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[rainbowsofdoom]

weird & insane degenerate ppl Please Interact 🙂💗

[manaphy]

thank u for being a cooler blog than me and not unfollowing me yet

[genderkoolaid]

need to bring back the distinction between minimalist/genderless androgyny/gender neutrality vs maximalist/genderful androgyny, because i am very tired of people talking about androgyny being encouraged or valued when it is very clear they mean the kind of androgyny that relies on the minimization of gendered traits (allowing one to be associated with pre-pubsecence, female virginity, angels, the kind of androgyny that has been, to varying degrees throughout time and place, ideologically permitted in the christian world) and is also profoundly white and thin. when androgyny is undeniably adult and is defined by not a lack of gendered traits and a quiet excusal from gender, but rather actively possessing "opposing" gendered traits, it tends to be treated differently.

yes* the image most people have in their heads of a nonbinary person is someone white, thin, lacking breasts, lacking a visible penis, lacking facial hair, lacking makeup, lacking lacking lacking. but why is it that when people critique this image, they never critique the idea that this is how we are defining androgyny? people loving talking about how this image is neutral-masculine as proof it favors transmasculine/FTX people, but there are plenty of transfeminine/MTX people who also go for this neutral-androgynous look.

meanwhile, many nb/gq/gnc people of all assigned sexes and genders are hairy, fat, have breasts (or give themselves breasts), have penises (or give themselves penises), dresses using both feminine and masculine clothing, etc. hell, just look at how stigmatized the androgyny of intersex people with PMOS & other kinds of hyperandrogenism are. the image of a fat hairy person with large breasts and a deep voice is repulsive in patriarchal culture; this is androgyny, too. to act like "androgyny" is one simple thing is to erase how misandrogyny actually functions.

*& to be clear, such people also face violence and oppression due to their gender nonconformity & androgyny, even while being a more palatable kind of androgyny in certain contexts

[genderkoolaid]

It became apparent that my brand of gender-nonconformity was somehow more attractive to men than Alok and Jacob’s, and as the night wore on, I found myself sincerely befuddled. The looks I gave in my pictures were just as funky as theirs, with my partly-shaved head and my geometric bodysuit plus oversize platform heels, or a close-up of me sans makeup that showed off my strong brow and flat chin in all their androgynous glory. I wondered aloud why Alok and Jacob weren’t getting matches, if there was some algorithmic mystery at play—whether guys were racist against Indians, in Alok’s case, or if they found Jacob’s bright makeup too intimidating. “Meredith,” Alok finally blurted out, interrupting me in a tone replete with tolerance. “You look cis.” With those words, Alok exposed the key difference between me and them. Though I’ve come into my own gender-nonbinary identity, to many, my body reads as cisgender because I’m short and don’t have body hair. I’ve also taken hormones and had reassignment surgery, because I went through a period when I thought I was a binary trans woman, before figuring out I wasn’t comfortable with that identity either. What I didn’t quite grasp until Alok pointed it out was that now, regardless of how GNC I tried to present, cis people still predominantly read me as a cis woman. If I told a stranger I was trans, it’s likely they might think I’m an early-transitioning trans guy more than anything else. So on Tinder, I can still get dates, since there are plenty of guys who like the androgynous female look. On the other hand, Alok and Jacob’s features haven’t been softened by hormones, and they have visible body hair that marks them as more obviously trans, so they have a much harder time. Nonbinary femmes like them are too masc for the straights, too femme for the gays, and too out for nearly everyone else.

from "Why Can’t My Famous Gender Nonconforming Friends Get Laid?" by Meredith Talusan (she/they)

for reference, here's photos of Meredith, Jacob, and Alok:

I would argue what is depicted here as "femme" androgyny is (one example of) what I would describe as maximalist/genderful androgyny; it is read as "femme" as opposed to "masc" because minimalist/genderless androgyny focuses on minimizing gendered characteristics to be neutral (non-masculine non-feminine), and neutrality in patriarchal society is read as diet-masculine by default — and perhaps cis by default, because both of those things are more comfortable for people in a patriarchal society to assume of a person who minimizes intensely gendered traits.

