am i dave yet

better banner coming soon bisexual and fucking awesome no pronouns

[amidaveyet]

whats up

this blog was inspired the main man @amijohndaveyet and also some others like @becomingjadedavekat @amidirkyet (loser) and is adjacent to my bro @amipilotdaveyet

other amiyet blogs(jesus fucking christ theres so many of you guys now):

@amilamaspheneyet @amiroxyyet (congrats on accomplishing the goal rox) @amililhalyet @amidavepetayet @amikanayayet @days-of-aradia @amigreenvriskayet @amifefetaspriteyet @amijasproseyet @amicalliopeyet @amidavespriteyet @amidavejakeyet @amijuneyet @amigirlzeeyet @amimeulinyet @iamyellowvriska the fallen: @amijohnyet @amitavrosyet-blog @amirufiohyet @amicronusyet-blog @amiequiusyet-blog @amidamaramegidoyet @amigamzeeyet

name explains itself ill probably add what my tags mean later also ignore how it took me a week to make a pinned post

[unbecomingkarkat]

DAY 100

I'M STILL KARKAT, BUT I THINK I'VE MADE A LOT OF PROGRESS IN *NOT* BEING KARKAT SINCE I STARTED THIS BLOG.

I'M A LOT CALMER THESE DAYS, I DRAW (SHITTILY), I CAN ACTUALLY SOMETIMES AVOID SWEARING AND GOING ON LONG RANTS WHEN IT USED TO BE AND MOSTLY STILL IS SECOND NATURE TO ME, AND ALSO I HAVE A SLIGHT OBSESSION WITH EARTH CRABS. THAT'S WHAT I CALL PRETTY FUCKING GOOD PROGRESS!

I WAS GOING TO TRY TO BECOME ONE OF MY OLDEST SUGGESTIONS ON THIS DAY, BUT THAT'LL HAVE TO WAIT BECAUSE RIGHT NOW TIME PLOT SHIT IS PREVENTING THAT, BECAUSE TECHNICALLY SPEAKING I'M STILL AT PIPE'S PLACE AND THIS POST IS IN THE FUTURE.

^ I MEAN WHAT? THAT SENTENCE MEANS NOTHING TO ME. IT'S NOTHING. IT'S STUPID. IT'S NONSENSICAL BULLSHIT FOR IDIOT GRUBS AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT COMPELLED ME TO SAY IT. IGNORE THAT.

ANYWAY, MOST OF WHAT I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE SAID ON THIS POST HAS ALREADY BEEN BLURTED OUT ELSEWHERE (<- CLICKABLE TEXT), BUT I'LL SAY PART OF IT AGAIN: THANKS. AS A MATTER OF FACT, I'M GONNA LIST A FEW OF THE PEOPLE THAT WERE HERE IN THE EARLY DAYS OF THE BLOG AND THANK THEM INDIVIDUALLY.

THANKS BECOMINGJADEDAVEKAT, FOR BEING THE FIRST TO FIND THE BLOG AND THE FIRST TO GIVE ME A SUGGESTION OF WHO TO TRY BECOMING, AND FOR MAKING THE DISCORD SERVER MANY OF US HANG OUT AND GAMBLE IN NOW. ALSO, I NEVER ACTUALLY FINISHED THAT PSYCHOANALYSIS OF YOU, SORRY.

THANKS AMIDAVEYET? FOR PISSING ME OFF I GUESS??? NO BUT ACTUALLY, THANKS FOR INTERACTING A LOT. I PROBABLY WOULD'VE HAD TROUBLE ADMITTING THIS A WHILE AGO BUT IN HINDSIGHT I THINK OUR EARLY INTERACTIONS WERE PRETTY FUNNY. A VERY INSINCERE FUCK YOU FOR THAT. IN A NOT-ASSHOLE WAY.

THANKS IAMYELLOWVRISKA, FOR MAKING ME YELLOW AND ALMOST KILLING ME. THAT MIGHT SOUND WEIRD, BUT YOU DID ACTUALLY HELP ME BE A LITTLE LESS KARKAT. I THINK THAT WHOLE EXPERIENCE FLIPPED A SWITCH IN MY BRAIN OR SOMETHING.

