vessel for godhood;

indie & selective portrayal of charlotte 'lottie' matthews of showtime's yellowjackets / as told by sam. ( my kind of rebirth tasted like blood. )

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might remake this blog 👁👄👁 I rly miss writing lottie ... this blog feels very messy tho so a reboot might be in order

[shadowhaert]

we might just get away with it

[liveshauntedmoved]

Oh, so cute, so revival, so aloneBirthday suit, just a smile, no one home Same as youSame as you No return, no return, no reason

YELLOWJACKETS ROLEPLAY BLOGS!

… 'Cause I'm just a girl, oh, little old me Well, don't let me out of your sightOh, I'm just a girl, all pretty and petite So don't let me have any rights

[pvnkshooter]

#𝐏𝐕𝐍𝐊𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐑 — an independent, selective & exclusive 1996 timeline portrayal of natalie scatorccio from showtime's yellowjackets. explored by indi.

[alchemisedsenlinyu]

yellowjackets (2021-present) cr. ashley lyle & bart nickerson / the last days of judas iscariot, stephen adly guirgis

[ellevenie]

Stranded in the wilderness? Searching for fellow citizen detectives to unravel mysteries? Looking to chew someone's ear off about the show?

…then you're more than welcome to join the Wiskayok Yellowjackets! This is a 18+ group server for roleplayers writing within the universe of showtime's "Yellowjackets", to find new roleplay partners and chat about the show.

Who can join? Anyone over the age of 18 who writes one (or more) of the Yellowjackets characters, original characters related to the show, and people with Yellowjackets verses.

Click here to join!

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@greatdcvide said: ❛ why are you still here? ❜ (older and younger lottie things~)

Maybe it's a shard of a mind fragmenting, but she was there. Still as real, as visceral seeming as anything else. She sighs, wide eyes focused on her older counterpart, eyes that could maybe even be described as innocent. But you know better, don't you? She offers a smile too, at herself (was this some kind of fucked up attempt at self reassurance?)

The words dance around the room, why are you still here? As if the answer could really be found anywhere external. As if she doesn't already know. There's something to be said about the past and how it does not like to go quietly, especially when yours is as loud and ravenous as hers.

And so here she stands, a haunting, an echo of girlhood. A remnant of a lifetime ago, something that refuses to die. "You really don't see it yet?" She asks softly. "Even when you don't see me, I'm still here. I never left."

Which is to say: you can't outgrow this.

[rpclefairy]

𝟐𝟎𝟎 𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐌 𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐔𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 

from this generator.

