I Do What I Want

29 ~ nerd ~ witch ~ disabled ~ writer ~ aroaceagender ~ they/them

[corpseprize]

the reality of being a writer

[ohwaitimthewriter]

Especially the last one!

[apologyacceptedcaptainneeda]

My brain is on fire

I can’t fucking do this

I’m so far outside my window of tolerance

[apologyacceptedcaptainneeda]

Y’all know harm reduction is a thing and yeah I’m definitely following harm reduction

[apologyacceptedcaptainneeda]

Well paranoia hit hard today

Apparently the people behind me in a store were there to steal my data and every car was following me and words are hard and why tf did I talk suddenly near silent ughhh

[apologyacceptedcaptainneeda]

a delusion it was supposed to be a delusion not real but here we are

[apologyacceptedcaptainneeda]

So at cmh they do an assessment every year and mine is improving! I started at an 18 last year I was at 17 and just today my assessment puts me at 16! Woo! Meaning I go from intensive care to one step down (but that was overridden bc of the hospital stay I literally just had) I’m so happy I’m making progress!

[apologyacceptedcaptainneeda]

I fuckin live!

Fresh pair of grippy socks ha ha

Don't let it get too far like i did

bc i was involuntary for a few days oops

[apologyacceptedcaptainneeda]

I may have acted with only my emotional mind and none of my logical mind, totally missed wise mind by a long way… oops

[apologyacceptedcaptainneeda]

Oh I fucked up

[schizogenic-sweethearts]

Friendly reminder from a schizospec person that if you use the word delulu in any context ever I will beat you up on sight because that’s what ableists who make fun of me and my community deserve

[hellhoundzzz]

mfs be like "I can handle your disorders" until your disorders disorder disorderly

[apologyacceptedcaptainneeda]

i'm super symptomatic and i'm not here for it

[apologyacceptedcaptainneeda]

i'm tired of people using the word delusional incorrectly

stop stigmatizing schizospec people

we struggle enough don't make it worse

[niightegoblingtyime]

AO3 and Tumblr can never go down for maintenance at the same time because there would be no one to watch their children (us, the users) and there’s too many of us to hire a babysitter

[summonademon]

When AO3 goes down, Tumblr gets emergency custody of the kids 😂

[noah-wyles]

[apologyacceptedcaptainneeda]

Oh no what happens if you lose your healthcare? What’re you going to do if you can’t afford it without medicaid?

It’s really simple actually. The solution is I die

[luftnarp-writes-things]

I saw a post going around a while ago (including from a non-US moot) about getting comfortable lying to law enforcement

Here's the thing. In the US.

DO NOT TALK TO LAW ENFORCEMENT IN THE FIRST PLACE.

If you are in a situation where you're lying to law enforcement, you are already interacting too much. STOP TALKING.

You can ask if you are free to go. You can keep asking.

Per the National Lawyers Guild, ESPECIALLY do not lie to the FBI. Do not say things to them that could be construed as lying. Those are serious charges. The best way around that is NOT TALKING.

In the words of the National Lawyers Guild: SHUT THE FUCK UP.

[baronmagikcarp]

I think of this, tryimg to lie and be clever, as main character behavior. You see movies and shows and read books and think some clever words will work. They won't.

Stop trying to be the main character. Don't talk.