@doctorsrose tags ID: [#imagine you're a boy who's going to die. you're in love with the girl you've been watching from afar. you know your fate. #you just want to help her, but then there's the announcement and she's here in front of you, kissing you, risking her life for you and you #think, i could live and i could love. you think she loves you when she hands you the berries, when she puts them in her mouth. #then you both survive and you go back home and nothing is real anymore. you have nothing. no family. no friends. no love. just an empty #house. a drunk for a neighbor. the love of your life walking into somebody else's arms. you think, i survived the games. i could survive #this. and you also think, i should've bit down on those berries, should've felt the juice burst before i died. #and then the third quarter quell announcement rings in your ears and you think, she will live and i will die as i should have in the first #place. the girl you love kisses you on the beach and somewhere you heart stirs and your mind revolts and you savor every touch she has ever #given to you, in front of the cameras and off. because you are a tribute and you are always being watched and snow's presence looms and #you think, i know she cares. but you get taken. you get drugged. you get tortured, your mind altered. the girl is a mutt, a murderer. she's #everything you despise, your mind stirs. your heart revolts. you gain more awareness but cannot distinguish reality from fiction and you #have never known katniss' love. the war ends. you heal. you come home. you plant primrose for her. years down the line, you grow in love #more than you thought possible. but some days, you cannot tell fiction from reality so you ask the love of your life, you love me. #real or not real? and she says, real, and kisses you. #and you sigh and kiss her back and revel in this. a home. a life. a love.]