THANKS UNBECOMINGJOHNEGBERT, FOR PRETTY MUCH SOLIDIFYING "UNBECOMING" AS A CATEGORY OF AMIYETS. AND ALSO WHATEVER THE WHOLE TRICKSTER MODE THING WAS? THAT WAS SOMETHING.

AND OBVIOUSLY THANKS AMIJOHNDAVEYET, BECAUSE NONE OF THIS WOULD HAVE HAPPENED IF YOU HAD GIVEN UP ON YOUR GOAL EARLIER LIKE THE REST OF THE AMIYET GENERATION YOU WERE FROM.

THESE AREN'T THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT MADE AN IMPACT OBVIOUSLY, BUT I DON'T WANT TO MAKE THIS POST TOO OBNOXIOUSLY LONG.

MAYBE THIS IS A LITTLE EXAGGERATEDLY SAPPY FOR THIS KIND OF POST? I FEEL LIKE MAYBE I SHOULD'VE WAITED FOR THIS BLOG TO REACH 1 YEAR OR SOMETHING TO DO THIS. BUT OH WELL, I'M MAKING THE POST NOW ANYWAY, SO WHATEVER.

AND, AGAIN, I'VE ALREADY SAID IT ELSEWHERE, BUT I LITERALLY WOULD NOT EXIST IF IT WERE NOT FOR THIS BLOG BEING MADE. SO, THE AMIYET COMMUNITY IS RESPONSIBLE FOR ME EXISTING. YOU COULD EVEN SAY THE COMMUNITY HAD A BABY AND THE BABY IS ME. TERRIBLE REFERENCE NEVERMIND SORRY.

I'M OBVIOUSLY STILL GONNA KEEP TRYING TO UNBECOME KARKAT, THIS IS JUST A VERY LENGTHY THANK YOU POST FOR BEING AROUND LONG ENOUGH FOR ME TO GET THIS FAR. IT GIVES ME HOPE THAT MAYBE ONE DAY I'LL ACTUALLY ACHIEVE THE GOAL.

TL;DR I'M A FUCKING CORNBALL AND THIS IS DAY 100, THANKS EVERYONE.

(:B

[amidavespriteyet]

(blink motherfucker.)

Part 1

[unbecomingdirkstrider]

(a flash of memories...)

(Day 25: Still Dirk.)

[amidavespriteyet]

(as the storm rages on, somewhere else ...)

(... a confrontation.)

(day 76: not yet.)

[amipipefan413yet]

Day 8: Not yet. John has yet to wake up.

[unbecomingdirkstrider]

[amidavespriteyet]

day 72: not yet

[amipipefan413yet]

Day 8: Not yet. John has yet to wake up.

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

(john stirs...)

(he reaches for his glasses on his nightstand, not realizing they are still on his face.)

[amipipefan413yet]

!

(Pipe leans back and clears his throat.)

You're already wearing your glasses, John. How are you feeling?

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

. . . .

(john stares at the blurry figure in front of him, his eyes unable to keep focus with how little energy he had. but right as his brain woke and processed the information, the color left his face and all of a sudden his lack of energy disappeared, and he scrambled out of bed, backing himself to his bathroom door.)

[amipipefan413yet]

(That definitely wasn't good! Pipe, startled, stood up quickly. His Tamagotchi bounced against his leg. He held his hands out in front of him.)

Whoa, hey, it's okay! Calm down, you're going to stress your body out even more. I'm here to help.

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

(fast movements clearly didnt help, backing john further and further to the door, before he eventually broke, scurrying into the bathroom and closing the door with a slam.)

(just before pipe could reach the handle, it was crushed by an unnatural amount of air pressure around it. clearly, he wasn't coming out anytime soon.)

[amipipefan413yet]

Oh, hell.

(Pipe rushed to the door, stopping short of slamming into it.)

John. It's okay! I'm not here to hurt you! Calm down before you hurt yourself!

