Look at this guy, he's so dapper!! He's handsome 😍 and he's mine!! I'm so lucky! 💜🌹 I cant make it official yet because it's not been long since my break up from Brian! But I really want the world to know that I'm the happiest I've ever been!! Don't get me wrong - I was happy with Brian but only sometimes... With Cammy I wake up happy, go to bed happy, smile everyday, laugh everyday, when we "argue" we laugh and call each other names and kiss, (granted we've not had a proper argument yet) but I know when we do well talk it over and he'll make me smile instantly!! Because that's who he is. He's a sweet, generous, handsome, loving guy! I hate that I did meet him when I was with Brian cause it hurt Brian but then again sometimes I think about the countless times Brian hurt me, over and over and over and over and over again! I think I've made one mistake (one big one anyway) out of 7 years.. That's pretty fair I'd say against his countless cheating/flirting that I actually know of! But there's just something that drew me to Cammy, it still happens, I had a really bad day at work the other night but as soon as he came into work just to give me a hug it all melted away! He calms me down! ☺️ I wish people could see that although it is soon he does make me smile, more than I ever have! He makes me feel more loved than I've ever felt! He will ALWAYS put me first even when I ask him not too, he will always make sure there's a smile on my face even when he's had a bad day, because when I smile it makes him smile! Granted he's soooooo cheesy, I'm honestly not accustom to that purely because I trained myself to be ok with Brian and him never really saying anything nice/romantic unless he was making up for something he did wrong, and training myself to be ok with always being second to everyone and everything and believing that that was the best I was ever going to get and believing that's what I deserved. I deserve more, I deserve to be told I'm beautiful EVERYDAY, not just once every blue moon I've put a dress on, I deserve to be told my smile is the best part of someone's day, I deserve to be told that holding my hand feels "right", not have someone who barely ever held my hand, I deserve more! I deserve to be happy, not be forced to be happy! I'm truly happy. I cried from the first day I was even with Brian, he didn't talk to me for 2 weeks purely because he had it in his head I was going to take him away from his friends?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! But yet he'll cuss out Cammy and say that Cammy is a player and young and stupid... Brian was Cammy's age when he did that to me, I should have ran at that very moment, I didn't because I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt... But apparently I did that far too many times considering that from then he flirted with any girl that gave him attention (I've witnessed first hand that when all of cammy's girl pals were all flocking to him , hugging him, wanting him to talk to them, he only had his eyes on me and came straight to me to hug me and make sure I was ok) but nah cammy's a bad dude, a player, he'll make all the mistakes Brian made because he's young and stupid... I'm purely ranting about this because it's on my mind and irritating me! I can't tell anyone (that doesn't know) because that's not nice to bad mouth Brian but it's true, he was a terrible person in his heart, he was nice on the outside and we had great memories (ones I'll never forget) but he didn't know how to love or be loyal or be kind and not want something in return. I can't tell anyone how much I wanted to end it all so many times when I was with him because I thought everything was my fault because that's what he made it feel like but in Cammy I've got strength, hope, love and most of all a home!