Becoming Ambs.

meeting myself in my 30s 🩷💜 pinterest: @borealisbarbie

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I am once again begging people to realize that AI checker doesn’t work. it’s never worked. it’s notoriously known to have flagged human-made works as AI and AI-generated works as human-made. and by feeding it people’s works, you are feeding more works to AI, because apparently the machine itself is AI.

the only thing AI checker does is harm genuine artists and people in general too.

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in 2026 DO NOT ask yourself whether your art is GOOD

instead ask:

is it SINCERE

was it CATHARTIC

was it FUN TO MAKE

is it MADE BY ME

and don't forget to stay silly

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if people knew what I put in my dumpling sauce I would be drawn and quartered but by god she is tasty and perfect for a sick day like today 🙂‍↕️

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day six.

ugh. I hate chemo days, and I hate this stupid pump I have to wear for the next 2 days. and to top it all off I got a flat tire so I had to be at the mechanics for like 3 hours right after chemo instead of getting to go home and sleep. i'm so hungry and nauseous and my legs are all weak and tingly again and I just hate all of this so much, and I still have 5 more rounds to go.

today's photo is the screw that ruined my entire day. fuck you, screw.

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morning walk, march 24th

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day five.

finally managed to sleep through the night!!! woke up at a very reasonable 6am, and instead of doomscrolling or trying to squeeze in another hour of sleep i got up and made breakfast for my family. annoyingly, it worked just like i knew it would and everyone had a pleasant, smooth morning. crazy what sausage and a bagel will do for one's morale...

made the very foolish decision to go to the thrift early this morning, thinking naively that I would miss the masses. oh how wrong I was. spent an hour fistfighting grannies and sweaty men for some dresses 😭 I had some good finds though, specifically a couple pictures frames and a nice watercolor for my room makeover. after I got out of there I dropped of a bag of old clothes for donation, and then had to go to Kroger for some chemo friendly lunches and to pick up a couple prescriptions, nothing exciting and I was a little miffed because running errands takes away from my bedroom project, which I really want to throw myself into.

it's for the best though, I would feel even worse if I got deep into it and then had to stop because of chemo. it's better to just keep room work to my non-chemo weeks and just plan my days accordingly.

after I got home most of my day was just focused on chemo preparation- laundry, resetting my side table so I have all my chemo stuff within reach, prepping meals, etc. I'm very worried about losing my momentum over the next week, but im going to do my best to keep things going, even if it's slower than I would personally prefer. some progress is better then no progress, and no progress is better then regression.

today's photos, a painting and two dress clasps i thrifted as a mother's day gift!

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look at this stunning angel!!!!!!

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someone dmed me asking for a more in depth breakdown of my pinterest set up, so here it is in video form! I'm still not 100% set on what it looks like right now, but for now this is the layout. my aim for my pinterest is to have it function as a moodboard/vision board/personal database hybrid, while also configuring it to give me the least amount of AI possible, and I think I've been successful thus far!

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morning walk, march 23rd

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day four.

part of working on yourself is starting to notice just how everyone around you might also need to work on themselves, I'm realizing... had a whole encounter with my mother about the dinner gathering we went to tonight, about how she didn't want to go, and she was upset because I said I did want to go, when normally I would say no and then she would have a reason to also say no. we went, and it was fine, everyone liked the salad I made and she said afterwards she had a good time, like I pointed out that she always did when we went to these kind of things, but I don't know. I don't want to be an excuse to skip out on socializing, and I definitely don't like that I'm associated with rejecting invites.

so by working on myself, now i have to kind of drag her along and work on her too, I guess. parenting your parents never stops, I suppose, I just wish it wasn't so damn stressful and constant.

but beyond the horrors of family time, I had a decent day. not super productive, given the dinner, but I got a few things I wanted done, and that's enough for me. especially since the biggest thing was getting a start on revamping my wardrobe, starting with sorting out my closet. I have a bag of donation stuff already, and much more room in my closet to work with! I also sat down and put my room redesign plan onto paper finally, instead of letting it exist as a bedtime hallucination lol! so now I have a physical plan to look to when I'm thrifting, or not sure what to do next, or forget halfway through what I had planned, which happens a lot more than I'm proud to admit...

