael smiles, his entire body softening as his finger gently caresses his daughter's cheek as she smiles
the smile completely dismantled any wall that michael or marlise had put up to protect themselves as tears welled in their eyes. the both of them just looking at their baby as though she hung the moon and stars as she continued to smile with her beautiful gummy smile. noelle was definitely the miracle that blessed and healed michael and marlise.
fin
believe it or not, this part two was not one i had copied over from the original one that i copied over for this one-shot. this one i had completely written myself because the original one was done in modern times that had instagram and other social medias. whereas this one was done with the late 1990's in mind. so, i'm actually really proud of it but also, because of that fact, i was unsure how or when to finish it so i just finished it when i did so i still hope it's really good! okie, bye, i hope you guys like this!
pairing : marlise jackson x husband!michael jackson
summary : whilst watching her husband michael jackson perform on stage, marlise jackson suffers a traumatic late miscarriage at five months, right at the twenty-four week mark where it's considered a stillbirth.
warnings : mentions of miscarriage, blood, tears, hospital, angst, no mention of mj's real life children
a/n : i have recycled this fic multiple times now so i won't mention it again fully but i have never experienced a miscarriage/ectopic pregnancy/stillbirth however, i do know people who have and it's a grief that is unfathomable. i have not written this to make fun of it because that is never my intention. this is just purely fiction with no intention to harm anyone, hence why i haven't included michael's real life children. if this triggers you, do not read this, or if you do read this, read with caution as it is up to you to feel comfortable with the things you consume.
attending any concert with the jackson family was an exciting thing but most especially when it was marlise jackson's husband's concert. marlise jackson was indeed married to the king of pop, michael jackson and he was currently on tour and marlise had been lucky enough to travel with him on this tour. during a concert in the hometown of marlise before she moved to gary indiana, she was trying her best but failing at hiding the fact she was pregnant with her and michael's first baby. they had been trying for a few years now to get pregnant and it just hadn't been happening with both the husband and wife worrying about infertility and on the verge of asking marlise's sister to potentially be their surrogate. only to then find out weeks later that marlise was indeed pregnant. however, recently, marlise had been having some strange cramp-like pains in her stomach and back but had been disregarding them because she didn't want to add more fuel into the fire of her crippling fear of having a miscarriage.
and besides, the pains hadn't been too extreme that it required looking into so, she just didn't think to mention it to her midwife. especially considering if this baby was to miscarry, it wouldn't be marlise's first miscarriage either. like mentioned earlier, marlise and michael had been trying to get pregnant for ages and the last time they thought they had a positive pregnancy test, less than three weeks later, they had been told that the baby had been miscarried with no fault of marlise. and it was after that moment that marlise had promised herself, as well as michael, that after that she'd never ever try to fall pregnant again and it was during that conversation that her and michael had gone to speak to her sister regarding surrogacy.
that was, however, this most recent positive pregnancy test had happened and her pregnancy had survived longer than her last pregnancy that miscarried. even though the thought of being pregnant again terrified marlise, she knew with her husband and family by her side that maybe, it wouldn't hurt to try again. especially since both marlise and michael had been dreaming of having kids since they were kids themselves growing up in gary,indiana together.
all marlise had been positively manifesting was for a happy, healthy, stress-free pregnancy for her and michael after their last try had gone so horribly and as of right now, it seemed like her pregnancy was going perfectly. she was in her fifth month and didn't purse the same symptoms she did when she had her last miscarriage as mentioned before. and because of this knowledge, marlise actually felt safe in knowing that baby jackson and her were out of the danger zone regarding miscarrying or having a stillbirth. and, to be completely honest, that knowledge that marlise had healthily made it to the five-month mark in this pregnancy for her and michael just this past week gave her so much comfort and safety because it meant that she really was going to be able to give her and her husband everything they had ever wanted; a child.
whilst marlise and her inlaws, the jacksons were on their way to the backstage wings where they'd watch michael, they couldn't help but bring up the conversation of her and michael's baby. and whether or not they had come up with some names for the little applehead, a nickname that had been lovingly given to the unborn baby by katherine jackson, michael's mother.
"---so, whilst you look divine being pregnant with, marlise, have you come up with names for the little applehead yet?" katherine asks as marlise giggled, giving katherine the side-eye whilst michael's brothers marlon, jermaine and jackie smiled at each other as marlise rubbed her tiny five-month bump
"uhh, no, not really, katie. mike and i haven't really been focused on names just yet, i mean, i know i'm not. i can't totally speak for mike but, all i know is that these three hooligans know the gender so, i think mike and i are waiting on that. but for now, their name is little applehead and i think they like that nickname too," marlise spoke before the three brothers nodded their head in agreement with their sister-in-law as their eyes sparkled at the baby bump that was their future niece/nephew
"well, no matter what gender baby feehily is going to be, you and mike will for sure come up with a beautiful name anyway," marlon coos as he rubbed his hot hand across marlise's stomach, making the pregnant girl giggle softly due to the tickly sensation it gave her
however though, maybe the amount of laughter she and the others were doing was not the smartest. a large shot of sharp pain sent shockwaves through the soon-to-be mother's entire body as if it was a giant period cramp. along with the strange feeling of nausea, which marlise had not once been experiencing unlike her last pregnancy. she then quickly and without words excused herself from the in-laws to the bathroom just outside of the backstage wings which was the accessible toilet, the only one that marlise could use.
*
"--hello new york! how are we feeling tonight?!" michael cheers into his microphone as he laughs at the enthusiasm of the new york crowd in front of him
michael then continued on with the little speech as he got ready for his next set of songs which were a medley of jackson 5 songs, 'the love you save', 'abc' and 'i want you back'. the entire concert, he was overflowing with joy as he watched the way his wife watched him with the knowledge that they were about to become parents and that she was pregnant. however, michael and marlise had tried their best to keep it as private as possible but some of their most eagle eyed fans definitely knew the reason for michael's utter joy as he performed this show without him needing to utter a single word as to why.
then, the cords for i want you back began to play and michael started to sing and dance. he felt like he was on cloud nine as the smile on his face felt bigger than it actually was. marlise for sure also felt like she was on cloud nine as well when it was remembered how long they had been trying to conceive. however, throughout the jackson 5 medley and the secret happiness of their baby announcement, fear started to spread through the backstage area as katherine jackson & michael's brother jackie ran through the arena to find bill bray who was michael's security guard so they could tell bill that michael was urgently needed backstage.
the crowd enjoyed every moment of the jackson 5 medley until it got to 'the love you save' when michael started to have fun with the singers that joined him on stage for the medley when bill suddenly rushed up onto the stage which made the crowd confused. smiling as best as he could and waving to the fans, bill made a beeline straight to michael. grabbing his arm and pulling him closer to his side, michael lowered his microphone, and bill started whispering something into his ear so it wasn't heard by anyone else. which, for some strange reason made the crowd scream even louder. the backup singers that had joined michael on stage looked with confused faces as they watched on but still tried to keep some energy up by mumbling small song tunes under their breaths to keep the audience occupied. their confused faces then turned into looks of concern as within seconds, michael's face ran cold and paled, his head shooting up to look at bill.
dropping his microphone to the floor, michael wasted no time in dashing off the stage in a flash of light. barely tilting his head at michael, one of the other singers, since he was stood right next to michael, grabbed the microphone from the floor as bill shot him and the other singers a look of "i'll tell you later"
the others all looked at each other in concern for their boss and also now at the crowd who were waiting in nervous anticipation as to what the hell had just happened and why the michael jackson just ran off stage.
bill then spoke up, with michael's microphone that the singer had just handed him, "i am awfully sorry everyone. everything is fine, michael just needs to take care of something right now that has been classified as an emergency. as of right now, everything is okay and all parties involved are okay. i am not entirely sure when michael will be back on stage however, for the rest of this set, the singers that accompanied michael will continue whilst michael takes care of what's happening backstage," bill announces as the other singers, whilst absolutely fearful of what could be going on backstage right now, give each other comforting looks and decide to continue on with the show as they were supposed to but without michael
at hearing this announcement, the crowd, shrouded in worry, erupts into cheers and bill walked off stage trying his best to maintain his cool and not let his facade to crumble since he was the only one that actually knew what was happening backstage (and that everything was anything but okay). the singers now knowing that whatever was happening backstage that involved michael, would be told to them later on, terrified them yet had to mask that fear and continue the show because not only were they just told to by their boss' security guard but also by the fans reactions so that's what they did.
*
bursting out of the backstage wings and through the back rooms of the new york arena, not even paying attention to who may have been trying to calmly walk past, michael demanded answers as to what was going on. especially due to the fact it was in regard to his wife, marlise. then, suddenly, the only thing that rang through his ears was the sound of screams and cries of desperation from his wife.
jackie & marlon, two of michael's brothers, were on the ground, desperately trying to coax marlise to open the bathroom door but, not one single thing they were saying made the poor girl open the door. standing straight off the floor the second the two men saw their brother, marlon's wife spoke up, "she's been there for fifteen to twenty minutes, marlon made the call to 911, any minute they should be arriving," carol ann was updating michael, well, trying to as it seemed as if michael was too fixated on trying to figure it out himself
"what even happened?" michael's usual soft tone of voice came out shakier, moving his ear to the door to see if he could figure out what was wrong, the things he heard was marlise repeatedly saying "no" as she wept and let out small bouts of screeches to herself
out of breath, with bill and katherine right beside her, katherine mumbled, "she still hasn't opened the door?" as jackie, marlon and carol ann shook their heads as katherine and bill turned their attention to michael who was looking for answers, which carol ann gave to him
"in all honesty michael, we have no idea what happened," carol ann shrugged sadly, wishing she did know so she could help her brother and sister-in-law, "we were all having a sweet and nice conversation about little applehead and names and just having a right old laugh when marlise just suddenly got up off the floor and quietly excused herself to the bathroom, no words spoken. then, after it had been about four minutes, i got worried and i went over to knock on the door to check in on her but, before i could even get there, i just heard her scream. she refuses to open the door for us, that was when i told katherine and jackie to grab bill to grab you, so, sorry for having to grab you off stage but, maybe, for you, michael, she'll open it?"
michael shook his head at carol-ann's apology for making him walk off stage during a show as he took in a deep breath before leaning his forehead against the metallic, cold bathroom door, "marlie? babe, it's just me, could you please open the door?"
no response. not even a noise of acknowledgement.
breathing in again, michael tried a second time, "marlise, please, can you open the door for me?" he tried to keep his voice as calm as he could but, how could he? his wife was potentially injured whilst pregnant with their baby and he had no clue what to do to help her
a few seconds when past of pure silence that really worried the group, and made them hold their breath until a shaky, wet breath was heard on the other side of the door, "i...i can't mikey, please, go...go away! there...there's so...so mu...much!" the girl sobbed out in utter terror and distress, her vocal cords breaking
michael tried his hardest to not curse, both under his breath and loudly. deciding to try again, he knew he needed to get to his wife and see what was wrong so he could help her, "babe, marlie, if you're near the door, you need to move back," once again, no response from his wife suggesting that she had moved away from the door
then, taking the slim chance that he was right and his wife did move out of the way, as his mom katherine, jackie, marlon, carol ann and bill watched on in fear, michael jutted his right foot towards the bathroom door, his boot kicking it open completely. flying open immediately, the door revealed a scene that was beyond anything that everyone had imagined they'd be seeing. well, in all honesty, they had no clue whatsoever as to what they expected to see behind that bathroom door but, it certainly didn't involve all of this blood.
blood was absolutely everywhere, not only was marlise surrounded and sitting in it, there was blood all over her arms and some in her hair, legs and face due to her most likely panicking and touching herself to self-regulate herself into a calm enough state. with no care in the world, only stripping off the leather jacket that he was provided by the stylists the only thing that clicked into michael's brain was to comfort his wife.
dropping to his knees, he slid over through the blood and to the toilet bowl where marlise was resting, her body rocking with sobs as he pulled her in for a hug, blood being transferred from her to him in an instant. her hands rested at her side, her chin resting on michael's shoulder as her sobs shook both of their bodies. michael was mortified, i mean, he had no idea that someone so small as his wife could have this much blood rush out of her.
"i'm so sorry mikey," marlise whispered out ever so quietly to the point where he could barely hear it, not that she needed to apologise at all anyway
jackie, marlon, bill and carol ann looked in, noticing everything that had happened and instantly, tears all welled in their eyes. ushering everyone out, katherine gave one last look to his son and daughter-in-law before she also left the two of them so they could have a moment alone before the paramedics arrived.
"and why are you apologising, applehead?" michael whispered as he rocked his wife back and forth, kissing the side of her cheek that wasn't covered in blood, his arms wrapped securely around his distraught wife
"baby..." was all marlise could at first whisper, which confused michael
"...baby? what do you mean baby, marlie, what's happened, babe?" michael pushed for some more answers as marlise's face screwed as she closed her eyes and shook her head, tears waterfalling down her face as she refused to talk about what had just happened
michael hugged his wife tighter, not just to comfort her but also to let her know that he wouldn't get mad or lash out over whatever it was that she wasn't telling him. even if it did have something to do with their baby. he just wanted to be told what had happened so he could help his wife.
finally, with reluctance and shame for herself, marlise once again whispered it out, "...the baby, i...i lost the baby..." no loud sobs followed from her mouth after she revealed her stillbirth as michael felt a switch get turned off whilst another one got turned on and his eyes filled with tears
"...oh...oh...marlie! i am so sorry babe!" michael whispered as he pulled his wife closer to him, his lips smooshed against her blonde hair as his breath hitched as he felt his own tears leave his eyes as he closed them tightly
the husband and wife sat on the bloodied up floor for what felt like hours whilst the concert continued on stage before paramedics ran through the hallways of backstage before reaching the husband and wife and the rest of the jackson family. in a strange way, relief flooded michael's body hearing the pitter patters of the feet rushing through the hallways towards him and his wife.
subconsciously, even though he didn't know too much about first aid, he knew from the way his wife was scrunching her body up in pain that this was good timing for the paramedics of their arrival. it looked as if the foetus was still inside of marlise and that she'd need surgery to have it medically removed so nothing negative or dangerous would happen to her. the bloody scene that the paramedics had to witness as they walked in was not a friendly shock to the system at all and it was something they could never get used to, even as veteran paramedics. seeing this much blood as a paramedic, especially if their patient is a pregnant woman, was never good news, never.
*
michael picked marlise up and placed her on the gurney, unable to move as he just stood there as the paramedics wheeled his wife away to the ambulance. the hype and excitement from the rest of his concert inside almost teased him with the lights flashing and the joyful screams.
his thoughts were then interrupted by the male paramedic, "excuse me, sir, would you like to come and ride with us?"
turning around to face the man, michael gulped, "umm, uh, no, hold on, i need to at least get changed out of my clothes and clean myself up a bit, i'll meet you guys there as soon as i can,"
the 50ish-year-old paramedic nodded his head, telling michael the name of the hospital they were sending his wife to, making sure his mom katherine was going with her so she wouldn't wonder later on why she was left all alone. the ambulance then took off with his wife and mom when michael was finally alone and he felt himself walking back into the backstage area of the arena, his brain completely turned off, having no clue what to do or what to even think at this point in time. all he could do was find himself walking back into the bloodied bathroom where he found his wife, the blood staring back at him like it was teasing him for his and his wife's loss, especially since it hadn't even been the first time they've lost a baby of theirs.
and finally, the sobs he had been swallowing back for the sake of his wife just released from his body in violent jolts, completely overwhelming him and his ability to stand. he then tried to shake, wipe and flick away the blood that was covering his entire body from his legs to his upper chest, not stopping until he felt himself being grabbed that he realised that for the last couple of minutes, his brothers had been calling out his name, marlon, jackie and jermaine running toward him.
michael's raw, bloodshot, itchy eyes met up with the worried ones of his older brothers, "hey, mikey, hey!"
not a second longer went by before michael collapsed into his eldest brother jackie and tries to quieten his painful sobs into the brunette's shirt. taken aback not just by shock but also physically, having to catch not just himself but also his brother, jackie doesn't hesitate to tighten his arms around the shaky, sobbing, bloodied-up michael as he holds him tightly. encouraging his younger brother to continue to cry over the emergency that still, he was not totally knowledgeable about.
"that's it mikey, yeah, ssh, that's it. let it all out, it's going to be okay, you'll be fine..."
*
...michael had just incoherently tried to explain to jackie, marlon and jermaine about the emergency that had happened backstage that had caused him to miss the rest of the concert. with the other three struggling to understand what had happened, they looked at each other with confusion, worry and uncertainty rushing through their bloodstreams. urging for their younger brother to take a few more breaths before trying again, was the moment in which bill and carol ann had walked in on the brothers trying to comfort michael.
that was when, with some encouragement, carol ann came forward and explained to the other three boys, moreso jackie and jermaine what had happened, "jackie, jermaine, what michael's trying to say is, marlise was hanging out with us and katherine, we were laughing and blabbering on about what the baby would be called when out of nowhere, marlise wordlessly got up from her spot and rushed off into the bathroom. four minutes later, after becoming worried cause she never spends that much time in the bathroom, let alone four whole minutes, i went to check on her only to find that she had locked the door but even before i went to open the door, i just heard her scream and refused to open the door. that was when we got katherine and i to get bill to grab mike off stage and then, that was when we came to the realisation that marlise had gone into stillbirth, the...the baby's gone..." carol ann's voice faltered at the end as michael let out a sob as jackie held him tighter, jermaine and marlon both closing their eyes as tears filled their eyes
covering his mouth with his hand, jermaine softly spoke up, "... oh, marlie... where is she and mother? have they gone to the hospital?" jermaine's voice also faltered as carol ann nodded her head, confirming something that she knew michael couldn't out loud
"yeah, jermaine, the paramedics found out that the foetus was still inside her so, she's been sent into surgery to give birth to the baby because if the baby isn't removed, it's not just the baby we could potentially lose," carol ann sniffled, wiping her nose with her sleeve as jackie once again squeezed michael tightly as marlon gestured to jermaine to say that they should go over and join the hug
and, without another word, marlon and jermaine squeezed into michael and jackie's hug as they all started to cry together over the loss of what would have been michael and marlise's first baby. bill and carol ann, also overcome with emotion, then also joined in on the hug as they all cried and grieved together before they realised that they had left katherine all alone with marlise.
but, before they left, jackie whispered one last thing before they broke the group hug, "...it's gonna be okay, we'll be fine..."
*
now that it was well known within the new york arena that something serious had to have happened to someone in michael's family and that it had been marlise, the rest of the concert had been cancelled. the ensemble that had been trying their absolute best to cover for michael knew they couldn't continue the show nor would they continue without michael and leave him in the hospital. so, within minutes, the rest of the band and ensemble had been told about what had happened by bill as they all made their way to the hospital to be there for michael, marlise and the jacksons. the jacksons had also rushed into bill's van so they could get to the hospital that michael had been told his wife had been sent to.
however, this whole time, michael's weeping didn't stop. at this point, he was wailing like a dying animal, he was so devastated. what was more devastating was this was the first time his band had seen michael cry this much. whilst michael was a sensitive soul, never had he completely broken down like this in front of so many people. and that was what broke their hearts the most because they all knew that all michael ever wanted to be in his life was a dad and just as he was four or so months away from becoming one, the baby passes away. and before jackie got into the car with his brother, he realised that he still hadn't gotten changed and was holding his clean clothes
so, to calm their distraught brother and get him out of his bloodied clothes, marlon this time speaks up, "hey, mike, come on, look at me buddy, look at marlon!" pushing him away, michael still does what he's told and makes eye contact with marlon
"whilst this sounds like utter bullshit and you have full permission to smack me for saying this, everything will eventually be okay. you and marlise will recover from this and all of us getting in this car and waiting at that hospital will help you out. and eventually, you and marlise will have the most precious little baby ever but, right now, you need to get changed and into this car so we can get to that goddamn hospital. because out of everyone here right now, marlise needs you and you need your wife!" wiping his tears away, michael nodded his head, agreeing with his older brother
but not before looking down and realising, marlon was right, michael did forget to get changed out of his now dried-up bloodied clothes, he spoke up, "oh shit, you're right, i...i'll go and get changed, i'll be back..." michael hushed out as he wiped his tears away and rushed back into the venue so he could get changed
whilst that type of moment, one of their brothers forgetting to get changed would normally be hilarious, this time it wasn't funny. none of the jackson brothers found it funny to see how distressed and discombobulated their younger brother had gotten which rendered him inconsolable. so heartbroken and distressed he had simply forgotten to get out of his bloodied up concert clothes the entire time whilst everyone else had before walking to bill's van. michael then took those sweet few seconds as he stripped himself of his bloodied clothes and into a clean comfy set of pyjama pants and his red corduroy shirt and some slippers. double-checking he had everything he needed and that he hadn't forgotten anything else, he made his way back out of the arena and to the van where everyone was waiting inside, marlon waiting outside for him as they then made their way to the hospital to marlise and their mother.
*
marlise couldn't believe that her body had once again, in the span of what was only a couple of years, failed her. all she wanted to do was to give her and her husband a goddamn baby and she was so close to doing so as well. at this point, the grief of losing her second baby was practically gone because she knew it wasn't her fault and she had just accepted that it was normal to lose a baby. however, knowing that this specific baby that she was pregnant with was supposed to be her and michael's angel baby born after a miscarriage which just made her grief the worst it had ever been. she felt like she had failed her husband since she couldn't accomplish the one goddamn thing that women were practically put on this earth to do. all her husband ever wanted was a goddamn child and she couldn't even give him that.
waking up from her surgery, the girl was drowsy and for a moment forgot where she was when she heard the familiar voice of her mother-in-law, "...hey sweetheart, you're awake, i'll get the nurse--"
"--katie, where...where's mikey? i...i need to apologise to him, and you! i need to apologise to you! i am so sorry katherine! i didn't mean to lose the baby i--"
"--hey, hey, no, marlie! we will not be doing this, not today! you have got absolutely nothing to apologise for! no one is blaming you for the loss of you and mike's baby! i don't blame you, mike doesn't blame you, no one blames you marlie! it is not your fault at all! you had no control nor any idea that this was to happen! don't you dare blame yourself for something that is out of your control!" katherine stressed as marlise timidly nodded her head, still feeling awful but less heavy now that she truly felt reassured that it wasn't her fault - that is until she saw her husband
"do you know when mike will get here?" marlise then timidly asked as katherine sighed, she could tell that marlise was trying to stop her from getting the nurse
"no, i don't sweetie but, i really need to tell a nurse that you're awake so, can i please inform one of the nurses that you're awake?" katherine smiled softly as marlise timidly nodded her head as that sent a shiver of relief down katherine's spine
"thank you, marlie and, mike shouldn't be too far away and neither should the rest of the family since they will have also been told. now, i'll be back in a couple of seconds, a minute tops, behave!" katherine winked at the end as marlise breathed out a laugh with a small head nod as she rested her head against the wall of the hospital behind her whilst she waited
*
by the time mike and everyone else had arrived at the hospital and was allowed access to his wife's hospital room, she had already had the surgical procedure she needed to remove the deceased foetus. even though she knew that her husband had walked into the hospital room, she couldn't even bear to look up and make eye contact with him. especially with the knowledge that the stillborn had also been wheeled into the room for them to meet the baby.
she couldn't even bring it within herself to even breathe the same air as him even though she knew she'd eventually have to otherwise she'd alert the doctors and nurses. it ripped michael apart knowing that not only did marlise have to go through the surgery alone since katherine is not considered "family" even though she is marlise's mother-in-law but that she was so ashamed of herself that she couldn't even look him nor the baby in the eye.
"...please marlise, applehead, say something, just anything." michael whispered out in a teary beg to his wife as she slowly but nervously lifted her head up, finally looking her husband in the eyes as she finally noticed just how hard this had also been for her husband and therefore everyone else
"i...i tried so hard for anything but this to happen..." marlise whimpered out in a whisper as michael choked, not able to say a single thing as he swiftly moved over to the bed, hugging his wife as they cried together
then, they moved from the hug and marlise invited the nurse in so the parents could go over to the cot and meet their child for the first time...
...the child that was going to be their baby girl if she hadn't been born still...
jackie, marlon and jermaine all cried as they watched their brother and sister-in-law grieve over the loss of what would have been their younger brother's first baby girl.
"...we were going to have a baby girl mikey..."
"...our precious little girl marlie..."
fin
this was lowkey depressing but it was bound to happen and because i haven't written a proper fic for michael that wasn't part of the heal her world series so please enjoy this. however, if this isn't your first time approaching this fic, you should know i have a part two to this that does end in a happy ending so that will be coming shortly too!
summary : shiloh jackson was in the u.s military as a paramedic for around six years when she finally decides it was time for her to return home. surprising her husband, letting him know that she heard him telling her he'd been waiting for her.
warnings : military homecoming, husband x jaafar, happy tears, a flashback or two, a swear word or two
a/n : ok, i have written this a couple of times now but i love love love a military homecoming fic! this has been changed sooo many times from the other iterations i've done but this is definitely my favourite one lol. also, i'm surprised that i haven't done a military fic for jaafar or michael yet since i love them so much.
six 𝙮𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 𝙖𝙜𝙤| shiloh's pov
i watched with anxiety building through my chest as my family screamed at one another after i'd revealed to them my deployment date for the u.s military as a military paramedic, which i had enlisted myself into last year. not realising i'd get deployed to leave that quickly, i didn't really think at all the importance of telling my mom, dad and five other siblings. i had brought it up to my in-laws, my husband's family the jacksons, my husband jaafar jackson. and they had all been excited and proud of me for making that decision after they saw the way i had been mistreated working as a registered nurse at the hospital i used to work at. the reason why this arguement had even happened was because i had been pushed towards telling my family. jaafar's brother jermajesty had accidentally walked in on my phonecall that i for some reason had on speaker to my chief officer as he told me i was being deployed in the next couple of weeks.
jermajesty felt awful for walking in on the moment but it was clear he had just come in with the purest intentions of just checking in on me. he had noticed the way i just slipped out of the family conversation with his parents and my husband. he reminded me just how proud he and the rest of his family was at me making the difficult decision to enlist in the military as a medic. however, he also knew that i had probably waited a little too long to tell my family and if i left it any later or to the day of my deployment, i wouldn't be forgiven for a long time or possibly ever knowing my parents, my mom more than my dad. it was that that really got my arse into gear and decided it was probably the right time to tell them. so, i sent a message into my family's group chat telling them they needed to come over to me and jaafar's house and that the rest of his family were there as well. yet, it was me telling them that started this whole screaming match i was now in the middle of and being forced to listened to. that was until my husband quite literally couldn't handle the disrespect anymore and screamed for everyone, my family specifically, to shut up.
"--EVERYONE SHUT UP..." it scared me, genuinely, how loud my husband screamed as everyone immediately quieted down and it was silent before i decided to speak up quickly
"...are we actually serious guys, we're all adults in me and my husband's house arguing over a choice that i made with my own consent? whilst this is a new area of my job, don't you dare forget that i have been a registered nurse in a hospital for my entire adult life at this point! i know how to do my job and it's been known by everyone in this house how working in that hospital has nearly destroyed me. i made this decision to transition into the military with my already wealth of knowledge in nursing not because i was coerced or because of any other reason other than it's another way i can do my job. i didn't think this is how healthy families are supposed to react when they get told their daughter gets the opportunity in pursuing their dream after almost dying trying to do it in the 'normal' way in a hospital. i thought my biological family was better than this but i guess once again, the family i married into has made that belief wrong and changed my belief that it's actually them that's better..." at first, i was so confident and had all the power and anger until i wasn't, trailing off as jaafar pouted and spoke up
"...my wife is right guys. the way you have all just reacted to this news is disgusting. i totally understand the thought of your child and sister being deployed away is terrifying, don't you dare think i'm discrediting that fear. but don't you think that's something she already went back and forth in agony over! you will never understand how many sleepless nights i watched my wife have as she worried about whether or not she had just made the best decision of her clinical life as a health care professional or if she had signed her death certificate a second time. you should feel guilty, mrs hale because you clearly have no idea how hard it was for shiloh to tell us that she had enlisted into the military as a medic let alone the extra grief of telling us she's being deployed in less than two weeks..." jaafar trailed as the room fell silent again, my siblings and dad seemingly getting it and showing genuine remorse whilst my mom looked like she still couldn't fathom what she was hearing
my dad then spoke up and it was clear how apologetic he was, "...i'm sorry lo...i should have tried harder to break the fight up when it was clear that your mom wasn't going to stop. we all know how incorrect she was for starting this fight but me and your siblings are even more sorry for not ending it before jaafar's envolvement. whilst it does frighten me that my youngest baby is all of a sudden being shipped away to a different country to help in a war, i couldn't be more proud of you. i'm proud for how you decided to find a new way to continue being a registered nurse that wasn't in a different hospital or quitting all together because of what that hospital did to you..." he trailed off as i smiled softly, understanding my dad and siblings side of the story as i let him continue
"...as soon as the yelling started from your mom, i just didn't know how to react and just froze. you'd think after being married and having as many kids as we did with your mom that i'd be able to release myself from that response but apparently i still can't all these years later. i really am sorry that your mom extended her own anger and stereotypes of how you should be doing your job as a woman without me defending you when it's already been a hard time for you and jaafar. none of us but especially your mom should have made this job of telling us harder than it already was when it had been so much easier for you to tell your married family..." dad trails off as i smiled at him again and had to force my laughter back at the way he threw shade at my mom as my siblings nodded in agreement as i knew i could accept their apology
"...thank you for apologising dad on behalf of you and the siblings, i forgive you but, please do try to push past that freeze reaction when mom starts her terrible tirades otherwise it'll be someone else that gets them..." i trail off in a joking manner with a wink which makes him and my siblings laugh as they nod their heads
after the whole ordeal of my mom, since my dad and siblings had gotten over it, arguing over my decision to join the u.s military, i told the rest of jaafar's uncles and aunties and whilst they were also terrified and devastated, they were still proud of me. never once trying to sway my already made decision like mom had tried to. and because i told them it was finalised and i'd been enlisted since last year, i couldn't back out now even if i wanted to.
however, the one thing they did do was force me to reassure them that i would be fine and that i would come home safe and sound and only then would they not be mad. seriously though, unlike my family (minus dad and my siblings) they weren't mad at me, they were proud of me as well but were obviously still terrified of the thought of me being a military paramedic. but, we all had a group hug and i reassured them (and myself, obvi) that nothing wrong would happen and i promised them that no matter what happens, i'd be okay and i'd come home safely.
*
it was finally the day that i'd spend countless nights laying awake and crying silently about, my deployment date. and i wasn't ready, i was mortified and i think that was pretty easy to tell by just one look. i smiled tearfully as i watched jaafar try to convince the rest of our family that i'd be okay since it was now literally hours before i'd be deployed and it seemed like they needed more reassurance than i thought they'd need.
i could tell though that jaafar especially was trying to stay strong like he always did in these situations like my military deployment has but it was obvious that this had shaken him a little more than anything else has. which includes the death of his uncle michael and that was the most earth-shattering thing ever to happen in his family. so, i just knew i needed to get jaafar's attention and keep an eye on him whilst i trusted my father-in-lw jermaine and my dad to deal with the rest of my siblings. getting my husbands attention was pretty easy since he wasn't paying too much attention to the second cousin of his that he was conversing with and walked over to me.
it was obvious he was getting emotional so, i moved us back inside whilst everyone else stayed outside and i spoke up, "...what's going on babe?" i question softly, leaning my head on his shoulder as his breath became heavier, his chest tightening
"i...i'm so scared for you, shi..." jaafar tearfully trailed off as he tried to catch his breath and i sighed softly as i tried to lean even closer to him
"...guess what...so am i..." i sighed as jaafar's head shot up, i don't think it ever dawned on my husband just how scared i was over my own deployment
"...seriously? you're scared?" jaafar sniffled as i giggled softly and nodded my head, lifiting it off his shoulder
"oh, absolutely, darling. how can i not be scared? this isn't a reality tv show with my family *giggles*. this is me going into an unknown country in the middle east and seeing the most unimaginable things for god knows how long and treating injuries that i've never encountered before this deployment in an environment that is my regular hospital. in fact, this is the most scared i've ever been in my life but, at the same time, i've never been more certain about anything in my entire life..." i trailed off as i heard sniffles next to me as my heart shattered, jaafar had started to cry
and seeing and hearing my husband cry next to me broke my heart into teeny tiny little pieces. immediately, i pulled him in for a hug, hugging him as tightly as i possibly could as he cried and cried and cried. my heart continued to break because the only thing i could do was hug him as tightly as was humanely possible and even then, that could only do so much. and that still wasn't enough for me.
