Feel like my mind has been so scattered lately,
Day to day is fine in the moment,
But when I really think about it I feel like my head is spinning,
And it’s not like I have sooooo much going on,
I just don’t know if I’ve taken a moment to myself…
I’m scared to take a moment alone with my thoughts,
I always keep running hoping I don’t have to process things and I’ll just get over them somehow,
But now I feel like my emotions are spinning and I can’t pin point why,
I’m sure it’s a multitude of things,
I’m at a state of depression…
No one will truly ever be able to tell because I keep up with day to day life so well…
But I’m not taking care of myself like I should,
I know my problems are so small compared to those of other but I just hate the fact that I feel like I’m losing myself…
If I could sleep all day everyday I would …
But that would be too noticeable to those around me,
As sit in this stair well writing this while on a break from class idk how I plan to move forward to correct this…
I still don’t want to be alone with my thoughts
But at least I’ve come to recognize what I’m doing and how unhealthy I feel …
I guess that’s a first step …