A living, breathing existential crisis

They / It // This originally was just a fandom blog, but now you have to deal with my bullshit. // Assume me to be dead if I don't post for a day, thanks.

[anexistingexistence]

Hi, hello, and good day, I am an existing existence, and this is my blog "an existing existence" on which I exist and do stuff mostly related to audio rp that then also exists very existently. We go by the singular rule of "fuck censorship" around here btw so kindly keep that in mind.

In case you're looking for something specific:

☆Audio RP Fics☆

"Because They All Mean Well" - Darlin & Bright Eyes (Sam also exists) | Angst/Aftermath of Non-consensual Vampire Turning/Several Triggers for Suicidal People, People with Depression or ed, Victims of sa

"Don't Want to Say It/Don't Want to Hear It" - Frederick & Suicidal Bright Eyes | Angst/Reconciliation

"One of Sixteen" - Darlin & Quinn | Gore/Revenge

"Opening Up" - William & Porter | Graphic Violence/Hurt no Comfort/Unhealthy Relationship/Read the tags in the fic

"Please and Thank You" - David & Darlin | Queerplatonic Relationship/Fluff/Pre-canon/Discontinued&Unfinished

"It's My Favorite" - Freelancer & Gavin | Fluff/Marriage Proposal (kind of)

"Undying" part 1: "Dying" - Darlin & Sam | Angst/Major Character Death

"Undying" part 2: "Dead" - Darlin or Sam & William | Angst/Grief & Mourning

"Undying" part 3: "Alive" - Darlin & Sam | Angst/Fluff/Hurt&Comfort

☆Fics for Other Fandoms☆

[Attack on Titan] "There is Love for You out there" - Annie Leonhart & Male Reader, Tom Ksaver/Male Reader | Some Fluff/Mostly Angst/Homophobia/Character Death

☆Edits☆

○Redacted Audio - Guy & Honey [Fluff]

○Redacted Audio - David/Darlin/Quinn [Angst/Gore]

○Redacted Audio - Avior [Melancholy]

○Yuurivoice - Auron [Escape pt.4]

☆Aesthetics☆

•Angel

•Avior

•Baaabe

•Bright Eyes

•Darlin

•Doc

•Freelancer

•Gavin

•Hush

•Lovely

•Sam

•Sweetheart

☆Secret Tags☆

•#an existing post (me :D)

•#life of an employed person apparently (shit that is in some way related to my profession)

•#[insert character] with a ribbon (e.g: "#guy with a ribbon")

•#danger polycule (my boat. it has like three and a half people in it. please don't bother us ;-;)

•#suggestive (stuff that may be sexual and may or may not be a little gross)

=Daily posts since June 2023=

[anexistingexistence]

Mmm flesh

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Pt. 2: blood

[anexistingexistence]

Mmm flesh

[anexistingexistence]

And the prize for most social introvert of ever goes to

Me :3 ?

[anexistingexistence]

Dying as I was always destined to. Because of a stomach ache ú-ù

[anexistingexistence]

Most intense final straight in any race I've had yet

She turned out to be glue btw

[anexistingexistence]

Soooo cozy

[anexistingexistence]

Yay for friendship

[piffany666]

Yay

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[anexistingexistence]

Yay :D

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Yay for friendship

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t4t Anata/Kimi truther 4ever

[depsidase]

[barkingbarghest]

Here is an article from NPR about it (May 22, 2026):

Carolina Milanesi, an independent technology analyst, said Google is trying to make its cash cow business — search — richer and more personalized, and it will make shopping easier. But there is a risk that users may have fewer choices about what to click. "Right now it's: I ask a question, I get a bunch of answers and I feel that I'm in control as to which answer I take, or if I'm looking for something, which product I'm going to end up buying. That is going to be less so going forward," she said. Milanesi envisions AI-enabled search and agents proposing products to consumers — perhaps even those they have requested — but with less clarity or choice around where it's coming from. "If you're going to say: 'I want a pair of Jordans, go find them,' you're not necessarily sure what steps have been taken and whether the AI has used a source or a store that was paid for and therefore came up in the search results," she said, "or if AI actually went and did their due diligence and picked the best for me as a customer."

And here's one from Time magazine (May 20, 2026):

While Google already has “AI Mode,” the company will now power the whole search bar through its new Gemini 3.5 Flash model.  Instead of the classic list of blue links, Google Search will now also generate a custom page with an AI-generated summary of what you’re searching about, which will then trigger a conversation with AI Mode on the main page, allowing users to ask follow-up questions—similar to the kind of layout you would see when opening ChatGPT.

And a little more from Time's article on how this may affect the websites that we are trying to search for:

When Google first started implementing AI-assisted results, news publishers warned of “catastrophic” impacts on the industry, much of which relies on Google search to drive users to their websites.  Last year, news websites saw significant traffic declines as chatbots increasingly replaced Google search as the primary way to find sites and ask questions.  Small businesses also noted drops in traffic to their sites from Google, which has traditionally delivered customers.   Lily Ray, vice president of SEO strategy & research at Amsive, a digital marketing agency, warned as early as last year that Google’s planned changes to search are “going to have a devastating impact on the Internet.”  “It will severely cut into the main source of revenue for most publishers and it will disincentivize content creators who rely on organic search traffic, which is millions of websites, maybe more,” she told Technology Magazine.  

[anarchopuppy]

noai.duckduckgo.com blocks all AI content in search results automatically

[anexistingexistence]

Some Decollate Decoration epilogue quotes I really really liked

[anexistingexistence]

There is a special kind of pain in being the person you wish you'd gotten to have for someone else

[anexistingexistence]

I want to make art.. but the lack of motivation won't let meeee

[sashayed]

has anyone figured out how to turn off the thing where you love your pet so much it slides inexorably into grief-borrowing

[boomstab-papa]

[your-cosmic-creature]

“For me this glass is already broken. I enjoy it; I drink out of it. It holds my water admirably, sometimes even reflecting the sun in beautiful patterns. If I should tap it, it has a lovely ring to it. But when I put this glass on the shelf and the wind knocks it over or my elbow brushes it off the table and it falls to the ground and shatters, I say, ‘Of course.’ When I understand that the glass is already broken, every moment with it is precious.”

[anexistingexistence]

God I need to go on a concert again so badly

[astrart-39]

Kitty with a carrot plushiee🥕🐾

This is one of the first digital drawing I ever did!.

I wanted to draw something simple and cute and I still think it's really pretty yayy!! ^-^

Here is a close-up ꉂ(˃̤▿˂̤*ૢ)'`

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