*
𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 | shiloh's pov
six years ago, i decided to leave my family and friends for an unknown country in the middle east to be a military medic with the u.s military. and now six years later, i'm home after an honourable discharge because i don't see myself in the military profession like i did six years ago when i was young and even slightly naive. currently, i was back home in los angeles on the filming lot of where my husband was filming the biopic about his uncle michael jackson playing as his uncle.
the only thing suggesting that i was a returning soldier was my military cap with my married last name jackson on it resting on my head whilst i wore a wrap shirt, black leather jeans and white high heels. it was now operation surprise jaafar and i was bubbling over with excitement. i was also absolutely terrified since i had no idea how jaafar would react since i'd be surprising him on set surrounded by his family and costars, the costars having only seeing them through facetime.
so, after surprising the rest of my family and my in-laws, i gave jaafar's dad jermaine and the director of the biopic, antoine fuqua, the rundown of my surprise. and after giving me the all clear, antoine gave me a rundown of how we were going to do the surprise. so, then, i simply waited for all the cast and crew to readjust after finishing a scene at which point i'd surprise my husband with my homecoming.
i had just casually walked onto the sound stage, watching as the rest of the cast walked off, looking at me in shock. after only seeing me on a phone since filming had begun, they were finally seeing me in the flesh about to surprise jaafar. standing in front of him, i had to hold back hysterical laughter at his ignorance that i was in front of him as i stepped back a bit and just waited for him to react. thankfully, i didn't have to step closer again as jaafar just happened to lift his head up not realising i was standing right in front of him. he then realised and i couldn't help the giggle that tumbled out of my mouth as he dropped the prop he had been holding in his hand, reaching over and grabbed me. due to our height difference, as he hugged me, i was just swallowed by him and his frame as he squeezed me tight in his arms as he started to cry.
i laughed in hysterics mixed with excitement as we both held each other tight and didn't let go. i had dreamt of the moment i'd come home and surprise my entire family but, i think surprising jaafar was always what excited me the most. and, in the greater scheme of things, i am so glad this was the reaction i got out of my husband. because, i don't think i can recall the last time someone successfully surprised him as he wasn't one to enjoy surprises and he was always a million steps in front so no one could ever surprise him so, i was glad to see this reaction from him. and truthfully, it's a reaction i'm never going to forget because it was the sweetest moment in the world alongside the cheers and screams from the cast and crew of michael and the jackson family around us which made it even more special.
in tearful laughter, jaafar spoke up, "what the heck are you doing here, shiloh?" jaafar's voice went up an ocatave as he giggled, wiping away his tears as i laughed with him, my right hand supporting the back of his head
"i heard that you were waiting for me..." i smiled as jaafar's face contorted as more tears streamed down his cheeks as he pulled me back into his embrace as he sobbed as i let out a soft awe and looked over at the group of people that were watching and filming whilst hugging jaafar
once he had composed himself again, he uttered, "...how...i didn't tell anyone..." he giggled tearfully as my head flew back as i started to laugh as well
"...you think i don't remember our last conversation before i left?" i chuckled as we finally broke out of our hug so i could reunite with the family and finally meet the cast and crew who i had only seen over the phone screen
i watched closely as jaafar got his composure and breath back whilst i embraced his costars, nia, coleman and juliano who played young michael as i giggled softly in shock. i had no belief in this plan actually working so i couldn't help but be a little prideful that my plan worked and that nothing that could have gone wrong went wrong. picking up the prop he had dropped before and giving it to one of the crew guys, he pulled me back in for a hug as i couldn't help my smile. and the smile was growing as i watched him introduce me to the cast and crew of the biopic he was apart of.
"...so,guys, this is my beautiful wife shiloh who has been in the u.s military as a medic for the last six years and now, all of a sudden, she's back home!" jaafar gave a brief introduction to everyone as production went on a break so jaafar could compose himself and so he could personally introduce me to everyone
after the surprise and jaafar had personally and individually introduced me to the entire cast and crew of the movie i stayed on set the rest of the day and watched alongside jermaine, prince, bigi and marlon. once the day was finally over and the set was closed down for the day, i waited for jaafar to change out of michael and turn back into himself again as we walked hand in hand back to our car and drove home.
*
bursting out into hysterical laughter, i watched as jaafar, jermajesty, prince, bigi and some of the other cousins watched some childrens tv programme that was randomly on from ten minutes to midnight, all of us just bundled on the couch in relief i was home. i know i was relieved as truthfully, i don't think i'd ever be able to return to the military ever again after what i had to witness and the injuries i had to treat but also the injuries i couldn't treat in time. the number of patients i lost throughout those six years in the military was heartbreaking but, the worst thing of all were the funeral services we had to attend each time there was a death. so, to just be back home safely in los angeles with my husband, my brothers-in-law and the rest of the jacksons knowing that we were all safe was the most comforting feeling in the entire world right now and it was the only thing i needed right now.
i didn't need to be anywhere else but with my family and that was it.
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shilohjackson it's been an honour to serve and protect my country in the military for six years but it's time i deploy my services back home in los angeles to my husband and family where i'm supposed to be 🤍
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jaafarjackson never been happier to see you my beautiful wife! i missed you more than my words and tears could express 🤍
shilohjackson jaafarjackson i've never been happier to see you my sweet honey! your words and tears expressed everything it ever could have expressed!
parisjackson despite the feelings i have about the movie, i will forever wish i got to see this surprise happen in person and not over facetime and i'm sorry about that. i love you so much shi and i am so grateful that you are finally back home safe 🤍
shilohjackson parisjackson you don't owe anyone an explanation about how you feel regarding the movie. however, i appreciate your sweet words my sweet p, whilst you weren't there and i wish you were, i'm just glad you were able to be facetimed in for the reunion. i love you too p and i'm also grateful that i'm finally home safe 🤍
officialjermainejackson i'm so grateful for this post, shi! never felt such relief than the relief i felt when i saw you walk onto that set, i'm so glad you're home my darling girl!
shilohjackson officialjermainejackson believe me, i've never felt such relief like that either! i'm glad to be back home with you guys
marlondavidjackson5 i know my words echo almost every other comment here but i am so happy to see you are home after so long, shi! i'm sure all of us are happy to have you back in our arms
shilohjackson marlondavidjackson5 i love you so much marlon! i'm also happy to be home and back in the arms of my family
princejackson i think i speak for all of us when i say we're so relieved to have you back home, shi! we love you so much, please don't leave us like that ever again!🤍
shilohjackson princejackson thank you princey and, absolutely. i'm never leaving home like that ever again 🤍
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jaafarjackson six years later and she's finally stationed back home where she's supposed to be! welcome home my darling shiloh, never ever leave the country for six years again or there will be consequences, love you🤍
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shilohjackson thank you my sweet boy! and don't worry, i won't be leaving you for the next six years unless need be! and i love you too baby 🤍
jaafarjackson shilohjackson i'm glad you respect my decision to keep you from ever leaving me ever again!
parisjackson the difference in posts between husband and wife is hilarious
jaafarjackson parisjackson it was done purpose paris lol
officialjermainejackson how very sweet of you, jaafar, i'm in tears lol
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson i appreciate the sarcasam dad, i'm all cried out so let me be less emotional for once 😂
princejackson i agree jaafar, shi is not allowed to leave the country for at least six years
jaafarjackson princejackson i'm glad someone agrees with me on this!
jermajestyjjackson this is so sweet jaafar! watching you react to shiloh surprising you on set will always be the best thing to ever happen during production!
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson i know, i genuinely never thought that shiloh would ever find out just how much i was waiting for her to come home
mjfanforever this post is so sweet jaafar! we are all just as relieved to see shiloh home safely and it fills us with pride that she's going to be staying home now
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i sound like a broken record but this was so so much fun to rewrite for jaafar however, i do need some original ideas and it annoys me that i'm struggling to get any ideas! so, if anyone has any ideas or requests for jaafar or michael, please hit me up as i am struggling lol!
summary : based on my two prompts: "oh my gosh, eww, you peed on that... wait, are you serious?" and "you fucking peed on that and you made me touch it!", the jackson family and cast of the michael biopic find out that genevieve and jaafar, are pregnant with their first child.
warnings : fluff, pregnancy announcement, swear words
a/n : decided to write a happy fic again for jaafar after the last few angsty ones. i promise this is fluff and readers name like mentioned in the summary is genevieve!
genevieve couldn't believe her eyes. for maybe, almost close to a month into the last year of the michael biopic she hadn't been feeling too well, causing her to have to take certain award shows off and other times having to watch it from home so she wouldn't feel sick in the theatres. it scared genevieve some that she couldn't figure out why she was so dizzy, lethargic, tired and nauseous but it wasn't until she caught up with nia, her husband's michael costar and her best friend during a break in the filming of the biopic that everything seemed to make sense to the younger girl.
"...genevieve, you okay?" nia's voice had suddenly come through genevieve's ears again and she maintained eye contact with the older woman
"hmm? yeah, i...i'm fine nia, just....i...i am so sorry, i'd truly love to stay longer but, i just forgot about some errands i got to run for jaafar! can we raincheck lunch for a later date?" genevieve seemed in a hurry, rummaging through her purse for a twenty dollar note for the coffee and nia didn't want to prolong her lateness, nodding her head enthusiastically
"oh, of...of course, babe, don't even apologise! we can totally take that raincheck for a later date! stay safe and, i hope you get better soon!" nia smiled sympathetically after the girls talked about genevieve's symptoms and that was how nia found out she was pregnant with her children, which ultimately got genevieve in a sprial without the woman fully realising it or intending it
"thanks so much, nia and, i'm always safe, you know that. especially considering who my husband is!" genevieve chuckled, her angelic laugh making nia giggle too as they joked about jaafar, genevieve's husband, nia's costar
"of course, i was just making sure!" nia called out as the two ladies walked their separate ways to their cars, genevieve shook her head as her smile never once faltered
later on, that day after nia and genevieve had parted ways, the younger girl walked herself into a pharmacy and bought herself a handful of clearblue pregnancy tests. after her conversation with nia about how sick she had been feeling and how worried she was, it truthfully now made so much sense that she would be pregnant. especially when she also suddenly realised that during this entire time she had been unwell, she hadn't gotten her period like she was supposed to during the second week of this month of the filming of michael. she just hoped to some degree that she was pregnant and that jaafar would be just as excited. even though this was a topic that the husband and wife would have almost daily due to constant questions about it in interviews and things, it still somewhere in the blacklights of her head worried her that maybe, right now, they shouldn't be trying to settle down so soon.
however, the moment that all ten of the pregnancy tests, yes ten, showed their results, genevieve was so relieved and almost fell to her knees. all ten pregnancy tests had come back positive so, there wasn't a single doubt that jaafar and genevieve hadn't conjured up a junior jackson. because they did and the ten pregnancy tests proved all the evidence needed to support that claim. now, all that genevieve needed to do was to tell her husband and then later on down the line, tell the rest of the michael cast and their families.
with a small pep in her step, genevieve decided to buy some infant unisex converse and decided that she'd announce her pregnancy to jaafar with a youtube video challenge idea that she had seen her influencer sister do years ago. reminding the girl of how her elder sister gianna announced her pregnancy to her and her family, which was done in the same way.
jaafar had very clearly noticed the new pep in his wife's step as he arrived back to their house after his day off with his brothers. smiling with confusion at the set-up of a film camera, the couch and a box with a piece of fabric that covered a small side opening and then an open opening on the other side, he didn't question it and just followed his wife to the couch.
"can we film a quick youtube video, babe?" genevieve asks her husband as they pull out of a hug and peck each other's lips as he nods his head
"course we can, honey. is anything gonna jump out at me?" jaafar looked unimpressed as he winked as genevieve giggled at her husbands uncertainty
"not at all, i don't think..." genevieve trailed off as jaafar smirked before taking the seat next to his wife, a small four-legged chair sat in front of them, the box laid on top
"...okay, honey, the first item is in the box, are you eyes closed?" genevieve smiled as jaafar giggled softly as he nodded his head
"mhm," he vocalised, letting his wife know that his eyes were closed as she continued
"ok, the fans who are watching the video can see what's in the box except you. so, just, stick your hand in and, feel around, pick it up, and see if you can figure out what it is, okay?" genevieve explains as jaafar laughs at the slight innuendo before nodding his head
"o...kay...." daniel trailed off as he placed his hand into the opened side of the box as he slightly hesitated, flinching his hand before placing it back in
genevieve had placed in the infant unisex converse first because the pregnancy test would have been too obvious and easy she felt and then it wouldn't be so much of an amazing surprise, in genevieve's opinion. so, starting off with the converse would act as a good clue to the fact that the shoes are for a baby - meaning that genevieve is pregnant without telling him straight away with the pregnancy test.
jaafar chuckled, his head falling back as he felt the pair of converse, "are these like, converse for infants?" genevieve sucked a breath in before a small chuckle left her mouth
"can i pull it out to check?" jaafar then queried as his wife vocalised a small "yeah", jaafar then grabbed the infant converse and opened his eyes
laughing at the infant converse, it seemed to genevieve that it hadn't registered in his head that it was to announce the news of her being pregnant and the couple being parents. so, due to jaafar's confusion she just set aside the infant converse, told jaafar to close his eyes again and that she'd put the next clue to her surprise announcement into the box.
biting her lip and holding her tears back, she announced to jaafar that he could place his hand in the box again and guess the next clue. it obviously stumped him as, unlike the first time with the infant converse, it seemed as if he hesitated in guessing what the item in his hand was. i mean, surely, it wasn't the first time the man had felt or even seen a pregnancy test but, it flew right past his mind because he didn't think he wouldn't notice if his wife was showing the symptoms of pregnancy. or recognise that for the past month, they were the same ones that their best friend nia and his own mom had when they were pregnant. however, it seemed as if five minutes later, he kind of figured it out since it was obvious that he hadn't noticed his wife's symptoms like he thought he wouldn't have missed.
"is...is this a pregnancy test?" jaafar finally calls out, his eyes adorably crinkled shut as genevieve giggles softly as she watches her husband open his eyes and turn to his wife, his hand still holding the test
"wait, it's been used?! ew, you fucking peed on it and you made me touch it!" jaafar freaked out as he then brought the pregnancy test out of the box properly before he decided to take a better look at it after just touching it
thinking it didn't have an answer on the panel thingy, he looked at it before it registered in his mind what it said. "gen, are...are you serious?" jaafar's voice trembled as tears shed his eyes as genevieve smiled, nodding her head with a tender look at her husband
"are you actually serious?" jaafar's chin wobbled as he tried not to cry, genevieve smiled brighter and nodded her head
"dead serious," genevieve smiled as jaafar chucked the box, chair and the pregnancy test all to the floor as he pulled his wife in for a hug, letting his tears stream down his cheeks onto his wife's shoulder, hoping they wouldn't get a noise complaint from their neighbours
"we're having a baby!" jaafar quietly sobbed out as genevieve giggled and nodded her head, pulling out of the hug as she ruffled her husband's hair before stroking his cheek
"mhm, we're having a baby, jaafar!" genevieve confirmed again, knowing that it was going to take a lot of confirmation for jaafar to really believe his dream of becoming a father was going to come true
after another two confirmations of the pregnancy, it seems as if jaafar still hadn't cried all of his tears out as he continued to cry in his wife's embrace. he couldn't help the smile that was tucked away, hidden by his wife's sweater as she made small, rubbing motions of comfort on jaafar's back to comfort him. finally though, thirty minutes later, it seemed as if every single tear that he could have shed, had been cried and the couple were now just coming up with ways to surprise their families and then the rest of the michael biopic family after getting the go-ahead by their ob-gyn.
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a week or two had passed since jaafar and genevieve had found out about the pregnancy when it had been decided that they could tell their families and everyone else since genevieve was now in her second trimester. telling both families, the jacksons and the gonzalez's at the same time was so casual that it actually had such a delayed reaction that jaafar and genevieve thought they didn't hear them the first time.
the way they told them was that, because gianna, genevieve's sister is a nurse, genevieve decided that after being offered wine, because she always does, she'd make a joke about the fact that her sister should know that drinking alcohol when pregnant is a big no-no. hoping that it would give the normal sometimes clueless families that genevieve was pregnant.
"wine, gen?" gianna offers as genevieve smiles, shaking her head no, confusing gianna as it was very well known how in love genevieve was with alcohol
"ah, no thanks gia," the pregnant girl responds which confuses everyone as jaafar tries his hardest to not outwardly react or pull any attention onto himself in a way that could further clue everyone into the surprise
"why? gen, you never turn down a glass..." gianna trails off as genevieve decides to just tell her since no one had thought to look down at her slightly protruding stomach
"...you're a nurse gianna, i thought...well, i'd hope you would know that pregnant women are highly advised to not drink..." genevieve trailed off, hoping that both families would react but, it seems as if they weren't at all
that was until gianna finally realised what her younger sister had just revealed. as her eyes widened and almost dropping the bottle of wine.
"...wuh...wuh...wait, genevieve! no fucking way!" she squealed, almost dropping the wine bottle and rushing over to the other end of the table, pulling her younger sister in for a hug and almost out of her seat as the older sister held back her joyful tears as the sisters giggled, swaying side to side
despite gianna's dramatic and loud realisation, it seemed as if everyone else was still so clueless that jaafar and genevieve were pregnant. so clueless in fact that it wasn't until mrs gonzalez finally looked down towards her youngest daughter's tummy, noticing the slightly curved baby bump that had been forming but wasn't totally hidden when she then announced out loud in a question that genevieve was pregnant.
"gen, you're pregnant?" mrs gonzalez squeaked out as tears welled up in the mother's eyes, genevieve nodding her head as jaafar placed his hand on the small of her back
"yeah, i'm pregnant," genevieve confirmed as finally, the rest of the jacksons and gonzalez's reacted in due course making genevieve and jaafar chuckle at the very delayed reactions of their families
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she couldn't hide the nervousness that was welling up inside her as genevieve waited for the moment nia, coleman, juliano and jaafar's cousins ( prince, paris & bigi) realised what it was that nia was fiddling with. exactly in the way that genevieve surprised jaafar, the couple were surprising the in laws, cousins and michael cast about her pregnancy with the "what's in the box challenge" with nia, coleman, juliano and paris being told first and then jaafar's brothers and cousins.
nia was extremely hesitant to place her hands inside the box with her eyes closed. due to her being a mother herself with a few children, she was extremely nervous to see what her best friends could be making her touch right now. and having the rest of the jackson family and michael cast watching on in anticipation was making her feel more anxious about the item that she was trying to guess. however, it shocked genevieve that nia was so oblivious to the fact that she was literally fondling a positive pregnancy test that would announce her and jaafar's first pregnancy and not be responding immediately with the answer of it being a pregnancy test.
"--what is this?" nia chuckles after nearly fifteen minutes of fondling the pregnancy test and not guessing it, everyone else chuckling at nia's forfeit
"are you seriously giving up, nia?" genevieve giggled, jaafar biting his lip so he wouldn't laugh or again potentially give it away as he stood behind the camera that was filming the video
nia giggled in defeat as she nodded her head, "yes, i give up, gen! what is it?" nia squeals out as she then furrows her eyebrows, her eyes showing a flash of recollection
"wait, wait, i...i think i know what it is!" nia called out in excitement as her eyes widened with joy, looking at genevieve if she could take the item out, genevieve nodding her head
immediately, nia yelped out, similar to jaafar's initial reaction, the pregnancy test landing on the raised table in front of the group, genevieve trying to keep nia quiet so it wouldn't clue jaafar's brothers and cousins, "oh my gosh, eww you peed on that...wait, are you serious?"
coleman, juliano and paris laughed at nia getting grossed out by a used pregnancy test before it all clicked in their heads that it clicked in nia's head that it was genevieve's used pregnancy test. nia had since let out a semi-muffled squealed sob, attacking genevieve into a hug, the two girls falling onto the couch with the table that had the positive pregnancy test fall to the floor. the other guys' brains were slowly clicking in realisation when they noticed the way jaafar was watching his wife and friend celebrate together, coleman and juliano jumped up to pull jaafar in for a hug.
"you're pregnant, gen?" nia whimpered out as she and genevieve stood up off the couch, nia wiping away her tears as they notice paris join their hug as coleman and juliano hug jaafar as they celebrated
hearing nia say if genevieve was pregnant and seeing jaafar's joy that they could finally tell everyone made the entire group happy. it was tears and joyus laughter all around for a while.
after calming down and the tears stopped, that was when genevieve and jaafar had to tell jermajesty, randy, prince and bigi.
similar to how they told nia, genevieve had jermajesty guess what was in the box. like nia, jermajesty fondled the pregnancy test for a few moments with no clue about what it was when a couple of minutes quicker than nia did, he had the same exact freak out as nia had before him.
"hold up, is this...is this a pregnancy test?" jermajesty chuckled, hanging his head low as he chuckled as neither genevieve nor jaafar responded at first which seemed to make jermajesty freak out even more
"gen, are...are you pregnant?" jermajesty all of a sudden got emotional and teary-eyed, the other three boys still unsure about what was going on that was until they heard the part where jermajesty questioned if genevieve was pregnant
perking up, prince then asked, "gen, are you pregnant with you and jaafar's first baby?!" prince smiled with the possible exciting thought of a new jackson baby being introduced into the world
shrugging her shoulders, she nudged at jermajesty to reveal what it was that he was holding in the cardboard box, "i dunno prince...maj, am i pregnant with me and jaafar's first baby?" genevieve teased with a shoulder shrug as an emotional jermajesty reveals the pregnancy test that did indeed reveal that genevieve was pregnant with her and jaafar's first baby
immediately, prince, randy, bigi and then jermajesty, after throwing down the pregnancy test, wrapped their arms around their sister and cousin and congratulated her on her pregnancy. jaafar then joined them after it was then revealed that everyone else family wise had already been told too.
it made butterflies flutter throughout both jaafar and genevieve tummies that they were finally getting the blessing of being parents for the first time after it being a point of talking after their marriage. after all the happy tears and squeals and jubilation over genevieve and jaafar's announcement, genevieve couldn't help the jokingly snide comment that fell out of her mouth as she drank a mocktail.
"how did you guys not notice? i thought jaafar and i had made it way too obvious for you!"
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when i wrote this for the first time, i didn't like it as much as i thought i would. then i wrote a kian egan version and i liked it a lot better. then i did a danny ric version, which i said i liked better! but now i've done one for jaafar, i don't know which one i like the best and it could become a problem! i hope you liked my jaafar version cause i did!
summary : with the lyrics of its quiet uptown from the musical hamilton we learn about the devastating death of little leona jackson, the only daughter of jaafar and anastaysia jackson and their grieving process.
warnings : mention of the death of a young child, loads of crying, loosely based on its quiet uptown from the musical hamilton, loose mention of terminal illness & brain tumour, grief, child loss, mention of reader being pregnant with second child
a/n : this will be very sad so please be warned and only read if you can. also, i've never been pregnant nor lost a child so, this isn't me romanticising it as it's a devastating thing that loads of parents go through. so please be warned that this will not be shying away from being upsetting.
a/n: the eldest daughter's name is leona and she was months away from becoming a big sister due to her parents being pregnant with their second baby at the same time.
there are moments that the words don't reach, there is suffering too terrible to name.
this was jaafar's biggest fear about becoming a father, yet he had no idea how to understand it. whilst he had gone through the loss of his uncles michael and tito and his grandfather, never did he think he'd have to go through the same thing with his own little girl. moments like sitting in the oncologist's office regarding his little girl's health was something words couldn't explain. it was a suffering that couldn't be named because of how terrible it was. being told the news his and his wife anastaysia's little girl leona was sick was horrible.
being told his little girl was terminally sick and only had a select number of days left to live broke something inside of jaafar. it also broke something inside his wife anastaysia who had just announced she was pregnant with their second baby. but it was clear it broke just a little bit more in jaafar since all his life since the loss of his uncle michael in 2009 had been about that loss. but watching this happen to his own little girl, unable to help make her feel better even when she begged, weeping hysterically for her daddy to help her and stop her from feeling sick, was unfair. and it was cruel since it was no longer in the control of leona's parents, way too cruel.
the jacksons, jaafar and anastaysia sat in shock as they were told the newest but just as worst news that again barely reached them. again, the suffering just as terrible to name as they were finally pulled aside to be told that leona, six-year-old leona, died due to complications during surgery. a surgery that was suppose to remove majority of the brain tumour whilst radiotherapy would do the rest. however, something went wrong and, they hit some sort of nerve, literally, and it was a nerve too close to the tumour that they were supposed to avoid for that very reason.
and of course, jaafar and anastaysia's first reaction is just silence and utter disbelief, no tears or screaming, they didn't know how they were meant to react. how do you react when you get told that sort of news? the news that you've just lost your six-year-old daughter, the daughter that made you a parent and the older sister to your unborn child?
"...mr and mrs jackson...it is with my deepest condolences and apologies that we weren't able to do more for leona to revive her. we truly did everything we could and we're sorry it still wasn't enough. if there is anything your family needs, do not hesitate to let us know and we'll get it sorted for you as soon as possible," the oncologist, dr lewis explained to the grieving parents as jaafar nodded his head unable to speak whilst anastaysia spoke up
"thank you so much, dr lewis. there's nothing else we can say except for thank you. even though the outcome wasn't what we wanted it to be, you still did everything you could for leona and that was all we wished for..." anastaysia trailed off, her hands resting on her growing belly, dr lewis knowing what the rest of her statement was going to be
"...your words will be cherised, mrs jackson. and, honestly, if it'll make things easier for you and your husband, i am more than ready to try and explain what has happened to leona to the family if you aren't sure," dr lewis tilts his head as anastaysia smiles gratefully, not even needing to mention it as does jaafar as they nod their heads
"that would be amazing, thank you dr lewis! but, i'm afraid since they aren't with us and are at home, i think it's best if we tell them. however, it'll definitely be a difficult conversation to have with them for sure..." anastaysia trailed off as dr lewis agreed, telling adults this sort of news was difficult even with the capacity to understand it
"...of course mrs jackson. however, if you would like some tips, i'd say for the adults to be direct with them, using leona's name and the date of passing, control the details by only sharing with them what you want to share and ask two or three trusted family members to help notify your wider circle. for the kids cause i know not everyone in the family are adults, create a safe space for them and ask them what they understand about what happened to their cousin..." dr lewis pauses as he watches anastaysia and jaafar consume the information as he continues
"...and then, from there, just keep on gradually telling them information rather than telling them everything straight away and also make sure to answer any questions they may have directly. try not to overwhelm them with details that are unnecessary, i also recommend you involve them as much as their young and varying ages allow them to be and to make sure they are being supported. don't be afraid in showing your emotions to them because then, if they do see their family getting upset, it can really show them that it's okay to get upset. however, whilst it is good to allow them to see and feel comfortable with those emotions, try not to cry in front of them too much. because then that can cause fear into the other kids and they may worry and think that leona is all you can think about. which will make them think you've forgotten about the rest of your family as well as that beautiful baby in your belly. but, all in all, just make sure you give the younger members of your family age appropriate responses and don't neglet them or the unborn baby because leona's gone..."
"...because they'll be relying on you to console them and take care of them when they miss their cousin, okay?" dr lewis finished explaining as anastaysia and jaafar nodded their heads, understanding completely on how they were going to tell their family and younger family that their niece & cousin was now gone forever
so, that was what jaafar and anastaysia did. after saying a final heartbreaking goodbye to their eldest baby, they left the hospital and got into their car and drove back to their home in los angeles. they always imagined the day they'd get to finally leave the hospital properly but never did they think they'd be driving back without their precious little baby girl, leona. and now they had to explain to the rest of the family and the kids why they had come back home without her.
you hold your child as tight as you can and push away the unimaginable.
the moment jaafar and anastaysia finally returned home from the hospital, they split up, anastaysia went straight over to her parents whilst jaafar went straight over to the lounge room where the rest of their family were. it was obvious for the grandparents and the godparents of leona what had happened and that she didn't make it through the surgery and it was devastating.
the parents of jaafar and anastaysia had lost the little girl who had made them grandparents in the first place and the rest of the jacksons and anastaysia's family had lost a goddaughter and niece. but most importantly, the little unborn baby in anastaysia's womb had lost their older sister and they were none the wiser. for years, this unborn baby in her mother's womb, will never know that they had an older sister who had been absolutely besotted and so excited to be an older sister. but never getting the chance to be that older sister to the beautiful little baby who was still just months away from being born.
walking towards his siblings felt heavy for jaafar. it felt like he was carrying a ton of bricks on his back, his feet barely lifting off the floor, the one minute walk feeling like it was a marathon. just before he'd reach his siblings, he stopped and turned around. a noise interrupted his trek to the lounge room and he watched as everyone immediately ran over to his wife. comforting her as she wept for their sweet little girl who was never going to come home again. for just a second, it made jaafar's shoulders relax, even though it was heartbreaking watching his wife grieve, it warmed his heart to see the amount of people she had supporting her.
it made jaafar feel ignored, even though it wasn't true and it was the wrong word to be used, he knew they hadn't forgotten about him at all. they just knew from the way him and anastaysia split up as to who they needed first. it was clear anastaysia needed her parents and best friends around her straight away whereas jaafar needed his siblings with him immediately, reminding him that whilst he'd lost his first biological baby, he still had his original babies which were his yonger siblings in front of him.
but, it was also clear that jaafar was numb at the moment, with his wife weeping inconsolably and him unable to cry, it also obvious at face value that anastaysia needed immediate comfort. jaafar then continued his trek to the lounge room, and he knew the second he saw his siblings, especially his youngest brother abu, that he was most likely going to sink in straight away and he'd also be inconsolable and he was okay with that.
however, what he wasn't okay with or ready for was when he walked and scanned around the first floor of his home, how loud it was in the kitchen with the crying and condolences and then as he turned his head and looked into the lounge room, it was silent.
the only noise from the lounge room was the television which was playing a movie that abu had requested to his parents that the older boys, jermajesty and randy also ended up wanting to watch and loving just as much. that was when jaafar made eye contact with his little brother. his little abu. his mini jaafar and he felt his heart snap as the little boy bounded off of the couch and rushed over to his older brother for a hug. as though the little boy hadn't seen his brother for months when really it had been coming up to a full twenty-four hours at this point. the little boy's joy at seeing his brother in this moment was the same as it was when he was coming back from a rehearsal. and when abu went to jump for his big brother to pick him up, jaafar caught him seamlessly as he always did.
"...jaafar, you're home!" abu squealed as jaafar tried to smile as the little boys voice caused the adults in the kitchen to fall into silence
heartbreak towering over them as they watched the pure innoncence of their little nephew, brother and son, sweet abu's excitement of seeing his older brother again. with the little boy being none the wiser as to where his niece (cousin) is either.
"yes my sweet boy, i'm home, so is ana!" jaafar's voice came out quieter than he wanted it to as he gulped, hoping the little boy wouldn't notice the difference in his voice but he did
whilst abu was only three, he was really intelligent and emotionally wise for his age so, the little boy knew that something was off about his brother. as well as his brother's wife when he made eye contact with her and noticed she had been crying.
"ana's crying, jaafar, what's wrong? where's leona?" jaafar wasn't aware at how gut-wrenching hearing his little brother saying that would be
and jaafar wasn't even sure on how he'd explain it to his little brother that leona was gone. so he stayed silent as abu looked at him, his big brown eyes, identical to jaafar's, staring into his soul. just as jaafar's mouth opened again to somewhat explain to the little boy, anastaysia's youngest sister, willow, noticed that her sister and brother-in-law were finally home. a chorus of the little girl screaming for her sister and brother-in-law, jaafar especially was nearly the stick that broke the camels's back for him. however he managed to hold it in and he had no clue how.
"JAAFAR!" seven year old willow yells as she sees her brother-in-law after she went looking for abu as she runs over as quickly as she can
jaafar's eyes tear up as he fights against it as he then picks up his favourite girl that isn't his wife, hugging her close to his chest, "hello my sweet willow! did you behave for your grandparents?" he asks, grateful that for once he was able to once again keep his tears at a standstill for his wife's little sister
nodding her head enthusiastically with the biggest smile on her face almost destroyed jaafar, "yes jaafar! of course i was!" she was so clueless and innocent, as were abu as he brought anastaysia in on the group hug, as she responded to jaafar's question which only made the couple hug their youngest siblings tighter
like mentioned already, anastaysia had since joined in, knowing that this news was truly going to devastate jaafar, as it did her. the couple held their baby siblings tightly as they tried to push away the unimaginable of the loss of their first eldest baby.
"me and jaafar love you both so much, you know that right?" anastaysia spoke up, including the kids, as both kids nodded their heads before the silence felt wrong
willow was the first to realise that something wasn't quite right with her sister and jaafar. so, she asked about it and it was gutwrenching.