But the treatment Alok and Jacob experience, in my opinion, while shaped by femmephobia, is not reducible to femmephobia alone. It is the combination of explicitly masculine traits (like body and facial hair) and feminine traits (makeup, feminine clothing), their failure to pursue and perform a non-masculine femininity, that leads them to be seen as undesirable. This is misandrogyny.

Although, I should also note that "guys who like the androgynous female look" are, not always, but not infrequently chasers, and they do not always treat people they see as "androgynous females" with genuine respect even if they sexually desire them. See, for example, Lou Sullivan's experience being fetishized and manipulated by his chauvinist cis boyfriend, who desired him as an "androgynous female" and so pressured him to not transition and tried to convince him that his desire to be a gay man was unhealthy and unattainable & as mentioned in the og post, being seen as more palatable in certain context does not mean that androgyny like Meredith's is not punished, even violently, in many others. The point being, this kind of androgyny is not straightforwardly "privileged" and this article is more focused on hoping that Meredith's friends can find genuine love and good sex, rather than interrogating how different forms of androgyny are perceived and treated under patriarchy.

[genderkoolaid]

#i think also part of it is that like the non-marked androgyny is something that others then think they can impose gender onto#in order to binarize the person#where there is a degree of if we add something to you you will then become a gender#(and then there's the assumption that the person hasn't transitioned medically in order to achieve the unmarked androgynous)#or if they have it has not crossed the event horizon of being read as too masc or too fem in one direction in a way that would#prevent the person from being read as a man/woman

#basically the unmarked androgyny is perceived as a blank slate from which gender can be imposed on the individual with the potential for#eventual conformity (aka the can still be saved by detransition theory)#while marked androgyny is to show both masculine and feminine traits in ways that refuse to be conforming#and which would have to take active steps towards eliminating traits in order to force the individual to conform to masculinity or feminity#so the marked androgyny is a threat that refuses to be silenced and refuses to allow the plausible deniability of being non-conforming#where neither is actually truly desired#just the ones that is perceived as easier to 'fix' and impose a binary gender on is seen as more desirable and less threatening to the syst

#adding on: also there is the you look cis they think you're a cis woman#like the idea that unmarked androgyny is just someone who is perceived as a cis woman not presenting feminine#and how marked androgyny almost always has facial hair#like the hostility towards unmarked androgyny within the queer community absolutely overlaps with the hatred for the transtrender theyfab#like i see a lot of talk about how we need to show more appreciation and visibility of marked androgyny but we also need to just have more#for everything bc 90% of the time if im seeing something about unmarked androgyny it's not actually uplifting those who are#this post is i think the most positive thing I've seen regarding unmarked androgyny in months

great points made here.

& yeah, a lot of people use the different ways that marked/unmarked androgyny are treated as a cover to be misogynistically exorsexist to "theyfabs." which, as mentioned above, completely ignores... so much. that there are people assigned male who are relatively hairless and slim and would be better able to achieve unmarked androgyny than certain people who are assigned female who are quite hairy with large breast and hips, or that nb/gq/gnc people can and do medically transition; like Meredith above, and there are plenty of people assigned female who look exactly like Jacob and Alok. the fixation on making this about transmascs vs transfems or amab vs afab is just more exorsexism and it prevents us from actually discussing the misandrogyny at play.

