These past couple of months have been nothing but an emotional rollercoaster for me with a lot of things such as with my friends, my family, even potential lovers. I've been through ups and downs and it has done nothing but just drain me in every aspect possible. Drained mentally, emotionally, PHYSICALLY. Like my God, I did not know that people can stress you out that bad but turns out they really can. It got to me pretty bad especially with this boy I fell in love with for a short amount of time but, I got past those feelings and I view him completely different than I once did maybe back in like February-March? He's a pretty cool guy don't get me wrong but how we interacted with each other made me feel different than I did with any other boy and I never want to feel like that again. He going through a love galore basically with him, even though the love did seem one-sided. What I can say that entire situation taught me is that I really need to work on myself more and control my feelings towards men, especially with me being gay. Because I often find myself falling deeply in love with men who show me attention in the nicest way possible instead of the usual homophobia and hatred I get in this world by people who can't seem to let a person be. I'll get better eventually yes I know but life since 2026 started really has gotten to me and I plan and hope that the rest of this year I get better mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually. One thing I can say I also learned this year is that I need to love myself before I love anybody else. What is love without loving yourself?
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