"sissy, jaafar, where's leo?" the question that jaafar and anastaysia knew was going to be asked was asked and it was painful
touching her husband's cheek softly, anastaysia takes her youngest sister out of jaafar's grip so he could take a breather whilst she explained a little bit to her sister and jaafar's youngest brother
"my darling, she's still in hospital, do you two remember how sick she was?" anastaysia spoke softly, abu and willow nodding their heads as they hugged their sister closer
anastaysia continued to explain as much as she could to their siblings but stopped when she noticed abu starting to fall asleep in her arms. the older siblings taking that as their cue that it was time for bed. usually, whenever jaafar and anastaysia had abu and willow stay overnight, they were amazing at wanting to stay overnight, both of them loving jaafar and anastaysia. however, jermaine and anastaysia's parents made the decision to take the younger siblings home and just let jaafar and anastaysia sleep in their own room together.
the young family, now a back to a family of three slept together in the comfort of jaafar and anastaysia's room. the door to leona's room staying closed for the time being. the jackson house now empty from their family leaving them to grieve on their own and in their own time, in their own space without being crowded. jaafar and anastaysia hugging one another and cradling her belly so they could hold their unborn baby as tightly as they could. once again trying to push away the unimaginable and the heartbreak that they'll eventually have to tell their younger siblings. just not tonight, tonight, willow and abu will sleep soundly in their own beds whilst jaafar and anastaysia try to rebuild their family and tomorrow, the younger siblings get told the news.
the moments when you're in so deep, it feels easier to just swim down
since the death of leona, it seemed as though jaafar had completely shut down whilst anastaysia started to force herself to do everything as a way to keep herself busy even though she was almost about to give birth. they were on two separate ends of the grieving spectrum yet they weren't yelling at each other, hating each other, making an unsafe environment for their younger siblings and family nor were they miscommunicating with each other.
jaafar was just struggling a lot more than he let himself believe or thought he would. for days, he refused to let himself cry because he forced himself to go back to work. whilst, fortunately, being an actor and his agency was so accomodating in regards to child bereavement, jaafar refused to take the required time away that his agent had given him. but also because he was scared that if his little brother saw his jaafar cry then he'd ask questions, questions that one, he wasn't ready to answer for his own little safety circle and two, because he didn't know the real answers to said questions.
however, one day, on a monday when abu and willow were with jermaine after a day of rehearsals for michael instead of being with jaafar and anastaysia, anastaysia decided it was time to break into her husband's grief and see if there was anything she could do to help him open up. it was breaking her heart to see the way jaafar struggled in his grief so deeply whilst still returning to work, especially when his job is playing his uncle who was such an emotional and deeply feeling human being. it was clear that for jaafar, it was easiest for him to swim down as deeply as he could and just try and ignore it.
walking into their shared bedroom, it shocked anastaysia to see her husband frantically getting his bag ready for work the next day, thinking that he'd be in the right headspace to return. trying to pull him away was physically hard considering how much stronger jaafar is in comparison to anastaysia, even with a nine month pregnant baby bump, but that didn't stop her from getting her husband to stop and sit down next to her. as they sat down, she pleaded with her husband to talk to her so she could help him.
"j, baby, please talk to me! i want to help you. do you seriously think you're ready to jump back into work, into those emotions as your uncle as though we didn't just go through the worst thing parents could go through?" anastaysia pleaded to her husband, grateful that their young siblings were with jermaine, not with them like normal hearing this conversation
jaafar stayed silent as his wife pleaded once more, "come on, jaafar, why are you so adamant about going back to work? you need to grieve your baby! our unborn baby and family needs you j and so do i! your agency is so understanding over our circumstances, why can't you just stop worrying about work and start worrying about taking care of yourself?!" anastaysia begged as jaafar's face screwed up as he softly sniffled
slowly, jaafar started to break down as he spoke up, making eye contact with his wife, "it hurts, honey," he whimpered as anastaysia moved closer as she nodded her head, urging her husband to continue as she didn't say a word
"it hurts so bad!" jaafar sobbed, his voice high an octave as he tried to keep himself in control, ultimately failing though as anastaysia nodded her head
and jaafar was right, it did hurt. it was the worst pain that anastaysia could have ever felt as well, having to outlive their six year old daughter. it was a pain that was unimaginable to so many people, including anastaysia and jaafar, right up until they went through it with their daughter's terminal illness as she rubbed her hand along her husband's arm as the other one held his back up.
"it...it was like my insides were being torn apart. i...i just, i couldn't understand why our little baby had to die! they promised us she'd be okay and that she'd survive! why did it fail, ana? why didn't it work?" jaafar sobbed as anastaysia opened her arms, pulling in her distraught husband for a hug, rocking them both side to side wishing her pregnant belly didn't make her feel like she couldn't hold her husband close enough
"it's okay, honey, it's okay!" anastaysia whispered, doing her best to hug jaafar tighter as he continued crying and struggled to be quiet as she whispered sweet nothings of comfort
jaafar could slowly start to feel some of the heaviness that he had been carrying around throughout his body since getting the news just be alleviated and seep out of his body. he had been feeling so heavy because he had shut himself down and refused to acknowledge the grief and tried to push through it and go back to work. which ultimately failed him because, everywhere he turned, he was always reminded of his little baby girl.
"honey, it's okay to cry! it's okay to grieve and it's okay to miss leona! hell, i talk to her every night and have since she was first admitted into hospital and i still cry! i know how much it's hurting our siblings and the rest of the family, we just want to help you as we're also going through the same thing!" anastaysia spoke softly, her hand softly caressing her husband's wet cheeks as he nodded his head and sniffled quietly
"i know it's just so hard to ask for help! no one else i fear will understand just how much i miss our little baby! it's just so much easier to ignore it, pushing it down as far as i can," jaafar's voice was small and almost childlike as anastaysia pouted at her husband's response as she ran her fingers through his messy hair
"just take baby steps, honey. just start with the simple things about leona, like your favourite photos of her and then go from there. you don't need to throw yourself into the deep end straight away. and another thing is just talking about her because i've found that i feel so much better after having a simple conversation about her because then it means she's still here and isn't being forgotten about," anastaysia explained as jaafar seemed to like hearing that as it gave him a reason to look back at his favourite photos of his eldest baby not that he ever needed a reason
"thank you, honey," jaafar sniffled softly, wiping his tears away as he sweetly kissed his wife who smiled at him as he grabbed his phone
immediately opening his photo gallery, he was bombarded with photos of leona and at first it did make his heart hurt. but the more photos he looked through, the less the pain stung. whilst jaafar was always going to miss his baby girl, he knew that not everything was lost just because she was gone.
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jaafarjackson leona anastaysia jackson was me and my wife's first baby and it hurts my heart as well as my wife's knowing that she's gone. and these three photos are only some of what we have left to remember her by. but these photos are how i want to remember our eldest daughter because she was more than the cancer that killed her. remembering the hospital trips, the endless tears and screams, the hair loss, the sleepless nights, chemotherapy treatments and it's constant side effects. the appointments that i would have to miss due to rehearsals for michael leaving anastaysia all alone with the kids was only just a slither of my daughter's life even if it was the most expensive and time-consuming. it's a part of life that i don't want to fully forget but don't want to remember because those moments do not reflect who our eldest daughter really was at all.
she was a funny, sweet, gorgeous, kind, loving little girl that only wanted what was best for her family and friends. she was so excited to become a big sister when we told her mom was pregnant again and it breaks my heart more than anything that whilst she knew about her baby sister, her baby sister will never know her, before she was born, her older sister died in the middle of a surgery. a surgery that was hoping to remove enough of the brain tumour which would give her a more fighting chance in beating her terminal illness with treatment. this past week has felt so long and strenuous that it has truly been a struggle but seeing all the love from everyone has truly been really sweet and special for me and my family to be reading and we are very grateful for it. it was an honour to get to have the privlege to be leona's dad for six years and i would do it all over again just to hold her in my arms for five more minutes 🤍
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anastaysiajackson love you honey! leona will always be missed by all of us 🤍
jaafarjackson anastaysiajackson love you more honey! and yes she will, she'll never not be missed 🤍
officialjermainejackson i only wish i could take this pain away from you my sweet boy
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson thanks dad, i wish i could as well, i love you
parisjackson missing our sweet leona a little more today
jaafarjackson parisjackson there's never a day we won't miss her i don't think!
princejackson these photos are so sweet jaafar! she was such a precious little girl and we miss her every single day
jaafarjackson princejackson thank you prince! she was truly a sweetheart and i do miss her all the time
jjaafarjackson we miss her so much, jaafar. thank you so much to you and ana for letting us to have a look in at your family life with your baby and new baby.
jaafarjackson jjaafarjackson thank you so much! and it was and still is a joy to share little snippets of our family with you guys and we'll continue to do so!
jermajestyjjackson this was lovely, jaafar. we miss her little face every single day and i have no doubt that she is protecting her baby sibling every single day
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson thank you maj! and i appreciate you saying that, i do believe as well that we are being looked after by her
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anastaysiajackson finding out we were pregnant again six years after leona, it worried us that she wouldn't be excited about it. however, we couldn't have been more wrong and these photos really show how excited she was to finally be a big sister. the middle photo requires some explaining, she was dressed up for a photoshoot when she found one of the teddy bears we had bought for her baby sibling. for the photoshoot, she decided, without being prompted, to sit the teddy down on her piano and play a song for the teddy as a way of welcoming both the new teddy and her new sibling into the family and that truly says a lot about what kind of big sister leona was going to be. this is why it hurts my heart knowing that whilst leona knew everything about her baby sibling and was so excited, her younger sibling isn't going to know their older sister. it breaks my heart we lost her so quickly and early, i miss you everyday my beautiful leo and i just pray to whatever god that you're not hurting anymore like before 🤍
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jaafarjackson this makes my heart hurt, my love! leona really did complete our little family
anastaysiajackson jaafarjackson it makes my heart hurt too my love but, i promise, we'll be okay
rjacksonjr my little baby leona! i miss her terribly!
anastaysiajackson rjacksonjr we all miss her randy!
parisjackson breaking my heart with these posts! leona is keeping you all safe, ana, please never doubt that!
anastaysiajackson parisjackson these posts are heartbreaking paris, and you are such a sweetheart for saying that! we'll never doubt leona's love for us
loverofjaafarjackson i can't even imagine just how this grief must feel! it must be unimaginable! leona looked like she was a lovely and very sweet girl and she'll be missed by so many
anastaysiajackson loverofjaafarjackson thank you my love! and i'm glad you can't imagine this grief because it truly is unimaginable!
kingofbingo sending every bit of love and hugs and kisses as i possibly can, ana! leona will forever be missed and never forgotten
anastaysiajackson kingofbingo thank you so much, coleman! jaafar, the family and i are really so appreicative of everything you and the michael cast have done for us! you have made this grief feel so much lighter than it would have if we didn't have you guys so we really do love and appreciate you all a lot for what you've done for us!
there are moments that the words don't reach, there is a grace too powerful to name, we push away what we can never understand. we push away the unimaginable.
fin
well this was a depressing rewrite (AGAIN) but like i said in my last upload for jaafar, because i started with fluff, the angst has to come shortly after! i may actually make a part two to this where the second baby is born and their life after the loss. but who knows, we'll see!
pairing : jaafar jackson x latin american fem!reader & male oc x fem!reader
summary : with the lyrics of ed sheeran's "happier" we find out the love story/breakup/re-get-together of jaafar jackson and valencia perez
warnings : kinda sad, mentions/actions of domestic relationship abuse (not by jaafar), but it does get better, single x jaafar
a/n : because i still don't have any original ideas, i'm going back to one of my old one-shots that i've done a couple of times before. the insta posts will be of maddie simpson as the face claim for valencia.
walking down 29th and park, i saw you in another's arms.
jaafar jackson couldn't help but feel his heart slightly sinking low into his chest as he noticed his now ex-girlfriend, valencia gonzalez, in los angeles for an awards show in another man's arms as jaafar went into the foyer, wanting to leave the arena for some fresh air before the awards were going to start. the worst part of this whole thing for jaafar, now that his ex had left him, was that she seemed to be following the rest of the award season but not just that, she was doing it with her apparent new boyfriend.
this meant that it wasn't just valencia doing the award rounds to her new movie, her new boyfriend was also going to be there and was going to have to be introduced to jaafar since he and valencia were still close friends, not having the heart or the hate in them to drop contact with each other. jaafar never hated valencia after the two of them broke up, no way, he couldn't ever hate his childhood best friend. he was honestly grateful that valencia was still going to these award shows even with, in his opinion stupidly, hardly any nominations for her new movie, to support him for his debut as his uncle michael jackson in the new michael biopic even though they were no longer together. except, the thing that threw him off was the fact he had never imagined or prepared himself to see her do that with another guy.
only a month we've been apart, you look happier.
the thing though, that hurt jaafar over anything else was that this new boyfriend made valencia look so much happier, happier than she ever seemed to be when she was with jaafar. nia long, jaafar's costar from michael had suddenly noticed why jaafar was looking off into the distance, the woman who played michael's mother trying to get the jackson to come back into the arena. the jackson lightly tapping nia's hand away, jaafar couldn't help but notice something else that he so desperately missed about valencia - her laugh.
once again, jaafar's heart almost closed in on his chest as he watched and heard her laugh. he didn't know what to do, i mean, who would know what to do in this situation? nia certainly didn't know, she felt inexplicably guilty and devastated for her best friend and costar. nia knew exactly what this felt like, breaking her engagement up with her former partner. and, all of a sudden, nia watched as her best friend was devastated over the thought of seeing his ex and his best friend cosying up to another man only after what seemed to be a month after jaafar and she had broken up.
saw you walk inside a bar, he said something to make you laugh.
there was still an hour before the actual award ceremony so, jaafar watched as valencia and her new beau strolled over to an open bar in the arena but, not before the guy made a truly horrendous joke. a joke that jaafar knew that if he had said it, valencia would have given him a disappointed face as though she was the embarrassed kid of jaafar. but because it was this new man that had said it, it had made valencia laugh out loud.
so loud that jaafar and nia heard it from across the room and so did everyone else that was walking past them and everyone else walking into the building. both of them, jaafar and nia, saw how happy valencia was and it truly devastated both of them, their shoulders sinking to their regular positions as jaafar tried to look away.
"...val, i have a joke for you..." the still unidentified new beau of valencia's asked, valencia smiled, nodding her head as the man continued
"...what would you get if a dinosaur kicked you in the rear end?" he asked, his voice already cracking with laughter and he hadn't even finished the joke - jaafar almost puking because he hated how close the guy was to valencia
"i dunno, what do you get?" valencia sort of laughed, not like an excited or happy laugh but, the laugh jaafar would usually hear when he'd try to tell her a joke so, for a second, he did have hope that she wouldn't laugh at the guys joke but, that was until he said the punchline of the joke
"you get a megasoreass!" and just as jaafar and nia (shockingly) didn't laugh at the joke, they hoped and prayed valencia wouldn't laugh but, she did, she laughed at the utterly horrendous joke that her date had made
and she laughed wholeheartedly, with her whole body, her head flying backward as her hand rested on the man's chest and her head then moved to lean on it so she could control herself.
"oh, that was a kicker! that was actually really funny!" valencia's voice went high-pitched as her voice broke and her latina-american accent came out stronger from her laughing fit, wiping away a tear from her eye as the two then walked into the bar
and it was at that moment that jaafar knew he really couldn't stand watching those two anymore, even though he still absolutely adored valencia, he knew it wouldn't do him any good if he continued to focus on her when it was clear she had moved on completely whilst he still was hung up on her.
i saw that both your smiles were twice as wide as ours yeah, you look happier, you do.
it wasn't rocket science for anyone to see that jaafar knew that valencia's smile was twice as wide as the ones she smiled when she was with him and it made him feel sick to his stomach. it hurt the jackson boy terribly to know that possibly, this new boyfriend of valencia's was everything that he wasn't and that he couldn't make her happier as this new man did in comparison. jaafar's heart felt like it was being crushed and this pain wasn't just a metaphorical pain, oh no, it was such a physical pain that jaafar's face started to scrunch up in pain as he would wince occasionally.
thankfully, it didn't take nia that long to convince jaafar that they needed to return back to their seats and away from the doors of the open foyer so that jaafar wasn't putting himself through more pain, especially due to the fun that they would be having during the awards show that was still to occur in the next hour. however, jaafar couldn't help but wait until valencia and this new boyfriend had gone further away into the bar before he moved so that he could have one last look at her before the slight possibility of him catching eyes with her tonight during the awards show.
ain't nobody hurt you like i hurt you, but ain't nobody love you like i do.
despite the slight privacy that jaafar and valencia both had about their lives, not really the type to overshare whilst being in the public eye of the public, the jackson family fans and the fans of high-end models since valencia was a well-known model, it had become gossip basically the moment that the slight possibility that jaafar and valencia had broken up being true was announced. and then, their breakup was announced and like the rumours, it was on the front page of nearly every single gossip site involved with the jacksons and all the vogue magazines and sites online that jaafar and valencia had broken up and that it was "messy" and that there was apparently a cheating scandal involved or something completely dramatic.
however, that was the furthest from the actual reality of what actually went down and the reason why the famous couple broke up. they decided, jaafar and valencia, because it had gotten so bad that they were going to put out a statement explaining the full truth as to why they were breaking up. deciding a video interview was the best point of call since a written interview can mean words being twisted and misinterpreted to make one person sound better or worse than the other. so, with jaafar's agent and valencia's representative, the ex-couple sat down together for their interview in hopes to clear the air about why they decided to break up.
they hated that everything else that was being spread across the gossip sites and social media was false and decided that it was best for the words to come from the two of them themselves. because, in actuality, the breakup was mutual between the two and it was made clear from the very beginning that if they were going to find someone new, it was okay and that the two of them would and are always the best of friends, no matter what.
they both meant the world to each other and there was no way they could remove the other from their life. to them, what they said in their own words was that they were each other's right person but it was the wrong time and, it broke jaafar and valencia's hearts to break up with each other despite how mutual it was because of how much they loved and still love each other. the only reason why they broke up was that it seemed like it was the case of they were the right person for each other but, it wasn't the right time and that was why it was so painful for the both of them.
"...hey, jaafar, you know that it wasn't either you or valencia's fault as to the reason why you two broke up?" nia spoke softly as she watched, keeping an eye on her still heartbroken friend sulk over watching his ex who was still his best friend, who he still loved dearly, look way happier with the new guy than she ever did with him
"i...i know nia, it just, hurts seeing her look so much happier with someone else..." jaafar sniffled solemnly, resting his hands on his chin as nia rubbed her best friend's back
"...it does hurt, jaafar, i know that but, don't forget that, sure val has a new man but, she still loves you so much and only wants the best for you. and i think that's why she's been attending all these award shows even though she is not always obligated to. she just wants to see her best friend succeed even though it's as a best friend. whilst it does suck to see she's moved on with someone else, we all have to look past that and just be glad that she's still here. trust me, this isn't my first rodeo regarding the whole love and heartbreak thing but, it'll get better and, who knows, maybe one day, she'll realise that the happy she is with this guy isn't the happy she wants and she'll find her way back to you..." nia smiled softly, trying to convince jaafar who just nods his head in response although, it was still quite difficult to believe his best friend
promise that i will not take it personal, baby if you're moving on with someone new.
jaafar promised, basically pinky promised, the day that he and valencia broke up, that he wouldn't take it personally and be that arsehole ex-boyfriend if valencia was to find someone new and move on. he knew that valencia was bound to move on quickly anyway so, he made a promise not to take it personally (as did she). and that just because she's moved on quickly, it doesn't mean that she wasn't grateful or faking any of her feelings towards jaafar or acting as though it was nothing. because, honestly, valencia was on cloud nine throughout her whole relationship with jaafar, it was just honest to god the timing for the both of them always seemed to get in the way of their schedules as a new up & coming actor and a model, not their chemistry.
"...if there is anything you two would like to say to the other, what is the one thing you'd tell them? valencia, i'll ask you first...this isn't being filmed by the way so it's not going to be aired..." a vogue reporter asked as valencia smiled softly and nodded her head, holding jaafar's hand tight - the two of them relaxed knowing whatever they said next wouldn't be included in the aired interview
"...jaafar, can you promise me something?" valencia spoke up small, feeling lowkey embarrassed that she would be repeating the very same thing she had told him when they originally broke up as he lifted his head from the floor and nodded his head
the two twenty-somethings had already broken up with each other privately but, now, they were having to explain why they were breaking up in an aired interview. thankfully though, this personal moment, like the interviewer already mentioned, wasn't being filmed so therefore it wouldn't be included in the aired interview. and they were thankful for that because it was now getting emotional and both of them were teary-eyed and the interviewer felt awful that she had to be the one interviewing them all because of all the rumours that surrounded their break-up.
the reason why they broke up wasn't that they weren't in love with each other anymore or because they were never best friends, that's absolutely wrong. they were breaking up because they were young and they were celebrities who were right for each other but started their relationship at the wrong time. that's all it was, they still love each other but, that was the reason why jaafar and valencia had broken up. if breaking up now was the thing that could save their special thing and then find it later on then that's what they were going to do because they didn't want to ruin it by continuing to pursue their relationship during this time.
"always, val. what is it?" jaafar sniffled softly as valencia's hand ghosts over jaafar's as the vogue reporter felt sick to her stomach, she hated that she had been picked to do this but, she couldn't run now, she had to stay considering the interview wasn't technically finished even though the camera had been turned off
"promise me that if either of us move on with someone new, we don't take it personally and hate each other for it?" valencia only gulped as she kept her eyes looking at jaafar, as he nodded his head
"i promise. i love you too much to ever hate you," jaafar choked out in a whisper, more tears building in his eyes as he breathed in, asking valencia a question
"can you promise me something?" jaafar whispered back, clearing his throat as valencia nodded her head, her hand touching jaafar's as they kept eye contact with each other
"always, what is it?" valencia questioned softly, only wishing she and jaafar didn't have to do the interview due to the rumours online that twisted their words and truth just for clicks and likes
"are we still best friends? even if we may date someone else?" it was this question that broke jaafar's heart to say as finally, a tear rolls down his cheek as he closes his eyes, valencia breathing deeply so she wouldn't cry her tears as she wipes jaafar's tear away
smiling softly with a head nod, valencia responded, " of course, we're still gonna be best friends, j! i've known you my whole life, i could never throw away our entire relationship and friendship just because we dated the right person at the wrong time. i couldn't ever remove you from my life, you're way too special to me, i can't do that and i will never do that..." valencia paused as she wiped away more of jaafar's silent tears as he nodded his head, understanding valencia which made her feel better
"...even if i do end up dating someone else and if you end up dating someone else, i am always a phone call away or a short drive away if you ever need anything and, i know if i was in a similar situation, you'd be there waiting for me too," valencia smiled and jaafar nodded his head as his lip trembled, another single tear slipping down his cheek as he giggled in embarrassment, wiping it away himself
thankfully, the vogue reporter just had to finalise a couple more things with the two before the interview was to be edited and published. and, hopefully, after that it would only be the truth about jaafar and valencia's relationship and breakup which was going to be talked about.
'cause baby you look happier, you do, my friends told me one day, i'll feel it too.
it still seemed impossible for jaafar to get it out of his head that valencia seemed to look happier with her new boyfriend after the break-up and honestly, whilst he was proud of her, it still hurt and was a hard thing to just shake off. it honestly did sort of scare jaafar that he thought that he was maybe getting replaced and that maybe, he was actually losing his best friend when it was considered that he still didn't know what this new boyfriend was like in relation to knowing about boy-best friends for his girlfriends.
"hey, jaafar, we need to get ready, the awards show is about to start so, when we see valencia try to stay calm, okay?" nia announces to jaafar, patting his shoulder as the jackson nods his head
"yes, nia, i understand, i'm not a five-year-old!" jaafar, with a sassy attitude, rolls his eyes as he chuckles, making nia smile at the attitude and eye-roll
"i know, jaafar, forgive me but, i just don't want you getting hurt, that's all!" nia suddenly went serious as jaafar smiled and pulled his best friend in for a hug
"thanks, nia, i do appreciate it," jaafar smiled into his best friend's shoulder and nia smiled too, exhaling slightly as she pats her best friend on the back
"no worries, buddy. i know how much you and valencia loved and still love each other. it is hard when a couple like you two, that are the right couple, break up due to it being the wrong time," nia smiles softly, the two actors pulling out of the hug as they started to hear the commotion of the excitement of the upcoming awards show
and until then i'll smile to hide the truth, but i know i was happier with you.
all that was left for jaafar to do in regards to getting ready for the awards show was getting to his seat, however, it seemed as if from the soft tap on his shoulder, that wasn't going to be happening just yet. with a small sound of acknowledgement that jaafar was okay and not startled by the tap on his shoulder, he turned to see colman domingo with a sly smile on his face. confusing jaafar, he smiled confusedly at him because the arena was starting to fill up now with the award show about to start before hearing what his costar had to tell him.
"jaafar, just to let you know, a special someone has got seats right next to us and she's got someone with her..." coleman smiled in the excitement that two of his best friends were going to reunite but, was not so happy that another man was going to be in that equation
"...valencia is sitting in the same row?" jaafar questions, his voice suddenly small and timid, exactly opposite to the usual loud, boisterous and confident voice that he always had as coleman smiled empathetically, nodding his head - only knowing what nia had told him from earlier on
"yes, she has and she's honestly so excited to see you so, can i?" coleman questioned, his head slightly tilted behind him, asking his costar for permission and jaafar smiled as his fingers found their way to his chest
coleman nearly jumped in excitement as he rushed over to grab valencia to bring her and her new boyfriend over to say hey to jaafar before rushing to their seats for the award show. the former boyfriend and girlfriend are now just staring at each other in awe.
it had felt like nearly years ago that valencia had seen jaafar so dressed up for an award show when really it was maybe a couple of months, not even? pretty much as soon as they broke up, valencia's new model contract with vogue started which meant that she had to part ways with jaafar not just in their relationship but also because she was needed back at her modelling agency, that was until she remembered she had vacation days. and, it was during this model show that valencia and her new boyfriend had met, he had come on as a photographer for the model show and honestly, it still felt strange to her that when she introduced her boyfriend to people, she wasn't saying jaafar.
"jaafar!" valencia finally opened her mouth, jaafar's name falling off her tongue effortlessly as if she never stopped saying it
jaafar's face lighting up at seeing his best friend, her new boyfriend giving the best friends a strange look that jaafar managed to catch from the corner of his eye but ignored it as he spoke up.
"hey val, how are you? i've missed you so much!" jaafar spoke excitedly, the excitement of valencia finally visiting again starting to soak into the actor as he pulls his best friend in for a hug
placing her softly back to the ground, being respectful that she was in a dress, valencia responded, "i'm fantastic thanks, jaafar, how have you been? it's been like, what, a month since we last saw each other and since i left for my new modelling gig?" the girl asked with a slight laugh in her breath as jaafar nodded his head, a small giggle leaving his mouth as well
"yeah, wow, it has been a month. that's crazy how time flies," jaafar spoke with a small whisper as he noticed the way valencia tried to grab her boyfriend but wasn't able to as he had suddenly and quietly left the arena of the awards without a word of acknowledgement of where it was he had left off to
"...oh, and by the way, that was my boyfriend ethan..." valencia tried to smile but, it was obvious that jaafar could see through it but decided against the questions for now
"...well, that's nice, val. how...how long have you two been together for, if you don't mind me asking?" jaafar spoke softly, with hesitation as valencia tilted her head in confusion - was it three weeks or four weeks as it surely hadn't been a month
"uhh...i...i think three weeks? so, not that long..." valencia shyly smiles as jaafar nodded his head, he felt slightly calm knowing that she hadn't moved on straight away otherwise that really would have broken him and wrecked him tenfold more
"...oh, okay, that's nice, val. he treats you well i'm assuming?" jaafar questioned as the two of them moved closer to their assigned seats when valencia suddenly became nervous
"uh... well, i guess he does. i mean, he makes me a laugh a lot, i guess..." valencia stammered, her voice shaky and sounding unsure which confused jaafar as earlier, nothing looked as though it was wrong or out of sorts
"...you guess? val...is ethan hurt--"
"--hey sweetcheeks, who's-oh, you're ja...jordan? val's friend, right? hello, i'm ethan, her boyfriend," ethan suddenly introduced himself out of nowhere, his brash southern american accent cutting off jaafar and calling him by the complete wrong name
although it annoyed him, jaafar still smiled curtly with a head nod, noticing basically straight away how uncomfortable valencia was getting but tried to hide it and responded, "hey ethan, yeah, i'm jaafar, valencia's best friend. so anyway, are you excited about the award show tonight considering you guys traveled?" jaafar questioned, also getting an uncomfortable feeling from ethan as valencia enthusiastically nodded her head whilst ethan just hits her with a dirty look and rolled his eyes at the correction of jaafar's name
"very excited, j, you have been doing amazing this entire award season since filming michael. i just couldn't resist accepting the invitation to attend, especially since you've been nominated," valencia gushed as she smiled, making jaafar smile as he bit his lip at his best friend's excitement to return to an awards show after breaking up with one of the actor only a month ago - showing that there was genuinely no bad blood between the cast of michael and the exes
"aw, thanks valencia, i knew you'd say that, but ethan, are you looking forward to see you first award show?" jaafar smiles at valencia as he then pointed the same question to ethan who just gave a half-hearted nod
"i mean, this was the award show that valencia couldn't stop talking about and it makes her happy so, might as well enjoy it for myself as well, right?" ethan lazily shrugs as valencia and jaafar awkwardly laugh as he then leaves again, valencia and jaafar both letting out breaths they hadn't even realised they'd been holding onto
this made valencia feel embarrassed, ethan had promised her he wouldn't act like this at all and it was obvious that jaafar could sense the embarrassment as well. the two of them continue the conversation.
"i...i am so sorry about ethan, j. he promised me he wouldn't act like this at all. he actually said to me he was super excited to go to his first ever award show so, i don't know what's gotten into him..." valencia trailed off in a dejected voice, rubbing her arms together, a signal that jaafar knew all too well that meant valencia was anxious
"...don't worry, valencia, it's totally okay. how about we go find our seats and get ready for the award show and say hey to the rest of the michael cast? i'm sure they're all excited to see you again. besides, i think ethan's gotten himself preoccupied with the tour he's just decided to give to himself and a random seat filler girl..." jaafar spoke as they turned to see ethan talking to a girl that had seemingly found her way out of the actual foyer and into the actual arena of the award show and valencia nods her head in agreement
grabbing her hand, jaafar and valencia walk over to their seats for the award show when they saw coleman, nia and juliano. when the two reached their seats, their eyes lit up in excitement when they realised valencia had walked over.
"val!" they all screamed at the same time, the girl laughing as they had a group hug, forcing jaafar into the hug as well which he reluctantly joined in with a small chuckle at his best friends
"hey, guys! it's so nice to see you all again! i've missed you so much!" valencia said in excitement even though it had only been a month, the month felt longer as she then couldn't help but think that, maybe, jaafar's energy about ethan has some truth to it
"we've missed you too, val! anyway, where's your new boyfriend?" nia questions, pulling out of the group hug as valencia shrugged her shoulders when out of nowhere, ethan popped out from behind valencia
and, obviously, it scared her instead of making her happy and the cast of michael notice and it worries them. ethan, once again, ignores their reactions and introduces himself to them. all of the boys, little juliano included, shared a displeased look after ethan seemed to just insert himself into the group after scaring his girlfriend.
"hi guys, i'm ethan, valencia's boyfriend, nice to meet you all," it was clear the smile was fake and he hated this, but at the same token, he was smiling because of the way he was forcefully holding valencia down, fear starting to build in her eyes
"hi, ethan," they all responded, slightly shocking ethan, whose expression doesn't change as everyone then comes forward to shake his hand, though none of them even wanted to associate themselves with the guy
"i'm nia,"
"i'm juliano,"
"and i'm coleman," they all introduced themselves and ethan just shook his head, pushing valencia forward out of nowhere as he once again departed the arena, on his way to find the girl he was speaking to earlier during their little tour
and, ethan didn't even stop to give his girlfriend a single kiss or not even i love you val and that really made jaafar and the others raise their eyebrows.
and it obviously rattled valencia but, she tried to hide it, "umm, anyway...how have you guys all been since it has been a month since i last saw you all?" valencia spoke up with a meek smile, trying to defuse the awkward tension
"we've been great thanks, val. award season has really crept up on us but it's really been a lot of fun and we've just been having the time of our lives but we have very much missed you so it's nice to see you again! but, what about you, how have you been?" coleman spoke up as valencia laughed as she then started to play with a strand of hair that jaafar then placed behind her ear, making her nervous again as the former couple smiled at each other
"that's so great to hear, coleman! and, i've uh, i've been good thanks, i...uh met ethan around four weeks ago in person but we'd been talking for a week before we met but we started dating three weeks ago so, umm, yeah, still quite new and it's been interesting as ethan is quite the guy but umm, it's fun," valencia really wasn't making her new boyfriend sound amazing just like she could do so easily with jaafar, especially considering the relationship was so new but it was maybe for that reason as well that valencia was kind of selling her new boyfriend so short
"okay, okay, not that long but, have you guys said the l word to each other yet?" nia then asked as valencia awkwardly laughed again, her eyeline focused on her shoes for a second - jaafar recognising that maybe something wasn't right but, like before, didn't push it further
"well, i...i have said it but, ethan, i think is just waiting for the right moment, ya know? maybe he just isn't ready yet as he did have a bad breakup before meeting me so, yeah..." valencia nodded her head with a smile, hoping to convince herself that she had nothing to worry about as they also nodded their heads, with some scepticism about ethan
valencia and the michael actors continued to catch up with one another for a little bit longer before it was signalled that it was coming up to twenty minutes before the award show was to begin, meaning that valencia had to find ethan to take the two of them to their seats.
