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What are you supposed to do when your heart is so broken you can barely breath?
Can you hate someone for what they have done, but still love them for whom they had been?
Jodi Picoult, Nineteen Minutes
It's over and I know it, everybody, even his closest friends told me it's better this way because he's not a good person anymore and he enjoyed hurting me so much, he showed off to everyone about how easy it was to manipulate me.
I know I have to forget him, right now I can't picture his face or hear his voice. But I can't let go of that feeling of home I had never felt before him.
It's been months, I should feel a little better. I can't go to bed every night screaming for him to come back and just pretend nothing happened because I need my home.
The only reason I stayed was because he was just as broken as me and for the first time in my life I wanted something, and it was to make him feel loved, make him happy.
So many years wasted.
Everything is gone now.
I should be as well.
Had he not stopped me then, I would not be hurting now because of him
Holding on gets harder and harder everyday and I don’t really see myself having a future.
i miss you but i dont want you back
i love you but i hate you at the same time
im not in love with you anymore i think and yes i miss you but i miss the person you were back then - how we were before all of this
i hurt you, that i know.
but i could never get over how badly you hurt me
so i will always love you but never again
i miss you but please stay away
“I feel so fucking unimportant to you”
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Como me llamo
Estanislao
First time in my life (or at least since high school) I've spent a cold night single and I feel terribly lonely. This is the part no one can help you with after a breakup, the everyday things. I can't believe how I can miss a person who hurt me so much and feels no regrets for it.
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Color Magick
Ways you can use Color Magick
When choosing your outfit for the day
When picking out a candle for your spell and ritual
Candle Magick
Painting or Drawing
To add intention to your writing
Black
Symbolizes:
Grounding
Protection
Safety
Death
Underworld
Restriction
Night
Magickal Uses:
Reversing
Uncrossing
Unhexing
Banishing
Black Magick Repelling
Banishing negative energy
Releasing
Defense
Scrying
Hexing
Cursing
Protection
Wards off negativity
Spirit Contact
Correspondence to the Major Arcana:
Death
Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:
Saturn
Week Day correspondence: Tuesday + Saturday
Direction: North
Brown
Symbolizes:
Earth
Concentration
Construction
Stability
Animal
Magickal Uses:
House Blessing
Animal Magick
Pet Magick
Earth Magick
To influence Friendships
Element: Earth
Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:
Scorpio
Capricorn
Direction: North
Copper
Symbolizes:
Money
Fertility
Magickal Uses:
Business and financial success
Money Drawing
Fertility
Career Growth
Gold
Symbolizes:
Fortune
Abundance
Prosperity
Positivity
Luxury
Health
Justice
Magickal Uses
Luck
Wealth
Good Health
Healing Spells
Solar Magick
Correspondence to the Major Arcana:
The Sun
Week Day correspondence: Sunday
Direction: South
Grey
Symbolizes:
Loneliness
Lore
Knowledge
Wisdom
Transformation
Magickal Uses
Removes negative influences
Increases Knowledge
Inspires Transformation
Communication with the faerie realm
Vision Quests
Planet: Moon
Direction: West
White
Symbolizes:
Purity
Unity
Cleansing
Peace
Balance
Spirituality
Innocence
Truth
Divinity
Love
Calm
Unbiased Opinion
Forgiveness
Acceptance
Magickal Uses:
Eliminates negative energy
Creates inner peace
Uncrossing
Consecration
Moon Magick
Protection
Cleanses
Correspondence to the Major Arcana:
The Fool
Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:
Moon
Pisces
Associated Chakra: Crown
Week Day correspondence: Monday
Direction: East
Silver
Symbolizes:
Stability
Intuition
Dreams
Communication
Magickal Uses:
Moon Magick
Astral Energy
Telepathy
Clairvoyance
Psychic Awareness
Meditation
