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later that night i held an atlas in my lap.

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independent multi-muse , original characters focused , blog by io. medium-to-low activity. (IC ACTIVITY VERY SLOW UNTIL 7.2 </3 ) various triggering content might be present. 

carrd. memes. 

also found at @perzistent (medium activity), @svmmercmance (hiatus).

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THIS BLOG IS AN ARCHIVE. I AM OVER AT BUYMBD, only with Liv and Luci for the time being....

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i will move this blog...stay tuned</3

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woke up to the news of russi.an attack on ukraine…my heart goes to all the people there </3

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independent NAM ON-JO of netflix’s ALL OF US ARE DEAD.    — turned by io.

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i am in my zombie & crime & slice of life era

this means, here <3

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i am in my zombie & crime & slice of life era

this means, here <3

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i am in my zombie & crime & slice of life era

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This is, i guess, an explanation why I’ve been mia (aside from school). But this reason has been bothering me a lot for a few months to the point where I seem to not be able to enjoy rp anymore.

more under cut.

I’ve noticed that in rp world it has been quite prominent lately to use a fc that looks like/shares everything with the writer. I think this is gorgerous ESPECIALLY for cultures/ethnicities that has been lacking in a proper representation finally getting the right portrayal they deserve. But I keep seeing this with white people too who will choose a fc who looks like them and it makes me think ‘Okay, maybe I should keep being in my lane too’...

Because of this, I feel some kind of a responsibility to myself ( even if I do not really wish for it ) AND for the rp world to ONLY portray a character that looks like me, behaves like me - more or less is me. I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH SELF-INSERT MUSES (aside from u know, questionable ‘high academia’ book written by a white cishet men talking about how they fucked a girl twenty years younger than them ). 

But I am struggling to keep a character like that. Struggling to be interested in expanding a character that shares too many outward traits with me. I create them, I think I am hyped only to focus on thinking about a character that looks different/was raised in different culture but feels the same as I do.

I guess, this comes from the fact that I thrive to learn new cultures, customs, just about everything. And the fact that writing was always a form of an escape from myself and my home country - i would research and research until I was tired, to portray someone else in the world, who feels the same things as I do mentally, but is different in every other aspect. 

I am deeply aware it is  an identity issue, one that i have been working on the past years and still i do, yet with the current state of rpc i have been just constantly reminded of it and i guess, it makes me feel guilty to myself...

anyway, i felt like letting you guys  know, because in the past year I have gained some good asf mutuals even if we do not talk at all. the dash has been SUCH A GOOD place and i feel sad i have this personal issue rn...and i wanna write so much w u...but i am stuck ://

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ah, i expected to be active after my exam szn but instead i bought rdr2 ultimate edition and am playing that in my free time...

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benevolent they may be, but Finn seems a little biased, he thinks. is anything in nature really benevolent… ? he looks a little doubtful of the claim, but doesn’t call him out on it; after all, rats probably were benevolent to Finn, given their affinity… instead, he replies pleasantly to Finn’s question, with a question ;    “ sure. so, the rats follow you around… ? ”  looking to and fro the room, for where these hidden rats may be, he absently comments on the rat-Finn partnership;  “ dogs: a man’s best friend. rats: finn’s best friend … sounds nice. they’re so small—  you can sneak them into way more places; ‘don’t even have to pull the ‘they’re my emotional support rat’ thing. ”  

Finn considers Tida's response lukewarm at best. It doesn't really compel him to summon a horde of rats through the ground - destroying the floor completely. He needs a little more than a pleasantly said simple   sure   ( he isn't a man of over-the-top reactions, yet expects one in return ).

❛ Definitely. Look ... ❜ He taps his handkerchief handkerchief-less pocket, the bulge in it moves and twist and then peak a pair of pink ears, next a fuzzy head with the blackest beady eyes. Curious, the baby rat's snout twitches, its whiskers too. ❛ You know me as a rat man. What am I without them. ❜ Maybe, he is getting a little philosophical.

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Max’s 2nd b-day party !

Imagine this. It’s Maxie’s second birthday. Luci, for some unknown reasons even to himself, thinks it’s a good idea to invite a clown entertainment to his son’s birthday party. The performance is fine at first, the kids are having fun. That is until the clown pulls out a gun. Luci & Liv don’t think much of it, figuring it’s a water gun for the show ... then the clown shoots up their ceiling and demands everyone to give him money and jewelry and other valuables...

Luci is not exactly in his prime years anymore, but he could’ve easily taken the guy out given his criminal background...if he wasn’t drunk AND high out of his goddamn mind...

Anyway, the Muñoz family goes on, but Luci won’t ever mentally recover...not because his family was in danger, the guy was a thief not a killer, but he’s just THAT embarrassed...Liv likes to bring this out as a funny story and Luci tends to quickly shut her down.

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Liv and her job! 

TRIGGERS. black market for selling body parts, very brief mention of necrophilia, unethical funeral home, talk of body parts.

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i wanna post more stuff about luci & liv i’ve been writing in the background, but most drabbles & headcanons are unfinished because my brains looks like this: asdfghhjklyxcbnmm

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rats in finn’s eyes > benevolent gods.

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  tida is properly shamed by the accosting, looking surprised and humbled. finn was right! he doesn’t want to stereotype rats!  “ oh— sorry… i  thought they were like, little scavengers, you know? because they pick up leftovers that nobody else wants. they’re great for that, though— don’t get me wrong. reducing food waste? that’s very conscious of them. thanks, rats! ”  ( he meant ‘ conscientious, ’ but forgot the word… ) excessively flattering the rats, he is trying to make it up to the rats that are ‘everywhere’ for his blunder…  “ are they here right now? listening? ”  his voice lowers.  “ can they understand me? ” 

Finn nods, a nod saying 'It's actually up to the rats, but they're okay with you ... for now' — Tida probably can't get all of that from a simple nod; the fact he isn't being attacked by rats should be enough.

❛ They are ... and they understand, but are very benevolent. Don't worry. ❜ A pause, he thinks, looks around them and says: ❛ Do you want to see them? ❜

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 he leans forward, his fascination with Finn’s unusual birthright made obvious by his rapt attention, eyes agleam with questions.   “ so, say you’re in a really clean place, and there’s no rats nearby…can you summon rats ? would rats start falling out of the sky; it’s raining rats? i’m just tryin’ to see how useful this is in a fight. ”

A frown settles on his face. He is a common grump, even on a good day, the grumpiness is always grumping. And Tida has said something of an insult without realizing it. ❛ Rats don't dwell only in dirty places. That's a stereotype I wouldn't expect of you. ❜ He is perhaps a bit too dramatic, but rats are his clean babies no capable of any real harm. In other words, Finn's overly protective. ❛ Rats are everywhere, Tida. Remember that. ❜