❛ close your eyes and hold out your hands. ❜ ❛ what are you smiling at? ❜ ❛ i can’t leave you alone for one minute, can i? ❜ ❛ was it you? did you do all this? ❜ ❛ i don’t know how you do this every day… ❜ ❛ that is not an appropriate question to ask a lady you’ve just met. ❜ ❛ i’m not sorry. ❜ ❛ i did warn you not to trust me. ❜ ❛ do you remember anything? at all? ❜ ❛ you’re lucky you’re cute. ❜ ❛ why don’t you just kill me? ❜ ❛ did you hurt yourself? ❜ ❛ i could show you the way. ❜ ❛ i don’t feel so good. ❜ ❛ you owe me a dinner. a very nice dinner. ❜ ❛ don’t go. please. ❜ ❛ you wanna know what your problem is? ❜ ❛ i’m here to drink alone. ❜ ❛ don’t run away from this. ❜ ❛ i’m just saying, murder is an option. ❜ ❛ i didn’t realize you were in so much pain. ❜ ❛ i guess it runs in the family, huh? ❜ ❛ you wouldn’t understand. ❜ ❛ we’ve been through a lot. i think we should just lay low and take it easy. ❜ ❛ dangerous to be out so late. ❜ ❛ i hope you haven’t been standing out in the cold this whole time. ❜ ❛ i made a mistake. ❜ ❛ am i not good enough? ❜ ❛ i’m going to get you out of here. ❜ ❛ why did you bring me here? ❜ ❛ aren’t we in a good mood today? ❜ ❛ don’t shut me out. please. ❜ ❛ the storm’s getting worse. ❜ ❛ i never meant to hurt you. ❜ ❛ you’re about as intimidating as a butterfly. ❜ ❛ have you come to laugh at me in my miserable state? ❜ ❛ here, take this. you’ll catch a cold. ❜ ❛ this is the part where you leave. ❜ ❛ why are you talking like we’ll never see each other again? ❜ ❛ you stepped on my foot! ❜ ❛ you’re not a very convincing liar. ❜ ❛ we’re in completely different leagues. ❜ ❛ how did you find me? ❜ ❛ i don’t need you anymore. ❜ ❛ rough day today? ❜ ❛ snap out of it! ❜ ❛ you look better in my clothes than i do. ❜ ❛ why are you still here? ❜ ❛ can i ask… what happened? ❜ ❛ are you saying you care about me? ❜ ❛ i won’t let anyone hurt you. ❜ ❛ it’s not stealing if it was mine to begin with. ❜ ❛ well, this is where i live. ❜ ❛ we’re not so different after all. ❜ ❛ how long have i been asleep? ❜ ❛ no more lies, no more secrets. ❜ ❛ can you forgive me? ❜ ❛ i thought you… i saw you get shot. ❜ ❛ why are you really here? ❜ ❛ i wish we never met. ❜ ❛ you look like you need a hug. ❜ ❛ would you run away with me? ❜ ❛ see? i’m not just a pretty face. ❜ ❛ we can stop them. i can help you. ❜ ❛ what now? i’m tired. ❜ ❛ i didn’t want you to see me like this. ❜ ❛ i can’t do this without you. ❜ ❛ if you tell me yours, i’ll tell you mine. ❜ ❛ are you threatening me? ❜ ❛ did you ever care about me? ❜ ❛ treat me like the princess that i am! ❜ ❛ i’m not leaving you. ❜ ❛ why did you come? ❜ ❛ i need your help… and you need mine. ❜ ❛ i wish i could hate you. ❜ ❛ i see you don’t recognize me. well, it was a long time ago. ❜ ❛ you’ve lost a lot of blood. ❜ ❛ i had my suspicions, but until now i wasn’t sure. ❜ ❛ there’s nothing left for me here. ❜ ❛ that is… literally illegal. you’re describing something illegal. ❜ ❛ wait. i’ve heard that sound before. ❜ ❛ just try to hang on. ❜ ❛ so why’s it so important anyway? ❜ ❛ i’ll stay in tonight, thanks. ❜ ❛ we can’t keep going on like this. ❜ ❛ in about a minute, you’ll be sorry you didn’t listen to me. ❜ ❛ is this seat taken? sorry, it’s a bit crowded here. ❜ ❛ you can’t leave me here alone! ❜ ❛ i’ll believe it when i see it. ❜ ❛ why are you laughing? this is a very serious situation. ❜ ❛ i bought two. here. ❜ ❛ i’ve seen you before, walking by. ❜ ❛ why can’t i come with you? ❜ ❛ c'mon. aren’t you worried what might happen if we go? ❜ ❛ walk with me? ❜ ❛ it’s very rude to stare. ❜ ❛ how many times have i told you? you can’t visit me here. ❜ ❛ we can’t fix this. can we? ❜ ❛ are you going to kill me? ❜ ❛ it’s not like you can stop me. ❜ ❛ it’s not safe for people to see