Fluffen's Motherfluffing Corner

Welcome to autism central ☆☆☆☆ He/They/Xe/Glae; Demisexual Homoromantic, Polyamorous ☆☆☆☆ I have posting anxiety, so sorry if I don't post for a while ☆☆☆☆ loving too many fandoms and comics and the amount of OCs to prove it ☆☆☆☆ Expect art, pokemon, chatting, reblogs, furry stuff, etc. and maybe ask-OC sideblogs soon

[anxietywithfloof]

Warning: This is a long post that i need to make for my own mental health, so if you don't want to look at this all, then I recommend going to the tl;dr section at the end, but if you do read, thank you.

Also, no names will be put because I DON'T want anyone to be dragged into this shit either. Don't go looking for them either, as I will refuse to give names of anyone. Thank you.

I don't care if you like, share, reblog, whatever. I'm not doing this for fame or to call out anyone. I just want to rid this of myself and to move on and to forgive those that I'm potentially leaving.

With all that out of the way, let's begin:

I have an announcement.

I'm taking a break from the commewnity. For a while. Idk when I'll be back, if at all. I might still talk to a few members of the commewnity, but don't expect anymore OCs from me if i decide to leave it forever. Everyone has proven they don't like them anyway. I'm angry, had multiple breakdowns, and a counselor told me this was my best bet to have my mental health be better.

Let me tell my POV.

I want to put this to rest, never to be a problem ever again.

All from the moment this shitstorm started.

My second ever reference sheet.

It was terrible, to be frank. I didn't know how to draw a Mewtwo at ALL, as well as how to execute my ideas in a drawing format or how to make a skeleton for drawing poses and such. Hell, I deleted it off of my Tumblr AND my phone because I hated it that much later on. All I knew is that I wanted one that represented me. My anxiety, my imperfections that I see in myself, my creativity. I made it and wasn't sure of the looks. It looked weird and I wasn't sure. My boyfriends and all my friends told me they loved it, however, so I went with it, nervous as hell.

This is the start of a mistake I made.

At this point, I had a couple of friends in the commewnity and I was doing decent. At least...I thought.

I wanted to join a Mew and Mewtwo server that was VERY popular, with some amazing, incredible artists and members in it, so I asked to get in.

I never got in. Still haven't.

They said they were "weary/wary" of me, which at the time, didn't make sense and...after a while...I lost, losing a friend in the process...

This was a while ago and I no longer wish to be in. It won't happen regardless, so why should I care anymore.

But the thing is...all the mods were too. From the old and bad ref that, at THAT time, I had changed and it was a bit better.

Informed it was because of my character, I tried to fix it. And, after a couple of iterations, is how you see them today. Marla. And I probably will rework them more in the future because they're a really interesting character that I want to make lore and deep characterization for.

I deleted all the old ones and that became what she looked like. Everything good, right?

Except it wasn't.

I found out other members talked about me, never even letting me KNOW about it, all behind my back saying they were uncomfortable about me, always pulling up that same damn old ref sheet that I deleted long ago and I HATED. They started saying it was a fetish character, a kink character, an NSFW character.

Marla. Is. Not. NSFW.

She's never been one and never WILL be one. NONE of my characters are, in fact. I'm a minor! I'm 16! Why the HELL would I make a character intended to be an NSFW character and post them out in the open?! What's worse?? Even though I cleared that up, they STILL think that no matter WHAT I say AND they still are holding onto that old damned ref that I didn't have confidence for in the first place.