(He reaches for the handle before realizing John had destroyed it.)

You have got to be kidding me. I'll give you a minute to settle yourself but then I'm getting this door open. You still need to rest!

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

(john stared at the door, scrambling around in his mirror cabinet, trying to find his escitalopram so he could actually breathe again.)

(he just saw his dad, in his mind he did. and for some reason he was terrified of him. was he dead? was he successful in his mission? he couldn't even open the bottle in his panic, which believe it or not, may be for the best.)

[amipipefan413yet]

(Pipe waits for a minute, but startles again when he hears what sounds like pill bottles falling. Thinking the worst, he racks his brain for a solution. If he tries to break the door down, it'll only freak John out worse. He's lost in thought for a second when he's interrupted by a beep from his Tamagotchi.)

Oh, jeez, sorry little guy...

(He goes to grab for it when he sees his multitool hanging on his keys. A prepared father always has a good multitool... right? He eyes the foldable screwdriver and smiles. Time to very quietly get to work.)

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

(eventually, he did get the bottle open, scrambling too fast to get his dosage. because of his terrified speed, he drops the open bottle on the ground, spilling the pills everywhere, and thankfully, prolonging the time that pipe had to break in.)

[amipipefan413yet]

(Pipe has successfully unscrewed the top hinge of the door. He leaves it in and works on the next one; if he takes them out one by one it'll tip John off.)

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

(because of the spill mainly across the floor, he gave up trying to take his medication, huddling into a corner in the bathroom to panic and hope his "dad" wouldnt come in.)

[unbecomingkarkat]

(I'M COPY PASTING MY RESPONSE TO THIS INSTEAD WITH MINOR EDITS TO KEEP UP WITH THIS CHAIN. THANKS FOR LINKING ME HERE. FIRST INTERACTION FROM ME RELATING TO THESE EVENTS WAS IN THIS POST.)

..JOHN.

IF YOU CAN'T TELL US WHAT'S WRONG THEN WE CAN'T KNOW HOW TO HELP YOU.

IN CASE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON, YOU JUST WOKE UP. YOU'VE BEEN DOWN FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS.

SO IF YOU NEED ANYTHING OR JUST NEED A MINUTE ALONE I CAN WAIT FOR YOU TO BE ABLE TO SAY WHATEVER IT IS. I'M GUESSING THIS GUY CAN TOO? NOT SPEAKING FOR HIM BUT PROBABLY.

[amipipefan413yet]

(Holding screws in his mouth, Pipe shakes his head as he unscrews the last hinge. He stoops down to grip the bottom of the door and pull it towards him so it hopefully will fall outwards and not in.)

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

(john flinches as the door is pulled off its hinges, freezing even more. he's practically a statue staring at the doorway.)

[amipipefan413yet]

(Pipe sees the pills scattered across the floor and his gaze softens. He knows what they are, vaguely. Or he thinks he does. He gently slides the door against the wall and leans into the bathroom to grab the bottle from where it had fallen. There appears to still be one left.)

Here.

(He leans in a bit more and sets it upright on the tiled floor before pulling back. He's already frightened John enough.)

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

(staring directly at him, now that he had a chance to sit instead of frantically escaping, finally could process he 1. wasn't dead, and 2. wasn't in danger.)

(hesitantly reaching forward, he grabs the bottle and takes the last pill, keeping his knees to his chest in the corner.)

[amipipefan413yet]

I didn't mean to scare you.

(Pipe stays where he is and looks up to Karkat. He knew John better.)

What do you think?

@unbecomingkarkat

((hope it's okay to pull you back!))

[unbecomingkarkat]

(OOC, YEAH IT'S FINE. I THINK I'M LOSING TRACK OF THE CHAIN SO IT'S APPRECIATED.)

...

{ACTION: LOOKING BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN JOHN AND PIPE.}

MAYBE HE'S... LIKE...

{WEIRDLY GESTURING. UNSURE HOW TO WORD IT. HESITATING TO SAY THE EXACT WORDS.}

SIGH.

