Angeli

This is where you enter my thoughts..

[angeliiimercado]

Dear Lolo,

Our relationship wasn’t your typical happy grandpa-lovey-grand-daughter type. We always butt heads because I was so opinionated. You gave me tough love. We both saw the world differently. But things changed after I had the boys.. Thank you for watching Avery for a couple hours while he was a baby just so I could finish high school. Thank you for showing my boys different love than you ever shown me. That’s all that really mattered to me.

Things changed when you got older though and I finished PTA school. You still didn’t always want to listen to what I had to say still (you were old school & I respected that), but things changed (again) after you had that really bad fall. I was the only one home with you & Lola. I had to keep rushing to Walgreens for more bandages and wrap because there was way too much blood. I had to lie to convince you to go to the hospital for stitches.. I had to tell you my Dad recommended you to go in order for you to even get into my car. At the hospital, you kept asking for me and making sure I was by you whenever they did something. You put your pride aside and thanked me for taking care of you. The following week when the PT came to visit, you even told him how good I took care of you and that really meant something to me.

Last Wednesday, I’m so glad I went to visit you & Lola at home.. it was sooo out of my routine but something made me NEED to visit. Aaron & I were the last ones to see you before you went into the hospital that night. You asked me to print you out pictures of you and Asher. We made plans for me to come back and visit with the boys and we’d bring those pictures.. I went to go print them out that day.. but who knew I wouldn’t be able to give them to you? Who knew you wouldn’t be able to see them? There’s nothing I want more right now than to give you those pictures and see your face light up when they were in your hands. I’m so sorry I didn’t get to give them to you sooner.. this regret will eat me alive.

Say hi to Brittany for us. We love and miss you both.

[samalive]

[november-born-dayne]

House Stark be like:

[sweetandpleasant]

[mymodernmet]

[wejusts0mekids]

[free-your-mind]

[angeliiimercado]

ASHER’S 1ST fuckyeahgameofthrones

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[angeliiimercado]

Almost 2 years ago! Time flies!

[kushandwizdom]

[angeliiimercado]

Okay, totally blogging at 6 am cause I can’t study and I need to get this off my chest. 

I posted on FaceBook yesterday about fast food workers wanting $15 an hour and I said something along the lines of, “People can’t make a living because it’s not supposed to be a career.” Someone obviously got offended cause they commented saying, “Some people don’t have a choice.” And threw in the word ignorant and some profanity. (Yeah, unnecessary right? I thought so, too). In the end, I let him know that I respect other people’s opinions. But.. that made me think “do people reeally not have a choice to better themselves?” And the answer was um NO. 

I don’t care what your situation is, I don’t care how low you think you are, or that you’re stuck in a hole that you can’t get out of no matter how hard you try. THERE’S ALWAYS A CHOICE TO BETTER YOUR LIFE. There are some circumstances that need more will power than others, but nothing is impossible if you really have the passion to succeed..if you really NEED to succeed. 

I used to always blog on here about how I was a teen mom and how hard it was etc. Honestly, other people had it way worse than I did. But I went thru things.. like getting pregnant at 15, giving a pre-mature birth at 16 with no clue on how to be a mother, taking my 6 classes at school my junior year and numerous home-ed courses so I can graduate a year early, not having a regular teenage life from that point on and having to mature way ahead of schedule, having no job & depending on my boyfriend’s minimum wage paycheck from Pizza Hut to myself working three jobs at one time, not only having financial problems but emotionally as well. My bf and I didn’t know how to work well raising a child young. It took us such a long time to understand and grow with each other. I felt so drained and when you feel drained that affects the choices you make as well. You just feel so stressed out and sometimes stress turns to anger and then you have a whole bunch of problems after you let anger take over your soul. 

My life was pretty hard at a certain point and I didn’t know what I was doing or where I was going in life. Yeah, I didn’t have it as hard as other people because I had help from my family and my boyfriend’s family but besides that I did not like the situation I was in. Overall,  I didn’t want my children growing up...limited per say. I needed to better myself and my life, long story short, I got myself out of that, I found peace in myself and balance in my life, and I’m almost graduating to be a Physical Therapist Asst. I just believe that if you have the passion and will power to succeed, you will. No matter what your circumstances are, whether you don’t have a job, your stuck at a sucky job with low pay, you depend on government help, you don’t feel as if your good enough, you don’t have support..there’s always a way. And if you think that you have no choice deep down in your heart.. I only have one thing to say, get off your ass and work harder. 

[angeliiimercado]

A video hasn't made me cry in a long time and this specific one did. I think this is something that everyone should see. -- Suicide is such a touchy subject with myself and my family. I clearly know what she is talking about, very well. And it sucks. So yeah, like she said in the video, just don't do it.

[sunflower-mama]

This is motherhood

[runwithwolvess]

This is the cutest photo.

[r2--d2]

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[trashhand]

[observando]

[millaymary]