Then they started saying they were wary because of other things, like accounts that were recommended (to which I do NOT know why they were bad for a small amount of time. Only thing I can think of is maybe because of the controversy. Maybe I accidentally followed an account that was 18+ that didn't state they were on the front. Idk. I still don't 100% know, but I think it's been fixed), to my desperation at the time to be in the server, which I get, but you have to understand that I came from a school that bullied me relentlessly and made me feel alone 24/7, so this felt like a chance at finally being heard or seen, to even my fucking ARTSTYLE and OUTCOME, to which, I need to say this. I have no control of my artstyle. My artstyle is the result of COUNTLESS practice and finding different tutorials to borrowing techniques of my favorite shows, so I'm sorry if the artstyle makes you wary of me. I can't control my own artstyle. I'm trying to IMPROVE and make it more refined, but I can't outright get rid of my artstyle. And I ALSO hate the outcome of my art sometimes. I'm not the best at angles and that feeling of "ugh. This looks off...even though I made it" happens to ANYONE that draws as a hobby. I've deleted FAR more artworks than I've posted because it looked off or I thought it could do better. So, I'm sorry my efforts also weren't enough. I really am. Like, genuine.

It's gotten to the point where I don't feel comfortable posting ANYTHING because I'm worried mods and others in the server or in the commewnity will hate me MORE for it for even MORE misconceptions and false reasons I don't know of yet. I've felt alone. Shunned. Bitter. Felt like I wasn't good enough for a chance at redemption. I've asked multiple times if i could do anything to be even in any way I could, but nothing.

If I wanted to feel like this again, I would've stayed at my old school. It's gotten to the point it feels like bullying or gatekeeping or just outright shunning me from others because of all this.

So I'm taking a break.

To those people, I've forgiven you. I've forgiven you for all this.

If you want to talk about it and work anything out...I'll be on Tumblr... and I hope we CAN work things out. But for now, I won't be giving attention to the commewnity for a while.

I love the community and I love the creativity hosted in it, but I need to do this for my mental health. I'm sorry to everyone who considers me a friend in the commewnity and I hope this whole thing can finally be solved and this whole thing can finally pass, being able to actually talk to creators and not be shunned for honest mistakes and misconceptions.

Thank you for listening and I hope everyone's daycare be a bit brighter. Mine included.

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TL;DR, an old ref I don't like because I didn't know what I was doing with the design is being hanged over my head as well as misconceptions of my characters, especially Marla, causing me to be isolated and I need a break from it.

If you want to speak, private chat me on Tumblr or Discord. You might need to wait until after I get home from school, bit I'm willing to chat or clear things up.

Thank you.

I'm sorry.

[anxietywithfloof]

A

I am confused

[wannabesugarboi]

[howieduet]

Seeing and knowing

[teaboot]

okay but like. This exact concept is what finally got me to be open about being queer in my day to day.

I was at work. I can't go into detail about the situation, but someone was outed without their consent. And nobody was saying anything, and it was quiet, so I outed myself, too. So at least neither of us would be alone.

I was worried about the consequences. I'd never considered my identity a secret, but I wasn't open about it, either. It felt like it wasn't relevant to my job. If someone asked, I'd tell them, but otherwise, what did it matter?

After the incident, I met privately with a higher up. Told them what had happened and why it wasn't good, and made some suggestions on what to do in the future to keep everyone safe to be in the closet or out of it on their own terms.

To my absolute amazement, they told me that others had come forwards anonymously to say the same things. Then word spread. Meetings were had. Policy and procedures were put in place. A training course on gender and sexuality was implemented for the very first time.

And of course there were protests- people who dug in their heels and kicked up a fuss and didn't want to learn about "all that bullshit", and when those people showed their colors, their superiors realized that they weren't actually good representatives of the sort of environment they wanted to provide our clients, and a small number were actually let go.

I went to a meeting again the other week. And do you know what happened?

The meeting lead introduced themselves by name and pronouns, and asked everyone to please state their name, and, if they wished, theirs as well.

I was near the front. I introduced myself with He/Him. I thought I'd stand out like a sore thumb and feel like an idiot for hoping for better.

Two people down, someone introduced themselves as They/Them. Someone I'd never spoken much to before.

Then, She/they. At least two "anything fine"s. A he/her.

It was incredible. And it wasn't even a whole year ago.

There are so many of us, now. Even more, as we teach and learn about ourselves, and it's not so scary because there are others like us.

I'm not as loud and proud as I hope to be some day, because I'm still scared, a little, but I am here.

