[rejected] and [abandoned]

allo im matty. im from the old 213. just another emerging adult trying to deal with my disorders and life/lack thereof name preferred. he or she is ok#anxious #bipolar #borderline #agender #∅ #queer #latinx #linguistics #espanol #francais

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we went mattress shopping last night

shit is getting real

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apparently showcase tweeted a particular vid that wasnt meant to be up? cause it got deleted some time shortly after

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i been getting some weird anons the past few weeks

one was, as far as i can tell, talking like i said someone had to die? which if i was to say such a thing would either be sarcastically or in reference to something fictional

and a new one about certain privileges, a stalker, and me getting laughed at? the only thing remotely close i can think of is the previous post in spanish? which.... idek who i was posting that about

anyways the way things seem to keep going with COA2 and with my show starting to put out alot more content for the upcoming season, posting on here will go on hiatus and focus will shift to show-end. and all the stuff i do with COA2 is ending up on twitter/fb so. yah

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donde estas?

no te puedo encontrar

te fuiste?

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god

hes like “im not sure you were meant to be in a relationship”

and my bpd ass is like “fine, lets break up”

devaluation is a helluva drug

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lol i said veinti four

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so im kinda engaged..... lol

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selfie after dennys after a night at the club, i think with bianca del rio, from last friday? yes last friday

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from beer in video games

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me: [expresses an opinion on something]

the bf: thats it, im leaving you

someone without bpd: lol what do you wanna eat?

me, a bpd: WHAT NO IM SORRY I TAKE IT BACK PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME 😭

the bf: omg i was just kidding

me, a bpd: 😭 😭 😭 😭  PLEASE STAY IM SORRY I TAKE IT BACK

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why is newxkit being a little shite?

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who copes with negative things? THIS BITXH

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oh my god

i hate when i try doing something the long way ad right when i finish, i realise there was a waay easier solution :/

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sometimes i hate COA2 because of all the jealousy i have that gets activated by him

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oh. my. GOD.

i just realised why im so high maintenance [apart from the bpd related kink]

thanks alot mom and dad. growing up neglected did wonders for me

.....i just realised COA2 is the exact same, tho the parental situation for him was much different than mine

same results tho

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so i had a nightmare, for lack of a better word, where COA2 did something...... i was practically lucid dreaming but i just let it playout and i got so mad ._.

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so turns out EOG4 has been friends with COA2 for like a decade....