[piranes11]

how it feels to stop tossing and turning and get up to piss

[chilewithcarnage]

[anaalnathrakhs]

can't tell if my living conditions are horrific or if i'm describing like. mild issues.

either way they're mostly yknow, my own doing and my own responsibility. i know it's objectively gross, but i wonder how gross it is on a scale from like "ew disgusting" to "i understand the circumstances that led here"

[asexual-amanita]

Autism actually can make people violent and aggressive, and I’m tired of “autism advocates” saying it can’t. Many autistic people, especially higher support needs people lose control of their bodies during meltdowns and times of high emotion. Some autistics have limited control of their bodies at all times. This body brain disconnect is a prevalent associative feature of autism. This is not to say that measures shouldn’t be taken to protect and teach the autistic person and others, but you can’t erase real, but stigmatized parts of a condition, and then dare to call yourself an advocate. Just because a symptom is unpleasant or unpalatable doesn’t mean it’s not a genuine part of the disorder. Stop ‘cleansing’ your autism advocacy.

[proudfreakmetarusonikku]

and when people acknowledge it they treat it as an Evil Boy Thing which. no. autistic girls (and autistic people considered girls by these sort of people) do it all the time you just don’t acknowledge their existence.

[lady-of-vitreous-sight]

it's kinda scary how you can just be tired all the time forever

[random-brushstrokes]

Xenia Hausner - Nachthunger (1998)

[mollyjames]

Uh oh, the player character is coming this way. Quick, engage in mindless small talk which comments on recent events or location relevant details

[patchworkhorsey]

The lovely Odessa 🐚🐬🌊✨

DA / Ko-Fi / Commissions

Giveaway raffle prize for @askodessa featuring their beautiful one of a kind pony! ✨❤️ I’ve never drawn a character like this, it was a fun challenge to draw an actual ribcage 🐎

[bees-with-swords]

"Do you ever dream of land?" The whale asks the tuna.

"No." Says the tuna, "Do you?"

"I have never seen it." Says the whale, "but deep in my body, I remember it."

"Why do you care," says the tuna, "if you will never see it."

"There are bones in my body built to walk through the forests and the mountains." Says the whale.

"They will disappear." Says the tuna, "one day, your body will forget the forests and the mountains."

"Maybe I don't want to forget," Says the whale, "The forests were once my home."

"I have seen the forests." Whispers the salmon, almost to itself.

"Tell me what you have seen," says the whale.

"The forests spawned me." Says the salmon. "They sent me to the ocean to grow. When I am fat with the bounty of the ocean, I will bring it home."

"Why would the forests seek the bounty of the oceans?" Asks the whale. "They have bounty of their own."

"You forget," says the salmon, "That the oceans were once their home."

[hearnoweevil]

Last year I finally had an excuse to illustrate this simple little Tumblr story I've had bookmarked forever for class.

I hope you like it :]

[rubysapphrald]

sharing a wikipedia page is romantic

[rubysapphrald]

my favorites

[freakoutgirl]

[relevant-wikipedia-articles]

I was gonna see if Wikipedia has a list of these but I'm taking a break from that to show off that the image for the Lists of pairs is a pair of pears

Lists of pairs - Wikipedia

[anaalnathrakhs]

last vent 2day i prommy, sorry for that <3

the last time we cleaned my room was a little over a year ago and it was. one of the shittiest days of my fucking life. repair guy was coming (not my choice) the same day i had to turn in a huge assignment i hadn't done (because yknow. me and school.) i had to spend the entire night absolutely bruteforcing the worst assignment i ever wrote. already chronically sleep deprived for the whole schoolyear ofc. and when i had like two hours left before leaving for classes, my mom absolutely insisted that we clean the entire room in two hours. going to school with no sleep, terrible experience ofc as was that entire year, then last minute the professor of the last class reminds me that i was supposed to have my oral exam that day :) had to pathetically fail a latin oral exam (i was gonna fail it anyway but i barely even tried because i was so fucking tired and hopeless) with another student in the room. had to look the professor in the eye and try not to cry and say "i don't know" to everything because i couldn't even try to think of something. (she told me at some point "that time you refused to do the oral exam" I DID TRY at the beginning of the silent prep for the exam, i could barely put my thoughts together)

anyway yeah. not saying my mom was wrong for that, it's crazy that even then she helped me clean, like i understand where she's coming from in general with these issues. but on the moment the feeling really was torturous :) the only way to be safe is to make my space really MY space, so disgusting that she can't step in it. she never even really invaded my privacy except one or two time literally just cleaning, not doing anything wrong. i just really fucking hate that.