Correspondence to the Major Arcana:
The Moon
Week Day correspondence: Monday
Direction: East
Green
Symbolizes:
Prosperity
Money
Abundance
Healing
Growth
Luck
Faeries
Hope
Rebirth
Youth
Intuition
Nature
Magickal Uses:
Money Spells
Herbal Magick
Garden Magick
Luck drawing
Faerie magick
Plant magick
Money drawing
Correspondence to the Major Arcana:
The Empress
The Lovers
The Hermit
Justice
Death
Element: Earth
Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:
Venus
Mercury
Aquarius
Cancer
Associated Chakra: Heart
Week Day correspondence: Thursday
Direction: North
Blue
Symbolizes:
Communication
Focus
Forgiveness
Truth
Patience
Harmony
Wisdom
Thoughtfulness
Youthfulness
Creativity
Healing
Organization
Peace
Justice
Tranquility
Magickal uses:
Removing Bad Vibrations
Astral projection
Water element
Emotional Work
Correspondence to the Major Arcana:
The High Priestess
The Emperor
The Hanged Man
Death
Temperance
Element: Water
Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:
Jupiter
Moon
Virgo
Capricorn
Aquarius
Pisces
Associated Chakra: Throat
Week Day correspondence: Thursday
Direction: West
Purple
Symbolizes:
Wisdom
Power
Wealth
Prophecy
Magickal Uses:
Contact with spirits
Good fortune
Prophetic visions
Meditation
Divination
Correspondence to the Major Arcana:
The Heirophant
Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:
Mercury
Saturn
Capricorn
Jupiter
Gemini
Sagittarius
Associated Chakra: Brow
Week Day correspondence: Wednesday + Thursday
Direction: East
Pink
Symbolizes:
Love
Compassion
Friendship
Romance
Intimacy
Emotions
Self Love
Calming
Harmony
New Beginnings
Honor
Magical Uses:
Brings forth new beginnings
Attracts romance
Attracts new friendship
Encourages self love
Correspondence to the Major Arcana:
The Empress
Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:
Venus influencing Mars
Week Day correspondence: Friday
Direction: South
Red
Symbolizes:
Passion
Anger
War
Strength
Conflict
Fire element
Healing
Inspiration
Bravery
Courage
Strength
Ambition
Leadership
Confrontation
Combat
Mercy
Magickal Uses:
Helps find love
Fire Element Work
Purification
Correspondence to the Major Arcana:
The Emperor
The Tower
Judgement
Element: Fire
Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:
Aries
Scorpio
Mars influencing Saturn
Associated Chakra: Root
Week Day correspondence: Tuesday
Direction: South
Orange
Symbolizes:
Creativity
Intellect
Justice
Kindness
Harvest
Strength
Joy
Ambition
Pride
Courage
Prosperity
Attraction
Kinship
Spirit
Abundance
Magickal Uses:
Business success
Spirit communication
Relieves Depression
Correspondence to the Major Arcana:
The Lovers
The Wheel of Fortune
The Sun
Element: Fire
Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:
Sun
Leo
Sagittarius
Associated Chakra: Sacral
Week Day correspondence: Tuesday + Wednesday
Direction: South
Yellow
Symbolizes:
Happiness
Success
Learning
Memory
Concentration
Inspiration
Imagination
Charm
Confidence
Air element
Will
Trust
Creativity
Communication
Summer
Improves balance
Friendship
Self-Esteem
Vitality
Beauty
Power
Learning
Magickal Uses:
Sun Magick
Increases productivity
Heightens Self-Esteem
Psychic Endeavors
Correspondences to the Major Arcana:
The Fool
The Magician
Strength
The Sun
Element: Air
Planetary and Astrological Correspondences:
Mercury
Taurus
Libra
Associated Chakra: Solar-Plexus
Week Day correspondence: Sunday
Direction: East
Sources: Witchipedia.com, spiritenterprise.com
May the Moon Light your path!
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Keeping Yourself Protected
Ways to provide protection from spiritual and physical beings:
Make a witches bottle: They provide you with protection against curses, hexes, and spells sent your way as well as to protect your property and possessions.
Salt circle: A salt circle provides the person inside with protection from negative entities and demons. Line your window sills and door way entrances with salt to create an impenetrable barrier.
Iron: Repels evil.Three iron nails driven into a doorway or window sill will block negativity from entering your home. Note: Iron repels Fae!
