once more to see you .
suguru geto was sure of many things . One of them being the distance he was putting between himself and others , second : How you always found a way to be around him .
It's not like he didn't notice you : his friend , classmate , the person who has been preoccupying his mind relentlessly when he wasn't thinking of the past and what could have been . It's just that it never clicked in his mind that you could ever return his distorted emotions .
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grief was not easy to deal with . You have felt that for the first time with Riko Amanai , whom you haven't been in charge of like your friends but grown just as fond of the sweet girl and her dazzling persona . Second - One of your best friends Yu Haibara . With him it was different really , not only did you feel like a part of you died with him but his departure was obviously taking a toll on everyone you knew mutually . Suffering in silence was never your cup of tea , but it surely became it . Because feeling like burdening others was just as miserable and that was the last thing you wanted to feel . Through the desperation and grief you were feeling , you still noticed him .
Suguru that is . His change started with Riko , it was obvious how much he cared for her and how her death crashed him . Despite of how much he was on your mind and the array of emotion you had for him , you didn't consider yourself close enough to ask him how he feels , check on him , hug him and tell him that you understand and that he is not alone . You settled for watching him . Not in a creepy away , you would leave subtle hints to his other best friends , Ieiri Shoko and Gojo Satoru to check on him . They never really got them .
You don't know if it was Yu , Riko , or when everyone else didn't notice that suguru geto was fading away that you had wanted to change something . You wanted to help , hanging along in the background wasn't enough . Yet that's all you ended up doing .
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If you could change something in your past , you would speak up .