A Quiet Thought

[aquietthought]

Gawd, I eat food and a gain weight.

I don't eat any food, and I still gain weight.

Could my stupid body just pick a damn lane!! Gawd i hate my body and my damn weight issues so much!!!

[caseywond3r]

hey guys so apparently this is a thing a lot of people don't realise but like. if you have had writer's block/ art block for like. six months. a year. two years. that's maybe not a block. that's maybe depression. and you should maybe look into treating the source of the problem instead of just beating yourself up for not being able to write/draw. be kind to yourself and know that your struggle to create isn't based in laziness or a lack of skill or talent.

[luthfiufy]

still wondering tho

[aquietthought]

Screams into the void.

Why, why. Why won't my creativity just come back!! I miss creating. I miss drawing. I miss painting. I miss writing. I miss seeing the world in a creative outlook. I miss trying new things. I miss it...

please... please come back...

[aquietthought]

I feel like I'm doing something wrong...

What am I doing wrong....

Am I just that unlikable what did I do....

[tfw-adhd]

[aquietthought]

I truly can't tell if these thoughts are genuine

Or if their my brains way of trying ro be dramatic...

It doesn't feel the same way as last time... so am i just being dramatic or am i actually slipping i truly can't tell...

[sa-dnesss]

“I have been thinking about suicide a lot lately.”

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[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[sad-empty-lost]

I don’t get mad anymore, I just get really quiet. Why keep talking when nobody is really listening to you?

[sa-dnesss]

“I feel so fucking unimportant to you”

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[aquietthought]

I can't tell if it's depression or what, one minute I'm spiraling then the next it's fine.

Then it's back, then am i fine, then am i not, am i numb? Am i not okay whats going on

[idkhowifeel]

It’s so fucking exhausting fighting your brain every day dude

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[sad-empty-lost]

You know you’re fucked when……..you’ve accepted that your life will end by suicide, and you’re okay with it.

That is where I am right now.

[aquietthought]

Well I've made it over the 1 year mark (back in feb of 22 ) from when I was planning to 💀 myself

And I'm still here

Am I going to celebrate it

No

I've picked up many of the broken pieces but not all..

am I going to tell anyone about it....

Also no

Some times I want to. Just to tell someone why I was such a mess.

Why I cut everyone off, why I've been acting weird, why I haven't talked to anyone (not just because of work) why I'm more negative then usual..

But it won't matter...

Because no one will care

It will just be another excuse I say

And it won't matter...