Plants: Some plants have protective properties.
Ask your deity for protection
Mint leaves in your shoes protects you from curses
Put pepper in protection sachets to protect against magickal attacks.
Burn bay leaves to reverse curses
Scrawl your home and clothes with protective sigils
Quartz Crystals: Provides protection.
Visualization
Paint your front porch blue to ward off ghosts:They fear water so this may confuse them.
Hang an upside down horse shoe above your door: to ward off evil spirits.
Hang wind chimes around your home: To scare off bad spirits
Nazar or evil eye: Protects your home from bad luck.
Rowan: Two branches from rowan trees bound together with red thread in the shape of a cross. It provides protection when hung above doorways, according to celtic traditions.
Arrowheads: Placed above your door will help keep burglars and unwanted guests out.
Cinnamon Sticks: Tied over the door will protect your home.
Rosemary wreath: A wreath of rosemary bound with green thread can provide your home with protection. Add other plants that correspond with protection as well.
Ivy: Grown up your house provides protection,
Mistletoe: Hung in the house protects it from thunder and lightning.
Acorn: According to Norse mythology, placing an acorn on the window sill protects the home from being struck by lightning.
Pine branch: Where it for protection.
Create your own protection amulet
Place mirrors around your home to deflect the evil eye
Sources: Charissascaulderon.com, scribol.com
Stay safe and have a Happy New Year!
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🌱The Basics of Witchcraft🌱
This is a small excerpt from my coven’s lessons. I’ll continue to post these so witchlings, or witches, can have this information! I hope it helps.
Witchcraft is, in my opinion, the practice of manipulating energy forces into your intent. This can also be simplified as the practice of magick. You can aid it by tools and materials, but no matter what, you are manipulating energy. That is why energy work can be very important.
The Craft started wayy back, from the start of human civilization. Before we started to get scientifically advanced and didn’t know that much, we would believe in the supernatural, that a god or spirit did this and that. Witches were the mediators between humans and the higher powers. Religion and Witchcraft may have gone hand to hand back then, but it isn’t always the case. You can practice witchcraft without believing in a higher power or deity. Here are just some things to know before stepping into the Craft:
Witchcraft ≠ Religion
It isn’t a game(To specify, don’t half-ass a spell. It either might not work, or worse, create chaos. We can learn about this next lesson when we learn about Energy work).
Witchcraft can be used for anything and everything you want it to be, It’s really flexible.
There are morals and ethics to learn about in the craft you should pay attention to
It is an enhancement, not a replacement to your life.
To elaborate on the last point, here is a document by Brian Windvexer that should be looked at:
Don’t Let Witchcraft Erase Who You Are:
Don’t become dependent on Tarot readings to make decisions
Don’t feel like the day is ruined if you left the house without drawing your card for the day
Don’t feel helpless if you can’t figure out a spell to help
Don’t rely on witchcraft alone to improve your relationships
Don’t forget how to speak out because you can hex at home
Don’t forget how to be confident without a candle spell
Don’t forget to discover for yourself because there are so many free resources online
Don’t get panicky if you can’t explain it with your new beliefs
Don’t lose your friends because they don’t understand the new you
Don’t avoid going out with friends so you can buy more herbs and candles instead
Don’t give up your other hobbies to practice endless energy work or Divination
Don’t neglect your job or studies to read witchcraft books instead
Don’t ask yourself ‘what would a witch do’. Ask yourself, ‘What would I do.’
Witchcraft is an enhancement to life, not a replacement for life.
There are different types of witchcraft and I’d say they are all valid. But with every practice, there are certain basics to them.
They are:
Protection
Grounding
Centering
Meditation
Visualization
Protection - To guard and prevent harmful energies to an area/being, especially in Magick practice.
There are 3 types:
Wards: protection of an area (ie. House or room)
Shields: protection of a being (ie. You, someone else, maybe a pet)
Circles: Temporary protection ground for rituals
Here’s the best part of protection, you can think of protection in so many ways, may it be a ring of fire, a giant bubble, a castle wall, whatever your heart desires! You can even more than But, I suggest putting up protection that is similar to a membrane, so things still flow freely, letting the good things in and the bad things out.
