PURE LUCID EVIL !

i'd sleep all right with that on top of me.

[ambitiouslyher]

ambitiouslyher … sideblog for nina liu, a crime-based original character. following from spira1staircase.

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[spiritmarking]

He wonders what their end goal is. That isn’t the purpose of a relationship, some end check to meet, not like in the traditional sense — surely there’s marriage, maybe kids, eternal rest at each other’s sides — but he and Nina feel different, like they’re forever hurtling toward something. Their orbit is a pull unlike anything he’s ever felt. She’ll kill him, surely, some day when she grows tired of him.

Maybe he’ll let her when he’s finally too tired.

He’d been on a chase, gunning down one of his frequent marks who’d slipped out of his grasp on more than one occasion, pressing at his stubbornness. He could have let it go, but Jason is a man of ego, unable to allow mobsters to think they can get treat him like an idiot bred on nepotism. (I died once. I’m not afraid of anything, he said, pistol whipping the man’s cheek into the back of his throat.)

Blows came to him carrying a gash down his side, wrought by magic a fifty year old Italian shouldn’t have access too, gone just as he tore his eyes away from the rivulet of blood darkening the top half of his suit. Jason watches her collect herself into something almost casual now. Domestic. Like this is a thing they do, instead of fight and share razor sharp intimacy that leaves him breathless. If he bleeds out on this couch, he’ll have a spot in her life long after she’s decided she’s done with him.

“Thought you like problem solving,” he says, except that’s not entirely true, given that he’s still here. “Couldn’t resist giving you something to hold over my head,” he shrugs and it stings, but not as badly as he’s known. Jason looks at his hands, peels off his gloves, and takes notice of the clammy pale skin. His fingers shake softly from the blood loss — he could make it work, but if he’s offering.

“It’s been awhile?” he nods at the antiseptic and all manners of cleaning implementation. “I guess I shouldn’t be surprised you’ve done this before. You’re just so…” untouchable.

[ambitiouslyher]

she reaches for her phone and taps out a quick text to the guards to contact one of the on-call doctors. she'll stitch the wound shut, but she has no formal medical training otherwise to know whether he would need further care asides from rest and fluids.

kneeling on the floor against the couch for a better angle, nina starts clearing the skin around the gash, disinfecting. her gaze briefly flits upwards, expectant, curious how he would end that sentence. but, he trails and their eyes meet.

"it would be foolish not to learn such necessities in this line of work." she disinfects the curved needle and threads it. poised to flesh, there's a pause as she makes sure it's where it needs to be to bring the skin together and hold it shut. the thread is medical grade of course, but doing a sloppy job would be an embarrassment even if it really has been a while. but, she's sure if she's messing up, he won't hesitate to instruct her.

she doesn't have any alcohol to carry him through the pain and even if she had, she might tell him to bite down on his gloves instead, since she's first and foremost, a bitch.

"the only thing i've had to stitch recently was a broken zipper. maybe -- it's not too different." and, this time when she looks up at him, she grins before piercing the needle through.

[ambitiouslyher]

ninacore

[ambitiouslyher]

from: continued.

there are a variety of things she could do differently. she could have had her guards meet him in the driveway before he even managed to park his bike. she could have had them drag him in and toss him on the rug that was far more replaceable than the vintage couch she bought at an auction in italy. she could have called one of her on-call physicians to come and tend to him. but, nina doesn't do any of those things.

she's here, nearly toppling over next to @spiritmarking when she finally gets him seated on her couch. it's unbecoming, but she's always made jason her own personal problem, just as much as he makes it a point to keep that special space in her life.

pushing her hair back, she reaches for her claw clip on the coffee table, sweeping her long black hair together as she darts to the bathroom for towels and supplies. from there, nina carries on the conversation; "so, i can watch you fumble around and make it worse? as entertaining as that sounds--" she returns with towels that she lays down on the cushions, pushing him forward so she could drape a couple behind him before allowing him to settle back once more.

"--i would prefer spectating somewhere that isn't my private home." one of them, at least.

brandishing fabric scissors, nina unceremoniously cuts up the middle of his shirt as soon as they get his jacket off his shoulders and tossed somewhere behind the couch. "you coming here..." she mutters as she assesses his injuries. stitches she could do, but if there's anything worse internally ... maybe she would have to make a call. "was business in the neighborhood, or --? have you finally lost all sense of self-preservation?" there's no real threat there. he likely knows by now that if she really wanted to get rid of him, she'd want there to be a challenge involved. not him weakened and basically placed at her mercy.

