The raw of this doujinshi has been around for a long time but no one translated this yet, so I decided to take the project! (No, I didn’t own the original djs. I found them on online dj reading site).
Title: Hate Me Love Me
Doujinka: arabicYAMATO
Rating: R18 (NSFW, contains rape scenes)
You can find it here.
I really found this story beautiful. If Misaki were to trust his heart more, things will surely get different.
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Btw, I did all by myself so pardon any weird phrasing and grammar mistakes. I plan to translate some of SaruMi DJs in the future, so if anyone interested in becoming proof-reader, please send me DM :)
was soo awesomely done, but.... I miss Uechan’s Misaki so much ;__; I just ... can’t take any other Yata Misaki. I’m sorry but I feel like I wasted my money on the DVD :/
...sigh, even though I really wish Anzai Shintarou reprise his role as Saruhiko, I still find the K Missing King stage acceptable.
It’s just, all the precious chemistry that has been build since Arousal of Kings and of course, Lost Small World, went ‘puff’ into the air.
I hope Uechan will be back for the (probably, last?) K stage adaptation.
So, I just found out that Yata and Fushimi have yet ANOTHER character song (besides Wild Crow and I Beg Your Hate) and Fushimi’s is the funniest damn thing I’ve heard in awhile. Everything about it is perfect. From the fact he doesn’t want to sing and it’s straining his voice, to the part where he cringes/laughs/voice cracks when he says “a skirt”, to the part where he fucking snaps and sings so perfectly. And when he’s glad it’s over, lmao. I like to think he’s singing with Yata in his mind (but Munakata wrote the lyrics), so when Fushimi says “skirt”, he imagines Yata in one and he loses it.
I really like this song :’) this also emphasize how Saruhiko really admire his Captain as King (he do whatever for Munakata! Even though he won’t admit it). Btw Misaki’s red cardigan on the waist do look like a skirt from behind, so ... well at least he safely sing the last half lol.
If Sarumi, post-ROKFushimi and Yata actually sit down and have a proper talk about whyFushimi left and what he was feeling. Fushimi keeps trying to evadeYata’s questions at first, trying to boil everything down to a simple‘I didn’t belong,’ but Yata hasn’t been trying this hard tounderstand Fushimi just to let him get away with half truths. Theytalk for hours instead, Fushimi haltingly putting his feelings intowords in a way he hasn’t for almost his entire life, and maybe hedoesn’t say everything – he can’t yet, can’t talk about thehallucinations of that man and about anthills set onfire, but he can talk about how it felt setting fire to his own skinand why he felt he had to do it, reasons and reasons and the more hetalks the more Yata wants to punch him and then hug him because youstupid idiot I was never going to leave you behind. In the endthey talk and they yell and they cry and they hug, and if they’reboth trembling in each other’s arms neither one mentions it.
If Sarumi, theymove in together afterward. Fushimi’s still got his room in theScepter 4 dorms, of course, but he’s spending less and less timethere – Munakata makes little comments about it here and there,that there’s not as much for Scepter 4 to do nowadays and Fushimidoesn’t need to overwork himself, he can have half days and shortdays and a commute would be easy. The more Yata meets Fushimi fordrinks after work and afternoons at the game center like old times,evenings at Yata’s cramped apartment for one with Yata making Fushimihealthy dinners and all but forcing the vegetables down his stupidstubborn throat because you need to eat healthier you stupidmonkey, look at you, you’re even skinnier than you used to be,the more Yata’s apartment seems too cramped and Fushimi’s dorm tooempty. Yata tries to sound cool and casual as he suggests it again, anew apartment together. He fails at the cool and casual and ends upsounding nervous and awkward instead. Fushimi nods anyway withouteven thinking about it, and the way Yata’s face lights up is enoughto keep him from regretting it.
If Sarumi, theymove in together and for weeks there are boxes in the living roombecause Fushimi’s still overworking himself and comes home too tiredto open them, and is too lazy on days off to bother. Yata refuses toopen Fushimi’s boxes and put stuff away because he knows howpicky Fushimi is about his things and I’m not putting your shitaway just so you can complain about where I put it Saruhiko. OneSaturday Yata finally grabs Fushimi by the shirt collar and says weare getting rid of these boxes Saruhiko even if I have to throw themthe fuck away. They end up finding a box of Yata’s that wasoverlooked, a bunch of memories from middle school – pictures andlittle keepsakes, a seashell Fushimi found that time Yata took him tothe beach and a torn ticket for an amusement park the day they wenttogether and it rained, and they both got soaked but had fun anyway,until Fushimi got a cold the next day and Yata skipped school to keepan eye on him. Yata laughs at some old story and spots Fushimilooking at him with this soft smile and a fond look in his eyes thatYata can’t ever remember seeing before. When he looks up to meetFushimi’s eyes Fushimi immediately clicks his tongue and looks away,but Yata doesn’t forget that smile.
If Sarumi, theirfirst kiss is over cheap takeout one night when it’s storming and thepower is out and Fushimi is complaining because his PDA is out ofcharge and who knows what work he could be getting done if only hecould use his laptop. Yata lights candles with his powers and Fushimiconsiders jumpstarting his PDA with his Green powers until Yataconvinces him to please not start an electrical fire just so you canstare at your stupid PDA all night Saruhiko. They share an order oftakeout, greasy noodles with meat, unhealthy in just the way Fushimilikes, and Yata slips him vegetables hoping Fushimi will mistake themfor meat in the poor lighting. Fushimi doesn’t, and pushes them backonto Yata’s plate when Yata’s not looking. They talk and tease eachother and Yata jumps at the sound of a particularly loud crack ofthunder and then denies is afterward, and neither one can say who wasthe first one to move in for the kiss but neither one complains aboutit either.