"...it was so lovely catching up with you before the award show val, but, we do have to go to our seats but, chat after the awards, yeah? remember where we always meet?" jaafar asked as valencia nodded her head, her first real big smile covering her face
"ditto, jaafar, it was lovely seeing you and the guys again. and, of course, i remember where we always meet, it hasn't been years jaafar!" valencia giggles as the both of them hug and go their separate ways - valencia back over to ethan and their seats and jaafar back over to his seat with the rest of his michael cast
jaafar couldn't help but remember how happy he was with valencia. valencia made him so much happier which was what made it tricky for him to understand how someone like ethan made valencia happier than he did. to jaafar and his costars who had heard, it seemed as if ethan was trouble and it worried them sick. worried them to the point where they thought that he might be an abusive boyfriend or if not now, will eventually get to that point.
ain't nobody hurt you like i hurt you, but ain't nobody need you like i do.
throughout the entire award show, jaafar couldn't help but worry about valencia and ethan. valencia mainly since it wasn't like he could keep an eye on them during the actual award show, especially since he had to go up on the stage to present an award. but, he was glad the rest of his cast was able to keep an eye on them. it was clear to them that jaafar still needed her. he still felt like he had so much more to give to valencia, way more than ethan would be able to. especially considering how ethan just looked like he was bad news when you first make eye contact with the guy.
the award show was starting to ramp up now since it was now the category that jaafar had been nominated for and there was a level of air in the theatre that just left the room due to the anxiety. as the announcer of the nominees continued talking, a scene of jaafar in the michael movie flashed over the screen and valencia couldn't help the tears that welled in her eyes. more tears would stream down her cheeks when it was announced that jaafar had won the award he was nominated for.
and as soon as he finished with his speech and taking his new award with him, he walked backstage and went straight back into a room to take a breather. that was when he should have known that valencia would have followed him, knowing him so well that she knew where he had gone to. as soon as they made eye contact, valencia could tell he looked exhausted but so thankful and truly honoured to win the award. she also knew he needed comfort as she waited for jaafar to get closer so she could open her arms to him.
as jaafar got closer to the arms of his best friend, it looked as though jaafar was on the verge of tears if valencia looked closely enough and not just from winning the award. and it broke her heart, she hated the amount of pain she and jaafar's breakup had on him. even though it was a mutual breakup, that didn't take away the pain that the both of them felt over it ending. valencia just wished she never gave it up with jaafar, even though a part of her did love ethan and was glad she was dating him.
suddenly, out of complete nowhere, valencia started crying when she and jaafar finally fell into the long-awaited hug that felt so slow motion. jaafar wished he didn't make valencia cry but, at the same token, he was glad it wasn't him that was crying otherwise, he knew how bad that would have made valencia feel. they then moved out of the hug so valencia could compose herself and so it wouldn't look to suspicius to the eagle eyes of the award show runners and ethan.
then that thought reminded her, she had just run off out of her seat without telling her boyfriend where she had gone and without his permission. it freaked her out, not knowing what the consquences of her doing this could be but, before jaafar could notice this fear and question it, valencia changed her facial expressions by the snap of a finger. valencia was now back to thinking about whether or not it was a smart idea to bring ethan and maybe thinking whether or not she really did love him or if he actually loved her. or, if he was like jaafar and possibly the rest of the michael cast thought, was just an abuser and a troublemaker.
i know there's others that deserve you but darling i am still in love with you.
it didn't take rocket science to figure out that during the entire award show that jaafar knew he was focusing too much on valencia whilst still knowing he was still head over heels in love with her. whilst it was obvious to valencia and his costars, it was shockingly something that every other person at this award show was just skimming over their heads. even though jaafar knew that there were others that deserved valencia as he promised her, he still found it difficult to comprehend that she did move on because at the time they made that promise, they were both unaware of how quickly valencia would move on after the breakup.
it wasn't until watching the interviews after the award show as valencia watched jaafar keep eye contact with her throughout the whole interview that it became clear to her that maybe, falling in love with ethan was dangerous. however, she still desperately tried hard to hide the newfound anxiety that arose in her as ethan then rejoined her, coleman, nia and juliano in the foyer and become suddenly possessive of her throughout the rest of the interview. especially considering jaafar and the others in the cast could see her super easily and keep track of what was going on even though they were doing interviews now the award show had ended.
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but i guess you look happier, you do. my friends told me one day i'll feel it too.
the interviews for the award show was now over, jaafar and the entire cast of michael part of the winners of the award show. everyone was now leaving the theatre that the award show had taken place when valencia and ethan rushed back into the foyer towards the cast of michael. seeing that the foyer was now slowly emptying and it was just her best friend being one of the few people loitering around, valencia saw her chance and ran straight over to jaafar as adrenaline soared through her blood. however, whilst valencia was rushing over to jaafar, ethan was running after her trying to get her attention.
"...val, can i please...have a second just to speak to you? it's serious and it can't really wait--"
skidding to a halt, valencia turned around to face her boyfriend, her face red as heavy breaths left her mouth, "--oh, sorry ethan but, i promised jaafar i'd see him after the award show and interviews. i'll be very quick, i promise, can i please just catch up with him and his costars? we can talk later, i promise!" valencia quickly interjected as, to be honest, she was wanting to speak to jaafar and his costars to get away from ethan who rolled his eyes before quickly noticing the security guard and smiled, nodding his head
"oh, darling, of course, you can! go, have fun with your friends, i'll just be over at the bar across the street to get us some drinks before the end of the night, okay? oh, also, tell jaafar and the rest of the cast congratulations on winning their categories and that the award show was actually really fun! i love you, princess!" ethan smiled, giving valencia a kiss making her squeal that he finally told her he loved her - okay, maybe he wasn't so bad after all and she ran like a little kid as she and jaafar locked eyes
"thanks, ethan! i love youuu!" valencia squeals out as she then runs over and sees jaafar further into the foyer, the two of them locking eyes
as some music started playing through the speakers of the foyer, jaafar and valencia ran over to each other in excitement. valencia jumps as jaafar catches her and he spins the both of them around in a circle, something they hadn't done since their split.
"hey..." valencia trailed off as she giggled as jaafar held her tightly, the both of them slipping back into one of the rooms, closing the door so no one, especially ethan would suspect the best friends
"...hey," jaafar whispered back before in another short breath, whispered again, "you know i've missed doing that with you?" he whispered again, softly placing valencia back on the ground as she giggled softly, lifting her head up, placing a loose strand of hair behind her ear
"i have as well and oh my god, well done about winning the award! i told you you'd be amazing and get all the recognition, you made me cry with your speech! oh, also, ethan told me as well that he said congratulations to you and the rest of the cast on your awards and that he really enjoyed his first awards show so, yeah, well done!" valencia congratulated before smiling and hesitating when she mentioned ethan, something she had started to realise that she would do anytime in regards to mentioning him since they met and started dating
and, all of this hesitation from valencia made jaafar suspicious and think that maybe it was because valencia's scared of ethan but was at the same time so blinded by her love and infatuation for him that she finds her hesitation when she's around him or speaking about him to be normal. seeing this and now after being around, this was also now scaring jaafar as much as it was potentially scaring valencia.
"oh, thank you valencia! and yes, you did say to me that i'd be amazing and get all the recognition. i'm glad you and ethan enjoyed yourselves at the awards show. which reminds me, where is he? i would've thought he would be with you..." jaafar asked in confusion but nevertheless was still excited that they were finally alone as valencia just smiled - sort of nervous to go back over knowing that she and ethan were going to have a hard chat because of the way she was acting around jaafar and the rest of the michael cast
"...oh, umm, i think he left the theatre to go to the bar across the street to get us some drinks for the afterparty so he said i was allowed to come and hang out with you guys for a bit ." valencia smiled with excitement that she did get to hang out with her best friends
"oh, umm, okay cool! let's go back to the foyer as the rest of the cast are there right now then if ethan's allowed it," saying that made jaafar's skin crawl and stomach churn in an undelightful way - was ethan becoming obsessive of valencia?
"please, let's do that!" valencia spoke with what sounded like a hushed-out voice but jaafar tried not to think too deeply about it as once again, just like this friends said, one day, jaafar would feel the same joy that valencia's found with ethan and that one day soon, jaafar is also going to move on
i could smile to hide the truth but i know i was happier with you.
the theatre being open was nearly coming towards its end and since meeting up with jaafar, nia and coleman since juliano had to go home, ethan had now returned with a couple of alcoholic drinks that he seemed to sneak into the theatre with and had now started to become very touchy with valencia in the most uncomfortable way possible. but, just like jaafar had been doing the entire time, valencia was smiling to hide away the truth of how she truly felt. obviously, because he was there, ethan had now joined the group and valencia as they were having their catch up and it was very uncomfortable. not just for jaafar and the rest of the michael cast but for valencia as well. mainly because ethan was being blunt, rude and possessive but he was also trying to cover it up and justifying it by saying he was just being protective of his girlfriend.
"...so, jordan, you dated valencia for a brief period of time, how long was it?" ethan, once again, called jaafar by the wrong name as he asked in a rude tone of voice which noticeably scared valencia, she had never seen ethan be so rude but assumed it was due to the alcohol and because he was curious?
fighting the urge to roll his eyes, jaafar sighed, "it's jaafar and yes, i did, valencia and i dated for three years..." the jackson corrected the inebriated man as he smiled a small smile, hoping that his feelings were being hidden away and not so obvious
"...hmm...three years? is...is that what i have to beat baby doll?" ethan slurred as he started to nonconsensually kiss valencia's neck as she nervously gulped, trying to grab his face to get him to stop as everyone watched on with anger and worry
"yes ethan, three years and, i won't lie when i say those three years were bloody fucking fantastic. it was just the timing that killed us so it was the right person wrong time so i have no idea, maybe you and i could get to three years or beat it, ethan. however, we are still yet to get to a month so, be patient darling okay, be patient!" valencia spoke with a slight tone in her voice as she smiled, trying her hardest to act all lovey-dovey around him when she was uncomfortable, especially with the few drinks he was influenced by
"mmmkay babyy..." ethan slurred out again as he started to feel his hands around valencia yet again, the girl laughing uncomfortably, trying to hide the very noticeable fear in her eyes and body language even though she was in love with ethan - nonconsensual touching was still not okay if you were dating the person
"i love you, ethan, i really do but, we don't touch me in this way when we're in public, okay? especially in front of my best friends! that's for our bedroom, got it?" the girl spoke through gritted teeth again, slapping ethan's hand away as the man started to sober up and he nodded his head
"okay baby, let's leave then, we can catch up with your friends and ex-boyfriend tomorrow! i still have something i need to tell you, remember?" ethan whispered as valencia nodded her head, whispering back to him asking if she could say just one final goodbye to everyone, nodding his head, ethan released his arms from valencia's waist
ethan then made it out of the theatre to wait by the car. valencia smiled again as she went over to jaafar and the rest of the group to say her goodbyes. they all smiled as they hugged and chatted a little more. valencia and jaafar were finally in front of each other again and valencia just smiled and went on her tippy toes as she pulled him in for a hug.
"thank you for the great night tonight, jaafar. i truly think it was good for ethan and me to fly over here and see one of the award shows, especially one that you won at and for him to meet you guys. it seems as if he truly and thoroughly enjoyed it which was nice to hear and, yeah, see you again soon..." valencia was about to leave when she paused and turned back around
"...i...umm, i know how hard it was for you to see me with ethan and the fact that i have moved on but, i'll always and i mean always love you jaafar. those three years we were together were truthfully and honestly the best fucking time ever but, i'm with ethan now and, i am glad you, your family and the michael cast are okay with it..." valencia paused again as jaafar nodded his head with a small smile on his face, he truthfully was glad she was happy again even though he did have some slight suspicions about the guy
"...okay, i really have to go now but, i love you loads jaafar and, i'll see you around los angeles if you don't have too quick of a turn around before the next award show but, if not soon, i'll see you elsewhere i'm sure..." valencia blabbed out as she smiled and kissed jaafar's cheek, his cheeks flushing a bright pink as he smiled back, his hand slightly grazing his cheek as valencia walked away
"...not a problem, valencia, it was nice seeing you too...i love you more..." jaafar trailed off as he grazed his cheek that valencia kissed as he sighed - valencia really was in love with ethan, she really was happy with him
baby, you look happier you do, i knew one day you'd fall for someone new.
one month later, it seemed as if valencia and ethan were still dating... that is, what people who read the online articles and believe everything they see on social media thought that is.
vogue
MODEL AND EX-GIRLFRIEND OF MICHAEL ACTOR JAAFAR JACKSON SEEN WITH A NEW MYSTERY MAN
CHLOE MALLE | EDITOR AUGUST 2026
latina-american model, valencia perez, the ex-girlfriend of michael biopic and son of jermaine jackson jermaine jackson seen out with a mystery man at her older sister's wedding! it seemed like it was only yesterday that a vogue reporter did a video interview with perez and jackson to stop rumours about the reason why the power couple broke up. however, nearly two months later, valencia is already seen out with a new beau.
valencia's older sister, model lenor perez got married yesterday (read that article here!) and lenor's younger sister, valencia was the maid of honour but, it wasn't that that had reporters taken aback. it was the fact that valencia was seen kissing and sitting rather close to another man. and, who is this new man valencia is dating, may you ask? well, take today as your lucky day because we've got all the gossip.
valencia's new boyfriend is american photographer ethan de costa. de costa is well known for photographing runways, models, photoshoots and go-sees but, how did he gain the attention of valencia perez? well, it was said the moment that valencia and jaafar broke up that perez had to return back to new york for a modelling runway shoot with vogue, after she had spent time with jaafar and the cast of michael for award season. where she walked the runway when she met de costa who was photographing the shoot and then, it was said from that moment that valencia and ethan fell in love.
however, we can't lie and say we don't miss seeing valencia and jaafar together because we absolutely do. so, in this article, you can read our list of fifteen things we loved about valencia perez and jaafar jackson's relationship. although we do miss val and jafar, we also do love val and ethan, here is a gallery of photos of the new couple at lenor perez's wedding:
gallery 60+ photos: click here
however though, as most people are aware, not everything that you see in the media and online is real and picture-perfect. recently, ethan and valencia were arguing and fighting like crazy. but it wasn't like valencia had done anything wrong, it was just something that had spiralled out of control after ethan started all the arguments. unfortunately, as jaafar and the cast of michael and the jackson family, unfortunately, thought and suspected would happen, ethan was now dangerous and abusive.
ethan was so abusive that he would punch walls, merely inches from missing valencia's face each time. the doomed couple were in los angeles again for yet another award show where jaafar and the michael cast had been nominated and valencia would have been damned if ethan forced the both of them to watch the award show on their tv in her house in new york. so, they were currently in a hotel in los angeles the day before the award show and this is what was happening, they were arguing.
"...ethan...ethan, babe, please...please stop! what...what did i do wrong? just...just tell me and i...i can fix it!" valencia squeals out, curling up against the wall and mere inches from where ethan's hand was close to punching her
"stop talking with and seeing that jordan guy! it's him that is causing this trouble! DO YOU NOT SEE THE WAY HE LOOKS AT YOU WHEN YOU ARE TOGETHER?!" ethan suddenly raises his voice which makes valencia mad - how dare he say shit about jaafar when jaafar hadn't done anything wrong
"ethan de costa! his name is jaafar and he has done nothing wrong. the two of us have been friends since we were children. yes, he's going to look at me in a certain way because we dated for three bloody years and we're best friends but, it means anything but what you think it means because i'm with you and because i love you...not...not him..." valencia hesitates towards the end as fear surges through her but, it was too late, ethan was mad
"NO VALENCIA, YOU DON'T LOVE ME! YOU NEVER HAVE AND YOU NEVER WILL! YOU HAVE LOVED JAAFAR THIS ENTIRE TIME, YOU TALK ABOUT HIM LIKE YOU'D RATHER BE WITH HIM THAN ME!" ethan screams, throwing another punch at the wall, again merely missing valencia by an inch and valencia smiles at the fact he finally got jaafar's name right
"FINE! YOU GOT ME ETHAN! I DO LOVE JAAFAR AND I STILL DO, I NEVER STOPPED LOVING HIM BECAUSE THE TIMING FOR US WAS NEVER RIGHT AND WAS ALWAYS IN THE WAY. WHICH WAS THE REASON WE BROKE UP IN THE FIRST PLACE, NOT BECAUSE WE STOPPED LOVING EACH OTHER! YES, I ADMIT, I TALK ABOUT JAAFAR LIKE I'D RATHER SPEND TIME WITH HIM BECAUSE I WOULD RATHER SPEND MY TIME DOING ANYTHING BUT BE SEEN WITH YOU! HE ALWAYS TREATED ME RIGHT WHEN WE WERE BEST FRIENDS AND WHEN WE DATED! HE'S THE BEST MAN EVER AND I--"just before valencia could continue or pause to defend herself, ethan went crazy and picked up a glass vase
and, the moment valencia realised that ethan had picked up the glass vase, it was too late. he had thrown the glass vase and it had struck valencia in the head, causing her to wobble back, smashing into the wall behind her.
she fell unconscious as she slid from the wall to the ground almost lifelessly, blood pouring from the back of her head. the glass that was on the ground now cutting into her skin, causing even more blood to trickle its way down the unconscious valencia's paling body. ethan didn't even stop to realise what he did wrong and sprinted out of the hotel in LA just as jaafar was walking in for a catch-up between he and valencia that ethan had allowed for the sake of keeping his girlfriend happy - not because he liked jaafar.
ethan didn't even react to the fact that he had injured his girlfriend. until he heard the specific american accent that he had so very familiarised from jaafar and his eyes widened as the photographer sprinted from the hotel room.
"...ethan? are you alright...oh my god, valencia!" jaafar jolted back slightly as ethan ran past him, hitting the jackson on his shoulder with his own, his eyes widening the moment he noticed the scene in front of him
grabbing his phone from his pocket, jaafar wasted no second in calling the LAPD for an ambulance and the police, "...no, no, val, valencia! ahh, shit... come on, pick up, pick up! please help me!" jaafar was hysterical, muttering curses and for help
with all the possible information that was obvious from just the scene in front of him, jaafar gave it all to the dispatcher who then sent out the ambulance and police vehicle with lights and sirens flashing straight to the hotel. thanking the female dispatcher, ending the call since he could hear the sirens coming down the street, jaafar threw his phone to the ground. the phone just stopping before it fell into one of the few puddles of blood as he then leant his back against the wall. right where valencia was wedged up against and picked her up, cradling her in his lap.
swaying the both of them lightly from side to side, jaafar tried to keep the both of them calm and valencia as awake as possible as the sirens halted sound as did the flashing lights, meaning the paramedics and police had arrived.
"...come on val, it's okay darling. just keep your pretty eyes open, it's jaafar, you're safe..." jaafar whispered in a soft, surprisingly calm tone of voice as valencia suddenly squirmed before calming down from the pain of her injury and the fact that she was safe and it was jaafar holding her, ethan nowhere to be found
"what..what happened? did...did ethan hit me?" groggy, valencia attempted to ask what had happened, wanting to know if what happened did happen and she wasn't dreaming as jaafar gave a small smile
"yeah babe, ethan hit you. that and he threw a glass vase at your head which caused you to fall back into the wall...but it's okay, ethan's gone and i'm here and the paramedics and police are just walking in now with the hotel security and management, okay, you're safe," jaafar stayed calm as valencia nodded her head as best as she could which made jaafar relax a little better
immediately, the paramedics went over to check on valencia as jaafar stood up and slipped behind them so as not to be in the way. he felt tears well in his eyes as he watched his best friend get prodded and poked and asked so many questions that the poor thing could barely keep up with their questions.
"...valencia, darling, can you please let us help you? my name is alani and this is ella, we're paramedics and we are here to help you and to treat your injuries..." alani, the older female paramedic repeated for a second time to valencia who was slipping between awake and sleep
"...am i okay? where...where's jaafar?" valencia panicked, no longer about to see jaafar as alani and ella decided that they needed to work quickly and to keep valencia as responsive for as long as they possibly could
"valencia, jaafar is still here, he's just talking to the police and hotel management, and yes, you are okay, you've just got a head injury and small non-fatal lacerations scattered across your upper body, arms and legs. your head injury is our biggest concern so, could you please tell us your name and where you currently are in the world, even though we already know it?" alani then asks as valencia blinks, thinking for a moment but it seemed as if nothing was registering in her mind other than jaafar
"uh...umm.i..my..." the first and second try she doesn't get it but, by the third try, she manages to mumble her name out
"...val..valencia...my name is valencia, i'm...i'm twenty-six, we're in a hotel in los angeles for an award show and my...my boyfriend ethan de costa and i got into an argument and he...he hit me a couple of times after threatening too and then he...he picked up the glass vase and hit my over the head with it as i then fell back, hitting my head again on the wall..." valencia wangles out as the paramedics and jaafar, who was teary-eyed, smiled in shock with widened eyes as they listened to valencia remember every single detail of the accident and where they were
jaafar could barely deal with anyone treating valencia with that much disrespect but, it shocked him so much more that it was ethan because he was supposedly in love with her and he trusted ethan to take care of her and he didn't.
"...well done, valencia. thank you for the information..." alani thanked as valencia smiled in return when alani's attention went back to ella
"...alani, i think the only thing we can do is just get valencia into the ambulance and to the hospital, she is back and forth from consciousness even though she does remember her name, where she is and what happened, there's still a chance that something bad could happen..." ella concluded as alani agreed straight away, ella moving forward and picking up valencia in her arms, carrying her bridal style towards to stretcher as they then proceed to wheel her out to the ambulance
jaafar then quickly followed after them into the ambulance, obviously his last thought on the glass shards on the floor and the fact he was covered in his ex-girlfriend/best friend's blood, ella closed the back of the ambulance before jumping onto the front seat, flooring down the street to the nearest hospital as alani and jaafar sat in the back with valencia.
"...jaafar, if there is anyone, could you possibly get into contact with them about valencia's condition and tell them to meet us at the ronald reagan ucla medical centre, it's the closest one?" alani spoke up as she continued to monitor valencia's vitals
jaafar nods his head as he immediately grabs his phone and messages the first person he thinks of; his michael costar nia long. only because all the cast were staying in the same hotel, there was no way the rest of the cast weren't aware of the incident that just happened since it wasn't like it was a small or quiet dispute. it was an entire situation that for sure was meant to draw attention from ethan.
nia
hey, nia, could you and the family meet valencia and me at ronald reagan ucla medical centre, please?
why, what happened?
jaafar, what the fuck happened?
you were only supposed to go and visit valencia and ethan in their hotel room, what did that douchebag do?
no, valencia isn't okay. and yes, i was only supposed to visit them but, the moment i got there, ethan basically legged it when i then noticed what had happened. i walked in further to see that ethan had hit valencia over the head with a glass vase, she couldn't move out of the way quickly enough. that's what that loud disturbance was. now, i don't exactly know what they were fighting about since i didn't hear it fully, none of us did, but, the police did take statements from those in the rooms next door and across. all i can say is that they were definitely fighting again.
again? jesus christ, how many more times are they going to fight and she's going to keep on going back to him and continue bringing him with her to the award shows? i feel so awful for her, she doesn't deserve this!
how far away are you guys from the hospital in the ambulance? thankfully, coleman, your dad, brother and i haven't let for anything yet so we won't take too long. juliano wants to know whats happened but i don't think we should tell him
the ambulance is like three minutes away, meet me in waiting room three! the hospital will place her in the icu considering it's a head injury
oh, you best be there we'll be there in two! stay safe and, jaafar, stay calm, valencia is a strong girl and ethan, the fucker, is going to pay for this!
thank you nia, i'll see you and the guys in waiting room three!
nia has read jaafar's message
jaafar now felt less agitated knowing that when he got to the hospital, his costars, dad and brother were also going to be there as well. knowing he wasn't going to be alone really gave jaafar some comfort as he now just had to deal with the thought that the person that he thought loved his best friend and ex-girlfriend would even think to do this to her, not just this once but all the countless other times.
from what jaafar saw of ethan and heard of him, he was really kind, funny, enthusiastic, sarcastic, a talented photographer, a bit of a jerk and petty when he purposefully would either mispronounce or call someone by the wrong name and pretty possessive when drunk but overall, he was a great guy. sure, as mentioned, he did make some uncomfortable and inexcusable comments when drunk but, maybe valencia got uncomfortable due to never seeing it before that night when she returned back to los angeles for the award show. ethan isn't a bad guy, right...right?
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a couple of weeks go by since valencia was first brought into the ronald reagan ucla medical centre by ambulance when she was starting to regain full consciousness again. after many ct scans and x-rays, it had been ruled out that valencia's memory or head injury was not a serious concern anymore, she was moved out from the icu and into a different room on the first floor. all she needed was regular pain medication to stop any internal and external swelling.
the entire time that valencia was confined to her icu room in the hospital, jaafar and the rest of the michael cast and jackson family were there also. they never actually wanted to leave due to the heavy risk of ethan coming in and attempting to apologise for what he did so, they never left and the hospital staff allowed it. for a while, especially at the beginning of valencia's time at the hospital, just the mention of ethan's name would make valencia stress out which would then cause trauma to her head injury which was something they were heavily trying to avoid.
valencia was beyond grateful to jaafar, nia, coleman, juliano, jermaine, and jermajesty for never leaving her bedside and staying in her room with her. she was grateful because it made her feel safe in knowing that her best friends weren't ever leaving her side, no matter who she chose to fall in love with or out of love with. even during the long award season and even if she only started to realise it now, in a hospital bed out of the icu that it was the wrong person.
"...jaafar..." valencia mumbled, filling out the silence as she had just finished some testing which caused her to be a little drugged and groggy, jaafar smiled at hearing his name
"...yeah, what's up, valencia?" jaafar responded softly, quickly turning to face her again as he grabbed her hand to hold, making the drowsy girl smile at the connection
"was...were the police actually able to find out what happened? what did ethan and i actually fight about?" valencia questioned, shocking jaafar as his eyes widened
and, since the accident, jaafar and the entire group had been quite apprehensive about telling the full story of what ethan did. since for some reason, maybe due to a trauma response, valencia could remember everything else about what happened but the actual fight that led up to her injuries.
and the reason being was that, a couple of days after being transferred to the hospital, jaafar received a phone call from the police that had been dispatched out on his call and told him that they not only had found and apprehended ethan. but his statement of events lined up basically identically to every single one of the witness statements from the surrounding hotel rooms who had heard the two of them fighting. and, now, valencia wanted to be told? this worried everyone but no one was more worried than jaafar himself was.
"val...valencia, are you sure you want me to tell you? what he did was horrific..." jaafar trailed off, fighting back his own tears as valencia slowly nodded her head yes
seeing the head nod, jaafar breathed in as the others braced themselves as he was the only one to be given that phone call with the information from the police.
"...please, jaafar. i...i wanna know and i'm ready, besides, i deserve to know, don't i?" valencia was certain that she wanted to know and she made it clear, jaafar nodded his head as he then held his hand out for his best friend to hold, which she reciprocated straight away
"...okay, umm, just to preface this, this is what i was told by the police and what they were told by him and the witnesses that heard it..." however, it seemed as though jaafar no longer needed to tell the story since whatever trauma response was stopping valencia from remembering before was gone and she remembered
her eyes widened as she squeezed jaafar hand tighter, "...i...oh my god...i remember what we were fighting over!" she called out, making jaafar turn his head up again, in a bit of shock but a little bit glad since that was the one thing the police were a bit iffy about telling him
"what was the fight over?" jaafar hummed quietly as the rest of the group all nervously awaited to hear it, not expecting to be told what valencia was about to tell them
valencia never imagined she'd be embarrassed saying this but she was, making eye contact with jaafar, "it...the fight was over you, j..." the injured girl then turned her head back down to her hands that rested in the hospital sheets as jaafar sat in shock, the fight was over him?
"...it...the fight was over me?" jaafar could feel his breathing pick up as valencia nodded her head slowly as she continued the story further, remembering other things that jaafar had already been told by the police that the rest were hearing for the first time
"mhm, it was because i couldn't stop talking about you to ethan. he...he must have thought i was cheating on him and that we were dating behind his back or something and, he...he told me to stop talking about you as he then started to talk crap about you..." valencia paused as jaafar's jaw tensed up as he gulped down some saliva that he was almost about to choke on
the others were listening in pure shock, "...i, of course, defended you, saying you look at me the way you do because you did date me for three years and that we are still best friends, so i didn't take any care at how you looked at me as that's how you have always looked at me, even before we dated. i told ethan i loved him, though it was with hesitation and i think that's what made him more mad as that was when he started to yell, saying that i didn't love him and that i...that i still loved you, jaafar..." the drowsy girl trailed off again as she licked her lips as she continued, jaafar lightly caressing her hand in comfort with his thumb
"...and, that...what was when i said it. i shouted it actually, telling him that he was correct...i...i do still love you, jaafar. i...*sigh* i never stopped loving you, j, i seriously didn't. i then explained to ethan that the reason why we broke up was because of the timing of us always being so busy with acting and modelling jobs and that was what was getting in the way of our relationship. not that we didn't love each other and that i talk about you so much because you are incredible j, you truly are!" once again, valencia paused so she could catch her breath and take a swig of water before continuing, jaafar remaining engaged and listening, everyone else in silent shock
"i then continued on saying how you always treated me right, not just when we dated but as best friends and, i know i shouldn't have but, it was all i could think to say. and that was what drove him over the edge but i just kept on going and kept on pushing him by saying how much of an amazing person you are when he just couldn't handle it anymore and...and then he picked up the glass vase and he threw it at me...and i didn't realise he had thrown it before it was too late and bam, it hit me right in the back of the head. and i just, fell and slid down the wall, the shards of glass underneath me cutting into me..." valencia trailed off, most especially after mentioning that she was still in love with jaafar, even after she had convinced herself that she had moved on from her best friend even when she hadn't ever really planned to do that
this had obviously caught jaafar breathless as he tried to form a coherent sentence, "...val...valencia, you...still love me?" he stammered out as the drowsy, medically drugged-up girl nodded her head as her lip quivered
"oh my gosh, j, yes! ethan broke my heart, maybe even more than my heart actually! j, this wasn't the first fight ethan and i had had! it was maybe at least the tenth or something crazy stupid like that. those photos included in that vogue article were taken ages ago and before lenor's wedding which was before we flew over to visit you guys here when i first introduced you to ethan. as soon as lenor's wedding finished and you and i started hanging out more frequently after that award show, we had just hit breaking point, ethan and i. it was always, always him accusing me of something, never me accusing him because i trusted and loved him enough to think that he wouldn't hurt me or break my heart. but, i've ended up in the hospital, day before another awards show, which is just as worse. i...i am so sorry i never told you or confirmed your guys' suspicions, i...i was just scared, so scared that ethan would hurt me if he found out i was trying to ask you guys for help or for a way out," valencia trailed off, a small single tear escaping from the corner of her eye to her cheek, jaafar wiping it away
jaafar was also silently crying, he couldn't believe that anyone would ever think of putting someone as sweet and loving as valencia through so much pain and heartache. and in all honesty, he never stopped loving valencia either. of course, the break-up at the time was for the best and maybe this is what was supposed to come out of the breakup but, they both wished that it wasn't having to happen in a hospital room.
and if he breaks your heart like lovers do, just know that i'll be waiting here, for you
jaafar and valencia sat in silence with one another just staring at each other, consoling each other and wiping away each other's tears. everyone watching on saw the love and infatuation, the same one they always had for each other, spark all over again as if it never faded. valencia never stopped loving jaafar, she was just waiting for the right time so she and jaafar could meet back up again at the perfect roadblock and start from where they had left off.
and that's actually what they ended up doing and, it was like love at first sight again for the two of them.
"...i love you, valencia, i never stopped loving you..."
"...i love you too, jaafar, i never stopped loving you either!"
six months later
vogue
JAAFAR JACKSON, MICHAEL ACTOR AND SON OF JERMAINE JACKSON AND VALENCIA PEREZ ARE BACK IN LOVE AGAIN! SPOTTED DANCING, KISSING AND LOVING ON EACH OTHER AT SISTER'S WEDDING!
CHLOE MALLE | EDITOR JUNE, 2027
do we hear wedding bells? yes, we do but, it wasn't for our favourite power couple but for another sister of one-half of our favourite power couple! okay, we've all been screaming and crying at the news that jaafar jackson of michael fame and valencia perez of our very own vogue has gotten back together and dating again. however, these new and exclusive photos and interviews have come from those in attendance at izabella perez's, valencia's other older sister's wedding to her new beau, writer noah vasquez.
izabella is the eldest sister of the perez clan with lenor, the other older sister that got married earlier in the year as the second oldest with valencia being the youngest sister of the three girls. and, izabella was the first person our vogue reporters talked to in regard to the rekindling of jaafar and valencia's romance and, we're here for the way in which mrs vasquez talks about her littlest sister and jackson.
