everything is Amber and nothing hurts. :)

I'll tickle your catastrophe.

[valtsv]

my

is to

and then act like i don’t know

[gay-mychemicalromance-disaster]

thank you, i hate it

[yeennqueenn]

I can…I can HEAR HIM

[amberissmiling]

The teeth at the end are diabolical.

[theconcealedweapon]

[jupitersmusings]

good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

[overlord-fire-bubble]

THIS ONE FUCKING WORKS. REBLOG IT.

[tiny-kt]

this for real fucking works

[scroll-of-thought]

Apparently this one fuckin works, and who am I to argue with the collective agreement of tumblr. Will report back if good things happen.

[amberissmiling]

Who let MAGA on Tumblr?

What have y’all been doing since I was gone?!

[jocy]

[deathtokillian]

As a kid learning about the holocaust, I never understood how people could let Nazis rise to power. But now I’m watching it happen in real time.

[djglory]

God i thank you in advance for the blessing i know you’ll rain down on me this year

[fluttermouse]

Winter Sun & Moon

[btsunyeondan]

he is literally signing away years of progress, soon enough the civil rights acts will probably be gone too

[bloody-foundations-deactivated2]

imagine how much of a fucking horrible person you have to be that on the first day your elected into office the crisis calls of a Suicide Prevention Project Go Up 33%. The Trevor Project Received over 1,400 Call By Early Monday Afternoon. Most of those calls, if not all, are coming from children. Children scared of you and what you will do. Imagine how much power and how horrible you have to be to do that.

[sappharic]

Take care of yourselves everyone 💚🏳️‍🌈

[amberissmiling]

So...I had breast cancer. And it was terrible. And whatever is left is...also terrible.

I did everything I was supposed to. I went to the doctor and got my scans. They found a "suspicious" spot but after an ultrasound I was cleared and worry-free. Eight months later I was diagnosed with Stage 3A Invasive Ductal Carcinoma. I was so angry, but mostly terrified.

Everything about early diagnosis is awful. All of the scans and tests are incredibly painful, which I really didn't expect. The biopsy consisted of me holding a young nurses hand and her crying with me while the doctor basically stabbed a nail through my breast to collect tumor tissue. It hurt so badly. Then, when I had my first MRI, I was lying face down but on a ramp with my breasts hanging down. Unnatural and also, of course, incredibly painful. I was just started to call out and ask them to please stop when Justin Bieber's Stay came on the headphones and I didn't feel all alone anymore.

I knew that I immediately wanted my breasts gone. Both of them, gone. Immediately. It didn't matter that my right breast hadn't betrayed me, my killer left boob had made the decision for both of them. Two weeks after diagnosis I had my double mastectomy. I was so pitiful after that that I even made the nurses cry. I had a male nurse come in and check on me the next day and he told me he'd gone home crying. I must have been awful. Thankfully, I don't remember it. I think most of it was because they wouldn't let my (then) four year old in to see me. I did get to see my two older boys though, thank goodness.

My friends dyed my hair a beautiful pink. I had never dyed my hair before and I was so happy with the outcome. I could have kept that beautiful color forever.

I went straight into chemo. The Red Devil was every two weeks and at one point I remember sitting in my kitchen wondering if I was dying. I think I probably was. I was also bald now. No nose hair, no eyebrows or eyelashes, nothing. I looked like a turtle. But I was too sick to really care. I didn't even mind the Neulasta shot every two weeks.

I moved on into Taxol, and it was actually just as bad for me. During this time I was put into the ICU with pulmonary embolisms in both lungs (MANY), and was on oxygen for months. The night before I was hospitalized I told my middle son I felt like I was being stabbed in the back, but hey. It was just massive blood clots. *sigh*

After chemo I found out that I now have Lymphedema. If you know what Lymphedema is, you know how terrible this is. If you don't, let me just tell you- it's so terrible. When I had my double mastectomy they also removed 39 of my lymph nodes under my left arm and six of them were cancerous. And now the fluid doesn't drain from my arm and gets stuck in my arm and chest and neck and I am miserable. I did treatement and have a pump and wear sleeves and all that, but it is still miserable.