If Sarumi,sometimes things are good and sometimes things aren’t but they’vefigured out how to navigate it by now, Fushimi’s moods and Yata’stemper and the gaps of communication between them that are evernarrowing. Fushimi still lives on half truths and tongue clicks and ahovering uncertainty that he can’t entirely throw away, Yata stillhas moments of frustration and depression and wondering what anamazing guy like Fushimi sees in an idiot like him. They still work,even so, through anger and fights and then apologies and yelling ateach other through tears, laughing at their own stupidity, Fushimilooking annoyed and averting his eyes while Yata just smiles andshakes his head and leans against him. Fushimi’s burn heals and scarsproperly, and it almost doesn’t hurt either of them to look at itnow. They work out an understanding of things that have happened andthings that still happen, they learn to deal with each other’smoments of weakness and they still have each other’s backs, stillfight in perfect sync even after all this time, and there’s no oneeither of them would rather have at their back. It’s comfortable andit’s close and it’s good – not a small world but a larger one,stitched together from broken parts, and it’s better than either oneof them ever thought things would be, once upon a time on that daywhen everything broke, and they fixed it together.
Do y’all ever think about the shitty things that happen to Fushimi, because I fucking do and it hurts.
Was born to not just one, but TWO people, who are incapable of parental love.
When his father first laid eyes on baby Fushimi, he said he was an “ugly little monkey” and named him Saru as a result.
He was terrorized by his father and barely saw his mother, but when he did, she was cold and indifferent to him, not even treating him like her own son.
He grew up, not knowing love from a single parent, or anyone for that matter, until he meets Yata, who tries really, really fucking hard to befriend him, even though Fushimi is hesitant and distant at first, but then they warmed up towards each other and became inseparable.
Fushimi got sick stayed at home AND HIS HOUSE ACTUALLY GOT FUCKING BROKEN INTO WHILE HE WAS HOME ALONE AND HIS PARENTS WERE LIKE “not like we have anything important out”, NOT CARING AT ALL ABOUT THEIR SON’S FRIGGING SAFETY, OH MY GOD.
When Yata visited sick Fushimi, his piece of shit father threatened to put bugs into Yata’s mouth, to lure Fushimi out, which made a really ill Fushimi stumble out of his room and push Yata outside to protect him from the shit for brains.
They join HOMRA and THEN all of Yata’s attention is on Mikoto, instead of Fushimi, so Fushimi thinks he’s being replaced by the Red King. So, he’s extremely jealous and betrays Yata, without so much as telling him why.
IN ONE RADIO DRAMA, HE ACTUALLY SAID THAT IF YATA HAD SWITCHED TO SCEPTER 4 AND BETRAYED HOMRA, HE WOULD HAVE FOLLOWED.
He childishly taunts Yata JUST to get the boy’s attention. He absolutely hates the idea of fading into the background of Yata’s life, and would rather have his best friend fucking hate him (and have Yata treat him like an enemy so SOME form of attention would be on him) than get no attention at all from him.
I think out of all the K characters, he needs a hug the most. Then probably Anna, Shiro, and Yata.
“… even if Fushimi won’t come back to us, it’d be good if you two could talk one day.. with Yata in the place he belongs to and Fushimi in the place he belongs to..” – Totsuka Tatara
This last scene really broke my heart everytime I watched it! It has such a deep meaning and then I saw Ue-chan crying again and then I remember those Tatara’s words to Misaki and then that last song being played again and then.. aaaaaa I JUST CAN’T STOP CRYING (༎ຶ ෴ ༎ຶ) why
So, finally I got Kuroquis's recent dj 💕 (yaay for Tsukki's new glasses. オシャレ!)
"If you ended up get hurt no matter you're together or not, ... then it's way better to get hurt together. ... It's better to be in a romantic way!"
I like it's realism touches, and the bitter-sweet tastes overall.
Anyway, I really love the recent mellow feelings on Kuroquis's KuroTsuki works, just like 7 Years and Vow, and Melancholy Wednesday, maybe. I am hoping for a new bundle work someday for these titles.
And for those who wonder, don't worry, despite a bit heavy-themed, the smuts are hell awesome as always.
I know this is a bit late, but, Happy (unofficial) Anniversary Hyoutei D1 (June 11th) <3
This year is special since we’ll also get Best Games OVA, which will feature awesome remake of Hyoutei D1 precious match. I CAN’T HARDLY WAIT to get my copy of the DVD next week >/////<
Btw, this is a translation from Kusuda-san’s Twitter on that day:
Today 6/11 is Hyotei D1 Anniversary (unofficial -laugh-)!
Also, “W-raibow” has reached its 10th Anniversary this year!
Along with “Brandnew Days” and “Bring it on!”, from now on also, please kindly take care of us!
Shishido-san is the best 💕 Thank you so much for the awesome Best Festa.
Seems like today’s solo is [愛してるぜ！]. It’s a shame I couldn’t watch it live. But yesterday stuff is more than enough for me. Gonna patiently waiting for the DVD to come out later.
For now, I am preparing my heart for Best Games OVA 2 with Hyotei D1 match! 💕💕