And I've learned that being openly queer isn't about just expressing myself for the sake of it, bringing personal details into places it doesn't matter-

-it's about telling someone, it's not just you. I'm in your corner. There are more of us than they think. There is power in numbers, and you are not alone.

And I kind of love that

[theskeletongames]

Another Tutorial Hope you can make better hoodies with this!

[anxietywithfloof]

reblogging so I can remember this

[anxietywithfloof]

Reblog if you feel like purple today or something

Idk

[subjectverb]

knowing like a million homestuck fans is funny because youll say something and theyll be like haha accidental homestuck reference :) and also this happens every single day because everythings a FUCKING homestuck reference

[anxietywithfloof]

Bullshit

What if I said

"Man, I want a pickle salad rn"

[levshany]

Imagine if gaster created ralsei

When you asked this question, I started developing this idea and eventually came up with this stupid comic. I'm gonna call it "THE ULTIMATE GASTER THEORY"

I'm sorry, please, don't take this too seriously

[as-water-fills-the-sea]

t*rfs also like to twist the fact that there’s little long-term medical research into transitioning (for both trans women and trans men) in order to abuse and frighten trans men into detransitioning (which, btw, often leads to the suicidal depression that dysphoria causes and transitioning alleviates!)

[as-water-fills-the-sea]

like that popular post about how binding even with a good binder will fuck you up for life and make it impossible to have top surgery later on? written by a crypto-t*rf who thinks trans men are lesbians

[as-water-fills-the-sea]

the number of replies/tags that say something like “i’ve been terrified to bind and/or thought i’d completely fucked up my chance of getting top surgery because of that post” is horrific tbh and if you cis people actually gave a single shit about trans people you’d stop circulating shit like that

[nymt97]

So wait. What’s the truth? Will binding fuck up your chances of getting top surgery?

[as-water-fills-the-sea]

no, it won’t. here’s an email from my GP, who’s been working in the Fenway Health system (which focuses on LGBT healthcare and research) for over a decade:

transcription:

Binders worn too tight or for too many hours in a day can certainly cause some chronic rib/chest pain; they may even cause some scarlike thickening of the tissue under the skin - usually at the margins where the breast folds down against the chest wall in general. This can be uncomfortable, too. But none of this translates into making top surgery a problem. Not at all.

None of the surgeons I’ve sent patients to have ever remarked about this and nothing in standard practice or the general literature suggests or supports that conclusion.

[anxietywithfloof]

It's absolutely vile that those people would spread around misinformation about this kind of stuff like that

Why can't people leave trans people alone?!

We're just trying to LIVE, dammit!!

We don't need your misinfo fucking with us!

[oldmanontumbler]

Reblog to spread the word!

Image description in alt text. Feel free to screenshot and repost this image in case it gets taken down ;)

EDIT: The image says September. That is not correct. The right date is August.

[faith-in-lloyds-future]

* It'll be on August 27th

Tagging you guys asking for help ( please let me know if any of you'd like to be untagged )

@revenant-coining @the-yanderes-pearl @gender-mailman @cocajimmycola @page-2-ids @genderstarbucks @kiruyeen @a-quilted-milky-way @radiomogai @losing-my-mind-in-the-mirror

[genderstarbucks]

OH HELL YEAH

[anxietywithfloof]

Sweet!

Will keep this in mind

[feelingsoftheday]

I’m glad I met you, I hope you know that.

[mobilis-in-mobili]

Reblog if you're grateful about the fact that you know the person you reblogged from.

[officialfist]

[secret-mewtwo]

Nope

[st-rick]

Never

[setratwo]

I CAN'T 😭

[defiantsuggestions]

If a child is so afraid of getting in trouble that they don't come to their parents when they make a mistake that could possibly put their health or even their life in danger, then those parents have failed.

If something goes wrong, and the first thing that child thinks is, "oh god, my parents are gonna kill me," then the parents have failed.

