Aphrodite's art

My name is Aphrodite/Aph, NB- they/them, 22, ♏︎ i wanna post all my stuff here cuz all the other platforms kinda blow https://patreon.com/Fyzink

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I realize i dont know how to tag these bs ramble posts i make... its been so long since i properly used tumblr

I guess i have to learn `^`

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Im always so scared to reveal the things im thinking because i assume other people are gonna look at me like im deranged and ill be excommunicated from whatever fandom im part of... and so i havent been in a fandom since i was a kid...

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i can only explain how much i love some anime by saying, i temporarily stop hating everything in the world so i can be fully focused on loving that anime...

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i hate myself but i gotta post some art. theres so much stuff i made that i waited so long that i dont even like it anymore and it will never see the light of day

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yall dont know how much it hurts me that zenless doesnt have any fucking femboys. seriously. how tf am i supposed to get my fix of drawing femboys if genshin is the one with all the FUCKING FEMBOYS!! ZENLESS!! PICK UP YOUR FUCKING FEET!!!

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i tried to speed up my work and it still took me a full hour and 12 minutes to finish this. my eyes burn and im exhausted. next ill see if i can speed up my lineart. that's what really weighed me down on this one.

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I'm worried I'm having a unique experience

TLDR: i love myself but i don't think anyone else loves me or my work despite being told otherwise.

i love myself. i think i look great. i have so many skills and I am a great artist in my own opinion. i feel proud when i look at my work. but i don't believe others see it that way. i have people praise my art and say they love it and would want to commission me, and i don't believe them. i feel like they're placating me or pitying me. people say they find me attractive and i can only believe them partly. people say they love being around me and love my personality and i just don't believe them. on social media its all a numbers game so consistent low numbers validate that belief that others don't love me like i love myself. my belief makes it harder and harder to post online because I'm just waiting to be proven right again.

i wanted to post this somewhere because last night i started to spiral and realized that i should be fine because there's no way I'm the only person who's felt like this. but i couldn't find anything. no research, no studies, no anthropological theory, not even a psychology rant. i couldn't even find one other person who said anything like this on socials.

the thought that im the only person feeling this way just makes me feel worse so i hoped that even if i dont feel better, maybe someone else will find this when theyre looking for someone who relates.

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alright, i did a lil emote today so i guess ill post this first this might be the first time ive shown my character on here so ill add refs and repost with pics here

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i havent posted in a minute. so put up with my bullshit for the next... *checks watch* 281 days??? there's no way i did that much art and didnt post it... bro... i apologize in advance...

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kinktober and inktober

ive been sick for a good few days so i was completely unprepared for inktober but heres my kinktober list, ill be doing inktober and kinktober every day this month ^^ all of my arts for it will be on this post ^^

(I am technically doing the official inktober this year too but so many of their prompts suck so if i dont like a prompt im choosing my own ^w^)

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inktober day 1: hunt (non official prompt) i drew Shax Lied from Mairimashita Iruma-kun, during the harvest festival arc. I was struggling to get both of the pieces done today, hopefully ill be better by tomorrow

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Aph’s Kinktober day 1: Humiliation

this one is actually based on this fic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/52028068/chapters/141424009

I loved the idea that chenya would end up in this predicament only to end up loving being humiliated ^^. (Btw, my uncensored arts and full resolution pics will be on my patreon cuz tumblr doesnt like them.)

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I got really sick today, I’m sorry. Ill come back to it at a later time. Day 2: Discover and foot fetish respectively

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Day 3 prompts: Boots and cockwarming

I’m still sick but I got the flats done at least, tomorrow will be better.

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day 4 prompts: Von Lycaon’s birthday and temperature play

I’m mostly better but I’m struggling to enjoy my art. Hopefully tomorrow will be better

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Sorgy I missed yesterday. Here's the shibari. I just wanna draw more furries and do more traditional art which I guess inktober is all about anyway. I'll try to catch up tomorrow!!

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kinktober and inktober

ive been sick for a good few days so i was completely unprepared for inktober but heres my kinktober list, ill be doing inktober and kinktober every day this month ^^ all of my arts for it will be on this post ^^

(I am technically doing the official inktober this year too but so many of their prompts suck so if i dont like a prompt im choosing my own ^w^)

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inktober day 1: hunt (non official prompt) i drew Shax Lied from Mairimashita Iruma-kun, during the harvest festival arc. I was struggling to get both of the pieces done today, hopefully ill be better by tomorrow

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Aph’s Kinktober day 1: Humiliation

this one is actually based on this fic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/52028068/chapters/141424009

I loved the idea that chenya would end up in this predicament only to end up loving being humiliated ^^. (Btw, my uncensored arts and full resolution pics will be on my patreon cuz tumblr doesnt like them.)