"jaafar is fantastic...he is such a sweetheart, such a charmer but he's also such a gentleman and the way he treats valencia, my little angel is the only way in which she deserves to be treated. so, knowing that they're back in their new and improved but still old relationship at my wedding is definitely a dream coming true..." quote by izabella perez vasquez, valencia's older sister
lenor perez castello, who was also at her older sister's wedding with her husband, bailey perez castello, also had a super sweet thing to say about her little sister valencia and jaafar and, honestly, get those tissues out because it is a tearjerker.
"honestly, there's no one else in the world that i'd want to see my sister with other than jaafar jackson! they are the best couple in the entire world and i'm not even sugarcoating it. jaafar doesn't hurt her, make her uncomfortable or do things to or with her that she is unsure of. he is patient and knows when he's crossed a line. what a guy, i mean, i truthfully think, and this isn't me bashing me or izabella's husbands but, i genuinely think that jaafar is the best partner out of the three of them and both bailey and noah agree. and, also, our parents and younger siblings all love carlos. so, i mean, we all i think cried when we were told they first broke up but rejoiced when they got back together after valencia was discharged from the hospital in LA and fully recovered. i just hope that the next wedding i'm a bridesmaid in is valencia and jaafar's'!" quote by lenor perez castello, valencia's other older sister
izabella and her husband noah vasquez | pic: photography by sofie perez photography
for those who didn't know, before breaking up, valencia and jaafar had dated for three years before that, starting their relationship in 2024 to when it ended in january of last year in 2026. however, the two little lovebirds have known each other since they were young cherubs. valencia was of course famous before jaafar was known in the acting world but when jaafar did make his debut in acting, valencia was right there by his side.
talking with our vogue reporters at izabella's wedding reception during cocktail hour, both valencia and jaafar shared with us their joy of getting back together after valencia's last relationship was abusive and caused her a hospital trip in LA during the last award show of the 2026 season. thankfully, both were happy and elated to talk with us so, here is what they had to say.
"...oh, i am absolutely overjoyed to be in a relationship with jaafar again. he is truly the best partner in the entire world. he is sweet, he is cheeky, he is loving, he is caring, but most importantly, he is so patient and he understands that i'm still mentally and in someway physically, recovering from the last relationship that i was in for a couple of months. and it was that relationship that ended with me being in the hospital that i was just discharged from not too long ago back in LA. and jaafar's been brilliant the entire time of my recovery, actually, so has his entire family but, yeah, with jaafar, getting back into the swing of our relationship was so easy and it just felt like i was going back home again," quote by valencia perez, jaafar jackson's girlfriend
"...being back with valencia is like she said, going back home again and as cheesy as it sounds, it's seriously the most truthful thing ever! valencia is the best girlfriend in the whole entire world and, i'm just so glad that whilst we did fix some things in our relationship with one of them being that we were the priority, not our jobs as a model and actor. and because of that, it was still the same relationship that we had had for three years before we split up. valencia is genuinely the funniest, sexiest, most talented person i have ever met and honestly, i could cry over her because of how much i love her and how much i am truly happier being with her again," quote by jaafar jackson, valencia perez's boyfriend
even though we do love valencia and jaafar, we also love the newly married couple, mr and mrs noah and izabella vasquez, here is a gallery of photos of the newly married couple and of valencia and jaafar at the vasquez's wedding:
gallery 60+ photos: click here
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iamnialong nice selection of photos val but where am i :(
valenciaperez iamnialong i'm sorry nia, next photo dump i promise!
jermajestyjjackson ok yeah, we get it, you model for vogue now give the rest of the world some of the good looks pls and thanks
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kingofbingo you look gorgeous mama!
valenciaperez kingofbingo thank you coleman!
rjacksonjr gorgeous lady. jaafar is extremely lucky to have you
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turning off her phone after liking and replying to the comments on her most recent post to instagram, valencia couldn't help the smile that enveloped her face. on her lap, her boyfriend jaafar was resting atop, sleeping soundly after coming back from a gym session with his brothers jermajesty and randy. it was during jaafar's gym session that valencia had posted those photos and she had never been happier in her life. the couple were back in new york for three weeks off before they would leave for some interviews and other things in los angeles. but right now, looking at her sleeping boyfriend, valencia could only think about how calm and happy her life had become since breaking up with her ex and getting back together with jaafar. her hands combing through his fluffy hair which made the jackson smile slightly in his sleep, knowing it was his girlfriend's hands. jaafar had never been happier either, since he had bagged valencia for the second time but knowing that it would be the last time he'd have to get her back ever again.
and if he breaks your heart like lovers do, just know that i'll be waiting here, for you and he was waiting there for her and, jaafar finally got his girl back safe and sound.
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holy fuuuuck, rewriting this was a lot but, we got there at the end! after rewriting this another time, i still think the ending is meh but i don't hate it! and yes, because i started off with a barrage of fluffy fics for jaafar, i'm now coming out with the angsty ones so be prepared cause i haven't forgotten where i came from with the angst.
summary : aliona velardi is a well-accomplished ballet dancer for the royal ballet school in new york city and is about to dance in her final showcase. the twenty-five year old had her entire family there except for one special person, her boyfriend, jaafar jackson, nephew of michael jackson and son of jermaine jackson. however, aliona gets the biggest surprise of her life when she sees a familar face in the audience sitting next to her sister.
warnings : ballet dancer, boyfriend x jaafar, famous boyfriend shows up for girlfriend's final ever senior ballet showcase
a/n : rewriting this again for jaafar jackson just because i want to lol. i just love the idea of like anyone going to a performance or what have you of their partner's, i just find it very cute so, here is my jaafar jackson version
aliona velardi was pretty much close to shitting herself. she was a ballerina with the royal ballet school in new york city and was moments from performing in her final summer showcase with the institution before leaving to focus on college in hawaii. she had been with the royal ballet school since she was two and now she was twenty-five, about to leave to study dance and history at college in hawaii. the royal ballet school was all aliona knew, in the same way, that singing and now acting was the only thing that her boyfriend knew. and that was another thing, part of aliona's heart was breaking because whilst she had majority of her family there at her final showcase, she was missing her favourite person in the entire world, her boyfriend, son of jermaine jackson and nephew of michael jackson, jaafar jackson.
this meant that because jaafar was currently somewhere else in the u.s for another one of the award shows for his new biopic, it was unlikely that jaafar would be able to fly into new york city in time to see his girlfriend's final showcase. and, shockingly, because of jaafar's hectic schedule as an actor/celebrity, this would be the first time ever that he would be missing one of aliona's showcases because every other showcase, since aliona and jaafar were kids, jaafar's not missed a single showcase of hers. and whilst it did break aliona's heart, she know of some dancers in her company, especially the male ballet dances, that had families or parents who had never seen any of their children perform in the showcases.
so, in that aspect, aliona was lucky that it was only just this final showcase of hers that her boyfriend was missing out on. because, in all honesty, the showcase, like always, was being filmed and she could have him watch it later. so, in all honesty, aliona didn't feel too upset over the fact that jaafar wasn't able to see her final showcase, she just felt sad for those same dancers that once again had the belief that their families would change their minds and decide for once that they'd come to see their child perform. but she knew in the back of her mind, as did those dancers, that their families weren't ever going to change their minds.
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aliona stood in her ballet costume for what was going to be her final ever dance in her final ever showcase with the royal ballet school moments before she was to walk to stage. and it really messed with her mind that she was going to be finishing her time at the school to then leave for university in hawaii to then return or maybe find a dance school in hawaii for the couple of years that she's there and then return back to the royal ballet school after that. i mean, with the money she had, that was absolutely doable for aliona but, as she really thought about it, was dance something she seriously wanted to do for the rest of her life? well, is ballet what she wants to be doing for the rest of her life as for as long as she could remember, she'd always wanted to be a ballroom dancer. so, maybe it was time for her to leave ballet entirely and find a ballroom dancing company and finally make her dream come true of becoming a ballroom dancer. i mean, it would hurt a lot less wearing la duca's then it would wearing pointe shoes and dancing on the tips of her toes.
aliona then started some last-minute stretches so her body was warmed up for the variation she was about to do with her male partner, nicholas, who for those worrying was super gay and has a boyfriend. looking at him from her backstage wing and across the stage to his wing, they started to make funny faces at each other. purely, just to pass time as waiting in the wings could be for as short as a couple of minutes to as long as twenty to thirty minutes at a showcase because things can run late or early. it was really unpredictable so what else could the ballerinas do to past the time but make silly faces at each other and make each other laugh. especially when aliona and only two other ballerinas were moving on from the company, there was also a wave of the rest of the company wanting to make sure the ballerinas that were leaving were happy and not feeling too upset over the fact that this is their final showcase.
then, out of nowhere, one of her ballet friends came up behind her, wrapping her arms around aliona. violet, the girl who was behind aliona, rested her head on her shoulder and then started whispering to her.
"...i'm so sad that after tonight's showcase, you're leaving us!" violet whispered sadly as aliona smiled
"i know vi, i'm sorry but, it's time for me to move on! as much as i've loved being a ballerina, i don't think i could do it forever. i'm honestly surprised that i didn't leave for university earlier," aliona sighed as violet smiled as she nodded her head
"and i can't be mad at you for that. i'm glad you are aware that you can't be a ballerina forever and you're honouring that. whereas, if i tried to do that, i think my whole family, not just my parents, would disown me because i was literally born into ballet like. i swear to god, i came out of my mother's womb with a fucking tutu and pointe shoes," violet sighed as aliona had to try hard to not burst out loudly into laughter even though she knew her family weren't joking
like, she felt bad at how much her family forced violet to be a ballerina because all of the women in violet's family... all of the women were ballerinas and if they did try to not continue the legacy, the girl would seriously be disowened and shunned as though they were an awful person.
"wait, you're actually serious?" aliona whispered as violet giggled and shook her head
"oh my gosh, no, i'm totally joking! i spoke to my mom and told her i'm also seriously thinking about leaving RBS as well. and like you, i can't be a ballerina forever and she shockingly agreed and said she knew this was the conversation we were going to have. and then she started apologising that she forced me into ballet in the same way she was forced into it by her mom and for continuing the tradition instead of asking me if that is what i really wanted. so, i thought that was sweet of mom for respecting that whilst i have been a ballerina for basically my whole life, that i can't continue doing it forever and there has to be a time that i retire," violet smiled as aliona smiled for her best friend as well
"oh my gosh, i was going to say! if she disowned you, i'm sure my parents and family would love to adopt you!" aliona giggled as did violet as violet then quickly had to leave since aliona's partner was signaling to them that their variation was about to start
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as the music for aliona and her partner, nicholas, started to play, they made their entrance onto the stage and got into their places ready for the variation. the variation was a colourful one so aliona was wearing a very vibrant and colourful tutu since all her other variations were very mellow and less colourful.
as she and nicholas danced together, they smiled when they had to, they kept a straight face when they had to. and then, as nicholas started to turn aliona so she could then be led into a arabesque. and, as he did that, this was the first time that aliona could actually look out into the audience and, when she did, she nearly had a heart attack. right in the middle of the royal opera house was her boyfriend jaafar jackson. but then, as she looked further down the row of seats, she saw the rest of his family and cast of the michael biopic, nia long, colman domingo, juliano valdi, the rest of the jacksons. and as soon as aliona saw them there, watching her dance at her last ever showcase, she couldn't help the huge smile that spread across her face.
but, this confused nicholas so, he whispered, "...you okay?" it was a shock that no one in the audience ever took notice when the ballerinas would talk to one another during a performance
because, guess what, it does actually happen since the dancers aren't wired up with microphones so, it's never audible what the ballerinas are talking about.
"yeah...nicky, jaafar's here and so are some of his costars from michae and the jackson family! i was told that jaafar wasn't able to make it in time, let alone the others!" aliona whispered back as nicholas then smiled for his partner as he remembered how upset she was when she got all the calls and messages saying they weren't able to make it
"well, jaafar will always find a way to see his girlfriend every single time!" nicholas whispered back as aliona smiled and gave him a look since she couldn't exactly nod her head
"he really does," aliona whispered back before they ended their conversation and continued their variation in silence again
then their variation became dramatic as their music started to swell and become more intense itself and the audience were on the edge of their seats as they watched what was happening. the music started to crescendo which meant nicholas had to lead aliona through a dozen turns before he'd have to let her go as she continued the turns on her own.
the crowd sat in pure silence and most likely holding their breath as nicholas began to lead aliona in the turn sequence before not even three turns into the sequence, he lets her go as aliona begins to quicken the paces of the turns. since these dozen or so turns were the beginning of the final act of the variation, nicholas exited the stage but remained in the wings so he could then reenter and bow with aliona at the end of the dance since she goes into the ending pose on her own.
aliona continued to turn for four more counts of the song before it began it's coda and ended entirely. as aliona turned and then lowered herself into her ending pose on the floor, the audience was silent for an entire two minutes because of how shocked they were. aliona could hear herself breathe as she waited for the applause so she could stand back up and invite nicholas back on stage to bow and truly finish the variation off together. and it was in that moment that aliona thought that that the audience finally started applauding. but, not only that, they gave aliona and nicholas a standing ovation as she stood up and lifted her head, she smiled as she made eye contact with jaafar. it was clear he and the rest of the audience were blown away as aliona held her hand out for nicholas as he tip toed back onto the stage.
as they bowed, violet and the leader of the company, miss raine, then walked onto stage to present a flower bouquet to aliona since she was one of three ballerinas leaving and they were all being presented with bouquets before all being farewelled at the end of the showcase. which, was now since aliona and nicholas' variation was the final one of the showcase. so alongside violet and miss raine, the other two ballerinas, two other lovely women ballerinas had joined them on stage as nicholas had exited the stage back to the wings.
"...ladies and gentlemen, thank you all for tonight and being here for our final showcase at the royal ballet school for 2026. however, just before we leave, we have three beautiful ballerinas that are leaving us at the end of this showcase! and, to pay tribute to them, i'd like to introduce you all to them and say a few words because all three of these young ladies are beautiful ballerinas and it's a loss to us at royal ballet that we're losing them..." miss raine announced as the audience cheered and applauded before quietening down so miss raine could continue
"...so, to the very far left, we have arabella la fontaine who is one of our departing ballerinas. she is our most senior ballerina at twenty-eight since most of our ballerinas at this company will retire when they are twenty-four/twenty-five and move on to more prestigious ballet companies unless they have other reasons to leave. so, arabella has been with our company since she was maybe twelve years old so, she's been with us for very many years and it's been an absolute joy and honour to work with her so it makes me even more proud to see her leave and spread her wings out further. but, don't worry, arabella hasn't left the royal ballet completely because whilst she's stopped dancing as a ballerina with the company, that doesn't mean she's stopped entirely. and the reason is, for those wondering, arabella is actually pregnant with her first baby and is about to go on maternity leave and when she returns, she'll be returning as one of our dance teachers that will be teaching our junior dance program. thank you so much for you commitment to the royal ballet school, arabella, we love and appreciate you so much! so, arabella la fontaine, everybody!" miss raine speaks as everyone applauds for arabella, including aliona as everyone cheered at the mention that she was pregnant with her first baby and that being the reason why she was retiring
"next to arabella, we have her sister anastasia la fontaine who is another one of our departing ballerinas. she is our second eldest ballerina at twenty-seven and unlike her sister, arabella, anastasia is not pregnant *giggles* but she is retiring and does not plan to return to the royal ballet as a teacher. but, she is leaving to spend more time with her family since she does have step-children with her lovely partner that are still young and need to have their step-mom taking care of them. like her sister, anastasia is a beautiful ballerina and it is sad that she's leaving but, i'm sure it won't be too long until one of her step-kids is brought into the studios to take some dance lessons with aunty arabella *giggles*. thank you so much, anastasia, for your continious commitment to the royal ballet since you've also been with us since you were eleven or twelve. anastasia la fontaine, everybody!" miss raine holds her hand out as anastasia curtseys with her flower boquet in her hands as she smiles before stepping back in line
and now, it suddenly became real for aliona that she was actually leaving and she was the youngest in the entire company that wasn't the children's division of the royal ballet school. miss raine then became teary-eyed since everyone knew how much miss raine adored aliona and knew how devastated she was when aliona told her that she would be leaving alongside arabella and anastasia.
"next to anastasia, is our final ballerina that is leaving us. and this ballerina is a very special ballerina and everyone here at the royal ballet absolutely adores her, she's a very special little lady to us. her name is aliona velardi and she is our youngest ever ballerina in this specific senior company of the royal ballet and our youngest ever prima ballerina. she is just twenty-five-years-old and she has been with us since she was two-years-old. for the first eight years, she was living with her parents until they got busy with work that they couldn't look after her. so, from eight to around about sixteen or seventeen, she actually lived with anastasia and her partner before she was able to buy her first apartment on her own that she moved into with her dance partner nicholas and violet. everyone in the company knows i have a very large soft spot for aliona and i'm absolutely devastated that she's leaving but i can only be proud of her because of how fantastic she is as a ballerina but as a dancer overall. she is not just a ballerina, her biggest dream is to become a ballroom dancer so, whilst she is leaving us to go to university in hawaii and to support her boyfriend who is an actor, i have no doubt that she'll learn ballroom in hawaii and then return back to either new york city or los angeles and become a very famous, well-known ballroom dancer. so, aliona, you know we all love you here at the royal ballet, whilst we know it's most likely never going to happen, please do think about coming back to visit us or even teach an intensive or two. we all miss you already and we are so glad you have been a ballerina with us for so many years. aliona velardi, everybody!" miss raine's voice cracks at points as aliona tip toes forward and curtseys with her flower bouquet in hand before stepping back as miss raine pulls her in for a hug that eventually arabella, anastasia and violet join
the audience is loud and appreciative of the show they saw as well as giving love to the three ballerinas who were leaving. then, the curtains decsended from the ceiling to the floor and the rest of the senior company of the royal ballet school stormed the stage to farewell their three departing ballerinas. then, the families of arabella, anastasia and aliona were welcomed to the stage as well. and, it was in this moment that aliona's emotions got the better of her, the moment where she saw her boyfriend jaafar and the rest of the jackson family.
"...j!" aliona's voice faltered as she tip toed over to her boyfriend, still in her ballerina costume and makeup as jaafar opened his arms wide whilst the others waited excitedly but patiently behind the couple
"hey honey, you did amazing!" jaafar whispered as he squeezed his girlfriend in his arms as the ballerinas around the couple just watched or minded their own business and attempted to find their own families from behind the curtain
"i thought you couldn't make it tonight!" aliona whimpered as she giggled, looking in front of her to see abu, jaafar's younger brother begging silently to be picked up (and because he couldn't resist playing with aliona's bright blue sparkly tutu)
breaking out of the hug so aliona could pick up abu comfortably, jaafar smiled his cheeky grin, "yeah, that was just a little white lie to confuse and convince you into thinking i wasn't here in new york city," jaafar smirked as aliona shook her head, she should know her boyfriend by now
"what about the award show? i thought it was in l.a, no?" aliona asked as she lovingly looked at abu as he played with the skirt of the tutu
"yeah, it's in l.a but, today we had a day off because i made it be a day off cause i could never ever miss the love of my life's showcase, let alone her final one, with her ballet company!" jaafar smiled as aliona shook her head as she smiled at the rest of the jacksons and michael cast who had made it
after many hugs and kisses and tears and kids running everywhere, it was eventually home time and aliona allowed everyone to come over to her house (yes, house, she now has a house in new york city, not an apartment). only because it was easier and better than all of them convening in the hotel that they were staying at for the award that was in los angeles. it was after a shower and changing out of her costume and washing off her makeup that aliona decided to post about her final ballet showcase since she knew that if she left it any later, it would make her more upset.
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alionavelardi twenty-four years royal ballet school, what a time it's been 🩰. i cannot believe i won't be a ballerina with you guys anymore but it is time i hang up my pointe shoes and tutus. it was an absolute dream to dance with you guys and now that this dream is complete, it's time i complete my other dreams which include college in hawaii and becoming a ballroom dancer. all of these photos have been from my final couple weeks being a royal ballet school ballerina and there's a whole lot more from just tonight so it's probably going to be posted by jaafar so, look out for those photos or he may just post one! now, it's come to the time where i need to thank my fellow ballerinas, so, arabella and anastasia, the two lovely ballerinas that are departing rbs alongside me, it was a pleasure to dance alongside you two since you guys are forces of nature in this profession and it's insane how talented y'all are. i love you both dearly, especially since anastasia actually was my guardian from eight to sixteen years of age as an rbs ballerina and i cannot thank you enough for doing that since my parents weren't able to leave work to just take care of me whilst i danced there.
to my various ballet partners but most especially my most recent one, nicholas, i absolutely adore you my darling! you too are a force of nature and i cannot wait to see you continue to thrive and blossom as an rbs ballerina since i know you've got at least another two maybe three years left in you. but, in saying that, if you do leave rbs before then, come to hawaii and become my ballroom dance partner so we can continue to dance together since i absolutely adore dancing with you, you make me feel so safe and comfortable and you just know exactly how to be a leader and i love you forever and ever. violet, my darling beautiful lovely cinnamon doughnut, yes, you're older than me by literally three months but that doesn't mean i can't be a mother to you. whilst i'm sad i've left you this early, i cannot wait to be in that audience and hand you your bouquet of flowers after your final performance! you have made me laugh, cry, go most likely clincally insane, and made me the happiest girl in the entire world because of our friendship. we met when we were two and i knew straight away that you were going to be my person and that still hasn't changed all these years later.
and, of course, i have to thank our wonderful headmistress of rbs, miss raine who has been the most wonderful, lovely, kind, loving headmistress in the world of ballet schools. i honestly don't think i've met a kinder headmistress than miss raine. everyone i've mentioned and those i haven't, you all are the lights of my life and i love you all and wish to all dance with you again in the future but, right now, it's time to say goodbye. also, i just want to give the biggest thank you and love to the love of my life jaafar and the rest of his family and the cast of michael who surprised me because i had no idea that they were even in new york city until i saw them during me and nicholas' variation which was the final variation of the evening. so, how i didn't realise until the literal final variation beats me but, i cannot thank my family enough for how supportive they've been in allowing me to literally move so many times when i wasn't even old enough to be doing it at the age i was and for allowing me to pursue my dreams, i love and appreciate you so much 🤍
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jaafarjackson watching your face light up when you saw me and then the rest of the family and cast in the audience was the best part of the entire showcase. watching you dance is when i'm most proudest of you, ali and i cannot wait to see what you do next 🤍
alionavelardi jaafarjackson i love you j! i can't thank you enough for always making it to every single showcase no matter what 🤍
iamnialong watching you dance is magical, ali. it was very clear that it's what you were born to do and i cannot wait to see you on my tv as a ballroom dancer 🤍
alionavelardi iamnialong aw, thank you nia! it was so lovely to see you in the audience and i'll go on dancing with the stars just for you 🤍
kingofbingo i'm always blown away by your dancing, ali! it was a pleasure watching you and then surprising you afterwards.
alionavelardi kingofbingo i love you coleman! it was a pleasure having you there to watch it🤍
violettheballerina it's been an honour to dance alongside you for all these years, ali and i'm sure we'll do it again soon 🤍
alionavelardi violettheballerina absolutely we'll dance together! there's nothing that could stop us from dancing together!
nicholas_schwartz i love you to the ends of the earth, ali! i'm truly in so much denial and grief that you've actually left rbs. but, i won't miss an opportunity to visit you in hawaii and be taught how to do ballroom 🤍
alionavelardi nicholas_schwartz i love you to the ends of the earth, nicholas! okay cool, you better come to hawaii with me otherwise i won't go 🤍
officialjermainejackson you are a marvel in your craft, ali. you were born to be a dancer and that's what you'll always be no matter what style of dance! and, thanks so much for showing abu around, he absolutely had the best time 🤍
alionavelardi officialjermainejackson thank you dad! i love and appreciate you so much, thank you for coming and it was a pleasure to show abu around always, he is a sweetie 🤍
jermajestyjjackson i was truly in awe of you tonight, ali. you were beautiful and i cannot wait to see what you do in hawaii for college 🤍
alionavelardi jermajestyjjackson i'm always in awe of you jer so, i thought it was time to change that! thank you 🤍
royalballetschool we love you forever aliona 🤍
alionavelardi royalballetschool i love you more rbs🤍
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jaafarjackson little abu hugs and flowers for my little prima ballerina. so proud of my girlfriend, aliona, for twenty-four years as a ballerina with the royalballetschool. i'm always proud of aliona but, this moment takes the cake right here 🤍🩰
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alionavelardi stop it my darling, i'm already emo! but this is why you're the love of my life!
jaafarjackson alionavelardi and this is why you're the love of my life 🤍
iamnialong i was in tears watching her tonight, jaafar! aliona is one of the seven wonders i'm sure of it 🤍
jaafarjackson iamnialong i think i was in tears too at one point. and yes, aliona is one of the seven wonders and i tell her this basically every day 🤍
parisjackson aliona looks so grown up and mature and i don't know why i'm so emotional over it cause we're so close in ages! twenty-four years and now she's leaving, wow, that's crazy! congratulations aliona my love 🤍
jaafarjackson parisjackson i know right! watching all of her showcases, and this one being her final one after twenty-four years, it's insane! and thank you, she was so happy to see you, prince and bigi had made it 🤍
fanofjaafarjackson aw congratulations to your girlfriend jaafar! i've seen her dance once before and she is truly the best prima ballerina 🤍
jaafarjackson fanofjaafarjackson thank you! and, she is truly the best prima ballerina. i'm glad you got to see her dance cause she is truly amazing 🤍
violettheballerina honestly jaafar, watching you from the sidelines seeing your reaction to aliona's reaction and realisation you were in the audience will always be an amazing core memory cause both of your faces lit up 🤍
jaafarjackson violettheballerina that's got to be my favourite core memory as well violet! thank you for being such a great friend to aliona 🤍
officialjermainejackson i literally love aliona so much my boy so, seeing her dance at her final showcase was literally so magical. your girlfriend is special, buddy 🤍
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson she loves you too, dad, she was so excited to see us all and abu! and i tell that to aliona every single day that she is a special girl 🤍
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rewriting this was so much fun and i love jaafar so it made perfect sense!
summary : a snippet into the happy life of mr and mrs jackson as we go through a timeline of their friendship, relationship, married life and now family life.
warnings : it's as fluffy as fluff could get! but a couple of swear words if you really need any warnings
a/n : i know i just created a headcanon and smau about being jaafar's girlfriend and then wife but, i think this is lowkey going to be unrelated as i have a part two to this one. also, reader's name is sunnie. also, it's lowkey hard finding photos of jaafar in some of these years so, my bad if someone of these aren't year accurate lol.
2022 cont.
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jaafarjackson mr and mrs jackson has never sounded any better than it did today!
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sunniejackson never wanted any other last name but yours my darling liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson sunniejackson same here my darling
jermajestyjjackson can't help but agree brother liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson i'm glad we're on the same page maj!
rjacksonjr so glad you guys were finally able to get married liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson rjacksonjr so are we rj, it was amazing to have you there with us!
officialjermainejackson congratulations my sweet babies, it was a beautiful wedding liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson thank you dad!
janetjackson these pictures are perfect, jaafar! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson janetjackson thank you so much aunty janet!
parisjackson i love these photos so much j! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson parisjackson thanks paris! we do as well!
username ugh, these photos i can't even, even all these years later!
2023
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jaafarjackson my wife's been loving our little honeymoon getaway
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sunniejackson when did you take the first photo? i have been enjoying our honeymoon, thank you my darling boy liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson sunniejackson just before you woke up my sun! and i'm glad, it's everything you deserve and more
jermajestyjjackson glad mrs jackson has been enjoying the honeymoon! she deserves it for sure! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson oh definitely, ever since the start of our relationship she's deserved it
azalealastname my baby sister is a cutie pie! honeymooning looks good on her! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson azalealastname she really is a cutie pie! and i agree, she's an absolute stunner!
officialjermainejackson glad you guys are enjoying your honeymoon, we love and miss you both liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson thank you dad and we miss you and love you too!
xënalastname love the sneaky photos, j! i think it brings everyone back to the soft launches liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson xënalastname thank you xëna and i think it did too cause it did the same for me as well!
parisjackson just got a flashback to when you guys were soft-launching! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson parisjackson haha, xëna said something similar!
username omg the return of the 'soft-launch' type of photos! i remember having a heart attack seeing this post!
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sunniejackson hubby took a photo of me taking a photo of him. the next slide is the photo i actually took of him later
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jaafarjackson love you my wife! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jaafarjackson love you my husband
jermajestyjjackson okay so, this is a little cute liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jermajestyjjackson thank you maj!
officialjermainejackson you two are looking amazing! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson officialjermainejackson thank you so much dad!
rjacksonjr ugh we get it, you two are pretty! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson rjacksonjr aw is little rj jealous??
azalealastname wifey wifeing it up and then mr jackson is just there liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson azalealastname i just laughed so loudly it frightened jaafar!
princejackson beautiful mr and mrs jackson liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson princejackson aw thank you princey!
username another post that i screamed my house down
late 2023
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jaafarjackson last couple of events with mrs jackson for a while. so we're making the most of them now
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sunniejackson miss my loves already and i haven't even properly left yet! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson sunniejackson we miss you too darling but it'll be even better when you come back!
jermajestyjjackson miss you already sunnie! but it'll be such an epic return that's for sure! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson absolutely maj! we cannot wait for the return!
azalealastname please don't let my baby sister forget about us! liked by jaafarjackso
jaafarjackson azalealastname she won't, i promise!
officialjermainejackson i promise to everyone that we will take great care of sunnie! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson thanks dad! we know you will take great care of her!
xënalastname getting in all my little sister hugs whilst i can before she hides away for the next little while! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson xënalastname you are not the only one xëna
parisjackson cannot wait for everyone to know this new news ;) liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson parisjackson we can't either!
username omg this was the strangest post for sure, i remember! we were all so confused why jaafar was announcing sunnie being gone from public events for a while!
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sunniejackson so sorry for my sudden disappearance from the public and everything the jackson family related! but, i think i had a good enough reason to be missing from those events...
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jaafarjackson so excited to be growing our family with you my beautiful ray of sunshine liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jaafarjackson not too far away now my beautiful boy!
jermajestyjjackson so glad this news could finally be released my sun! you and jaafar will be great parents! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jermajestyjjackson i know, now that we're so close to having baby come out, we thought there was no more reason to hide it!
xënalastname can you hear me and aza's screams?! we're so excited sun! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson xënalastname you and aza have known the longest, why are you still freaking out?!
rjacksonjr thank god you can finally announce this news! omg i genuinely thought it would have gotten leaked! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson rjacksonjr i know right! that's what we were so scared about since it's getting so close to the end of 2023, i was so worried about getting snapped before we wanted to announce it!
princejackson congratulations sunnie! you and jaafar will be fantastic parents! paris, bigi and i send our love! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson princejackson thank you so much princey! jaafar and i send love back to you three!
officialjermainejackson we are so glad you two can finally share this news! we are so happy for the both of you, you'll be amazing parents! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson officialjermainejackson thank you dad! we are so excited since it's getting so close to the end of the year and my due date in the new year!
username still screaming over this announcement!!!
early 2024
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jaafarjackson it brings me so much joy to announce that me and my sunnie angel's baby girl has arrived safely and healthy! seeing the love of your life bring in a new life is a beautiful thing and i am so grateful that everything went the way it was supposed to
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sunniejackson i love you and our angel so much, j! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson sunniejackson i love my girls just as much my sunnie
jermajestyjjackson my little niece is beautiful jaafar! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson she really is, maj! we can't stop looking at her
azalealastname i can't even, my baby niece is so beautiful liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson azalealastname she really is aza
officialjermainejackson oh, my grandbaby is absolutely beautiful my boy! congratulations to our darling sunnie as well liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson thank you so much dad!
jackiejackson5 baby girl is gorgeous jaafar! cannot wait to find out her name! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson jackiejackson5 thank you so much uncle jackie! and to find out her name, check out sunnie's post because she's revealing it!
parisjackson she's beautiful jaafar and well done to sunnie for being amazing liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson parisjackson thank you so much paris! we really appreciate the love
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sunniejackson now that jaafar has announced to everyone that our baby girl has safely arrived, it is my greatest honour to introduce you guys to little miss aylani lucia jackson, our greatest gift 💌
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jaafarjackson mom and dad love you forever aylani lucia liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jaafarjackson you've got that right hubby
jermajestyjjackson oh aylani is such a perfect name for the little miss, oh i love it! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jermajestyjjackson isn't it though? and it was such an easy choice to name her as well
jackiejackson5 little aylani is a darling! what a beautiful name you two! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jackiejackson5 she truly is a darling! and thank you, uncle jackie, it was such an easy pick as well
rjacksonjr oh her name is so beautiful! it totally suits her so much as well! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson rjacksonjr thank you rj! and i'm glad you say that it suits her!
princejackson oh, did you name her after xëna? aylani is a beautiful name liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson princejackson yes we did! xëna was basically at my disposle on her hands and knees for me the entire pregnancy if jaafar couldn't be! aylani is xëna's middle name so, it was the best name choice possible
officialjermainejackson aylani is a beautiful name for a beautiful grandbaby! she is simply wonderful my darlings! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson officialjermainejackson thanks dad! aylani is a beautiful baby!
