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No. wait.

I don’t want to simply see your body. Show me the places that ache the most. Your fears, your frailties, the ugliest thoughts you try to bury. Tell me what steals your breath, what turns your stomach, what grips you with obsession. Don’t give me the surface. give me your soul.

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i'm a very empathetic person, i always try to put myself in someone else's shoes and understand their feelings. but there's one exception when someone cheats on the person they claim to love. I will never understand that, and I don't want to. yes, it might be about new emotions, but is a few minutes of pleasure really more important than the trust of someone who loves you? this applies to both men and women. I don't understand how people can apologize for something they had already decided to do, and honestly, I think people who accept that kind of betrayal don't respect themselves, their loyalty, or the love that was betrayed. Reading stories about cheating makes me feel like maybe I'll never be in a relationship, because it seems like you can never fully trust anyone lol

[anesthesiass]

when I'm in a group of girls who only talk about guys, and I'm just sitting there waiting for a text from an older woman lol

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If an older woman texts me and doesn't leave after one day, I'll stop whining about it on my blog, please;((

[anesthesiass]

If an older woman texts me and doesn't leave after one day, I'll stop whining about it on my blog, please;((

[anesthesiass]

the way I look at someone who doesn't ignore me after one day of talking and is genuinely interested in me

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"i'm not going to block all the girls and only talk to you" hell nah

[anesthesiass]

- " you probably like butch, masculine tomboy women who take on the 'man' role"

Actually, no, I want a feminine woman, and I want to treat her like a woman

[anesthesiass]

"I want a relationship" also me when it's not an older woman and she's not obsessed with me:

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I want to text some people, not for any roleplay or anything like that, just talking and getting to know each other but I can't text first because of my pride, lol

[anesthesiass]

she says she can easily replace me, but angel, no, you're the one losing a precious treasure who could have been obsessed with you for the rest of her life ;)

[anesthesiass]

-"When I get jealous, I get angry and shout."

when I get jealous

[anesthesiass]

what would you choose: healthy but boring relationship, or an obsessive toxic one where you feel bad, can’t live without each other, but there are constant emotions and no boredom?

[anesthesiol]

Older woman, write to me already.

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when someone messages me while they have 100 other subs, lol, nope. I want a woman for whom I'll be the only one

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i honestly don't know where else to look for my older woman, lol

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--- No, I don’t need an older woman who calls me cute nicknames from the very beginning like she does with everyone else. Not someone who pretends to be a ‘mommy’ right away. Not someone who only asks for intimate pictures. Not someone who talks just for fun.

I want someone with whom we’ll have our own personal nicknames that we use only for each other. Someone I can open up to about anything —-- and she can do the same with me

someone to have deep late night conversations with