arabella (she/her)

i do not have a blog theme. no think, only post. (also arabella isn't my real name, it's just what i like to go by on the internet)

[anxiousdisaster19]

I once read somewhere the internet is a graveyard. Half-finished profiles that take the shape of obituaries, thoughts and feelings of people, forever frozen in time, even after the person is gone.

But it’s also a graveyard of relationships. Of memories of our own. Of people who might still be alive, but not in our lives anymore.

Spotify activity of a friend that shows they’re currently listening to a genre of music that in your mind, they never liked. The discord online status showing “now playing: RDR2 on PS4” – a game they once refused to buy because of its price. Their reddit profile now shows their comments in communities of which they once tried to steer clear. Their Facebook profile just got updated with a new profile picture that you didn’t even recognize at first glance.

Every platform is a constant reminder that they’re alive and well with full lives and found families and new friend groups – that don’t include you. They’re so full of life, but in your mind, they have long since passed away. They may be starting families, but in your mind, you still stand over their grave and mourn – with the translucent ghosts of your other old friends who were once in the same friend group. Once a group, that shared a bond stronger than that of blood, making memories together. Now all ghosts haunting your mind. Their voices and laughs come in echoes, the memories in film reels with gaps in the footage; each one sparked by a new reminder of what they’re doing at this very moment. In the afterlife.

[hannah-deactivated20220725]

Do any of you ever just want to cry when you think about how much your friends mean to you?

Like I have some friends that have been so amazing to me that just thinking about how much they mean to me almost brings tears to my eyes <3

I love my friends so much and to say that they save me on a daily basis would still be an understatement for how much they mean to me.

🤍

[rosenbraut]

Things to write about in November

I. the dreams of a marble statue

II. secrets wrapped in silk paper

III. a blade made of clear quartz

IV. the uninvited guest that leaves silver-shimmering fingerprints on their cutlery

V. a sunken castle

VI. to be drunk on dew

VII. the diamond-glittering bird that sings in the royal gardens

VIII. Eos and Venus, the morning star

IX. the courtship of the Fae

X. a veil of incense

[old-screnwriter-deactivated2022]

What are your favorite best/childhood friends to lovers prompts?

Best friends to lovers prompts

The ''let's just kiss to see what it's like,'' followed by the characters pulling away, lingering, and then going in for the second kiss

Beating up the guy who broke your best friend's heart at prom, then ditching prom together, instead spending the night exploring the city. As you drive your best friend back home, you follow her to your porch, and there's a sense of a potential kiss lingering in the air (but it never happens)

Making up any excuse to spend time together, even the most ridiculous of then, like, ''I don't need a new lightbulb in my kitchen, I changed it last week!'' ''I know but let me just make sure''

We never had a chance but now you’re back in town after three years and all those unresolved feelings comes rushing back to the surface

Being jealous, or in denial, totally denying any of it to be the truth but everyone knows you're full of shit

When you start ignoring or avoiding your best friend, you don't mean to but you're always making up excuses to not go see each other, all because you're trying to stop yourself from falling even harder, which soon enough leads to an angry confrontation and a love confession

Eye-contact is a thing of the past when feelings starts to unravel, because looking at each other either hurts or sets your soul on fire (or both)

Friends and family notices you've started acting weird around each other, but you both refuse to talk about what’s causing it

Being each other's ''platonic'' dates to a friend's wedding but during the ceremony you steal glances from each other

There was only one bed — next morning you wake up entangled in each other, quickly excusing yourself from the room to avoid this awkward situation

Alternatively — you try to move away, but your best friend wraps their hands around you, snuggling even closer to you, so you decide to go in for the cuddle

Everyone thinks you're dating because you're acting like a couple

Sharing clothes even when you're not dating, you're just that comfortable with each other *cough*

Blurting your feelings out in the open on complete accident

''I'll kiss you right now to prove I don't feel anything for you'' but the kiss brings forward unresolved feelings, and as you pull back, eyes still closed, there's this urge to dive in for a second kiss

The mutual respect for each other/always protecting each other

Knowing each other inside out, everything from their favorite song, to what they named their favorite stuffed animal in second grade (and in which box it's since been put in)

Doing whatever you can to make each other happy, and bring out a smile on each other's faces

Trying to hide your true feelings as to not ruin the friendship, even going as far as avoiding each other, but somehow always ending up sharing an intimate, romantic moment

The first kiss, and the realization of ''It's always been you''

Starting to see each other in a different light

Contemplating your best friend in such a way and with details that really only someone who's in love with the person would notice

Holding hands for the first time, blushing and sharing a laugh over finally being able to do these type of small gestures

The first official ''date'' which isn't really a date but it feels like one

Showing up at each other's house late at night

Your best friend goes missing after having gotten upset over something, you're the only one who knows where to find them (which is at the location you always used to hang out at as children)

When one is dropping hints both about their feelings and desire to kiss their best friend and the other one is completely oblivious to it

You refuse to admit your feelings to your best friend and when someone asks what you are in relation to each other, your best friend says we're nothing but good friends and you're like i want to die rn :)

Spending time with each other's family, family constantly pointing out how good you would be together because you're just that compatible

[orlissa]

EGGY prompt list

We all love the EGGY guy from TikTok (B. Dylan Hollis), so why not have a prompt list of all the things he has said in his videos? :D 

Or, you know, now you can just have his quotes on your blog, because he is funny

The man looks like he does taxes for fun.

