you left me...

Welcome to my blog This is a safe haven for anyone who is anti Swanfire. No, I am NOT a Captain Swan or Swan Queen shipper, so please don't even ask. I'm just a Emma Swan fan who hates what Neal has done to Emma and wants a place to vent. I don't ship any Emma ships. This is not a Neal friendly blog. So, just a heads up. I will tag all my posts as anti and if they contain spoilers, I will tag as ouat spoilers. If you have any questions, let me know but before you send me an ask, make sure to read my FAQ first. Thank you! (:

[once-upon-a-side-character]

Once Upon a Time Appreciation Week: 

Day 1 - Favourite Main Character: Emma Swan

“The only one who saves me is me.”

[epona610]

Which Swanfire scene did you dislike most, and why?

My first instinct would’ve been to say the one in Manhattan when he quite literally laughs at her pain…but I wanted to do one that hasn’t shown up yet, so I cheated a bit. This isn’t technically an SF scene, but for me, Neal’s presence was very strong. This was definitely one of the most heartbreaking scenes in the show for me, and it’s really Neal’s fault that (17-year-old!) Emma had to go through this. There’s the obvious, that he had unprotected sex with a 16- or 17-year-old girl. Then there’s the fact that she’s in prison for his crime—and therefore shackled to the hospital bed while giving birth.

And of course we can’t forget that because the first person she opened her heart to used and abandoned her, she feels worthless and unlovable to such an extent that she’s sure she’s incapable of being a mother despite already clearly loving her son. So she makes the incredibly difficult decision to give him up for adoption, to give him what she’d hoped would be a better life than (she thinks) she could give him. She’s so sure that she isn’t good enough for her child (after all, she wasn’t good enough for his father) that she can’t even let herself look at him for fear that she would change her mind and make what she thought would be the selfish choice to keep him. It kills me every time.

[anti--swanfire]

Okay so really look at this right here, this shows how really young Emma was when she was with Neal. Emma is about 15 years old in this most recent episode, so she isn’t that much older when she met Neal.

So this is what she would’ve looked like. So really look at this, you can really see how problematic it is, and I will never understand how certain Swanfire shippers can consider this “cute” or “healthy.” Just… no.

[part one] - [part two] - [part three]

[anti--swanfire]

I’m so tired of certain SF BA’s trying to justify Neal’s actions by saying that Emma had to discover her own destiny before believing in herself and the curse. That is such a crappy way of saying that what Neal did was nothing bad at all and Emma needed to be left in prison and alone for her entire life because she “needed” to figure things out on her own. That is such bullshit.

So, last night, I was re-watching some of S1 of OUAT and I got to the episode called “The Stranger” and this quote really stood out to me. This right here, clear canon proof, that Emma needed someone to help her and guide her. That Emma needed someone to help her believe in her destiny. 

And what we’ve clearly seen, in canon, that Henry was the only one who guided her towards her destiny, even Emma, herself, said that it was HENRY who brought her home. Not Neal, Neal did NOT bring Emma home. He did NOT help her fulfill her destiny, he did nothing but cause her endless trust issues and an extremely broken heart. Neal didn’t do anything to help Emma.

[anti--swanfire]

Just going to leave this here…. [part one]

[anti--swanfire]

[part one] - [part two] - [part three] - [part four] - [part five] - [part six] - [part seven]

This is the scene where Neal tells Emma that he needs to go to Canada without her. And you can see by her face, that she is heartbroken. The one person she thought she found a home with is leaving her too. This is how Emma really looked at the age of 17.

This is how her reaction would have looked if they had used Abby Ross instead, who btw is closer to Emma’s age in Tallahassee.

[anti--swanfire]

Yup, I found a screencap that covered almost the full page and you are completely correct!

On the bottom line it clearly says: Neal Cassidy may be in possession of stolen fire arms.

The top pic I sharpened it a bit and the bottom is the original. This is some scary stuff because it wasn’t just the police that were looking for him, it was the FBI too! And it says that Neal might be in possession of a gun, and if Neal did have a gun wtf? Why would be think it’s okay to bring a 16/17 girl along in a car with stolen guns.

