Ok, but can we talk about this with S/U?  And how he doesnât touch anyone?  And how sheâs pretty tactile with her friends but maintains boundaries with him because of his culture, and spends an entire semester in his class (maybe with a ginormous crush on him but she will deny it until the day she dies) and then another semester as his TA (maybe madly in love with him but will clam up about it if asked) and he makes her laugh and that non-smile of his makes her heart flutter and half the time when sheâs around him she canât figure out what to do with her hands, and she thinks heâs smart and interesting and thoughtful, and she deeply, deeply respects him, and he is so goddamn attractive but if he thought those same things wouldnât he at least try to touch her?  Or not hold his hands so stiffly away from her?  But itâs not a big deal, itâs nothing, itâs fine (Gaila, itâs fine stop bringing it up) though sometimes when itâs late and sheâs leaving his apartment after another conversation that somehow lasted until midnight and they definitely havenât run out of things to talk about, sometimes she wonders if that look on his face isnât just nerves, if maybe he isnât just as anxious and timid and curious as she is, but then heâs saying goodnight and she is too.  And they donât touch while handing padds back and forth, and they donât touch when one of them brings the other a mug of tea, and they donât touch while bent over a console together, reviewing a translation, and eventually it seems like the pain that would be finding out heâs not the one eclipses the pain of always wondering, so she makes herself stop wondering about colors, and makes herself stop wondering how his skin would feel, and makes herself stop wondering about that look in his eyes that seems to be there more often than not.  And sometime in there, between her stomach jumping each and every time she sees him and a denial so deep she has herself half convinced he can already see colors, she gets careless, and instead of putting her stylus where it wonât roll off the table, she leaves it right on the edge, or maybe itâs him getting careless, because instead of the way he always watches how her hands move so that he doesnât touch them, he reaches for it seemingly without thought and she does too and - oh.  She doesnât have a word for what color his eyes are, not yet, but theyâre soft and warm and heâs staring right at her and sheâs not breathing and she doesnât think he is, either, and she canât look away from the details of him she can now see, like she could spend a lifetime drinking in the subtle highlights in his hair, the flush thatâs spreading across his cheeks, and sheâs just looking and looking and looking, and then sheâs not anymore because theyâre kissing, and she always thought when she could finally see colors, thatâs all she would want to do but this⊠She happily closes her eyes and doesnât open them again for a long time.