thoughtsandcurses

my first blog, will make more but let me braindump here first

[herfleur]

girl, your competition isn’t other people

it’s your bad habits ⋆ your distractions ⋆ your insecurities ⋆ your lack of discipline ⋆ your procrastination ⋆ your ego ⋆ your fears ⋆ your broken routine ⋆ your addictions ⋆ the person you don't want to be anymore

[shamelesslyimpurrfect]

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[maviyenot]

[aniko-commonplace]

fluffy kitty

[a-girlsoinlove]

[a-girlsoinlove]

[loveridden1999]

top 3 hobbies for young adults:

1. borrowing misery from future

2. carrying grief of the past

3. agonizing over the present

[aniko-commonplace]

Top 3 Hobbies for Young Adults Hopecore Edition

Borrowing excitement from the future

Carrying the happiness of the past

Letting the present be present

[dafancyuhinspiration]

[surahduha]

Tolerate too much and you’ll end up with aggression that has no way to go

[orpheuslament]

sorry for romanticising the mundane. i have little else

[azaablue]

the best fanfiction you've ever read was written by a woman in her 40s before she made dinner for her kids. it was written by a teenager after school when they should've been studying for a history test. and a barista came up with the idea while they cleaned the espresso machine and busser fact-checked it on their break and the post-doc edited between writing grant proposals and the nurse apologized for typos in the notes after a long shift and behind every drabble and one-shot and multi-chapter fic there is a person with a wonderful and interesting and chaotic life and it is such a privilege that we get to be apart of it because they decided to do this thing we all share, for fun.

[the-pickle-jar]

">_< but im scared of change!" <- girl who wishes everything was different

[kozumek]

i love girls we are  so fun and have morals

[aniko-commonplace]

Life is genuinely so unpredictable. Like what do you mean I was depressed, had no life direction and felt the lowest of the low last year but now I’ve got a job in academia, I volunteer at wildlife conservation centers, have judged multiple research contests and now I’m giving all that up for med school. I couldn’t even dream achieving one thing off of what I just listed, I can’t believe I have achieved all three and yet it isn’t even the highlight of my achievements. When they offered to pay for my master’s degree, I was really tempted to stay an extra 2 years but it has always been medicine and it will always be medicine. I don’t know why I did all that worrying and self-loathing back then, I was gonna figure it out, I always figure it out. trust yourself more gwenny, you know what you’re doing even if you don’t realize it at the moment.

[rozieramati]

How to Save Your Own Life, Erica Jong

[capric0rn]

[shitilyposting]

"I don't wanna bother you"

Have you considered that this is how your presence feels?

[47witchyneurons]

When I get blood samples at work sometimes they’re still warm from being imminently inside the patient’s veins and my hands are always cold because all the labs Ive work in are in the basement and they keep it kinda cold for whatever reason (and I’m also just a chilly kid).

And I clutch the little warm tubes of blood and feel this sick person warming my hands and I think about how kind you might be and how I wish I could hold your hand and how badly, how really really badly, I want you to get better and stay warm and hold someone’s hand again.

And anyway sometimes it’s better to not think so vividly about the people I’m doing tests for. I’m a good little cog in a vast machine of people all trying to heal and cure, and my cog feels so fucking small sometimes. But I hope the blood I prepare for you helps you breathe better and laugh and wake up feeling well rested.

We’ve never met but you warmed my hands and I want you to know I love you and I’m rooting for you.