At the end of chemo and beginning of radiation I bought a house. I want you to know I remember none of it. But I love it. :)

I wasn't expecting radiation to be bad but of course it was awful. Nothing about cancer is fun. The burns burned. The skin broke. The pain pained. My stomach did NOT stomach. It was truly terrible.

After that I had a year of injections. And a total hysterectomy. And pills. And bone pain, depression, anxiety, nightmares, hot flashes, and, finally, heart surgery.

It was a hell of a couple of years. And if they'd diagnosed it when I got my first mammogram, I don't think half of it would have happened.

What's happening now, though, is that cancer never really left me. It's always on my mind and in my thoughts. With every pain and ache I'm convinced it's back to get me. I hope that this anxiety and fear eventually leave me.

Please get your scans and check ups when they're due. Take every step you need to take. You want to stick around, even when things look bleak. There's always a better day coming.

[wokefrogvirus]

elon musk did a nazi salute twice at the inauguration, and republicans are defending him.

trump revoked executive order 11246, which prohibited discrimination.

trump put all dei employees on leave to be fired.

trump banned all lgbtq+ flags from being hung in government buildings.

trump rolled back biden’s executive order to lower prescription drug costs for people using medicare and medicaid.

trump rescinded the $35 cap on insulin, and prices are expected to rise to $1500 a month.

trump ordered the national institutes of health to cancel their review panels on cancer research.

when sean hannity asked trump about the economy, he said “i don’t care”, after campaigning with the economy as his main talking point.

trump has withdrawn the us from the world health organization.

trump is ordering health agencies to stop reporting on bird flu and halt publications of scientific reports.

trump has pardoned over 1500 people who stormed the capitol on january 6th.

trump changed mount denali back to mount mckinley.

trump signed an executive order to rename the gulf of mexico to gulf of america.

trump shut down cbp one, an app which granted legal entry to 1 million+ immigrants.

trump is allowing ice raids at churches and elementary schools.

trump announced plans to declare a national emergency at the us-mexico border.

trump signed an executive order to expand the use of the death penalty.

trump disbanded the school safety board that works to prevent school shootings. it was comprised of survivors, educators, and gun violence prevention advocates and formed after the school shooting in parkland.

trump withdrew from the paris climate act.

trump revoked all protections for transgender troops in the us military.

trump rescinded executive orders made by biden that benefited and protected women, lgbtq+ people, black americans, hispanic americans, asian americans, native hawaiians, and pacific islanders.

trump is attempting to make it legal to refuse to hire or fire pregnant women.

multiple state legislators are drafting bills to allow the punishment for abortion to be the death penalty.

trump pardoned 23 individuals convicted under the freedom of access to clinic entrances (FACE) act for their anti-abortion activism, including oftentimes violent protests at abortion clinics.

trump signed an executive order allowing deportation of foreign students who they believe express support for hamas or hezbollah.

trump announced that the us government will from here on out only recognize male and female as sexes. intersex is not legally recognized anymore.

trump refused to swear on the bible during his inauguration.

andy ogles drafted a constitutional amendment to allow trump to be president for a third term.

georgia republican congressman mike collins called for the deportation of new jersey born mariann budde, the bishop who urged trump to “have mercy” on the lgbtq+ community and immigrants during a service at the national cathedral.

amazon revoked protections for lgbtq+ and black employees.

every single republican told us we were overreacting. trump swore he had nothing to do with project 2025 yet continues implementing details outlined in it. not a single person has the right to tell us we’re being dramatic anymore.

hope the possibility of cheaper eggs and gas was worth it.

[jupitersmusings]

good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

[overlord-fire-bubble]

THIS ONE FUCKING WORKS. REBLOG IT.

[tiny-kt]

this for real fucking works

[scroll-of-thought]

Apparently this one fuckin works, and who am I to argue with the collective agreement of tumblr. Will report back if good things happen.

[fuck-u-maga]

There’s a reason these people are fucking stupid and proud of it.

[depsidase]

[theconcealedweapon]