trying to get better

for my trauma and mommy issues

[antleredventing]

getting closer to the day and my ROCD is going crazy

I hate this 💀

[antleredventing]

really

that hag is coming for the aces now?

[antleredventing]

man I don't talk about this much but I got a lot of frustrations with being ace

Not actually being ace - love that for me!

But how society reacts to it, both inside and outside the LGBT+ sphere. (Like how other queer people just find a character being ace limiting.) Even among aces, there are those in the community who don't think sex-neutral or sex-favorable aces are valid.

It's really exhausting to see and experience acephobia, along with the policing and grilling that can happen as well.

[antleredventing]

idk if it's the ocd or something else but I get so preoccupied with if I'm "feeling enough"

[antleredventing]

And now I've got questions flying in my head

"Is it physiological?? Maybe something horribly wrong is up with your body"

"man you're just fucked up permanently from all the abuse you'll never feel like other people do"

"Do you just latch onto whatever made you feel something and not let go? What if that's actually bad for you"

UuughhhhhhhhHHHHHH

[antleredventing]

idk if it's the ocd or something else but I get so preoccupied with if I'm "feeling enough"

[chillizabeth777]

[antleredventing]

when I was visiting the living oven did her whole "oh guess I'll go kill myself" shtick over the smallest things just like the good ol' days :)))

[antleredventing]

other than that the weekend was honestly fun

just that experience was enough to wipe me out and not wanna interact for a while

[antleredventing]

when I was visiting the living oven did her whole "oh guess I'll go kill myself" shtick over the smallest things just like the good ol' days :)))

[webkinzpossum]

complex trauma is kicking my ass

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Yes, multiple or all grandparents

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[antleredventing]

ngl I wanna be excited for this upcoming new season

but man it bogs me down to look for content online for my fav character and just see a lot of bashing or outright violence against him for... having flaws and going through a character arc??

[thelatestkate]

[love-me-love-my-weirdness]

Shout out to the people who never had a safe place. Who didn’t have a before trauma. Who were loved but not protected. Who were collateral damage in someone else’s breakdown. Who got fucked up so young that they’ll never know who they could have been.

Shout out to people who’ve never felt safe. I hope you do someday.

[bunnighost]

[jennifersminds]

the feminine urge to destroy every part of you that’s like your mother

[antleredventing]

rocd been kicking my ass lately

"am I happy enough"

"why do I feel irked when he touches me lately? do I like it when he touches me?"

"is he the reason I'm like this? would things be easier by myself or with someone else?"

"do I look forward to being married and having a family enough? what if I'm just not cut out for that"

and it is so. exhausting.

[antleredventing]

but when I talk myself through this and I realize this has always happened, with or without my fiance-

that I'm scared of any sort of commitment whether that be through my relationship, my career, my hobbies, etc

heck I can't even commit to what I want to do with my social media presence

or how when things are going good for me, I feel better in my relationship and everything else--

It's so obvious.

But that doesn't stop me from falling into the trap of OCD. Where it wants to figure things out and find the cause for everything. Then I wonder why I'm too tired for anything.

IT'S SO DUMB AAAAAA

[antleredventing]

oh yeah I also gotta confront with my abuser with how she's not invited to my wedding*

so that may be adding on some stress

[antleredventing]

rocd been kicking my ass lately

"am I happy enough"

"why do I feel irked when he touches me lately? do I like it when he touches me?"

"is he the reason I'm like this? would things be easier by myself or with someone else?"

"do I look forward to being married and having a family enough? what if I'm just not cut out for that"

and it is so. exhausting.

[antleredventing]

but when I talk myself through this and I realize this has always happened, with or without my fiance-

that I'm scared of any sort of commitment whether that be through my relationship, my career, my hobbies, etc

heck I can't even commit to what I want to do with my social media presence

or how when things are going good for me, I feel better in my relationship and everything else--

It's so obvious.

But that doesn't stop me from falling into the trap of OCD. Where it wants to figure things out and find the cause for everything. Then I wonder why I'm too tired for anything.

IT'S SO DUMB AAAAAA