"here--" she lays the first aid kit, complete with what would be needed for stitches, too, on his lap. "guide me. it has been a while."

[shoujo-dreamland]

[littlegirlinvisible]

BAREFOOT IN THE PARK (1967) dir. Gene Saks “Paul, tell me you’re not sorry we got married.” “After 40 minutes? Let’s give it a couple of hours first.”

[wardengrill]

He's grown greedier over the years. Before he only wanted my money; now he wants my love as well. Well, he came to the wrong house - and he came twice. I shall see that he does not come a third time.

[ironmaidenhead]

IT'S LOVE I'M AFTER (1937) — Dir. Archie Mayo

[ambitiouslyher]

🪰 ( jason )

from: meme / @spiritmarking ! context: nina trying to reassure her 'date' not to worry about the guy staring them down from across the room. she doesn't realize that jason has made it within earshot. or ... maybe she does.

irritation pulls at her lips, a faint twitch that threatens to pull her entire cool demeanor apart. pressing her tongue to the roof of her mouth, nina turns and tilts her chin up, gaze connecting with her date's. her lips pull taut, a brittle vermillion stretch.

"everyone is staring at us. why wouldn't they be?" but, he insists it's not just anyone. it's some intimidating figure that he's sure hasn't taken his eyes off of them since they've entered half an hour ago. which to his credit, he even noticed at all. she would be more upset that he was intimidated, but she's sure the wide expanse of jason's frame and the mean set of his brows are enough to make anyone doubt themselves and their skill in thwarting a man that size. besides, it's not like her date is one of her bodyguards (whom she's employed before) or another figure in the underworld. he's the new face of dolce and gabbana's perfume line. not nina's first choice, but she knows how to cooperate when it's good for business.

by the time she deigns to peer into his direction, he's gone.

"if i tell you who he is, will you forget about it?" it takes effort to be polite. she can't even tell who she's more irritated by at this point.

"he's a stalker, plain and simple. --don't look so afraid. he's more bark than bite. he likes to watch. likes to watch me with a pretty boy like you on my arm and get himself all worked up. he won't think of harming a single hair on that head--" she reaches up, smoothing her palm over a side of gelled hair. orchestrated affection. "because if he does, then the game is over and i pull the plug. he's only here because i let him be here. it's for the love of the game." nina pats his arm in faux reassurance. really, she'd rather be wringing his neck.

"so, don't hesitate to play up the part." she gestures between the both of them. "he likes a good show."

[ambitiouslyher]

a list of my ocs/canons who are a part of nina's main canon and their roles:

iselda clover: in iselda's detective au, she frequently comes across cases that have links to nina, whether it's someone she's been seen associating with, something to do with her company, etc. i haven't decided in canon when nina is actually investigated for criminal activity, but its inevitable and it will happen. iselda will be on that case. this relationship needs the most work for me to build but i've always thought of them as the antitheses of each other.

genoise charlotte: in genoise's modern verse, she's part of the big mom crime family. she deviates from the family much like nina and attempts to sell her information on the family to earn an extra cushion of money. while nina can appreciate genoise's motives, she also refused to go into business that way, knowing she was unprepared to face that family head on should it backfire (and it would have). instead she hires genoise to work for her company, which genoise later leaves to pursue journalism/writing. they remain in contact and are friends.

ieiri shoko & samira mohan: i added them together because they function in the same category. shoko has been working for nina longer and serves as one of nina's private physicians when overseas in japan and in a pinch, is one of her emergency surgeons. samira works in a similar capacity, but isn't a private physician for nina specifically. her role is mostly emergency medicine + surgery, and she's whisked away a lot more often than shoko. nina's relationship with both is pretty cut and dry professional, save for nina meddling with samira's fashion choices and gifting shoko with extravagant vacations and gifts because she simply likes her and she's a good doctor. she doesn't care about shoko's subpar bedside manner.

ferris caine: a member of the caine crime family, but the caine's and nina's organization are on friendly terms. there is some level of trust between them, but of course, not entirely. they are similar in the sense that they have legitimate businesses they operate, fully functioning and all. they often employ one another's legitimate services while not employing one another's illegal activities. they, for the most part, keep those separate to keep up their friendly terms. ferris and nina are casual friends, though she speaks more with his sisters than him. but, they do bond over their mutual interest in cars.