us together. ❜ ❛ take me with you. ❜ ❛ some risks are worth taking. ❜ ❛ let them go. take me instead. ❜ ❛ what do you want in exchange for it? ❜ ❛ is being drunk an excuse? ❜ ❛ promise me you won’t overreact. ❜ ❛ how can i possibly trust you? after all you’ve done. ❜ ❛ how long have you been standing there? ❜ ❛ why did you wake me? ❜ ❛ i’m not here to talk about my feelings. ❜ ❛ you were going to leave without saying goodbye? ❜ ❛ for some reason, i’m attracted to you. ❜ ❛ promise me? ❜ ❛ it’s nothing, i’m just tired. ❜ ❛ i feel safe with you. ❜ ❛ i don’t need your help. ❜ ❛ i think i have a bit more experience with this thing than you do. ❜ ❛ no way, i’m not doing that. ❜ ❛ i do care. ❜ ❛ you snore in your sleep. it’s adorable. ❜ ❛ i have a spare bed. ❜ ❛ you’re very kind. some day it’ll get you killed. ❜ ❛ you’ll always have a home with me. ❜ ❛ of course i care. you’re my family. ❜ ❛ you shouldn’t insult people that are bigger than you. ❜ ❛ i never wanted to hurt you. ❜ ❛ i swear it wasn’t me. ❜ ❛ we can just sit here, you don’t have to talk. ❜ ❛ did you miss me? ❜ ❛ this isn’t just about you. it’s about what’s best for all of us. ❜ ❛ you can never admit when you’re wrong! ❜ ❛ is this what you wanted? ❜ ❛ what are you doing out here by yourself? ❜ ❛ sorry to put you through that. i guess i owe you one now. ❜ ❛ the only time you talk to me is when you need something. ❜ ❛ i’m still learning. ❜ ❛ if you have something to say, spit it out. ❜ ❛ you… don’t like me very much, do you? ❜ ❛ i’m on your side. ❜ ❛ i risked my life for you! ❜ ❛ whatever you’re going to ask, the answer is no. ❜ ❛ you can stay with me. ❜ ❛ i just need time. ❜ ❛ please don’t do this, don’t act like you care. ❜ ❛ who the hell invited you? ❜ ❛ what? no witty remark? nothing clever to say? ❜ ❛ i just wanted to say i’m sorry. ❜ ❛ think of it as a compliment. ❜ ❛ do you ever stop being so serious and dull? ❜ ❛ it’s rare to see your kind around here. ❜ ❛ you remember me. that’s good. ❜ ❛ you’re a terrible flirt you know. ❜ ❛ are you kidding me? we’re not ‘fine’! ❜ ❛ right now i wish i was dead. ❜ ❛ i guess i should’ve told you. ❜ ❛ you’re not alone. i’m here. ❜ ❛ you’ve been so quiet. what’s on your mind? ❜ ❛ knowledge is power. ❜ ❛ you scared me. ❜ ❛ well, what’s so strange about that? ❜ ❛ don’t look at me like that. ❜ ❛ i want to be there when you get what’s coming to you. ❜ ❛ just who do you think you are? ❜ ❛ you look… amazing. ❜ ❛ we’re safe, aren’t we? ❜ ❛ you know, i really hoped i’d never see this place again. ❜ ❛ don’t touch me. get away from me. ❜ ❛ i thought you’d like this. ❜ ❛ it’s too dark, i can’t see anything. ❜ ❛ what’s that smug look for? you think you can do any better? ❜ ❛ who did you piss off this time? ❜ ❛ you should’ve thought about that before you got into a fight. ❜ ❛ i only wanted to help. ❜ ❛ you knew and you didn’t tell me? ❜ ❛ you don’t scare me. ❜ ❛ wow, look who remembered my existence. ❜ ❛ change isn’t easy. ❜ ❛ why did you help me? ❜ ❛ why do you hate me? ❜ ❛ i can’t even trust myself anymore. ❜ ❛ i was making sure you weren’t dead, since you never called. ❜ ❛ you look awful. what happened? ❜ ❛ are you here to kill me? ❜ ❛ you know you aren’t allowed in here, right? ❜ ❛ was that a friend of yours? ❜ ❛ two years later and you haven’t changed. ❜ ❛ you look like you just saw a ghost. ❜ ❛ nobody tells me what to do. ❜ ❛ you’re too scared to do it, aren’t you? ❜ ❛ come on. it can’t be that bad. ❜ ❛ i hope to repay your kindness someday. ❜ ❛ just let me do this for you. ❜ ❛ why were they coming after you? ❜ ❛ how many people have you killed? how many? ❜ ❛ how much do you value your life? ❜ ❛ you don’t know when to give up, do you? ❜ ❛ don’t lie to me. ❜ ❛ i’m not sober enough to talk about this. ❜ ❛ have a drink with me. ❜