There are plenty of techniques to set up protection, starting with visualization. Imagination is a powerful tool, and is very important in practicing energy work and the craft. Some added protection is made by adding protection-associated materials, like Salt for example.
Grounding - To stabilize your energies and stay down to earth
Grounding is a great recommendation to keeping your energies in control and staying connected to the earth. It can help recharge you with energies.
One technique to help ground yourself is to visualize a root shooting from the bottom of your spine and digging into the earth like a Tree. Gather the energies from the earth, and give off all of the negative energies you feel. Cycle the energies until you feel refreshed. You can make 2 roots and have one give the good energy and the other giving to the earth the negative energies.
It can also be as simple as shaking off and stretching!
Centering - Getting your shit together (shit as in energy).
Centering is great as it can help make a state of mindfulness and gets you to stay present in the present. It’s great mentally. It helps get scattered energy into one. Literally, getting your shit together. Centering can help as well in controlling your energies and gathering yourself up so you stay together. How energy works is that you tend to throw bits and pieces of your energy all around different areas(sometimes you may not even know it), and sometimes you just need to recharge. Most of the time you should ground after a centering.
Here’s one technique to practice centering: visualize scattered energy, making you less bright and more dull, very dim as a person. Then, imagine the pieces of energy flying back at you, morphing around you into one bubble, like a puzzle piece. You start to glow brightly again.
Meditation - Being one with the thoughts/self, calming yourself down and staying mindful and aware.
Meditation can do soooo much. It helps you mentally, physically, and spiritually. It can help your energies stay in check, and It can do so much more than that. Before you astral travel, you must fall into a state of meditation. There are two types of meditation, Concentrated and Mindful. Concentrated is when you focus on one object, sound, or mantra. Mindful doesn’t focus on anything specific, just being aware of everything that passes by in your mind. In witchcraft, if it used to help discover who you are, as well as communicate to others(spirits/deities/etc).
Now, the number one thing to focus on when meditating is to breathe. Long, regular breaths help calm down. Get into a quiet area. Now get into a comfortable position, either cross-legged or laying down. Breathe. 4 counts in, 4 counts out. Clear your mind. Now, be aware of your mind.
Disclaimer: Now not everyone has to follow these things, It’s just a suggestion. Experiences vastly differ from mine.
Funny how I want to get better at my witchcraft but I am too shy to make any questions even if someone is telling me it's ok to do so, which means not only I will still have doubts but also I won't make any witchy friends.
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At least my cat likes me, I think.
Different Forms of Magick
Magick can come in various forms, with various techniques and uses. There is no right or wrong form, just whatever works best for you. You may find you want to use few, many or even all forms you encounter. There’s no limit. The only thing I would say is fear or doubt of your own ability may not provide the best results when working.
I’m going to list some, though I am in no way an expert on all, nor do I know all forms magick takes. But at the very least, I hope this will be an interesting if not useful read.
• Colour Magick - some would say this is one of the simplest forms of magick. It is often used together with others, but can be effective when used alone. Colour can enhance or change moods and emotions, it can be used to represent your goal and even something as simple as dressing your alter in a specific colour can have an effect.
• Herb magic - this can also be used alongside many other forms, for instance with talismans and amulets. The oil from herbs can be used to dress yourself or candles. You can even combine many herbs and oils together to create the desired effect.
• Candle magick - one of the oldest and simplest forms of magick, they can be used in many ways. They can be used to attract or repel, used as an offering, used to form your circle, to represent elements when placed using different colours and locations, or even just to represent the element of fire solely.
• Crystal magick - crystals and stones have their own energies and can be used in many ways. They can be used for protection, healing, enhancement, enchantment, to aid in meditation any many more ways. Even ordinary stones can be charged for use in different ways, an example would be rune stones.
