a ghost of the past

there's nobody here

[apieinthesky]

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Guess I’m back wheuu Thought it would be nice to just word vomit all the thoughts in my head so maybe my head will clear up more Idk 1. This girls night was fun but I just feel like it wasn’t as genuine as it could have been? Idk if that makes any sense but maybe I just had too much expectations on how this night was going to be. Maybe it was cause l was sick and w doesn’t really talk too much but it just felt like they didn’t want to be there? Probably just me being paranoid and overthinking but it the feeling that I’m no longer as close with l, h, maybe because they seem closer to j and I is just getting stronger and stronger. I’m not even sure if my thoughts are valid and p has tried to tell me so many times that I’m just being silly but it just feels like l doesn’t need me any more in their life, they seem so much happier and closer with k that our friendship seems like it’s ending. I’m so happy that l found someone that is similar to them and feels so comfortable around them but I’d be lying if I said that the Level of k and l’s friendship didn’t affect me. L doesn’t really tell me about things but in their life as much and as much as I want to think we haven’t drifted i feel like it’s naive of me to think that L still considers me their best friend 2. Omfg I rly have to figure out the sb thing ASAP I gotta stop delaying it wtf I’ve delayed it so much i need to sit and think if there’s specifically a reason for me delaying it or if I’m just procrastinating like I do for everything else 3. Also need to start volunteering or get a job ASAP because working out even for 2h a day, is not cutting it. My thoughts keep spiraling and if I don’t keep myself busy I feel like I’ll go crazy and isolate myself from everyone. But tbh isolating myself doesn’t sound like a bad idea because the urge has been getting stronger and stronger, I know it’s bad but man I’m exhausted 4. Maybe I can start up art again or play guitar or read, i def feel like I need another outlet that’s not the gym for all this emotional frustration, I keep avoiding it and ignoring thinking about it but I feel like I’ll blow up if I don’t deal with the issues 5. I thought SAD was most of the reason for how I was feeling and honestly I’m so fukn shook that I still feel everything I did before but now I can just wear warmer clothes. Winter wasn’t the root of my issues, go figure 🙄🤦‍♀️ 6. Fuck idk how edc will play out because on one hand I don’t want to ditch l, h and k but on the other if I’m going on a trip with c and their friends after I need to be on good terms with them and also if c if the connect for edc. C also likes the music more and would be more fun to party with tbh since I’d be less worried if they were enjoying the music but I feel like if I hang out with c and we are separated from l h and k, they’re going to think I like c more or somethig and I don’t want to be the reason l is upset because i want them to not be stressed but also because I feel like it’s because of me they got convinced to come to edc when they don’t even like edm. Also I have no idea what to do about the connect cause c said they would cut me off if I chose to use their connect to get l or k anything but l thinks c is getting them too so they will be hurt if I say now that’s jot the case. I don’t want to lie to friends but I also think it’s irresponsible for c to not want to also help out l and k especially if cs connect would be safer. I mean for things like this, even if they’re not your friends anymore, if it means their life is safer because of you helping them out then why wouldn’t you?? This situation is so fucked and I feel like c is making a much bigger deal and milking the situation more than they need to. I just want all my friends to be friends :( or atleast be civil if you’re going traveling with them??? Forget edc, I’m even worried about fucking vicetone cause c and their group will be there but I invited l and they want to go so now I have no idea how things will play out. I don’t mind going back and forth between the groups but I don’t want c and their group to think I only liked to hang with them because L and my other group isn’t there at the shows and I don’t want L and the group to think I’m being a two faced snake just cause I’m still on ok terms with c and going to c’s group half the time. Idk I have such a bad feeling about this entire thing and I can feel it that I’ll be judged by both groups for trying to be nice to both but I don’t like choosing sides when there isn’t a need for it. Being judged by L and the group I used to hang out with so much and still do def hurts but I’d be stupid to believe that they aren’t watching my actions and talking about them in all the hangouts they stopped inviting me to

[amroyounes]

8 vegetables that you can regrow again and again.

Scallions

You can regrow scallions by leaving an inch attached to the roots and place them in a small glass with a little water in a well-lit room.

Garlic

When garlic begins to sprout, you can put them in a glass with a little water and grow garlic sprouts. The sprouts have a mild flavor than garlic and can be added to salads, pasta and other dishes.

Bok Choy

Bok choy can be regrown by placing the root end in water in a well-lit area. In 1-2 weeks , you can transplant it to a pot with soil and grow a full new head.

Carrots

Put carrot tops in a dish with a little water. Set the dish in a well-lit room or a window sill.  You’ll have carrot tops to use in salads. 

Basil

Put clippings from basil with 3 to 4-inch stems in a glass of water and place it in direct sunlight. When the roots are about 2 inches long, plant them in pots to and in time it will grow a full basil plant.

Celery

Cut off the base of the celery and place it in a saucer or shallow bowl of warm water in the sun. Leaves will begin to thicken and grow in the middle of the base, then transfer the celery to soil. 

Romaine Lettuce

Put romaine lettuce stumps in a ½ inch of water. Re-water to keep water level at ½ inch. After a few days, roots and new leaves will appear and you can transplant it into soil.