tomorrow is another errand heavy day, and I'm also adding another component to my morning routine- breakfast for my family. my mom and sister leave for work at the same time, around 7am, and they're a circus so i'm always awake too, and my normal routine is to just lay in bed on my phone trying to fall back asleep for a little longer. which obviously never works and usually locks me into a 4 hour doomscroll. so instead I'm embracing my unwilling wake time and living my best Betty Crocker life by sending them off with home-cooked breakfast and coffee! do they deserve my housewife energy? perhaps not. but no one else is lining up so too bad!

today's photo, a lantana growing out of my neighbor's palm tree!

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Yesterday I noticed these snowdrops in our garden & it's my first time ever in my life seeing snowdrops!

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life update,

i know this might be very small for some of you. but, i went to the gym lord i was procrastinating on this since september 2025 cause i wanted my friend to come with me but she kept delaying it again and again. so i finally went today alone.

this is a reminder don’t wait for others to live you life that’s it byee. love yall

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current pinterest set up

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springcore

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morning walk, march 22nd

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day three.

it's supposed to take 7 days to form a habit, right? so that means I am halfway to solidifying this routine! I was worried about today since it's the weekend and I tend to give up entirely on the weekend, but I didn't even feel the urge to. got up at the same time (3am, and then 7:30am 🙄) filled in the morning portion of my gratitude journal/planner, and made my tea and breakfast (shocker, cheesy eggs), and went on my walk as usual. it was a little cooler today then it has been all week so I walked a little longer, then I went home and checked my phone for the first time. I'm not super popular so there wasn't much to check lol! after that I put down the phone and grabbed one of the magazines I picked up yesterday, and actually really flipped through, read the articles I was interested in, and even jotted down a recipe in my everything notebook to try later- which i ended up doing later in the day!

we had a lot of out of the house things to do today so not much housework got done besides maintaining everything I'd done during the week. first we had brunch with my sister's dad, which was weird but fine, then we went shopping for salad ingredients, did some thrifting, and hit the mall to use up some bath and body works coupons.

I forgot to bring my camera thrifting unfortunately, but I really like the pieces I found! I'm going to be doing a mega cleanse and revamp of my wardrobe next week ( in theory, it's a chemo week so energy will be in the negatives, but I'll have my sister to help do the physical stuff, I just have to decide to toss, keep, or donate. we shall see) and I'm trying to focus on things that are comfy and fit well with my various medical apparatus, but also fit my style. I really want to steer away from the sweatpants and graphic tee of it all, you know?

I could have called it a night after getting home from the mall, but I really wanted to make this salad for the fish fry we're going to tomorrow, so i threw that together, it was super simple but a ton of chopping lol, and I might have to double the dressing if it's not flavorful enough after sitting and absorbing all night, but I'm really happy with the results! it's just a spring veggie salad, and the dressing is so basic, but it's exactly what I've been craving but incapable of eating thanks to my stoma. avoiding fiber has been killer but we ball regardless!

tomorrow nothing is on the schedule besides the fish fry dinner, so I'm just gonna kind of freeball it and see what happens, depending on how I feel after my morning routine. at the very least I need to reset my chemo bag, and wash my chemo week clothes or I'll just be miserable, more so than usual. in a perfect world I'll also get my laundry done, that way it's all ready to sort through.

right now I'm working my cleaning/driving/cooking playlist, and I still have my brain games to do and either a nice low contrast movie to settle down with, or maybe some Bob's burgers if nothing sounds good. though now that I sit with it, the idea of staying up the length of an entire movie sounds so difficult, so maybe instead I'll just do the Bob's episodes... I've seen that show enough times that I won't feel bad if I turn it off halfway through lol!

today's photos, spring veggie salad and brunch matcha and lemonade!