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50 Dialogue Prompts

“It’s really not that complicated.”

“Close the door.”

“It’s three in the morning.”

“I should have told you a long time ago.”

“Why are you helping me?”

“You have to leave right now.”

“Just trust me.”

“I’ve been waiting a long time.”

“You’re in love with her.”

“Come here.”

“We could get arrested for this.”

“What are you thinking about?”

“I thought you were dead.”

“You’re never going to let that go, are you?”

“Was that supposed to hurt?”

“I can explain.”

“Love is overrated.”

“Watch me.”

“I’ve missed this.”

“I don’t believe you.”

“Sometimes, being a complete nerd comes in handy.”

“I don’t owe you an explanation.”

“We have to be quiet.”

“You’re trembling.”

“I want an answer, goddammit!”

“It was you the whole time.”

“Tell me again.”

“This is why we can’t have nice things.”

“I’m not going anywhere.”

“You don’t see me.”

“I can’t keep kissing strangers and pretending that they’re you.”

“You could have died.”

“Prove it.”

“I might never get another chance to say this.”

“Do you regret it?”

“Tell me I’m wrong.”

“Lie to me then.”

“You’ve thought about this, haven’t you?”

“We need to talk about what happened last night.”

“I never stood a chance, did I?”

“I feel like I can’t breathe.”

“I’m only here to establish an alibi.”

“Are you drunk?”

“I still remember the way you taste.”

“How much of that did you hear?”

“What happens if I do this?”

“Why are you whispering?”

“You make me want things I can’t have.”

“I don’t want to screw this up.”

“People are staring.”

[healiotrope]

IL VEUT DU SANG —— independent & selective CHARLOTTE "LOTTIE" MATTHEWS from Showtimes Yellowjackets. heavily canon based. visioned by rae ( 30+, she/her. pst. ). WARNING: blog will contain triggering content. promo credit: x

[ofvalor]

time stills around you. darkness shrouds your sight. where are we?

private and highly selective multimuse. written by king. FOCUS ON: original lore, yellowjackiets, grishaverse

[sofakvng]

𝐬𝐨𝐟𝐚𝐤𝐯𝐧𝐠 — indie jeff sadecki from showtimes yellowjackets. original character and crossover friendly, plot driven, mature and triggering content present, twenty-one and older preferred. penned by char. ( side-blog will follow from misquigley )

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deep are the scars I will leave black is the blood I will BLEED yeah, nothing will hide underneath what will my legacy be?

#ANTLERMOTIFS: an independent & selective portrayal of charlotte 'lottie' matthews of showtime's yellowjackets / dark and mature themes present (18+) / prophesied by sam

(promo cred!)

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@videoacolyte said: ❛  why did you leave me?  ❜

It was a strange kind of a connection between the two of them. The word 'friend', seemed to pale in comparison to whatever had once flickered between them. But now they were far less, weren't they? Lottie wonders if she should have gone to them first after everything, but it had been years by the time she could have even tried. (No faith remains that unwavering.)

Seeing Van for the first time in years had felt like something being pulled apart in her chest. This quiet shared moment was unexpected, as were the word's falling from the other's lips. A quiet question, maybe a soft plea. Abandoned by a god of their own design.

And maybe at first Lottie didn't have a choice, sent away to be fixed, healed from things no one would ever understand. Except the other girls, except Van, who was there from the start. Who had always seen light in her, salvation. Believed in her.

But then, Lottie was free, able to build something new. To become someone new. Charlotte, grown up and keeping the past buried in a grave she only visits every so often. But now the past was here, alive. She had the choice to find Van, but she didn't. Lottie Matthews, savior in the wilderness, always bleeding for others, still so, so afraid of the shadows that lingered.

She's takes Van's hands in hers, looking in their eyes, "I didn't want to, I didn't mean to. But after everything...I'm not who I used to be. Or even worse, I'm afraid that I still am."

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CLOSED STARTER FOR @natsmellsliketeenspirit

They were a bit of an unlikely duo, at least it appeared that way on the surface. Two girls who arguably may have never even been on each other's radar were it not for being on the same soccer team. Still, they'd bonded nonetheless and Lottie was glad for it. Lottie had always sort of admired Natalie, from her skills on the field to her willingness to call people out on their bullshit unabashedly. She had a lot of heart. And as much as she didn't want to be every rich girl stereotype, she was more than aware that at times she could still be a little shallow herself.

She thinks in some ways Natalie brought out the best in her sometimes, made her feel just a little more real.

She never pushed or asked why, whenever Natalie had lingered, wanted to stay over or out later. It wasn't hard to put together the pieces, sometimes even Lottie hated her own home. Her big empty house, parents who were never there even when they were physically present. She knows it's different for Natalie, but she gets it in her own way. And she didn't mind giving her a safe haven, it helped her too, made her feel less alone in her own right.

It had been quiet for a little while, them outside looking up at the sky. Natalie had come back to her place after the party meant to celebrate another team victory. She glances over to her friend, and then softly, "Nat? Why do you hate going home so much?" Part of her knows, but she wants her to feel safe enough to talk about it too, a safe haven.

[fancydancedancepants-deactivate]

Yellowjackets S03E07 “Burial”

[pocfiction]

LOTTIE MATTHEWS YELLOWJACKETS | 2.07