2024
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sunniejackson bit of everything of daddy and aylani, dad at work & aylani in the cutest pink cardi that aunty parisjackson made for her
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jaafarjackson my girls liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jaafarjackson my husband
jermajestyjjackson how is my little munchkin already getting so big?! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jermajestyjjackson i know maj, i wish she could stay little for a bit longer!
marlonjackson5 aylani is beautiful, sunnie! we definitely have to visit soon liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson marlonjackson5 thank you uncle marlon! and i think aylani agrees with that! she'd love a visit from her great uncle marlon!
rjacksonjr i miss my niece! can i please visit her today? liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson rjacksonjr of course you can rj! drop past anytime you'd like!
princejackson omg stop it! her little chunky arms and legs! i cannot deal, i need to squish them immediately! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson princejackson i know right, she's so chunky! and she loves it when she gets squished, she'll absolutely let you do it!
officialjermainejackson how on earth has my sweet grandbaby already grown so much in so little time?! i have to visit soon so i can take more photos! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson officialjermainejackson it blows my mind how quickly babies grow! i'm sure aylani would love a visit from her grandpa jermaine!
2025
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jaafarjackson today is our aylani's first birthday and my heart can't take it! it's been so fulfilling watching her grow and meet all her milestones. it's an honour being her parents, we love you so much aylani, today is your day!
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sunniejackson ok my heart can't take this either! she's grown up so much! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson sunniejackson i know she has and my heart is breaking over it!
jermajestyjjackson i cannot believe she's already one! it feels like it was just yesterday that you had announced the pregnancy and then the birth! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson i know right, maj! it's absolutely crazy that we already have a one year old!
azalealastname ain't no way aylani is already a year old! absolutely not, i refuse! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson azalealastname i said the same thing to sunnie this morning lol
officialjermainejackson happy first birthday to my beautiful grandbaby liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson thank you dad! aylani loves her grandparents so much
jackiejackson5 no way is my grand-niece a whole one year old! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson jackiejackson5 except she is, uncle jackie and we have to accept it at this point!
parisjackson oh happy first birthday little aylani! she's growing up so quickly jaafar! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson parisjackson i know right? it's insane how much growing she's done!
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sunniejackson woke up to a one year old jumping on her mommy and daddy! happy first birthday our beautiful little aylani, you have brought such light into our life and a feeling of walking on cloud nine every single day! you are wonderful aylani and we are so thankful you're our daughter! happy first birthday aylani
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jaafarjackson and now i'm crying over our daughter turning one! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jaafarjackson at least i no longer have to pretend it was just me crying
xënalastname happy first birthday little aylani! aunty xëna love you so very dearly! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson xënalastname aylani loves her aunty xëna so much more!
marlonjackson5 happy birthday baby aylani! great uncle marlon sends his love and cuddles! i'll see you soon beautiful liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson marlonjackson5 aylani says thank you uncle marlon! she can't wait to see you guys
rjacksonjr i can't believe you two have a one year old! she's so big! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson rjacksonjr jaafar and i can't either! she just keeps on growing!
princejackson happy birthday baby aylani! she's no longer a little baby anymore! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson princejackson i know! she gets so big every single day and i just wish she was still the little bundle that she was in the second photo
officialjermainejackson i can't even believe my grandbaby aylani is no longer a baby! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson officialjermainejackson you're not the only one who thinks that dad!
fin
as much as i would have loved to and could have genuinely kept going, i had to end the smau here! again, apologies that some of the male photos that aren't of jaafar aren't accurate, i promise, i tried to look on pinterest but it didn't help! this is my favourite type of fic to write so i'll probably do many like this for jaafar lol!
summary : a snippet into the happy life of mr and mrs jackson as we go through a timeline of their friendship, relationship, married life and now family life.
warnings : it's as fluffy as fluff could get! but a couple of swear words if you really need any warnings
a/n : i know i just created a headcanon and smau about being jaafar's girlfriend and then wife but, i think this is lowkey going to be unrelated as i have a part two to this one. also, reader's name is sunnie. also, it's lowkey hard finding photos of jaafar in some of these years so, my bad if someone of these aren't year accurate lol.
2015
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sunnielastname did i look through one of the jackson photo albums for this photo of jaafar? yes...yes i did and i don't regret it
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jaafarjackson where on earth did you find this sun? liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname jaafarjackson in the photo album you have on your bedside table...
jermajestyjjackson omg i haven't seen this photo in ages! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname jermajestyjjackson your welcome maj
officialjermainejackson i wondered when you were going to post this photo liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname officialjermainejackson it was my honour, jermaine!
username omg you two were adorable then too!
2016
liked by sunnielastname, jermajestyjjackson, rjacksonjr, officialjermainejackson, janetjackson, parisjackson and 11k others
jaafarjackson birthday flowers for the birthday girl. happy birthday to my sweet sun sunnielastname. thank you for always being my voice of reason and for not being afraid of the things that come with being friends with a jackson. i don't know who or what i'd be without you in my life 🤍
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sunnielastname j, don't make me cry! i love you too my sweetness, i wouldn't want to do this life without you either 🤍 liked by jaafarjackson
jermajestyjjackson happy birthday sun! love you always liked by jaafarjackson and sunnielastname
rjacksonjr happy birthday sunnie! you're so old now! liked by jaafarjackson and sunnielastname
officialjermainejackson happy birthday to our sweet sunnie darling! we love you all so much! liked by jaafarjackson and sunnielastname
janetjackson happy birthday to our sweet sunnie! liked by jaafarjackson and sunnielastname
parisjackson happy birthday sun sun! we love you so so much! liked by jaafarjackson and sunnielastname
username they were being so obvious here, cannot believe we didn't even notice it even though it was't a soft launch
username username good to know i'm not the only going through their old instagram posts now that they've announced their new news
liked by jaafarjackson, jermajestyjjackson, officialjermainejackson, rjacksonjr and 12k others
sunnielastname the last slide just shows how super grateful i am for all the birthday love and wishes (but more from how spoilt i got from jaafarjackson and his family)
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jaafarjackson i hope everything you wished for came true my beautiful sun liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname jaafarjackson thank you j, everything i could ever wish for i already have
jermajestyjjackson this is the second time you've cried on your birthday and i still don't know why liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname jermajestyjjackson it's just tradition at this point maj!
officialjermainejackson you deserved everything you were given and more sun! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname officialjermainejackson thank you jermaine! i love you guys so much!
rjacksonjr what a shmuck you are sunnie! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname rjacksonjr you'll understand this feeling one day rj!
username i cannot believe they were actually dating at this point and we still had no idea!
username username i know right! they used to be so sneaky!
2017
liked by jaafarjackson, jermajestyjjackson, officialjermainejackson, rjacksonjr, parisjackson, princejackson and 13k others
sunnielastname now it's j's turn to be showered with birthday love! happy birthday to the most beautiful, loving, caring and giving soul i could ever know in any lifetime! i love you so much, you have such a beautiful soul that is also so giving with those that have the pleasure to know you. i hope this is something about you that never changes the older you get because it's my favourite thing about you 🤍
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jaafarjackson not me actually crying over this post! i love you so so much sun, you are the best person in the entire world! liked by sunnielastname
jermajestyjjackson these photos are historical, sun, how did you find them but happy birthday jaafar! liked by sunnielastname
officialjermainejackson aw stop it with these photos sunnie darling! my sweet boy is so grown up now! liked by sunnielastname
rjacksonjr happy birthday jaafar! these photos are gold sunnie! liked by sunnielastname
parisjackson i can't remember the last time i saw these photos! happy birthday jaafar! liked by sunnielastname
princejackson omg stop these photos are classic! happy birthday jaafar! liked by sunnielastname
username this was such a sweet birthday post!
username username it really was! i remember when sunnie posted this!
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jaafarjackson then vs now! thank you to everyone that wished me a happy birthday, i love and appreciate it very much!
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sunnielastname that photo of baby you is just too cute, j! happy birthday my beautiful soul liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson sunnielastname thank you my sweet sun
jermajestyjjackson i forgot how cute baby jaafar is! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson i know right? i'm glad you agree with me on this my brother
rjacksonjr you were so adorable, jaafar! happy birthday liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson rjacksonjr wow, this is a first!
officialjermainejackson happy birthday my beautiful boy liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson thanks dad
janetjackson happy birthday jaafar! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson janetjackson thank you aunty janet!
username i remember this birthday post as well!
username username why are we like this?
2018
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sunnielastname i guess you could say we've been in love and together for longer than you guys thought...
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jaafarjackson i love you my sweet sun! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname jaafarjackson i love you too j!
jermajestyjjackson thank god we can finally talk about this omg! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname jermajestyjjackson i'm surprised you hadn't begged us to do it sooner!
officialjermainejackson best kept secret ever! my sweet babies liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname officialjermainejackson it really was! jaafar and i love you guys so much!
rjacksonjr i'm still shocked maj didn't spill the beans about this! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname rjacksonjr i'm more surprised you didn't, actually rj!
parisjackson i knew you were going to say something about this sooner rather than later! princejackson owes me $20! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname parisjackson should have seen that coming but at least you get money out of it!
princejackson dang, i really do owe paris $20, fuck! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname princejackson my condolences, prince! that must have been a really important $20 note
username the scream i remember screaming when this post first came out, oof, you needed to be there!
username username and i was there, we were on facetime together and i genuinely think you broke my eardrum!
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jaafarjackson good to know we could keep you guys on your toes for that long ;)
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sunnielastname so cheeky and sneaky liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson sunnielastname very much so
jermajestyjjackson yes we get it you two, you're a bunch of hotties together! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson you said that, not me!
rjacksonjr where's my photo credit for that last photo? liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson rjacksonjr right here :)
princejackson y'all hid this so well for so long! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson princejackson thanks homie! there were moments that we almost spilt the beans but, we kept it under wraps for a good amount of time!
janetjackson it must feel really nice to finally come out with this secret after hiding it for so long! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson janetjackson it really does aunty janet! it feels lovely to be able to finally talk about it publically!
parisjackson my favourite couple in this entire family for sure! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson parisjackson we love you loads paris!
username i remember this post as well and i screamed just as loud with this one then with sunnie's!
username username once again, i do as well because we were still on facetime when jaafar posted this!
2019
liked by jaafarjackson, jermajestyjjackson, officialjermainejackson, rjacksonjr, parisjackson, princejackson and 17k others
sunnielastname did you really think we'd soft launch our engagement over three years like we did with our relationship?
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jaafarjackson we could have sunnie darling liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname jaafarjackson i'm glad we didn't my love!
jermajestyjjackson i'm glad you didn't! omg i cannot wait to get another sister!!! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname jermajestyjjackson same here! there is no way i could have waited any longer!
officialjermainejackson congratulations my sweet babies! welcome officially to the family! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname officialjermainejackson thank you so much dad! we love you guys so much
rjacksonjr welcome to the jacksons, sun liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname rjacksonjr thanks rj! love you so much
parisjackson i have waited for this day for years! cannot wait to have another beautiful cousin-in-law! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname parisjackson thank you paris! i have waited too for this day forever!
princejackson congratulations you two! can't wait for the wedding, welcome into the family officially, sunnie! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname princejackson thank you princey!
username the best engagement announcement for sure!
username username oh absolutely, if usernamesbf doesn't do this, i don't want it!
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jaafarjackson can't wait to make you mrs jackson my sunnie darling
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sunnielastname i can't either my darling liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson sunnielastname you won't be a last.name for much longer darling!
jermajestyjjackson can you just get married now?! we waited three years for you to announce you were dating, i can't wait any longer! liked by jaafarjackson
rjacksonjr stop being so cute you two! we get it, you're engaged! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson rjacksonjr never rj!
princejackson aw aren't you guys just adorable! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson princejackson we are very adorable!
janetjackson this is going to be the most famous wedding ever i feel! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson janetjackson very wishful thinking aunty janet
parisjackson jaafarjackson i cannot wait for this wedding! it's going to be amazing! liked by jaafarjackson
jaafarjackson parisjackson thanks paris! we can't wait either!
username gorgeous photos, jaafar! liked by jaafarjackson
2020
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sunnielastname thank you to everyone who made my mamma mia bridal shower the best it could have been! apologies though that my sweet love jaafarjackson and his groomsmen couldn't be there but we made sure they were facetimed in!
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jaafarjackson why didn't the groomsmen infiltrate like in the movie? liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname jaafarjackson omg yes, why didn't you guys?! that would have been so fun!
parisjackson it was a beautiful bridal shower! even though we all wish it was mj themed but the mamma mia theme was just as iconic! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname parisjackson thank you p! we really did try for an mj theme but, alas, it didn't work! but i agree, the bridal shower we went with was so iconic!
azalealastname it was wonderful, baby sister! liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname azalealastname thank you aza! i'm glad you and xëna could make it!
xënalastname fantastic night all round! dare i say, it was better without the guys ;) liked by sunnielastname
sunnielastname xënalastname oh for sure xëna!
username this looks like it would have been so much fun! liked by sunnielastname
2022
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sunniejackson only took us a year but now i'm mrs jackson
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jaafarjackson love you my darling mrs jackson liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jaafarjackson love you my darling mr jackson
jermajestyjjackson so glad you guys were still able to have the wedding! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson jermajestyjjackson i think we all were in the end!
officialjermainejackson it was worth the wait for sure, my darlings! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson officialjermainejackson absolutely worth the wait!
rjacksonjr you all look so good in that second photo! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson rjacksonjr i know right! definitely a favourite
parisjackson beautiful photos, sunnie! liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson parisjackson i know right, paris! i love them all
princejackson the most beautiful bride in the world liked by sunniejackson
sunniejackson princejackson oh stop it, princey!
username still the best wedding photos to exist! liked by sunniejackson
username still in love with the new last name! liked by sunniejackson
fin (for now)
this was so so much fun to rewrite for jaafar so, i hope you all like it as well! and yes, i did try really hard to find the correct photos and skintone and that for the non-jaafar photos but it was super hard! look out for the second part as that will be coming out soon!
summary : headcanons about what it would be like to be dating jaafar
warnings : not a lot really, just more fluff than anything else but there will be some lil mentions of the loss of michael so some mentions of grief and sadness
a/n : as soon as i finished writing my married life fic for jaafar, i knew i had to write this so, i slept on it and now i'm writing it the next day lol.
the way jaafar asked y.n to be his girlfriend was the cutest thing in the world
she had been friends with the jacksons basically since she was born because her parents and entire family had been friends with the jacksons for generations
and this included the father, uncles, aunties and grandparents of jaafar
but, it wasn't until both of you and jaafar got older that you started to realise the relationship you two had was slightly different
it started to become different when you guys were around fourteen, a little over a year and a half after the tragic death of jaafar's uncle michael
she had begged her parents during that time if she could basically live with jaafar and his family to take care of them
her parents agreed and so did jaafar's parents as they knew their kids, especially jaafar, needed y.n to be there for them during this awful time
so, it was during the time she was basically living with the jacksons that her and jaafar's feelings started to change from best friends to something more romantic
jaafar's entire family had watched as y.n basically turned into the caretaker, therapist, cook and everything in between for the jackson family but epsecially for jaafar
during a time that was absolute hell for them after the death of their uncle, brother, father and son
she took care of jermaine, his wife, making sure they were eating and sleeping
she took care of jaafar and his siblings, making sure they were also eating, sleeping and just making sure they were taking care of themselves in general
it wasn't until jaafar had a full on breakdown about the loss of his uncle michael and she was on the floor with him, cradling him and telling him sweet nothings that the family properly noticed it
they had noticed it before but stayed silent because they didn't want to create fake scenarios about y.n and jaafar's relationship until this moment
jaafar had been missing from the entire family for the entire day
no one could find him, not his parents, not his siblings, no one
that was until you could hear something
at the beginning, it was very soft and quiet but it was clearly the sounds of someone crying
and it was very easy for y.n to determine that it was jaafar
she quickly found the source of the noise and she found jaafar on the floor of one of the lounge rooms curled up in a little ball
he was crying as y.n noticed what surrounded him
heaps and heaps of photo albums of photos that were filled of the jacksons including his uncle michael
as she moved closer, she finally noticed the one he had been holding in his hand before it slipped out as he began to cry
jermaine, his wife and jaafar's siblings moved slowly as they watched y.n lower herself down to jaafar as she began to comfort him
"...i miss him, y.n. i miss him so much..."
jaafar knew it was y.n that had joined him
it was like they both had sixth senses regarding one another
which made his family look at one another in shock at how quickly jaafar knew that it was her
"...i know you do j...we all miss him too..."
she whispered back as she softly shifted her position as she moved closer to him
grabbing one of his hands, she used her other hand to softly lift jaafar's head up
he didn't argue with her or try to fight against it as he let her lift his head up
it broke y.n's heart to hear he was crying but it shattered her heart to actually see him cry
wiping away his tears she just stayed silent as she pulled him in for a hug as she let him cry
it was in that moment that jaafar's family knew that he was safe with y.n as they all slowly moved away back through the house back to the stuff they had been doing prior to this
it was minutes later that jaafar finally composed himself enough that he was able to help the both of them up from the floor and clean up the mess
y.n smiled as she agreed that it would probably be best to put the photo albums back in the original homes again
and once they did that, they went back up to jaafar's room and just stayed next to each other the rest of the day
it was months after this that jaafar realised it was time for him to confess his real feelings for her
so, what he did was he basically seranaded y.n with her favourite song and then afterwards asked her to be his girlfriend
she thought it was so sweet but also so corny at the same time but she couldn't help it as her body reacted quicker than her brain and words did
she just carefully placed jaafar's guitar down to the floor and pulled him in for a kiss
"...so, that's a yes then?"
is the words that came out of jaafar's mouth after the teenagers had pulled out of the kiss
y.n giggled as she nodded her head
"okay...perfect...that's great!"
is all that could come out of jaafar's mouth after that as y.n felt her cheeks flush red
y.n and jaafar dated for nearly ten years before getting engaged
and in those ten years of dating, it was clear that jaafar's family were just waiting for the day that y.n would come home with a shiny diamond gold ring on her finger
they were so adament that jaafar would propose throughout those latter ten years that the entire jackson family started to have y.n call them dad, mom, uncle, aunty and grandma as well as nicknames for the siblings and cousins
and y.n was more than happy to oblige to their requests even if she was also waiting for that diamond gold ring on her finger because she knew as did jaafar, that there wasn't anyone else she'd be marrying
jaafar was an amazing boyfriend though
even though his entire family teased him about proposing to y.n
he treated her like an absolute princess and his family all knew that
which was why they knew they could tease him like this
they knew one day that jaafar would go down on that knee
they knew he was just waiting for the right time as he had the ring already
finally, on the tenth year anniversary, jaafar went down on one knee with that shiny gold diamond ring in a very similar way to how he asked y.n to be his girlfriend when they were fifteen
and just like deja vu, y.n dropped to the floor in tears as she cradled jaafar's face
this time without the guitar and being seranded with her favourite song as the two of them just stayed on the floor on their knees as they cried
eventually, y.n started to feel as though they were being watched so she pulled the both of them up from the floor and actually responded to jaafar's proposal
"...yes, of course i'll marry you, j!"
was what y.n had said as jaafar kissed her once more before placing the beautiful ring on her finger as he struggled due to how much he was shaking
it was after that moment that the entire jackson family just jumped out of their hiding places and cheered for the newly engaged couple
for years, y.n had been part of the jackson family but now, it was going to be put in writing and legal documents that she was forever a jackson
"you've always been a jackson but, it's now official. congratulations y.n and jaafar!"
jermaine, jaafar's dad, is smiling so big it looked as though his face was about to crack
y.n jackson sounded like the best name in the world and she had never been so excited to change her maiden name until now that it was real
fin
this was so much fun to write and i am so glad i am having this burst of inspiration but i think it is because i'm becoming obsessed with michael jackson and the biopic with jaafar lol.
summary : your insta feed but you're newly married to jaafar jackson, the nephew of michael jackson. insta posts between users jaafarjackson and ynjackson
warnings : none, it's just pure fluff!
a/n : i love this idea so much so let's do it! and this is also my first ever jaafar jackson post!
f/c: girls on pinterest
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jaafarjackson my view, her view and our newest view
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ynjackson our sweetest view
jaafarjackson ynjackson she's our first child, babe!
parisjackson omg stop it now, you got the puppy!
jaafarjackson parisjackson yes we did, p! we're so excited!
princejackson the puppy!
jaafarjackson princejackson she is the sweetest thing ever!
officialjermainejackson that is the cutest puppy ever, j
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson thanks dad, she really is the cutest!
officialjermainejackson also, where's your wedding photos? i want to see them
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson we still haven't received them yet, dad! we want the photos just as much as you guys do!
jermajestyjjackson if the pup mysteriously ever goes missing, it wasn't me, it was rj!
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson don't you even think about it jer!
mjjacksonfan omg stop it the puppy is adorable you two!
jaafarjackson mjjacksonfan isn't she just? we cannot wait to share more photos of her
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ynjackson whilst jaafar and i went out today, he decided to give me the biggest surprise of my life! for those who know me very well, i have always dreamt of having a minature long-haired dachshund puppy ever since i could remember! and today, during our date, jaafar decided to surprise me with our newest jackson, baby azalea who is the sweetest little girl ever and we are so excited she's part of our family!
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jaafarjackson our first child! good practice for when we start thinking about human babies
ynjackson jaafarjackson you want kids with me? stop it, that's so sweet!
jaafarjackson ynjackson of course i do baby
parisjackson omg all these photos of azalea are giving me fomo! i need to meet her immediately
ynjackson parisjackson of course you have to meet her! swing by in like a couple of hours!
parisjackson ynjackson hell fucking yeah, i am on my way rn!
princejackson stop it, you named her azalea??
ynjackson princejackson yes we did! she just looked like an azalea the second we caught eyes with her
marlondavidjackson5 azalea is just a darling girl
ynjackson marlondavidjackson5 she really is uncle marlon
jackiejackson5 okay, azalea is very adorable
ynjackson jackiejackson5 isn't she just uncle jackie
rjacksonjr can i steal her?
ynjackson rjacksonjr no you cannot randy, don't even start that with me!
jaafarjackson rjacksonjr you tried so hard yet failed so miserably my man!
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jaafarjackson did you really think we were telling the truth when we said we still hadn't gotten our wedding photos back?
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ynjackson this was so targeted towards officialjermainejackson
jaafarjackson ynjackson i apologised to him
ynjackson jaafarjackson that's still your dad, babe!
parisjackson omg stop, those three photos are gawjus!
jaafarjackson parisjackson thanks paris, they were just three of hundreds and hundreds!
princejackson that was the best day of my life
jaafarjackson princejackson it was definitely the best day of my life!
officialjermainejackson why would my own son betray me like this?
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson i really am sorry, dad!
ynjackson jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson no he isn't
jermajestyjjackson that was such a beautiful day!
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson it really was!
marlondavidjackson5 we had so much fun that day! i really wish uncle michael and uncle tito were still with us to have seen it, they loved you both so much
jaafarjackson marlondavidjackson it was a fun day, uncle marlon! i also wish uncle michael and uncle tito were with us, we loved them just as much as they loved us but it was wonderful to honour them
thrillergirl these are beautiful photos jaafar! congratulations again to you and y.n
jaafarjackson thrillergirl thank you so much, you are too kind
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ynjackson my top three photos from mr & mrs jackson day out of the hundreds we were sent
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jaafarjackson i love my wife
ynjackson jaafarjackson i love my husband
parisjackson and these photos of you and jaafar are perfect too wtf
ynjackson parisjackson omg stop it, p!
princejackson if i keep on looking at more of these photos i'll cry
ynjackson princejackson aw, prince! you're so cute x
marlondavidjackson5 these are beautiful photos sweetheart! thanks for inviting us to the wedding x
ynjackson marlondavidjackson5 thanks uncle marlon! and there was no way we'd have our wedding without you there x
jackiejackson5 best wedding to perform at for free x
ynjackson jackiejackson5 best wedding performers in the world x
rjacksonjr the most photographic mr and mrs jackson
ynjackson rjacksonjr did jaafar pay you to comment that?
rjacksonjr ynjackson no he actually didn't this time
jaafarjackson rjacksonjr ynjackson i actually didn't babe, i promise x
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jaafarjackson one year wedding anniversary date night, azalea getting bigger by the second and some baking wifey did
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ynjackson i love you baby. loving you and azalea is the easiest thing in the world
jaafarjackson ynjackson i love you too, even when you make me cry with your sweet words
parisjackson cannot believe it's been a year since you two became mr and mrs jackson
jaafarjackson parisjackson we can't either! it feels like it was just yesterday but also a lifetime ago
princejackson happy one year to my favourite mr and mrs jackson
jaafarjackson princejackson thanks prince
officialjermainejackson congratulations to one year married my dear boy and darling daughter
jaafarjackson officialjermainejackson thanks so much dad, y.n and i love you and mom so much
jermajestyjjackson wow, one year has flown by so quick! congratulations you two
jaafarjackson jermajestyjjackson thanks jer! it has flown by so quickly
marlondavidjackson5 happy one year married you two! sending all my love and blessings
jaafarjackson marlondavidjackson5 thanks uncle marlon, y.n and i send love and blessings back
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ynjackson one entire year of being mrs jackson. being your wife, jaafar, is the greatest honour of my life and i never knew i could have the space in my heart and soul to ever love someone as much as i love you and your family. and i hope our love continues to grow whether that involves giving azalea a puppy sibling or a human sibling but no matter what life throws at us, i know we'll get through it together as a team and as a family. i love you so much jaafar and getting to love you is the best thing i'll ever do
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jaafarjackson you really want me crying on our one year wedding anniversary! i love you so much babe, loving you is like breathing
ynjackson jaafarjackson you're the reason why i find it so easy to talk about you. i love you so much back, loving you is so easy
parisjackson i'm actually screaming crying and convulsing in my car rn! my babies have been mr and mrs jackson for an entire year!
ynjackson parisjackson you actually are doing all of the above, are you okay lol
parisjackson ynjackson i'm really not okay, send help and some aza cuddles
princejackson omg please make my tears stop!
ynjackson princejackson not you too prince! omg, i can't calm down three jacksons all at once!
marlondavidjackson5 these new photos are beautiful baby girl! happy one year anniversary x
ynjackson marlondavidjackson5 thanks so much uncle marlon! i love these photos so much x
jackiejackson5 if these ones are the unseen photos, how many more are this beautiful?
ynjackson jackiejackson5 so many uncle jackie! we're still going through them a year later
rjacksonjr these are really beautiful, y.n! congrats on one year married x
ynjackson rjacksonjr thanks so much randy, you're such a sweetheart x
officialjermainejackson my sweet babies are beautiful! thank you for these new photos, y.n x
ynjackson officialjermainejackson thanks dad! jaafar and i love you so so much x
michaeljjacksonlove happy one year wedding anniversary y.n and jaafar! hopefully we can see more wedding photos as these are beautiful x
ynjackson michaeljjacksonlove thank you so much darling! both jaafar and i would love to post more wedding photos, we are absolutely obssessed, especially now that we've also got our wedding video back as well so keep an eye out xx
fin
this was so much fun to write! i first did this with formula one but decided it would be a cute way to start my jaafar fics now that i'm obsessing over him after he's popped up everywhere after the michael biopic!
pairing : melodie saint germaine x michael jackson!godfather
summary : headcanons for my 'heal her world' series that shows melodie's life as michael jackson's goddaughter
warnings : not a lot as it's just pure fluff goodness of michael being an amazing godfather with the exception of the mentions of the deaths of melodie's parents and michael...and one singular mention of dr conrad murray
a/n : i just had to write this headcanon of how it would be to be michael's goddaughter! hope you all like it
the moment michael gets told that melodie's parents, his closest friends john and elaine saint germaine, are pregnant once again with their sixth baby, he is excited
then, before they even let him properly compose himself, he was then asked if he potentially wanted to be the baby's godfather
whilst this wasn't the first baby of mr and mrs saint germaine, they hadn't yet made michael the godfather yet
always saying that their next daughter would be michael's goddaughter, when they finally found that out and told michael that they were having a baby girl, michael finally gave them the answer they already knew he was going to give them
of course he was going to be the godfather of their new baby girl
he already loved their five other older children so getting the honour to be the godfather of their sixth child was a dream come true
so, you already know that from that moment forward, michael was very involved with the new saint germaine baby
when he wasn't busy with being michael jackson he was the best soon-to-be godfather as he assisted the parents with everything
even if it meant being the babysitter to the other kids when neither of john or elaine's parents could
and then, the day came that elaine would be giving birth to michael's goddaughter and it was all hands on deck
once again, because neither of elaine or john's parents were free to, michael asked for his schedule to be wiped clean so that he could spend the time with the saint germaine's
driving behind elaine and john as they drove to the hospital with the older kids, he couldn't believe that the day had finally arrived of him meeting his goddaughter
he had imagined this day for so long that now that it had finally arrived, he truly couldn't contain his emotions
he had bought flowers, teddies and so many gifts for his goddaughter that he genuinely could have opened up a gift shop
but all of them were for elaine, john and his new goddaughter
then michael arrived to the hospital and was told he had to wait in the waiting room with elaine and john's children which he didn't argue with
it was then less than three hours later than john had rushed out of his wife's hospital room, tearful, joyful and exhausted with the news that baby girl had been born and both baby and mom were okay
michael almost dropped the hand of xëna, one of the twins who was four years old, as john had announced the birth of his newest baby girl
then, as expected, john said it was time for vistors so, the first person asked to meet baby girl was michael
tears filled his eyes as he followed his best friend into the hospital room as he clutched the flower bouquet and one of the many teddies he had bought with him for the new baby
the second he caught eyes with his goddaughter, he was in love
finally, it was then time for michael to hold the baby girl and find out her name
"...we decided to call your goddaughter, melodie jayne saint germaine,"
the second michael heard her name, he smiled and nodded his head
"melodie jayne...she's absolutely beautiful you two! thank you for blessing me with a beautiful goddaughter!"
"she's our greatest melody, michael!"