Cilantro

The stems of cilantro will grown when placed in a glass of water. Once the roots are long enough, plant them in a pot in a well-lit room. You will have a full plant in a few months.

[apieinthesky]

the worst part of me being emotional is that I kNOW im being overly dramatic but it legit feels like im gonna drown in my own self-pity sometimes

[apieinthesky]

Post study abroad depression is a thing, who knew 🙃

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

Do you Want to Enjoy your Life?

1. Don’t keep doing things you hate.

2. Stop terrorizing yourself with your negative thoughts.

3. Choose to enjoy the simple pleasures of life.

4. Watch what you say; don’t put yourself or others down.

5. Take care of your body, and love and care for it.

6. Develop a life-style that helps develop self-esteem.

7. Don’t compare yourself with others; note where you have grown and changed.

8. Stop trying to change others; keep the focus on yourself.

9. Laugh a lot; enjoy yourself; and don’t take life too seriously.

10.Accept compliments, and see the good in who you are.

[apieinthesky]

I wish I could let go of things but I don't know how to and wow this takes so much energy out of me

[letsflytoasiarenata]

kdrama aesthetic: Temperature of Love

Someone told me that happiness comes from within. It doesn’t come from someone else.

[waterjemsss]

me after I shop online 😭😭😭😭

[craftty9192]

not me because I use unidays 💁🏻

[waterjemsss]

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[craftty9192]

unidays is a site where u can get discounts to stores like asos, sephora, microsoft, topshop and tons more!! you can sign up for free if you’re in uni or college

AND i bought my first macbook using their discounts 

[accio-feels-deactivated20171217]

Look I don’t normally reblog stuff like this, but I use uni days and you legit get discounts on selected online shops. I use boohoo.com because I like the dresses (and cheap makeup/jewellery). If you’re a uni/college student, you sign up by typing in your student email and then you get the confirmation email. When you log onto unidays, it will give you a lot of websites that you can get discounts from and give you the code, then when you check out, you type the code in for the discounts and it’s done. Apple Store does do discounts for students.

[apieinthesky]

it just upsets me?? when people I thought I was good friends stop contacting me or try to leave me in the “past”? 

I mean I guess we weren’t close at all and they just kept me around for convenience if they can just stop all forms of communication like this 

[kdramastuff]

[apieinthesky]

Things i want to do that require money list??

- gun shooting range - pole dancing classes - boxing classes (maybe some other martial arts classes since ive done boxing before??) - hot yoga or aerial yoga classes? - travel (somewhere i can skydive again?) - buy a sewing machine

[feathercut]

tips on saving money while shopping online

[feathercut]

1. get the extension called honey; it will automatically try coupon codes they find online. its just an easy step to save money when purchasing stuff online. 

2. sign up for ebates. ebates is a site where you can get cash back on your online purchases and sometimes even in store purchases. its super easy to sign up and set it up. sign up here + they have some special going on where you get 10 dollars as a welcome gift. seriously, its like free money, every penny counts.

3. amazon prime is great. amazon prime has free 2 day shipping on a lot of their items and you can save a lot on shipping costs. if you are a student, you can get 6 months of prime for free & then half off afterwards. the link is here; if you don’t qualify for student prime, you can sign up on their 1 month free trial. Remember to cancel at the end if you don’t want to be charged for the membership fee.

4. now if you do use amazon to purchase things, remember to check the prices with camelcamelcamel. They offer nice insights to amazon’s pricing history. If you’re willing to wait, the price could go down. 

5. also many sites offer pricing matching. so basically that means if you find it cheaper somewhere else, the company will price match it. some places even throw a 10% off on top of that. 

6. this does not work for a lot of sites but if you add your items in your cart and then check out until you get to the part to put in your contact information. abandon your cart and some companies will send you a coupon code in hopes you will come back and finish your checkout. 

7. unidays!! this is a student discount site. They offer discounts up to 50% off on very popular sites and some of their deals are stackable with other discounts. 

if you have anymore tips to add, send me a message and I will add it to the post.

[sacredwhores]

Agnès Varda - Jane B. par Agnès V. (1987)

[valyrianpoem]

Eleanor Roosevelt and Lyudmila Pavlichenko.    Lyudmila Pavlichenko was a Soviet sniper credited with 309 kills, she is regarded as the most successful female sniper in history. She visited with President Franklin Roosevelt, becoming the first Soviet citizen to be welcomed at the White House. Afterward, Eleanor Roosevelt asked Lyudmila to accompany her on a tour of the country and tell Americans of her experiences as a woman in combat. Pavlichenko was only 25, but she had been wounded four times in battle. ↳ more х,х,х | gifs from Battle for Sevastopol 2015 trailer.

[girlschasinggirls]

this is her 

[vaspider]

That movie is fucking amazing BTW and should be watched.

[apieinthesky]

trying to cut out added sugars makes me want to go back to bad carbs gOD DAMN IT 

and my cramps are making this all so  much worse?? and the back pain??? can someone just take me out with a sniper ohh my god 

[welcometoyouredoom]

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