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I got really sick today, I’m sorry. Ill come back to it at a later time. Day 2: Discover and foot fetish respectively

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Day 3 prompts: Boots and cockwarming

I’m still sick but I got the flats done at least, tomorrow will be better.

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day 4 prompts: Von Lycaon's birthday and temperature play

I'm mostly better but I'm struggling to enjoy my art. Hopefully tomorrow will be better

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kinktober and inktober

ive been sick for a good few days so i was completely unprepared for inktober but heres my kinktober list, ill be doing inktober and kinktober every day this month ^^ all of my arts for it will be on this post ^^

(I am technically doing the official inktober this year too but so many of their prompts suck so if i dont like a prompt im choosing my own ^w^)

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inktober day 1: hunt (non official prompt) i drew Shax Lied from Mairimashita Iruma-kun, during the harvest festival arc. I was struggling to get both of the pieces done today, hopefully ill be better by tomorrow

[aphrodites-art]

Aph’s Kinktober day 1: Humiliation

this one is actually based on this fic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/52028068/chapters/141424009

I loved the idea that chenya would end up in this predicament only to end up loving being humiliated ^^. (Btw, my uncensored arts and full resolution pics will be on my patreon cuz tumblr doesnt like them.)

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I got really sick today, I’m sorry. Ill come back to it at a later time. Day 2: Discover and foot fetish respectively

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Day 3 prompts: Boots and cockwarming

I'm still sick but I got the flats done at least, tomorrow will be better.

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kinktober and inktober

ive been sick for a good few days so i was completely unprepared for inktober but heres my kinktober list, ill be doing inktober and kinktober every day this month ^^ all of my arts for it will be on this post ^^

(I am technically doing the official inktober this year too but so many of their prompts suck so if i dont like a prompt im choosing my own ^w^)

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inktober day 1: hunt (non official prompt) i drew Shax Lied from Mairimashita Iruma-kun, during the harvest festival arc. I was struggling to get both of the pieces done today, hopefully ill be better by tomorrow

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Aph’s Kinktober day 1: Humiliation

this one is actually based on this fic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/52028068/chapters/141424009

I loved the idea that chenya would end up in this predicament only to end up loving being humiliated ^^. (Btw, my uncensored arts and full resolution pics will be on my patreon cuz tumblr doesnt like them.)

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I got really sick today, I'm sorry. Ill come back to it at a later time. Day 2: Discover and foot fetish respectively

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kinktober and inktober

ive been sick for a good few days so i was completely unprepared for inktober but heres my kinktober list, ill be doing inktober and kinktober every day this month ^^ all of my arts for it will be on this post ^^

(I am technically doing the official inktober this year too but so many of their prompts suck so if i dont like a prompt im choosing my own ^w^)

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inktober day 1: hunt (non official prompt) i drew Shax Lied from Mairimashita Iruma-kun, during the harvest festival arc. I was struggling to get both of the pieces done today, hopefully ill be better by tomorrow

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Aph's Kinktober day 1: Humiliation

this one is actually based on this fic: https://archiveofourown.org/works/52028068/chapters/141424009

I loved the idea that chenya would end up in this predicament only to end up loving being humiliated ^^. (Btw, my uncensored arts and full resolution pics will be on my patreon cuz tumblr doesnt like them.)

[aphrodites-art]

kinktober and inktober

ive been sick for a good few days so i was completely unprepared for inktober but heres my kinktober list, ill be doing inktober and kinktober every day this month ^^ all of my arts for it will be on this post ^^

(I am technically doing the official inktober this year too but so many of their prompts suck so if i dont like a prompt im choosing my own ^w^)

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inktober day 1: hunt (non official prompt) i drew Shax Lied from Mairimashita Iruma-kun, during the harvest festival arc. I was struggling to get both of the pieces done today, hopefully ill be better by tomorrow

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kinktober and inktober

ive been sick for a good few days so i was completely unprepared for inktober but heres my kinktober list, ill be doing inktober and kinktober every day this month ^^ all of my arts for it will be on this post ^^

(I am technically doing the official inktober this year too but so many of their prompts suck so if i dont like a prompt im choosing my own ^w^)

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I CANT TAKE IT NYMORE!!! I GOTTA POST MY ART!!!! (this is an old one but its still good imo^^ i was testin the outloine art style)