"she's going to be a star, you two!"
john and elaine smiled as they knew straight away just how spoilt their melodie was going to be
not just in talent but also by her godfather
but just because melodie was spoilt, doesn't mean she was a spoilt brat
whilst her godfather michael got her things when she asked for them, he also gave her experiences
taking her with him when he'd visit hospitals and charities, she wouldn't be shied away from his humanitarian work
and as melodie got older and got to understand it more, she'd actually join in
whilst she was a saint germaine and they were outgoing and a family of performers, melodie was exactly like her godfather in the way of how shy she was
it took a while for melodie to actually come out of her little bubble of shyness
it wasn't until her fifth or sixth proper humanitarian visit with her godfather that melodie actually took charge and shook hands
making her godfather proud that she was finally comfortable enough to approach them and shake their hands
not because she thought they were gross or diseased, but because for so long it had been so overwhelming for her when she was much younger
but now that she was an older kid, almost seven-years-old, she had grown in her confidence
and it was because she had gotten more confident in other things in her life
like ballet, even though she had been doing it since she was two, it was only now she was getting more confident in it
but then tragedy later struck the saint germaine family
four years after giving birth to their final set of twins, hayden and xälia and seven years after melodie was born, john and elaine died in a tragic accident
for years, similar to the jacksons, michael specifically, the saint germaines had been really outspoken about the world of fame and being a celebrity
once that news hit the public, immediately, conspiracy theories had come about that john and elaine had been killed because they 'knew too much'
and whilst those headlines constantly came to the front door of michael's residency of neverland, he never let melodie see it
as melodie's godfather, he was granted sole guardianship whilst the younger twins, hayden and xälia were taken in by their godfather and michael's older brother, jermaine
as melodie got older and things in her life got more difficult, not just from her parents death but also her ballet academy, michael fought even harder for his goddaughter
trying his best to protect her, he actually hadn't exposed his goddaughter to the public, in the same way john and elaine hadn't done with melodie and their other children
whenever he had to go anywhere with melodie and his three kids, prince, paris and blanket, he'd cover them with masks and veils to protect their privacy from the media
that was until john and elaine's public funeral service
for the first time ever, the public were going to see the faces of john and elaine's youngest children, melodie and hayden & xälia
the other siblings old enough to give their consent in wanting to be shown out in public
michael kept on protecting his goddaughter, making sure she got the care and counselling she needed
even though she was young, he still wanted her to feel like she could understand what had happened and why she was now under his full care
melodie was grieving the loss of her parents but she was still loving the life she lived with her godfather
every day and week there was something to look forward to
one day, she'd be with the twins hayden & xälia who had no clue what was going on due to how young they were
and other days, she would be running around neverland with her godsiblings, prince, paris and blanket
eventually, her grief whilst not fully understood or outwardly expressed, seemed to simmer down and she started to come out of her shell again
even though her life in ballet caused her to be abused, she hid it away from michael so he wouldn't worry
he already had so many other things to worry about, her arriving home bruised and malnourished from ballet wasn't one of the things he needed added to his pile
however, he wanted to worry about her
michael constantly worried about his goddaughter in this period of their life
he couldn't begin to think how much grief and fear melodie would be going through after the loss of her parents
he could barely understand his own grief at the loss of his best friends at his adult age
so the fact that it was happening to their eight children who were all still relatively young was gutwrenching for michael
most days he'd actually cry about this but he never let melodie or his three kids know
even then, he knew somehow that melodie still found a way to figure it out
and it broke his heart that she knew at such a young age what it was he was crying and grieving about
because even though she didn't fully understand it, she was also grieving the same thing
but slowly, melodie got better
she started to enjoy things again, still not ballet, but michael had been given a promise that she'd leave this academy soon and join the new one he suggested for her
she started to get older again, now almost eleven years old, melodie looked way older and more mature than she should have
because her parents died when she was so young, even though he wished it didn't happen, it made melodie grow up so much faster
she still enjoyed the childish things like her godfather and younger twin siblings did but she just looked physically more mature than a normal eleven year old should and would
it was a few months after turning eleven that melodie's life took another devastating turn after it seemed like everything had gone back to some normality
whilst she was having a regular day at their house with prince, paris and blanket, they get given the devastating news that michael had died
the entire time it was happening, all four children were present in the house
dr murray even having prince assist him in the cpr attempts on michael
however, even though melodie no longer had her godfather with her on this earth anymore as she grew older, she knew that he was still watching over her and guiding her from wherever he was
and that he would still find ways to spoil her in the years after his death
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this is where i'm finishing this headcanon, however, i already feel like i want to do another part that lowkey continues on from this one. i feel like in michael's last moments, he had a feeling something like him dying was going to happen. so i feel like whilst he, in real life, did everything he could to set his children up, in this fake world, he's done the same for melodie. which we'll potentially see in the form of videos, birthday/christmas/holiday cards and other things.
pairing : melodie saint germaine x the jackson family!godfamily
summary : melodie saint germaine is the goddaughter of the famous king of pop, michael jackson. living in his guardianship since she was seven after the loss of her parents, she then goes through more trauma and grief after the loss of her godfather which then has her moving in with her godsiblings, prince, paris and bigi jackson and their grandmother and michael's mom, katherine jackson. now, melodie is all grown up and all she wants to do is heal her world without her parents and godfather helping her.
summary : this series will include a grouping of one-shots that are all related to the main storyline of melodie's journey to heal her world. however, they won't necessarily be in order. this is the first time i've created a full-blown series on tumblr so please be nice lol.
warnings : angsty, fluffy, comfort, major character deaths, grief, mentions of abuse regarding melodie as a childhood ballerina.
RATING SYSTEM:
💔 - angst
🥹 - comfort
🫶 - fluff
🌶️- smut/suggestive
you were put through hell 💔🥹 - melodie saint germaine, goddaughter of the 'king of pop' michael jackson is a finalist on the american dancing with the stars. a former ballerina and the aforementioned goddaughter of michael jackson has had a traumatic upbringing with the loss of both parents when she was very young and then of her godfather in 2009, a sweet reunion with the remaining jackson family ensues as does a sweet moment between one of the judges after her most memorable dance was dedicated to her beloved godfather.
life as michael jackson's goddaughter 🫶💔 headcanons for my 'heal her world' series that shows melodie's life as michael jackson's goddaughter
pairing : melodie saint germaine x platonic!jackson family
summary : melodie saint germaine, goddaughter of the 'king of pop' michael jackson is a finalist on the american dancing with the stars. a former ballerina and the aforementioned goddaughter of michael jackson has had a traumatic upbringing with the loss of both parents when she was very young and then of her godfather in 2009, a sweet reunion with the remaining jackson family ensues as does a sweet moment between one of the judges after her most memorable dance was dedicated to her beloved godfather.
warnings : sad, mentions of michael jackson and his death, mention of parental death, mentions of abuse at an undisclosed ballet company, dancing with the stars and winning dancing with the stars
a/n : i warned you guys, here it is, my new series about michael jackson called 'heal her world' and here is the first one shot! which i literally just put on wattpad yesterday but i clearly couldn't wait and made an entire new masterlist and my first ever series on tumblr!
a/n : and yes, i did originally have this in the format of united kingdom's strictly come dancing and no, i'm not changing it so, pretend dancing with the stars has their own version of it takes two lol.
it takes two | monday night
it was monday evening and the night before the final of dancing with the stars 2026. alongside melodie saint germaine and her partner alan bersten, all of the remaining couples were on dancing with the stars 'it takes two' show to talk with the hosts joey graziadei and julienne hough. talking about all things about their dancing with the stars journeys, their three dances for tomorrow night's finale and much more.
in her skin-tight maxi dress, heels and his button-down shirt, jeans and polished shoes, melodie and alan sat in their it takes two interview with joey graziadei about their dwts journey. melodie was downright excited as was alan. however, he was a lot more emotional about the whole thing than he thought he would be. especially considering it had been six years since his first win as a dwts pro, it was clear that he was craving another mirrorball in 2026.
joey had introduced their vt package for their dwts journey. and, in all honesty for the two of them, it felt so bizarre to be watching all of that content. from the last twelve weeks of their thirteen-week journey on the show together. they watched in complete awe and content as it all suddenly finished too quickly. it had now returned back to the duo and joey on camera.
joey smiled, "awe, that was amazing to watch, wasn't it? congratulations, you're in the final!" he cheered as melodie and alan chuckle as they hold hands, one leg crossed over the other
"how are you feeling after watching that?" he asks as alan immediately turns to melodie who giggles, responding
"umm, emotional, i feel exhausted *laughter*, i look like a mess. i'm sweating, i've recently just had to go and strap up my foot and ribs because they're still inflamed from the week before *giggles*. but, truthfully, i feel so grateful and it feels amazing to be in the final and have that video to watch back of everything we've done. it does however feel crazy because when we truly try to think about it, it doesn't feel like we've done a lot. but, then you show us this video and we really have done a lot and, truly, it's been the best adventure i could have ever gone on. especially when i see just how far the both of us have come since the beginning. i mean, it's completely overwhelming but, i'm sure we can pull it together for our three dances tomorrow night!" melodie's indiana accent seeps through as she giggles, her smile bigger than it ever had before as alan nods his head in agreement
"let's go right ahead and talk about your three dances for tomorrow night then. you are doing the viennese waltz which was a very successful dance and it was also your first ever perfect score. as well as the earliest in dancing with the stars history *cheers*, yes, well done! and it's a dance that is very loved by everyone. and, melodie, i just want to bring up something that you said to julianne last night and it was that you were going to be more spicy for tomorrow's performance. and, may i ask, how is that even possible because you were already so spicy and in character during the original dance *laughter*?" joey pauses as melodie giggles as she shakes her head
"we first watched the dance back, alan and myself with prince, paris, bigi and my godfather's nephew jaafar jackson the night before alan and i spoke with julienne..." as melodie was going to continue, alan giggled as joey held a singular finger up to pause
"...i still get shocked when you just casually bring up the children and nephew of michael jackson in our conversations like that because i still cannot believe that michael jackson is your godfather!" joey scoffed in shock as melodie giggled as did alan as they both nodded their heads
"honestly, that's still my reaction and i've been michael's goddaughter since i was basically in my mother's womb..." melodie giggled as joey allowed her to continue what she was originally going to say
"...and all four of them agreed, prince, paris, bigi and jaafar, that whilst this was one of alan and i's best dances, i just needed to add a little bit more fire, spice and attitude throughout my facial expressions and, of course, i agreed cause i'm never going to argue with a jackson, let alone four *giggles*. even though i'm the only one out of my siblings with dance experience, people forget just how different each dance form is different to the others so, whilst i did do ballet and was a ballerina, there are actually things about dancing that i don't know. and besides, i stopped doing ballet around two years after michael died when i was thirteen because he was the one that kept me in ballet after the loss of my parents when i was seven. so when he died when i was eleven, i just fell into a hole of not enjoying ballet anymore because now no one was alive to watch me do the thing i loved at a place where i was actually being completely mistreated and abused..." melodie trailed off as joey's eyes softened as he spoke up
"...i'm so sorry, melodie. i, obviously, had no idea how you had been treated whilst being a ballerina, especially so young from how old...?" joey asked as melodie smiled softly
"...my parents first enrolled me into ballet classes when i was around two-years-old. my mum was also a ballerina and then became a prima ballerina in her late twenties before retiring and going on broadway..." melodie smiled as joey continued his meaningful words
"...because whilst your parents, similar to michael and the jacksons, were so famous, they did everything in their powers to make you and your siblings as private as possible so we never knew as much about the newer generation of the saint germaine's. that was until your godfather, michael jackson, showed you off to the world at seven-years-old at your parents' very famous and public funeral which must have been so strange. and you still like to keep some things about your life private, what made you decide to finally start to come out of the shadows again?" joey asked finally as melodie smiled as her head tilted to the side and she thought about it
"i think i decided i no longer had to be scared about the cameras and the attention. whilst there were people with those cameras and attention that were awful, especially to my parents and my godparents, my godfather especially, i came to the realisation that even if i stayed private, people would still say things. so, it just came to my mind that if my parents and michael were still around, they wouldn't want me hiding now that i'm much older and have my own autonomy, i'm allowed to be a face in the public eye because i've forged my own path. i'm not just the daughter of elaine and john saint germaine and the goddaughter of michael jackson, i'm actually someone who isn't just a 'nepo baby' and to cash off of my parents and godparents' names..." melodie responded with a headnod as both alan and joey nodded their heads as joey asked his next question
"...did joining dwts ever scare you or give you the worry that the trauma you experienced as a ballerina when you were a child would return as an adult?" he asked softly as melodie smiles and almost giggles as alan smiles at her
"initially, i was terrified but, the longer i thought about it and made my agent wait on giving a response, i had a similar realisation about doing the show that i had about me coming out properly to the media. and it was just that i had to, mind my michael jackson pun, stop exisiting and start living. and i realised that as much as it hurt me, if i couldn't find my love for dancing again, not even ballet, but dance than i wouldn't be living. i'd just be miserably exisiting in a world where i'm basically alone except for my siblings..." melodie responded as joey nodded his head as did alan
"...but even though i was put through hell whilst being a ballerina with the loss of my parents at seven and then my godfather at eleven, i knew that what i went through as a ballerina isn't the same as what ballroom dancers go through. or even other dance forms, no dance forms are the same, yet i still had dance as a whole associated with the trauma i had with ballet..." melodie trailed off as joey and alan nodded their heads as she continued
"...i was still so scared that if i went into any dance class ever again, i was going to be treated horribly again. and that was something i wasn't ready to put myself through again so when we came to week five, that spiral started again when i got too in my head and started to have those panic attacks that no dwts camera ever saw. and i actually think it stemmed from having such a fantastic week the week before with the viennese waltz and then our argentine tango that was funnily enough, ballet inspired and done to swan lake, that led us into the bottom two. whilst that situation had nothing remotely to do with what happened to me as a ballerina, i associated the emotions i felt after the argentine tango as the same emotions i had whilst i was a ballerina and being abused..."
"...and that really scared me more than i think i've ever admitted especially since at face value, i didn't seem scared or as though i was rocked by the sudden change. but, i was scared and completely thrown off. in saying that though, i don't even think our argentine tango was our worst dance either *alan and joey shake their heads*. it was just simply that something wasn't correctly done and conveyed in the foundations of the dance and, this isn't said to throw alan under the bus and say it was his fault because it wasn't. he choreographed a beautiful argentine tango, it just so happened that somewhere between the final rehearsal and the live iteration of the dance, something went wrong and we had to dance it again. but, blessed be god, we danced it better and we were saved for another week--"
"--and it never happened again!" joey stepped in as melodie nodded her head, agreeing
"yes, absolutely right! after week five, it never happened again but it was something that really threw me off in a way that hadn't happened before since being a ballerina. and, truthfully, it genuinely upset me but i never showed or told anyone that because i never cried or talked about it in future vt's. until weeks later but that's a different story *giggles* but, now that we are here in the final, i don't feel the same fear that i felt in week five and then the following week leading up to week six. and since then, i haven't felt scared to go out and perform any of our dances but most importantly, i'm not scared about our three dances tomorrow night. like, genuinely, i feel the most confident i've felt since starting and i'm just truly excited to show everyone the connection that alan and i have built but also sustained throughout this whole competition. so, i...i just cannot wait for tomorrow night," melodie finished as alan nods his head in agreement as joey smiles sweetly before asking another question
"alan, speaking of the argentine tango, that's not the dance that the judges picked for you guys to do again. even though it was your lowest scoring, they chose for you guys to do your most memorable year again. can you explain why they chose that instead of the dance that you'd think they'd want you to do again and try for a higher score?" joey questions as alan responds with a smile, melodie also smiling with a small laugh
"i know right? when melodie and i found that out, we were kind of confused. but, it was, because, as you said, our argentine is our lowest scoring so, we would have thought that they'd choose that one so we could give it another shot and try to get it at a higher score. but, i do think ultimately the reason why they didn't choose the argentine but my most memorable year instead was they felt as though they didn't get the full story of the most memorable year. whereas, they felt as though they saw so much of the argentine tango that they felt like we should just leave it behind and have that stay at it's original score..."
"...because, i guess, it's a reminder not just to melodie and myself but to everyone that it's okay to have one dance or two that just aren't really up to perfection on this show and that not everything has to have a perfect score. and, another reason i think they chose the most memorable year was because, i guess, it touched not just the judges and the audience but it also touched the entire country and countries surrounding. it touched an entire country and world in a time where it's only been four years out of a global pandemic that was scary and so life-changing,"
"and, right in front of us, we're watching a young adult, a beautiful young woman, open up about the fact that growing up, she went through hell with the loss of both parents, who were very famous, at seven and then her even more famous godfather at eleven and as a child ballerina. it wasn't all glitz and glamour, it was screams and torture and grief for her alongside her personal life still being turned upside down, suffering an agonizing tragedy at such a young age..."
"...after being hidden away because of her parents and godfather's fame, she's finally opened up about it, the trauma only being mentioned by her godfather's children. and getting the honour to be the person melodie fully opened up to and being introduced to that part of her life and the inspiration of her most memorable year dance was lifechanging and it changed my perspective of life, truly. it's something that everyone and anyone had their own theories and opinions about as outsiders but actually hearing it with my own ears and watching how she relived those experiences as she told me how it felt losing what was basically her entire family so young is something an outsider would have never of guessed that was how a child dealt with that grief since it was never public until now..." alan trailed off as joey nodded his head in understanding as melodie smiled and nodded her head
"...and, in all honesty, we are so excited to do that most memorable year dance again since it really does give melodie the time and the healing to really once again, become vulnerable and open up. and to talk about those things that maybe she never thought she'd be able to talk about," alan responds as melodie smiles in agreement
"yeah, i absolutely agree with everything alan just said. especially in regards to why the judges didn't pick week four's dance. it wasn't just something alan and i wanted to leave at the low score that it originally was but, it was the judges that wanted to leave it there too. because, they did say that they either wanted to see the argentine tango again or our most memorable year and they said ultimately, that out of both dances, our most memorable year was a lot more meaningful. and they said it showcased a lot more than our argentine tango did and that was why the judges decided to have alan and i perform that dance again as one of our three final dances," melodie responds as joey nods his head with a smile as does alan
"just before we get around to the finale freestyle because that is so much fun to watch since i already did get to watch a cheeky little bit of it earlier, it's gorgeous you two. let's talk a little bit more about your most memorable year, in regards to the dance, it is quite an emotional dance, isn't it melodie?" joey asks as melodie and alan both nod their heads
"yes, it is very emotional, joey. it's a very beautiful contemporary piece and we performed it back during week three as you would know and it was immediately one of our favourite if not our number one favourite dance. it's our number one because it was just so emotional and it felt so freeing for me that i'm just blessed to dance it again. however, getting to see my beautiful godfamily and my siblings in the audience this time will be an added blessing..." melodie smiled, her face almost quivering due to how big she was smiling
"...who's coming to watch the finale this week from your family?" joey asks as melodie catches the way he just includes the jacksons as part of her family, not godfamily which makes her relax and smile
"all nine of my siblings including both sets of twins as well as paris, prince, bigi, jaafar and the remaining jackson five brothers," melodie smiles as joey and alan also smile as joey nods his head
he then allows melodie to continue what she was saying which she does, "and it just brings me so much joy at how supportive they have all been, especially my godfamily because now that i'm technically out of their guardianship, they no longer have to look after me like they used to. but, in saying that, i know they'd never do that so, i'm really glad they all agreed to be there for me and alan like, i don't even think we had to ask them..."
"...no literally, we were about to ask them if they potentially wanted to be in the audience for the finale and before either of us could say anything, all of the jacksons including paris, prince, bigi and jaafar all went yes straight away. like, we didn't even need to tell them what we were asking them before we got a scream of that they'd love nothing more than to be in that audience," alan smiled as did joey as he pouted
"stop it, that's so sweet! i'm so glad they'll be in the audience as i'm sure this will be just as healing for them as it has been for you, melodie!" joey added as melodie nodded her head
"oh, absolutely joey, that was why alan and i wanted to give them invitations because i knew from the beginning that at some point in this competition, i wanted to dedicate a dance to michael and the entire jackson family for how they took care of me when i had no one else even though they didn't have to. i'm also having a special dedication so, i'm just glad i have my entire family, not just my siblings, in the audience tomorrow night," melodie smiles as joey smiled back as alan sat quietly and listened intently
"so, now that you have been rehearsing it again alongside the viennese waltz and freestyle, you did mention to julienne that it is the more emotional dance out of all the dances you two have done. so, can you explain a little bit more what it's been like in rehearsals since it is a dance that was one of the earlier ones like the viennese?" joey prompts as melodie giggles, alan lovingly letting melodie take over
"oh, like i said back in week three when we first performed it, i absolutely love it. it was already so emotional and alan's choreography, again, is just so beautiful and so clear in his intentions for this dance as well. but, for tomorrow night, we have made it even more emotional and, it's actually the most vulnerable i've ever been in any of the dances. even when we first performed it in week three, i was a lot more reserved and i guess, frightened of being emotional on camera since the last time it happened, it was at my parents funeral since i physically couldn't feel anything at my godfather's. but, this week, i've never been so in touch or so confident in showing my real emotions and it's also the most emotional alan has gotten as well this competiton. and like we said, it's a beautiful dance that just honours what i lost at such a young age and it pays tribute to them beautifully. and, yeah, we're just glad we get the honour to dance it again with the other two dances. and i also can't wait for the rest of my family to see it for the first time since it's been years since they've seen me dance in person," melodie smiles with a head nod as joey smiles sweetly as does alan who comforts his partner
"hoo, i'll make sure to have the entire audience decked out with boxes of kleenex before your most memorable dance love--"
"--for a second time," alan sassily jumps in as melodie giggles, smacking him playfully as joey chuckles before continuing
"i know it's been an emotional and exhausting week for you guys and you're tired and i don't want to make it worse. however, we do have an amazing little clip of your family and friends who want to say a few words to you since we're running out of time and can't talk about the freestyle..." joey announces as melodie's eyes widen and she slides down her seat on the couch, before coming back up and hiding behind alan as he comforts her
"...growing up with melodie as our older sister was a dream come true. ever since we can remember, she was always the most delicate, shy and sensitive one. always very nice and sweet but also very shy. but, there was a side of her only few close to her got to see and it was always a party because she only acted in that specific outgoing way when she was around those she knew very well, better than her family at home..."
"...when we were younger and all of our other older siblings left the house and indiana, melodie was put into ballet when she was two years old by our parents before we were born. our mom was a prima ballerina before retiring and moving onto the broadway and ever since she did that, it had always been her dream to have the next generation of saint germaine daughters as ballerinas just like her. however, none of our other siblings including ourselves didn't enjoy ballet except for little melodie. even though her name came from the fact that she was our parents greatest melody, that little girl was obsessed with our mom's old red pointe shoes from the red shoes ballet..."
melodie covers her mouth with her hands. her younger twin brother and sister, hayden and xälia, were the first to film a video message for their older sister. alan comforts her as hayden and xälia continue their video message to their sister.
"...watching our older sister dance, even though we were babies, was always a sight for sore eyes. even though we didn't properly understand it, we knew our sister had a talent for ballet which she clearly had gotten from our beautiful mother. however, after the loss of our parents when melodie was seven and we were four, if it wasn't for her godfather, michael, she would have had to have stopped and we knew it would have broke our sister's heart if she had to stop so, he made sure she didn't..."
melodie watched as her twin siblings became teary eyed as hayden talked about their losses and how melodie nearly stopped ballet way earlier. she then smiled as xälia continued bravely whilst hayden had to stop before he'd break down into a flood of sobs.
"...after losing our parents, melodie, hayden and i were split up. all of our older siblings had since left indiana and weren't our legal guardians, me and hayden's godfather being jermaine and melodie's godfather being jermaine's brother, michael. however, even though we had different legal guardians, we were never too far away from our older sister and we continued watching her dance ballet like it was effortless for her at such a young age. however, little did hayden and i know or understand just how terrible ballet had become for our older sister..."
melodie smiled at her younger sister as joey and alan kept close eyes on her as they continued to watch the messages.
"...we never noticed because we never saw or understood what they meant but very quickly, melodie would come home from ballet with bruises, scrapes and cuts that weren't normal or consistent with what she had been doing in classes those days. michael had noticed what was going on, he tried all he did to prevent it from happening and tried to convince melodie to leave because she didn't deserve to be abused and not treated right when she was just trying to dance but then, he also died..."
it was in this moment that melodie noticed the tears in her sisters eyes as hayden just kept his head down as he cried as the clip then switched. melodie almost screamed as the clip was almost all of the jackson family including paris, prince, bigi and jaafar in the one room. all of them smiling as the dwts team had still labeled the jacksons as melodie's family.
"...i don't think it really took any of us in the family that long to realise that melodie was a beautifully talented ballerina..." jermaine, godfather to hayden & xälia spoke as he smiled lovingly
"...although a naturally shy girl, that never stopped her from being a lovely and happy girl that made friends growing up. one of my fondest memories of melodie was actually the day after a ballet class, another one that had her coming home littered in bruises and tears but, it was a different type of tears when she was thirteen. they were tears of relief when she told us at the dinner table, three years after the death of her godfather, that she would be quitting ballet and this upcoming showcase would be her last one. i'll never be able to forget the looks of relief that broke over the twins faces. hayden especially, i could tell it broke his little ten-year-old heart countless time when melodie kept on delaying her final day with the company until it all just became too much and she no longer enjoyed it alongside the losses of her parents and michael. but, saying that now, seeing her now as she finally loves dance again, in another realm of ballroom and latin, is something i'd never thought i'd get the chance to say..." jermaine's smile didn't once fade or leave his face as he said those words
"getting to watch my brother's and best friends little girl every single weekend, smiling and having the time of her life alongside alan has been truly healing for her but i also think for us, her family, as well. we watched for so long as ballet abused and hurt her that we were at first scared that dwts would do the same thing to her. however, watching this journey has been life-changing because ballroom and latin dancing hasn't abused and hurt my little girl. it's actually lifted her up and made her believe in her talent as a dancer again. it's made her truly happy again and i think that's what's been shown week in and week out with each of melodie and alan's dances..."
"...seeing my brother's goddaughter finally smile again whilst dancing is magical and i can only say thank you to dwts so many times before it sounds insane *giggles*. but, i'll keep on saying it until my voice runs dry because they made my little girl smile and feel safe again doing the thing she once loved the most..." jermaine's video faded out as his smile was the last thing seen
it made melodie smile and her heart fuzzy that jermaine called her 'my little girl' even though he was never her legal guardian at any point, even after the loss of michael. photos of melodie from when she was a kid and throughout the years were then shown whilst the voiceovers played over the top. then, a video message from paris showed up. making melodie and alan who were watching this get extremely excited.
"watching my godsister every weekend on dwts has been the best thing i've ever seen in the entire world. i mean, i watched her do ballet when we were younger but, this is the first time i've actually seen my sister be happy as she's dancing. she never had that with ballet, not since she was two when she first started and it was all sunshine and rainbows for her until she was six. all of that light was then taken away from her so to see her finally understand that dance isn't supposed to be like that and actually love it, has definitely been an emotional experience for me for sure..." paris trailed off as that could have almost made melodie cry but she didn't as paris continued in the video
"...before melodie joined dwts, i never imagined or thought of a time in this life that she'd want to do this show and dance again without her godfather being alive to witness it. i remember having to hold her as she had a ptsd breakdown whilst we were walking past her old dance studio that had since been closed down. i don't think she ever saw herself in this life being able to fall in love with dance again after what they did to her after her godfather died after he had protected her after her parents died..." paris was teary as her brother prince comforted her as bigi also watched carefully as melodie watched with a loving smile
"...it's just truly been lifechanging to see my sister finally understand that she can love dance again in a life that doesn't include her parents or godfather. and that it should have never treated her that way in the first place, being a dancer is never meant to be traumatic and i'm glad it doesn't make her feel like that anymore," paris sniffled with a teary giggle as she got emotional
alongside videos of melodie and alan dancing, were video messages from melodie's other siblings and family members. but, the ones that really caught the girl off-guard were from her godfamily, the jacksons.
"watching melodie on dwts so many years later has been so healing for us all. especially after watching her leave ballet at thirteen, it's truly been a godsend seeing her evolve and fall in love with something she once obsessed over as a little girl. we cannot wait to be in that live studio tomorrow night to watch these three dances, it'll be unforgettable for many years to come," jermaine spoke first as his son jaafar agreed as melodie's heart melted as she watched on
"watching melodie on that dance floor every weekend has only brought joy into our family's life after all the public trauma and loss we've gone through. getting to watch melodie have the realisation that dance isn't traumatic or meant to hurt has truly been emotional and such a healing experience not just for her but for the whole family. it's all we've wanted and we know it's everything that her godfather wanted had he still been alive. all we wanted was for melodie to understand that dance is meant to be joyful and magical. it shouldn't bring bruises, tears and abuse and it shouldn't be something that induces fear or trauma to at least try and do any other form of dance. it's been a dream to watch her blossom and really fall back in love with the art form that was truly hers ever since she was two..."
"...and it's something we're glad she commited herself to since i remember just how scared she was to even think about dancing again, let alone on a competition show. so, it's been an honour to see the girl she once was peak through every so often throughout this journey because we've all missed seeing that part of my godsister. the part of her that was so cruely taken away from her when she was just a little girl because she loved to dance..." jaafar also becomes emotional as it then switches back to paris, prince and bigi, this time, prince is the one talking
"...watching melodie fall back in love with dance and accomplishing everything she's accomplished these last twelve weeks is mental. people tend to forget that ballroom and ballet are completely different dance forms but because it's dance, people think it's the same and that melodie has an 'unfair advantage'. now, in saying that, i can barely tell you what the terminology of a turn or lift is in dancing but, even i can tell that ballet is nowhere near the same as latin ballroom and melodie shouldn't be judged just because of her previous dance experience. because of what she went through as a ballerina, melodie tried everything she could to physically force her body out of the way it would act when she was a ballerina because of how much trauma she went through that even seeing the smallest thing to do with ballet, it would trigger her. even if it was her own body, her own feet turned out or pointed, she'd break down into tears because it would take her back to when she'd be a ballerina and being hurt. so, that's why it's very emotional seeing her dance every week because she's no longer trying to physically force her body to change when it naturally falls back into it's comfortable dance position like when she was a kid because her body still remembered what her brain didn't want her to. and because she isn't fearful or hurting when she's dancing, she's genuinely happy and seeing that joy reflect in her eyes as they sparkle has been nothing short of a blessing. i just want to wish the both of them, as all of us in the jackson family want to, the best of luck for the final tomorrow night. and, we just hope that we'll be watching the both of them lift the mirrorball trophy live when we come to watch it in the dwts studios," prince smiles as does paris and bigi as melodie and alan were moved by all the messages
the jacksons and the saint germaine twins then revealed their favourite dances which spanned from the viennese to a quickstep/salsa fusion to their upcoming most memorable contemporary as it then got more emotional again at the end of the messages.
"...i have no doubt in my mind that our parents and melodie's godfather would have loved to watch their angel girl finally fall in love with dance again. they died without getting the chance to watch melodie know what it finally felt like to find joy in dance again. however, we know for sure that they've been looking down and watching this entire time..." xälia smiled tearfully as she looks at hayden who smiles back
"...they're definitely wishing they could have stayed longer to watch you melodie. i just know they would have loved it and been in that front row every single week. you are a superstar and like the judges say every week, you could totally get away with changing jobs and join the dwts professionals. it's blindly obvious at this point who the winner is, we love you melodie!" hayden blows a kiss to the camera with a teary smile that matches his twin sister
a video from her viennese waltz showing melodie and kai's first ten was then accompained by a video from jaafar, "when odie and alan got their first fourty back in week three, with their viennese waltz, that was a standout moment. a moment in which i think it clicked in melodie's head that she could potentially really fall back in love with dance again and that it was okay. it was okay that she wasn't scared of being hurt from it again and that she was allowed to be happy that she was finally feeling safe enough to dance again. seeing her fully involve herself in the world that once abused and traumatised her has been nothing short of a miracle which i'm certain i'm not the first or last person to say *giggles* but it has been. but it's been a journey that's given us this miracle and i'm forever grateful that i got to witness it, although from afar," jaafar explains with the sweetest smile on his face, melodie smiling at the old childhood nickname, as the rest of the jacksons appeared
"if odie was to win, it would be completely life-changing, not just for her but, i think for every abused and traumatised dancer who sees themselves in melodie. and also for every other young person across the country or even the world. she was always looked at with fear-glazed eyes and as though you couldn't speak to her without the shadow of her traumatised life as a ballerina and the girl who lost her parents and godfather. those kids that used to find her trauma funny, look who's laughing now? that girl you used to relentlessly tease because of the things she was exposed to way before she was ready to, she's now on TV with her name being chanted out for everyone to hear and watch her. she's more than just the girl that was hurt by a company that promised to take care of her after the loss of her parents and godfather!" jermaine spoke as the jacksons agreed with him as melodie found herself going red in the face as she watched
"to watch her have the same ups and downs on this show that had her being abused and shouted at as a ballerina and watching her pick herself up and continue with such grace and confidence is truly a switch that is truly unbelievable. but, it was all of that grace and confidence that got her all the way into the final and it's incredible. i mean, all the hard work she and alan went through is paying off in the best way possible. i just absolutely adore that girl and, truly, i am so glad she is my godsister," jaafar ends off the individual messages as it went back to the entire group
"you are amazing, melodie and alan! we know you can win so, go out there tomorrow night and win it for us!" prince calls out before everyone else joins him for the final message:
yelling, "we love you odie and alan! you can do this! come on, bring it home to indiana!" the group yelled as melodie and alan chuckled
one last clip of melodie and alan laughing and hugging was shown before the vt was completely finished. the camera coverage returning back to joey, melodie and alan on the couch.
joey awes as does melodie as she giggles, revealing to everyone that she hadn't cried but, alan had and he laughed. a look of shock and concern quickly covers melodie's face when she actually took the time to pay attention to him. pulling him for a hug, alan chuckled and accepted the hug, joey gives a sweet, touched look to the camera as he gave the duo a moment to breathe and so alan could compose himself.
a small pout on his face, melodie then offers him a tissue from the bedazzled tissue box that joey had handed her, "awe, alan, melodie that was so sweet. now, i need to ask you both though, i know the competition has meant the most to you and you haven't really mentioned winning but, how would you feel if you two did end up lifting that mirrorball at the end of tomorrow's show?" joey questions as melodie chuckles, comforting alan as she tilts her head to the side slightly
"umm...honestly, of course, it would feel amazing to win because, obviously, alan deserves it so much. but, i...i don't know honestly! it's a weird question for me to answer because i've truthfully never thought about winning this show. like, genuinely, i only wanted to do it because if my parents and godfather would never be able to see me dance again, i wouldn't want that same thing happening to my remaining family. and, also that, like my whole family mentioned, that it's okay that i've fallen in love with dance again and that it isn't meant to cause pain and that it's not scary anymore," melodie shrugged as joey's shoulders slumped and he pouted as did alan as melodie chuckled
"aw, love," joey whispered as melodie explained herself further
"i would love to lift that mirrorball, joey, don't get me wrong, of course i would, because, like i just said, alan truly deserves it. and, it would mean so much to him as well as myself if we did win it. but, i think just being on this show full stop and getting partnered up with alan and dancing with him every week and just getting to laugh with him has been the real winner. i mean, all of this stuff, getting to dance again after so many years of being scared of it and laughing with alan for the last thirteen weeks and to remember how joyful dancing is has been even better if not the same as the feeling of winning that trophy is. like, getting to feel myself falling in love with dance again and knowing i no longer have to be fearful of it with alan right by my side reminding me that it's safe has been life-changing. so, in all honesty, whether or not alan and i win, it won't change a single thing to this journey. i won't feel too sad because having someone like alan show me the joys of dancing all over again has been a win and a dream i never thought was possible," melodie smiles as she squeezes alan's hand tightly as he had been trying to compose himself the whole time, wiping away his tears as he nodded his head in agreement as joey nods his head as well
"i know you're emotional alan but, even with all the support and the love from not just your friends and family but also from the public, what would it mean to you, alan? what would it mean for you to lift that mirrorball tomorrow night?" joey asks as alan tearfully giggles, tilting his head similarly to melodie before responding
"honestly, it would mean the entire world to me. it would mean that melodie's family were absolutely right in trusting me with her. it would mean that *sniffle* everything i did was all worth it," alan whispers as he started to cry again, melodie pulling him in for a hug as joey cooed, his shoulders relaxing again as he gave the duo a moment
"that was so sweet of you to say, alan," joey smiles as alan nods his head, calming himself down so he can continue
"it sounds so dramatic but, i truly mean it because that's what it does mean for me. i mean, it's not the fact that we made it this far but the fact i managed to peel back the layers of what was once a terrified, traumatised and orphaned former child ballerina and make her re-fall in love with dance again as the reason why we're still here. and, i think that's what the public have seen as well and that's why we're just grateful why we're still here," alan finishes as he wipes away the rest of his tears, melodie nods her head and joey smiles
"we're also grateful that you two are still here! they have been amazing everybody, so sorry we couldn't find out more about the freestyle but, that just means it'll be a surprise for tomorrow! well, listen, best of luck for tomorrow and get some rest because we've got a big night tomorrow. everyone, please, give it up for the amazing melodie and alan! now we go over to julienne who is with the other celebrity/pro dancers," joey finishes as melodie and alan applaud and giggle as they then leave
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it was the final of dancing with the stars 2026 and melodie was just about shitting herself. all three finalists had three dances they were dancing as part of their last ever chance at winning the mirrorball for 2026. the dances that melodie and alan were going to be doing is their viennese, which they chose and was the dance that gave them their first and earliest ever perfect score. their freestyle that was a new, never before seen dance made purely for the final as well as their most memorable contemporary which was chosen by the judges to see again.
videos of melodie walking on the dwts stage in a gorgeouos red halter-neck one-piece playsuit were then shown. her ginger hair was in a slicked-back high ponytail, glittery pumps worn to tie the whole outfit all together. several videos showed melodie reaching up towards the glitterball, the biggest smile ever on her face as she stared at it in complete awe. she couldn't believe that she was a finalist in dancing with the stars 2026.
speaking in the vt for the final time, melodie smiled, "getting to the final of dwts is just incredible. like, since the beginning, i don't recall ever thinking i'd get this far even though i wanted to for the little girl that was taken advantage of simply because she loved ballet. and, it was never because i doubted myself per se or alan but, because i genuinely didn't think that the public would be able to find me likeable. or, really, have any other personality to me other than the fact that my parents are elaine and john saint germaine and my godfather is michael jackson, the king of pop. however, being able to say i'm in the dwts final is truly something i'm always going to be grateful and quite proud of," melodie smiles as she nods her head
alan laughed hysterically as they rehearsed for their viennese. however, the reason why alan was laughing wasn't for the reason you'd think it would be over. melodie had just been surprised by her godfamily, the jacksons. so, the reason why alan was laughing was that melodie was trying to teach her godsister paris her and alan's viennese waltz. however, paris just couldn't get it nor wrap her head around how complicated and intricate it was and why it was so hard! she never remembered any of melodie's old ballet routines being that intricate or that difficult. even though the viennese is quite notoriously very intricate and hard and so much more different to ballet. however, it seemed as if melodie was doing it seamlessly and perfectly, even with paris not quite getting the steps. which is what made alan laugh even more which ended up with paris and melodie laughing as well as everyone else who was watching them.
and this time, it was paris apologising to melodie, not melodie apologising to someone else, "jesus christ, i am so sorry odie, that was so bad!" paris chuckled as the song finished, melodie cackling, her head flying back as she calmed down before responding
"it's okay paris but, you have to admit, that was hilarious!" melodie giggled as she placed her hands on her knees to open her airways enough so she could get her breath back
however, like always, with all of the laughter between the two, they also had time to knuckle down and be serious during their rehearsal time. they didn't want to mess up, not at the final of all places. they couldn't afford to since they had bascially been labelled as "perfect" since the beginning. with the exception, of course, of their argentine tango, there was no way in hell they were going to fuck it up now when it really mattered. after more videos of alan and melodie rehearsing their viennese were shown, so was a voiceover of melodie talking about this dance again. talking about how excited she was in having the opportunity to dance it again in the final.
