God is calling me to something great. For the past 5 years I've been feeling the ascension slowly happening. Sometimes I'm the cause of delay; too scared to move, or stand still, or let go... and sometimes the delays were out of my control -- or an extension of the consequences of my aforementioned fear..
Either way, last year I tapped into something more rapid and I've been attempting to flow with it. Today is June 8th 2025. I've been unemployed since August 2024. I had been wrestling back and forth between Jan '24 and June '24 when everything started to be stripped.
In Augus, I was robbed and fired the week of a successful tattoo event AND my actual fkn birthday. Talk about a whirlwind. Evicted in October and nestled in God's arms ever since. A few more things were stripped from me this last May (2025) after my attempts at solitude resulted in me chasing down the same OLD comforts. God took my car and those "comforts" via fallouts and ghostings.
BUT... when I tell you I've never known so much peace. Its to the point now where instead of running from what's uncomfortable, I'm preparing myself for it. Peptalk, pregame, beauty routine....whatever is necessary to get me out the door, charging head on at my fear is what I'm participating in. It's kinda lovely.
I still worry, like most people, about being too aggressive and that being misunderstood or weaponized against me -- they love to say Black women are just angry and bitter -- but the reality is that there are often Universal lessons that require us to exercise that throat chakra and say WTF needs to be said.
As I move forward in this year, quite unsure of what's next for me, I just pray I continue to move with confidence, fearlessness, and faith. I've gotten so far emotionally/mentally/spiritually in such a short period of time. When I say my breakthrough is coming, I understand it may be 2-3 years from now...but when I say I'm ready, I mean BRING IT TF ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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