[anaalnathrakhs]

i understand the level of "bitch you live like this" that it is, and i also understand it's incredibly egotistical and cold to have that thought

but tbh i feel like we should be a little more appreciative that i puke in toilets now instead of inside BUCKETS and TRASH BAGS in my room. like sorry it smells. it could be worse tho :) it was worse :) did you prefer the buckets?

[anaalnathrakhs]

still two weeks til next therapist appointment :) smiles :)

[tlirsgender]

When you get more objective about the way nature is & away from weird anthropomorphic carnivore slander it is a little funny when the baby sea turtles hatch and every other animal in like a ten mile radius goes "oh fuck yum one million mini sliders"

[tlirsgender]

[ID: a screenshot of the original post's tags that read, "#real turtleheads know this is a play on sliders (turtle emoji) which are a type of terrestrial turtle. but it's also tiny hamburgers #which seems apt. #this has been another episode of Joke Explainer" /end ID]

Keeping these actually. Necessary footnote for this post

[tlirsgender]

Watching a jaguar casually walk up to an adult sea turtle headed back to the water after laying her eggs and eat it like why am I in my sea turtle violence era and why are they like this. Adult sea turtles aren't especially easy to eat in the water they'll swim around with shark bites taken out of them like they're just chillin. And then on land they just kinda

[tlirsgender]

Jaguar watching a sea turtle on the beach: oh fuck yum 100 pound slider

[tlirsgender]

Also today I learned that since the jaguar scares off other smaller predators it's actually good for the sea turtle population if there are jaguars there. Cause less babies get eaten by Everything Else. I'm gonna be honest I didn't even consider that a jaguar could be on the beach

[tlirsgender]

Every other animal in like a ten mile radius: I'm gonna be honest I didn't even consider that a jaguar could be on the beach

[genericpuff]

comicfury continues to reign supreme as the only webcomic platform that understands it's a webcomic platform

[genericpuff]

making an extra post because the tags aren't good enough

here is all the reasons why you should use comicfury (if you aren't already) :

pretty much full control over your custom site design. if you're an HTML/CSS nerd you can go as crazy as you want with it. but for those who aren't so code-savvy, there are also simplified built-in design tools so you can create a unique site for yourself and your work. reject homogeneous minimalism design of bigger platforms, embrace tradition of mid-2000's kitchen sink site design (if that's what you want, that is).

the site demonstrates its own philosophies through its extremely charming vintage 2000's-era site design. it ain't broke so it doesn't need fixing. if it's too 'ugly' for you and wards you off from using the site, then it's succeeding at what it was designed to do.

forums! remember those??? CF sure does!

full view of your comic statistics over the past month, shown as delicious daily line graphs, separated by unique visitors, web page view, and scroll view.

hosting is free. don't want that pesky 'thecomicseries' or 'comicfury' add-on? all you gotta do is purchase your own domain name. contact kyo and they'll take care of the rest.

you can categorize your pages per chapter, making for an easier reading experience

you can include page transcripts for screen-readers as well as mouseover text

you can enable comments per upload and even manage them so that all comments have to be approved by you before they're shared publicly

archive tagging!!! i.e. you can tag uploads with relevant characters / locations / etc. so people can find specific pages easier on your site.

you can run a goddang BLOG on your comic site so that people can read what you've been up to! or don't, it's your choice!

clear filters for NSFW content. the filters do what they must to inform your audience as intended, outside of that, your comic will not be taken down, flagged, or suppressed in search results just because it contains violence or boobies.

they are strictly anti-AI

they do not make licensing deals with third-party companies, so the only 'competition' you have are other indie creators like you, no Marvel or DC nonsense

you're free to embed ads and/or donation buttons on your site and CF will not take off a single cent of it for themselves.