What he did was extremely dangerous, and to put a 16/17 girl in a mix was just fucking foolish of Neal. I mean, seriously! This makes me even more fucking upset! It disgusts me so much!

[anti--swanfire]

Omg, I want to seriously throw up, this is so disturbing, this is what Emma would have looked like when she met Neal. This is how young Emma was. Ugh, this hurts my eyes and soul..

And that last graphic is the scariest, look at Neal’s creepy face looking at Emma.. *shudders*

[part one] - [part two] - [part three] - [part four] - [part five] - [part six]

[anti--swanfire]

Emma and Neal fighting the moment they first saw each other after 11 years. 

“You brought him here! You brought him to me! Why would you do that?!” - Neal.

“Hey! I’m the only one allowed to be angry here!” - Emma.

Hmm, true love!1!!!

[momontheice]

Me every time I see a “Neal Cassady Deserved Better” Post in the OUAT tag...

[momontheice]

Oh dear

“ Neal 👏🏻 Cassidy 👏🏻 deserved 👏🏻 better 👏🏻 “

No

He

Didn’t

[killiansprincss]

Has someone/ can someone make an edit to that tiktok sound that goes ‘that little girl is a child I don’t wanna see you sniffing around her’ to Emma and Neal when they first meet

[killiansprincss]

Someone on tiktok said that Emma and neals relationship was “superior” and after I laughed at that utter ridiculousness I got petty and commented ‘we love the 23 year old who took advantage of the 16 year old 🥰’

[goforlaunchcee-deactivated20260]

This blog still hates Neal Cassidy. He’s a piece of shit.

[anti--swanfire]

Always has and always will

He’s the absolute worst

[thejollyswan]

looking back neal was waaaaaay too nonchalant when reuniting with emma in s2

like man you see the girl you abandoned and sent to jail for the first time in 11 years and you just 🙂

also never mind taking her feelings into consideration and showing some more remorse for what you did to her.....

[anti--swanfire]

He had no remorse and every time I saw the way he laughed in Emma’s face about her pain, I just wanted to punch him so badly.

[killianslefthook]

#it’s interesting how this relationship looks #when you have teen Emma #play teen Emma

[iverna]

Just need to talk about one of my favourite blind-and-you’ll-miss-it moments - the moment where they find Neal in the Echo Cave. It’s just so telling in terms of Emma’s reactions.

First of all, once they realise he’s here, she averts her eyes, putting off the moment where she has to look and acknowledge the truth: he’s alive, and he’s here.

She knows what this means. And she literally doesn’t want to face it. You can see her eyes slide around, and very briefly over to her parents and Hook as if to remind herself and make sure that she’s not alone, that she doesn’t have to face this alone. And only then does she manage to look across at Neal.

Then Neal notices them, and yells “Emma!” - and Emma recoils.

It’s not because his shout is startling - none of the others react to it, so it’s not the surprise or the volume. Emma is the only one who takes a step back. And they make a point of showing that, because the next shot is a closeup on Emma as she’s recoiling.

He shouts her name and her first instinct is to step back, away from him. Her movements are defensive; she’s stepping back, a little behind Hook, putting him between her and Neal. And sure, you can read that as a shippy metaphor too, but my read of it is an instinctive defensive move. Putting more distance between them, and maybe also getting behind someone she trusts to help defend her.

It’s a tiny moment, but it says so much. Even before she makes it across to him and tells him “I was hoping you were dead”, right here, you can see why. She’s not ready to face him again. She’s been hoping that she doesn’t have to. After everything they’ve been through, Neal means pain, to her, and she doesn’t want to go through it again. You can see the scared, lost girl there, the one who was betrayed and abandoned and hurt. You can also see why it will never work between them - her instinctive reaction is to put distance between them, to get away from him. There’s no urge to reach for him at all.

And at the same time, there’s a bit of internal conflict, because of course she doesn’t actively want Neal dead. It just would have been easier for her if he had been. He’s a reminder of all kinds of pain, and so she has this moment of instinctive fear that she’s going to have to go through that again, before she braces herself and faces the situation and gets on with rescuing him, because she might be scared, but she’s also incredibly brave.

(note: if you have anti-anyone stuff to say, please don’t do it here, thanks)