• Knot magick - strangely although this is a simple and versatile form, I’ve found few people know of it. It can be used in weaving, knitting, crocheting, just plain knots or intricate knots. You can use anything that can be made into a knot, whether you choose rope, ribbon, cord, wool, string. At its simplest it’s knots in a cord, but you can make it more intricate with uses of different colours, shapes, changing the pattern in places and even weaving in symbols.
• Representational magick - magick is ever changing and flowing, and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to add this or not, but history is important and unfortunately a lot has been lost. Representational magick can now be used to describe what you’re using a tool or ingredient for, an example would be that a purple candle is used to represent spiritual power. But there was a time, if not still, that it was used to describe a form all of it’s own. A good example would be the use of poppets, dolls fashioned by the witch to represent a person. With witch hunting and bad portrayal in media this has come to be seen as a negative practice, when it can be used for many things.
• Symbolic magick - unlike representational magic which would use items, this uses shapes, sigils and symbols. They can be used to represent anything, and while there are many you may know as standard, planetary for example, you yourself are free to create your own. Many years ago when a witch would have to hide their workings, they would even come to develop their own alphabet for their book of shadows.
• Elemental magic - with this magic the elements are called upon to add power to workings. You may find yourself favouring one in particular, and it may not be one that would be traditionally fitting for you. For example I am a Gemini, typically an air sign, but I favour working with fire.
• Talisman, amulet and charm magick - this uses a lot of other forms. There are many uses for them, luck and protection being very well known. They are fashioned as jewellery, carried around in a pouch and can even be made into key chains and phone charms. This form of magic can be as simple as a necklace made with a single stone or as intricate as you like, including symbols, containers for herbs many different stones that compliment each other, use of colour and different metals, even the shape it takes can have an effect.
• Divination magick - divination magick can come in many different forms. From tarot, scrying, crystal balls, palmistry to tea leaves and many more. You may find one works better for obtaining answers than another, it’s not uncommon to find one is more successful for you personally. Most people will think of it as “future telling” thanks to how media has portrayed it, but that is just one aspect of it. You can use it to seek answers, to find things that are lost, and to find information to guide you. You may choose to use to obtain the meaning behind dreams. There are many uses besides seeing the future, and you may find you use divination in a completely different way to others.
☆☆Thank you for reading, and please let me know if there’s any forms you think I should add☆☆
🕯Candles in Magick 🕯
Candles are widely used in rituals, and candle magick is great for new and experienced witches alike. The use of them in your own practice will help you keep focused on your dreams!
Black: Grounding, wisdom, protection, knowledge, reversing, banishing negative energies.
Blue: Good fortune, will power, forgiveness, communication, patience, domestic harmony, organization, focus.
Brown: Food/animal/earth/pet magick, stability, concentration, locating lost objects, finances.
Gold: Quick luck, health, attraction, good fortune, abundance, male energy, understanding, divination, positive attitude, justice.
Gray: Removal of negative influences, contemplation.
Green: Money, meditation, ambition, luck, physical & emotional healing, growth.
Lavender: Intuition, knowledge.
Light Blue: Peace, spirituality, protection, tranquility.
Orange: Self-expression, joy, creativity, action, overcoming addictions, ambition, opportunity, celebration, investments.
Pink: Romance, femininity, friendship, romance, nurturing, partnership, spiritual/emotional healing, self-improvement.
Purple: Wisdom, spiritual power, contact with spirits, driving away evil, breaking bad habits.
Red: Courage, passion, fertility, vitality, strength, action, independence, assertiveness.
Silver: Feminine divinity, stability, dreams, psychic awareness, intuition, meditation.
Violet: Insight, connecting to your higher self, clarity.
White: Cleansing, unity, balance, healing, purity, peace, truth, balance of your aura, all-purpose.
Yellow: Success, happiness, concentration, travel, success, inspiration, charm, imagination, confidence.
🕯Bonus: Candles and the signs!
Aries: Red.
Taurus: Green.
Gemini: Yellow.
Cancer: Silver.
Leo: Orange.
Virgo: Yellow.
Libra: Pink.
Scorpio: Red.
Sagittarius: Purple.
Capricorn: Black.
Aquarius: Any Color.
Pisces: Mauve.