[ambitiouslyher]

My favorite of your characters? I have to go with Nina. :’) I love women who are unapologetically awful lol, unapologetically ambitious, women who will not tone themselves down and who have no problem stepping over you to get where they want. She is, of course, also how we met, and her relationship with Jason is one of the first times I experienced another muse so seamlessly fitting themselves into my own’s history. We’ve talked about it before, but we created something truly special with them.

tell me who your favorite muse of mine is

PUTTING THIS ON MY WALL. no but your support + the world we have created for them is something that is so close to my heart. you make me feel seen when i’m yapping away about her and her story even when it’s not directly linked to jason, and when it is, taking the time to see how we can further weave their story together even after years of writing them. they are truly top 3 ships of all time to me in all their phases. and of course, while i have you on the line, my favorite muse of yours is so … so many… i know i have said it 100 times before and if it’s not enough (bc it isn’t), i will say it 100 more times but i really love how you build characters. you make them so real and grounded and just the WAY you write at all and tell a story, i immensely enjoy reading the words you put to paper (figuratively). anyways, i will be naming DRUCILLA, THE WOMAN OF ALL TIME, she is a mess and i love her!! TALISSA BECAUSE I LOVE SPOOKY WOMEN! and not only bc i’m on this blog and bc of our ship, but i LOVE your jason. you know this, but he’s the jason of all time to me. you own the rights, idk abt anyone else shrug.emoji

[ambitiouslyher]

i was catching up with an old writing partner that i've recently reconnected with and we were talking about how her muse has a "fundamental goodness" about her that is important to her self identity, even if her character is largely (against hero muses) the antagonist because she kills versus not doing it. and you know, cause nuance exists and there are very few characters who are just Evil and just Good.

anyways, it got me thinking about nina and where i'd put her on the spectrum of evil to good and whether i'd also say she has fundamental goodness that is important to her personal identity. i think there is a goodness that does exist, but i think foremost, it has to be understood that she has a fundamental badness to her that is important to her self identity.

i think i touched on it in the previous headcanons recently, about what motivates her to kill and not to kill. killing isn't the only thing that sets the baseline for goodness and badness, but it's a good baseline to consider as it poses an extreme and the reasons for not taking a human life and the reasons you would.

and i think that's something people realize about her when they get closer and that's what ultimately makes it difficult for them to connect to her on a deeper level.

she isn't incapable though of deep connection, but it's something those who get close enough will have to reconcile and accept. and it's really not for everyone.

[ambitiouslyher]

i reblogged this gifset a few days ago and it's really made me think. because at least i'm sure in her mainverse, nina doesn't really derive enjoyment from killing people. i think she can enjoy it and find pleasure in killing a certain person, but i don't think she generally enjoys doing it. but, she also does not feel an ounce of remorse over it either. the whole "but they have their own family" or any other emotional reason there could be not to kill someone is something that rarely moves her. and i only say "rarely" because i don't want to talk in absolutes yet about that.

i think she would keep people alive/saving them based on personal reasoning rather than any good morals or feeling bad for if something happened to them.

and, i also think that she likes winning and sometimes winning means killing someone. at least, that's how her brain solves something. i win if i kill you. i win if i hurt you. i win if i etc.

but yeah, i think that nina looks at killing as a part of her job, something that has to be done, occupational hazard, etc.

interestingly enough as well, she doesn't want to die, and she would fight like hell to preserve her life. but, she would never beg for it. she gets killed then she gets killed. she would be angry right before it. there would be so much rage in her in her final moments because theoretically, nina wouldn't die of old age. unless she does.

but if it were being killed by someone, it would mean being bested and it would mean not being able to further the work she has passion for. she would want to make sure puts a mark on the world, an unforgettable one before she is taken away from it.

[crowttore]

Getting your face cradled by hands that kill>>>>>

[the-bar-sinister]

[itberice]

Person of Interest 2.01 I "I think you've got me wrong, Harold."

[mirrorsinner]

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[sidneysheldon]

Sidney Sheldon, “The Sands of Time”