the front page goes to Recently Updated by default, all the other tabs are simply Popular Now and Popular Overall. there's also a Random button if you want to be surprised with something new. while this might seem like a bad thing for people who prefer custom filtering, this unbiased layout prevents the common visibility issues / favoritism / etc. that happen on other platforms.

but if you DO want to find something new that fits your specific tastes? just use their search bar, unlike on Webtoons it actually does what search bars are supposed to do! within the search page you can pick and choose whatever genre tags you want, and you can filter out major NSFW flags you're not comfortable with seeing.

saving the best for last: none of those features outlined above require paying a premium subscription tier. you have access to ALL the same tools and permissions that everyone else does. you have just as much potential to gain an audience there as everyone else and you are all granted the same freedoms.

[genericpuff]

COMICFURY HAS A SCROLL VIEW SETTING THAT YOU CAN ADJUST IN YOUR SETTINGS. THE PLATFORM IS ALREADY DESIGNED TO BE CONSUMABLE ON YOUR PHONE. IT DOESN'T NEED AN APP.

ugh man i'm so sorry for popping off on this very innocent and well-meaning bystander but what did i JUST say

when i say it's a webcomic platform that knows it's a webcomic platform

that's it. no asterisk. that's the POINT OF THE MEME.

it is a website for reading and hosting webcomics. there is no app. and that is why it works.

i realize this might just be a consequence of me being Old™️ compared to the average webcomic consumer / artist, but do y'all know how destructive phone apps have been and still are to webcomic culture? because not only is developing a phone app EXPENSIVE AND TIME-CONSUMING, but it's pretty much impossible to have phone apps now that aren't managed and funnelled through Google and Apple.

that means CENSORSHIP. and CORPORATE INTERFERENCE. and FINANCIAL INVOLVEMENT. which is entirely opposing to WHAT WEBCOMICS ARE.

as soon as indie sites based around free content develop apps, there's a very clear shift in how that site continues to operate, prioritizing corporate standards and profit over usability and community. because otherwise, they can't justify the creation of the app in the first place, and they can't very well maintain that app on account of how expensive it is to do so.

in fact, i can even attest to this from experience! y'know Tapas? the friendly competitor to Webtoons?

this platform used to FUCKING SLAP and then guess what? they released their phone app. and in doing so, they immediately lost the entire fucking plot. their ad revenue program turned to shit, they started prioritizing their advertising and growth towards paywalled comics over the free to read ones, they started restricting the content that was allowed on the platform for the sake of 'brand friendliness' and most of all, they started caring more about what INVESTORS saw rather than what the average user experienced.

and i'm sure that's a heavily biased opinion in which i'm choosing to cast blame on one specific thing instead of all the various things that led to the downfall of this fuckass platform (and i could talk about all those things at length too) but guess what? i don't give a fuck if it IS biased, because i've been there and back and lived to tell the tale and the common denominator in the enshittification of all these major platforms i'm goddamn MEME'ING ON was the phone apps. and most of all, the normalization of corporate involvement which happens the MOMENT you build an app for the Google and/or Apple store.

modern phone apps are NOT about accessibility, they're about money and metrics. that's it.

again, big apologies to the person who left these tags in the reblogs because i know they didn't mean any ill will of it.

but EVERY FUCKING DAY i see y'all complaining that webtoons and tapas are garbage, that they don't let you consume NSFW content without censoring the fuck out of it or removing titles entirely from their platforms, how they progressively tighten paywalls and increase ads to force every last cent out of you, but never ONCE do y'all realize THE CALLS ARE COMING FROM INSIDE THE HOUSE.

comicfury doesn't have or need a phone app for the same reason that AO3 doesn't have or need a phone app. to put it simply - because it's pointless, a waste of money and effort, and it would just destroy everything that's great about the thing that i'm trying to promote to you in the first place.

this is what usage freedom and decentralizing actually looks like. this is what has kept comicfury populated and alive. nothing more, nothing less.