If a child is afraid of their parents, if the child sees their parents as an active threat instead of a source of safety and guidance, then the parents have failed.

A parents job is to protect, to teach, to guide.

If a parent makes themself a danger to the child, in any capacity, then that parent has failed.

[homobiwan]

there are some autistic “traits” that people find really annoying but that are inherently kind

[homobiwan]

like overexplaining. a lot of autistic people didn’t have certain things explained to them because “everyone knows that.” so when an autistic person overexplains something it’s not because they think you’re stupid it’s because they know how it feels for someone to assume you know something you don’t and just not ever explain how or why. it’s a kindness. autistic people aren’t annoying or stupid for this. they’re kind.

[vigaishere]

REBLOG if you have amazing talented artist friends!

[shuckledeleted]

[ambertheartist]

Forgot some!

@i-am-blackhole @i-am-a-fish @simyona-simyskittycat @simyona @koopalings4life

[simyona]

MEHH? WAAAAAA TYSM 💖💖💖

@thebruhb0i @flamy-t @cutebendy @tsutsuji-mystic @screwzara @boiling-potato @ambertheartist @everyone 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[moonmxple]

I will

@mochablogger @paper-ghost-xoes-art @yourfriendlyshapeshiftermonsters @dxwdr0p @salachy-part-two @music-flower2484 @snoot-in-yo-boot @blairdrawzstuff and every single one of my other friends ^^

[mochabugger]

Doink

@moonmxple, @knightobreath, @s1lv3rp4w3dc4t, @circuitcarp, @leafyvegetablethesequel, @applesaucify, @haiamkai, @maxphilippa, @exquisitelyrandom, @pepperpepi and a few others who I want to tag but are already tagged!

[playwires]

OUGHFEJGJFIGJOS THANK YOU..

@undrsk0re @purpleartrowboat @sillypopper and some others i am nervous about taggifn :’D

[rubysundaey]

:3

@medkitphighting @lynivv @ghostorbz @floweafy @sleepingbananaz @dynamo-roll3r @glorylotus @knightobreath @fallenrain40 @hyp3rsh0ck

[hyp3rsh0ck]

HEVWFMWGBWMRJNTM UBWRGQCWFBWRC TYYYY

@tritonposting @fand0mswithbunny @endgamebbfan @the-lron-maiden @archituck @arrowmntic ALL OF YALL AND THE FRIEENDS I DIDN’T MENTION HAVE AMAZING ART RAGHHH

[basilthepizzabagel]

@izzyindahouse @strawberrydrawzofficial @minimumwage-employee @fissurefish @caramelizedgutz

[girlbossindahouse]

WHAT??? TYSM <333

@basilthepizzabagel @yourdearblackberry @toast-art @the-4l73rn4t1v3 @nacora-najita @mary-games-and-arts @tulipsempai @midgezra @helloiamthatlilwitch

[cryptic3clipse]

YA KNOW WHAT-

@thegenderconfusedpuffball @spirit626 @snowshinefivez5 (and you too!)

[puffyxd]

@dottyorange @3amclothesmonster @emily3clipse1

[3amclothesmonster]

@soda-sparkss @mumimoondrops @dottyorange @al1sta1r-luv

@motherarts @syncrovoid-presents And everyone else!

[mackerish-deactivated20251224]

AAAA SOBBBING,,,

@soda-sparkss @severalbonez @3amclothesmonster (thats right attackin u after u mentioned me teehee) @sheriffopossum @snowshinefivez5 and a lot of other ppl who are really cool but im scared to ping them bcus it might be annoyin-

[howdygravytrain]

ME RN

@maddiethehatter2192 @koifsssh @carnivalcarrion @chimeracarnival @theknifeclown @nosignalart @frillsand @krasytoonz @papilioalyssum @bloomynmoon @donnyssupper @oneandonlylostgirl @spacemanandy @larzuen and so many more amazing, beautiful people!!!!! 💛💛💛💛💛💛

[sharpiepirateninja]

My heart, how save you make me feel things lol jk, LOVE YA DAWG!!! here’s some others AMAZING artist that deserve to be here!!!

