the low-cal calzone zone

3rd year illustration student at brighton

[anelderlycreepinthecellar]

Tonight was so lovely and hanging out with Josh's friends is 100% excellent but I can't help but be hurt by the fact not a single one of my friends came to our party. I understand that in this circumstance everyone had their own thing going on but this is an issue that has plagued me my whole life that no one ever feels like I am really worth spending time with and I have finally realised it is because I am not a good person. I didn't realise properly before that I am this bad but I must be, I know I am selfish and inconsiderate and just nasty to other people without noticing. I'm really sorry.

[anelderlycreepinthecellar]

We stayed in our new flat for the first time last night!! Still mostly furniture-less and in need of a few replacement lightbulbs but I am so in love 😻😻

[anelderlycreepinthecellar]

I just sent a long letter in the post and finally sorted out the bills for my old house which has been stressing me out a ridiculous amount for what seems like forever. Today me and josh are buying a mattress from ikea and spending the first night in our new flat(!!) because he has job interviews tomorrow. On Saturday I worked a 12 hour shift because 3 of the people I work with were on holiday and we were really understaffed and it was v stressful but I am proud of myself because I worked really hard and took crap loads of money (lol capitalism). Yesterday was my birthday and it was really simple and nice and I got a nice big cafetière from my little brother and a bottle of fancy raspberry gin from the guys at work and all my parents friends sang happy birthday when I walked into the pub at lunch time and then I had work in the evening and it was nice and quiet and I got bought drinks by lots of regulars even though I didn't actually mention myself that it was my birthday cos I didn't want to sound like a dick lol. Even got a bottle of prosecco it was real sweet. I am still so fucking sad at the moment but I am tryin real hard to be optimistic and I am surrounded by people who are making that not too hard so today I don't feel so bad.

[anelderlycreepinthecellar]

On Wednesday me and Lydia got paid to learn how to make a bunch of cocktail and then drank too much in Soho pretending we were Frech (feat. My boyfriend the Greek statue) (at Café Boheme (London))

[anelderlycreepinthecellar]

Dis is probs lame as hell but I am soooo excited to be moving in with my boyfriend soon. We found a really cute flat and he has got 3 job interviews this week and I am very proud of where we both are. I am so lucky to have found someone who genuinely only ever wants the best for me and helps me grow as a person so much and never judges me and never tries to change me at all. I feel like everyone is always like ~screw boys they are only ever bad for you~ and it makes me feel bad and like people judge me for being genuinely happy/don't believe me. But it is the sad truth that I have always had such shitty low self-esteem and every now and and again I can start to see myself how he sees me and I am very happy about that and can't see how it is a bad thing. I know it's a shame that I haven't been able to do that completely by myself but I don't feel like I rely on him for it, I think he just brings out the best in me. Being with him makes me want to keep striving to be the best person I can be and when I am around him I feel I work so much harder at the things I love and I am so excited to have the chance to have a year of that especially with how the past few years have been for me. I have been really fucking sad the last few weeks and having something to look forward to has been helping sooo much. I think I am gonna try to spend v little time on the Internet from now on it is not good for my head. Just want to spend time with people I love and do things I love and support myself.

[mailorderapocrypha]

STAR CHILD: ARE YOU LISTENING? (1984)

[biancroc1]

[vuls]

Draw from Experience

University of Utah Graphic Design, 1982

[dailyholzer]

SOMETIMES YOU HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE BUT TO WATCH SOMETHING GRUESOME OCCUR. YOU DON'T HAVE THE OPTION OF CLOSING YOUR EYES BECAUSE IT HAPPENS FAST AND ENTERS YOUR MEMORY.

[anelderlycreepinthecellar]

mate what’s the fuckin point no one wants to hang out with me anyway

[chuckdropthebass]

Love is dead

[americandreambarbie]

venus retrograde everybody

[anelderlycreepinthecellar]

My little brother is so old now maybe he is older than me (at Hampton Court Palace)

[prudeghost-deactivated20141020]

Mental health advice from your friendly neighbourhood Sane Person™

have you tried yoga

yes? okay what about pilates

have you tried eating food that you cant afford

why don’t you get a job

do you sleep enough/too much

try sleeping better

have you considered Normal people’s feelings

have you considered becoming Normal like us

i think that would help

here i printed out this article on deep breathing from a Women’s online magazine, it helped my coworker who was sad one time

hey your’e creative, maybe you could write your own article

[design-is-fine]

Luigi Serafini, Codex Seraphinianus, 1981. Published by Franco Maria Ricci FRM Milano. An illustrated encyclopedia of imaginary things in a constructed language. Read more here

[anelderlycreepinthecellar]

Kevin McCloud on every episode of Grand Designs: here we have a five story eye sore, made entirely out of materials scavenged from children's hospitals. these English yuppies have erected this monstrosity right in the middle of a secluded, humble Spanish village. the residents are forced to stare blankly at this cold reminder of imperial entitlement and capitalist overindulgence every single day. John and Linda have built their home quite literally in the town square! inside, we have three kitchens, each one costing more than the price of feeding the local peoples for their entire lifetimes. the roof leaks, even in a drought. there's no windows, and the doors are made of spiders. I don't think anybody remembered to put down any foundations actually? we'll probably be looking at a smouldering pile of rubble this time next month...

Kevin McCloud: but do you know something?

Kevin McCloud: I love it.

[thegetty]

The boxer is resting in the Getty Museum’s galleries through November 1.

He’s older, he’s muscular, he’s exhausted. This less than idealized figure is typical of the Hellenistic style of sculpture that celebrated the portrait as a way to portray emotion.

So what do you think, did he win or lose?

Seated Boxer, “The Terme Boxer,” 300–200 B.C., bronze and copper. Museo Nazionale Romano—Palazzo Massimo alle Terme, Rome. Su concessione del Ministero dei beni e delle attività culturali e del turismo—Soprintendenza Speciale per il Colosseo, il Museo Nazionale Romano e l’area archeologica di Roma. Photo © Vanni Archive / Art Resource, NY

[aqqindex]

Gaetano Pesce, NY Bed