Anonymous Blog 02

[anonymous-blog-02]

Rant time:

Im so fucking done with everything right now. I feel like everyone hates me and are just waiting for me to screw up enough so they can drop me.

And I know she doesn’t mean it but my one friend, C, is constantly pissing me off. She makes fun of my height and size and I know it’s in a joking way but it’s just not funny anymore. She judges me for my music and doesn’t believe me when I say certain things and I feel like she just doesn’t care anymore.

And my best friend is getting closer with C and I feel like I’m being replaced and I don’t want to lose anymore friends cause I already feel like I’ve lost almost everyone I care about.

[anonymous-blog-02]

Prom dress shopping is stressful.

I tried on many different dresses with many different colours and styles. I fell in love with a few.

My top three are all different and, if I’m honest, I think I may have it dwindled down to two, or even one. But the dress I love isn’t my normal style and my mother is fighting me on it subtly.

It’s forest green and corset back and so damn gorgeous. I don’t know how to describe the feeling, but it feels like ME.

The dress my mother keeps yapping about is a typical princess dress. Poofy. It feels like the little girl I was all that time ago, and it’s lovely. But it just isn’t me anymore.

My mother keeps subtly urging me to pick that but it doesn’t feel right for me. What do I do?

[anonymous-blog-02]

Hey guys. Im back. My postings going to be a little inconsistent btw. Still not sleeping great but im feeling a bit better. I have my new group of besties and I know they’re with me through my highs and lows. And no matter what I’ll stay by there side.

What about you? How’s life for you guys?

[anonymous-blog-02]

Hi, I’m feeling better now. Thanks to ninotbh. He’s clever and helped me see the truth that was under my nose. I think I might be okay after all. I have the best family, the best friends and I have so many people trying to help me. Sometimes, our online community can be selfish, rude and hateful. But other times, there can be people who really just want to help. Thanks to those who decide to help, I think I’m finally ready to fly. :)

Thanks again to ninotbh for helping.

[anonymous-blog-02]

To my ex bestie:

We were best friends, why would you betray me like that? You messed with my feelings and it really hurt. It still hurts over a week later. I’m not sure this hurt will ever numb down. Never. I wish that day had never happened because not only did it ruin our friendship, it ruined me. I’m never going to be okay and it’s your fault! It’s all your fault! You were stupid and ruined our friendship, my LIFE!!! You broke me and it hurts. It really fucking hurts. I’m crying myself to sleep at night, dying inside every day. It’s taking my focus of school and you fucked me up so bad I can’t go a day without thinking of you. Without longing for our friendship back. Without longing for a non-broken heart. I’m trying to let it go, I really am. I’m trying. But instead of being successful, I’m dying.

How is all of your days going?

[anonymous-blog-02]

People: Are you okay?

What I should say: No, I feel crap.

What I actually say: Yeah, just tired.

People: Okay.

Me, In my head: At least I didn’t burden them with my problems

[anonymous-blog-02]

Hi, it’s me again. I haven’t had a good day today, either. Rubbish sleep last night and I feel like I’m gonna throw up. On top of this I have another dilemma with my ex best friend. She apologised and I can tell she’s really trying to make it up to me, should I forgive her?

[anonymous-blog-02]

Hi, this is my Anonymous Blog, where I will try to let out my feelings.

Today, I haven’t been feeling great. My shoe has been rubbing against my foot and I’ve had a really bad headache. On top of this, my best friend broke my heart a couple days ago.

Hope all of you are doing well.