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javi ! he/she

21 and chicano

stone, butch4myfemme

nsft MINORS DO NOT INTERACT EVER and MEN DO NOT INTERACT EVER

audhd , will talk abt fixations sometimes

i'm employed so won't be super active 24/7

more than comfortable w random dms from moots ! let's be friends !

#butchfemme #butch4femme #butch #lesbian #nsft

NO ONE UNDERSTANDS HOW HARD IT IS TO HEAR THAT UR FEMME NEEDS HELP WITH HANDY WORK AND BEING STUCK 2000 MILES AWAY😞😞😞😞THIS IS SICK AND TWISTED . THE PAIN 💔

i'm not gonna lie i just started rewatching ted lasso and the second that the intro started playing i started tearing up this show makes me so happy

god i wish i could've gotten tickets to a world cup game man

i'm exhausted of this it's actually debilitating

just remembered being like 8 and in the back seat of the car going home from school and genuinely believing for years and years that i was just a fluke and once i went through puberty id turn into a boy and even when i got my period for the first time when i was 11 i thought it was because i ate takis until i told my mom it was red and she told me what it was even though i knew about periods i didn't think it was supposed to happen to me specifically and i felt so disappointed by it

#this has gotta mean something #but i'm not gonna think about it too hard

this has lowk turned into my rant acc sorry but i'm avoiding someone on my other apps

i feel so gross and feminine and i'm having a hard time feeling "butch enough" i guess because of my body. i just feel so chopped and womanly. i think i really really need testosterone. but i am scared and i feel so depressed

i used to want it desperately a long time ago when i thought i was a trans man, but i still felt lesbian and so i guess i didn't know that lesbians could be on t, or maybe i did know it was an option but i just figured it wasn't one for me. and i've just been keeping this deep deep down for almost 10 years now and i think now it's all blowing up in my face at once because i heard my voice and it brought out almost a decades worth of feelings about it and now i can't stop hearing it and it honestly makes me panic if i think about it too hard

it's to the point where i physically cringe when i speak and i physically cringe when i look in the mirror and see how feminine my body looks. like my shoulders and my hips and waist and my face. and i can never get the right haircut even if its super short because i can't stand the sight of my face or knowing that other people are looking at it. i genuinely feel like a Creature. i just want to hide in a hole underground so no one can see me like this, besides my sweet femme who is the only thing that still makes me feel butch enough lately

i'm scared to go on t though because i'm scared i'm going to regret it somehow, like what if im just making all this up? or what if it's just like regular body image issues and not dysphoria? and i know that no one is going to understand me and they're going to think i'm trying to be a man and that feels really icky, i don't know. i really don't know what to do i need to do some deep soul searching to figure out if it's the right thing but if it's not i don't know what else i can do. i am so deeply uncomfortable in this skin

missing my femme hours

#:(

hi transmascs should i start t i'm terrified that i'll regret it and i don't want to be a man i just feel so deeply uncomfortable and womanly and it feels so wrong so if anyone else was also scared they'd regret it id like to hear how you overcame it

#butch #transmasc #butch on t #transmasculine

do any blue collar butches have any tips on getting like Any of these companies to even consider you i keep getting rejected and i think its cause i only have experience in service jobs🙁 i just wanna get started then once i move in with my femme i'll start an apprenticeship

tried registering for welding classes at community college but they're all booked up and i'm very sad and feel very desperate currently😞 i applied for lots of jobs but i think i'll call and follow up with them?

#blue collar butch #butch

dumbpuppyfag

UNGRATEFUL tech companies are saying things like "turn off your ad blocker" and "we need your photo id" instead of "thank you so much for not just pirating our shit, youre so handsome"

just finished reading gideon the ninth with my femme (she read the whole thing to me) (i am the most spoiled butch alive) i am in shambles

dragonbutchz

Butch knight obsessed with strapping down his princess on her fancy little rug in front of her chambers fireplace, her face pressed down into the fur while strong hands kept her hips held up high. Lewd slapping of their skin and wetness echoing in the room along with the hushed whimpers and moans from the knight’s sweet, sweet princess.