ENTRY no.1 | first shift !!
guess who shifted for the first time. yes, me!
honestly it didn’t click until a few moments ago. it took my mind ages to catch up with my body and actually take the time to digest the fact that i’d in fact done it this morning.
for the whole week I’d felt extremely connected to my dr. I figured now was the time to actually make an attempt.
this morning I’d woken up earlier than i had planned so, I decided to put on a subliminal. Specifically a subliminal directed to the void state.
for me, getting into the void state was never the issue, that was the easiest part always. The hard part was shifting from there. I locked in and really focused on the sensation, or lack of, as I thought about my dr. My friends there, the places I’d go, the people I’d see, and the events that would occur. I connected to the emotions I would feel in those situations.
I affirmed. affirmed. affirmed. I told myself it’d work because frankly, why wouldn’t it work out in my favor?
Something changed and I finally felt the connection, it was something akin to cutting a balloon from its string. I had finally let go.
I felt myself being shaken awake which was really fuckin odd cause I was sure my door was locked before falling asleep again.
It felt so real, because it was real
I heard my name being called, not my cr name, but my dr name. After that I opened my eyes and saw my s/o. hadn’t grounded myself but I was absolutely losing it inside. Almost immediately after I’d come back to my dr.
I had my doubts but this had totally convinced me—I was able to see my s/o, hear him, hell I even felt him shake me awake. There’s one thing I’m absolutely sure about.
IF I CAN DO IT SO CAN YOU!
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