Hands down probably one of the most fulfilling months out of the year
Lately I’ve been stressed because I get anxious when I have to plan things out and they don’t go the way I want
I wanted a 5:30pm anatomy class so my work schedule wouldn’t change/I would have to quit because I work 8-2 M-F and my patient is basically my best friend and I’m very attached to her as if she was my own grandma
But it filled up and the waitlist filled up -- so I had no choice but to waitlist for a 1pm class which cuts into my work schedule = the problem
But I told her daughter and she told me she doesn’t want me to leave/her mom really wants me here b/c she loves me and she’s willing to work with me so I can stay!!
This makes things so much easier b/c I applied as a rehab aide to work w/ OTs n PTs but my friend said it took 3-4 months for them to get back to her and then a month to even start; so if I’m even blessed w/ the opportunity; it wouldn’t be until the end of the semester
Which means I’ll hit my one year mark with the caregiving company so my resume doesn’t look like I bounce from job to job
Which means I’ll be able to focus on school more still because with Joan we watch the news and I do my homework/study with her
My heart is so full because this year I’ve made so many amazing one on one relationships with my patients. Especially in Thailand. I feel like the more I’m in the healthcare field the more I want to work in geriatrics. When I look at them I feel a piece of my grandma with me and I think that’s a big part of why I’m motivated to pursue OT
Tomorrow morning I’m flying out to Seattle w/ mi manz -- I also have an exam on Monday lmao but I’m excited to visit a new city and be able to travel w/ someone I have feelings for again -- it shall be an interesting trip because I guess it’ll test our dynamic
I landed an internship w/ the naval hospital!! I’m excited to go back into the hospital setting and working with veterans because it’ll remind me of working in Thailand.
School has been going pretty good -- my psych professor is also teaching another psych prereq I need and I told her that it’s a retake from the course I took at UCI so I could get an A to apply for my masters and she said to email her over break and she’ll email me the book/study guides so I can get a head start. A! REAL! ONE! I love professors who push you to succeed instead of wanting you to fail because they make their course so damn difficult
Next semester I’ll be taking 8 units (anatomy/life span developmental psych) and working 30hrs/week and volunteering (hopefully) x2 a week -- this semester I took 10 (principles of bio, med term, and abnormal psych) and worked 30hrs/week -- I know I can freakin’ do it. I hope!!
My support system is fucking amazing -- and thats an understatement and I couldn’t have been able to get through this semester let alone this YEAR without them
I’ve been trying to keep in touch with more people or just sending texts to see how they’re doing. I really wanna work on making sure my friends/people I have in my life know that I appreciate them and I mean it when I say I’ll always be there for them
I look back to how depressed I was this time last year -- and I feel free. Liberated. Lighter? (weight wise and less depressed lol) The bigger the storm the more flowers bloom after. I’ve grown!! I know I have!! I’m definitely in a different head space than I was and I know for a fact I won’t let myself get back to how I was.
DECEMBER 2018, WHAT YOU GOT?