Have you no mercy?

This is culinary terrorism.

Tastes like a bookshelf–books included!

Thought this was a joke. Turns out I’m the joke.

Or what? I’m gonna ruin your disaster?

Can a cake be tried for treason?

Either the chocolate fixes everything, or this is alchemy.

What have you perfected? Garbage?

Don’t look at me, I couldn’t tell you where this is going. I just know it’s the wrong destination.

You know the other word for al dente is correct.

You see this? This is concern.

The author calls it her comfort food. I call it a mistake.

It doesn’t need salt, it needs help.

Now, in my personal experience, depression and ice cream are a match made in heaven.

Which is an interesting idea, because it’s awful.

It tastes like an identity crisis on a plate.

If I cut off my feet, do we still have to do this?

This is from 1938. It’s only electrocuted me twice.

Before pumpkin pie became king, people ate this. Now they’re dead.

Welcome to the world! It’s awful.

I’m a fool, not an idiot.

It’s like reading directions to Purgatory.

Honey, you can’t dilute a war crime.

You know, it’s horrible now, but I hope it turns out okay. Like children.

One of the many questionable substances people experiented with in the seventies.

Suppose any less and it might gain consciousness.

A little late in the century for war crimes.

You know, I’ve never been particularly religious, but today might be the day.

I feel like if I do this correctly, I’m gonna invoke the spirit of Richard Nixon.

This ain’t food, honey, it’s a bio weapon.

Bake to your liking. Sweetie, none of this is to my liking.

I bet this recipe is just all the wrong answers on a baking test.

Not bad, dead people.

It’s incredible and I’m mad about it.

Stir until disgusting.

Do I call the police or a priest?

I think I summoned something.

Brush with egg to make it presentable. Honey, that ship has sailed.

Tastes good, but feels like a pre-existing condition.

It looks like a failed grave robbery.

You know, it’s not bad, just vaguely tastes like a felony.

At least it’s not moving.

Don’t tell Gordom Ramsay.

Are we sure this recipe wasn’t written by a cat?

[hannah-deactivated20220725]

Do any of you ever just want to cry when you think about how much your friends mean to you?

Like I have some friends that have been so amazing to me that just thinking about how much they mean to me almost brings tears to my eyes <3

I love my friends so much and to say that they save me on a daily basis would still be an understatement for how much they mean to me.

🤍

[anxiousdisaster19]

I’ve been thinking about friendship break-ups for days now – but today, I was with an old friend and I sat across from them as they ate their food – the tiniest, most mundane action – and immediately, I saw the other side of the coin. The whole picture; all of it. It was like the universe reminded me why, despite the inevitable drifting apart of the best of friends, I love platonic love. I love it the most.

Because as I sat here and thought about my friend, my mind was flooded with warm thoughts and golden memories and inside jokes and sunshine-y moments, forever frozen in time. Because as I sat here and thought about my friend, all I hoped for them was good luck and success and love of the purest kind. Because as I sat here and thought about my friend, I felt my love and admiration and respect for them grow with every passing moment.

And in that moment, I knew they would always hold a special place in my heart, no matter how much time passes by.

[catchymemes]

[anxiousdisaster19]

people

the passage of time and the coming and going of people in my life-- it will never not scare me. best friends, people i have loved actively with my whole heart - will one day be nothing but strangers. and when i was younger i used to think i could hold on to them - keep talking, keep hanging out, keep spending time together so we never drift apart. but now i know.

now i know it doesn’t work that way. now i know that no matter how hard i try, they will move on, and i will move on, and eventually, we will outgrow each other. now i know that the coming and going of people in my life is…inevitable.

and i can feel it, now that we’ve all moved on to different colleges. i can feel my once best friends phasing out of my life - ever so slowly - but it’s happening. it’s happening and there’s nothing i can do about it.

[anxiousdisaster19]

live

go talk to that person you always get nervous around! wear a black leather jacket! you wanna buy a whole ass grand piano just for the aesthetic? do it! raise your hand in class and participate! speak up for the things you believe in! set boundaries with people who drain you! spend more time with those who refuel you! travel the world! if you can’t do that, travel to the next town! ask your crush out! fear is stupid and short lived! you have one life! live it!