PIPE, DON'T START FEELING GUILTY, BUT MAYBE HE FLIPPED OUT BECAUSE YOU LOOK LIKE... UH... YOU KNOW?

JOHN, HE'S NOT... WELL, NOT YET, I MEAN... HE'S AN AMIYET LIKE US. HE'S NOT THAT GUY YET.

{^ ALREADY REGRETTING SAYING ANYTHING AND YOU CAN SEE IT ON HIS FACE.}

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

(... he doesnt say anything, but nods very slightly, understanding, but unable to calm himself down.)

[unbecomingkarkat]

...AGAIN, IF YOU NEED-

{THERE WAS A KNOCK AT THE DOOR. (BRINGING THIS UP SO DSYET'S REBLOG DOESN'T GET IGNORED.)}

WH

I. I THINK SOMEBODY'S OUTSIDE THE HOUSE.

JOHN, ARE YOU FINE WITH IT IF I GO LET THEM IN? CASEY'S WAITING OUTSIDE THE ROOM TOO, I COULD LET HER IN AS WELL.

IT'S FINE IF NOT, THEY CAN WAIT. JUST YES OR NO WORKS.

[amipipefan413yet]

(Pipe blinks, startled again.)

Do I look like him already? I didn't... know. I'm sorry.

(He directs this back at John. Before much else can happen, he hears a large crash from the living room and shoots up again.)

What on earth was that sound? The last thing John needs is more stress!

((including @amidavespriteyet))

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

(john perks up immediately from the voice in the living room, still scared, but interested.)

[amipipefan413yet]

(Oh, right. Davesprite was supposed to be there. He moves out of the way of the door so John can get up if he wants to, waiting.)

[amidavespriteyet]

(there is another crash, and a flurry of orange feathers enters the doorway. a large wing hits karkat in the face. )

john fuck hey whats going on (with a bit more hesitation now that he can see him, dsyet steps inside the bathroom and towards jon. ) hey ... you ok

[amipipefan413yet]

I think I scared him. I didn't mean to, but...

(Pipe glances away, his chest feeling strangely tight. He couldn't fathom why. Maybe it was bothering them that John reacted so strongly? That wasn't conducive to being a good Dad...)

I'm going to go see if I can fix something up in the kitchen. He needs to eat. Casey could probably use some lunch, too.

[unbecomingkarkat]

...YEAH. YEAH, GOOD IDEA, I THINK. (OW???)

I'LL GO TELL CASEY WHAT'S GOING ON. SHE MIGHT COME IN THOUGH.

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

d..dave..? uh.. i. don't think.so.

(his words decided to fail him half the time he was talking now, but he managed to stammer a response to a familiar orange presence. with only one person in the room, he seemed much more willing to respond.)

- @amidavespriteyet

[amidavespriteyet]

(dsy freezes. his mind goes blank. for several seconds, not a feather moves. then, as if in slow motion, he steps closer and lowers himself to the ground in front of john. ) ... yeah that shouldve been kinda obvious huh

(hesitantly, he reaches out, but stops before a clawed hand touches johns arm. ) is there

anything i can do (its faint, but there is a tremble in his voice. he doesnt correct him. )

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

....can. ihave a hug.

(clearly by his body language, he was embarrassed to ask, but the privacy allowed him to ask without giving up immediately.)

[amidavespriteyet]

(again, he hesitates. then, slowly, without a word, he closes the distance and puts his arms around john. orange wings block out some of the light around them.) ... this ok

[amipipefan413yet]

((keeping traxk for myself. also pipe is making chicken alfredo. idk. ))

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

. . .

yeah. thanks.

(almost just as hesitantly, he wrapped his arms around dsy. and just like that, the tension in his body released slowly.)

sorry...

[amidavespriteyet]

sfine dude ... you scared the shit outta me earlier though rushing the green asshole like that

( he's looking to the floor over johns shoulder. hes quiet for a long while. his shoulders are tense and his feathers fluffed up, but he tries not to draw attention to it. ) you feeling any better (he wont let go before john. )

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

sorry i... i dont know what i was thinking. i just...

