Ancient Thoughts of Now

I'm writing exactly what I'm thinking, judge me.

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You hate everyone because you hate yourself.

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Keep me heavily sedated. Not because it's when I'm the happiest, Because it makes me forget that everyday, I'm dying a little more.

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You keep asking all these questions you don't mean. You keep talking and don't bother listening to what comes next. You keep starting a fire in my heart and then putting it right out.

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If you’d be dating you, you'd be 100% done with your shit.

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Really sad about myself because of the ways you don't look at me

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Gone daydreaming

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Ever stand up and get out of a room just to cry?

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It's nearly mid January and I'm like, 'alright, I guess I'll be better in 2015.'

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I always want to write but I never know what part of my life to put down. The sad shit is always easiest because it's cheaper than seeing a psychologist.

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Right in the fucking feels.

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Dried tears on my face,

can't swallow my sorrow.

I'm so fucking lonely,

even more, when I'm not alone.

I'm drowning and people are talking over my splashing,

Calling me selfish as they tighten their grip on the extra float.

Life has slapped me red in the soul. 

This is the end,

for a hopeful beginning.

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Been studying love these last few weeks (and by studying I mean observing the world around me and drawing my own conclusions, I'm something of a philosopher, I tell myself).

I do believe that as time goes on in a relationship, one must never do anything that they wouldn't want their partner doing to them AND always put yourself in your partners position to understand their feelings with more clarity.

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Are we monogamous because even if it lays in our DNA that we want to jump the bones of anyone who interests us, we'd rather not, knowing we want our other half to only feel for us 100% of the time, if they were in the same predicament?

If you can't trust yourself, well darling, don't be naive, (s)he can't be trusted either.

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My own reality TV Show called "My so called Passive Aggressive Life"

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Scrolling through Vine, while high, is the best shit ever!

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My pitbull is barking at the gate in the yard 😳 shit, oh what the fuck my wi-fi is gone. Did someone just fucking steal my wi-fi?!

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Everything in life is so naughty.