The thing about depression is that someday.You feel fine. You feel what is considered ânormal.â It is easy to: Eat, Sleep, Wake. Then there are the days where you canât even get out of bed, You wake up in tears. Because the pills you take won't let you wake you from your nightmares. You kill yourself every time, that is how you start every day. In tears wishing you could just be normal and okay. Guilt eats at you like a vulture devours a corpse. No matter how hard you try, sometimes you just canât get up. You are afraid to, and when you finally do, you Canât Stop. You are afraid if you stop, you wonât be able to start again, so you Run Away from problems that need to be addressed, from wrongdoings done to you, from mistakes you made, and even the wonderful things of life: Love, Laughter, and Sweet Friendships. Eventually you hit a wall and crash. You canât keep going and instead, you find yourself back to where you began. Except for this time, everything you ran from catches up to you. It gets Harder and Harder to stand, walk, existâŠand yetâŠthose bright things in life.  well, they break through. Like a candle in a subterranean cave, they illuminate the first step forward. It seems impossible, but there it is and you crawl, You dread failure, but drag yourself towards that light anyway. Depression is a shapeshifter⊠One day it is as small as a firefly in the palm of a bears hand, The next it's the bear On those days I play dead until the bear leaves me alone I call the bad days "the Dark Days"But my mind can only count reasons to stay awake So I go for walks, but my stuttering kneecaps clank like silver spoons held in strong arms with loose wrists They ring in my ears like clumsy church bells, reminding me I am sleepwalking on an ocean of happiness that I cannot baptize myself in People  say, "Happy is a decision" But my happiness is as hollow as a broken soul  My happy is a high fever that will break People say I am so good at making something out of nothing and then flat out asks me if I am afraid of dying No, I am afraid of living I am afraid to wake up every morning of my life  Putting on my mask so no one sees my pain.
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