(he paused. for a very long time. before finally speaking.)

you wont get mad, right? if i tell you. what i was thinking.

(... that doesnt sound good.)

[amidavespriteyet]

(... that really doesnt sound good. ) (dsyet does his best not to let his feathers fluff up more. )

course not you can tell me dude

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

i... dont. think i wanted to. live.

i was hoping it would be heroic to die helping free rezi and davebot. and i wouldn't. be here. anymore.

i thought it worked when i woke up, but i guess it didn't.

(... that really wasn't good.)

[amidavespriteyet]

(dsyets breath gets caught in his throat. time stops.)

what (unconciously, his grip tightens around john, claws getting caught in his shirt. he doesnt know what to say.) no dude you just fuck that cant be true right youre joking (it doesnt sound like he thinks john is joking. his voice drops into a low mumble, barely audible - ) goddamit and i fuck im an idiot (- and then he takes a deep, stuttering breath. he pulls away just enough to look at johns face, searching. keep it together. ) im if i knew

im so fucking sorry john ( keep it together. ) just why i casey needs you dude we all do ( he can no longer look at johns face. ) if if you had i

i dont know (keep it together. )

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

it's not your fault i-..

i dont

know.

(almost immediately he felt ashamed, inching slightly away from dsy and huddling to himself again.)

i thought if i left her with karkat

maybe

she would be safer

with them i mean.

(hiding his face in his knees, his windsock curled around himself tight.)

i thought maybe if i was done with what i was meant to do.

in sburb.

i didn't have to

. . .

i dont know. im sorry.

[amidavespriteyet]

no dude

im sorry

i never should have asked you to

...

(he let john pull away, but reluctantly. still, he hovers close. )

and

you get that youre not just

replacable

right

karkats cool

but casey needs you cause youre you

and

...

(he cuts himself off.)

sorry

i shouldnt be grilling you like this

just

didnt have to what

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

(he let himself get talked at for a minute, shrinking up every word.)

i... thought I didn't. have to be. here anymore. since no one really needed me to do anything.

i mean, thats what it felt like.

nothing is your fault. i do want you to know that. it wasn't you

I would've came with you guys anyways even if you didn't ask.

[amidavespriteyet]

no i dammit thats not what i meant (his claws dig into his knees. ) is that why youve yknow not really been around lately

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

oh, uh...

yeah..?

i mean- i think so... im. i didn't want to worry everyone. with my issues.

[amidavespriteyet]

(he stares at john blankly. ) dude thats the dumbest thing that ever got said im pretty sure everyones fucking worried now for a good fucking reason it seems ( he cuts himself off again. he should have been more worried before things got to this point. why hadnt he noticed anything? had he just not wanted it to be true? ) pretty damn sure they would have liked to know that somethings up

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

i..

sorry. im so sorry.

i dont. know what to say.

[amidavespriteyet]

... sorry i dont mean to like keep putting you on the spot (sure, keep being an asshole to the horribly depressed and suicidal person who just had a panic attack. jesus, what is his fucking problem? get it together. ) you dont have to say anything if you dont want to just you should let people help you yknow

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

... yeah.

......

do you.

maybe want to stay? for a bit? just for tonight, at least. you dont have to if you dont want to, i just don't want to bother karkat again.

[amidavespriteyet]

hey im pretty sure the dude wouldnt say that (he pauses, and his brain catches up with what was actually asked of him. ) uhh i mean yeah yeah of course we can hang if you want me around i mean i already promised casey id play with her soup and shit we can have like a whole party dude ...

(he tries for a smile, even though it feels thin on his face. ) or yknow just chill anyway im gonna stay (as long as he wants him around. and isnt that crazy? dsyet had kind of been ready for john to tell him to get the hell out of his face already. )

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

hehe- that sounds fun.. i think i have some juice still...

(almost immediately, he started relaxing again with the lighter talk.)

