Well whaddup Tumblr, it’s been years.
I need to vent and this is the last place left I can do it so please disregard.
Prolly a mental health trigger warning or whatever?
I’m in a bad place, rock bottom even, I’m so torn between wanting to die and to just keep going. I’m so sick of struggling day and pretending everything’s okay, I’m sick of feeling so worthless and like life is pointless. I just want it to end. I want to stop remembering all of the shit I repressed from my past, shit that now I’ve remembered has made me realise how much it has affected how I live my whole life and how I act every single day. I’m tired of this existence and I don’t know how much longer I can keep this facade up.
I feel so fundamentally broken, I don’t know how to fix myself.