"the dance alan and i chose as our couple's favourite dance is our viennese waltz. this viennese is by far the most intricate viennese that has ever been choreographed by a professional on this show before. and it just happened to be choreographed by alan for the two of us and it was very stressful when he first pitched it to me. but, honestly, it has genuinely become one of our favourites," melodie smiled as she giggled in the background
"we just hope that we can recreate how it felt when it was seen for the first time all over again. because, dancing it the first time was probably, at the time, the highlight for me and alan on the show. so, i just hope we're able to replicate that feeling one more time on that stage," melodie smiles as the vt ends
as the vt ends, melodie and alan get into their positions and smile at the crowd hyping them up. even though it was mostly their family that could be heard. they then waited for the start of bishop briggs' song water as the dance began.
hitting their final pose, melodie and alan started laughing in joy. incredibly proud that they were able to, once again, replicate what this dance was like for the first time all those weeks ago. but better. running over to alfonso riberio for the judges' comments, the poor host was flabbergasted at how amazing their first dance of the evening was. it was clear that they were wanting to do nothing else but win tonight, melodie and alan.
"...what an amazing viennese and what a joy to see it again, carrie-anne?" alfonso comments before gesturing over to carrie-ann who is smiling brightly
"i know i said this when we first saw this dance but, i'm gonna say it again. that is the most intricate viennese waltz my eyes have ever watched and i feel dizzy in the best way possible *giggles*. for this to be your first dance of the evening and knowing the next two that are coming, i'm bursting with excitement. i was so glad that this was the dance you picked to do again because i have loved this dance since the start and it was a blast watching it all over again! well done and thank you for your wonderful and flawless execution of a viennese two separate times!" carrie-ann cheers as do the audience as melodie and alan chuckle, looking over to derek who is shocked
"i am truly flabbergasted at how amazing that was you two! it was as if we were seeing this for the first time all over again! i mean, melodie, you were so sharp in your movements and so smooth in your lines. you looked so confident and happy and in all honesty, you really should think about returning back to dance because this feels like i'm just watching you come back home after some time away. it looks so easy for you and it truly makes my heart sing that you have taken so much out of this experience and how good you are up against alan. you are not falling behind at all my darling, i cannot wait to see your freestyle and the judges choice!" derek winks as melodie and alan smile, attempting to catch their breath and thanking the former pro now judge as they look over at bruno
"i mean, i am shocked! that was so much fun and entertaining, it as like i was being rained on and i just wanted to join you! as derek said, you would really be amazing returning as a dancer, melodie and i agree that it is something you should heavily consider because you are what we need as dancers in this industry! i also can't wait for your other two dances, well done!" bruno energetically says as melodie and alan laugh as they thank the three judges
alfonso smiled as he turned back to melodie and alan, "amazing comments, not that that isn't new, melodie and alan. however, due to time constraints, we won't have time to talk about them so, over to you julienne so we can get the judges' scores and these two can get ready for their freestyle!" alfonso winks as melodie and alan grab hands and run over to the dwts box to get their first round of judges' scores.
"...the judges' scores are in... carrie-ann inaba..."
"...10!"
"derek hough..."
"...10!"
"bruno tonioli..."
"...10!" bruno smiled as the box filled up with cheers and applause for yet another perfect score for melodie and alan
"congratulations, melodie and alan, yet another pefect score! wish we could speak more but, since you've got to get ready for your freestyle, we have to let you go!" julienne laughs as melodie and alan nod their heads, just as astounded as everyone else as they left to then get ready for their freestyle
in the vt for melodie and alan's freestyle, it was explained that this year, the freestyle would be danced in between the couple's favourite and judges' pick. because the majority of the finalists had their most memorable year/most emotional dances as the judges' pick dance and they decided to show them last.
in the video, small clips of melodie and alan rehearsing the freestyle were shown and it was beautiful. they were freestyling to avril lavigne's head above water. and, just like the first vt, many giggles and silly little mistakes were shown in this vt as well.
the amount of fun that melodie and alan were having whilst rehearsing their freestyle was so much. it was joyus and filled with pure happiness for those watching.
in giggles, melodie attempted to explain her and alan's freestyle, "for our freestyle *giggles* alan and i are dancing to avril lavigne's song head above water. the song is beautiful and the choreo--stop it alan!" melodie squealed as alan scared his celebrity partner as laughter erupted through the dance studio
"can you believe that i still have to deal with this big child?!" melodie squeals, her indianna accent popping out as alan hangs off of melodie's shoulders as he giggles childishly whilst his partner is trying to stay serious
"you love me, odie!" alan tries to win his partner over but, this time, it wasn't working, a death stare being fed back to the professional
"do i, alan?" melodie responded back with a blank face as the cameraman teased the professional who looked truly devastated
"wow, that hurt!" alan sighed as melodie burst out into laughter, hugging the professional
"i'm only joking! of course, i love you alan!" melodie giggled as alan's face went from being sad and hurt to happy again as the two of them started laughing
more clips of the two rehearsing were then shown. then a voiceover of melodie screaming in rehearsals was then shown as laughter followed afterwards.
"--let's hope and pray that the dance gods and my godfather don't let us mess up this freestyle because jesus christ we need this to work!" melodie is then heard saying with giggles as the vt finally wrapped up
melodie and alan were in their positions for their freestyle. only hoping that nothing that could go wrong in the dance was going to go wrong.
and, nothing went wrong. the freestyle was perfectly executed as melodie and alan celebrated. running down from the mountain top, melodie and alan hugged each other in the pure joy that two dances out of three were done to perfection. running over to alfonso for the judges' comments for a second time, the poor host was again flabbergasted at how amazing that dance just was. and how it seemed as though melodie and alan were just soaring with their dances this final. as mentioned before, it was very clear that they were wanting to win tonight.
"what a stunning freestyle, carrie-ann?" alfonso comments before gesturing over to carrie-ann who now really had no clue what to say anymore
"i thought your first dance had me flabbergasted but no, this one just accelerated it! this was a gorgeous freestyle, melodie and alan. your connection was amazing, you were smiling, you were trusting with one another and the way you two were just having pure fun was just amazing to see. it was like i was watching two best friends just having the time of their lives together! i really loved it, truly i did. melodie, your extensions, your legs, and your hands were all spectacular and the lifts and jumps, wow! you two just blow me away every single week, congratulations!" carrie-ann winks as melodie and alan smile, thanking the judge
derek smiled brightly, "this freestyle was marvellous melodie! your lifts were exceptional, your extensions were gorgeous, those jumps made my heart race but oh my gosh you were so effortless, and your smile and pure joy with alan was heartwarming to watch. and i am so glad we got to see it because your smile just lit up the entire stage and it was timeless. and, it's also a moment that i am genuinely never going to forget when this year's show finishes and i hope it's a moment you never forget either. i am so proud of you melodie and i cannot wait for your judges' pick," he smiles as he applauds melodie and alan who thank him, before looking at bruno for his comment
"i'm completely stumped for words! that was so much fun and just radiated pure happiness! like, all i can feel from both of your dances so far is just joy and energy! like, i wanted to get up on the stage and dance with you two! your connection is so strong and your technique is flawless. well done you two, you are on a roll tonight for the final!" bruno winked as melodie felt herself blush as she felt alan hug her tighter as they then turned back to alfonso
alfonso smiles as he turns back to melodie and alan, "amazing comments, yet again you two. however, like last time, we don't have enough time sadly to talk about them. so, go over to julienne with the judges' scores!" alfonso smiles as melodie and alan grab hands and run over to the box to get their second round of judges' scores
"...the judges' scores are in...carrie-ann inaba..."
"...10!"
"derek hough..."
"...10!"
"bruno tonioli..."
"...10!" bruno smiled as the contestants and box all jumped up in cheers and applause for another one of melodie and alan's perfect scores
"congratulations, melodie and alan, another perfect score! literally record-breaking this, i've at this point lost count of how many 30s these two have gotten throughout this competiton," julienne laughs as melodie and alan nod their heads, just as astounded as the first time
once again, the couple were ushered out to get changed into their outfits for the third and final dance, their judges' pick. which was their most memorable contemporary from week three in which melodie dedicated to her deceased godfather, michael jackson. all the other contestants had since performed their third and final dance leaving just melodie and alan to perform their last dance.
and out of nowhere, the show had suddenly gotten way too emotional from all the other most memorable year/judges' picks. however, it seemed as if melodie and alan were about to just make everyone even more emotional with their judges' picks. so, in anticipation of how her family and godfamily were going to react, especially the jacksons and the twins, melodie and alan watched their final ever vt package before their final dance on dwts for 2026.
in this final vt, no one was laughing or messing around because they didn't want to risk fucking up this beautiful and meaningful most memorable year dance. performed back in week three, it was a dance that was actually very emotional and important to melodie but important to alan as well. for the reason being that he was absolutely honoured to get to be the person showing the entire country this new and vulnerable side to melodie that wasn't even shown in week three when the dance was first performed.
a side of melodie that no one had ever seen, not even in the few seconds of a dwts vt package before a dance or since she was eleven. just like in week three, this most memorable year dance was showing the country the losses that melodie went through at eleven when she lost her godfather, michael jackson. a dance in the semi final dedicated to her deceased parents as she opened up about how the loss of her godfather was the final nail in the coffin that solidified just how lonely she now truly was going to be for the rest of her life.
all she wanted for this final dance was to pay tribute to her beautiful godfather, michael. originally, way back in week three when they first created the dance, they were wanting to dance to one of his songs, potentially heal the world but they couldn't get the rights to the song in time so, they used a cover of nick cordero's song live your life. so, for melodie, this was such an important dance for her to be dancing again as her last dance that was standing inbetween her and the mirrorball.
"...this last dance, which is a dance that the judges' have picked, is the most emotional and the most open i have ever been with anyone. we did this dance in week three as it was my most memorable year dance that takes us back to 2009 when i was eleven years old and my godfather, michael jackson, passed away. that year is a year i can barely remember but all i can remember is just how much i craved the one person i was no longer able to be with anymore, my michael..." melodie's voiceover trails off over a video of her doing a dance move from the rehearsals of the contemporary dance
"...even though i was only eleven and i can barely remember my most memorable year, i remember the sinking feeling i felt when it was confirmed that michael had died. i was in the house at the time it happened as were prince, paris and bigi and i just remember running into his room after they had taken him away from the house, slamming the door shut and sliding down the door as i just cried. it was like hell had truly opened up and swallowed me down taking me down with it. i always thought my godfather was invincible, even with the way he was horribly treated, i still thought just like peter pan, he'd live forever..."
"...when michael had noticed the way i was being abused at my ballet academy, he actually begged for me to stop around two months before he died. he begged for me to switch to a different academy where he had actually seen the way the students were being treated and knew that they weren't being abused but i refused. i told him it that i was okay and that it was just some growing pains at the academy but he knew that i was lying and i knew that he knew i was lying. then he made me promise him that i'd leave the old ballet academy and move to that new one so i lied to him and said i would and then he died. it wouldn't be until i was thirteen, that i finally left that ballet academy but then never return to ballet ever again..."
"...the only reason why i left ballet a couple of years after michael's death was because i didn't think there was anything worse than him no longer watching me dance ever again. i did try to go to that new ballet academy he wanted me to enrol in but, it was after i left the old one and was going through panic attacks so there was no way i was able to step into another ballet academy ever again after that. and even though he knew how much pain and trauma ballet put me through, he knew somewhere inside of me there was still that little two-year-old that was so excited to finally start ballet that it didn't matter that i was being treated in that way that that was why i stayed for so long. and it wasn't until after losing michael that i realised just how awful and messed up my thought process was for thinking that..." melodie paused as she took in a shaky breath so she wouldn't cry straight away
"...i definitely supressed a lot of those emotions in regards to the ballet trauma and the trauma of michael dying that i thought if i just ignored it, it would just go away. but it never went away/ it got so bad that at one point, i refused to see any of my ballet friends because even just thinking about them would have me in a panic attack. whilst they understood why i couldn't see them, i know it killed them just as much as it hurt me because they missed me just as i missed them. not seeing my friends from ballet was like hell on earth but it was what saved my life at the end of the day..." melodie's voice faltered before she composed herself quickly and continued
"...and whilst it's mentioned a lot how my trauma affected me, i don't want it to be forgotten at how it affected my family, my twins, hayden and xälia most especially. they also went through hell watching me suffer because of the one thing i loved more than anything else in the world. they had to watch me almost die because of the way i was beat down by my ballet company after they watched me grieve the loss of my godfather as they overworked and underfed me for weeks at a time, sending me home as though nothing was wrong and as though they weren't going to get caught..."
"...the saddest thing about the entire situation is, i was just a little girl that loved to dance and wanted to make it my job. i had dreams as a girl of being a prima ballerina professionally and for as long as my body allowed me to. however that never got to happen and it never will. and it breaks my heart to think that i kept myself in that dangerous environment up until two years after the loss of my godfather. that was when it clicked in my head that my godfather had been right all along, i wasn't in love with ballet this entire time, i was scared of it because it was painful and that was why i promised myself i'd never dance again for as long as i lived. and then, all these years later, i broke that promise..."
"...breaking it because i also knew that if i never tried dance again that i wouldn't ever know real happiness because my godfather knew that even though ballet did hurt and cause pain, not all dance was like that..." melodie sniffled as she covered her face before she gave up trying to be in control, finally starting to cry as the clip ended
a different video of her then started to play where she wasn't crying.
"...getting to perform this dance a second time with my entire family, including my godfamily, watching it live in the audience just feels completely unreal. i mean, i've been so protective over this dance that none of my godfamily have been allowed to watch the original performance of my most memorable year dance. like, when we were watching the episode after it had been broadcast live, i forced them to skip over my dance so they couldn't watch it so they'd be seeing it for the first time live on tuesday. i wanted this dance to be pure for them which sounds so weird but, especially because michael's brothers and kids are seeing this for the first time, i wanted them to be surprised completely. the only people that know this dance are my two sets of twin siblings hayden & xälia and hudson & xëna and it made all four of them cry their eyes out when they saw it live. so, if i got them to cry, i think it may get my godfamily to shed a tear or two as well and honestly, that's my goal," melodie chuckled cheekily in a less emotional clip before more clips of the most memorable year dance rehearsals were shown as was the twins, hayden & xälia and hudson & xëna's initial reactions of the dance
"my most memorable year dance will be dedicated to my godfather michael jackson and my godfamily. whilst michael will never get to watch me dance ever again, my godfamily will be and for that, i'm forever grateful whilst my godfather watches from above. my sweet applehead, you are missed every single day and you are so loved and will always be remembered!" melodie finishes off the vt with a heartfelt dedication to her godfather michael and her godfamily the jacksons
as soon as alan and melodie finished the dance, having already cried since watching the vt, it didn't take that long before the waterworks had started again. a video that had been projected onto the dancefloor of melodie with her godfather michael had been shown that had her collapsing to the ground in sobs. as alan comforted her, the live audience, judges and fellow contestants went teary as they watched the three children of michael rush to the dancefloor to comfort their godsister. it was clear to everyone watching that these were tears that melodie had bottled up for years.
eventually, melodie composed herself and stood back up after being assisted by her godsiblings as they then made their way back to their seats with the rest of the jacksons and saint germaines as melodie and alan found one another again. as much as melodie wanted to, she knew she couldn't rush over to them to give them hugs so she just sufficed in blowing them kisses as her and alan held hands and went over to alfonso for the judges comments.
"that was a gorgeous dance, you two but, before i start crying, which could get very ugly, we'll move straight on to our judges, carrie-ann?" alfonso chuckles as he swiftly brings finger under his eye as carrie-ann smiles sweetly
"oh, melodie, whilst this is our second time seeing this dance, this is what we've been wating for! all we've wanted after so many amazingly precise and perfectly choreographed dances, even seeing this dance in week three, was your vulnerability. and i am so glad you were finally able to show us after being intimidated by it all those weeks ago because watching this exact dance tonight in comparison was so much better. it was so much better because we were able to really understand the song choice behind the dance and the meaning of it for you. which in turn made this weeks version of it a million miles better and that much more gutwrenching when it was paired with that emotional videotape at the beginning to then be followed by it's beautiful dance. thank you for sharing this dance with us for a second time. clearly, there was a reason why we chose it as the judges' pick *giggles*. and i am sure alan's just as thankful for you opening up to him so you two could get this dance to the pure perfection that it was just then. you were utterly stunnning and if this dance isn't what gets you two that mirrorball, well i'll be damned! perfection, you two, perfection!" carrie-ann smiles with a cheeky wink as melodie tearfully giggles, her tears drying as alan consoles her as he sweetly smiles over at carrie-ann before derek spoke up
"i have no idea what to say without getting choked up again but, melodie, that was beautiful. i loved that dance when you first did it back in week three for most memorable year night and i loved it again tonight. that vt mixed with the dance and then that video of you and michael at the end just broke me and i know it did the same to you as it's clear you didn't know alan had done that for you but i'm so glad he did because he knew you needed to be reminded of that moment with your godfather. and it just breaks my heart that he's not here anymore, i think the entire world is but, melodie, you were put through hell losing him as did the rest of his family but you just keep on getting up every day and i'm so honoured that all of us here got to be apart of your family for just a couple of minutes. if this dance isn't the main reason you get that mirrorball i'm going to quit as a judge because you deserve the trophy after all three of your performances but especially this one! i'm so proud of you, melodie and you should be proud too!" derek almost sobbed as melodie's entire body relaxed as she let go of alan's hand and ran over to hug him before running back for bruno's comment
"wow i mean, i don't even know what to say after everything derek just said. all we ever want as judges is to see our celebrities feel comfortable and feel like they can open up to us and i am so glad that you have finally done that. watching you in that vt share all those things that you kept to yourself all these years was the bravest thing i have ever seen a person do. the way you had such control over your body as you danced and just let alan take over as you just effortlessly moved through those steps isn't something easily taught. i am so proud of you melodie and i am so sorry michael wasn't here to see it," bruno smiled softly as melodie smiled as she blew him a kiss as alan also smiled
alfonso smiled as he thanked the judges wordlessly for their comments as he explained that once again, he couldn't have melodie and alan talk about their thoughts on the comments. ushering them over to julienne and the showbox, where they were able to.
julienne smiled as she spoke up, "what an incredibly emotional dance, half of our studio is still recovering *laughter* and frankly so am i! but, before we get to our judges' scores, melodie, you mentioned in your vt that you were also dedicating this dance to your godfamily, the jacksons, can i ask why?" julienne questions as melodie smiles and nods her head
"of course you can julienne, i also dedicated this dance to my godfamily because they were the ones that took me in, not just because my parents asked michael to be my godfather but because they wanted to. they truly loved me and my entire family to the point that they were willing to sacrifice everything to make sure me and the younger twins were in safe happy homes after the loss of our parents. and then after the loss of michael, who was my guardian after my parents died, i was taken in with prince, paris and bigi to their grandmother and just continued to be loved and taken care of until i was old enough to become my own guardian. but even after i left, they never let me truly leave without knowing they'd still be my home if i ever needed a place to fall. i dedicate the rest of my life and dance career to them as well," melodie smiled sweetly as emotional gasps and cheers filled the arena at her last sentence
julienne's eyes widening with joy at hearing melodie say that she'd continue dancing and make it into a career. the camera then zoomed down to the audience and close to the jacksons as their eyes all filled with tears.
"oh, melodie, that is so very kind and sweet of you. now that we are still all recovering here after hearing that, don't lie *laughter*, let's get these judges' scores shall we?" julienne chuckles as do melodie and alan as they hold hands tightly and wait as patiently as they can
"...the judges' scores are in... carrie-ann inaba..."
"...10!"
"derek hough..."
"...10!"
"bruno tonioli..."
"...10!" bruno smiled as the showbox filled with cheers and applause for another perfect score for melodie and alan
"what an amazing score you two, all three of your dances tonight have been perfect scores! which, if you guys were counting, gives melodie and alan a goddamn world record. because, like i said earlier tonight, i have lost count of how many perfect scores they have recieved *laughter*. in all seriousness though, congratulations you two, that dance was perfection and possibly one of the best final dances we've ever seen, if not the best!" julienne spoke in utter shock as melodie and alan just nodded their heads
the both them in shock and still emotional from the dance because, phew, forget about it if you didn't get emotional during that dance!
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after waiting for what felt like years, it had finally come to the moment that was the be-all or end-all for the remaining three contestants left. melodie and alan stood closest to the right of the stage right where her family sat, the other two couples on their left side, which she felt good about because it meant that she was right in the eye-line of her family. and, if she needed them, she could focus her eyes and concentrate on them if she could just bring herself to do it and it would make her feel better. it all just seemed absolutely terrifying for melodie. sure, she had gone through twleve weeks, not including tonight, of dancing with the stars results but, it was still the first time she was on a competition show like this let alone in general.
holding alan's hand in a double lock with her own, she couldn't bear looking up to face anyone. not even her family like she thought she'd be able to do. comforting her as best as he could, alan only wished that he could do all he could to make melodie feel less scared, especially since she had just spent all these weeks so closed off and basically hidden away from everyone to all of a sudden opening herself up. sharing her whole life with the world in a matter of moments during the final, he only wished he could have switched places with the young girl. however, he couldn't take her fear away or her nausea but what he could do was comfort her and take care of her like he's done the last twelve weeks. they painstakingly waited for the final results and to who the hell was lifting this goddamn dwts mirrorball trophy!
and finally, it was time to find out the winner of dancing with the stars 2026, "melodie & alan, ciara & val and maura & mark, the votes have been counted and independently verified. and now we can reveal the dancing with the stars champions are..."
"...melodie and alan!!" alfonso and julienne announce as screams are unleashed from the stage and audience
and poor melodie sinks to the floor as alan falls down with her as they hug each other tightly. alan whispering to her that he knew she'd win from the beginning as they finally stood back up as she still couldn't believe what had just happened.
"also, massive congratulations to our wonderful runners-up, ciara & val and maura & mark, come on over here darlings," julienne says, hollering the other two couples over so melodie and alan could accept their trophy
"melodie and alan, you are our winners, how does it feel?" alfonso questions as melodie basically shuts down and starts laughing as alan watches on fondly with a sweet smile as he tries to calm himself down
"ummm....*laughter* i don't even know! i can't even think!" melodie shyly chuckles, her hands resting against her cheeks alan wraps his arm around her back, pushing her closer to him
gesturing to alan, alfonso smiles, "it feels amazing, i mean, i just got to say the biggest thank you to this sweet, loving, talented young lady that made my whole life's work come true after six years since winning my first mirrorball! this is definitely the most rewarding mirrorball that i've won and i'm so grateful it was with this one right here. you are just extraordinary, melodie, i mean, what a human you are, right? you are just something else and i just love you, i really do so, i just have to also say a huge thank you to your lovely boyfriend for letting me steal you and also having him trust me in taking care of you! she is so understanding, so funny and just the best team player so, i'm glad i got to be the one to have her enjoy dancing again..." alan trailed off before he could get anymore emotional as melodie giggled softly as she had finally thought of something to say
with some encouragement from julienne, melodie finally found the courage to say what the experience had meant to her, "i...i just want to say, you are incredible alan and you always pushed me to be the person i always wanted myself to be. you always had so much belief in me, more than even sometimes i had in myself. i'm sure you already know what an amazing teacher you are but, i just feel like i haven't actually properly expressed to you enough what a great friend you've been to me this entire journey, it was always you that was there for me when my family weren't able to be. and i just can't thank you enough for what you've done these last twelve weeks of my life, like, you're so amazing and i am so grateful i was gifted as having you as my pro and as a best friend. we've gone through so much together and i just want you to know and remember that no matter what happens, no matter where we go in life after this and when we next see each other, i hope you never forget that you have a piece of my heart, alan. and you'll never ever be forgotten as the person who truly gave me back my love and home that is dance and i can't thank you enough for that because it truly means more than you could ever know!" melodie sobbed at the end as alan tearfully giggled as he swept her up into a hug as he quietly thanked her in the hug
the studio audience, judges, hosts and fellow contestants then showered the winners in applause and cheers.
"congratulations..."
"...we did it!"
"yes, you did it! the mirrorball trophy is yours! your dancing with the stars champions 2026...you can lift it up!" after some hesitations as to who was going to pick it up, melodie just went for it and lifted up the trophy whilst alan hugged from behind as sparkles flew and cheers were heard from probably a couple of countries let alone the next couple of counties over because of how loud everyone in the studio was
melodie and alan celebrated as alfonso and julienne finished up the show, closing it out for one final time for the year before the christmas special. after once again, congratulating alan and melodie as the 2026 dancing with the stars champions, michael jackson's bad played in the background. it played as the winning couple danced together for one last final time as the other contestants stormed the stage. however, it truly couldn't have been a winning moment if the two winners weren't lifted up in the air. so, the contestants parted ways to let the jacksons and saint germaine twins through to have the honour in lifting up the winners.
then, when the show finally went off the air, hayden, prince, jaafar and hudson, who had been the four holding up melodie, let their sister to the floor. only for her to be picked right back up again by her boyfriend dakota, who was in the army and surprised her as they celebrated together. the contestants and family then go wild as the couple kissed which made the couple giggle. then, people started to post on their social media about melodie and alan's amazing win after dwts instagram post. melodie then posted her own, posting one last weekly dwts update before announcing in that very same post that she and alan had indeed won the show!
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melodiesaintgermaine photo one, two & three : me and alan hardcore rehearsing for the final of dwts.
photo four : me and dakota recreating our old soft launch photos after his surprise homecoming from the military after the live show final.
photo five : this is what i call my serious dancer face.
photo six : the photo taken of me holding the mirrorball after it was announced we had won!
yes, alan and i are the 2026 dancing with the stars champions! i am beyond happy that a girl that was a former abused ballerina could even win a show like dwts. in time i'll post a more sentimental caption with more sentimental photos but this is all my emotions are allowing me to post right now before i burst out into tears again. i have loved every second of this experience and i am beyond grateful i was able to do it with alan. and i truly think i could live with being a latin & ballroom dancer for the rest of my life 💃
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dancingwiththestars still crying over this monumental win, not going to lie
melodiesaintgermaine dancingwiththestars so am i guys, so am i!
jaafarjackson watching myself cry my eyes out and scream in excitement and joy that whole evening will for sure become a meme at some point if it hasn't already
melodiesaintgermaine jaafarjackson you are such a sweetheart j! i love you
jaafarjackson melodiesaintgermaine i love you too odie!
parisjackson jaafar wasn't the only one crying the whole time, jesus! that's my entire river of tears gone for the rest of this year and maybe the next two!
melodiesaintgermaine parisjackson you say that now, paris...
parisjackson melodiesaintgermaine ssh, come on now odie, don't call me out!
princejackson that moment your name was called out as the winner and seeing your reaction will always make me awe and make my heart go all warm and fuzzy
melodiesaintgermaine princejackson i hope they post a gif of my reaction and then a gif of how you guys in the audience reacted!
princejackson melodiesaintgermaine oh my gosh, they totally should!
officialjermainejackson i'm so proud of you my sweet girl! you definitely made all of us proud and i'm sure applehead is just as proud
melodiesaintgermaine officialjermainejackson thank you jermaine! i love you guys so much!
dakotajackson oh i am so proud of you my love! watching you win that mirrorball was truly everything i could have ever dreamt of!
melodiesaintgermaine dakotajackson i love you, my love!
ryleearnold1 you are a beautiful dancer odie! i love you so much and i'll miss you so much! you and alan so deserved that win, i sobbed the entire time
melodiesaintgermaine ryleearnold1 i love you too ryry, and i'll miss you more! and i saw you sobbing and i was wanting to run and give you a hug so badly but i couldn't get to you!
lindsarnold omg watching you lift that mirrorball was the most wholesome thing ever! i love you odie!
melodiesaintgermaine lindsarnold i love you too linds! i'll miss seeing you every week omg!
alanbersten i am so proud of you odie! you have been the best dance partner ever and i am so proud to call you my best friend! let's put some time in for next week to rehearse for another dance?
melodiesaintgermaine alanbersten i'm so proud of you too alan! i never made it easy for you but you handled it with such sensitivity and grace! we are absolutely dancing again next week, no questions asked!
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this was so much fun to write and turn into a michael jackson fic! like i mentioned in my wattpad version, i genuinely had to get this out and i'm glad i've now turned it into this little one-shot series called 'heal her world'! i really hope i can keep it going and if any moonwalkers have any requests of what they want me to include in this series, let me know!