Angel of Misery

Gig's Personal Blog. {34+ year old} A place to put all my thoughts.

[aquietnerd]

Golly, I didn't think my dumb memes about a goofy bad man would get me a community club invite. The first positive social experience in awhile, and it's because of a fictional man with questionable hobbies. 🤔

[aquietnerd]

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A lot of the writing I enjoy, characters I enjoy, tend to be kinda dark messed up villians. So I'm often very hesitant to talk about it, get passionate about it, because I worry about getting called out, mislabelled again, or just kinda perceived as a degenerative, rather as just some word loving dork that enjoys some good sexual tension and heart wrenching stuff between villian x heroes.

..So basically, I generally have to be asked about or told it's okay to enjoy fictional content this way before I really open up.

[aquietnerd]

I mean.. when I say 'make' transparents, I'm usually trying to find actual concept art or real images that the game-maker etc have made, cut out the background myself and throw several filters over the top to bring out colour and shadows.

I prefer the source material to work with, so I'm not altering or claiming someone else's hard work, or getting AI to spit out something I enjoy doing myself.

[aquietnerd]

You know it's a problem when I'm starting to make transparents. Bonus:

[chryza]

"its a game about dark web murder cults and drug traffickers playing a high stakes game with peoples' lives. Also you can put one of the serial killers in a maid dress." GOTY 2026 to ME!!!

his gay little outfits.

[cannibal-tango]

"Tanner was considered to be designed as an elderly man." OKAY.

[cannibal-tango]

"Tanner was considered to be designed as an elderly man." OKAY.

[aquietnerd]

To nobody's surprise, here is yet another disgusting fictional character with questionable characteristics that I like--

[madness-hat]

I tried ;;

[aquietnerd]

It's been kind of nice, drawing Alastor from Hazbin Hotel for a friends birthday.

Just getting familiar with all the details again. Finding things to love about him again, without all the suffocating fandom dramas and everyone's opinions and takes on things

[aquietnerd]

Admittingly, my social situation and the general mental health of self worth has not been in the healthy green positives lately.

[aquietnerd]

I quietly left. And I knew you wouldn't notice. Because you'd stopped noticing a long time ago. And it hurt, but I jnew it wasn't going to change in the ways I wanted.

The best thing I could do was acknowledge I cared so much, but I no longer served the same purpose I once did. Fandoms will change - and friends don't always last when the interests change.

I will always care and want you to do well, to be happy.

Even if I'm never a passing thought, I'm grateful for the time that I had

[aquietnerd]

I know I complain too much about it and that's why people leave eventually, but it is entirely depressing that I can spend whole days at a time where nobody talks to me, online or offline locally.

[aquietnerd]

I keep thinking. I'm a nice person. Caring, pretty funny. I'm a fairly decent person, just a little shy and closeted. But I'd be nice to be around.

So why do I keep sitting on my couch, losing track of time because I've got nowhere to be for anyone.why can't i make connections that wabt to talk with m3.

Im tiree of falling asle3p with my eyes hurting.

[aquietnerd]

The most ridiculous thkng about Fable is thinking you'd have to steal Reaver's underwear.

Like he wouldn't just give them to you if you paid a nominal fee. Or gave him yours in exchange.

[aquietnerd]

In the end, we're all in pursuit of happiness and meaning. Maybe that means branching put in ways you mightn't have wanted to.

But it's worth keeping on keeping on, to find the value you're searching for.