@thelone-copper @clownsuu @donnyssupper @cupophrogs @cutepotatook @kumakooo @koifsssh @ok-i-draw @the-pianist-from-accumula-town @chimeracarnival @chez-cinnamon @oneandonlylostgirl @delusionalpainter @justmwahstruly @ari-jay @ufevalyne @nosignalart @evillillad @theknifeclown @frillsand and so many more!!!

[ok-i-draw]

Dang I’m so honored! Here’s some amazing artist to check out!

@maddiethehatter2192 @cupophrogs @the-pianist-from-accumula-town @sheriffopossum @theknifeclown @chimeracarnival @g4l4ctical @rainbowmuncherr @dottyorange @mysticalwolf @evillillad @msadmiral

[mysticalwolf]

Aww thank you so much, I’m going to mention @ari-jay, she has some cute characters she has drawn.

[ari-jay]

Y'ALL ARE MAKING ME BLUSH!!! THANK YOU GUYS!

Please go follow these talented artists, too! They’re all equally amazing and super talented!

@maddiethehatter2192 @mysticalwolf @artblockedgremlin @sara-bell101 @sammysun @satanic-witchcraft @foxyd101 @the-pianist-from-accumula-town @thedemonwhoisinthecloset @theknifeclown @chimeracarnival @chez-cinnamon @evillillad @koifsssh @bloomynmoon @dottyorange @soda-sparkss @sweetest-honeybee @sheriffopossum @sketchquill @kamigui @clownsuu @thelone-copper @the1trueanon

AND MANY MORE! I LOVE YOU ALL AND YOUR AMAZING WORK! YOU ARE ALL AN INSPIRATION!💕💕💕

[foxyd101]

@cutepotatook @kumakooo @koifsssh @sheriffopossum @appledrop257 @justmwahstruly @thatthirstyweirdo @nonomives @kamiiiii @allister-1903929 @ashchoo @frillsand @shawarrose @chimeracarnival @kandavers @theknifeclown @cupophrogs

[divatronic3000]

@foxyd101 @theknifeclown @marisamorisa @macaron-jester @thegenderconfusedpuffball @dottyorange @koifsssh @thatthirstyweirdo @maddiethehatter2192 @3amclothesmonster @sheriffopossum @nervous-trash @appledrop257 @idraw5ometimes @delusionalpainter @mysticalwolf

[macaron-jester]

I hope I’m not bothering you!

@pyro-kiinesis @alloru @tartlyblue @vooixir @hollipolliyozza @harpiiithewitch @kaybl @keter-class-anomaly

You are all so amazing!!!

Please go check out their work!

[pyro-kiinesis]

SOBSS YOURE NOT BOTHERING ME AT ALL YOURE SO SWEET TYSM<33 ;//0//;

literally all my moots are so cool what the heck ;_; @raccoonsplace @parkersdumbacc @sketchbook-gal-xe @sophswritingthings @mintaikk @gimblest @vulturequills @critterparade @canoziro @zizephy everyone should check out these super talented peeps they’re so cool >:33 <3

[sketchbook-gal-xe]

Tagging @pyro-kiinesis back because your art is Awesome too! and thank you, you’re so nice =^_^=

also tagging a few mutuals and artists i think deserve a shoutout @kwispyhamburger @lf722 @saturnmik0 @mariruri @antonarcana

[anxietywithfloof]

Tagging @mushroom-for-art and @the-arcade-doctor because they're the first few I can think that are friends with me and are AMAZING at the art they do

Show them some love

They deserve it :3

[weekly-eons]

Goth Glaceon 🖤💙

Very Sharp

[megamew-and-crew]

Meg has discovered grass.

@pokemon-ash-aus

[pokemon-ash-aus]

From one experiment to another,

[megamew-and-crew]

Grass is soft. But grass tastes bad.

[fancyson]

reblog this to give a fresh mango to the person you reblogged this from. <3