[amidavespriteyet]

aw hell yeah man you got aj yknow im always down for some good old aj and we could put on one of those dumb flicks of yours (seeing john relax lifts some of the weight off dsyets shoulders as well. theres more life in his voice now.) hey why dont we get out of this bathroom theres gotta better places to hang around here i know you got a couch egbert dont even try to hide it saw your living room already also might have broken a lamp earlier btw sorry about that

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

im not trying to hide it! cant exactly get out when you're taking up most of the space >:B

(he jabbed, but clearly ment it in playful intention. good to see he was joking again.)

but yeah, we probably should go.. im kind of tired of sitting on my bathroom floor.

[amidavespriteyet]

what the hell you callin me fat egbert rude as hell dude

(hes smiling. with some difficulty, he folds up his large wings and stands. he has to manuever a bit to get out of the room without hitting john in the face with a wing. ) smells like somethings cooking btw could check that out

idk about you dude but im fucking starving

[unbecomingjohnegbert]

what!! why would i call you fat? i probably weigh more than you anyways.

i mean, not including your wings, but you get what i mean!

(he stood up with dsy, very hesitantly inching out of the bathroom.)

it does smell pretty nice... i wonder who's cooking?

[amidavespriteyet]

relax egbert

im just getting your goat

but yeah why dont we go find out

(dsy accompanies john out of the bathroom and to the kitchen, then wherever he goes. he hangs around for a while, awkward and and hovering. when roseyet shoots john a message asking to come over, dsyet gets up. his hands have been fidgeting. )

hey

im gonna pop outside for some air for a bit

be back in five

(clawed hands fumbling for a smoke, he leaves for the roof. )

( he never makes it back inside. )

[amidaveyet]

[amidaveyet]

Dave. A yes or no is fine, but are you okay. Are you safe and okay.

@unbecomingdirkstrider

yeah? im eating rn

[swords-n-style]

somrthing something breath something sky

[amistillbeforannepeta]

hi littermate @amidaveyet

[amidaveyet]

waves

[amiadoomeddaveyet]

i'm trying to become a doomed dave

like

any of them

i'm here because of all the other very funny amiyet blogs I've seen

tagging scares me but specifically @amijohndaveyet and @amidoomedjohnegbertyet

[amidaveyet]

anotha one

[unbecomingdirkstrider]

The first three getting amiyets, with more on the way.

@amidavespriteyet @amidaveyet @amidavepetayet

[amidaveyet]

fuck yes dude

[amidaveyet]

more amiyet art bexayse i forget to post genuinely fucking everything

[amidaveyet]

dsyet art i forgot to post because im a chud

[amidaveyet]

its 4/13 brother

[unbecomingdirkstrider]

Hey. I'm Dirk Strider, but with any luck I won't be for long.

This blog is inspired by a whole fuckton of trailblazers before me: those who have sought to become ( @amijohndaveyet @becomingjadedavekat @amidirkyet ) and those who have sought to unbecome ( @unbecomingjohnegbert @unbecomingkarkat ). More names will be added when a dude’s not doing this shit on the fly. You know how it is.

I should stress that this blog is not about self-harm, just to get that out of the way. I know I have what some might consider somewhat of a history of trying to unbecome Dirk in ways that are probably best described as toxically unhealthy.

I'm gonna do this shit the right way this time. This isn't the story of an ending to Dirk Strider. It's the story of the beginning of something else. I don’t want to control the narrative, just my narrative.

Basically let's just say that therapy's expensive, but blogging is free. I've done some things as Dirk I'm not proud of, and I don't want to be that fucking guy anymore. Call it a change of heart if you want. Pun intended.

What else do you even need to know? Pronouns? I don't care about pronouns. In fact, throw whatever at me and we'll see what sticks. Maybe it'll even help me unbecome Dirk in record time.

Perfection is a lofty and fruitless endeavor so I won’t bother aiming for daily updates. I say through gritted teeth.

Tagging System:

#chomping at the bit - Daily progress tag.

#straight from the horses mouth - General posting tag.

#horsefeathers - Art tag, if I need it.

#nickering - Ask tag.

[amidaveyet]

sup